Making Your Own Reality: a Survival Story
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Making Your Own Reality is a collection of the experiences that guided James Meade, Jr. from being an animal-like survivor of a massive brain injury to being a Ph.D in Psychology and an internationally-known speaker who has shared with audiences around the United States and the world. Dr. Meade has worked with brain-injured individuals and their families around the world and has seen people create miracles that even other professionals thought could never happen. Dr. Meade does not cure people but has watched people make their own miracles. Much of what he writes describes what he has experienced and seen changed his own life and the lives of others.
Al Sibert, Ph.D, the author of The Survivor Personality, who wrote that Dr. James P. Meade, Jr., is a man who KNOWS what this is all about.
James P. Meade Jr. PhD
Jim Meade, Jr. ceased to exist on May 8, 1967 and James Meade, Jr. was born 10 weeks later. The helicopter crashed and destroyed the memory of the first 19 years of his life. The doctors expected him to die but he lived to help millions of people around the United States and the world.
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Making Your Own Reality - James P. Meade Jr. PhD
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WestBow Press rev. date: 05/29/2013
TABLE OF CONTENTS
Introducing Myself
Second Corinthians 1:4
Jim Meade Died, And James Meade Was Born
Miracle Workers
Three Times In Less Than Three Months
The Product Of Everything Done
Chapter 1 Some Information About Brain Injuries
A Man Who Knows
The Four Main Types Of Brain Injuries
Degrees Of Severity
Mild
Moderate
Severe
Catastrophic
My Theory
Mother
Chapter 2
Introducing Myself
My Three Weeks Home
The Man Who Fell To Earth
Wilma
Being Home
My Little Brother David
The Greyhound Bus Station
The Real Battle
Jeanine
Tools
The People
The Rubber Ball
Taking It Back
Rewiring
The Warning
The Riot Act
Facing Reality
It Made Perfect Sense
Hallucinogenic Motivation
Mind Work
Chapter 3
Reborn
Coordination
Steven Grace
Chapter 4
The Process Of Parts
Cspp
Dad’s Letter
Recovery Is Always In Parts
Chapter 5
Reentering The World: The Beginning Of My Life
Not One Answer
Creating Worlds
Portland State University And Speech Development
My Psychological Defenses
Graduate School And Hunt-Wesson Foods
International College
Sierra Meadows Convalescent Hospital
What A Difference
Time Creates Limits
Chapter 6
Wgsq
Being Unique And Not Alone
Making A Reality
The Brain Healing Itself
Imagery Therapy
My Fantastic Mother
You Should Know
Patients
Advice Given
Dnipropetrovsk State University
Economic Union Of Ukraine
Backtracking
The Center Of The World
The Perfect Product
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
From A Pilot To An Animal To A Phd—Some History
Chapter 9
How It Was Explained To Me
Wipe Out
Beginning Again
Social Rules
Failure Is Not Necessarily A Loss
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Are Dreams Important?
What Does Persevering Have To Do With Success?
The Highest Standards
Team Players
Being Average
Striving To Always Do Better
Appendix 1
Readers Digest Magazine, Dec 1970, The Long Return of Warrant Officer Meade
Appendix 2
This book is dedicated to all the wonderful Miracle Workers who have always been there for me when I needed them most, especially my loving parents, James Meade, Sr. and Christine (Williams) Boyed, and my wonderful sister, Judi Lincoln, and my fantastic brothers, Leon Squeak
, David and Timothy Meade.
INTRODUCING MYSELF
Second Corinthians 1:4
B EFORE SHE DIED OF CANCER, my previous wife, Marie-Louise, who earned her PhD in clinical psychology in 1980 four years before I did, and I would often discuss what might have caused me to evolve from snorting, growling, and grabbing at people to what I am today, which no one who sees me or meets me can even imagine. Why me? I ask myself. Why am I so blessed?
In 2 Corinthians 1:4, I feel that I am being told that God comforted me in my tribulation
so I can help others who are suffering from their own tribulations. Of all the other reasons I have read or heard, this certainly makes the most sense. I am not singled out. God used many people to help me overcome my injuries—especially my parents and my siblings, Leon (Squeak
), David, Judi, and Tim—and I feel an obligation to help others as a reason for my existence. A team around me was created to comfort and help people in need.
It is that simple, and nothing has been more important to me since the day I realized that I could have no better reason for being alive. In my heart, I know that God has blessed me more than I have the words to describe, and he continues to bless me every day of my life.
I am a firm believer that God has a plan for my life and all our lives. I do not pretend to know what God is or where God is, but I feel comfortable with the idea that every behavior has a consequence that is a response to a behavior, which in turn is a consequence of that response, which in turn … and so on.
At the same time, I believe that God uses other people to guide us and help us be as perfect as we are willing to attempt to be. In the Bible, the disciple Matthew instructs us, Be ye perfect as God is perfect,
which I interpret to mean that I am to keep trying to be the best I can be.
This does not mean that I will ever be perfect, only that God is willing to be with me in all my efforts to better myself. No, I will never be perfect, but in my heart, I know that God will help me find whomever or whatever I will need to be as perfect as I can ever be, a better or more capable person than I am right now. When my efforts fall short of what they need to be, I am equally convinced in my heart that God will continue to help me until I reach the mark.
Jim Meade Died, and James Meade Was Born
SOMETIMES WHEN I WAS SCARED, confused, and simply did not know how to move on, there were more people than I could count who were willing to offer me the unconditional kindness and guidance I needed, also fostering my determination to keep pushing on. Whatever the reality of God is, I feel that God directed these helpers.
I firmly believe that most of us have been blessed to meet people who always seem to be willing to help other people whenever they are asked or it becomes clear that their help is needed.
According to Richard Dawkins, Miracles, by definition, violate the principles of science.
Over the years, thousands of people have made a point to write to me, call me, or tell me in face-to-face meetings that I am a true miracle. This is humbling, and I think this is also an issue that deserves to be discussed.
I recently read an article in the Jehovah’s Witness publication The Watchtower, which I feel I gain from reading, even if I am a devote Episcopalian/Catholic. The title of the article was Miracles: Do They Really Happen?
One section was Common Objections Concerning Miracles.
The doctors who treated me after I crashed made it as obvious as they legally felt they could that I was either going to die or be a vegetable for the rest of my life. Obviously, my surviving after being struck in the head by the helicopter rotor blade that hit me so violently that it also knocked over my pilot’s seat that was bolted to the floor seemed impossible. Thus we could say that James Meade died, and James Meade was born ten weeks later, a new life that had to learn everything that Jim Meade had learned in nineteen years.
Everyone I have ever talked to has told me that it was a miracle
that I lived. I am fairly sure that some, maybe many, people are also convinced that the laws of nature must be responsible for my living as a functional human being. This theory does not have to disclaim the reality of God.
Whatever anyone chooses to believe can be both logically validated and disputed. More important is the reality that God uses other people to perform what we choose to call miracles, and these people are the miracle makers.
Miracle Workers
THE DOCTORS WHO WERE RESPONSIBLE for me decided to have me transferred to the amputee ward so I could be with eighteen-, nineteen-, and twenty-year-old combat veterans who were continually active and had been brought to hospitals from battlefields via helicopters. Dr. Marx (not his real name) told my parents that the men in ward 13 would probably do more to help me want to live than he ever could do.
The men in ward 13 attempted to stimulate me to consciousness constantly during the week, and Kathy (my first wife), her mother, my parents, and my brothers and sister were with me every weekend. My doctors, nurses, and medics were there to help me twenty-four hours a day. My physical therapy nurse and ward nurse helped hold all the pieces of my hospital existence together.
This may sound somewhat strange, but I know that if I had been injured anywhere else, I probably would have died, for I know that God used these people to be there for me. My left leg and right foot were almost torn off, and my brain was scrambled. I started my new life in a body cast and could not see down the side of my bed. If it were not for all those miracle workers, I never would have found out that up was not down and that some people have legs. My life was my ward mates floating around the ward and landing on my bed without legs, and I could not see down to know that some people who came to my hospital bed actually had legs.
One of the significant symptoms of a traumatic brain injury is that the victim simply does not know what he does not know. I did not know that people had legs, because I had never seen legs, at least that I could remember, and I could not feel my own. I could not save myself, because I did not know anything!
I am not a miracle. It is the miracle workers God made who saved my life, and I have dedicated my life to being a miracle worker for other people whom God has chosen me to help in whatever way I possibly can.
In my heart, I know there are miracles, for I have met too many miracle workers to think otherwise. I am truly blessed that God has chosen to help me be the person I did not know how to become on my own.
Three Times in Less Than Three Months
SOME PEOPLE MIGHT ASK ME how I know that God will help people in times of need. My answer always is that my faith is a product of what I have seen. I have had patients who have learned to do things that their doctors and other professionals concluded were nearly impossible, and I have seen miracles happen.
Throughout most of this book, I will use myself as an example. The reason for this is that I know exactly what I was feeling at the times I am describing, and I can never know exactly what somebody else is thinking or feeling. I hope this is helpful. Like any therapist, I use my experiences to help me recognize what might be good questions and appropriate statements.
There is something that I will repeat often, which I am confident is every bit as important as anything else I will discuss and equally as important as what I advise my patients to attempt. When I awakened from my ten-week coma (forty-five years ago), I did not know what parents were, and of course I had no idea who these people were who were kissing me and crying. With no memory of my past, I completely forgot the bonds that had once held us together.
Kathy and I had eloped to Idaho five days before my flight class flew to Vietnam (on a purple Braniff Airlines jet). Since we had never told anyone we were married, I called my parents on April 28, 1967, and broke the news to my father that I was married—and that my wife, is a senior in high school.
I also told him that I was in a hospital in Cu Chi after being shot down and wounded—shot down for the third time in two months. My father was quiet for a moment, and then he said in a calm voice, You’ve got more gonads than I’ve got. After one time, I’d probably have turned in my papers.
This is what he told me, but he proved different during his tours in Vietnam. He was in Vietnam for two years after my final crash and two years after my brother David was killed.
A week later, I volunteered for a mission with my friend Billy Seale. I don’t remember the call to my parents or ever eloping with Kathy. (She was a beautiful woman and person, but I felt that someone I did not know had me trapped, and our marriage ended in a friendly divorce.)
I gave her a gentle kiss on her cheek after the judge declared us divorced. I almost cried because I was completely alone, but at the same time, I knew that continuing to live with a stranger would drive me completely bonkers.
The Product of Everything Done
EVERY SECOND OF MY EXISTENCE has been more exciting than I have the words to describe, and I would not want to change a thing I have done or that has been done to me. Don’t get me wrong. I have done things that have hurt people and wish I had never done, but at the same time, I realize that who I am today is a product of everything I have ever done. As long as I can learn from my behavior and can grow to be a person who gives to the world, I know I am a person of worth.
My faith in God is complete. This is despite the fact that I am a weak Christian and can be as selfish as the most selfish, self-centered person I have ever met. I have never had anyone try to kiss my ring, and no one has ever accused me of being perfect, nor has anyone thought about anointing me as a saint. Some people I know do not like me for valid reasons, even if they might only be valid to themselves. Whether they want to share their reasons or not, I do my best to represent my faith in God.
Still, I want to share something that I have only told a few people in the last forty-five years. I had my experience before I regained consciousness and told my father three or four years later. When I told my father, he cautioned me not to tell others, for they would think my story was due to my brain injury and would think I was crazy.
I did not want to have people think of me as being more mentally lacking than some people probably already did, so I kept what happened to me in my heart, with the exception of a few people I felt had open minds and who seemed to trust me as much as I trusted them.
When I tell someone that I know in my heart that there is a God, what I am doing is stressing my faith. To be honest, I don’t know what or where God is, but in my heart, there is no doubt that something so much greater than I truly exists. What I experienced, more than simply saw, as part of my being was a brightness that I have never been able to describe. I felt this brightness as part of me and me as part of it.
I heard nothing. As readers may recall, I could not speak or understand the English language, but I could feel a message that was meant for me, and that message was part of the complete brightness.
I did not remember that I had been a helicopter pilot or that I had been in Vietnam. Still, the message of the warm brightness was that I would never be alone. Instantly, I knew that whatever was happening was God … that simple. And I have never been alone except for those moments when I told myself I was alone and lonely, like anyone else.
My faith tells me that I do not have to be alone. My experience of the brightness was so complete that I feel I do not have to be without it, and God wants only the best for me. I feel secure that my welfare is important to God, and I have always known, as I make the effort to better myself, that God is with me. This gives me strength and determination when everything else tells me I want to quit; when I go on, I will not be alone.
CHAPTER 1
SOME INFORMATION ABOUT BRAIN INJURIES
A Man Who Knows
A S MOST PEOPLE WHO KNOW me will readily tell you, I feel I am just about the most blessed person on earth; give me a chance, and I will let you know too. In 1996, I had the honor of meeting psychologist and author Al Siebert, PhD, at a seminar. In 1997, he graciously signed a copy of his book The Survivor Personality for me. That book had impressed me more than almost any other book I had ever read.
Most books I have read that are not written by someone with a physical disability or a traumatic brain injury, regardless of the author’s experience as a professional, suffer from an inability to