Christened With Crosses: Notes Taken on My Knees
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Christened with Crosses is the unforgettable story of a young boy’s dangerous, adventure-filled westbound journey along the railways of postwar Russia. Based on a true story of Kochergin’s amazing life, this book depicts the awakening of artistic talent under highly unusual Russian circumstances. It is the memoir of an old man who, as a boy, learnt to find his way between extortionate state control and marauding banditry, the two poles that characterize Russia to this day.
Orphaned when his parents are taken away as “enemies of the people”, young Stepanych finds himself a ward of the Soviet state. He is miraculously rescued from a government orphanage in Nazi-besieged Leningrad, only to be placed in another children’s institution in Siberia—a place of Dickensian attributes, where the leaders earn nicknames like Toad and Screwface, and where the young inmates are able to live their own lives only in secret, by night. Desperately longing for his native city and his Polish mother, Bronya, Stepanych flees the orphanage soon after the end of World War II.
The eight year old boy secretly jumps on board the trains heading west, towards Leningrad. It is not only his desperate courage and his youthful agility that ensure his survival, it is also his artistic talent. With his agile fingers the boy is able to bend wire in the shape of profiles of Lenin and Stalin, as if in silhouette. He uses them to cheer up the invalid war veterans on the train stations returning from the front, who then give him a piece of bread, a bowl of soup and who, in a spirit of comradeship, warn him of the railway police and the secret service henchmen wanting to send the runaway back to the orphanage. Eduard spends more than six years on the run, experiencing close encounters with post-war Russia where life and fate have become synonyms.
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Translated by Simon Patterson with Nina Chordas,
Edited by Nina Chordas,
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Eduard Kochergin
Edward Kochergin was born in 1937, at the height of Stalin’s repression. He was separated from his parents as a small child. They were arrested under false charges of being foreign spies. The boy was sent to Siberia to an orphanage for children of “public enemies”. Some time later he escaped from the orphanage. It took him 6 years to reach St. Petersburg. He returned to his native city and, as if by a miracle, found his mother who had spent ten years in prison. The boy had survived only because he could make tattoos and bend wire in the shape of Soviet leaders’ profiles. It was only later, after studying at the academy of arts, that he was able to turn his artistic talent into his profession. Kochergin went on to become an internationally acclaimed stage and set designer and is currently the head of stage design at the Bolshoi Dramaticheski Teatr (Tovstonogov Theater) in St. Petersburg.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I won a copy of this book through early reviewers on Library Thing and I'm happy I was able to read this interesting story... Held my attention throughout.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5When Eduard Kochergin was a very young boy (only 2 or 3 years old) his mother was sent to jail in Russia as a spy. His father had suffered a similar fate before Eduard was even born. For a while he and his brother Felix were looked after by a godfather but then they were put into state orphanages. That's where they were when the Second World War started. Felix was put in a mental home and died soon after. Eduard was spirited away from an orphanage in besieged Leningrad and taken to one in Siberia. This may have saved his life since he was young and frail and may have died before the city was freed. However, it put him thousands of miles away from his birthplace where his parents would probably return. When the war was over Eduard decided to return to Leningrad and he ran away from the orphanage. It took him 6 years but he did get back there and he was reunited with his mother. Considering Eduard was only about 8 when he first went out on his own it is simply amazing that he survived and made his way. He was a naturally gifted artist and made wire portraits of the "Leaders" (Stalin and Lenin) as well as packs of cards to earn food. He also picked up other skills like making fires, tattooing, opening doors which helped him. When cold weather came he would give himself up to authorities and spend the winter in another orphanage. He made friends with a few boys his age and was also helped by adults (many of whom didn't have much themselves). He was truly a survivor. He is now a renowned stage and set designer in St. Petersburg so the skills he used on the long road home have become his way of life.He is quite the inspiration.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Reason for Reading: I enjoy this time period in history and am very interested in people who survived or escaped the evils of Communism.This is the author's story of his childhood from when he was about 6 to 12. He starts in an orphanage in Siberia, escapes and spends the intervening years making his way across the country to his hometown of St. Petersburg (Leningrad) where he hopes to find his mother who was imprisoned during the war as a public enemy. At first I had thought this was going to be a Christian book because of the title but it is in no form that way inclined. The author explains in a brief foreword about his title ending with "The expression is capacious and ambiguous." The author is Polish Roman Catholic but that has little to do with the tale except for some cultural differences between him and the Russians. I was a little disappointed at first, since I'd been expecting a Christian tale, but it had no affects on my enjoyment of the story.Of course the author had a rough and tough childhood with the worst of it being in the orphanages he stayed. The one in Siberia being the worst of the worst; where the children were treated inhumanely. A good portion of the beginning is dedicated to this time of his life and here we find the reminiscences of an old man remembering when he was six to be vague. Rather than telling a story, the book starts off with vignettes and assorted remembrances that may or may not be in chronological order. I found this part of the book slow and thus hard to get into. However once he escapes and grows a bit the story starts to take on more coherence and reads more like a book, rather than snippets. He spends the summers traveling the rails, meeting up with all kinds of people, some good, some bad and he learns survival skills from some while learning trades from others. Already good at drawing he became a skilled artist, drawing decks of cards, shaping the two leaders out of wire, learnt to paint from a Chinese man and learnt the Japanese method of tattooing. These skills would forever keep him just beyond starvation over the years. He meets fellow orphan (or half) travellers like himself along the way making good friends. Some of them have happy endings to their stories, others do not. But overshadowing the whole journey is the fear and terror of the communist soldiers, guards, inspectors, government officials; who if they found him illegally riding the trains could easily send him back to Siberia and make his journey for nought. In the winters he would find a city orphanage to report too, tell them the truth about the last orphanage he was at and where he was headed and he would be put up. He'd be warm and half-way fed, possibly beat, but sometimes educated and then come spring he'd hit the rails again.An interesting story of a life that so many must have lived at that time. So many families were torn apart by communism and the struggle of the littlest ones trying to find their way back home to someone who loves them is a heart-rending read.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5This book draws a fascinating picture of post-WWII Russia. The country is still suffering from all the devastations caused by the war and lots op people are adrift: soldiers moving form one front to another or back home, civilians trying to find loved ones and rebuilding their cities and homes. And in the midst of this the young Eduard Kochergin tries to find his way back to his mother. Jumping on and off trains en trying to stay out of the hands of the police, he moves form orphanage to orphanage across Russia. During his travels, he gives a picture of various populations in Russia. He makes friends on his way but also meets a lot of enemies. More than once he escapes miraculously from imprisonment, accidents or worse. One can not help but think of all the people he meets on his way and that are less gifted than him or less lucky. So much suffering in those years: even after the nazi's were defeated there was a lack of freedom because of Stalin. Kochergin describes what the influence was of Stalin's control on the lives of ordinary people.Thes memoirs are adventurous and moving at the same time, shining the light on a period of time and people in that time that are not often written about. In it are pictures of those people: the homecoming of wounded soldiers, the craftsmen in small Siberian villages, the people on trains. Well written and a pleasure to read.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5'Christened With Crosses' is an excellent memoir retelling the story of Eduard's youth. Spanning WW2 Eastern Europe and Russia this resilient tale covers his difficult journey back home from an orphanage in Siberia."Lacking even basic means to sustain himself, the boy exhibits the type of resourcefulness and inner strength that allow him to triumph over peril and hardship. And most of all, this future artist hones the observant eye that will later enable him to vividly recount for his readers those several years of his long, obstacle-filled journey home..."Courageous and daring, this award winning tale was recently translated into to English and I am glad I got to share Eduard Kochergin's experiences.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I won this book through Librarything Early Reviewers.This was an inspirational book, such a brave and moving story. It’s so easy to forget about other groups of people affected by WWII and that’s what makes memoirs like this so incredible.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I won this book through Librarything Early Reviewers.This was an inspirational book, such a brave and moving story. It’s so easy to forget about other groups of people affected by WWII and that’s what makes memoirs like this so incredible.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I won this book through Librarything Early Reviewers.This was an inspirational book, such a brave and moving story. It’s so easy to forget about other groups of people affected by WWII and that’s what makes memoirs like this so incredible.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5It is always humbling experience to read about the struggle of someone elses life, especially when that struggle happens to a child. The resilience this man displayed as a young boy was inspiring. I enjoyed this book more and more as it went along because I felt like I was getting to know and care for this young boy. It is interesting to note that situations that we would consider to be abusive and inhumane today were just an accepted and unchallenged way of life in that time and place. I also enjoyed the writing style of small topical sections. I think it helped to keep the reader moving through the story.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Eduard Stepanovich Kochergin was born in 1937 and lived in Leningrad/St Petersburg, that is until he was taken away to spend his childhood in state orphanages. But his one aim is to get back to St Petersburg and to be re-united with his mother. This is an account of his long trek from Siberia over several years to that end. It is not, and does not claim to be a continuous record, but is rather a series of recollections based on the author's notes take as and when he could, and as a child.Although initially a little uninspiring (more about that below), one is soon drawn in, and it proves to be a fascinating and at times very moving account, and reveals a very resourceful, creative and determined boy as Stepanych lives on his wits through the summer months and then come the autumn hands himself over to the authorities to spend the cold winters in the local orphanage, ready to escape the following spring and repeat the process many times. Once on his travels he survives on his resources, earning his daily rations trough his artistic talents, or by working for others including spell conscripted by a band of train burglars. a€long the way he makes some friends, experiences moments of happiness but also faces tragedies.My one reservation regarding Christened With Crosses is I think probably due to the translation, I felt it failed to convey any flavour of mid-20th Century Russia, the language used seems to set the account in the West and in the present day. I was frequently left wondering how the young Stepanych really would have expressed himself. Of course once fully absorbed in the account it is easier to overlook this, but I wonder how much more compelling it would have been had the translation been more convincing.
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Christened With Crosses - Eduard Kochergin
Eduard Kochergin
Christened With Crosses
Notes taken on my knees
Glagoslav Publications
The publication was effected under the auspices of the Mikhail Prokhorov Foundation TRANSCRIPT
Programme to Support Translations
of Russian Literature.
Christened With Crosses:
notes taken on my knees
By Eduard Kochergin
First published in Russian as
Kreschenie Krestami
Translated by Simon Patterson
with Nina Chordas
Edited by Nina Chordas
© Eduard Kochergin 2009
Represented by www.nibbe-wiedling.com
© 2012, Glagoslav Publications, United Kingdom
Glagoslav Publications Ltd
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ISBN: 978-1-909156-15-9
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Contents
FOREWORD
BRONISLAVA ODYNYETS
EPIGRAPH
MOTHER BRONYA, TAKE ME ON AS A SPY
PART 1: PIPSQUEAK WARD
THE BALLAD OF THE WOODEN PLANE
STATE HOUSE
OF THE TOAD AND SERVANTS
A SEPARATE PARAGRAPH ABOUT FOUR-EYES
AUNTIE MASHKA AND UNCLE THEMIS
MASHKA, NYUSHKA AND PENCILS
ABOUT THE BATH-HOUSE
ABOUT MYSELF AND TOYS
ORPHANAGE GAMES
ON COCKROACHES
PIPSQUEAK WARD
THE VICTORY PAINTING
WHAT WE SCOFFED, GOBBLED AND GUZZLED
ON ICECREAM AND YEPTON, THE GOD OF WINTER
FESTIVE FRINGE
BERIA’S GIFT
PART 2: WIRE LEADERS
THE BRONZE HORSEMAN
PICTURES OF MEMORY
MOTHER OF GOD…
THE FIRST RATION
ESCAPE FROM THE BLACK RASPBERRY
AN INHERITANCE FROM A THIEF
MY FRIEND MITYAI
MONSTERS
BATS
ALLOWED – NOT ALLOWED
FOREST WOLVES
KAZAKHS
THE CHILDREN OF ARTILLERYMEN
THE COP
CHELYABINSK ORPHANAGE
KNOWLEDGE IS LIGHT, IGNORANCE IS DARKNESS
THE HEADMISTRESS OF THE SCHOOL
THE LEDGER
GERMAN ALIENS
THE DEATH OF MITYAI
PART 3: CHRISTENED BY CROSSES
ESCAPE AGAIN
STATE GOODS
THE CHINESE MAN
MOLOTOV-PERM
BUTTNIK AND PERMOPIG
STREAMING FLAGS
HER NAME WAS MARIA
JAPANAMOTHER
EMPTY HANDED
THE SCHOOL OF THE TRAIN THIEF
WORK CONDITIONS
HOW WE WORKED
NORTHBOUND
LAMPIUS
PARASKEVA
DRINK YOUR BEER, WIPE YOUR SNOUT…
THE CAPITAL OF DRUNKS
YEVDOKIA OF SHANGALY
HALT, STEAMER! SILENCE, WHEELS!
VOLOGDA TRAIN THIEVES
THE ORPHANAGE OF CHORAL SINGING
DOWN AND OUT IN CHEREPOVETS
RIDING THE SHELLS
OLD TYDRUKU
THE KOLONTAI COLONY
URITSKY SQUARE
Foreword
In order to spare my readers vexatious questions regarding the title and subtitle of my tale, I will first explain the second inscription, that is, the subtitle.
First, all events were written down haphazardly, on my knees, in tiny notebooks, in random places, wherever life found me and whenever there chanced to be a rare moment not occupied with the primary work of drawing.
Second, these are notes about a time when the system had the whole country on its knees.
Third, these are the fragmentary remembrances of a kid who got to live to the tune of triumphant marches in a rampant Soviet state orphanage ministry with all its grim claptrap, as did many other young guinea pigs, for a significant number of years.
Notwithstanding, these are simply notes, with no pretensions toward philosophical, sociological, or any other elevated conclusions. These are notes taken on my knees.
Christened with crosses
is an old expression of former inmates of Russian prisons built on the cruciform plan of the original, infamous Kresty (Crosses) prison in St. Petersburg. It was a term employed by incarcerated denizens of the criminal underworld, whose neighbors during the Stalin years included political prisoners. The expression is capacious and ambiguous.
Bronislava Odynyets
Chita, 1921
To the memory of Mother Bronya,
Bronislava Odynyets
MOTHER BRONYA, TAKE ME ON AS A SPY
The first conscious memory in my life is linked with the ceiling, Maybe I was ill frequently, or there was some other reason …
I was born out of fear: my father Stepan was arrested for involvement in cybernetics, and my mother gave birth to me two months early.
I liked to lie in bed and travel, looking at the three-layered ornate cornice that decorated the high ceiling in my room. I could look at its fantastic curves for hours, with their strange stems and leaves, and in my mind I would travel along the winding spaces between them, as if through a labyrinth, and if the weather was bad outside, I could hide under the largest of them. At times when it was light, and especially when the sun was shining, I would happily swim over the surface of the ceiling into its center, to the rich baroque rosette, and along the old chandelier with three angels, each of which held three candle-holders with lamps, and I would sink down, tired, back to my bed.
My second memory is linked with baptism and the Catholic Church on Nevsky Prospekt. All of my senses already take part in this memory. That is to say, I don’t understand what is happing, but I absorb what is going on. The priest is doing something with me, boys in white are swinging and pouring smoke from shiny metal toys that look like Christmas decorations. There is a lot of white, a great deal of white – clothes, flowers, light. The smell of smoke is unfamiliar and distant, and it seems to me that everyone is in a bit of a hurry, and that there is something unnaturally anxious about all of this. I usually smile a lot, even suspiciously so for my mother Bronya, but I am not smiling.
I also remember the steps that lead to the church. This was my first ordeal in life (after all, I don’t remember my father’s arrest). For some reason I was forced to walk up them myself – with enormous difficulty, however I could: with my legs, on my knees, with the help of my hands, by rolling up them… I was very young at that time, evidently.
This was the first social entrance in my life, the first theater in my life, the first light in my life, the first music, and the first, still unrecognized love. If this hadn’t been in my memory, then my fate would probably have been different.
It was 1939 when I finally started to talk. I started talking in late autumn, and only in Polish. For Mother Bronya was a Pole, and my Russian father was in prison at the Big House. Before that I only smiled when people tried to talk to me, and in general I smiled more than I needed to. I sat there, smeared in everything imaginable, and smiled… And suddenly I started talking, and I said quite a lot. Mother Bronya, of course, was happy, and even organized a Polish meal: with lentils, carrots, and guests.
The next morning they came for her. First the janitor Faina, a Tatar, came into the corridor, and then came a polite military man with a cardboard folder, and someone after him. The polite military man asked her surname and Christian name, and asked several times whether she was Polish, and the others began to rifle through her things, the tables and beds. I tried to tell them that we did not have any bedbugs, but I lisped, and spoke in Polish. Mother asked Faina to call Janek from the first floor, so that he could take me. When Janek arrived, Bronya blessed me with the Mother of God and kissed me. Felya, my elder brother, sat by the window on a chair the whole time and silently rocked back and forth. He was already strange by then.
Faina, the Tatar, took pity on me, a premature child, and gave me to the Poles on the first floor for safe-keeping
. She soon also brought Felya, who was very upset: he hadn’t been taken to the Big House, and was told that we were too young to be spies, but would later be sent to some orphanage.
Yes, I was very young. With my Godfather Yanek, a Polish cabinet maker, I travelled under many tables, couches and bunks, and closely studied everything under tables and sundry other underneaths
, and once in one cranny under a table I found something that was hidden from everyone, and was punished for it.
I must say that I liked Yanek’s profession of cabinetmaker. I especially liked the wood shavings. They looked wonderful, and smelt delicious. I even tried to eat them.
I also remember Felya, after he was injured from beatings at school for his father being a spy, standing by Janek’s large geographical map, running his finger along it and trying to find where our father and Mother Bronya had been taken. Since that time I have always felt a certain hostility towards school. Janek said that our father and mother had been taken to the Big House.
What was this house? And why were spies taken there?
I imagined that in a dense forest with super tall trees, like in the fairytale of Tom Thumb
, the Big House stood, and inside it lived brothers and sisters, who were spies. And what spying was, no one knew except them. This was a big secret. And this was why the forest was dense, and the house was Big. And little kids like me weren’t taken there, but I still wanted to go. I was left all alone, as my brother Felya died in a madhouse from pneumonia.
I was sent to a state house, and since that time my life became a part of the state. My ignorance of Russian forced me to keep silent again, as my Polish lisping irritated my class mates, and was dangerous for me: they thought that I was mocking them, and I became dumb again for a long time. We were moved from city to city, from west to east, away from the war, and I ended up in Siberia, near the city of Omsk. All the talking boys around me shouted loudly in Russian and even – so that I would understand – swore, and sometimes fought with me:
What are you hissing for, snake, speak Russian!
So I learned Russian, and didn’t speak at all until I was four and a half. I agreed with everyone, but didn’t say anything, acting like Mu-Mu
, pretending to be a mute¹. I started speaking Russian unexpectedly even for myself during the war.
1 Mute like the deaf-mute master of the dog Mu-Mu in the famous Turgenev story of the same name.
We were fed from mugs – there weren’t any plates. There were only metal mugs and spoons. Six people sat at a table – six mugs, and a seventh mug with bread cut into strips that stuck out of it vertically. Soup, then the main course, if there was one, and tea – all from the same mug. And this was considered normal. They let us into the dining hall when all the mugs were on the table, and until then, a horde of hungry boys crowded around the door. The doors were opened, and like animals we rushed to our mugs. Once, a pimpled, sniveling fly-by
, or outsider, was put at our table, and this boy, who ate faster than all of us, unexpectedly licked his dirty finger in front of everyone, and began dipping it in all our mugs. And suddenly I said something loudly in Russian – I didn’t understand it myself, but it was something to do with his mother. The dirty boy froze in astonishment, and the rest were afraid: I didn’t talk, after all, I was deaf-mute – and suddenly I started talking, and quite impressively. Since then I spoke Russian and gradually forgot my first language.
But I’ve become distracted from the most important thing, what worried us orphans of the NKVD (People’s Commissariat of Internal Affairs) at the time, and the problems that we solved among ourselves:
Can leaders be people, or do they have to be only leaders, and do they have to have whiskers?
Who’s better: a spy or an enemy of the people? Or is it all the same? In any event, we’re all together here.
When boys met for the first time, they asked:
Are you a spy?
No, I’m an enemy of the people.
But what if you’re both at the same time, like me for example ?
And also:
Why is comrade Lenin a grandfather? He didn’t have grandchildren, after all. Maybe because he has a beard, or because he’s dead?
Comrade Stalin is the friend of all children. So that’s means he’s our friend too?
Our eldest boy couldn’t stand it any longer, and asked the teacher about Stalin. First she got very scared, and then grabbed him by the collar and dragged him to the guard on duty – we heard him crying loudly there. And there were many, many more questions.
I personally believed that spying was not such a bad thing. My Russian father Stepan couldn’t have been bad. He was very fine and handsome – look at the photograph. And my dear mother gently sang me lullabies: Sleep, my darling child, God protect your sleep…
, or:
Z popielnika na Edwasia
Iskiereczka mruga,
Chodź! Opowiem ci bajeczkę,
Bajka będzie długa².
2 A spark out of the ash-box
Winks at Eduard.
Come! I’ll tell a story
The story will be long. (Polish)
O Mother Bronya, take me on as a spy. I’ll talk to you in Polish.
Part 1: PIPSQUEAK WARD
I’m not Mama’s son,
I’m not Papa’s son.
I grew on a fir tree,
The wind carried me down…
(Orphan folklore)
THE BALLAD OF THE WOODEN PLANE
I can’t remember how I ended up in the orphanage right before the war. My Godfather uncle Janek took me there. Or perhaps I was taken away from him. I don’t remember how the war began either. I remember that all of us little mites, as the adults called us, suddenly started playing at war. The other kids made me, who lisped and barely understood Russian, along with two others, a red-headed Tatar and a second large-eyed, black-haired mite – Blackie – into Germans. We were attacked every day, and we surrendered. We were led around the rooms with our hands up, like enemies, and then, shot one by one, we were made to lie on the floor for a long time. I didn’t like the game very much.
I remember how the portions of breakfast, lunch and dinner became smaller. And when it got cold and the snow started falling, the kids stopped playing at war.
Then something strange happened. In winter, some enormous Gulliver-like guys came to the orphanage in quilted jackets and earflap hats, and swiftly took away the nine most emaciated boys, four or five-year-old mites. The men had us lined up against the wall, examined us attentively, and ordered the teachers to dress us quickly in the warmest clothes. They hastily put clothes of various sizes on us and gave each of us a heavy woolen blanket. Then, dressed, we went downstairs and out of the building, where a large rumbling bus stood waiting. Two of the guys lifted us up into it in turns. There were a few more adults in the bus in quilted jackets and earflap hats. On the first two seats, seven boys were sat down, and the wall-eyed Snotty and I, the last in line, sat among the guys on the back seat. To my right sat the senior Gulliver. He was in charge of everyone, and everyone obeyed him.
Winter that year was early, snowy and very cold. The entire city was covered in snow. The mounds of snow by the road sides were three times taller than me. None of us knew where the bus was going. When a boy nicknamed Stinky asked where we were being taken, the guy in charge replied:
To the plane.
To the plane? That’s great! So we’ll fly in the air!
we said happily.
Yes, you’ll certainly fly! You’ll fly over Lake Ladoga.
We drove through the city for a long time, slowly, without stopping anywhere, even after the sirens howled and the bombing began. It was starting to get dark when we drove out of the city into an enormous snowy expanse, which was crossed only by our road. Suddenly the guys started to get anxious, and the drone of a plane could be heard. The driver increased his speed, we began to be shaken around and thrown from side to side, especially on the back seat. The road turned out to be broken up under the snow. The drone of the plane approached.
It’s a ‘Messer’
the driver said. It’s going to follow us.
Put the children on the floor under the seats right now!
my neighbor ordered, and as soon as