Insane Follower

By Marcelino Arcilla Rapayla Jr.

Some people say, Are you insane? And other people saying, Youre too old enough to enter. Despite the fact, I entered in the seminary and quitted my job. Its true that if you want to follow Jesus Christ youll become foolish person, in the context of leaving all the worldly possessions for the formation and being dictates by almighty bell that days concatenating tasks in the seminary. I experienced misunderstanding with my young fellow seminarians and great adjustment in my new endeavor. My desire directed me to move on despite my regency (academic reason) at San Carlos Seminary College (SCSC). I keep on searching for the truth. The true happiness that which is speaks to the inner reality of my human longing as a person. Like our Holy Father Augustine, my heart is restless until it rest in Him (my Supreme Being). I am so happy that behind the clouds (given the fact that Im already 40 years old) while searching from several communities, the Order of the Discalced Augustinians (OAD) accepted me. Yes, until now I am still persevering in terms of my academic life in the seminary. It maybe hard but I believe that God is there to help me for I know that He is calling me. Thats why I am nurturing this vocation in my seminary formations. One thing that I have learned from our Holy Father is the truth which will be found only in our heart and that truth is God. On the other hand, as a Christian ways and perspective, sharing a part of my organs is a life time sacrifice but I believe that I am doing it as a fruit of the Holy Spirits gift which is courage. This courage moves me to be a living witness of His love. The good deeds Ive done are the values that I have learned from the life in and out the seminary. In the aspect of seminary as a community, I do not believe that there is a perfect community but nurturing my life within that place and the ways I dealt with them (circumstances) are ways of shaping my life into the perfect image for the greater glory of God. Yes folks, it is a life system that captures Gods wisdom for coping with our most difficult problems. I keep this desire in my heart in flame because as we entrust our life with God, He will possess us not only what is in our head but He will use us of what is in our heart also. After all, Moingon man sila nga nabuang ko but at least, sa Ginoo.