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HENRY MILLER
THE BOOKS
IN
MY
LIFE
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Books
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OFFICE
333
SIXTH AVENUE,
NEW YORK
TO
This
is
the
first
of
all
the books
references in
Henry
Miller's works.
CONTENTS
pages
Preface
I.
II
Me
22
3.
3.
40
58
81
4.
5.
Rider Haggard
Jean Giono
Influences
Living
100
121
6.
7. 8.
Books
127
Life
The Days of
My
140 147
9.
Krishnamurti
160
172 196
My
Heart
264
The Theatre
287
Appendix
317
Still Intend
to Read
320
321
Who
Supplied
Me
with Books
LIST OF
ILLUSTRATIONS
Frontispiea
Henry Miller
Studio
in
ms
facing
page
Blaise Cendrars
6i
126
288
All
have written
now
appears to
me
as so
much
his
straw."
(Thomas Aquinas on
deathbed.)
"When
no longer
when
the faney
when
Waldo
Emerson.)
**
All
is
all is
all is
(Amiel.)
artist
might find
his
imagination
if
work
powerfiilly
improved
he
knew
with or without
by jury ..."
(Henry Adams.)
"
Apr^
avoir pris
un an de vacances
15
sept. '50),
me
marier,
un peu voyager en
Suisse,
Luxembourg, HoUande,
faire trois
mes yeux,
mois de radio,
d^m^nager,
h^las
!
.
me
r^installer
^ Parisje
me
suis
remis au travail,
contient tous
comme
n
microbes,
la
C*est
.
extraordinaire
croire
et je
arrive pas k
m*y
habituer ni
"
!
(Blaise
Cendrars
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
To
the World Review^ London, for permission to reprint the
chapter
on
Blaise Cendrars
to Survival,
New York,
on Rider Haggard.
Grateful acknowledgment is herewith made to the following publishers
and
individuals for their kind permission to quote
works:
Blackie
&
Son
by EHphas
Levi.
Coward-McCann,
C.
The Absolute
W.
Watts.
Keller.
Doubleday
Druid
&
Press for
J.
C. Powys.
E. P. Dutton
and
& Co.,
Inc., for
by
P.
D.
Ouspensky.
Sept., 1946.
&
Constable
&
by Henry Adams.
Henry Holt
Alfred A. Knopf, Inc., for Men of Good Will by Jules Romain. John Lane The Bodley Head for Autobiography by J. C. Powys.
Frieda Lawrence
for
Studies
in
Classic
American
Literature,
and
Apocalypsehotk by D. H. Lawrence.
Le Cercle
Du
by Carlo Suar^.
Brown
&
by Emil Ludwig.
P.
Longmans, Green
Watt
The Days
The Macmillan
by Janko
Lavrin.
W. W.
J.
Norton
&
Random House
and for Anna
Deems
Christie
by Eugene
by
W.
T. Symonds for an
article
by Erich Gutkind
in Purpose, 1947.
The Viking
and Blue
Boyboth
Henry Miller
in Studio,
2. Blaise
Cendrars
Big Sur (1950) by Flair, New York. (1950) by Robert Doisneau, Montrouge,
France.
3.
Xerxes Society.
Miller Family
Portrait
4.
by Pach
Bros.,
New York
(circa
1902-03).
PREFACE
The purpose of
life.
this
few
years,
is
of
my
with books
it
as vital experience.
not a
critical
One of the
should read
results
of
this
self-examination
to
for that
As
is
what
the
writing of this
book amounts
and
less,
is
less
Appendix
the
bookworm, or even
a
the scholar,
I
yet
have
undoubtedly read
for
my own
good.
five in America,
are readers
of " books."
this
small
fiilly.
number read
far too
much.
There have been and always will be books which are truly revolutionary
fiir
that
is
They
are
few and
between, of course.
One
is
a Ufetime.
general pubHc.
They, are
thei
men of lesser
street.
talent
man
in the
The vast body of Hterature, in every domain, is composed of hand-me-down ideas. The question ^never resolved, alas is to what extent it would be efficacious to curtail the overwhelming
One
thing
is
certain today
us.
the
illiterate
among
is
If it
is
seeking, then
one had
better
go
And
the source
experience of
dispense with
life.
**
The same
is
true for
I
art.
Here, too,
we
can
the masters.**
When
say
life I
have in mind, to
today.
I
be
sure, another
we know
have in
mind
the sort
Etruscan Places.*
II
PREFACE
Or
that
at Chartres.
In
tliis
which beHeves
that there
is
is
that the
is set is
most
difficult
way
all
is,
All that
forth in books,
that
seems so terribly
vital
and
significant,
it
is
which
it
Our whole theory of education is based on the absurd notion that we must learn to swim on land before tackling the water. It applies
to the pursuit
of the
arts as
Men
are
still
or by making plans and sketches never intended to materialize. The ait of writing is taught in the classroom instead of in the thick
of
to
hfe.
Students are
still
fit all
temperaments,
kinds of intelligence.
No
wonder we
not
isolate.
are as
much
have no reverence
for
them per
Nor do
are
category.
exploit the
They
I
no worse.
They
because
being.
I
If
now
and then
as a class
^it
is
beheve
that, in
our society
at least,
status
To
see
myself
as the reader I
once was
is
Hke watching a
man
aim
fighting his
way through
I
a jungle.
To be
of the jungle
But
!
was never to
live in the
jungle
my
It is
^it
was to get
clear
of it
my
it is
not necessary to
first
of books. Life
itself is
enough of a jungle
But,
a very
ask,
and a very
you
may
not books be a
our way through the wilderness ? " N'ira pas loin," said Napoleon, " celui qui sait d'avance ou il veut aller.**
The
12
principal
aim underlying
this
work
is
to render
homage
PREFACE
where homage
is
due, a task
which
to
I
it
know beforehand
properly,
I
is
impossible
to get
of accompHshment.
Were
do
would have
down on my knees and thank each blade of grass for rearing its head. What chiefly motivates me in this vain task is the fact that in general we know all too little about the influences which shape
a writer's Hfe and work.
The
he
critic,
in his
pompous
all
conceit and
beyond
recognition.
The
view
however
truthful
may
The
rule.
As author,
too,
facts
am
guilty
of
facts
if
"
My conscious
on
perhaps
to a fault
in the
opposite direction.
the side of beauty,
am on
I
truth,
perfection.
In this
work
am
data, to
cannot
write about
I
all
all
But
do intend
to
go on writing
me) of
recall
this
domain of reaUty.
listing all the
To
I
I
books
can
me
satisfaction.
know of no
author
who
has been
mad enough
to attempt this.^
its
Perhaps
is
my
more confusion
to read a
but
purpose
to read
not
that.
Those
his
For these the Hst will speak for itself In writing of the " amoraUsme " of Goethe, Jules de Gaultier,
books.
I
quoting Goethe,
beUeve, says
"La
is
At
book
a genuine nostalgia.
not a
itself,
may sometimes
;
appear to be the
a nostalgia for
nor
is it
it is
moments Uved
it is
with
whom
had was
books.
(Yet
13
PREFACE
here
I
must confess
that,
as
these
company of
boys to
me
my former those boys who went by the immortal names of Johnny Paul,
I
of
whom
did
book or
associate
Whether
it
said
or de Gaul-
past,
persons or events,
my
task
would be
seem, the
fiitile
one.
Cold
key
and dead
as
it
may now
of
titles
given in the
souls
to
be
the
plenitude
^
One of the
it
reasons
is
always
have rewritten
its
hope, the
last
time,
is
completion
may be
last
by some unforeseen
set to
This
first
volume
ever set
I
finished, I
have immediately to
work
Crucifixion,
many
a year.
would
therefore,
I
while
of the things
volumes.
Naturally,
this
I
had some
sort
began
architect,
To
the writer
book
is
At any
volume
say,
whatever
as
is
left
of
my
complicated
a spider's web.
only in bringing
to a close that I
have come to
realize
how much
wish to
and
subjects,
some of which
how
often
* An American whose influence I may have minimized is Jack London. Glancing through his Essays of Revolt, edited by Leonard D. Abbott, I recalled the great thrill it gave me, a boy of fourteen, to merely hear the name Jofk
14
PREP ACB
I
refer to
that I
him I have never said, and probably never will say, all mean to say about Elie Faure. Nor have I by any means
And
I
then there
is
Celine,
among our
As
contemporaries,
whom
to approach.
to say
it
for
Rider Haggard,
I shall
have more
When
them.
comes
G. A. Henty. I
know
I shall
never say
my
last
word about
\/
"p
j
subject like
The Grand
Inquisitor, for
example, or The
Eterttal
Husband my
favorite
of
all
Dostoievsky's works
would seem to
I
demand
Perhaps
when
come
I
to
men with
the eschatological
I
is
flair,
shall
deliberately
sinister,
and
with him
figures
figure
enigmatic
I '
figures in all
said I
de Rais.
I
In the
it.
meantime
me
one firom
Paris,
and
have read
To us who hungered for life he was a shining light, adored as for his revolutionary fervor as for his wild, adventurous life. strange now to read, ia Leonard Abbott's Introduction, that in the year
Loitdori.
much
How
revolution is here now^. Stop it who can " strange now to read the opening words of his famous speech on " Revolution," which he delivered to university students throughout America how did it ever happen f ^telling of the seven million men and women then enrolled throughout the world in the army of revolt. Listen to Jack London's words : ** There has never been anything like this revolution in the history of the world. There is nothing analogous between it and the American Revolution or the French Revolution. It is unique, colossal. Other revolutions compare with it as asteroids compare with the sun. It is alone of its kind, the first world revolution in a world whose history is replete with revolutions. And not only this, for it is the first organized movement of men to become a world movement, limited only by the limits of the planet. This revolution is unlike all other revolutions in many respects. It is not sporadic. It is not a flame of popular discontent, arising in a and dying down in a day . . ." One of the first Americans, I presume, to make a fortune with the pen. Jack London resigned firom the Socialist Party in 1916, accusing it of lacking fire and fight. One wonders what he would say today, were he alive, about " the devolution."
:
"
The
How
^y
15
PREFACE
It is
just the
book
was looking
for
it is
son temps
intend to dwell on in
the future
to
my mind
The Path
:
to
each time
of This Book,"
Marie CoreUi,
who
Stratford-on-Avon
think any
I
of herself in a letter to the vicar of the parish church at " With regard to the Scriptures, I do not
:
studied
as
have, or,
me
certainly
write about
Rene
;
man
to enter
Timbuctoo
in
by Galbraith Welch
The
Unueiling of Timbuctoo,
in
to
my
mind
modem
times.
And
Mahatmas, Fechner's Life After Death, Claude Houghton's metaphysical novels, Cyril Connolly's Enemies of Promise (another
book
as
Eugene Jolas
calls it,
Donald
and,
among
(the
same
who
wrote on Krishnamurti), entitled Le Mythc Judeo-Chritien. I shall also " why not ? " as Picasso says expatiate on the subject ** of pornography and obscenity " in Uterature. In fact, I have
few pages on
this
theme, which
I
have
in
Meanwhile
time.
am
very
much
pornographic books of
know
but a very
* In Paris, about 1931 or 1932, Richard Thoma gave me a copy of his book on Gilles de Rais, called Tragedy in Blue. A few weeks ago I received a reprint of this book, published as an anonymous work and entitled The Authorized Version Book Three The Book of Sapphire. Rereading it, I was overcome with mortification that I could have forgotten the power and the splendor of this work. It is a poetic justification, I might almost,
or paean or dithyramb, only fifty-one pages long, unique in its genre, as only highly imaginative works can be. It is a breviary for the initiated. Apologies and congratulations, Dicko
say,
and true
16
PREFACE
few.)
who
who
arc
still
regarded as
*'
obscene "
?
How
works
In
what languages
are
still
certain
mean
is still
What of
whom
French) a formidable
And what
about that
pornographic novel in the English language. The Memoirs " Hill ? Why, if it is so " dull," has it not become a ** classic Fanny of
by now,
and
free to circulate in
?
drug
stores,
innocent places
it
It is
just
two hundred
years since
appeared,
Paris
well knows.
all
Curious, but of
this first
the books
I
The Thirteen
Crucified Saviours,
Atiacalypsis,
by
author
of the celebrated
and Les
Clifs de
VApocalypse, by
O. V. Milosz,
bleau.
who
Nor have
yet received a
Crusades.
forgot to mention
when
speaking of
good magazines
bright
spirit,
Jugend,
Wyndham Lewis),
a
And now
word about
the
It
man
whom
this
book
is
dedicated
was on one of
his visits to
Big Sur
write
(for
him
if for
no one
book about
my
experience with
books.
Some months
rest
it
later
the germ,
could never
content with a
Powell knew
too,
it
discreet
enough to keep
r
to himself.
it is
a great deal.
it
a big thing to
me
because
means the
rrection
of a
false attitude, I
hbrarians as
human
beings,
owe him my present ability to view very Hve human beings, sometimes,
PR EPA C
Certainly
no
librarian could
vital part
of our
life,
which they
librarian
have given
I
me
question have
scrupulously.
put to
him which he
No
down.
feult.
Should
this
book prove
to be a failure
it
Here
who
way
or another.
First
and foremost,
New York. You, Dante, whom I have never met, how can I express to you my deep gratitude
Dante T. Zaccagnini of Port Chester,
for
all
you performed
and
voluntarily
on
my
behalf i
were.
In addition
you
insisted
And what
me.
helpfid suggestions
tact,
devotion.
It
Words
fail
when
I
began
were,
I felt,
My
make up
of
titles
acquaintances
and,
I
money to buy them, was to it among my friends and among my readers. The men and women
and disseminate
at the close
whose names
with
have given
me
who could most me the books I so sorely needed, and whom I counted upon, failed to come through. An experience of this sort is always illuminating. The friends who fail you are always replaced by new ones who appear at the critical moment and from the most
know through
friends
The "
afford to send
unexpected quarten.
is
the
warm,
personal friend.
One of the
he experiences
is
unknown
Every
take
it,
unknown
arc,
friends
among
i8
his readers.
There
may
be,
and doubtless
authors
who
PREFACE
have
little
is
need of
of
their books.
I
My
case
somewhat
am
make
who
volunteer
The
Donald A. Schon.
In filing a letter of
Department
help, this
services.
there, a letter in
clerical
my
!
letter
his
gesture
Sehr Schon
case in point
of John Kidis of
shower of
explains
I
Sacramento.
by
is
a visit and a
a Greek,
gifts.
whidi
mudi.
appreciate
the more, the armfiils of books (some of them very difficult to find)
my
gifts,
knitted
by
his
of clothing picked up
!)
prepared
by
his
grandmother or
of Halva, jugs of
rezina, toys
all
of
kinds,
my name
is
a priest), dates
firesh figs,
from
the mythical
" farm
"),
{Tfie
me with, the errands he volunteered me (throwing out all his other stockas
**
and
setting himself
up
Miller "),
(records,
.
.
me
.
on and
on ad
?
infinitum.
How
the
How
ever repay
it ?
welcome from
of
readers
of
tliis
indications
error, omission,
falsification
it is
or misjudgment. I am well aware that this book, because " about books," will go to many who have never read me
I
before,
hope
PREFACE
this
Our world
is
is
rapidly
drawing to a
it
new one
as
is
about to open. If it
faith.
to flourish
will
have to
flesh.
on deeds
well as
The word
will have to
become
and apprehension.
I
one book
among
taining
all
those
might
signal as conit
inspiration
and sublimity,
is
Chartrfs.
Particularly the
exalted and
is
commanding. Let
:
me
quote a passage
page 194*
which
in order
There she acttially is ^not in symbol or in fancy, but in penon, descending on her errands of mercy and listening to each one of us, as her miracles prove, or satisfying our prayers merely by her presence which calms our excitement as that of a mother calms her child. She is there as Queen, not merely as intercessor, and her power is such that to her the difierence between us earthly beings is nothing. Pierre Mauclerc and PhiHppe Hurepel and their men-at-arms are afraid of her, and the Bishop himself is never quite at his ease in her presence but to peasants, and beggars, and people in trouble, this sense of her power and caJm is better than active sympathy. People who ^who are crushed sufi*er beyond the formulas of expression into silence, and beyond pain ^want no display of emotion ^no bleeding heart ^no weeping at the foot of the Cross ^no phrases They want to see God, and to ^no hysterics know that He is watching over His own.
;
There are
man,
who
enrich us
and others
more
enrich or
letters,
who
impoverish
However
write,
it
be, there
is all
the while a
we
we who
we
authors,
we men of
we
protected,
maintained, enriched
the men we reveal the no man knows.
and
truth
in us.
How
No
20
one
artist
Co.
edition,
New York,
1933.
PREFACE
of humanity.
of the
We
swim
in the
same stream,
deeply are
we we
is
aware,
we who
what
write books
to restore
we have taken from the granary of Hfe, from sisters and brothers " unknown, then I say " Let us have more books
In the second
things,
volume of
this
work
I shall
write,
among
other
Gilles
de Rais, Haggard's
Inquisitor,
Grand
C^Hne,
The
of my
index of
all
references to
all
HENRY
MILLER.
ai
SIT in a little
is
now
completely lined
with books.
It is
time
with anything
like a collection
of books.
more than
that
five
hundred in
It is
all,
my own choice.
I
the
first
time, since
began
my writing career,
I
am
have
I
The
fact,
my work
first
look upon
as
One of
the
I
things
associate
is
Not to own them, mind you, but to lay hands on them. From the moment the passion took hold of me I encountered nothing but obstacles. The books I
the struggle
waged
to obtain them.
And of
course
money
to
buy them.
To
get permission
from the
Hbrary in
years of
my
neighborhood
ageto borrow
such a
Confession of a Fool,
by Strindberg, was just impossible. In those young people were prohibited from reading
stars
one,
this
two or
three
I
according
to the
obtains.
so, for I
know of nothing
stupid
sort
whet
one's
appetite
than
of
and
prohibition.
What makes
answer, in
sionate
a book live ?
How
simple.
The
my
opinion,
is
the pas-
Nothing can
will always
human
it is
my
beHef that
men
Books
32
are
And
the
TttBY
better the
man
more
easily will
he part with
shelf
is
his
most cherished
possessions.
book
lying idle
on a
wasted ammunirion.
Lend
!
maximum
But
more than money. A book is not only a fiiend, it makes friends for you. When you have possessed a book with mind and spirit, you are enriched.
especially books, for
books represent
pass
it
on you
irrepressible
impulse
:
me
to
offer
a piece
of
gratuitous advice.
as possible
!
It is this
much
who drowned
But
I
themselves in books.
all
too,
would
those books
my mind.
know
is
it is
not important.
know now
is
that I did
a tenth of
learn to
what
have read.
The most
difficult
do only what
an excellent
strictly
strictly vital.
There
is
way
have
When you
it
you can. Let the title and the author's name revolve in your mind. Think what you yourself might have written had the opportunity been yours. Ask yourself earnestly if it be absolutely necessary to add this work to your
days.
store
Try
to imagine
what
Then,
would mean
if
you
find
what
extraordinary
stimulating
If
it
acumen you
may
from
of the book
really
new
to you.
you
are honest
has increased
mere
effort
of
resisting
your impulses.
Few
fifiy,
Rare
books
^less
than
his
recent
autobiographical novels,
that
R^my
of
this repetitive
select
and read
all
23
worth while
of
literature,
Cendrars
?is
a prodigious reader.
He
but
reads
most authors in
well as his
Not only
book
the
that,
when
man
I
has written,
and
all
him.
almost unparalleled,
imagine.
For,
not only has he read widely and deeply, but he has himself written
a great
many
books.
All
a
on
the side, as
it
were.
For, if he
is
any-
thing, Cendrars,
he
a
is,
man who
has
man of action, an adventurer and explorer, known how to "waste** his time royally. He
is
of
Hterature.
The other day, at the request of the French publisher, Gallimard, made up a Hst of the hundred books* which I thought had
influenced
me
most.
Peck*s
A strange
Bad Boy,
list,
gruous
Island.
I
titles as
The
first
Mahatmas and Pitcaim named, a decidedly " bad " book, I read as a boy.
Letters from the
ever
it worth including in my list because no other book made me laugh so heartily. Later, in my teens, I made periodical trips to the local hbrary to paw the books on the shelf labelled
thought
" Humor.**
This
is
How
few
really
humorous
of Uterature which
deficient.
trata.
Dead
two or
three
am hard
true,
put to
in this category of in
humor. There
and
Hamsun,
it is
which
still
my eyes,
and
their
as
The
names
me
to death.
Max
It
find deadly.
would be an achievement,
I
book before
die.
is
The
humor which
very
close,
Particularly their
mostI mean
is,
of course, woefully
absent.
and
cruelty,
ingredients.
But
it is
boob
that the
* See Appendix. 24
/
nourisheci.
As we grow
older, fantasy
is
and
One
carried along
on
a treadmill
The mind
to rout
becomes so dulled
one out of a
state
book
of indifference or apathy.
reading there
is
With childhood
a factor
of significance which
we
How
of a favorite book,
How easily
Some books
reading.
with
illness,
distinctly
life.
There
is
and that
the absence of
upon
one.
Lucky
is
the child
who
So powerful, however,
the
What
Baba and
of
Grimm and
i
such like
Who also,
later in life
I ask,
which comes
on rereading
Only
recently, after
What an
books.
I
experience
my
favorite author.
Every Christmas
Today, and
my
would give me
I
was
fourteen.
regard
this as
phenomenal,
of
his
He
and get the same fascinating pleasure ** talking down " to his
be on intimate terms with him.
got
as
boy.
seems,
I
reader.
He
To
rather, to
Everyone knows,
the lads
of
my
first
is
perspective
of world
history.
In
it
When,
just
25
The books in
the other day,
it
my
lif
the pages dealing with Wallenstein,
came upon
I
was
as
though
As
remarked in a
" destiny
rate.
I
*'
was in
words
at
any
began by speaking of
my
" hbrary."
Only
lately
had the
Like
pleasure
ours, his
was an age of
I
intolerance,
sure,
massacres.
of Montaigne's withdrawal
life,
from
active Hfe,
of
his
man who
could
If,
For a
moment
this Uttle
envied him.
at
could have in
room, right
my
the books
which
I I
man,
how
fortunate
would be
liked.
It
was always
it
my
habit to
young mark
excessively the
I,
books
How wonderful
I
would
be, thought
opinions
book he read
what one was
and events,
tions
his notes
and impressions
he went along.
One
is
always curious to
know
like,
how
one behaved,
how
former
selves.
bound
to ask
?
" Does
life
cease vwth
on
earth
Will
Am
able, as
is
in the universe
still
"
may be
" Did I
my
lesson liere
I
on earth ?
Montaigne,
bad memory.
He
says that
he was unable to
certain,
memory.
26
who
of a novel in
detail,
who
dates
of
historical events,
and so on,
possess a
monstrous sort of
memory which has always seemed repellent to me. I am one of those who have a weak memory in certain respects and a strong one in others. In short, just the kind of memory which is useful
for
me.
When
But
I
I really
wish to
recall
something
I
can,
though
it
may
know
is lost.
know
also that
it is
tery."
The
I
as
well
as the value
or non-value of a thing,
never forget.
of memory
there
is
wish to preserve
infaUible,
total,
is
To know
that
this
it
exact
memory
is
sufficient for
me.
How
often
happens
that, in
glancing through a
on
passages
Recently, in completing
Crucifixion, I
was obHged
number,
my
notes,
made many
I
years ago,
on
Spengler's Declitt^^
of the West.
I
passages, a considerable
might
say,
Hke music.
The
sense
lost, in
some
for I
instances,
some of
the importance
Every time
redolent,
quality
is
became more more pregnant, more charged with that mysterious which every great author embeds in his language and which
again, the language
the
mark of his
uniqueness.
At any
rate,
so impressed was
by
the vitality
that
I
decided to quote a
I
number of them
felt
in their entirety.
It
was
an experiment which
my
readers.
I felt
The
lines I
become
my
very
own
and
as
that they
had to be transmitted.
as the as
Were
important in
my Hfe
haphazard
which
had described
my own
Why
I
event in
my
life
am
read.
17
my
I
belongings.
They
my
Sometimes
my
Paris
on one of those
which have
IntroFleurs
hved with
du
me for years.
is
by Gautier from Havelock Ellis* " The poet of the Grain. It begins
It is
:
style
of decadence,
and which
nothing
else
at that
point of extreme
:
an
of shades and of
research,
con-
from
all
palettes
and
notes
from
all
keyboards ..."
Then
" The
style
of decadence
final expression
and driven to
hiding-place."
I
letters
my
door so
my
friends
would
to
Some
My
weakness
is
beHeve
On
finishing a wonderfril
example,
almost always
sit
down and
write letters to
my friends,
The
my daily conversation,
I called this
!
consume.
a weakness.
Perhaps
not.
**
Increase
and multiply
"
commanded
it
the
Lord.
E.
I
Dance, put
like
reading
sense
may not
at first
it is.
Without
who is
book would die. The man who spreads the good word augments not only the life of the book in question but the act of creation itself. He breathes spirit
other readers.
is
into
He
sustains
Whether he
28
doing
is
praising God's
good
author,
knows
that
He knows
that
he could not
And when
say author
writing, or
creating," as
it is
called,
he
ing the great message of creation which the Creator in his goodness
has
made
manifest to him.
list
of authors and
it
titles
mention
because
think
important to
stress at
rather neglected in
mind
are
The
which one
the books one hears about, talks about, reads about, but
is
which one
break
down
first
In the
classics
:
mostly,
which one
one nibbles
is
tomes
at occasionally,
still
The
list
varies
with the
Homer,
Aristotle,
Rousseau (excepting
I
Entile),
Robert Brown-
Roman
of Sodom,
Casanova's Memoirs,
Napoleon's Memoirs,
Michelet's
Shandy, Wilhelm Meister, The Anatomy of Melancholy, The Red and the Black, Marius the Epicurean, The Education of Henry Adams. Sometimes a chance reference to an author one has neglected to
read or abandoned
the
all
a passage, say,
who
read.
in
is
work of an
is,
* That
those
I still
hope to
29
it
the books one neglects, or deUberately spurns, seldom get read. Certain subjects, certain styles, or unfortunate associations
connected v^dth
certain
Nothing on
earth, for
me
to
anew
I
which
Never
again will
look
at a line
I
doubt
if I shall ever
look
at again,
I
me
'
on Phldre in The Cloums Grail* On the other hand there are books which He at the very foundations of literature but which are so remote from one's thinking and experience as to render them " untouchable." Certain
read not long ago
authors, supposed to be the
culture, are
bulwark of our
particular
Western
more
foreign in spirit to
me
the
Some of
most exciting
example, have
from
cultures
our development.
No
exercised a
r^
which
more potent influence over me than those of the Japanese, became acquainted with through the work of Lafcadio
Heam, one of the exotic figures in American Hterature. No stories were more seductive to me as a child than those drawn from the
Arabian Nights* Entertainment.
cold, whereas the folklore
as I
leaves
me
of Afiica
me.f And,
ancestors.
by
my immediate
who
liked that
fall
said that
sometimes
it is
an esteemed author
**
puts one
on
What! He
book?" you
the
away and
mind
Often
positively aflame.
tastes
happens that
it is
who
revives one's
this
interest in a
* By Wallace Fowlie. Sub-title A Study of Love Dennis Dobson, Ltd., London, 1947.
:
its
Literary Expression
30
THEY WERE ALIVE AND THEY SPOKE TO ME
individual gives the impression
of being a
a
nitwit,
book which this person casually recommended, or perhaps did not recommend at all but " merely mentioned in the course of conversation as being an ** odd
he should retain the
book.
In a vacant
why
memory of
mood,
a
at loose ends, as
recollection
book
trial.
is
Then comes
Heights
for
me
an example of
so often,
I
praised so
much and
whose
had concluded
!
was impossible
^by a
woman
Though
to be that good.
be shallow,
let
Then one
drop a few
day a
friend,
taste I suspected to
it.
nurday.
I
book one
few
Varda put
I
it
in
my
hands.*
read
it
in
everyone,
suspect,
by its amazing
EngHsh
And
I,
reading
it.
is
that
Many
years ago
else,
Augustine.
And
thrust
Paris,
I
some one
it
two volumes.
found
not only
An English
a mutual friend to his surprise, no doubt work informed me that he could get a good price for it if I would only annotate it. I sat down to read it once again, taking elaborate pains to make copious remarks, usually derogatory, in the margins after spending a month or so at this vain task I dispatched the book to England. Twenty years later I
from
had read
this
from
this
the
same bookseller
^he
stating that
he hoped
it at last.
And
that
was the
Throughout
should also
* He
painter,
my
heard from him. Droie d'histoire ! Hfe the word ** confessions " in a title has
I
alwa)^
i
mentioned Strindberg's Confession of a Fool, have mentioned Marie BashkirtsefF's famous work
my
Giorgio di Chirico.
31
"
is
Rousseau's, another
at
is
de Quincey's. Only
His Emile,
on
readwhen
The
I
who
founda-
tions
of knowledge or
culture, or
which
arc
of
**
best
their
books.
know
which base
entire curricula
on such
select
lists.
It is
is
my
man
by
own
foundations. If one
an individual
it is
vitally
form of our
it
culture, each
man must
which elements of
destiny.
and shape
own
private
The
great
works which
by
the professorial
minds represent
intellects to
It
their
choice exclusively.
in the nature
of such
may be
that, if left to
our
own
devices,
we would
in time share
is
their point
surest
lists
way
to
of books
A man
own
He
is
should
become acquainted
and
too
participating.
Uttle.
first
Uving
or
He
much
He
exercise.
good books. He
will
what is
inspiring or fecundating, or
He
his
own,
in his
lost
But
value, all
charm and
appeal, if
one
is
dragged to
them by
the scalp.
disillusionments, that in
said the better
i
Have you not noticed, after many heart-aches and recommending a book to a friend the less The moment you praise a book too highly you
your
listener.
awaken
resistance in
One
it is
has to
know when
to give
how muchand
it
if
to be repeated or not.
The
is
o( discouraging
their ardent
would-be
disciples.
The same
of books
sort
is
concerned. Discourage a
man
thing
in the right
way,
that
is,
with the right end in view, and you will put him on the path that
much more
quickly.
The important
to have, but
is
experiences, a
man is
what he
puts into
what we
Undoubtedly
it
influences
attraction.
But
should be borne in
it
is
also because
it.
we
pushed in that
without knowing
It is
obvious that
are
we
are not
influence.
Nor
we
always cognito
which
influence us
Some men
never
know
behavior.
Most men,
in fact.
With
so
1
they
needed to
ends.
use the
word
obUged to
We
are
on
My
an abstruse element
that,
where books
and
is
discoveries,
inextricably mixed.
The
desire to read a
book
often provoked
by
incident.
piece.
To
The books he
man is of a He may
He may
.
if
he detested
this aunt.
Of
the thousands of
early in hfe,
how
is it
that
one individual
towards others
man is.
If a
man reads are determined by what a man be left alone in a room with a book, a single book, it
The books
a
it
book bores him he will drop it, though he may go wellnigh mad for want of anything better to do. Some men, in reading,
take the pains to look
up every
Some men
title
will under-
book whose
33
Book of Abraham
pages in literature.
As
friend,
an unexpected
encounter, a footnote,
a thousand are times
strange quirks
of memory,
and one things can set one off in pursuit of a book. There
to any and
all
it
intimations.
suggestions, hints,
takes
again
when
dynamite to
in the writing
One of the great temptations, for a writer, is to read when engaged of a book. With me it seems that the moment I begin a new book I develop a passion for reading too. In fact, due to some perverse instinct, the moment I am launched on a new book
itch to
do
not,
out
of a
of writing.
What
fmd
is
that I can
When
at
such
is
my
experience
one becomes
directions
at once.
It
was
undertook to write,
must
confess, that
reading was at once the most voluptuous and the most pernicious
it
seems to
me
as if the
reading of
at first
I
but
From
As
a
the time
began
into
it.
often
thought,
better
book down,
I
that I could
much
read the
more
critical I
I
became. Hardly
Gradually
I
began to despise
books
the ones
castigated mercilessly.
authors, to be sure,
me
to assert
my own powers
with
of expression
I
**
spellbinders "
new
I
eyes.
bloodedly, with
possessed.
I
bcHeve
it
enough
what makes
by taking
34
apart.
Vain and
foolish
as
though
my
behavior was,
of narration, about
effects
and
is
how
all, I
of good books.
To
say, for
the man,
is
to
man we have
speaks, the
next to
nothing.
The way
man
writes, the
is
way he
way he
not to
walks, the
way he
does everything,
to listen to
what
man
has to say,
alter
you,
what you
of it. There
is
the
child
when
first
there
is
despair of
youth in discovering
his
**
own "
authors
but greater
more permanent
reflections
of a
who
Van Gogh's
one
is
struck
by
the vast
amount of meditation,
painter.
analysis,
not
case
it
reaches
uncommon, among painters, but in Van Gogh's heroic proportions. Van Gogh was not only looking
but
at other
their
methods, techniques,
earnestly
styles
and approaches.
He
reflected
long and
these thoughts and observations anything but a primitive, or a " fauve." Like Rimbaud, he was nearer to being " a mystic in the wild state."
He was
It is
than a writer to
my
point.
happens that
Van Gogh,
literary pretensions
he was writing
a book.
His
life, as
we
get
in the letters,
is
more
revelatory,
more
us
art, I
would
most of the
He
tells
He
knowledge of the
and
painter's craft,
though he
is
acclaimed
more
his vision
35
THE BOOKS
IN
MY
life,
is
LIFE
in that
it
makes
all
and the
is
meaning of dedication,
a lesson for
time.
Van Gogh
all
at
!
one
this
the
humble
critic,
men, the
good
deeds.
he was not a
fanatic
dark.
He
possessed, for
his
criticize
and judge
own
work.
He
proved, indeed, to be a
it
much
better critic
is
unfortunately
to criticize, judge
The more
tell
write the
me
in their books.
more I understand what others are tryii^ to The more I write the more tolerant I grow
(I
with regard to
writers, for
my
fellow writers.
I
am
with them
refuse to
have any
who
days
are sincere,
with those
who
themselves,
I am much more lenient and understanding than in the when I had not yet written a book. I can learn from the poorest
done his utmost. Indeed, I have learned a very great deal from certain " poor " writers. In reading their works
writer, provided he has
I
which
have been struck time and again by that freedom and boldness it is almost impossible to recapture once one is " in harness,"
is
once one
it is
aware of the value of practicing the with the right and the
sheer enjoyment
left eye.
of writing.
One
reads then
Without
mysterious never recedes, but the vessel in which their thoughts are
contained
ecstasy,
transparent.
one returns to
con-
prayed
One no
One
one
asserts his
commonness.
One no
different
of his beloved author but for more of the same. Even the
testifies
ordinary reader
to this longing.
finishing
36
volume of
!
his favorite
author
"
When,
is
after
an author
a bundle
forgotten manuscript
dug up, or
of
!
or an un-
up
What
gratitude for
posthumous fragment
Even
the perusal of an
The moment a writer dies his Hfe suddenly becomes of momentous interest to us. His death often enables us to see what we could not sec when he was aUve that his Hfe and work were one. Is it not obvious that the art
thrill.
of
resuscitation (biography)
We
immortal in
works
we
want
to restore
them
in the flesh.
its
Each age
own,
its
to
own.
Sometimes
it
seems
as
potent than the influence of the living. If the Saviour had not been
resurrected,
man would
certainly
who
is
truly.
They were
eloquent
to
me! That
most
have
way
in
which
who
remained with
considering
Just as
the years.
dealing, in books,
no
artist
on
canvas,
so
no author
has ever truly been able to give us his Hfe and thoughts.
is
Autobiography
reaHty than
fact.
Fiction
is
always closer to
The
wisdom but
science,
of Hterature, unmasking
myths of
proves to be what
Man continues
to
Is it
to hunger.
They were
alive
is
incommunicable
Man
man through words, he is communing with his feUow man and with his Maker. Over and over again one puts down a book and one is
speechless.
Sometimes
it is
everything.'*
But
am
not thinking of
of reaction.
am
37
thinking that
this business
much
deeper.
It is
from
words
are drawn,
and
man who
is
dead,
let
us say,
you thoroughly
altered.
He
not,
did
this
Was
this
perhaps
still
possesses
Though we know
talk a great deal
we do
possess the
key to
paradise.
Wc
man but with the dead, with the imbom, with those
be unlocked.
who
are
mighty
which
we
invest ourselves
have ever given evidence not only of magical powers but of the
existence
universe and
which
are as famiUar to us as
though
them
in the flesh.
These
diem. They sprang from parents similar to our own, they were the
products of environments similar to our own.
stand apart then
?
Not
Not
artists
difficult techniques.
No,
to
me
his
Of all
he
is
the one
Word
it
and the
who best knows that " in the beginning was the Word was with God and the Word was God." He
which informs
all
commune with
the
it
Using language
at all
as his
not language
but prayer.
since nothing
is
demanded of
runs,
the Creator.
Blessings
on
thee,
Lord
" Let
"
So
it
no matter what
the subject,
what
the idiom.
!
me
exhaust myself,
O Lord,
work
Is this
Let us cease to
wonder what
Know
singing
hymns of
38
Here on
eartli
they
practicing.
Once
again
who knew
that there
is
only one
earth.*
task,
one
y
,
supreme joy
to
on
X
* In 1880 Dostoievsky made a speech on " The Mission of Russia " in " To become a true Russian is to become the brother of which he said all men, a universal man. Our future Ues in Universality, not won by violence, but by the strength derived from our great ideal the reuniting of all mankind."
:
. . .
39
II
EARLY READING
It
is
only in the
I
:
last
few years
that
certain
books.
reread
land,
can
recall
books
singlec^out to
in
The
Birth of Tragedy,
Wonder-
Hamsun,
as I
have
often said,
who
vitally affected
as Mysteries.
me
as writer.
as
much
In that period
to take
on were Hamsun
first
Thomas Mann. When I came to reread The Birth of Tragedy I remember being positively stunned by Nietzsche's magical use of language. Only a few years ago, thanks to Eva SikeHanou, I became
intoxicated once again with this extraordinary book.
I
with a
a writer
blood brother,
might even
say.
But
was Mann's
skill as
of short stories, or novelettes, which most intrigued and baffled mc during the " analytical " period I speak of At that time Death in
Venice
years,
was for
however,
me
In the space of a
especially
few
my opinion of Thomas
It is
.
Mann, and
During
of his
Death
a curious tale
and perhaps
early days in
worth recounting.
Paris
I
was
like this
my
made
individual
whom
his
name.
He was
a painter. Like so
It
many
was a
whether he
were discussing
when he waxed strong, his tongue One day I happened to speak of my admiration for Thomas Mann and, before long, I found myself raving about Death
a
flair
He had
was
vitrioHc.
in Venice.
40
EARLY READING
tion
I
told
him I would
get the
to him.
never forget
this experience.
Before
to crumble. Nichols,
suddenly
this
fabrication
exposed
who
thought
was holding in
at a piece
my hands
Later
I
a piece of
of papier-mach^. Half-
way through
as
flung the
book on
the floor.
on
glanced
had regarded
blush to mention
^and that
was
Men
in a Boat.
is
earth I
beyond
I
How on my
laughed
comprehension. Yet
until the tears
remember
that
came
to
it
my
eyes.
The
up and
started to read
again.
Never have
much
Egg.
me on
came near
But once
it
had made
me
?
^o
find
I
books
read in childhood
!
mentioned Henty,
bless his
name
like
Corelli,
Bulwer-Lytton, Eugene
Sue, James
Flags),
Mark Twain
As
Tom Sawyer
since
particularly).
!
men
boyhood
It
seems
matters Uttle if
I
never look
works
again, f
much
to reread those
books which
used
his
It should not be inferred from this that I have turned against Sherwood Anderson, who has meant so much to me. I have still a great admiration for WineshuTg, Ohio and Many Marriages. f For some mysterious reason I do, howe er, intend to read Toilers of the Sea, which I missed when I was devouring Hugo.
41
my grandfather
as
he
sat
on
his tailor's
bench in our
these, I
old
home
in the Fourteenth
Ward
in Brooklyn.
(for a day)
One of
recall,
Admiral Dewey.
battle
of
Mobile Bay,
if there
book
I recall
now
that, in
My Dream of
aware of
was
actively
of Farragut's heroic
exploits.
Without
this
a doubt,
I
my
I
whole
book
had read
fifty years
But
it
that
became
but our
acquainted with
my
first
Hve hero,
who was
rebel.
not
Dewey
did
my
in
colossus.
I still
Dewey and Teddy Roosevelt, Aguinaldo stands out Hke a He was the fu-st Enemy Number One to cross my horizon.
I still
revere the
names of Robert E.
who
men and
worsted them.
how
?
can
Hero Worship
Or
I
Emerson's Representative
Men
?
?
And why
not
make room
In Paris, thanks
to Blaise Cendrars,
learned
what
is
biographies concerning
this
John Paul
Jones.
The
spectacular story of
man's
life is
The
reason
is
simple.
Following the
trail
swamped by
it.
In the course
of
more than
tenfold the
by
traces,
Cendrars had
made
He
con-
42
EARLY READING
the subject or a
perfectly.
understand
whom I ventured to read aloud was my grandit I can still hear him saying to my mother that she would regret putting all those books in my hands. He was right. My mother did regret it bitterly, later. It was my own mother, incidentally, whom I can scarcely recall ever seeing with
The
first
person to
that
father.
Not
he encouraged
book
in her hand,
who
told
me
I
was
flabbergasted.
Not
that she
toilet,
but that
it
there.
Reading aloud
Tony,
my
boyhood
friends, particularly to
I
Joey and
my
earhest friends,
discovered
early in hfe
to their disgust
and chagrin, namely, that reading aloud to people can put them to
sleep.
Either
I
my
read poorly, or
the books
to sleep
wrong
sort.
Inevitably
my audience went
incidentally,
from
Nor
had of my
little
friends.
No,
to
it
came
I still
thing
on
earth
would counsel
first
is
make everyone
that a
learn to read. If I
had
my way, I would
by
all
see to
boy learned
to be a carpenter, a
first,
The
practical things
And books
are luxuries.
Of course I
And
would
To
all
play games
itself
I
Ah, there
a chapter
of life in a category
by
the
I pass
games
up the
subject lest
kind of book
However, boyhood is a subject I never tire of Neither the remembrance of the wild and glorious games we played by day and
night in the
streets,
whom
hobnobbed and
whom I
sometimes
my
cxper-
43
THE BOOKS
iences
I
IN
MY
my
LIFE
comrades, including the experience of
in
shared with
reading.
the
my
writings,
problems of
good
real
government,
life
ethics
deity, Utopia,
us.
on other on
planets
these were
My
street, in
empty
lots
on cold November
was books,
comers
at night,
we were
we were then reading and which we were not even supposed to know about. It sounds extravagont to say so, I know, but it docs seem to me that only the great interpreters of Uterature can rival
boy
in the street
the
when
it
flavor
and
essence
of a book. In
my
humble opinion,
boy
of
is
much
nearer
much
political figures
world.
During
into
this
my
world of books
in a beautiful
glass
Walker,
my
father's predecessor,
who
all
had the
distinction
of being
one of the
first
merchant
these
tailors
of New York.
As
review them
titles
now in my mind,
thick
books were
as
and
bold and
What I am about
telling the truth
do with
beUeve
is
my
am
when
deeply
profound was
of these books,
forgotten the
have completely
this
is
titles.
one
lingers in
:
one
am
not positive
correct
A
I
my
blank.
first
The
nature of my reaction
time in
ity.
of thick fog.
44
EARLY READING
England became for
evil,
me
a land
cruelty and
It
from
these
musty tomes.
and
irrational
slime,
on
all levels.
Senseless
though
middle
life, until,
to be honest,
visited
their
England and
own
native
(My
first
impression of London,
corresponded closely to
sion
my boyhood
picture
it is
an impres-
dissipated.)
first
When I came
my
me by
as a
The
title
of this book,
A Boys History of
book gave
also readI
England,
by
Ellis.
remember
sure, the
was
had readjust a
Httle earHer,
gained a wholly
different notion
past.
Years
later,
when
Sombre,
tragic, full
me
once again
I
my
"
human "
picture
of the world.
For
all
In the end
was
obhged
to pass judgment
on Hardy.
which
permeated his books, I had to admit to myself that they were not " true to life." I wanted my pessimism " straight."
On returning
to
met two
individuals
who
* On reading that delightful and singularly imaginative book, Land Under England by Joseph O'Neilljust a few years back the old feeling about England cropped up again. But this is a book by an Irishman, and an unusual
one
it is.
t This good aunt, my father's sister, also gave me The Autocrat at the Breakfast Table, a brace of books by Samuel Smiles, and Knickerbocker's History of
New
York.
45
metaphysical novelist," he
is
often
At any
rate,
gentleman "
I
ever
met
W.
Travers
Symons
the
first
^to
alter
profoundly
my
picture
of
England.
have by
is
now
Whether
the performance
me.
Many
Americans
good or bad, Claude Houghton's books captivate know I Am Jonathan Scrivener, which would
as
would some of
his others.
His
Way, one of
my
favorites,
pity.
Humanity
known
more's the
But
there
here
touch upon
a subject I
Hudson Rejoins
the Herd.
In a
lengthy
letter to the
author
This
letter will
this
one day be
reading
it
The
I
outer circumstances
real.
I
Houghton had
and events in
I
in
my life.
works
I
are imaginative.
Perhaps the
" mysterious."
Do not
who
Those
think they
And now,
He
for
is
for
no
reason, unless
it
mind
GaUimard.
At
best
can
recall
only
few
titles
Yet when
think of
them
do when
am
certain that
when
reread him, as
expect to do shortly,
;
shall
Lake,
* Not to be confused with the " Letter " New York, 1950.
Argus Books,
Inc.,
Mohegan
46
EARLY READING
fmd,
alive
as I
my memory
it
will
become amazingly
difficult to
and fecund.
becomes increasingly
effect
anywhere near
that
created
Trilby
reasons
now
inscrutable,
came
doing
so.
Trilby
and Peter
Ibbetson are a
unique
brace of books.
illustrator,
renowned
more than
by
the
interesting.
Modem
in
Library,
Street,
Deems Taylor
a novel,
says,
relates
how,
**
High
Du
his friend
Trilby.'*
an idea for
"James," he
I
should say.
Oddly enough,
also
the
man who
later.
put
me on
the track of
et Pecuchet,
Du Maurier
which
I
put into
my
did
the
He had
given
this
volume and
a small debt
my
father in
payment of
he
owed.
My
father,
of
course,
was
disgusted.
With
the Sentimental
says
past fifty.
It is
I
work of Flaubert.
But
as
to return to
Rider Haggard
Strange that a
book such
Nadja,
in any
way be
works.
length
think
it is
it
in
have dwelt
at
some
or was
in Remember
cast
Remember
I
upon the
it I
spell
which
read
go through the
rather terrifyingly
deHdous sensation
one,
for example,
upon
of which he
is
thoroughly famiUar.
of
47
vividly of
was to submit to an
not quite
editor.* (As
write,
first
I
I realize
that
\)
true, because
my
very
piece
of prose
was an
in
on
Nietzsche's Anti-Christ,
which
my
father's shop.
Also, the
first
piece
of writing
ever submitted
a
by
few
years,
being a
critical article
which
and
which, to
my
trifling
remuneration being
a brand
a
time to
set
me on
it
to
make me throw
new
passing truck.)
of all authors,
is
something which
is
would
not so
Nadja
is still,
my way
text
I
own.) At any
rate, it
of the original
it
This in
do
believe,
is
sufficient to
mark
out.
of
my
delightful, all-
Many
most
the time
spent
whole days
at the
or subjects.
Here
again, to be truthfiil, I
home, with
my
boon companion
scarce
Joe O'Regan.
and
all
like
monomaniacs.
One morning,
scarcely out
turned to
my huge
* The man to whom I sent it was Frands K. Hackctt, and never shall forget his discreet but encouraging reply, God bless him I
48
BARLY RBADING
to
my mind
is
on awakening. As
usual,
what
one word led to another, for " fonn of " circuit game
With Joe
at
which
who had
stimulated
me
first
so often to
suspicions
question
that I
my
this
moment
as
had beheved,
as
of,
say the
**
truth," about a
from derivation
upon
and
the
reversals
of a word
it
was not
human
language
To
as Sanskrit,
Hebrew or
!)
Icelandic (and
from the
Icelandic
was nothing,
in
my opinion.
pushed back more than ten thousand years, and here were we,
stranded at the vestibule, so to speak, of
modem
times.
That so
freely
many words of
was
in itself some-
To
be
or became
The
life is
what we make
is
how we
who
get
see
it
given
factually, historically,
The
let
one
seems
least to
understand
But
me
It
on
from
dictionary to encyclopaedia
was only
natural, in
to meaning, in
we were
all,
tracking
down,
that for
deeper treatment
we must
paedia.
The
the
cross-reference.
To know what
a specific
know
it
is
And
never known.
we would
be on
whence
which men
bled, tortured
and
killed
one another.
Now
there
edition)
if
one wishes to
pass a pleasant,
at the Ubrary,
by
all
means
start
with
word such as ** mysteries." It will lead you far and wide, it will send you home reeling, indifferent to food, sleep and other claims of the autonomic system. But you will never penetrate the mystery And if, as the good scholar usually does, you should be impelled *' authorities " selected by the encyclopaedic knowto go from the ** authorities " on the same subject, you will soon find alls to other your awe and reverence for the accumulated wisdom housed in
!
It is
become m^fiant
all,
in the face
of
this
buried learning.
i
Who,
after
entombed
in the encyclopaedias
!
Are they
must
Decidedly not
The
final authority
always be oneself.
field,"
But
it is
neither
sum of human wisdom (on any They have worked Hke ants and subject) which they offer us. beavers, and usually with as Uttle humor and imagination as these humble creatures. One encyclopaedia selects its authorities, another
divine
the
When
you have done with them you know a Uttle about the subject of your quest and a great deal more about things of no account.
More
you end up
If you gain at
that faculty
which Spengler
think
and which he
Nietzsche.
I
distinguishes as
The more
contribution
made me by
was to
foolish
this
of learning
the
most
article, in
* Even Annie Besant, I noticed just the other day, makes mention of her book Esoteric Christianity.
50
EARLY READING
of all pastimes.
To
one
is
has
no
evil effects,
non habit-forming.
I
of old,
opium
care,
preferable.
If
one wishes to
relax,
to enjoy surcease
from
and
moral and
then
my
would
opium
is
my
curious
that I
do
first visit to
Hken them
to the days
spent
my
*'
by an opium addict in his Httle cell. I went regularly for dose " and I got it. Often I read at random, whatever book
came
Sometimes I buried myself in technical works, to hand. or in handbooks, or the " curiosa " of Hterature. There was one
room of
which
I
the
New
York 42nd
Street Hbrary,
recaU,
countries,
many
times,
peoples) and
rat.
impeUed
as if
by an ardent
burrowed
it
in
Somenomen-
clatures alone.
seemed imperative
trance
and indeed
of ophidians.
time,
my
to study
varieties
first
and one
word Hke
**
ecliptic,"
might
set
me
would
depths
me
this side
of Scorpio.
Httle
Here
books
is
great
their
monumental
**
in effect,
may
immutable and
They
later
are almost as
I
Hmited in
at
number and
will
mention two
I
random which
by Frederick
stances
I
;
speak
my thought. The one is Symbols of Revelation, whom I met in London under pecuHar circumhundred people
in this
the other
doubt
if there are a
world
who would
51
THEBOOKSINMYLIFE
be interested in the
of,
latter
book.
It is
is
know
though the
religion
this
subject, apocatastasis,
of
and philosophy.
One of
At
with
work
is
the error in
spelling
made by
reads
:
type,
it
apocastasis.
is
mask (from
of definiis
London) which
and
is
Since
tions
have spoken
at
and
me
word as by Funk
place
apocatastasis,
&
"Wagnall's
previous
or
condition
complete restoration.
"2. Theology.
of
The
God of
3.
those
who
The
died impenitent.
periodic return of a revolving
"
Astronomy.
its
body
from
to the
same point in
In a footnote
orbit."
on page 4 Santiago
(Paris,
is
Virgile
by J. Carcopino
" Apocatastasis
1930)
the
word which
It is also
the
word
the
to health."
it
for Frederick Carter's Uttle hook Symbols of Revelation may be of interest to know that it was the author of this book who suppUed D. H. Lawrence with invaluable material for the
As
writing of Apocalypse.
also given
I
me, through
his
hope one day to write Draco and the Ecliptic. This, the seal or capstone to my " autobiographical novels," as they are called, I trust
will prove to
as a
The
I
of
all Httle
books of course
is
suppose
52
EARLY READING
in
its
condensation of thought.
its
As
philosophy of Hfe
it
not only
holds
own
by other
my
in every respect.
which wholly
apart
humor.
who comes
a few centuries
we do not we come to
and
the
it is
:
humor
The
Sermon on
and
but
I
the
Mount
is
of wisdom
may
it
be a more
doubt that
contains greater
wisdom.
of course, utterly
devoid of humor.
Two
all
Httle
to my way of thinking, are Balzac's Seraphita and Hermann Hesse's Siddhartha. Seraphita I first read in French, at a period when my French was none too good. The man who put the book in my hands employed that artful strategy I spoke of he said almost nothing about the book except that it was earHer Coming from him, this was incentive enough. a book for me. It was indeed a book " for me." It came exactly at the right moment
their
own,
in
I
my
life
and
it
had
have
since, if
may put it thus, " experimented " with it by handing it to people who were not ready to read it. I learned a great deal from these
experiments.
indeed,
a
to
Seraphita
is
which make
or
it
their
way
unaided.
Either
it
converts
man
make
at
It is
it
more widely
Indeed,
never
few.
be
by
a chosen
of its career
it
Are we not
student
to kiss the
out,
who,
hand
wrote Seraphita
and
its
it is
book
begin
real
THE BOOKS
German
any
India.
It
IN
MY
LIFE
Germanafter
It
was a book
fruit
had to read
visit
at
cost because, so
was
told, it
was the
of Hesse's
it
to
translated into
EngHsh* and
Suddenly
sent
was
difficult
for
me,
found myself
translator,
in
German, one
me by my
original version
when
me several
my
of the flavor or substance of the book because of my very rusty knowledge of German.
is
Often
since I
have remarked to
friends,
and there
truth in
though
know
word of any of
conceived an overwhelming
to India.
which
my
appetite.
Long
before
had
Buddha.
tion never
The
Prince of Enlightenment
fit
Somehow,
that appella-
seemed to
Jesus.
A man
of sorrow
my conception
a responsive
chord in
me
it
seemed to
bum
associated, rightly or
I
as sin, guilt,
To
this
day
prefer the
guru to a Christian
twelve
disciples.
About
aura, so precious to
I I
the guru there is, and always will me, of " enlightenment."
at
as
with Seraphita^
know
with quoting
for
An
English version
is
nov/ promised by
New
Directions.
54
EARLY READING
Another reproach they [his friends] levelled at me I also found to be quite just they accused me of lacking in a sense of reahty. Neither my writings nor my paintings do in actual fact conform to reaHty, and when I compose I often forget all the things that an educated reader demands of a good book and above all I am lacking in a true
:
I see that
inadvertently
when
man with
it is
!
world
hand,
be no end to
Only too
true, alas
Each time
I feel
impelled to advocate a
with
all
me
I sit
new book
^I
create
anguish,
more
have spoken of
my
letter-
writing mania.
have told
all
how
down,
it.
after closing a
good
?
But
it is
The very
the ones
men
seek to interest
critics,
editors,
are
least affected
by
my
enthusiastic howls.
is
in fact, that
my
I
recommendation
lose interest in a
and publishers to
or for which
I
book.
vmte
doomed.*
"
situation.
As
this
Do
me
be nothing
too,
on
identify
whom
am
trying to aid.
(Some
have
situation,
I
They
are aiding
me, not
:
them
!)
Of
always put
it
to myself this
way
"
!
book
him
What
sustenance
"
their
own may
was because of
my
a letter, in the
is
* An exception is Really the Blues, which, in the French version, carries form of a preface, under my signature. This book, I am told, selling Uke hot cakes. However, I take no credit for this it would have
;
sold
as
well without
my
preface.
55
The Absolute
Collective^
exists
only in manu-
and
others,
many
of
others, that I
and mercurial
world what
tribe
editors
and publishers
who
dictate to the
we
shall
particularly, I
able.
imagin-
A
It
naive than
tears.
shed
edition.
Do you
suppose
?
this
individual
was moved by
six
my
unrestrained emotion
It
months
to answer,
which
employ, that " they " (always the dark hones) had
come
that
my man
was unsuitable
for their
list.
by Homer
and
Faulkner,
whom
it
The impHcation
to the bait
It is
!
was
^find
we
will
jump
Fantastic as
may
sound,
it is
exaaly
how
editors think.
this vice
However,
of mine,
as I see
it, is
fanatics,
types.
my
to
my
Blaise
I fail
may be guilty of indiscretion, I may be regarded as a naive dolt, I may be criticized justly or unjustly for my taste, or lack of it I may be guilty, in the highest sense, of " tampering " with the destiny of others I may be writing myself down as one more ** propagandist," but^how am I injuring anyone I am no longer a young man^ I am, to be exact, fifty-eight years of age. (" Je me nomme Louis Salavin.")
doing any serious harm.
; ;
am
Instead
find the
contrary
taking place.
Perhaps
my
extravagant statements do
and
sincere, in
any
case.
And
so,
i(l
am
guilty, I
I
beg pardon in
EARLY READING
me
should
I
But
back
my
words.
The
my
whole
me
to this declaration
of love and
adoration.
57
Ill
BLAISE
CENDRARS
the
first
Cendrars was
stay in Paris,*
me
up, during
I
my
I
and the
last
man
saw on leaving
train for
Paris.
had just
Rocamadour and
was having a
d'Orleans
my
me
sat
a few words
him of
my
Then
last
me
come from
a sea organ.
few
his
feet, his
thoughts were
I
manner of subterranean
again, never
passages.
left
shirt-sleeves,
from him
look
dreaming that
was
my
is
last
at Paris.
translated
in France, in his
own
language came
I
time
too proficient.
who knows
Httle French.
read
it
slowly, with
It
by
my
side, shifting
from one
cafe to another.
was
comer of
I
began
lines
remember well
the day.
he
may be
pleased, touched
I first
know
that
it
was in
opened
his
book.
Moravagine was probably the second or third book which
I
had
Only
it.
of
to
reread
lived in Paris
58
BLAISE CENDRARS
discover
that
my memory
Here
it.
is
remember
as clearly as the
day
I first
read
It
of page 77 (Editions
I tell
Grasset, 1926).
you of things
also
. .
that
start.
There was
(Does
this
water-closet pipes.
my
dear Cendrars
i)
Immediately
engraved in
two
more deeply
I
my
Foret* which
read
them not
to brag of
my
powers of
memory
the freest
man
is
always something that binds one that Hberty, independence do not exist, and I am full of contempt for, and at the same time take pleasure in, my helplessness.
2.
reaHse that
contemplative
all
am
a sort of
Brahmin
and scorns
in reverse,
disciplines himself
existence.
Or
who,
form.
to
furiously, calmly,
punching
watches
his
What
virtuosity^
what
rates
science,
!
what
which he
accele-
how
equal imperturbability,
I, I know how to take punishment and with serenity I fructify and with serenity destroy myself in short, work in the world not so much to enjoy
:
as
to
make
others enjoy
(it's
others*
reflexes
that give
me
pleasure,
not
my
own).
Only
can ever attain serenity and, to be in despair, you must have loved a good deal and 5//// love the ti'orld.'f
These
last
two
are
passages have
many
times
cited
many
times
more
as the years
go by.
They
the author's
Panama and
On
the
which
are
about
the
American reader
gets to
1929.
59
uncles.'^
Blaise Cendrars
is
he
is
man of many
parts.
He
is
also a
man of many
books,
** and kinds of books, and by that I do not mean " good " bad " but books so different one from another that he gives the
many
impression of evolving in
truly.
all
directions at once.
An evolved man,
And this
His
individual
who
")
is
also a
The most
solitudes
!
gregarious
of
men and
yet
soUtary.
A man
Life fu^t
The
logic
of life.
capital L.
That's Cendrars.
To home
follow his career from the time he sHps out of his parents*
in Neufchatel, a
boy of fifteen or
secretes
of the
Occupation when he
silence, is something to make The itinerary of his wanderings is more difficult to follow than Marco Polo's, whose trajectory, incidentally, he seems to have crossed and recrossed a number of times. One of
me
is
the resemI
memory with
which often
as
have
all
he comes
closer than
any
common
life
source of
word and
him
to
He
restores to
contemporary
* See chapter 12, " Homer of the Trans-siberian," Cape & Harrison Smith, New York, 1923,
Orient Express
Jonathan
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Blaise Ccndrars
BLAISE CBNDRARS
dangerous or inaccessible.
to appreciate the truth
types,
of this statement.)
He
all
including
bandits,
revolutionaries
and other
varieties
of fanatic.
according to his
knowing every
making
his
He has tried out no less than thirty-six metiers, own words, but, like Balzac, gives the impression of metier. He was once a juggler, for example on
at the
same time
that Chaplin
was
;
d^but there
he had made
eye.
it.
But read
his Hfe
There
more
Yes, he
is
by taking up
his lot
with
this
is,
thought of being called " a student getting " his story " by a process of osmosis
What man who would scorn the of Hfe." He has the faculty of
his fellow creatures.
;
he seems to seek
his
nothing deliberately.
Which
is
why, no doubt,
own
he
story
is
To
be
sure,
possesses
is
what he
is
vitally interested in
the
mutative enables
it
him
to reveal
men to
causes
him
human,
world.
faculties
He is
of poet,
and prophet.
An innovator
and
initiator,
ever
the
first
made known
I
to us the real
pioneers,
the
real
adventurers,
contemporaries.
More
dear to us "
le bel
aujourd'hui."
all levels
Whilst performing on
On
imagine
he knows them
jungle,
liners,
all,
on
in the great
on trains, trams, tramps and ocean museums and libraries of Europe, Asia and
Africa,
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
has photographed rare documents, and, for
stolen invaluable books, scripts,
all I
all
documents of
^why not,
(les
considering the enormity of his appetite for the rare, the curious, the
forbidden
He
how
the
Germans
Boches
destroyed or carried
off,
Ubrary, precious to a
precise data
man like
Cendrars
who
most
books.
when referring to a passage from one of his favorite Thank God, his memory is aHve and functions Hke a faithful
machine.
his
An incredible memory,
recent books
Lotissement du Ciel,
who have
read
more
Foudroye, Bottr-
linguer,
Le
Cendrars it seems as though almost everything of account has been done " on the side " ^he has translated the works
On the sidewith
and our
own
is
friend of
loi
O. Henry.* What
in English
wonderful translation
is
Hors-la-
which
a sort
It is
another
must say
in passing,
is
editors
have
overlooked. There
a fortune in
unless
am all wet,
and
it
would
its
way
is
Al Jennings' pocket.)
fascinating aspects
of Cendrars' temperament
artist.
Picture
him, shortly
World War,
!
La Sirene
What
an opportunity
To him we owe
an edition
of Le5 Chants
In everything an innovator,
at
La Sirene
is
now
a valuable
collector's item.
collaboration
first
over-
Whether it be
is
man of genius,
up, the
first
a tyro with
promise, Cendrars
* Cendrars has
the
first
to look
him
to herald him,
also translated
Al Caponc's autobiography.
62
BLAISE CENDRARS
the
first
to aid
him
in the
here.
way
the person
most
desires.
speak with
signal
justifiable
warmth
No
at
me
more
Blaise Cendrars
who,
forget that
of
his signature in
after.
was
before
he appeared
Seurat.)
and
this is
something
in order to
which happens
wring
tion.
to
me
rarely
that
in
down
my hands
as a
with joy or
despair,
me
my
as
implacably
I
I
gunman pressing a rod against one's spine. Oh, yes, carried away by exaltation in reading a man's work. But
to something other than exaltation.
all
I
am
talking
of a sensation in which
I
and confused.
me
cold.
Not once, but a number of times. And I am not exactly a ham, when it comes to taking it on the chin Yes, mon cher Cendrars, you not
!
It
has taken
me
days,
Even
years later,
can put
my
hand
to the spot
where
caught the
blow and
left
feel the
old smart.
You
me
is
you
me
I
scarred, dazed,
that the
I
better
susceptible
become.
" to take
come forward
as I
it."
/ am your meat,
have so
And it is because I beHeve I am not unique in this, because wish others to enjoy this uncommon experience, that I continue to
put in
I I
wherever,
can.
incautiously said
"the
better
know you."
My dear Cendrars,
will never
No
matter
know you not as I do other men, of that I am certain. how thoroughly you reveal yourself I shall never get
I
to the
bottom of you.
will,
and
it is
not
You
inspire,
No, encountering
63
you, whether in person or through the written word, you leave the
there
is
to give. Indeed,
as
you
are
one
of the few
that
You
give
all
It is
the
No
men
clutching, for
whom
these
sensitivity,
so
awaken
talk to
you
you inside out. When I read you or am always aware of your inexhaustible awareness you
room
us
what
is
on your mind or
in
and the room vibrate with the tumult of the dty whose Hfe is sustained
by
history has
become your
you
talk
whose
life is
and yours
theirs,
and
as
or write
all these
web which
us,
the spider in
you
have
ceaselessly spins
your
listeners, until
it,
everything,
.
would like to recommend to all who are interested in knowing more about the man. Both are entitled Blaise Cendrars. One is by Jacques-Henry Lev&que (Editions de la Nouvelle Critique, Paris,
I
by Louis
on
Both contain
a
biblio-
graphies, excerpts
number of photo-
French
life. Those who do not read may glean a surprising knowledge of this enigmatic individual
alone.
(It is
amazing what
spice
and vitaHty
by
New
Directions.
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BLAISE CENDRARS
Ycs one can glean a lot about Cendrars just
from studying
his
physiognomy.
He
portraits
including ModigUani,
take a
good look
of the two books I just mentioned at this " gueule " which
some
There
one photo of him taken in uniform during the days of the Foreign
left
burning
from beneath
it
is
hand so
the
with
powerful and
sensitive left
hand
most of his
shaved
name
to innumerable letters
his
and post
cards,
it is
with
hand
that
he has
hacked
way through jungles, punched his way through brawls, defended himself, shot at men and beasts, clapped his copains on the back, greeted with a warm clasp a long lost dend and caressed the
his
women
called
is
taken in 192 1
a tooth missing,
ear.
1
'Vx
The
ux
is
On die
opposite page
is
a photo taken
by Raymonc
in 1924,
when he was
legs spread
-.
working on VOr
apart, his left
{StUter*s Gold).
m^ot
to his
a taunting gleam in
*'
of ftank, good-natured
defiance.
I'm fine
his look.
taken with
Lev^que
vitality.
In 1928
we
by
the thousands.
fit,
It is
conk
has
soft
brim upturned.
He
65
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
a
the Antarctic.
beUeve
it
was
Dan
Yackt the
But
it is
in 1944 that
we
catch a
gUmpse of
le
vieux
Legionnaire
This
is
the
he
is
the
fiilly
me one of his major books. Here man composed of many rich layers
bruiser,
roustabout, tramp,
sailor,
adventurer,
soldier,
man of
a thousand-and-one hard,
bitter experiences
who
ripened.
at
Un homme,
which he
quoi
One,
of hand
tricks.
The
other catches
is
meditative, if not
It is
of the atmosphere of
the Midi.
One
his pensive
mood, hushed by
I
**
the
unseizable thoughts
force myself to
aspects
that's
draw
what.
ones.
rein. I
physiognomic
It's
mug
forget.
human,
Human
Hke Chinese
Many
that his
style, that
he lacks
all
sense
of form,
that
he
is
too
much
altogether there
let
is,
us
remember(w?y
They
reflect the
critic,
But supposing,
we
not Uving
more "
*
h not this period of history more fantastic, simulacrum of it which we see unrolled
Pushkin
Press,
Title
Antarctic
Fugue
London, 1948.
66
"
BLAISE CENDRARS
on
the silver screen
?
As
have we forgotten
?
Gilles
As
for hyperbole,
what of Pindar
As
for prolixity
?
As
for lack
its
of form,
which
I
is
always kicking up
not
aspect
riot
of Hindu
which
i
arc studded
with a
of human,
Have I not seen them twisting their Hps when examining the amazing efflorescences embodied in
?
Tibetan
control
i
scrolls
No
taste,
eh
No
sense
of proportion
!
No
C'est ca.
De
la
These cultured
as
well as apotheoses of
harmony,
grace,
form and
spirit
which Brancusi or
The
very mythology of these worshippers of beauty, whose motto was " Nothing to the extreme," is a revelation of the ** monstrous
aspect
of their being.
is
Oui, Cendrars
swell
full
There are
detours,
which
also a
books. Cendrars neither cribs and cabins, nor does he drain himself
completely.
it is
When
the
moment comes
brief,
When
expedient or efficacious to be
he
is
like a dagger.
To me
his
books
of fixed
habits, or
!)
which
which some
We who
we
We who
are
we
to be daunted
by
THE BOOKS
are
IN
MY
LIFE
the play of words,
we
to ahy
away from
It
takes a
man
when he
stop.
is
about to unleash
A
also
man
deep-
whale.
whale of a man,
that this
precisely.
What
of the
is
remarkable
is
given us some
poems and
prose poems.
Here, in staccato
rhythmlet
!
^he
deploys a telegraphic
might
also
be
called
"
telesthetic/')
One
can read
it
as
Chinese, with
whose written
curious affinity, to
my way
of thinking.
syntax,
from
in speech.
we
one of
An
don't
Cendrars
indeed
difficult
I
why we
I
should want to
**
classify
him
know. Sometimes
is
think of him as
definitely
not
that.
But what
mean
much
to learn
from Cendrars. In
as
school, I
remember,
we were
Coleridge,
models
Ruskin, or
Edmund Burke
even de Maupassant.
I
don't
No
to be writers
Cendrars has
is
made
it
Hfe itself
What a writer learns from Cendrars is to follow his nose, to obey Ufe's commands, to worship no other god but life. Some interpreters will
have
it
that Cendrars
life."
don't believe
all
thus.
He means
all its
is
life
aspects, all
its
is
ramifications,
what
life.
not. If he
an adventurer, he
an adventurer in
all
realms of
What
interests
him
is
every phase
of life. The
subjects
he has
of" emancipation,"
It is
this all-inclusive
manifestations.
often
"
realistic,"
for
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BLAISE CENDRARS
example, that he tends to pull
is
all
is
the stops
in front
on
his organ.
The
realist
meagre
soul.
He
sees
what
is
blinders.
Cendrars* vision
perpetually open
his
it is
almost as if he
all
the
rays.
may
step ahead
is
of him. Besides,
hfe.
life
one with
An
6,
.
Lettres, Paris,
August
more books
an astounding pro-
now
no
secretary, that
he writes with
his left
hand, that he
is
restless
more of the world, writing and looks upon his work as forced
**
He works on four or five books at a time. He will finish them am certain. I only pray that I Uve to read the trilogy of les
**
souvenirs humains
consist
obscurs.
I
called Archives de de
lettres,
ma
tour d'ivoire,
which
will
of
Hommes
Homtnes
.
.
d'affaires
.
and Vie
des homnies
He
True
remember
rightly.
it.
At
any
tion
rate,
what
between
his fecundity
is
and
his sleeplessness.
individual sleep
the restorative.
Exceptional individualsholy
leaders,
men of affairs,
Httle sleep.
v^
are able to
do with very
They
apparently have
^
^s^\
dynamic
potential.
Some men,
more and
to
no
sleep.
more
alive, virtually
emancipate them-
from the
thrall
of sleep.
fullest ?)
(Why
of Ufe
is
With
Cendrars,
from
and vice
he
replenishes himself
at a loss to
Otherwise
am
of
account for a
at
of long-Uved antecedents.
He
69
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IN
MY
LIFE
upon
He
when he reaches the ripe age of seventy he will be ready to embark on new adventures. It will not surprise me in the least if he does I can see him at ninety scaling the Himalayas or
confident that
;
first rocket to voyage to the moon. come back to the relation between his writing and his sleeplessness ... If one examines the dates given at the end of his books, indicating the time he spent on them, one is struck by the rapidity with which he executed them as well as by the speed with
embarking in the
But
to
which
(all
All this
my
is
**
obsession."
is it
To
write
What
that possesses
and
Life.
He is
et c*est tout.
no matter if he compares
his
own
recent past with the present and finds the latter lacking,
no
behavior of the
profound and
And
it is
of contemporary
all
life,
where,
as if firom a
and
of the
stars as
well
as the
life
life
grandiose,
seized
upon him
as
life.
of the
past
no one can
It is
with
greater zest
glorifies
but
it is
which he
such men,
who
who
carry on.
The
it is
is
others are
backward
mere wraiths of
hopefiilness,
bonimenteurs.
strike ore.
And
it
because he
it,
and
one with
that
Not
he
sets
himself up
casually
soothsayer
;
No,
his prophetic
and
discreetly
this
material.
In
he often reminds
to
me of
In
the
good
physician.
all
He knows how
70
fact,
he knows
the
BLAISE CENDRARS
pulses, like the
When
he says of certain
men men
of certain
artists
fekes,
It is
the
magister in
him which
is
speaking.
He has, however, another way of speaking which is more endearing me. He can speak with tenderness. Lawrence, it will be remembered, originally thought of calling the book known as Lady
to
Chatterleys Lover
by
the
title
" Tenderness."
mention Lawrence's
name
because
remember
him on
I
the
occasion of his
memorable
"
You must
repHed.
do,"
We exchanged a few words and then I recall him asking me fair and
square if
I
It
was the
gathered, that
was not
to his liking,
was "
(And
it
was just
at this
!)
period that
was engrossed in
rate, that
of Lawrence
am sure,
at
any
my
weak and
unsustained.
To
be truthful,
view of the
Cendrars
I was much more interested in hearing Cendrars* man than in justifying my own. Often, later, in reading
this
word
my lips.
Futile
It
would escape
it
involuntarily, rouse
me from my
They
is
reverie.
though
be, I
in endless speculation,
are, I
comparing Lawrence's
think,
now
of two
distinct
Lawrence's weakness
Lawrence
longed to
them.
he wanted to work in
common with
most moving
It is
some of
the
passages
real
on the withering of the " " anguish in usfor Lawrence. They make us
societal
instinct.
They
create
Cendrars
no
In the ocean of
he
is
them
a solitary, he
is
nevertheless
He
is
of
all
men.
man. Lawrence
is
think that
undeniable
man who
71
when we come
rift
we
sense the
With
self portraits,
Rod and
such
like, all
moved about
in
them
all right,
Cendrars*
from
life
and
life's
moving
vortex.
They
too,
philosophy of life,
The
tenderness
all
pores.
He
does not
neither does
he
revile or castigate
them. His
me
whose work he
find
is
you
him
passing
judgment upon
What you do
his subjects
of
he
human
being.
^which crowd
^human,
all
too
his
books are
They may or may not have been heroic in the face of death may or may not have been heroic before the tribunal ofjustice but they are heroic in the common struggle to assert and uphold their own primal being. I mentioned a while ago the book by Al
they
;
The very
choice of this
this
book
is
indicative
of
my
point.
outlaw
'*
who is
'*
up
for life
by Theodore Roosevelt),
vvdth tenderness,
is
this terror
of
man Cendrars would choose to tell the world about, just the sort of man he would uphold as being filled vdth the dignity of life. Ah, how I should like to have been there when Cendrars eventually caught up
the
just the sort
of
with him, in Hollywood of all places Cendrars has written of this ** brief encounter " and I heard of it myself from Al Jennings* own
!
Hps
when
few
years ago
in a
bookshop
there in
Hollywood.
much
to
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BLAISB CENDRARS
say about the
it
was
less
War the First War, naturally, not only because inhuman but because the future course of his life,
was decided by
preceding
it.
might
say,
He
the
of
Paris
and the
incredible
Haunting
pages,
St.
reminiscent
of
Revelation.
Exup6ry*s
Flight to Arras.
Le
Lotissement du Ciel,
which
first
Un Nouveau
so naked,
recoils.
In
all
these recent
books
gUmpses he permits us
that
one
instinctively
it is
So
sure, swift
Uke
watching a safecracker
at
work. In these
his
own.
lurid searchHght
Here there
is
omitted or altered for the sake of the narrative. With these books the " narrative " is stepped up,
sort.
is
of a
Nothing
part
of
life,
swim with
life's
currents,
with
Hfe.
grips
with
men Cendrars truly loves, the men he fought beside in the trenches
and whom he saw wiped out hke rats, the Gypsies of the Zone
whom
he consorted with in the good old days, the ranchers and other
South American scene, the porters, concierges, tradesmen, truck drivers, and " people of no account " (as we say),
figures firom the
and
it
is
What a gallery Infinitely more cxdting, in every sense of the word, than Balzac's gallery of " types." This
treats these latter.
is
the real
Human Comedy. No
la
sociological studies, k
Zola.
No
la
satirical
puppet show, i
Thackeray.
No
pan-humanity, ^
Jules
Romains. Here
purpose of the great Russian, but perhaps with another aim which
we
violence,
any rate, with equal amplitude, humor, tenderness and rehgious ^yes, reHgious fervor,
\^
works
as
Brothers Karamaxov. \
* Editions DenoSl,
Paris,
73
ripe
Everything
times.
now
?
^where
into
the
multiform story of
his life.
This heavy,
refined,
its
rudimentary
time
wings,
this
at the exact
to be set off.
From
June,
194.0, to
silent.
is
awesomely
II
Chut
Motus
What
starts
him
writing again
Edouard
Peisson, as he relates
la plus terrible
que
v&ue." There were other occasions, one suspects, before the critical visit of his friend Peisson, which might have served to
detonate the charge.
the fuse
burned
damp
world
events.
But
let us
drop these
Let us
.
R^my
where
a
de Gourmont's
"
And
it
that,
women
lines
few
comes
..."
In
Beginning on May loth, Surrealism descended upon not the works of absurd poets who pretend to be such and who, at most, arc but sou-realistes since they preach the subconscious, but the work of Christ, the oiily poet of the sur-real If ever I had faith, it was on that day that grace should have touched me
earth
:
. . . .
.
thus
The sun had stopped. The weather forecast announced an ami-cyclone lasting forty days. It couldn't be For
!
74
BLAISE CBNDRARS
which
reason
everything
went
wrong
gear-wheels
would not
lock,
down
The next
remain in
my mempry
humanity was far from adequate Above, the sky was like a backside with gleaming buttocks and the sun an inflamed anus. What else but shit could ever have issued from it ? And modem man screamed with fear .
loth,
I
No, on May
to the event.
Lord
This
man of August
least
tea.
who
is
exploding in
all
directions at once,
of books, not
day, being the
among them, we
shall
his
parts
("Je
voudrais rester
VAnonymey* he
says.)
In the books
begun
at
fiom
on Genoa), which
French
an everlasting
men of letters
crowd, night-
and the vast necropoli of of Solomon's Temple, translator of Faust, personal secretary to the Queen of Sheba, Druid of the ist and 2nd class, sentimental vagabond of the fle-deFrance, last of the Valois, child of Paris, lips of gold, you hung younelf in the mouth of a sewer after shooting your poems up to the sky and now your shade swings ever before them, ever larger and larger, between NotreDame and Saint-Merry, and your fiery Chimearas range this square of the heavens like six dishevelled and terrifying comets. By your appeal to the New Spirit you for ever disturbed our feeling today and nowadays men could not go on living wimout this anxiety
the East
architect
: :
already passed
str.
Ill,
the
New
Spirit calls
v.
9)
75
On
the
following
page 244, in the same body of notes, Cendrars states the " The other day I was sixty and it is only today, as I reach
:
tale,
that
begin to believe in
it,
my vocation of
writer
thirty
/*
who
your
Be
glad that
still
you
are
still
garnering experience,
to dwell
on many
of
of
feasts,
drunken bouts,
humorous
individuals,
with extraordinary
fantasies,
I
reminiscences
would
at
more
the reader has most likely never heard of, the variety, nature, style
would like
to
Vendetta,
of Sawo the
Gypsy
would
finish a
like to
of France where,
hoping to
the page
line or
book
in peace
idleness, reverie
least
and drink ; I would like to have given the reader at an inkling of that hair-raising story of the " homuncuU " which
Cendrars recounts at length in Bourlinguer (the section called " G^es "), but if I were to dip into these extravaganzas I should
jump
La
book
received
from Cendrars,
the
one
called
by La Guilde du
Livre,
Lausanne.
sincere,
It is illustrated
ment
76
the text.
Dc nouveau unc
!
belle collaboration.
is
(Vive
les
The
text
fairly short
BLAISE CBNDR
But haunting pages, written sur
le vif.
A R
on
would be worth
preserving.
But
of
mon-
trous jargon
document, which
is
an excellent
example of
his virtuosity.
In
memory he moves
as if
in
on the suburbs
a
from
East, South,
armed with
magic
wand,
resuscitates the
frustration,
one compact paragraph, the second in the section called " Nord," Cendrars gives a graphic, physical summary of all that
vast belt. In
terrain.
It is
a bird's-eye
view of the
which follow
in the
wake of industry.
of the interior of one of England's war plants, " a shadow factory," which is in utter contrast to the foregoing. It is a
us a detailed description
masterful piece of reportage in which the cannon plays the role of vedette.
But
makes
it
clear
for.
where he
**
no stomach
Mieux vaut
un vagabond,"
his
he volplanes over the eternal bloody war business and, with a cry of
shame
figures
for the
of the
last
by
who
coming
carnival
of
They belong,
And
:
finally, for
"
?
Who
are
Referring
to
let us
know what
It is
may
us.
this
No
mere document,
book.
something
should Hke to
77
THE BOOKS
own
It
IN
MY
LIFE
carry with
in a breast-pocket edition, to
me
should
. .
I
.
ever
wander
forth again.
has been
my lot to prowl the streets, by night as well as day, of of woe and misery, not only here in my
In their
spirit
cities
worst.
my past I can
of
scarcely see anything else, smell anything else but these festering
empty
lom,
and
jerries indiscriminately
creatures
moments
a
of high
fettle I
my way
I
What
poem
Ofin
teeth,
recovered
my
by
I
rages,
by
who would
I
eventually
whose domicile
Robert Doisneau gives us in one of the photos, to think that this man ** also made music " in that crazy building is something which makes
have
my spirit
is
assimilate, to
with' a chemist's
But Cendrars
Salut, cher
!
has succeeded,
is
why
take
Blaise Cendrars
You
And glory be
We
sort.
as
We
as vitrioHc diatribes.
thirst
have need of comforting words and you give them as well When I say " we " I mean all of us. Ours is a
unquenchable for an eye such
as yours,
and
heals at the
your historic touch, your velvety backward sweep of the plume. Yes,
History
left
has
us
78
BLAISE CENDRARS
a
few names,
bric-a-brac.
did
a few absurd monuments and a veritable chaos of The one race which inhabited these shores and which not mar the work of God was the redskins. Today they occupy
the wastelands.
sort
For their
**
protection "
has
we have
organized a pious
of concentration camp.
It
torture,
no armed guards.
camiot end on
secret
is
But
this
of those
up. There
Satie's
window is
the kind
mean. Wherever
cluster
of
the earth, as
wc
say, for
without them
is
we would
be
left
to starve,
thrown
to the dogs
and which
we
pounce on Uke wolves would have only the savor of death and revenge.
Through
I
those oblong
the bedding
hangs
can see
sundown,
when we
get to understand
human speech, by an angel in disguise. What matter if with the coflfee one swallows a mislaid emmenagogue What matter if a stray roach
?
Looking
at Hfe
from the
still
rear
window one
can look
down
mirror in
which the days of desperation merge with the days of joy, the days
of peace, and the days of deepest friendship.
this
Especially
do
I feel
way, think
all
this
way, when
look into
**
my
French backyard.
a pattern.
I
There
sec
no waste motion.
fiend.
clear as
to a chess
" Sweet
The music it gives oflf is as simple as were AUce Ben Bolt " to my childish ears. More,
H. Rider Haggard
says in his autobiography
the strains
of
beautiful,
for as Sir
truth
is
when
it tells
of evil."
My dear
in
you must
at times
me
for
that
and vomited
a child
As
you
played by Virgil's
tomb
in the
as
a mere lad
young man,
as a
for alms
your
own
you were on
.
the
bum
in
New
far,
York, Boston,
New
Orleans, Frisco
You
have roamed
the candle at
you have
both ends, you have made &iends and enemies, you have dared to
write the truth,
still
your prime,
building
to
Hue
is
live
both in the
How fooHsh,
how
absurd of
me
to think that
for
putting in
my Htde word
cause.
You
life as
you do you
to you.
I
bow in reverence.
I
Once again I doff my hat I have not the right to salute you because
life is lived.
am
prefer to remain
disciple,
your
spiritual
that
You always close your greetings with " ma main amie." I warm left hand you proffer and I wring it with joy,
and with an everlasting benediction on
with
gratitude,
my
Hps.
80
IV
RIDER HAGGARD
Since mentioning Rider Haggard's name, his book, She, has fallen
into
my
hands.
have
now
it,
my
first
glance at the
I feel
book
remember.
impeUed
to relate, as quietly
I
and restrained
am now
I
experiencing as a result of
second reading.
To
begin with,
must confess
that
not until
came
recollection
of reading
The Plain of K6r," did I have the faintest a word of this startling book before. I was
creature called
Ayesha (She)
I anticipated.
overcame
{The
me upon coming
!)
face to face
femme fatale
name of this
in
ageless beauty,*
who
a
again,
occupies
position
at
least,
my
mind
comparable
Troy
is
to the
Sim
in the galaxy
of immortal
lovers, all
of them cursed
say
it
with
certitude,
is
real.
She
superthe
web of such
is
almost deserves
Helen
is
legendary, mythical
de
la htt^rature.
Ayesha
She
is
and
race
I
incarnate.
we
Germanic
Hterature.
But before
dates firom
this narrative,
which
me
speak
of
my own
character
and identity
which
it.
write this
as
book
keep jotting
down
It is
the
titles
of books
have read,
they return to
memory.
game which
has taken
it I
The primary one is that I am rediscovering my own which, unknown to me, had been smothered or stifled
of certain books.
in the pages
That
is
who
acted as
my
had
also
it) lost
myself
And
For,
what happens
to
me
every day
now
is
the
mere
recollection
of a forgotten
of
reality
my
former
selves.
beginning
to take
am coming
It is I
almost as if
were embarked on
I
journey to Tibet
less
have
and
less
need to make
on and
myself go on,
crab-wise, as seems to be
my
destiny.
Not
for naught,
perceive
attached
such importance to "the boys in the street," our Hfe together, our gropings for truth, our struggle to understand the perverse order of
society in
we
wisdom, two
traditions,
boyhood we came
:
instruction
the one
to guard, and
we
but diaboUcally
false
and perverted.
The one kind of instruction nourished us, the other undermined us. And I mean this " literally and in every sense," to use Rimbaud's
expression.
is
If
he were allowed
inclinations,
own
instincts,
his
own
radical transformation as to
make
cower and
cringe.
RIDER HAGGARD
it
would
reflect justice,
It
would
accelerate
of
life,
augment
life.
And what
?
could be
more
"
bas I'histoire
"
(Rimbaud's words.)
?
Do you
begin to see
the pregnancy
of them
to
q.t.,
which we devoured
stealthily at all
!
night
we
discussed in the
light,
own
of
construction or a cave
gathering, for
bers
we
always met
of a secret order
!
blood brothers,
as
mem-
of Youth
these
instruction, part
of our Spartan
discipline
They were
if
who from
our
elders,
and to prolong,
possible, the
We
that
some of them
looked back on
;
hallowed
suspicion
we had no
as
conflict."
We
did not
know
that
we were
htde primitives, or
We
knew
that
we were
sufiicient.
ment of our
adults.
we
less
For most of
of veneration, much
authority as best
saying.
of
idolatry.
We
their
dubious
we
could
it
and
at great odds,
goes without
Our
by
law, and
we
truly
respected,
That
we
understood
this
law was
revealed
inferences
we played, that is, by the way we played we drew from the way the various players We estabHshed genuine hierarchies we passed
;
judgment according
of understanding, our
as
We
well
We
had
faith,
cipline.
of power and
We
He
83
"
who
and he never
I
beyond
his
time
it
amazes
me
all
We
experience a
thrill
we suddenly
find ourselves
among
man.
primitive
early
merit
it permits us to " primitive peoples has respect, deep respect, for these " ancestors
** I mean now the true primitives." The study of anthropology has one great Uve again as youths. The true student of
who
exist side
finds that
inferior
grow up.** He man in the early stages of his development is in no wise to man in the later stages some have even found early
by
side
with us but
who do
not
**
man
**
to be superior, in
late
man. ** Early ** and " are here used according to the vulgar acceptation of the
most
respects, to late
terms.
We
know
young or
decadent.
homo
sapiens,**
much.
There
is
such
as
the
Cro-Magnon,
baffle us
hgence and
aesthetic sensibiHty.
own species,
**
whom we
I
con-
writers.
moment
**
or "
esoteric
writers, are
** sometimes termed " occult " accredited. They are for second
childhood"
Rider
(sic).
is
Haggard
one
of those imaginative
streams.
writers
who
as a
many
We
think of
him now
let his
name
Perhaps only
when our
scientific explorers
upon
we
recognize
" What
is
imagination ?
**
asks
:
his narrative.
And he
answers
it is
was
Hved
entirely.
It
was imagin-
84
RIDER HAGGARD
ation
fired
by
his
reading of
Homer,
to
go
And what of Jacob Boehme the first white man alive ? What an epic
Caill^,
!
What of
that intrepid
Frenchman,
to enter
became acquainted
am overwhelmed
by
my
first
sonality, the
Holy
Grail, resurrection
as
via such
**
romancers "
and
others,
many
beUefs
Sir
myths and
fact.
superstitious
SchHemann,
Madame
another,
defeat
pioneers had been busy unveiling the truth in one realm after
all
interlocked,
paralysis
us.
all
and
in
which the
of the Nineteenth
Century held
splendor
;
When I stood amid the ruins of Knossos my thoughts turn to school books, to my
the enchanting tales they told us
I
?
No.
thought of the
stories
I
had read
as a child
saw the
;
illustrations
of those books
had
we had
all
indulged
in.
recalled
my own
themes connected with past and future. Looking out over the plain
and
how
vividly
the
tale
of the Argonauts.
I
of Tiryns
my
wonder books
ing me.
to
^it
make Hving
able to read.
With what
!
childhke faith does the hardy explorer pursue his grim task
We
85
The
men who
if
given
how
frightening to parents
own
private
notions.
As
write
I recall
momentous
this subject
my
first
child
and myself.
was
in the kitchen
it
followed
had gotten
in the Httle
'*
room.
heard her ask, almost frantically you begin ? How ? " So deep in thought was
Suddenly
me
bien en retard.
door
just as her
words penetrated
my
i
consciousness.
And
at that
very
moment
?
on a
Where
"
Why
there !
Anywhere
I
!*'
And
wood
launched into
a brilliant, devastating
feet.
monologue
that Hterally
fiill
I
I
knowing
what
up.
What
I
paprika, so to speak,
disgust
recollection
my
experiences
about,
in school.
knot of wood,
how it came
instinct,
what
it
wisdom,
and experience.
Everything
is
so divinely connected,
so beautifully interrelated
how
Whatever we touch,
are
It
see,
smell or hear,
It is
on
velvet.
like
works by
is
itself,
creates
own
traction
and momentum.
:
There
no need
kind of
to
**
the lesson
;
itself is a
enchantment.
thirsts.
The
child longs to
And so
thrall
86
ftlDJiR
(
ttAGGARD
To what
rise,
may
go, to
pupil deaf,
a task to confront
The
bom
of love and
all,
patience.
But above
patience.
Whoever
came
When
when
Dante
.
to read
later in Paris I
roamed through
by
there
the very straw they slept on, these ardent students of the Middle
Ages),
when
I
part played in
by
university students
lifelike
(who were
I
the runners),
when
thought of that
education
in such places as
when
which
by such
figures
of the pubHc
Haywood, Jim Larkin, Hubert Harrison and such like, I was more than ever convinced that as boys, on our own, we were on
Bill
we had
vital process,
one acquired
I
in the midst
Hfe.
all
felt
Dante and
When my
Hindu messenger boys in the telegraph company told me of Tagore's famous " Shantiniketan," when I read of Ramakrishna's bright
abode,
when
birds, I
knew
that
the world
is
conducted today
disastrous.
in foul
we
stunted, martyrized.
bas
^oles
Vive
Once
What
proved a
fiasco
I shall
read
all
him
as I
the others.
which
tame ducks,
If needs be,
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
Certainly it shall overtake us, Behold the lot of man and we shall sleep. Certainly, too, we shall awake and Hve again, and again shall sleep, and so on and so on, through periods, spaces, and times, from aeon unto aeon, till the world is dead, and the worlds beyond the world are dead, and naught Hveth save the Spirit that is life
!
.
in the
tombs of Kor.
a phrase as the
If he
last
**
A
as
and
is Life.**
was
sent to church
much
falls
on deaf ears.
only
when one
the
is
becomes awake
twenty,
that
words
The Church
wholly
when
no
it
jumble and
" savage "
confusion.
receives.
There
is
initiation,
common
Nor
The world
apart.
and utterly
Jesus
do not conform to
travail,
sense
until
one has
become
.
and abandoned.
That there
Hfe,
He
He
He
of his primitive
forbears,
he rcHves
own
orderto
Neither
parents,
teachers
this all-important
domain
of youth.
a
in
as a
boy,
I feel
exactly like
member of
Some,
like
Alain-Foumier
order of youth.
this secret
made
to suffer.
book,
88
RIDBR HAGGARD
eyes, marvelling
over
its
we
are
we
are
own
it
fate.
More
than ever do
beUeve that
age
becomes
Else
we
may go
knowing who we
are or
why we
Hved,
A stonyhearted mother is our earth, and stones are the~> bread she gives her children for their daily food. Stones to eat and bitter water for their thirst, and stripes for/
tender nurture.
boy wonders
if it
be truly thus.
Such thoughts
fill
him with
it
He wonders
again
when he
of good Cometh
evil
troubles him.
Of such
But
mere echo.
He
surmises that he
it is
when Ayesha explains that it is not by force but by when she exclaims "My empire is of the
it is
"
then a
boy
is
The imagination
legislators
He
"the undenominated
There
is
of the
some-
world."
Well he has
There
not.
question of dominion
!
over
it.
is
the hint
at least for a
boy
that
if
man
only
oflfers
he would
realize
them
to the
full.
if fleeting,
and
firustration are
but
by man and imposed by man upon himself and his feUow man ... In this fleeting moment one is shaken to the roots. One begins to question everything. The result, needless
to say,
is
that
he
!
is
ridicule.
"
Thou
art foolish,
my
son
"
That
is
the refrain.
as
Some
will be even
more
more
impenetrable.
Some
will send
him
reeling to
And
hand.
No,
more one
stands alone.
is
cast irrevocably.
One joins up
or one
takes
to the jungle.
From boy
to
wage
judgeit
all
One
us by.
Meanwhile
life passes
Our
a
we have
only to
murmur
few words of gratitude and our pcrsecuton accept our reverence. Only one hope remains to become oneself tyrant and executioner.
Place of Life,"
his stance as a
boy,
Tomb
man
**
liuing death.
feith,
There
as there is
only
in his celebrated
work, The
would not be
I
rash
enough
to say that a
is
a statement but
it
much
nearer to understanding
"wise"
adult.
Rimbaud
that
sphinx of
modem
literature
we
have reason to
this idea.
In a study devoted to
I felt
him*
that
he had pre-
empted
this
domain.
his
back
on
*'
toil,
committed
suicide.
In the hell of
Aden he
asks
What
In
Voyant
"It
we have intimations of a thought which Levi has expressed thus may be understood in a day to come that seeing is actually
is
a twilight
of eternal
their
It is
by boys
:
"
We
that
exists
speech
it
may
be uttered in vain,
The ordinary
*
Serialized
difficult to
in
and
New
Directions XI.
90
RIDER HAGGARD
Even
the writer, particularly the
is
"cultured"
writer, for
whom
thought unpalatable.
is
" in
neither
is
him
to swallow.
Our
home
in a
trend
to
am not thinking altogether of the sadistic the fore I am thinking rather of the
;
unknown
whose impinge-
reality has
now become
scientists,
Our grown-up
beyond the moon.
boys, the
moon
our children
are ready, at
They
Vega
and beyond.
They beg
intolerant
intellects
to furnish
cosmogony and
If
new cosmology.
said to
Rimbaud may be
truly
have broken
with chagrin
and
modem
^view
win
his
contemporaries over to a
if
new
of man,
he surrendered
all
desire to
estabHsh a
earth,
apparently.
The rhythm of time has been accelerated almost beyond comprehension. We are moving towards the day, and with frightening speed, when past, present and future wiU appear as one. The millennium ahead will not resemble, in duration, any like period in the past. It may be like the wink of an eye. But to return to She The chapter in which Ayesha is consumed in the flame of life an extraordinary piece of writing
. .
.
It
is
burned into
my
being.
was
at this
It
came awake
had
and remembered.
me
all
these years.
That
I
difficulty in
summoning
it
attribute to the
inspired.
which Haggard
is
One
privileged, as
were, to
assist
91
secret
which Ues
enhanced.
we
are
made
It is
to participate in a
at the Place
of
Life,
me remind
Life
us,
What he
and that
the miracle
of death
what happens
in
between
is
movement engendering it. The deathless beauty of Ayesha, her seeming immortaHty, her wisdom which is ageless, her powers of sorcery and enchantment,
the
life
and death,
as
as a
of Nature.
That which
her,
is
Ayesha,
and
at the
And what
could the
Spirit
No
less
endowed with her matchless hunger, patience and The love which alone can transform the soul of Nature is divine love. Time counts for naught when spirit and soul are The splendor of neither can be made manifest except divorced. through union. Man, the only creature possessed of a dual nature, remains a riddle unto himself, keeps revolving on the wheel of The drama life and death, until he pierces the enigma of identity.
fortitude.
of
love,
which
is
the highest he
may
it
the
key to the mystery. One law, one being, one faith, one race of " To die means to be cut oflf, not to cease being." man. Aye
!
life,
man
Ayesha,
which was
time,
in her.
The beloved
Kallikrates, her
twin
soul,
killed
by Ayesha's
is
for
for
incestuous
murder
arrestation.
is
doomed
RIDER
assumes
flesh
HAGGARD
which
pass
once again.
The
generations of time
from
is
another.
Ayesha's Devachan
is
There she
as
as the soul in
limbo.
His image
is
Possessive
in
life,
Ayesha
is
itself in
bums
in
She has
all
time, seem-
which
weigh her
her emotions.
An
endless time
yet
more
bom
of despair,
a faith
which
will be tested
veil
The
veil
which
no mortal man
will
has penetrated
^her
be removed,
tom from
moment.
Then
move forward
the
Then
With
be no
coming of
Isis,
this final
being.
to
whom
she had
sworn
now
is
eternally.
nature of one*s
tme
identity
up in the manner
of
great
its tail.
To summarize
is
this
of
his
theme,
do an
But there
is
a duality in
Rider
Haggard which
intrigues
me
enormously.
An
earth-bound indivi-
orthodox in
his beHefs,
though
fiill
practical
wisdom,
this
man who
is
reticent
one might
say, reveals
through
his
which
amazing.
His method of
at
fiill
93
by
way
to
of previous
incarnations.
In spinning
however,
is
him
form and
spell
of the
recital.
With
not
on
who may
know
me
proceed to expose
some of
his
by which
knowing.
real to
me.
Everything
my
childhood legacy.
Through the talcs interwoven with the legend and romance of King Arthur and his Knights of the Round Table
had become acquainted with other legendary and
deathless
other
also familiar to
rites
of the dead,
mention
all this
may
put
it
that
way.
But
struck just the right tone, the right level of understanding for a
first
time.
was
at the Place
of Life that
wound.
life,
Just as
Ayesha had
of
thereby condemning herself to a prolonged purgatorial existence, so had I been dealt a " Htde " death, I suspect, on closing this book
some
my
visions
Sacrifice,
may
exclaim
"
Ayesha,
that
HlDEft
to me. Only once
is it given to
HAGGAltD
The import
I
itself,
life.
of
this
dawns slowly,
vciry slowly,
raw
experience, against
wisdom
"
Whoever
has not
not become
so through death."*
beUeve
reUgious teachings.
cut off,
To
die," as
not to cease."
Cut
off
from what
From
everything
all,
from
love, participation,
life.
from
Youth
is
is
one kind of
aliveness.
It is
it
world of
spirit.
To
of hfe
itself is as disastrous as to
worship power.
Only wisdom
is
eternally renewable.
Httle.
He
has not only lost his youth, he has lost his innocence.
He
"What
life,
We
Saw," which
**
:
affects
me
as
deeply
now
as it
Ayesha locked up
worked but
wisdom of the
centuries,
Mankind."
And
:
which
then he adds this sentence, upon " Thus she opposed herself to the
it
nothingness
One
and history
who
of man
Lucifer, Prometheus,
. . .
Akhnaton, Ashoka,
Jesus,
Mahomet, Napoleon
his
One
Yet
" crime."
arc revered.
saint.
firmly believe,
is
closer to
God
than the
forces
by Erich
95
The
for
man,
the
whole goal
This
of man.
is
It is
stream, of becoming
Rilly alive,
Identity
!
the
word which, on
It is
has
come
to haunt
as
me.
which caused
such books
Caheza de Vaca,
Siddhartha^ to exercise
began
my
writing
about myself
fictive
"What
a fatuous task
What
"
of one's
life
We
by reading [Winckelman],"
Similarly
I
said Goethe,
"
we
become something."
might say
^we
reveal nothing
of ourselves by
I
but
we do some-
who had
found that
had
received
something.
Is it
myself ?
myself.
seem
and to find
is
all
seeming.
is
The
is
conflict,
which
if
not hidden
certainly smothered,
{Spirit
for
me
to the
reader's
amazement, no doubton
romance called She, forgetting that I dedicated the cornerstone of my autobiography to " Her." How very much there was of " She " in
" Her "
black
!
pit.
Like " She," " Her " also strove desperately to give
others,
me
hfc,
beauty,
even
if
magic of words. " Her's " too was an endless immolation, a waiting (in
how
awfiil a sense
!)
And
if
me
of
fear
and jealousy
fearfiil
What was
others.
the secret of
Her
for
terrible beauty.
Her
power over
Her contempt
i
Her
aime
slavish minions, if
?
I
The
me
it.
of my identity
In
at the
very
moment
image
when
96
Her
RIDER HAGGARD
of the
In
slaiii
some
strange, twisted
I
of immortalizing Her,
thought
thought
I
could
make
it
live again
in truth.
All
wound
I
that
had been
inflicted
it
upon me.
the
this,
The wound
still
lives,
comes
remembrance of what
not
that.
was.
**
was not
I
The "
notness
is
"
isness."
all
see
the
made
recognize
father,
the Circes
who
me
in their thrall.
found
my
I
And
found
at last that
one.
the grave of Clytemnestra,
I
reUved
Greek
tragedies
which nourished
me more
I
than did
CUmbing down
I
which
described in the
book on Greece,
did as a
experienced the
of Kor.
It
seems to
me
that I
many
that,
a bottomless pit,
is
many
is
chamel house.
But what
more
vivid
still,
more
I
awe-inspiring,
the
remembrance
whenever in
my
life
of the female,
Fear,
?
and
What
is
other
than
now am,
of being
fit
Why, do we
not sometimes
ask ourselves,
why
Why do
There
at the
is
a sentence in She
which
is
strikingly penetrative.
It
comes
moment when
that physical
As yet
may
are different,
bum
to
when
read
boy
!)
THE BOOKS
No
matter
IN
MT
LIFB
I
how much
come
back inevitably to the one and only book, the book of myself ** Can I be/' says Miguel de Unamuno, " as I believe myself or
as others believe
me
to be
Here
is
where
Here
these lines
become a
create the
my unknown
myself
and unknowable mc
is
for
where
These
lines
came nearer
believer~feii
I
any~^ook
was to
have
>y
Ilie
book which
monument
to Her, the
book
I
in
which
deliver
the
**
secret," I did
years ago.
five years.
And
then, having
begun
it,
put
it
Tropic of Capricorn
was intended
to be the cornerstone
of
this
monumental work.
It is
I
more
this
like a vestibule
or ante-
chamber.
The
truth
is
that
wrote
dread book* in
my
head
made
of the
magnum
I
opus during
and
utterly desolate.
I
now
laid
Life
my
it.
life
with Her.
Of what stupen!
composed
All
until
is
voyage,
We
we
have
reached
is
To employ
the
word
reality
to say
myth and
To
oneself in chaos.
We
**
know
are.
not whence
we come
nor whither
we
our
who we
We set sail
on sometimes Hke
we
arrive at
of realization
or
else as
unrecognizable
pulp from which the essence of life has been squashed. But let us word ** failure " which attaches itself to
is
When the
to brother
Theo
Tlie
Rosy
Crucifixion.
98
"
RIOBR HAGGARD
in Vincent's case, that to his art,
his
was rather
case
of " martyrdom
we
realize
**
with
the
most glorious
failures
Professor
Dandieu
states that
most
living
of the
dead,"
we
this
our feverish
activity.
Montaigne from
the centuries.
his
**
retreat
" throws a
The
Failure,
me
of
erase
from
my
If Life
and
It
when
revealed to us.
We
often
despite
ourselves.
tically to
We
fran-
we attach ourselves to leaders, we worship the gods instead of the One and Only, we lose ourselves in the labyrinth, we fly to distant
shores
we
from
us
till
the last
moment.
99
"
V
JEAN GIONO
It
was
stores
It
which
books, that
first
came
worb.
her soul
who
!
literally
upon
nic the
book
called
(The Joy of
Mans
for
Desiring).
In 1939, after
making
a pilgrimage to
Manosquc
bought
latter
me Jean
le
read
on
Greece.
Both
lost in
my
wanderings.
On
one of the
editors
all
of the Viking
and through
him
that has
sadly confess.
I
Between times
with Giono,
who
Manosque.
How
often
him
a
on
the occasion of
my
visit to his
home
he
I
his
books. But if
I
And
find,
many
wide world.
Some,
know him
Harvest
No
films,
No
same way
as
he
used to
nor, after seeing The Baker's Wife, does one think of the
levity.
. .
.
But
few moments ago, tenderly flipping the pages of his books, I was saying to myself " Tenderize your finger tips Make yourself
:
now
of
JBAN GIONO
Jean Giono.
ears,
I
I
do not say
that
my words my audience
have
fallen
upon deaf
I
do not doubt
Press in
Viking
New
Giono
York, for
am
able
own
idiom.
tongue and,
at the risk
I
of sounding
immodest,
in his
own
But, as ever,
continue to think of
who must
wait
books are
translated.
that
whom
think
could even
^in
sway the
Austraha,
is
of those
who
England,
spoken. But
who
can
I
hold, in a
manner of speaking,
nor examples,
in this,
my native
land.
shall
Arabic,
publishers to
Mans
like
Desiring
was looking
Orion "looking
curious.
*
have never been able to show people things. It's I have always been reproached for It. They say No one sees what you mean.'
I
:
Nothing could
I
way
I feel at
times. Hesitatingly
add
this sense
of
frustration.
Otherwise
am
incontrovertible logic
his publishers
this
always silence me, his works have not spread Uke wildfire on
continent.
silenced,
to. I may be am not convinced. On the other hand, I must confess that I do not know the formula for " success," as publishers use the term. I doubt if they do either. Nor do I think a man like Giono would thank me for making him a commercial success.
I
am
but
lOI
TM
BOOKS
IN
MY
LIFB
certainly.
He would
like to
be retd more,
What
who
see
what he means.
Herbert Read paid him a high tribute in a paper written during the War. He referred to him as the " peasant-anarchist." (I am
sure his publishers are not keen to advertise such a label
!)
do
as peasant
or anarchist, though
to be sure.)
Giono
is
is
an
anarchist, then so
Thoreau.
If
Giono
a peasant, then so
was Tolstoy.
But we do
regarding
figiures in
them from
in his narratives
Giono
philosophic adumbrations.
When
book
he touches a
man
was
like
our
own
Herman
them),
Melville, in the
(which
translated for
is
Giono
and, what
is
even
This Giono
a poet.
in his prose.
through
Giono
reveals his
power
rank,
to captivate
everywhere, regardless of
the legacy left
class, status
or pursuit.
him by
his
by
his father,
of
whom
he has written
vintages, lend
As
in
which he
is
which
it
never
fails
to manifest
itself,
only a wizard,
relate cause
own
Faulkner,
Giono has
own
private
far closer
to reaUty than
a region over
It is
which the
a land in
stars
pulsations.
which
happen
to
men
as
Pan
still
The
with cosmic
juices.
Miracles occur.
And
whom
womb
women have
their
;o2
JBAN lONO
troubadors, in the daily doings of humble,
unknown
peasants,
present.
an endless
line
In Giono's
freedom
And with
all
this a
If we look back on the ten years preceding the outbreak of the war, the years of steep incline into disaster, then the significant figures in the French scene are not the
of the Acad^mie, but Giono, the peasant-anarchist, Bemanos, the integral Christian, and Br6ton, the These are the significant figures, and they super-realist. are positive figures, creative because destructive, moral Apparendy in their revolt against contemporary values.
they are disparate figures, working in different spheres,
human
consciousness
but in
and include within their points of contact nothing that compromising, reactionary or decadent ; but contain everything that is positive, revolutionary, and creative
is
of a
new and
enduring world.*
all
books.
In Refusal
to
in
James Cooney's
Uttle
know,
Such
diatribes
do not help
to
When
the next
is
marked
exaggerated, distorted,
interest
most
very ones to be
is
vilified,
to be called
an impassioned utterance
Boy.
:
It
begins
Politics
103
THE BOOKS
I
IN
MY
LIFE
don't
began. At
recall
remember how my friendship for Louis David this moment, as I speak of him, I can no longer
my pure youth, the enchantment of the magicians and of the days. I am steeped in blood. Beyond this book there is a deep wound from which all men of my age are suffering. This side of the page is soiled with pus and
darkness
If
. .
.
you
had only died for honorable things ; if your litde But, no. First they deceived you and then they
(Louis)
you
in the war.
to
do with
I
this
France that
l
?
helped,
it
seems, to preserve, as
What shall we do with it, we who have lost all our friends Ah If it were a question of defending rivers, hills, mountains, skies,
is
winds, rains, I would say, * Willingly. our job. Let us fight. All our happiness in life is No, we have defended the sham name of all that.
I I
That
there.*
When
tree
'
river
when
I
see a tree,
exist.
say
never say
France.'
Ah
that
How willingly
would
!
give
away
that false
name
one single one of those dead, the simplest, the most Nothing can be put into humble, might Hve again the scales with the human heart. They are all the time talking about God It is God who gave the tiny shove with His finger to the pendulum of the clock of blood at the instant me child dropped from its mother's womb. They are always talking about God, when the only product of His good workmanship, the only thing that is godhke, the hfe that He alone can create, in spite of all your science of bespectacled idiots, that life you destroy at will in an infamous mortar of slime and spit, with the blessing of What logic all your churches. There is no glory in being French. There is only one
! !
glory
in being alive.
When I read
statements.
\
a passage
hke
I
this I
am inclined
I said
to
make
I I
is
extravagant
Somewhere
beHeve
I
that if
had to choose
have the same
a hundred, a
It
thousand, times
great
itself
was the
democracy
104
JEAN GIONO
have frequently printed the word Democracy. Yet cannot too often repeat that it is a word the real gist of which still sleeps, quite unawakened, notwithstanding the resonance and the many angry tempests out of which its syllables have come, from pen and tongue. It is a great word, whose history, I suppose, remains unwritten, because
I
We
be enacted.*
a traitor, not even if he
Obey,
put
it
is
thus,
and
repeat
"I
say there
it
condemn
liim as an arch-enemy.
is
Giono
its
is
not a
traitor.
its
Society
is
a traitor to
fine principles,
empty
principles.
Society
is
constantly looking
spirit."
for victims
What was
the "
will
first
Goethe
said to
Eckermann
"
Men
time
I
become more
more
acute
or
is
at least
only
when God
hour in the
will break
up everything
planned to
for a
this
renewed
creation.
am
are
aheady fixed
..."
The
my
presence
how
curious
We
had
We
spoke of those
who
had never
of those
who were
We
Fort
his brethren,
was
frantically searching
my memory
could think
a great role.
illustrious
names
I
Goethe and da
tells
Then
what
his father
meant
to him.
* From Democratic
Vistas.
105
TBS BOOKS
If
I
IN
MY
LIPI
have such love for the memory of my father, it I can never separate myself from his inuge, if time cannot cut the thread, it is because in the experience of every single day I realize all that he has done for me. He was the first to recognize my sensuousncss. He was the first to see, with his gray eyes, that sensuousness that made me touch a wall and imagine the roughness like porous skin. That sensuousness that prevented me firom learning music, putting a higher price on the intoxication of listening than on the joy of being skillfiil, that sensuousness that made me like a drop of water pierced by the sun, pierced by the shapes and colors in the world, bearing in truth, like a drop of water, the form, the color, the sound, the
begins, if
sensation, physically in
my
flesh
broke nothing, tore nothing in me, stifled nothing, With the effaced nothing with his moistened finger. prescience of an insect he gave the remedies to the Htde larva diat I was one day this, the next day that he weighted me with plants, trees, earth, men hills, women, grief,
: ;
He
goodness, pride,
in prevision
all
these as remedies,
all
these as provision,
of what might be a running sore, but which, thanks to him, became an immense sun within me.
close
Towards the
says his father,
fiither
"
Where
made
a mistake,"
was when
helpfiil.
You
this.
will
make
Heart-rending words.
I
weep again
all
weep
who have striven to be " good and helpfiil." For those even though they know in their hearts that it is a mistake." What we know is nothing compared to what we feel impelled to do out of the goodness of our hearts. Wisdom can never be transmitted from one to another. And in the ultimate do we not abandon wisdom for love
myself, for
are
*'
who
still
striving,
There
is
Franchesc Odripano.
*
When
my
father said,
he
can put out wounds all about him like so many lamps.' But I was not so sure. I said, * If you put out all the lamps. Papa, you won t be able to sec anv more.' At that moment the velvet eyes were still and diey were
looking beyond
io6
my
glorious youth.
JIAN lONO
* the wounds illumine. That Odripono a good deal. He has had experience. If he can stay young amongst us it is because he is a poet. Do you know what poetry is ? Do you know that what he says is poetry ? Do you know mat, son ? It is essential to real^ that. Now listen. I, too, have had my experiences, and I teU you that you must put out the wounds. If, when you get to be a man, you know these two things, poetry and the science of extinguishing wounds, then you will be a man.*
*
That
is
true,*
he
replied,
is
true.
You
listen to
beg the
from
Giono*s worb. If
moment
that
most everyone
day
was
familiar
to have
made
"
I
friend
that practically
his
You mean
" At any
books
At
least
some of them,** he
said.
rate,
they certainly
I
story,"
repUed.
know what he stands for.** "That*s another " You're lucky to move in such circles. I have quite
about Giono.
I
another story to
editors
tell
his
How
to ready that*s
classes
all
of readers. Let
me
cite
it
them
Sponges,
who
absorb
nearly in
the
same
state,
only a
Httle dirtied.
2.
Sand-glasses,
who
retain nothing,
Strain-bags,
who
retain
4.
Mogul diamonds,
read,
who
profit
by
what they
it also.
Most of us belong
first
one of the
I
And now
wish
make an observation connected with the lending of Giono*s books. The few I possess among them The Song of the World and Lovers are
to
never Losers,
which
I sec I
all
who expressed
means
that I
visitors
a desire to
number of
but that
Scrihnpr's,
New
yorlc,^i947.
107
"
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well.
IN
MY
I
LIFB
a response
To no
author
such
as hailed the
reading of Giono.
!
The reactions have been virtually Thank you, thank you " that is the
!
he could
make nothing of Giono, and that was a man dying of cancer. I had lent him The Joy of Mans Desiring. He was one of those "successful
" business
to sustain him.
The
of
others,
men who had achieved everything and found nothing I think we may regard his verdict as exceptional. and they include men and women of all ages, all walks
diverse views, the
Ufe,
most con**
flicting
they had in
common was
a thirst for
These are
my
private
It is
statistics,
which
maintain are
as
vaHd
as
the pubhsher's.
the
hungry and
thirsty
who wiU
I
eventually
There
is
often thrust
is
upon
friends
and acquaintances
in
some
a
strange
way
It is
me
something
about writing.
It is
man who is
it is
mad.
communication so naked, so
with
reality,
is
desperate, that
We
and
Had he
been merely
his
baptismal work,
the dancer.
I
it
mention
this
have scanned
it is
it
closely.
Though
I
to say so,
I
book
for writers.
can-
way, but
must say
Boy he gives
us the genesis
of a writer,
telling
practiced writer.
that
is
One
feels
with the consummate art of a that he is a " bom writer." One feels
it
he might also be a painter, a musician (despite what he says). It the " Storyteller's Story," I'histoire de I'histoire. It peels away the
wrappings in which
being.
It
the
embryonic
textbook dipped
JEAN GIONO
in the
magic
all
fluid
of the medium
It
it
expouncts.
it
It
source of
creative activity.
It is
breathes,
palpitates, it
renews the
blood stream.
the kind of
tell
he has
alas.
at least
one story to
book which every man who thinks could write but which he never does,
are telling over
It is
the story
which authors
myriad
disguises.
Seldom does
it
come
straight
first.
from
the deHvery
it is
room.
a
Usually
it is
Usually
given
name which is
features
of his
art.
It
whole
narrative.
the
world
..."
just this.
The
result
is
that
we
as the player.
is
That
he
musician because,
as
says,
he thought
it
more important
good
listener,
who
as if
we
we had
written
them
We
no longer know,
Giono or
whether
we
are Hstening to
to ourselves.
we are Hstening. We Hve through his words and in them, as naturally as if we were respiring at a comfortable altitude or floating on the bosom of the deep or swooping like a hawk with the down-draught of
a canyon.
trial
The
;
effluvium
it is
perpetually
laved
by cosmic
Giono
gives us
men,
and
beasts
and gods
to descend
He
has seen
no need
He
deals in galaxies
constellations, in
as
troupes, herds,
and
flocks, in biological
plasm
weU
as
primal
hills
magma
as
well as the
and streams which surround them, have the tang, the aroma, the
vigor and the spice of string herbs.
redolent of the Midi.
They
When we
;
pronounce them
we
revive the
memory of
other times
unknowingly we
that Atlantis
inhale a whifl"
of the
African shore.
We suspect
was not so
distant either in
time or space.
* Et bien
niietix qtC
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It is
IN
MY
LIFE
little
Colline, published
author
known
at
which was
awarded
For the French public, the Prix Brentano owes its imporTo begin with, it is the first American Foundation to crown a French work and to insure the pubHcation of that work in America. The mere fact that it comes firom abroad Vitranger, cette " arouses contemporaine a lively interest postiriti
tance to various novel features.
was composed of foreigners gave ample assurance that there could, be no propaganie ae chapetle here, no manoeuvres of cliques such as must necessarily attend French prize-awards. Finally the material value of the prize itself proved of good augur.
again, the fact that the jury
Twenty
years since
firom
new books
first
Giono
And just a few months ago I received two Un Roi Sans Divertissement and No^the
two of
a series of twenty.
thirty years old
series
of " Chroniques" he
calls
them.
He was
in his
when
Colline
won
now,
fifties,
he has projected a
series
several
have already been written. Just before the war started he had
his celebrated translation
begun
years, in
of the book.
he explains
book which followed Pour Saluer Melville Mohy Dick was his constant companion for years during his walks over the hiUs. He had lived with the book and it had become a part of him. It was
inevitable that
public.
I
it
known
it
to the Frcndi
and
seems to
me
an
has
inspired one.
not one of
my
I
favorites.
Mohy Dick
always been a sort of bete noir for me. But in reading the French
version,
that
I
which
will
Melville,
some day read the book. After reading Pour which is a poet's interpretation of a poet " a pure
Saluer
in ven-
ue
JBAN GIONO
tion," as
in a letter
**
was
How
own
often
who
authors
Walt Whitman by
the subject.
a
I
Frenchman who
Europe.)
a
think, too,
by-word throughout
see
of
language
always
standing of language.
tion.
It is
communion
communica-
Even
in translation
some of
JJ)^
translator
expressed
apprehension that
readers.
the
It is
certain
how
askance
French authors are regarded by Anglo-Saxons. Even some of the good CathoHc writers of France are looked upon as " immoral."
It
always reminds
The Wild Ass' Skin. All he needed was to see the name Balzac. That was enough to convince him that the book was " immoral."
(Fortunately he never caught
me
I)
My father,
a line
line
of Balzac.
writer he
c'est inoui,
mais
c'est vrai
Ruskin
nearly
fell
when he
did
not
know how
it
I dis-
covered that
him
was
to Christ
his
who was
responsible.
times
it is
be,
it
book based on
literature.)
from
French
fdm
to
eating
and drinking.
It
is
a feature
When we
have such a
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scene
it is
IN
MY
LIFE
participants. In France,
is
sensual as well as
at
these scenes.
a repast al fresco.
Httle
**
Then
are
we even more
take food for
moved,
for truly
we know
outdoors.
The Frenchman
We
nourishment or because
we
if he is a man of the cities, is closer to the soil He does not tamper with or refine away the products of the soil. He relishes the homely meals as much as the creations of the gourmet. He Hkes things fresh, not canned or refrigerated. And almost every Frenchman knows how to cook. I have never met a Frenchman who did not know how to make such a simple thing as an omelette, for example. But I know plenty of Americans who cannot even boil an egg.
Naturally,
cocktails,
ale.
Not The
!
variety
-Ki
of them, the
And
let
me
women who,
inspire
good
conversation.
banquets for
only
How we
repels
How we
that
what
the pleasure
are not a
to be derived
We
We
do not need
to read
La Peau
which
beasts are
uniforms.
And when
mean
the garb
which
are
men
in
neither are
we members of
the sign
a great
democrats, communists,
socialists
nor
are
mob. And
There
There
is
by which we
known
vulgarity.
characters
may be lust, camaUty, sensuality but not vulgarity. His may indulge in sexual intercourse occasionally, they may
JBAN GIONO
even be said to " fornicate/* but in these indulgences there
anything horripilating
soldiers abroad.
as in Malaparte's descriptions
is
is
never
of American
resort to the
Never
a French writer
a
obhged to
mannerisms of Lawrence in
book such
as
whom
he has
much
in
common, by
to the
the
way.
He
plateau
on
handful of men,
how pitifiiUy
few,
like a bull."
Escaped Cock.
Still
enough breath
Redeemer
content
man
man
met Giono
able to divert
railing
it
of his life. Even the boy Giono would have been him from some of his errors. Lawrence was forever
what was
that first
**
decadent,**
in the French.
^his
nose was
Lawrence so
:
filled
with
Giono in hymns
of
Hfe,
Lawrence in hymns of
**
Just as
himself in his
region,*' so has
of art.
On the contrary,
nowhere.
resurrection
of man, but
He wandered over the earth Uke a lost He exploited the novel to preach the himself perished miserably. I owe a great
These observations and comparisons are
debt to D. H. Lawrence.
not intended
indications
as
a rejection of the
man, they
of
his limitations.
Just because I
am
also
an Anglo-
Saxon,
We have
all
us a terrible need
of France.
luidl I die.
have said
it
I shall
probably do so
Vive
la
France
"3
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It
f B
was jmt
five
months ago
I
that
moment
had an unexpected
from
a literary agent
whom I knew
He
is
the sort
of individual
who on
hbrary
at
is
first,
you.
And when he
does look
at
you he
sees
exploitable in you.
thought,
that his
for, if
is
said flady.
Saluer Melville.
explained
" he demanded.
told him what they had written me. " That's not the real reason," he replied, and proceeded to give me what he " knew " to be the real reason.
"
And even
it,
if
is
true," said
I
I,
" though
don't
beheve
It is
book which
it."
want
to see published.
a beautifiil book.
fact," I
" In
that
it
added,
my
is
is
such
said
doesn't matter a
I
damn
me
to have done.
He
I
looked
at
as if to
asserted
but
answered simply
"I love
them
that
That seemed
he was not
to stop
him
in his tracks.
as
was
certain,
moreover,
be.
as familiar
with Giono
he pretended to
that the
What
certain
he wanted to
period was
tell
Giono of a
much
better
"
Giono would, of
small talk
course,
have been
Giono. This
is
the sort of
circles in
a perpetual ferment.
When
this
was
as if the
man Giono.
It
out.
this
whenever
happens, whenever a
universal acclaim,
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JBAN GIONO
it is
somehow
perhaps
book
is
a true reflection
of
the author.
It is as
it is
though
until that
Or
not.
moment the man did not exist. man existed but the writer did
man would
He dreams
In their
He
Hves the
life
it
which he
;
he Hves
"
he dreams
order to live
it.
"
successfiil
work some
full
image of themselves
that
image
succeeding ones.
The
first
how much
is
image
is
the
Sometimes
it is
a blessing that
it
is
one
able to
image
love.
other times
rank injustice
upon
the one
is
we
That Giono
That, like
all
think of denying.
of
us,
good
it
side
and
his
bad
side, I
would
not deny
either.
In Giono's case
fully.
The
revelation
is
is
given in every
He
is
This
is
one of the
him from a host of lesser writers. Moreover, Hke Picasso, I can well " Is it necessary that everything I do prove a imagine him saying
:
masterpiece
"
Of him,
as
of Picasso,
would say
act itself
and not a
particular
work which
as
the very
body of Christ.
Supposing you have an image of a
man and
by
accident,
in a strange
way you have never beHeved him capable of Do you reject this unacceptable aspect of the man or do you incorporate it in a larger picture of him Once he revealed himself
behaving or speaking in a
?
Now
you
find
him
quite other.
so
many
aspects
of himself,
and
"5
And
the
more
baffled
by
the protean character of his being, the less qualified are they, in
my
would
at least
it is
last
little
word had
minds to
at least.
But
man
is
which
author
Should an
set
what happens ? Why, the classic avowal " He*s not the writer he used to be " Meaning, always, " he*s not
!
As
Giono
is still
a comparatively
young man.
There
critics.
He
holed,
resurrected and
until
And
those
who
enjoy
this
game,
who
make
identify
with the
art
of
interpretation, vdll
in themselves.
The
him The
until the
very
end.
The
and
again.
skeptics will
if
Whatever
is
written about a
tells
perpetually pivots
tells
around
which
way the wind is blowing but he is not of the v^nnd nor of the airs. He is like an automobile without spark plugs. A simple man who does not boast of his opinions but who is capable of being moved, a simple man who is devoted, loving and
loyal
is
you about
a writer like
man whose heart is moved, the man whose withers can still be wrung. Such men are with the writer when he orders his creation. They do not desert the writer when he moves in
learned
Trust the
ways beyond
instructive.
their understanding.
Becoming
is
their silence
and
know how
I
to hold themselves
in abeyance.
Unamuno, "
beUeve
less
and
less
in
JEAN GIONO
the social question, and in the poHtical question, and in the
question,
moral
and in
all
order that they shall not have to face resolutely the only real question
that exists
So long
as v^e are
not facing
this
question,
all
we
are
now doing is
we
shall
not hear
is
it."
Giono
who
faces this
human
question squarely.
has found himself.
accounts for
much of the
on
is
disrepute in
which he
Those
who
are active
him
that
as
a renegade.
refuse to take
him
that
not playing the game. Some seriously because he is " only a poet." Some admit
In their view he
gift for narrative
he has a marvellous
he
is
Some beHcve
Some wish us
and more.
only a dreamer.
He
the
is all
these things
He
is
man who
is
never detaches
Particularly
when he
dreaming.
as father,
mother,
brother,
He
human
family
because
human
it is
of nature. If there
is
suffering
and punishment,
strictly
ordered. There
is
room
in
it
for
all
It
who compose
sometimes
move
in contradiction
more
understandable, far
more
we
of
this
work
This then
is
everything that
that
would
like to say
would say
obhged
to
you
we
are living in
come what may, we are And in order to follow it, it is us to invent a new religion nor to discover
Above
order to explain the meaning of all it is useless to turn back
new
life
scientific theories in
or art as a guide.
again to some special activity ; it is necessary to adopt one course alone to free ourselves from the superstitions of false
Christianity and
of state
rule.
no
right,
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f)ossibility,
IN
MT
LIPI
life
to organize the
of others
that
he should
the present
ead his
own
now
reigns
among
whole world to suffer, that conforms so Uttle to the of conscience and that renders humanity more ruler, judge, miserable every day. Whatever you are landlord, worker, or tramp, reflect and have pity on your No matter how clouded your brain has become soul. through power, authority and riches, no matter how maltreated and harassed you are by poverty and humiUation, remember that you possess and manifest, as we all Why do do, a divine spirit which now asks clearly you martyrize younelf and cause suffering to everyone
voice
: *
:
with
is
whom
you come
call
in contact
?
'
Understand, rather,
who you
own
you
really are,
how
what
truly insignificant
and vulnerable
the being
you
shape, and to
is
on
immeasurably your spiritual self and having understood this, begin to live each moment to accomplish your
true mission in Hfe revealed to
you by
a universal
wisdom,
and your
own
of yourself into increasing the emancipation of your from the illusions of the flesh and into love of your neighbor, which is one and the same thing. As soon as you begin to Hve this way you will experience the joyous feehng of Hberty and well-being. You will be surprised to find that the same exterior objectives which preoccupied you and which were far from reaHzation, will no longer stand in the way of your greatest possible happiness. And ponder I know you are unhappy if you are unhappy upon what I have stated here. It is not merely imagined by me but is the result of the reflections and beUefs of the therefore, most enhghtened human hearts and spirits realize that this is the one and only way to free yourself firom your imhappiness and to discover the greatest possible
spirit
good
say to
This then
I
is
what
woula
like to
my
brothers, before
die.*
" Notice that Tolstoy speaks of " the greatest possible happiness " and the greatest possible good." I feel certain that these are the
two
*
goals
attain.
Happiness
this state
Who,
Ii8
any length on
of
Law
of Y\olencc.
JBAN ION
being
?
Who
talks
greatest
good "
To
talk
of
place in our
endless talk
There
much
agitation,
but
looked upon
animal.
as a
human being is regarded as a whole, until he is first human being and not a pohtical, social or moral
last
As
pick up Giono's
list
book
to scan once
I
am
reminded of the
made
to his
home
was
instantly
provender. In a bookcase,
number
for a
man of his
title
I
age.
look
last
!
now,
at the list as it
is
page of his
still
How many
alone
!
have
to read
And how
titles
Solitude de la Pitii^
d'Etoiles,
Le Poids
Vraies
Les
Paradis, Presentation
dePan
Often, at night,
I
go
when
I
look up
at
of Giono's world,
not read, which
I
wonder about
**
have
promise myself
will read in in
crowd them
him
also
walking about in
a look at the
for
stars,
meditating on the
work
he
renewed
it
conflicts
with
editors,
critics
is
and pubHc.
far
In such
moments
Sur there
me
that
away, in a country
called France.
is
He
is
in
an
aflinity
He
is
in that
spirit
of his mother
still
reigns,
manger
around
the
in
which he was
at the
is
bom
and where
his father
who
taught
bench
as a cobbler.
is
here there
none. That
one of the
is
between
the
New. But
is
spirit
my
own. That
119
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of
his spirit.
IN
MY
feels it
LIFE
the
One
moment one
in,
One
Giono
and
gives us the
world he Hvcs
reality. It is
would hardly
yes,
it. It is
It is
you
are a
kindred
you recognize
you
inmiediately,
were
bom or raised, what language you speak, what customs you have
follow.
A man
and
Li Po. In
Giono's
sensitive,
to be
recognize at
once
me
and
new book
of
Songs.**
variations,
far
more
Song
precious, far
more
It
is
stirring,
more
poetic,
than
the "
intimate,
personal,
cosmic,
untrammeled
the
and
ceaseless.
It
;
contains
it
the
notes
of the
lark,
nightingale,
the thrush
inaudible
it
contains
the sobs,
cries, shrieks
as
well
as
the laughter
and
ululations
of the blessed
it
In addition to this
taste,
smell
tions.
The most inanimate objects yield their mysterious vibraThe philosophy behind this symphonic production has no
its
name
**
function
is
all
soul, to
Be what thou
French ?
only be
it
to the utmost
" That
is
what
it
whispers.
Is this
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VI
INFLUENCES
I
that in
the
Appendix
am
listing allf
the books
can
why I am
that
I
doing
One
is
:
that
better reason
my
all^
\
1
favorite authors.
know
the
titles
BuTthere
still,
and
it is
this
people are
himself,
who
offered the
I
most
which ones
and so on.
intend
as strictly
I shall
chronological
include a
I
shall
few
not writen
this
at all)
whom
(for
regard
all
by
that they
had few
me)
which
are attributed
of great books.
**
countries
**
;
they
are,
all
of them, countries
me
...
and have
affected
my
thought
and behavior
as
much
as if
But
that
I
to
come back
that
If
I I
to the
fact
I
am listing
must confess
am
I
me
and
which bad.
were to
my own
criterion
would say
and those
which
are dead.
Some
it
authors
less
put
another way,
the
When these books were written, They will breathe the flame of life
discuss which
To
books belong in
this
121
in
my
is
opinion.
On
this subject
each
man
is
his
own
best judge.
He
We
is
as to the
it is
source of a man's
to
of his vitaHty
enough
know and
to
^recognize
to
that
he
I
inspired, that he
is
thoroughly aHvc.
be endless speculation
as
Despite what
have just
which
authors,
work
in his
own
list,
scanning
my
I
draw
their
own
conclusions as to
my
influences.
mystery.
pleasure to
The subject is fraught with mystery, and I leave it a know, however, that this list will give extraordinary some of my readers, perhaps chiefly to the readers of a
as it is to recall all the
I
am
shall
be able to give
half
I
repeat,
a great reader.
know who
me by
doubt
Twenty
thousand books,
perceive,
is
if I
thousand, though
may
well be in error.
list,
When
appalled
look over
my
which never
ceases to
grow,
am
by
of these books
for the mill."
Like
all
sayings, this
grain of
salt.
The
fact
men he
less
is
given to
abundant material.
books stimuthoughts
One
is,
to enjoy one's
own
for books,
uncontrolled.
Where
there
is
excessive
it.
appetite, there
must be
bfatantly obvious
that
it
our present
I
did
way of Ufe docs not offer proper nourishment. If am certain we would read less, work less, strive less. Wc
substitutes,
of
This appHcs to
realms
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INFLUENCES
We get off to a bad start. We travel the broad highway We have no definite goal or purpose, nor the fireedom of being without goal or purpose. We are, most of us,
adventure.
sleepwalkers,
and
we
would be
no excuse
lessly,
as
they Hve
aim-
If they
are already
asleep,
sleep.
become more
lethargic.
become worse
is
idlers.
And
so on.
Only
the
man who
fi:om
it
is
wide awake
is vital.
what
Such a
I
man
am
no
distinction
enjoys
what
seeks to profit,
It is
through
I
because
am
who
The advantages
to be derived
to
from
this sort
my way
of thinking, than the supposed advantages to be obtained from ordinary methods of education. Most of the books given on such Hsts
cannot begin to be understood and appreciated until one has hved
later the
whole
kit
and caboodle
influence
my
let
writings,
have
testified to
To
begin with,
me
which
came within
too.
the field of
my
who
them
in
include
As
knew
I
would put
order.
First
on me.
of
all
come
tales
legend,
myth,
of imagination,
all
\vritings,
* See Appendix for reference to authors and books touched a$ yi^eU 3S tp complete essays on certain ones.
\n
my
J23
sorts
and
all
and
injustice,
being
they formed
my
character,
my way
of looking
at Ufe,
my whole my
attitude towards woman, towards society, laws, morals, government. They determined the rhythm of my Ufe. From adolescence on, the
books
aflfected
me
only
That
is,
some
writer,
some
my
reading cannot possibly affect the whole man, his whole being.
rare.
At any
rate, the
those
who
make special demands. I took what was given me and I swallowed it. The reader who has followed me thus far has by this time gleaned the nature of my reading. The books read in boyhood I have
also
as
Henty
first
and
foremost,
others,
most
of them quite
that
I
Where
commence
first
is
at the
brink of
man-
hood, that
dreamed
that
me
as a
writer, the
on.
From
early
two becoming more and more inseparable as time went manhood on my whole activity revolved about, or
fact that F
thought of myself,
first
potentially,
as a writer.
And
so, if
my memory
Boccaccio,
serves
me
right,
here
is
my
genealogical
line
Petronius,
Rabelais,
MaeterUnck,
'^^'
Romain
Rolland,
HeracHtus,
Nietzsche,
Elie Faure,
INFLUBNC ES
Proust,
Van Gogh,
I
the Dadaists
and
Surrealists,
Balzac,
Lewis
Carroll, Nijinsky,
Rimbaud,
everything
read on
men who
version,
wrote
for
it
it
and
especially the
King James
its
message
"
which
got
first
and which
What were
character,
itself,
the subjects
which made
me
love,
which permitted
me
to be influenced,
life
?
which formed
:
my
style,
my
life
my
approach to
Broadly these
the love of
wisdom and
understanding, mystery,
the
power of language,
of man,
eternality,
of everything,
self-liberation,
relation
of sex to
all
enjoyment of
humor,
oddities
and
eccentricities in
and black),
the marvelous in
all
all aspects,
there
is
only
Have
still
I left
Fill
them
in yourself
was, and
am,
interested in everything.
Even
in politics
^when regarded
from
the
from " the perspective of the bird." But the struggle of the human
being to emancipate himself, that
prison of his
is is is,
to Uberate himself
own
making, that
is
for
me
why
why,
Hfe.
is
I fail,
in
of
so often
fail
to perceive
it,
that
why I am
figures,
who
sorts.
have experienced
to the full
religious
iconoclasts
of
all
And perhapswhy
not say
it
that
is
why
have so
little
little
me
the only
and
murtihfe.
Gautama the Buddha, Akhnaton, Ramakrishna, KrishnaThe yardstick I employ is life how men stand in relation to Not whether they succeeded in overthrowing a government, a
:
125
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IN
MY
LIFE
how
;
life itself?
For,
what
distinguishes the
their authority
men
have in mind
impose
on man
on
to destroy authority.
to
make man hungry for Hfe, to exalt life and to refer all questions back to life. They exhorted man to realize that he had all freedom
in himself, that
fate of
the
world (which
his
own individual
else.
I
problem, which
of
liberation,
nothing
And now
said that there
Hving books
"...
Several times
have
at various times,
have explained
why
I
refer to
them
now. They
at a
as
stay
would
a book.
they did
when
met them
in the flesh.
made each of
are, then,
Here they
:
and
Mills,
doubt
that I
have
Benjamin Fay
Emma
Goldman,
W.
E.
Flynn,
Jacobs,
Blaise
Cendrars.
known
it
figures.
There are
others,
of course,
Hfe,
I
my
book of hfe
feel forever
126
VII
LIVING BOOKS
Lou Jacobs,
book
I
that
can
recall at will
merely
by saying Asmodeus,
Sticks,
Curious that a
The book
I
Several times
picked
forty
years
the back of
shelf,
Next
cither.
on
the
same
was Gil
never read
Because,
It
me
to laugh at misfortune.
was
was more
of the
a prisoner than a
man
my
three-storey house in
which we shared a
with a young
man
star
who was
our
by the
ogress
who owned
talent
the house,
I
wanted
lines
that I
had no
with
were
sufficient to
corroborate the
twelve suspiciontrying
remone
the slave
lost,
who was my
away from
of
fiiends
and
parents, eating
my
(my
love
!),
who
utterly lost,
on
the floor
below
this
man
Lou
Jacobs,
who
forthwith became
my
Guide,
my
Comforter,
my
No
* " And a night comes when all is over, when so many jaws have closed upon us that we no longer have the strength to stand, and our meat hangs upon our bodies as though it had been masticated by every mouth. A mght comes when man weeps and woman is emptied." (From Btibti of Montparnasse by Charles-Louis Philippe.)
127
"
no matter
if
at the
*'
door,
Lou Jacobs
your
ills
For
all
laughter
I
if
my
am
memory
certain.
me
right.
all
his intimate, I
as
He knew
sorrow.
who
"
well
those
who had
known
Whenever he
Why
that
not
" he
would
the
say.
He
?
could
me
remedy
in the next
What
is
man,
thou
art
?
mindful of him
and the
visitest
him
")
at
all.
He
once
The
Conversation began a
skin was like parchment, the face seamed with fine wrinkles, the
oily,
tousled,
and
I
falling
over
if
his
He might
doubt
he was
day over
sixty.
His "job " was that of certified public accountant, for which he
was well
of chess,
time
as
paid.
if
He seemed
it,
to have
no ambition of any
as
sort.
A game
the
you wished
was to him
any other
pursuit.
most
game
imaginable.)
jovial, full
He
slept
little,
alive
and awake,
of banter and
Books
had read
Never
title I
And he was
honest.
The
impression he
with
me was
that
he
everything
worth reading.
In talking he always
came
In this he reminded
me
of
who
Bible, or rather
of Shakespeare and
in the least
Without being
this
aware of
It
it,
man my
it
first real
schooling.
was the
method of
" was, and
it
education.
As with the
" was not
not
that.
Whatever
**
it
of course
28
it
was the
all,
he taught
mc
never to approach
head
LIVING BOOKS
on, never to
name or
define.
first
The
oblique
last.
method of art
Hnt
never
and
last things.
But no
and no
:
spiral
motion
Lou Jacobs
possessed a
wisdom I am only
begitming to acquire.
as
He had He had
the faculty
an open book.
;
life
he read for
sheer enjoyment.
entire being,
**
The
essence
of
all
total experience
all
of
Hfe.
Uterature,"
man had
express
own
story to
tell,
and that
it
was unique.
Certainly
too,
write.
no one could
himself better or
that
is
more
clearly.
Though he knew
how
he.
Moreover, he had a
way of never
closing a subject.
He was
dangle
feelers, to
than to inform.
Whether
him,
one wished
I
it
from
his
mouth
a
constituted advice
it
!
if
one knew
how
to take
In Maeterlinck's works,
particularly
book such
as
Wisdom
and in Uterature)
who
equanimity.
We
do
Nor
is,
to
Emerson, with
whom
his
name
days.
often linked.
!
Their
truth
spiritual
pabulum
of eternal
is
suspect
nowa-
Dommage
The
we
really
if
we
are in search
We have
Our
is
Men
are turning
**
to say,
if
from
writers, fi:om
intellec-
An
!
excellent sign
to Ufe
fear
But
are they
mean
the
same
thing.
than now. Never before in the history of man was the issue so clear
the
Butt
issue
annihilation.
Yes,
by
all
means
this present
moment.
cm
What
I
are
you doing
there
on
the floor
"
t
am
ants.**)
It's
a strange thing,
but outrageously noticeable latterly, that among us are the " old dogs.** They
work of
I
creation
no matter what
air.
men who
many
them
already have an
them.
dimmed by
the
reading of
safeguarded
universe.
writer's or thinker*s.
They
deal in forms
have a
way of
more
directly.
At any
whom
filled
have in mind, these gay old dogs, have a youthful gaze. Whereas
;
they are
fright.
we have had
tell
chance to enjoy
chat
it
And
there
is
no one who
dares to
them
even
if the
after, it
is
would not
or
to enjoy
imperishable.
this planet,
Nor
its
them
of
on
their
own
thoughts, their
own
is
deeds.
The
individual has
now
is
become
sec
identified, involuntarily,
with
society.
Few
are able to
any longer
that society'
?
made up of
individuals.
?
Who
an
What is an individual
sum or
no longer
it
i
the
constitute
I
thirty years
ago
it
on ray way
to
130
LIVING BOOKS
It
was
read him.
enunciated
the page
I
moved me
I
so profoundly that
surrounding me.
thing he had said
^what
was
me
that
I
to the roots
my
fate,
or destiny,
would be
different
!
outejected
feeling
from the
which
soon
imprisoned me.
momentary
of pride and
exaltation,
this revelation,
but
it
way
awakening
at the
same time
a stronger sense
of com-
another writer of
fustian,"
whom
not
much
is
said
nowadays.
"
Too much
no doubt.
are
Too
fuHginous.
Besides,
we no
it is
we do make
use of the
word,
who
on
Lindbergh,
for example,
for
a day.
We
have no
may
be placed, adored
Our pantheon
is
which
is
erected
One of the reasons why so few of us ever act, instead of reacting, because we are continually stifling our deepest impulses. I can illustrate this thought by choosing, for example, the way in which
is
most of us
thought,
is
read.
If
it is
book which
it.
excites
and stimulates us to
we
race through
;
We
we
cannot wait to
know what
it
leading to
we want
Time and
we
scarcely understand
what we
is
our
associations
of our own.
How
seldom do
we
luxury of our
own
thoughts
No, wc
stifle
we
will return to
We
be,
How much
better
and wiser
if
it
would
few
we
proceeded
at a
how much more instructive and enriching, snail's pace What matter if it took a year,
!
instead of a
book
131
way
**
!
it
will be objected.
responsibilities."
Precisely.
words
are intended.
Whoever speaks thus is the very one for whom these Whoever fears to neglect his duties by reading
his
leisurely
own
thoughts, will
Perhaps
it
was
intended that you lose your job, your wife, your home.
reading of a
If the
book can
meaning
had
stir
you
you.
so deeply as to
make you
forget
your
responsibilities,
had much
sibihties.
If you
trusted
your
own
inner promptings
you would
afraid a voice
this
might whisper
!
'*
:
Turn here
Knock
Enter by
door
"
You were
afraid
of being deserted
and abandoned.
fields
You
new
life,
new
This
may
in reading a book.
Extend
it
which
reads a
to a
life
easy to see
why men
fail
not
book
is
the
way one
whom I referred
men and
no death
moment
even space
is
itself,
as
he does about
women.
anywhere.
years.
There
is
But
off
me
get back to
my
"...
got
was something in
Lou
which reminded
me
a
Perhaps
He was
man,
must
say,
whom
to have
no
intimates,
who
When
home
he
no one on God's
before he arrived
where
would
lead
him
a
Usually
by conversing with
133
LIVING BOOKS
pimp.
He was
certainly
more
Sometimes
he would wander
down
and
lose himself in
home an
whatever
Or he might wander
book
of books
firesh
after
dinner he was always free, ready to take any stance, and open to
any suggestion.
It
Usually,
when
upon
to be
entered, I found
him
sitting at the
to be of equal
ill,
and absorbing
him.
knew him
have
lost
it.
never saw
him
in a
bad mood.
He might just
spoke of the
intimidate
I
be
sure, I
then, nor
as
am
now,
good
good
Napoleon.
When, for instance, Marcel Duchamp once invited me to play a game with him, I forgot everything I knew about the game because of my imholy respect for his knowledge of it. With Lou Jacobs
it
was wone.
at
his
his
"
defeated
like
me
He
me
** i
to give
you a queen or
two rooks or
in
it
a knight
manner.
He would open
my abiHty, though
No, he did
it
was never
how
far
It
seemed to make
no
diflference to
or losing the
game
moves
as
Besides,
what could
it
possibly
mean
to a
to lose a
it
!
game of
chess, or ten
games, or a hundred
to be saying.
**
"
I'll
be playing
in paradise," he
seemed
Come
on,
let's
have fun
Make
a bold move, a
133
move
I
"
Of
I
course the
suspected
cautious
grew.
more rashly he played the more him of being a genius. And was he
me
The way he played chess was the way he played the game of hfe. Only the " old dogs " can do it. Lao-tse was one of these gay old dogs. Sometimes, when the image of Lao-tse seated on the
back of a water buffalo crosses
my
mind,
when
his,
think of that
wisdom so Lou Jacobs sitting before me at the chessboard. Ready to play the game anyway you liked. Ready to rejoice over his ignorance or to beam with pleasure at his own tomfoolery. Never mahdous, never petty, never envious, never
steady, patient, kindly, penetrating grin
fluid
of
that
and benevolent,
think of
jealous.
dog
star.
Always
he was to you.
which he sprinkled
his talk,
instruc-
a finger
make
everything
parched face
when he
spoke.
The sound of
It
his laughter
only
came from on
by
high, as if
It
own unimpeded
wisdom of hfe,
morahty,
Let
all
splinters
and
pretense and
artifice.
me
leave
him
there,
his face
Let
me
think of
him
his
as
he stood bowing
me
mustache moist
with whisky,
He was
not of
this
time nor
of any time
fool,
that
the
artfiil
teacher,
comforter,
the
mysteriously
all
!
anonymous one.
together.
And he was
!
What
book of
life
you were
And now
figure.
knoum
rich,
This
man
is
still
alive,
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peaceful
or, as
It
life
in a
comer of Wales.
after
he dubs himself in
his Autobiography,*
Lou Jacobs
my
Ufc that
after
encountered
this
met him
one of his
York.
lectures at the
in
New
A
letter
his
whereabouts through
a long-deferred
a fiiend, I acted
was a
letter I
years ago at
had
done
so.
would have been a much richer man today from " Prester John " is something
attended frequently,
of an event in one's
devoured hungrily,
courage
a
I
whose books
It
met
took
all
the
then possessed to go up to
him
and say
with
few words of
flee
tail
between my legs.
word he
I
uttered seemed to
go
straight to the
was then passionate about were the authors he was writing and
lecturing about.
He was
like
an oracle to me.
Now
that I
it is
now
that
hear from
him
*'
regularly,
had recovered
my
youth.
He
is
still
the
master " to me. His words, even today, have the power of bewitching me.
At
this
very
moment
I
am
deep in
his Autobiography, a
sincere,
(most
illuminating
one's
life.
as
" If
all
who
dare to put
their
all
down
them
would be
of public
much
greater
boon than
these
testy justifications
actions," says
the author.
Like Celine,
Powys
with humor.
derogatory terms,
a degenerate,
even a
sub-human"
135
his Stature.
His book
is full
of life-wisdom, revealed
There arc two
much through
book
I
is
is
written.
passages, out
man
Yes,
that
me.
It is
Here
thing
is
one
"
What
is it
that
we
;
all lose as
we
get older
something in
life itself
it is
in Ufe,
I
but
it is
it is
much
deeper
^no
mean
as
*
of a more precious
as
substance
than
my
what we think of
Hfe
'
we grow
early
older.
I
Now I am
retained to
have
;
of
my
boyhood
on
am tempted to hold
if the
less
:
the
view
that the
more
this
my
stand
the wiser
human
my
be."
in
The other runs as follows " My whole life can be divided two halves the first up to the time I was forty and the second
;
after
the time
was
forty.
During the
first
my
feelings according to
what
I
admired
my
favorite
books
struggled to
find out
what
method
but
my ow^."
to get back to the
But
It
man
know^firom
and the
fire
who
first
enlightened
me
his
Atreus.
remember most
vividly the
way he wrapped
himself in
gown,
flights
of an over-dramatic temperament.
this
(He
is,
stage, as
He
is
rather a kind
of Spenglerian
aaor.)
The
more
read his
workS^ the
I
less critical I
often
felt as if he
136
LIVING BOOKS
in San Diego,
it
was
spirit
rare beings
who
Powys, needless to
raved about.
I
had his own select luminaries whom he use the word " raved " advisedly. I had never before
Emma
Goldman, equally
inspired
on
the platform,
from an
fire
intellectual center.
Warm
Powys fulminated
which
cradle the
with the
soul.
fire
Literature
was
for
him
like
manna from
above.
He
pierced
the veil time and again. For nourishment he gave us wounds, and
remember
mention
it
rightly,
favorite adjectives.
it
Why I should
significance for
now
don*t
know,
unless
was charged
me. At any
rate, his
racial
and superhuman
gave
was
historical forbears.
To me
home
the pre-
Mediterranean world of Atlantis. In short, he was " in the tradition." Lawrence would have said of him that he was an " aristocrat of the
spirit."
That
is
why, probably, he
I
stands out in
my memory
as
one
have
in
known who
democratic
interest to
Whitman's
sense
of the word.
a superlative
vital
What he had
tions
in
conmion with
him.
us inferior beings
was
ques-
broad yet passionate curiosity which enabled him to wrest from '* dead " epochs and " dead " letters the universal human qualities which the scholar
It
were of
was
this
and pedant
porary,
spirit to
I
lose sight
of To
sit
at the feet
whose thoughts,
feelings
could visualize
representative
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THEBOOKSINMYLIFB
I
Russell.
intricacies
of this mind,
something
am incapable of when it comes to Whitehead or Ouspensky. My own limitotions, undoubtedly. But, there are men who convince me in a few brief moments of their roundedness
know no
better
word
which
beHeve
in us.
that
is
truly
human
rounded individual.
it
**
*'
He was
an
interpreter
of the word.
men of
this
brilliant
more profound,
nor
in
their aspirations
conform with
thoroughly
his being.
human world
glancing
at,
which Powys
and has
I
is
could not
resist
which
Powys
the
"
not
all
there
is.
We
are in
levels
of Hfe.
Power,
the
is
more
terrible because
Power
that
Communist, nor
at all,
but capable of
wisdom of the
not
at all surprising to
me
years
as
weU
poles
spirit
of the human
spirit.
It is
human
who
balance
two such
difficult for
me
to think
Dostoievsky, both of
whom
worship.
reveal
I
No
writers could be
these
spirit.
two
none
more eloquently
the
this
youth of the
I
Curious that
should think of it at
moment, but
terious
and anomalous
features
of the
in the Nineteenth
LIVING BOOKS
particularly, this century so rich in
we
one
know of the
confirm
Rabelais, a
man of the
Renaissance,
knew
all
his contemporaries.
The
men of
imagined inconveniences,
communicated with one another and paid attendance upon one another.
The world of
learning then
electric.
Our
writers, the
men who
should
rate,
virtually nil.
artists
of today,
are stranded
on
pound
into annihilation.
to that breed
of man which
is
never
He
cataclysms
Ark.
with
his
fellowmen
and guaranty of
this secret
his survival.
!
How
few
there are
who
have discovered
The
of incorporating oneself in the living spirit of the universe. I have referred to him as " a Uving book." What is that but to say he is all
flame,
all spirit
?
is
the
book which
has
kindled
by a
is
it
birth a
book
dead to
us.
Words
and barren as dead letters. To encounter a man whom we can call a living book is to arrive at the very fount of creation. He makes us witoess of the consuming fire which rages
take, are as meaningless
throughout the universe entire and which gives not warmth alone
vision,
139
VIII
THE DAYS OF MY LIFE
I
HAVE
just received
from
my
friend
have been
when
I sat
down with
Ten
on
King
my
I
" romance."
Now
that I
own words
:
before
me
am
hterally astounded.
Here
is
what he
says
remember
its
that
to the task
my ideas as
development were of the vaguest. The only clear notion that I had in my head was that of an immortal woman inspired by an immortal love. All the rest shaped
to
itself
my
round this figure. And it came it came poor aching hand could set it down.
faster
tnan
This is virtually all he has to say about the conception of this remarkable work. " The whole romance," he states, ** was completed
in a Httle over six weeks.
Moreover,
it
was never
rewritten, that
it
and the
The
fact
is
was written
contain a
But perhaps
may
of this extraordinary
tale
Well do
office
it
I recall
Mr. A. P. Watt, and throwing There is what I shall be on the table with the remark remembered by.' Well do I recall also visiting Mr. Watt at his office, which was then at 2 Paternoster Square, and finding him out. As the business was urgent, and I did
literary agent,
:
of my
An
Ltd.,
London, 1926.
140
"the days op my lipb
not wish to have to return, I sat down at his table, asked for some fookcap, and in the hour or two that I had to wait wrote the scene of the destruction of She in the Fire of Life. This, however, was of course a little while it may have been a few days ^before I deUvered the
manuscript.
It
later,
that
**
:
was
written.
is
As
for the
own words
She, if I
remember
aright,
was
Bradenham
who were
in her charge.**
thrilling, at
the
these bald,
meagre
facts
classic.
run
down
am
think
it
by no
less
a person
it is
12,
Gay ton
Crescent,
Hampstead
January
2, 1887.
My
dear Haggard,
While I am under the spell of * Ayesha,* * which I have only just finished, I must write to congratulate you upon a work which most certainly puts you at the head a long way ahead of all contemporary imaginative writers. If fiction is best cultivated in the field of pure invention then you are certainly the furst of modem novelists.
Solomons Mines is left far behind. It is not only the central conception that is so splendid in its audacity, but it is your
logical
and
pitiless
in
its
with astonishment. I do not know what the critics will say about it. Probablv they will not read more than they can help and then will let you off with a few general expressions. If the critic is a woman she will put down this book with the remark
inevitable details that strikes
me
* Meaning She.
141
that
all
women
have
this feeling
Whatever else you do, you will have She always behind you for purposes of odious comparison. And whatever critics say the book is bound to be a magnificent success.
Also it will produce a crop of imitators. And all the Httle conventional storytellers will be jogged out of their grooves imtil they find new ones
. .
.
of sales firom
in
which poured
on
in
all
known
that
**
America
was
pirated
by
the
beginning of February, 1886, and the i8th of March, that same year.
He
began
it
about a month
It
a remarkable
It would seem, therefore, that between January, 1885, and March 18, 1886, vsrith my own hand, and unassisted by any secretary, I wrote King Solomons Mines, Allan Quatemiain, Jess and She. Also I followed my own profession, spending many hours of each day studying in chamben, or in Court, where I had some devilling practice, carried on my usual correspondence, and attended to the affairs of a man with a young family and a certain landed
estate.
As I have often
the thousands
bitterly
I
of letters
to
all
me by
I
may
for
all
toil of an enormous correspondence hurled at every kind of person from all over the earth. If judge by those which remain marked with a letter
seem to have done my best to reply of them, even down to the autograph hunter, a task which must have taken up a good part of every day, and this in addition to all my other work. No wonder that my health began to give out at last, goaded as I was at that period of my life by constant and venomous attacksanswered,*
I
to
143
where
dwell at length on
my
relations
with Stanley,
my first firiend,
of romances. It was nothing less than a good " romance " which Stanley always hoped to write one day.
references to Stanley's love
At
this
point in time
am
and appreciate
as
Then
another
Pole
I
full
of romantic nonsense.
Haggard, though
do remember
that
we
spoke
Marie
Corelli.
Between
**
of books
It
first
of
and
soon
after
other
European
such
as
Pierre
Loti,
Conrad, that
I
we
began to
talk books,
and in
To
be honest,
doubt
if I
Stanley
meant by
all
"romances."
that
this
is
To me
I
the
word was
associated
unreal.
There
most
interesting
dream,
It
a recurrent one,
which Rider
Haggard
describes at
some
length.
ends thus
a:^I scci.
myself, younger than I am now, wearing of white garments and bending over the desk at work, with papers spread before me. At the sight a kind of terror seizes me lest this fair place should be but a
.
.
some
sort
payment
I
for
my
sins,
am
doomed
*
to
and a day
You
'
world
of the guide, and shows me all. write the history of a world* (or was it othe I am not sure), is the answer
ask, alarmed,
at
my side
A world
is,
it
make
The
point
as
WiUiani James
**
Death, that
God
has a history."
this
all
central
here
When Haggard
voices the
hope
love "),
143
THEBOOKSINMYLIFB
" in (and
all
to record
do)," he
saying,
feel,
The
history of
man
is
is
bound up with
I
"I think
am
right," says
first-class
life
Haggard,
in saying that
no one has
example,
romance dwelling
solely, for
upon
human
True or
make
it is
not necessary to
essentia] truths
of the universe, or to
to great hterature,
order and fimctioning. Books which do not belong books which do not command " the grand style,"
life.
of
his
way from
that
of the
They
speak of this
common
but to God. They speak of man as an integral part of the universe and not as a " sport of creation." They speak of man as though to
him
alone
it
of all creation ; they do not make him a victim of fate or an " object of redemption." In glorifying man they
glorify the
as I
have just
They are
less
more interested in ideas than in the thoughts which clothe them. As a consequence, they often appear to be poor writers, they lend themselves to ridicule and caricature. Nothing is easier to make
matter,
Often, be
it
noted, this
is
yearning
is
masked or concealed
not
the
What is the subject matter of these oft despised books Briefly, web of life and death the pursuit of identity through the
;
drama of
identification
;
the lure of
indescribable visions
the redemption of
;
the final
is
woven
all
144
stars
between them
them
circles
which
As
to the
it
between
good and
evil.
It has to
men
is
have in mind
it.
man had
ever
known
meant by
synonymous.
is
look inward
No
man
ceases to
he
"
"to follow his vision, to become one with the imagination. From this moment on he begins to travel all previous voyages
elects
;
as
you would
now."*
It
This statement
life.
It tells
one how
to read. a
It
proves
to me,
any
rate
something
have reiterated
is
number of times,
As
of books
of corroboration, and
books.
we make
about
a blade
of
when
smitten v^th
wonder or
ecstasy,
mien of a
form of
statue
be
real
Inc.,
* In Search of the Miraculous, by P. D. Ouspensky ; Harcourt, Brace New York, 1949. Routledge & Co., Ltd., London.
& Co.,
145
book.
This joyous reading of life or books does not imply the abatement
of the
critical faculty.
On
the contrary.
To make
full
surrender to
author or Author impHes the exaltation of the critical faculty. In railing against the use of the word " constructive " in connection
How, in the name of the that word * constructive mystery of genius, can criticism be anything else than an an idolatry, a worship, a metamorphosis, a love affair !*
*
!
self,
is
it.
not in
The handwriting on
the wall
neither
who
and
can interpret
Walls
last
fears
reluctances.
in.
But the
wall to give
way is
the wall
The
from without,
is
it
sheds Ught.
Through Hght
it is
:
and joy
the
what
inefifable
Visions
Cowpcr Powys
G. Arnold Shaw,
New
146
York, 191 5.
IX
KRISHNAMURTI
Someone
men."
If
we
could
the world has never known her greatest know their Hves and works we might indeed of God on eardi."
**
is
an abundance, the
pale.
First
come
is
heroes
(who
past.
The poet
senses almost
beyond endurance the enormous deprivation which afflicts mankind. For him " the magic of words " convey something which is totally
lost to the
which he
man
never
explores and
lity
from which he
In the midst of the Listen to Pico della Mirandola world, the Creator said to Adam, I have placed thee, so thou couldst look aroimd so much easier, and see all that is in it. I created thee as a being neither celestial nor earthly, neither mortal nor immortal alone, so that thou shouldst be thy own free moulder and overcomer ; thou canst degenerate to animal, and through thyself be reborn to godlike existence .
: . .
Is this
human
existence in a nut-
shell
man.
The
is
men. Looking
Ufe
a
see
nothing but
To them
by an
idiot, signifying
thought to the end, the very substance of our mother, the Earth,
is
nothingness.
spirit,
M7
solid matter.
They speak
spirit, its
to us through a void
**
of hypothesis
the
world
is
form of the
symboHc
tale
picture."*
Though they
wrinkled and
;
written
is
on
its
weathered face,"
their
written
they impose
in truth
years,
when
it
is
flourished as recent as
is
him
a greater antiquity, a
Httle faith
greater inteUigence
whose vanity
All this
those
is
bolstered
by
pretentious learning.
by way of saying
that the
books
which put
Nothing
for
me
in rapport
being.
attributed to the
is
too
much
me
I
to swallow.
it
holds
The more
disgusted
my
opinion of
man
In
becomes. If
individual
artists,
in whatever field, I
man as a whole.
I
Even
assist at marvels which surpass all understanding. were but the " imaginings " of inspired writers, their
reaUty
in
no way impugned.
We are being told every day, for example, that the prosaic, practical
minds which
direct the affairs
ment
are seriously
working
moonand
What Hes behind these plans and projects Are we " thinking of defending the planet is another matter. Or are we Earth or of attacking the inhabitants of other planets
(A very modest estimate
)
**
thinking of abandoning
* Novalis.
this
148
KRISHNAMURTI
solution to our
ills i
Be
assured,
is
many
The
readers
on
these subjects,
though
they themselves
know
which he
plans
at the root
theories,
and
projects.
Woven
Abraham
is
the Jew.
The
it
book and
the effort
Book of made
contained
is
At
the
same time,"
to
was learning
how
he
acquired the
wisdom of despising
is
in his heart."
As
in
any chapter
on
the
in this
one
we were
reverse
wish to
quote just one paragraph, if for no other reason than to suggest the
of what
insinuated above.
The
passage concerns
;
two
if
eminent alchemists of the Seventeenth Century the reader may, he likes, choose to regard them as " exceptions."
It is probable that they attained the most highly developed state possible to man, that they accompUshed While still Uving they the transmutation of their soul. were members of the spiritual world. They had regenerated their being, performed the task of man. They were twice bom. They devoted themselves to helping their fellowmen ; this they did in the most useful way, which does
not consist in healing the ills of the body or in improving men's physical state. They used a higher method, which in the first instance can be applied only to a small number, but eventually affects all. They helped the noblest minds to reach the goal which they had reached themselves. They sought such men in the towns through which they They had passed, and, generally, during their travels. no school and no regular teaching, because their teaching was on the border of the human and the divine. But they knew that a word sown at a certain time in a certain soul
* Magicians,
by Maurice Magre
E. P. Dutton
&
Co.
New
York, 1932.
149
The marvels
practices
speak of are of
;
just
thoughts or ideas
;
of language
sometimes
suspect
sometimes
;
some-
human
feats
of heroism
;
unbehevable beauty
monstrous, evil
that
is
and perverted.
I
I
To
am stringing
Gilles
together
Joachim of Floris,
de Rais,
Richter,
the
St.
Holy
Grail,
Germain, the
Summa
Madame
Island,
Blavatsky,
St. Francis
legend of Gilgamesh,
Holy
Bible,
Dumont,
gistus,
the
White Brotherhood,
a
is
the
Buddha.
There
to
all
is
name
that
secrer,
is
Krishnamurti. Here
a master of reaUty.
man of our time who may be said to be He stands alone. He has renounced more than
one
of,
any
man
can think
is
so
easy to
which
Men
are
reluctant to .iccept
150
what
easy to grasp.
Out of a
perversity deeper
KRISHNAMURTl
than
all
:
Satan's wiles,
rights
intermediary
He looks
all,
for solutions
which
are in his
art
own breast. He
puts learning
he refuses to work for his own liberation, pretending that first " the world " must be Hberated. Yet, as Krishnamurti has pointed
out time and again, the world problem is bound up with the problem
is
is
And
salvation ?
?
What
soul
is it,
?
man,
that
?
you wish
Lose
it
Your
petty ego
yourself.
Your
Your
identity
Do
God
keep on desiring,
Roughly,
this is
Krishnamurti's
all
way of
speaking.
It
must be
which
he urges.
No
one
else will,
is,
wilderness
of
of a
leader.
But Krishnamurti
my
I
eyes to this
phenomenon in our
it
midst.
I first is
read
it
several times.
There
hardly another
it
book
have read so
Collective.
I
intently,
marked
so copiously, unless
I
be The Absolute
found gold.
do not beUeve
I
do
book has been translated into English, nor know, moreover, what Krishnamurti himself thinks of it. I
is
no man Uving
he.
whom
own.
would consider
it
a greater privilege to
meet than
His place of
residence, curiously
enough,
is
my
me that if this man stands for anything it is for the right to lead his own life, which is surely not to be at the beck and call of every Tom, Dick and Harry who wishes to make
However,
it
seems to
from him
replaced
Editions Adyar, Paris, 1932. This work has now been ; another, entitled Krishnamurti et Vuniti humaine ; Lc Ccrclc du Livre, Paris, 1950.
Krishnatnurti
by
151
"
is
enough to
with
and essence.
replete
invaluable.
It
is
phase of the
published)
is
latter's
set forth
Suarb
to
let
background.
He
has the
wisdom
book the
reader
which
man
in
Bombay,
Krishnamurti
What you
supermen,
men
order in themselves,
on
external
men who would be their own masters absolute. man at the bottom of the ladder, who depends authority, who makes use of all kinds of crutches, who is
the
reahty, not suit
him
Krishnamurti answers
The
men who
at the
usurp and
are the
bottom
weak and
gentle ones,
who
By
contrast
its
deep
in the case
of the most
tree the
top
is
crowned by
In
fragile branches.
human
it is
are supported
by
on
the
who
of
.
As long
as
you
look
at the
problem from
you amass
citations,
you
pit
To
that I
say.
But
if you
by
by
others*
which
sufferings,
152
KRISBNAMURTI
I
say
**
car la meditation
du coeur
est
rentendement
"...
Per-
sonally,
belief
and
hope you
to
will understand
I
what
say
now, I have no
this attitude
and I belong
life.
no tradition.*
life
towards
It
varies
from day
if I
arc behefs
and
traditions useless to
me, but,
were to
myself
me from
understanding
are or
You may
attain Hberation,
what
that
you
after
the abiHty
which one
. .
enmeshed,
say
from
You may
meI
my
point of view
your
own
strength, the
power which
is
willing to
is
kind of experience.
And
is
that
just
It
pierces
restores
It levels
makes of daily
life
a joyous pursuit.
said
:
no
any other
way."
in his
One
feels
the
same way
and preceptors.
He
initiated
no new
faith or
cultivated
doubt
(especially
in
moments of exaltation),
and,
persever-
of those
eternal vigilance.
who sought to enslave and exploit him demanded He Uberated his soul, so to say, firom the underit
**
Italics
153
"
THE BOOKS IN MY
There
is
LIFfi
something
about
Krishnamurti's
utterances
which
is
utterly superfluous.
There
striking, fact
connected with
his utterances,
Suarh
"the
clearer his
words
the
message
it is
not
defined,
it is
dead
upon
himself, forces
:
him
Over and over he repeats ** I do not ask you to believe what I say ... I desire nothing of you, neither your good opinion, your agreement, nor that you follow me. I ask you not to believe
but to understand what
I
say."
Collaborate with
life !
that
is
what
he
he
is
constantly urging.
Now
and then
it
is
a veritable lashing
asks,
inflicts
upon
?
the self-righteous.
all
What, he
have you
labels,
accomplished with
your
fine words,
your books
How many
individuals have
i
And
a great
names, to
the
But, if
all
that
you say
true,
and pain
social,
moral, religious
^which give
may
life.
weak
so that they
weak
firom profiting
by
direct experience
of
men
seek to
These devices
make become
(Suar^*
interpretation.)
salient differences
between a
man
is
like
Krishnamurti
and
roles.
a constant opposition
his ego.
and
is
The
artist
his
ego which
great or sublime.
This
ego wishes to
utilize ot its
own
it
profit
moment of
154
inspiration
wherein
was
in touch
KRISHNA MURTI
a
moment,
precisely, in
its
absent, replaced
by
the residue of
own
living experience.
sole guide.
It is
one's intuition, he
maintains,
all artists,
As
become
just the
But
their
for
most
artists it is
they
want
to
see
signatures
artist clings
attached
to
their
creations.
to individualism,
his creative
is
power permanent.
first
The
quality or condition
of genius
but the
phase of deliverance.
am
not a translator
have had
difficulty transcribing
reflections.
as
and
Nor am
revealed
himself, simple,
and truthful
is
much more
complex,
much more
is
mysterious.
to extricate themselves
from
in
really adore
to
make everything
is
in a distant fiiture.
That
of
their
the last thing they will admit usually. Reality, if for one
it exists
in everyday Ufe
spoken of
say, a soft,
always referred to
as
**
harsh
**
reaHty.
It is
which
we might we
hidden paradise.
The hope
that
we may one
day awaken to a
experience
suppression.
Man
is
stultified
by hope and
fear.
he
lives
from day
to
day
is
the
myth
that
he
for himself
and which he
myth
which binds us
This
is
of myth
^that it veils
the
I
This morning
book on Krish?55
had forgotten
that
possessed.
I
It
me by
a fiiend
on
This preamble
is
to thank
my friend
meand
is
who
(**
does not
know
life
Krishnamurti's
and work.
Hberator
**),
The book
called Krishnamurti
Man
is
his
it
own
by Ludowic R^ault.*
Like the
Suar^ book,
The author, now dead, was a member of "whose tendencies," he states in the preface, " I am far from approving, but to whose grand tenets of Evolution, Reincarnation and Karma I heartily subscribe." And
speeches and writings.
the Theosophical Society,
this
statement
"
I
wish to inform
my
readers
am
I
am
with him."
Since
know of no Uving man whose thought is more inspiring I know of no living man who is more free
and, because I find
stood,
regard
as
where I first heard of him, I had a number of.friends who were forever talking about " the Masters." None of them, to my
sect.
They were
all
we
say.
And
they were
The books which they were reading were at that time unfamiliar to me mean the works of Leadbeater, Steiner, Besant, Indeed, hearing them Blavatsky, Mabel Collins and such like.
^I
(To
this
must
confess,
Rudolf
language
I
still
excites
my
of
ridicule.)
was
now
and then
termed " a spiritual bum." Because I have not the makings of a " follower," these friends, all ardent souls, all consumed by a desire to convert, regarded me as " their meat." In anger, sometimes,
I
would
teD
them never
to
come
near
me
again
unless
them at my door, as if nothing had happened. The one quaHty which they had in common,
* Christopher Publishing House, Boston, 1939,
156
KRISHNAMURTI
immediately, was their utter helplessness.
to save
that
must confess
what they
talked about,
striving
known
to
as silly
and preposterous
once thought.
**
Not by
from
me from
so eager to impart.
I
was
it
merciless with
them, something
think
It
some good
in
**
was only
ceased bothering
all this
me
that
was
truly able to
become
interested
nonsense."
lines
they will
know
am
indebted to
them.)
'*
that they
"
It is
namurti, "
who
is
significance
of what of what
is is
said."
said, to
I recall
**
:
significance
make
it
it
one's
own, depends
"
entirely
on
the
individual.
who was
forever
shouting at us
Make
that
own
He was
a vain, pretentious
coxcomb, a
little
real jackass, if
all
thing of
to us " his
ture
truly
:
own "
which he
is
most
certainly
But
to
come back
"...
Bulletin
quoted thus
**
:
You
are all
immensely
interested in the
not,
and what
my
view
is
will tell
you
my
the
view.
To me
it is
of very
exist,
because
to
walk to
camp or
to the station
from
who
"
?
have started
sit
important
to
is
man who
In his
ahead of you
J57
THE BOOKS
IN
MY
LIFE
"
his
outlook on those
who
in season
and unseemly
He
all
of Krishnamurti's
We
but
this belief
real
The
goal of evolution
to
make
who
arc the
of humanity. As
have
said, the
Masten
For
me
at least
The tremendous
attitude towards
typical
shift
His
of the
a demonstrato icomc
of
and indefatigable
efforts
do you bother about the Masters The essential you should be free and strong, and you can never be free and strong if you are a pupil of another, if you
?
Why
is
that
free
I
have gurus, mediators, Masters over you. You cannot be and strong if you make me your Master, your guru.
don't
a
want
that
Only
few months
after
making
this
definitive,
unequivocal
statement (April, 1930), badgered again for an answer to the " It is unessenquestion " Do Adepts, Masters exist i " he replies
:
tial
to me.
am
it
...
am
not trying to
In evolution
do not deny
to the
must be a
difference
man who
is
of a prison
experience which
the
is
what you
You
care
more about
are willing
man who
is
You
it,
to worship
someone
There
may be
Adepts, Masters,
it
do not deny
as
but
cannot
has to
is
few
years later he
you
happiness.
Do
Do
is
to quibblers
158
and
there
KRISHN AMURTI
issue
out.
"
You
"
as if it
words do not
"
Man
by
is
his
own
liberator !
Is this
it
It
again
espoused
world figures. Masters ? Undoubtedly. Men who not principles, laws, dogmas, morals, creeds. " Really
great teachers
do not
lay
down
laws, they
want to
set
man
free."
(ICrishnamurti.)
What
of the
distinguishes Krishnamurti,
The one
being. the
spirit,
r61e
^himself,
human
it is
of the
flesh.
flesh,
which
is
If
he has a mission
strip
men of their
false
render back to
man
humanity.
If any
He
World
Teacher."
man Uving
title,
he does. But to
me
the important
that
nor even
as a
Find out for yourself, he says, what are the possessions and ideals that you do not desire. By knowing what you do not want, by elimination, you will unburden the mind, and only then will it understand the essential which is
ever there.
159
X
THE PLAINS OF ABRAHAM
" When you're
I
"*
!
THINK
I
it
was
in the
book
called
With Dewey
if
at
Manila Bay,
serves
which
right,
spoke of
earlier
and which,
my memory
me
:
War
think
ended
it
(the
!)
was
right out of
i
Dewey's mouth
this
or could
sprang,
it
have been
Admiral Sampson's
that
command
you
to stay with
but,
!"
me
until I
go
to the grave.
An
idiotic thing to
remember,
one
" Wait
until
of their eyes
^it
remains.
Of course
a great deal
more remains
But
it
releases.
remains eternally
forgets.
wc were
talking
of cadavers
in a whirl
awoke
my
mind
still
&om
the
continuous
to recall
titles,
authors,
names of
places, events
and what do you suppose The Plains of Abraham Yes, my mind was foil of Montcalm and Wolfe fighting it out up there towards the roof of the world. The French and Indian War, I
insignificant data,
i
behcve
we
call it.
It
was probably
this battle
on
the Plains of
Abraham, which
of Quebec,
I
my
weak memory
this
places
somewhere
in the vidnity
bloody
i
war
did.
And what
remains
The Plains of Abraham, To be more accurate, more precise, it boils down to a clump of images which could be put in the hollow of
a
shell.
I sec
Montcalm dying
his
or was
it
Wolfe
^in
the open
air,
surrounded by
bodyguard and a
cluster
of Indians with
the
Maine, Dewey's
*'
:
You may
fire
when
ready, Gridley."
Montcalm
country."
as
I
"I
making
of those
historic
**
last
words," such
regret that
my
" The
But
no longer remember
tide
is
words but
it
seems to
me
he was saying
?
What
of
matter,
history.
anyway
In a
few moments he
And
Canada,
!
how
is it
that
visualize a
ill
Whence
that bird
of
omen
Perhaps
it is
the
got caught in the netting over the cradle in which lay the infant
it is,
any
ground in
of
this
my
imaginary picture.
me
down on
it
with
all its
impalpable weight.
Not much
The
heads of the
The
tory
by rope
As
for
ladder.
They
at a time, the
shot.
his
and a general,
the honors of
war.
Night
falls
for themselves.
The
British,
now
having a clear
field,
romp
all
over Canada. With stakes and cord the border is marked out. " " have nothing to fear any more our neighbors arc our
We
own
of the
world
I
it
this
morning
at the
battlefields.
head of
Rough
there
was
fleet in just
a price
upon
his head.
swamps and jungles of Mindanao, With Admirals Dewey and Sampson goes
Admiral Schley,
L
who
remains in
my memory
as a kindly, sensible
161
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
sort
strategist,
but
"just right."
The
Harper's Ferry,
grand
the enemy.
stars
in.
the
Our
nearest
of
[Saladin
last
war
thought of Saladin.
What
a gracious prince,
compared to
is it
on both
forgotten
all
about him
Imagine, if
How
Brown and Saladin fighting the corruption of the Would we need more John Brown swore that with the right men two hundred would be enough, he said^he could lick the whole United States. He wasn't far firom the mark, either, when he made that boast.
cahbre of John
world
Platea.
This
it
last
saw with
my own
eyes.
But
at the
time
forgot that
was
there
A
it
As
recall
the spot,
it,
was
oats.
From
a distance
as in the
game
board.
In the
dead center,
Technically the
comme
game was
I
d'hahitude.
Places of slaughter
My
mind roamed
our
own
War Between
the States,
now known
had
as the Civil
;
War.
Some of
heart,
of
'/)attle I
visited
'some
knew by
Run, Manassas,
Gettysburg.
in history.
and of course
So one
is
always told.
The Yankees
(as
And
waiting
always) until
eyes.
thought of the Charge of the Light Brigade" On rode the six hundred ! " (To the tune of forty-nine verses and everlasting death.)
162
THE PLAINS OF ABRAHAM
I
own
dead
piled
as if
man
on
parade.
The General
it
strategic
books on mihtary
!
What
a price
we
All history
now. Nothing
Just blunders.
And
out.
wholesale death.
Only
generals
mitted to
Never
we
often
wonder what
is
some
dirty
;
of these bloody
battles.
Try
**
" coming out of their hiding places aflame from head to foot Japs
try to recall the bayonet exercises, first
with the
of the enemy,
foul
who
is
au fond your
all
brother in the
words in
all,
the tongues
ask yourself if
you were
able to
summon
Red Laugh, The Red Badge of Courage, and in the reading of them derive a certain
despite the horripilating nature
strange, strange things about the written
word capable One can read The Men in War or J'ai Tue^
a single
aesthetic
enjoyment
is
of these books.
This
that
one of the
live
feel
word,
you can
mad
but
somewhat
Cendrars
I
exhilarated,
well
murderers.
Somehow,
possibly,
as
an
artist.
(An admiral
me
. .
of
rhinoceros, otherwise he
adjutant
officer
or a commissary sergeant.
in the French
Pierre Loti,
was he not an
Navy
my
head.
But
httle
the
Navy,
as I said, offers
humanity which
is left us.
image which
is
pre-
served
a bit
from youthful
of a gymnast
also, if I
remember
rightly.
How
could he
163
THE BOOKS
possibly kill
t
IN
MY
LIFE
To
be
much
But he
left
mere romantic
mean Disenchanted. (To think Dominican monk, who came to visit me,
it is
flesh the
**
heroine
**
of
this
tender romance
!)
Anyway, with
like the
now,
an
illustra-
book
It
(or
last stand, combing They knew they would die to the last man, yet because of this fact) they were combing their hair. The long
long
hair.
and they
were
plaited, I believe.
This,
in
my
childish
The
impression remains.
On my
or
was dumbfounded
to learn
one poet,
artist
scientist
Only
and
obedient clods.
is
War
admittedly a
finish,
book
but
esteem
it
nevertheless.
It is
moment
it
in history. to pass,
" Thucydides
is
war
is,
why
comes
what
it
does, and,
men
must continue
to do."*
The Athenians and the Spartans fought for one reason only ^because they were powerful, and therefore were compelled (the words are Thucydides* own) to seek more power. They fought not because they were different democratic Athens and oligarchical Sparta but because they were alike. The war had nothing to do with differences in ideas or with considerations of right and wrong. Is democracy right and the rule of the few over the many wrong ? To Thucydides the question would have seemed an evasion of the issue. There was no right power. Power, whoever wielded it, was evil, the corrupter of men. f
Literature,
by Edith Hamilton
W. W.
Norton,
New
164
York, 1942.
tTbid.
probably
new
doctrine
which was
doctrine,
become
the
avowed
The
As
for Sparta,
how modem
:
is
In Sparta, the citizens* way of Ufe was fixed. In general, they had neither the wi\l nor the abiHty to lead a private
life.
community of
bees,
clinging
and
When you
re
Three thousand,
and
make war
still
the supreme
of our Uves.
We
as
a step, despite
diatribes
all
and
on
the subject.
Almost
as
is
soon
we
a story
lust,
per-
As children
we
the
first
thrill
to read
Mormons,
Lincoln
To
the Southerner,
Lee
is
the
embodiment of
grace,
chivalry, valor
Both men
right.
Both fought
is still
a slave
we
are taught
is
false," said
as
Rimbaud. As always,
realizes
how
very Uttle
known, how
very,
very
much
is
conjecture,
hypothesis,
surmise
and speculation.
Wherever one
penetrates profoundly
one
is
confronted
by
the
triple-headed spectre
it
of
When
comes
been written
165
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As we grow
IN
older
MY
we
LIFE
learn
how
We
read biography
We care less and less for facts, more and more for pure flights intuitive apprehension of the truth. We
the only true
merged
the heroes
we
at
We
enemy
by
is
fear,
and
that
all
imaginative acts
heroism) are
inspired
^in
whatever form
manifests itself
The
hero-as-poet epitomizes
He
That of
who
slays the
paradise.
we
beyond
is
not the
fault
the poet.
majority
The same beUef and worship which inspire the vast are mirrored by an inner absence of faith and reverence.
:
The
for
is
he seeks to establish
this
reaHty
all
and
it is
because the
always
I
slain,
always
sacrificed.
said a
moment ago
is
In a large
we mean by " soldier " one who acts on his own authority, one who fights for the good, the beautiful and the true in obedience to the dictates of his own conscience.
sense this
true.
True, if
In
this sense
**
good
soldier."
whom we
never think
as
of
as soldiers.
The
this
great pacifists
mighty
soldiers.
But
soldier, strictly
the hero.
The
then
The
incarnation of
man
What
insuperable odds.
lefi;
To
be more exact,
a residual impression
When we
and
that order
of heroes known
as saints
sages,
we
perceive very
is
not
is
more
important,
we
which the
latter strive to
i66
and maintain
is
not
but one
which
is
by man's
wilful blindness.
we come to adore such a figure as Pichard the Lionwe have already been enthralled and subjugated by the more subHme figure of King Arthur. Before we come to the great Crusader we have had for company, in our rarest moments, the very real, very vivid personages known as Jason, Theseus, Ulysses,
Before
Hearted
We
with
such
Daniel
who
braved the
King David, Joseph in Egypt, den, and with lesser figures such as
Or we may have
such
as
fallen
of purely Hterary
creations,
Robinson
Whatever
their
provenance,
these
early spellbinders
were
to
Even some of
seem
and
fortified
either wrested
from
cunning or
that
these stories
his
is
man
is
God-given
of the
is
intellect.
Perhaps
it
it is
only one
Uttle trick
more than
The meaning
To jump
must
for
act.
clear
of the clockwork
we must employ
**
whatever means
:
It is not enough to beUeve or to know we And I mean act, not activity. (The acts " of the Apostles, example.) The ordinary man is involved in action, the hero
acts.
An immense
difference.
we
are filled
we have been impregnated with men in whom intellect, heart and soul were welded in triumphant unison. And how can we overlook,
of courage and stout-heartedness
the spirit of
more sublime
types,
womanhood that were attracted to them Only back in past do we seem to find women who are the equal and
i
this
of dim
167
counter-
of the great
in spirit.
What
disillusionment awaits us as
I
we
with
men
like
King David,
of our
the great
institutional Hfe
European
history,
known
as the Children's
Crusade,
not being
by
those
whom we
Almost from
the start our children abandon us in favor of the true guides, the
true leaders, the true heroes.
They know
instinctively that
we
are
flee
from
whom
"
they must
moment
times.
or
them some
all. For not beHeving " their " falsehoods we are relentlessly and mercilessly punished ; for not accepting " their " vile surrogates we arc
" Httle wizards," " Uttle warriors." " Everything we are taught is false."
Little primitives,"
wc
Httle saints,"
little
martyrs."
not
humiHated, insulted and injured ; for struggling to free ourselves from " their " strangling clutches we are shackled and manacled.
O,
fly,
home
and they
tell
ourselves
truth, the
on
of
truth,
and they
if,
tell
us that Christ
is
the
to
way and
life.
And
accepting
Him, demanding
follow
jeered
Him
at.
Hterally
and to the
bitter end,
is
we
are laughed
us.
and
At every turn
fresh confusion
heaped upon
Wc
know
not where
we
why.
stand nor
why we
is
why
ever evaded.
We begin in chains
and
In despair
Do
aid,
I
miserable parents
!
Do
It
my
know you
are suffering.
and
why you
suffer.
we know
is
anything about
man. There
paUiation.
no
redress.
Even
his
to be creative
One must
"
children."
head in
silence
168
is
repeated.
last
But no one
truly believes
it.
be the
to believe.
The autobiographical novel, which Emerson grow in importance with time, has replaced the
It is
would
great confessions.
fiction, this
It is
more
authentic,
facts
more
which
The being
That
Portrait
is
on
all levels
simultaneously.
why
books
like
Death on
and the
Man
The
As
men Hke
which
new
significance.
first
these
appeared,
letters.
we
men of
We
know where
the
Though they
is
speak in
name of Beauty, we
more
Beauty
his knees
a far
reHable criterion.
in
Lautr^amont,
times,
who
blasphemed
modem
was much
closer to
God
who
at his blasphemies.
As
for the
every
word
is
Truth
is
and includes
imagination.
What
constitutes reaHty
is
Men
of
Httle
imagination
name and
For the
tell
classify
latter,
try to
the ineffable.
The
come down
to us in
words
of indescribable happenings.
Great events
may
is
be
soul-stirring,
say, as a
is
wretched
;
magnificent
theologian he
is
is
dull,
overwhelmingly duU.
As teacher and
his
lover Ab^lard
magnificent, for in
169
He
man. H^loise
it.
The Church
human
institution
we
have
lustre
Again there
and
is
splendor,
magnificence,
beauty,
dignity
true
nobiHty.
What
They
a ruffian
Cortez
disgust.
as the
In their exploits
man
all
supreme vandak of
time.
Prescott's
happen upon
in adolescence,
seal
We
only
of
this continent,
we
adolescents
who had
by
the Conquistadores),
we
"
We
a pretty
symbol masking
is
a hideous story
The
lust for
gold
rests.
the foundation
on which
this
New
World
mists
Columbus followed
men, not
(The
who followed after him. Through the of history Columbus now seems Hke a quiet, serene madman. What all unwittingly he set in reverse of Don Quixote.)
calls
With every
Peru.
a very hard thing to escape the American horror ; and quite impossuppose, to explain to those who don't see what it is that the victims of it see. The horror can be very big. But it can also be very small. Most things of this sort can be detected by their smell ; and I think this particular horror is usually found ^like the inside of an American coffin after the embalming process has run its course to smell of a mixture of desolate varnish and unspeakable decomposition. The curious thing about it is It is more that it is a horror that can only be felt by imaginative people. than a mere negation of all that is mellow, lovely, harmonious, peaceful, It is a terrifying positive. organic, satisfying. It is not a negation at all I think at its heart lies a sort of lemur-like violence of gruesome vulgarity. " danse macabre V of frantic self-assertion. It certainly loves to dance a sort of It has something that is antagonistic to the very essence of what the old training to us ten thousand years." (John Cowper have for cultures been Powys in his Autobiography.)
sible, I
170
Vandals and
rape and
the earth
assassins
who were
it,
pillage,
fell
upon
it,
violated
who own
protected
destroyed
their
every
last trace
by
their
(in
frightening ghosts.
that
is
The
story of Cabeza de
Vaca
why
It is
God he had
The
perfunctorily worshipped, he
is
last ditch.
by
his
ills
them of
their
or die, he obeys.
It is
a miracle indeed
which he performs
is
at
He who was
as
dust
The power
to heal
and
restore, to create
now
Texas
Reviewing
his
life
in Spain,
as
Only
in the wilderness,
face to face
abandoned to a cruel
his
fate,
with
"in
Augustine found
Him
memory."
had taken
De
its
was revealed
!
But no,
almost buried
from
sight.
Ringed
very few.
in light, he
nevertheless absent
from the
of him.
One of these,
historic
for us de Vaca's
own
The
document.
the
first
order.
true
and
been exhumed
it
sheds
upon
171
XI
THE STORY OF MY HEART
Some few
with
years before sailing for Paris
I
my
books.
authors, such as
a
Though our tastes were quite divergent, there were certain Hamsun and D. H. Lawrence, for whom we had common enthusiasm. My friend Emil had a most lovable way
his
of deprecating
pre-
questions
remember
and
was an
exercise in humility
self-control
on
my
part.
The
desire to
my
friend caused
me
to realize
how
very Httle
knew,
how
I
very
Httle I
was
a guide
com-
munions was
granted.
began to doubt
I
that
The more
I.
endeavored to explain
my
more
floundered.
He may
parting
have thought
but not
Often,
on
from him,
would continue
debate interminably.
I
suspect that
I
was
rather arrogant
and conceited
at this time,
that
had
all
all
Even
if I did
not
have
the answers, as
we
say, I
illusion
of
me
web.
in the
most humble
punctured
my
vanity.
me
but that
read far
a result,
They made knew a lot more than he pretended he sometimes knew much more than I did myself. If he less than I, he read with much greater attention and, as he retained much more than I ever did. I used to think
that
he not only
172
memory
which
astounding, and
it
was indeed,
but, as
discovered
later,-
was the
fruit
I
He
is
had, moreover, a
gift
much
later,
namely, the
By
comparison
I
was
ruthless
and
intolerant.
:
authors
stomach
years,
ruled
them out
as
being
later,
Ten
might confess to
my
by
good
friend
Emil
my
dogmatic
assertions,
time
come
to suspect that
this
There
was always
where
whom
he recommended to
me
with great
warmth
it
name
before, I
at the
to
me,
got the
was
was
called,
no
less.
Meant nothing
me.
would read
it
some day
^when
had nothing
It is
better to do.
strange
have touched on
title
this before, I
know
that even
if
one does not forget the aura which accompanied the recommendation.
Httle
word
warmth or
zeal,
We
we
ought always to be
alert to these
smouldering vibrations.
No
Emil
book be
a fool or an idiot,
Of course my friend
was neither
nor an
idiot.
tender, sympathetic
he had imparted on
Here
been on
let
me
digress a
moment
to speak
It
my
mind
frequently of late.
has to
I
do with the
recollec-
whose name
because there
this
is
type to a
tec.
me nomme
Louis Salavin
")
Now Louis,
173
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
I recalled just
comer.
He
to
was
a fat boy, as
I
I said,
and
were to search
diclassi.
for the
word
categorize him,
lander.")
I
would choose
(Or,
all
let
us say
" out-
mean
his
tribe,
had neither
Detached and
to a
was
can see
this
Louis
of ours
all
the
huge
blazing.
We
have
all
chippies,
raw
off.
grabbed
bit
Louis* feet,
is
munching our
certain to ensue.
remember
that
we
Paris*
It
kids, this
who,
it is
favorite authors.
We were
much more
an
It
at
home
of the writers of
wand.
Now and
that
word
or two.
was
I
as if
veracity.
"
dicta.**
What
remains
completely
lost
to
me.
All that
the tone
of authority, the
which Louis
conveyed to us in these moments. It was approval or benedic^on, " Continue your meanderings,** he seemed to say. if you Hke.
" Follow out every clue, every gossamer thread.
will know.'* If we
Eventually you
cultivate them. If we
as
de Sade says
you
world
who
has a right to
take pleasure
from
it
from
It
it
"f
in.
*
174
on Eugene Sue.)
tLd
It
was
as
.?
So
it
Any one could grapple with thought, mattered not to Louis what the " truth " might
we were
then confronting for the
first
be
as regards the
problems
lives.
was
all
a game, so to speak.
the
Who
is
it
that asks ?
Whence comes
this question ?
Why
by
Divine or die such was the terrible dilemma proposed the sphinx to the candidates for Theban royalty. The
is
reason
life
;
of science are
actually those
of
not to be. The natural forces will break us if we do not put them to use for the conquest of the world. There is no mean between the height of kinghood and the abyss of the victim state, unless we are content to be counted among those who are nothing because they ask not why or what they are.*
It
now
seems undeniable to
me
that Louis,
secret
even
as a
mere youth,
of a fulbess
of
life.
his presence
was
to partake
He
age.
knowledge or wisdom.
boys
his
He
preferred our
company
to that
!
of the
own
Did he know
lost,"
least
it
that
these latter
rate,
At any
without in the
suspecting
of hierophant.
How much more we learned from Louis than from our appointed I realize it now when I think of another boy my own age, whom I liked exceedingly, and who used to go out of his
instructors
!
to
me firom school.
name.
had tremendous
character.
He and
whom
* The History of Magic, by Eliphas Levi (Alphonse Louis Constant) William Rider & Son, Ltd., London, 1922.
175
THE BOOKS IN MY LIPB
have spoken of elsewhere, were virtually models for
this period.
me
throughout
One day
made
my
friend
to Louis,
into a
monologue,
I
that
saw written
all
doubt. Then
was made
the incineration of
my
dear
young
crisp.
summon on
occasion
saw
Httle
Louis had put the torch to that petty, vaunting intellect which had so
impressed me.
there
He had
turned on
him
the full
power of Mind
^and
was nothing
left (for
me) of my comrade's
intellect, character
or being.
my
with announcements
^huge
of
coming
events
Way Down
East,
Bamum &
Bailey's Circus,
Gendeman Jim
lad
Corbett, Pagliacci,
Maude Adams
Pan, and so on), seeing Louis perched there Hke a rotund wizard, a
us, so distant
and yet
his
own
person, his
own
fate, I
ask
myselfu'/id/
to
Did he
disappear
become
he,
I
the
strange, occult
book
at
Has
which
Or
did he take
disappear
off",
an
to
I
world "
Such
as
aUve to
me
all
as
when
am
certain
very
would not be
at
at
who were so
then seemed,
never
expect to hear
of Once
thought
it
who
i
remain
But Louis
body
Why
Was
"the StOHY
fools
Ql
I
MY HEART
to
and ignoramuses
Louis, Louis,
!
what
know your
real identity
My friend
How
this
Emil,
it is
my
debt to you.
in the
book
for so long
more
Here
is
man who
speaks
my
he
He is the iconoclast I feel myself to be yet never He makes the utmost demands. He rejects, he scraps, What a daring seeker When you annihilates. What a seeker
!
we had
nature of
in
Prospect
my
Park, try to remember, if you can, the fumbling answers to those " deep " questions you
->
propounded ...
and able to understand everything there is no hmit to its understanding.* The limit is the Uttleness of the things and the narrowness of the ideas which have been put for it For the philosophies of old time past and to consider. the discoveries of mooem research are as nothing to it. They do not fill it. When they have been read, the mind The utmost of them, the passes on, and asks for more. whole together, make a mere nothing. These things have been gathered together by immense labor, labor so great that it is a weariness to think of it ; but yet, when all is summed up and vmtten, the mind receives it all as easily as the hand picks flowers. It is like one sentence ^rcad and gone.f
is
The mind
is
infinite
that
brought before
it
Jcfferics, I
^ycs,
suddenly
recall
me
It
if I call it
i
that
are
my
sublime
all
my
subUmc impatience.
time ?
What
of me.
we
i
waiting for
Why
we marking
I
Was
not that me
tolerant
over
You would
me
I
a question
would
why we
That
is
why, when
came
from the
:
lips
of
" Nothing is * Curious that Lautrdamont said almost the same incomprehensible." fThis and other citations are taken from the Haldeman-Julius r|)rint
177
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
Louis Lambert
another Louis
!
my skin.
was
I
he had suffered.
am
many who
suffer
and
to the degree
us he suffered.
Time and
again
tyrant in
me which
be governed by its true masters. When I read Jefferies' statement " In twelve thousand written years the world has not yet built
itself a
own
up
House, nor filled a Granary, nor organized itself for its comfort " this old tyrant which refuses to be smothered rises
again.
recalling
tremendous impact of
their
utterances
men
Hke
Emerson,
especially
Nietzsche,
^I
Rimbaud,
Whitman,
the
Zen
masters
(still !)
of those early
teachers into
entrusted.
What
a bundle
and conceit
He
him
take over,
minutes goes to the blackboard and draws the figure eight lying on " he asks. An impressive silence. its side. " What does that signify ?
No one knows,
**
Boys, that
is
it.
An
egg lying on
side
^nothing more.
A
!
Uttle later, in
High
commander of
bird.
**
the
Navy.
!
Hving monument to
That's
discipline, this
Obey "
One day
(It
tells
seemed an
me
you
I
that
i
it is
good
mind.
for
Is
that
an answer,
ask
Then, by
way of punishment
whole
my
pudence, he makes
me memorize
which
am
about battlecarry,
of armament they
and the
effectiveness
of their broadsides.
Do you
wonder
that
I still
**
Then
there
was
nourish a healthy contempt for this old master ? om first Bulldog " Grant, the Latin teacher
. . .
Latin teacher.
Anyway,
178
the
(Why I chose to study Latin is still a mystery to me.) man was an absolute conundrum to us. One moment
we
down
Why
wreathed in
Every day
roll, as if it
on God's
earth.
Then, to
at the
. . .
warm
us
up he would bid
**
:
us
clear
.
Hie, haec,
right
hoc
huius
huic
..."
through to the end. This and the conjugation of the verb "
are
all I
amo
what
"
!
retain
of the
first
Instructive,
Later,
the
way, one
To
this
day,
who had a real love for his bloody Vergil, we used to now and then from the principal. Dr. Paisley I tell you, the latter remains for me the symbol incarnate
filled
with
fear,
Httle
game
get
was to break in on us
room on
his
at
march
tiptoes, and,
wished to keep
hand
in,
no choice
him
few minutes.
chair,
knew by
riffles
intently as
though puzzling
it
on
us)
where we were.
Hm
He
which he
on one of
as
translation.
ability his
Naturally, terrified of
him
we
all
seemed not
as
or displeased
blankness of
on
though
this
this utter
mind
of
He would do
text.
it
way
rendition to
that.
if we didn't perhaps prefer None of us gave a fuck which way he interAll we were praying for was that he would leave
would ask
179
soon
as possible.
He
He was the very corpse of learning TTicre is one more I must mentionDoc Payne. He was a testy chap but likable in a way, especially out of class. He smoked a lot, we observed, and was as eager for the class to be dismissed as we ourarnica
and embahning
fluid.
selves.
It
meant a few
puflfs
on
Anyway, he taught
after another, just
modem
history
one
"
names of
he was more
sions."
of a
human than the rest I can't forgive him for the " omisWhat do I mean Just this. Never once, at the beginning semester, did he give us a bird's-eye view of what we were
f
in for.
it
occur to
him
muddle of dates, names, places, etc. If he expatiated at all, it was on some campaign long forgotten, some " decisive battle " of the world. red, white and I can sec him all over again, with chalk in hand
blue
designating by chicken
Very important
of the opposing
armies.
the cavalry
some other
leaders
know why at a certain moment was unleashed, or why the center gave way, or why fool manoeuvre took place. He never enlarged upon
for us to
conflicts.
of these great
He
own
pr^ds of
the causes
us,
We
and
if
we had
of our own,
we
smothered them.
It
was
more important
of the
treaty
He might have
said,
I
on opening
the
book of
:
of adHbbing
Boys, young men, in the year 9,763 B.C. the world found
itself
were on the
The grass and grains on either bank of the The Chinese, just beginning to feel march. The Minoan civilization of Crete and
extinct.
now known
as
were
The
arts flourished
everywhere,
they had
unknown
The
principal reHgions
such.
No
one knows
why
at this precise
moment
in history certain
definite
movements began
to take place.
iSo
"THE STORY OP MY HEART
and such an alignment offerees
figure appeared
;
in the
West
;
another.
Suddenly a
is
named Hochintuxityscy
mean.
almost nothing
known
"
. . .
about
You
on
see
what
He
map of the then world, and map of the world as it is today. He could
vertical
and horizontal
lines,
dates, events
to give us
Umbs and
and
He
its
shown
sciences, reHgions
He
He
could have
differ
than force us to
how and why the greatest of historians He could have done something more, I say, memorize names, dates, battles and so on. He could
shown
us
fiiture in
our
own
terms.
But he never
**
!
And so I say
"
From the
and confusion.
but
the
From
High School
pleasure
I retain
nothing
remembrance
of the
fleeting
evoked by the
school
I
From grammar
It
Uttle episode
^in
was
this
Our
no
teacher,
Mr. MacDonald,
easily
I
a gaunt,
sense
of humor and
me
a direct
rather fond
of me,
"
And
I
I
answered,
No,
sir."
Upon
which the
class
was
left
Suddenly, however,
Mr. MacDonald
quiet.
turned on the
class furiously
at him,**
is
"
to take an
know. He has
this
!
Remember
And
i8i
do
likewise, instead
of pretending
that
you
don't."
That
it
httle lesson
sank deep.
It
wounded pride,
result
taught
I
me true humiUty.
not,
I
All
my my hfe, whether as a
say, in critical
of this or not,
:
know
moments
Or,
if I
" No,
am
really
cannot answer
**
:
can say
I'm sorry,
!
don't
know
the answer."
And what
a reUef it
is
to speak thus
in such
moments
after
one
The answer
is
it.
always there,
but
we must
We
should
know, however,
certain questions.
is
whom
!
The answer
is
not in them
Among
know
the
whole body of
instructors to
whom we
to
are deUvered
from
the answers.
Nor, what
is
worse, do they
know how
make
in ourselves.
is
alert, ulti-
mately chance supphes the solution," says Jefferies. True. But what
is
is
something of our
own
creation.
Suddenly
recall the
name and
presence of Dr.
at the close
Brown. Dr.
for a
of every grammar
I
Brown
because
I
would not
include
him
in the
was about
still
to begin,
on wings of love. In
wings,
you
his
as
that they
were
fluttering, his
when he
rose
from
It
seat
on
made ready
to say a
few words.
was
though Dr. Brown knew each and every one of us intimately and
all-enfolding mantle
warmth.
He had
just returned,
always
first
with
whom to
have no doubt
office
it
loved boys.
What
he
filled I
;
deacon
of the church.
No
matter.
He was
heart,
as
and
Dr.
we
call
such talks
Men
is
them on or
off
The
effect
of course
nil
we
all
Dr.
he was a
Brown was a truly inspired individual. All that he had read, and man of great culture, all he had seen on his trips round the
into the very texture of his being.
woven
sponge.
He was Hke a well-soaked One Httle squeeze of the fmgers and he oozed water. When
full,
good few
to begin.
Once
launched, his
mind sparked
:
directions at once.
He was
it
immediately. In a quarter of an hour of this kind of communication he " instructed " us as we had never been instructed during the weeks
and months of class. If he had been a teacher instead of our " guest
speaker" he would, undoubtedly, have been dismissed in short
order.
He was
heart,
He
spoke
from the
no one ever
spoke to us thus
^not
even the
No,
kind of vague, prescribed love which was like milk and water.
really did
not give a
damn
He He was
little
was damned
Brown
He had
a sense
one
of the
infalHble signs
of hberation.
When he
was
as if
got through
^his
speech was
^it
we had
felt a courage unknown before, a new kind of courage I might felt brave before the almost say a " metaphysical " courage.
we
world because the good Dr. Brown had given us back our kingship.
We were boys
men "
tasks,
still
^he
^but
we had become
had
tasks.
whose
We
vahant
I feel
.
that I
a clear conscience.
The
is,
httle
" autobio-
graphy"
to
again, an inspirational
work.
"
Much that
specialize
styled inspirational
is
it is
183
THfi
BOOKS
in
IN
MY
LIFE
is
in the subject
would
like us to believe
so.
mentioned Emerson.
Never
is
my life have I met anyone who did not agree that Emerson
One may
not accept his thought in toto, but
purified, so to say,
an inspiring writer.
and
is
He
takes
you
you wings. He
I
am certain.
as
who
may
knowing
am,
that
I
should
i
R.
W.
Trine.*
Am
mocking
certain
who open our eyes. There are those who open our eyes and there are those who lift us out of ourselves. The latter are not interested in foisting upon us new beUefe but in aiding us to penetrate
those
reality
more
deeply, " to
make
science
structures
us say, in
And
last
for
position as the
exacdy the same Written tradition, systems of culture, modes of thought, have for me no existence. If ever they took any hold of my mind it must have been very shght ; they have long ago been erased.
today, as
I
Now,
write, I stand in
Caveman.
That
it
is
a mighty utterance.
i
An heroic utterance. Who can repeat Who is there that even aspires to make such
us towards the
an utterance
Jeflferies tells
how
he
had
tried again
of him. Repeatedly he
failed.
And no
finally, firagmentary
to be,
is
begin
(in 1880),
he
states that
down
a few notes.
the Injinite.
* See 184
my
on In Tune with
**THE
" Even then," he
says,
STORY OF MY HEART
I
"
(I
had destroyed
former beginnings), and in the end, two years afterwards, commenced this book." He speaks of it as " only a
all
Then he
it
adds,
and
I
this I
"
Had
at
not made
.
. .
personal
could
have put
it
into
any shape
I
aU
have
as it
of my
own
my life."
which
is
makes an
assertion
very
dear to
me
and which
is
critics.
and by
this
attempting
:
as soul, prayer,
he concludes
to
immortaUty, and declaring these to be deficient " I must leave my book as a whole to give its
own meaning
its
words."
Perhaps the key to this amazing Httle book is the sentence which runs thus : " No thought which I have ever had has satisfied my
soul."
soul's
The
of his
as
became
nought.
"Begin wholly
afresh.
Go
im-
mense
a god
forces
;
go higher than
Soimds
like
and open a
if
new
day."
D. H. Lawrence.
There
is
wonder now
JefFeries.
at
any
whenever
we come upon
The
iconoclast
as if
he were
It is
from
an
rhythm from
that
of the prophets,
who
are filled
the
commands or
not,
we
are stirred
chests
lift
to
And now
let us
which
is
rcaUy the
epitome of his
soul's longing.
He
which
inner
consciousness
since
before
written
history began.
before then.
Three
the night which is round us still in dayUght the existence of the soul, immortality, the deity. These things found, prayer followed as a sequential result. Since then nothing further has been found in all the twelve thousand years, as if men had been satisfied and had found these to suffice. They do not suffice me. I desire to advance further, and to wrest a fourth, and even still more than a fourth, from the darkness of thought. I want more ideas of soul-hfe. I am certain there are more yet to be found. A great life an entire civilization Hes just outside the pale of common thought. Cities and countries, inhabitants, intelhgences, culture an entire civilization. Except by
illustrations
drawn from famiHar things, there is no way of indicating a new idea. I do not mean actual cities, actual civilization. Such hfe is different from any yet imagined. A nexus of ideas exists of which nothing is
vast system of ideas a cosmos of thought. an Entity, a Soul-Entity, as yet unrecognized. These, rudely expressed, constitute my Fourth Idea. It is beyond, or beside, the three discovered by the Cavemen it is in addition to the existence of the soul in addition to immortality and beyond the idea of the deity. I think there is something more than existence.
known
a
is
There
new, deeper,
richer,
more encompassing
into
ideas,
Madame
which
If they
men
are
still
over them.
I refer
source,
Madame
Blavatsky amasses
when
side
by
side
with the
**
mean
superior in
whom we
today consider
i86
as such.
Indeed,
_LJ
who
of which
we do
I
not
rejected
them
know
don't imagine
it
unknown came
as
he
He would
still
we
have
tion or
stand,
by whom. What he strives magnificently to make us undermake us realize, make us accept, is that these ideas came from a
that
we are
up
to death, so
we
rest
make no
effort to
swim back
Filled
able to get
lessness
with consuming wonder, awe and reverence for Hfe, never enough of sea, air and sky, realizing " the crushing hopeit is
not
at all
him
declaring that
the span of
human
life
we
imagine possible today. Indeed, he goes further, much further, and hke a true man of spirit asserts that " death is not inevitable to the
ideal
man.
He
is
He
few paragraphs
on he
says,
justification
The truth is, we die through our ancestors, we are murdered by our ancestors. Their dead hands stretch forth from the tomb and drag us down to their mouldering
bones.
Every revolutionary
or the field of poHtics,
afresh
figure,
whether in the
this
field
of religion
knows
!"
It is
But to
of the past
Italics
mine.
187
A hen
is
only
One
man
he
is
by
the most
no more than he
has
been and
still is.
man
lips
is
and
cruelty, to
from prison
(afier
solitary
"...
I
All
my
feelings
I like
arc extinguished.
taste for
anything,
world which
.
foolishly
so vvdldly regretted
I
seems to
me
if I
so boring
am now
**
seem
effect
on me ...
The
plaint
of this unfortunate
all
From
quarters
of the
globe there
of distress. Worse, a wail of utter despair. " When," asb Jefferies (in 1882 !), " will it be possible to be
rises
of
a single
may reveal a fresh power." Today we know and how shamefully we have utilized it the power which resides in the atom. And it is today more than ever before that man roams hungry, naked, abandoned.
At any moment some
fortunate incident
" Begin
East are at
afresh !
last
making an heroic
past.
fetters
which
And what
i
the result
We
of the West
is
We
Where
progress
Who
possesses
is
enHghtenmcnt
There
a sentence in
book which
literally
jumps
at least for
me. "
" Excellent indeed, can hear the critical-minded objecting but why doesnt he invent it ? " Now it is one of the virtues of the
ment
men who
and lead
way
open.
They
hand
They do not
take us
by
the
On
the other
hand
might say
men who
comes
moment
striving to
show
us
how
to accomplish this
end.
Now
when
the time
188
may seem
so.
But perhaps
in a
way which is
unforgettable
This hour, rays or undulations of more subtle mediums doubtless pouring on us over the wide earth, unrecognized, and full of messages and intelligence from
are
the unseen.*
Of these we
are this
day
as
ignorant
as those
There is an infinity of knowledge yet to be known, and beyond that an infinity of thought. No mental instrument even has yet been invented by which researches can be carried direct to the Whatever has been found has been discovered object. by fortunate accident in looking for one thing another has been chanced on. A reasoning process has yet to be invented by which to go straight to the desired end. For now the slightest particle is enough to throw the search aside, and the most minute circumstance sufficient to conceal obvious and briUiantly shining truths ... At present the endeavor to make discoveries is Hke gazing at the sky up through the boughs of an oak. Here a beautihere a constellation is hidden by ful star shines clearly a branch ; a universe by a leaf Some mental instrument or organon is required to enable us to distinguish between the leaf which may be removed and a real void ; when to cease to look in one direction, and to work in another ... I feel that there are infinities to be known, but they are hidden by a leaf ...
;
who
says
Or, as Claude Houghton Take another tack Begin afresh " All Change^ Humanity ! ** Or, as Klakusch says, in The Maurizius Case^ " Stop, world of humans, and attack the problem
! !
us to get out of the rut, to leave bag and baggage, to change cars,
Now
secret
a conversion.
But never
by
me
x89
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
supernatural, and difficult of understanding
is
. .
Matter
;
beyond understanding, mysterious, impenetrable I touch it easily, comprehend it, no. Soul, mind the
thought,
itself
the
is
idea
is
easily
understood,
it
understands
super-
and
conscious.
is
The
natural in truth,
natural.
the real.
To me
earth,
everything
sea,
is
accept
but
the
the
the
the
tangible
misnamed supernatural these to me seem incomplete, unfinished. Without soul all these are dead. Except when I walk by the sea, and my soul is by it, the sea is dead. Those seas by which no man has stood by which no soul has been whether on earth or the
universe
Without
No
it is
matter
how
it is
dead.
dead.
comprehend
is
this
planet
the
writers
of " romances " began to introduce into their works the so-called and miscalled " supernatural " element. Theirs was a revolt against
the fateful tendency
this
of the
of which
we of
What
is
and misguided)
scientists
who
deeper,
more
significant
It
is
common
observation nowadays that the man in the street accepts the " miracles " of science in a matter of fact way. Every day of
use of
what men
in other ages
god than
at
any time in
less
his history.
being a
!
Yet
never was he
gifts
godlike.
He
accepts and
;
miraculous
of science unquestioningly
zest,
he
is
awe, reverence,
the past, has
vitahty or joy.
He draws no
from
no peace or
and
is
utterly
He is marking
this
time.
That
is
about
most
we
We
190
^his
conception
of time, and of
as
the
good work,
progress,
purpose,
the
^r
him by the
scientist,
Precious
all
left
bom
into.
as
Yet
it is
there,
will
accompany him
he journeys backward
or forward.
Not
his
way
of thinking.
Not
his
immune and impervious He is not participating, he is being dragged along by the scalp. He initiates nothing, unless What an image he presents, modem man it be more reaction.
To
to
all
some
high,
awesome
place
where
all is
and shuddering, he will be sent hurtling into the void. and thus only, that
I
see
else
him
arcanum of truth
all
and wisdom.
doors
;
How
could
be
He
elected (if
we may
he himself has thus dignify him) to be flung into " the cauldron
all
supports
of rebirth."
Sublime,
ignominious
spectacle.
Punishment and
**
salvation in one.
What, we
fate
ask,
for
man
Would
it
his just
Would
it
be a miracle
just as
does modem man exway of miracles The only miracle I can possibly think of would be for him to beg, at the last moment, for a
this species
of
man who
believes so soHdly
talk
in concrete reaHty,
of the moon,
or planets even
more
what
is
more
curious, think
;
of
how
to defend
visualize
that
he can
this planet
new mode of
191
somewhere
short, that
I say,
he
would be unrecognizable
to himself
Is it
not baffling,
that
him
^neither
far, far
And
yet, yes
and
yet, to get
him
his
respect a
for
his
own
welfare
to cease struggling
on
the eHmination
and enjoy
Hfe, to concentrate
oh,
so
many, many
things
ideas
and not be
throat ... no, towards these vital ends he refuses stubbornly to a single step.
make
He would
rather
walk out on
his true
problems,
would
and his fellow creatures. Could " renegade ** ? Is it any wonder that, anticipating the advent of his glorious " new day " in the bosom of the stellar
rather desert the planet
there be a worse
deep, he
is
new
neighbors
may
resent his
coming
What,
after
all,
t
His pride
tells
What but disaster and ruin. unknown worlds him he is superior to these otherworld creatures, but
Perhaps there where time
are one,
is of another " they " have
order,
Perhaps nowhere
swarms of habitable
So
with
Et
elle
a raison
No, such
we
are today,
If
we may
not
be
at all
welcome
we
heaven within,
there
is
it is
a certainty
we
without.
But
that,
the possibility
z desperate,
having caught a gHmpse " out there " of order, peace and harmony,
we who
afresh.
call ourselves
men will
on
192
THE STORY OP MY
All through great literature runs the idea
HfiAftT
Whatever man
he
flings his
sets
weary body,
himself.
moon
will
soon become
fact I
distant reahns
factor.
Time
of time.
his desires, in
may quite
no
lapse
may discover
how
we would
not
i
selves there
instantaneously.
it,
Why
If the
only to
desire
and
it
will be thus.
At present
man
may come
refuses
about in
He
and
still
" to
Thought, however,
contains
this
all,
is
already
is
on
the wing.
The
Mind which
himself
all,
At
very
moment man
it is
is
as if
comet.
self.
in the
tail
of
his
own
comet-like
it
new and utterly unpredictable realms. One part of man longs for the moon and other seizable worlds, never dreaming
passes
of him
is
already traversing
more
mysterious,
more
Is it
spectacular realms.
that
Perhaps.
symboHc
mouth.
act
coil
and
twist,
tail
he succeeds in putting
in
The
of
will
true
symbol of infinity
is
It is also
the
symbol
fulfillment.
And
fiilfillment
man's goal
Only
in fulfillment
he find
reality.
full
Aye,
we must go
swing.
at the
same time
New
York, 1946.
man be
death.
To
at last
A
A
letter
:
from
Sue " Vous m'avez demand^ des 6claircissements sur Eugene Sue. Je ne suis pas un lecteur assidu de Sue j'ai lu Les Mysteres de Paris, dans ma tendre jeunesse et puis, jamais plus rien. Void la liste des livres d'Eugene Sue
;
:
Kernock
le Pirate,
1
1830
Plick et Plock,
83
Atar-Gull, 1831
La La
1835
Deux
Histoires,
1840
I'Eccl^siaste
194
Eugene Sue
a-t-il
;
les
detours."
n'est pas un romancier profond. II a une imagination debordante, c'est quelque chose, bien sur, mais pas assez pour venir frapper a la L'imagination d'Eugene porte de la posterite, confiant qu'eUe I'ouvrira.
Eugene Sue
Sue qui frappait si fort ses contemporains, nous fait sourire souvent et, La fin du fin pour Eugene Sue etait quelquefois, franchement eclater. d'amener dans un roman, le plus frequemment qu'il se pouvait, un genre de dissertation morale, ce qu'il appelait ses utopies. Par exemple : on nc
devrait plus executer les
il
condamnes
.
mort
yeux.
les
mort en 1857. Son pere etait medecin ; I'imperatrice Josephine fut sa marraine. II abandonnc ses etudes avant la rhetorique ; etudie la medecine sous son pere, qui le fait embarquer comme chirurgien k bord d'un bateau. (Les premieres oeuvres litteraires d'Eugene
Eugene Sue
est
ne en 1804
Sue sont maritimes.) Son pere lui laissa en mourrant une fortune d'un million ." (francs de I'epoque). Je ne sais pas si Eugene Sue en fit un bon usage
.
195
XII
LETTER TO PIERRE LESDAIN
May
3rd, 1950
My
The
me,
lince reading
most welcome
of April
I
.
20th, to incorporate
you
into this
this letter
am
writing.
is
That
to
is
why
it
There
no one
whom
gives
me
my
thoughts, particularly
my
I
larval
thoughts.
You
**
are
enthusiastic readers
know
more
think
of
In your reviews
**
you
you
are
often
for
the author.
When you
attack
you
reveal
your love,
I
Often,
I
when
back to
my
early days,
book
in
am
certain
now
that
we were
It is
book by
same time.
now
since I
my
you
head
is
As
may have
explained to
is
am
in a continual state
of bubble
because
of the books
am
it
rereading
mosdy
I
old favorites.
Everything
nourishes, stimulates
me.
Originally
volume
now
seems
as if it will
be a
tome.
Each day
jot
down
is
in
my
tides
which
I recollect.
This
an exciting feature of my
exhuming from
titles
the imfathom-
able reservoir
takes
daily.
Sometimes
it
two or three days for a book which is in the back of my head, or on the tip of my tongue, to announce itself completdy author, title, time and place. Once it becomes " fixed " in my memory,
*
up.
this
was written
it
has folded
196
of
my
dim
I
past.
little I
Thus
Gil Bias
had
copy you
I
tell
me you
always
are sending.
hangs a
as the
tale,
for me,
at least
the
tale is
as
important
all I
book.
who
intrigue
me
because of
lives interest
me,
Stendhal
is
whether for or
me
enormously.
have actually
read without
this Uttle I
much
I
pleasure or profit.
think
him
most important
one of the
most
bom.
am
naturally,
even though
it
I shall
(Who
has
i)
Incidentally,
know
that I
had great
of so-called
those
one
branch of literature with which I am only faindy acquainted. But " branch " of Hterature or is it another category of misnomers i is it a
Here
is
random thought
I
en passant.
Each time
pick
volume of
Elie Faure
conflict.
up a Time
my
on him, but
I
doubt that
will,
doubt that
can,
who
tell
You
never Uberate
Impossible to
where your
All
It
is
own
life
inextricably interwoven.
when I thiiJc of certain names, that my life began afiresh number of times. Doubdess because each time I rediscovered,
seems,
interpreters,
my own
never did
You
in Nietzsche and in
this
him
alone.
understand, though
same fervor
Ah,
Whoso
has the
power
to aiFect us
a master,
more and more deeply each time we read him is indeed no matter what his name, rank or status be. This is a
as I
I
reread
my favorite
up The
authors.
(I
am certain,
were
to pick
Birth of Tragedy
I
one book
beheve
the am
I
would be "finished"
Does
?
What
?
the
meaning of
this
Does
mean
am
naive
What
Whatever
assure
you
tion
regard
this
weakness
as a singular blessing.
And
if,
in picking a quota-
up an old
happen to find
in his
book
from another of my
my joy is
unbounded.
Only yesterday, in glancing through The Dance Over Fire and Water* this happened to me. On page six I found this from Walt Whitman " The world will be complete for him who himself
:
is
complete."
And on page
eighty-four
this, also
from Whitman
"
You
as
divine
all
and
life,
say that
And
come again from you, and you who give hfe." (May
proud
it
not they
who
say, for
once in
!)
my
am
One of
them
why
authors at length
first
because
my very
their language.
not so
I
moment I begin talking about them I echo much that I am ashamed of " plagiariz-
am
fearful
my own
so
voice.
entities,
the man who own voice. In the final analysis, is that Whatiota of uniqueness which we boast of as " ours " really ours ever real or unique contribution we make stems from the same
many
inscrutable
source
whence everything
since
is
derives.
is
We
contribute
way of sayingour
However,
we
are
all
no
we
*By
I?8
Elie Faure.
say nothing
more than
cannot
tell
Om."
issues
I
concentrate a
raised in
letter
...
you how
delighted
was
that
you should
so speedily have
you from
mail
I
my
made use of the citation I sent John Cowper Powys. In the same
of Combat
also
Soon
hope
I
to find for
you one
am
sure
you
will enjoy.
would
suppose he was never translated into French. To the French it The doubtless seem like " bringing coals to Newcastle."
addressed
alive
him
as
"
mon
been
when
I finally
make a long deferred obeisance, Had EHe Faure summoned the courage to approach his
and kissed
his
office, I
would
hand.
You
where
think this
a transitory phase.
The
first
emotions, the
reactions,
and
I
lasting ones,
we
usually discover.
(To discover
to recover.)
for
must
confess,
few authors
we
our original
hke
a loss of grace.
**
moment
cannot
author
in.
true
and
lasting
seems
my definition^whom I have been deceived I wander among my idols, the more my adoration. No deceptions. Particularly
me
was given,
I
in the realm
is
that,
this
once
my
allegiance
is
remained
loyal.
remark
on
because loyalty
tions
I
unworthy of
which
note.
pecuHar
trait
(devotion
to
adoration
to
causing
this
book
can
I
(hypothetically)
grow
?
astonishing proportions.
How
this
How
can
I,
song of love
And why
should I ?
who
how
the desire
moreover,
who
199
on
several occasions
swore that
: :
that
clodhopperthinking
to
overcome
the disease.
The
I
My Life by
teacher,
Helen Keller,
came
by her
Anne Mansfield
of the regular
SulUvan
" Reading,
school exercises.
pure dehght of
his
[Bravo
!]
The
attitude
receptivity.
The
great
his life, as
She adds
"
Too
often,
and
talk
cannot help
In giving
it
as
*'
guidance and
sympathy
far
more than
instruction," she
I
made me
diink of
Rous-
seau's Entile^
came
pass^e on
language
life,
out of
its
needs and
all but She had been living in a world she could not realize. Language* and knowledge are indissolubly connected they are interdependent. Good work in language presupposes and depends on a real knowledge of things. As soon as Helen grasped the idea that everything hacTa name, and that by means of the manual alphabet these names could be transmitted fi-om one to another, I proceeded to awaken her further interest in the objects wnose names she learned to spell with such evident joy. / never taught her language for the purpose of teaching it ; but invariably used language as a medium for the communication o( thought thus the learning of language was coincident with the acquisition of knowledge. In order to use language intelligently, one must have something to talk about, and having something to talk about is the result of having had experiences no amount of language training will enable
At
first
my
Httle pupil's
mind was
vacant.
Italia
throughout
aoo
unless they
their
minds which
we succeed in awakenis
know what
in the
minds of
othen.
All diis leads
me
to
why
never
of him which
began in
Paris
some seventeen
years ago.
I
But
first let
me
whether
Perhaps
I
am
Yes, indeed.
am
engaged,
it
too began
as a
"small" volume.
of the Tropic of Cancer^ Jack Kahane, had asked write for him a hundred pages or so on " my great
D. H. Lawrence.
plaquette
"
before issuing the Cancer book, the publication of \^^ich had been
held up, for one reason and another, for three years or more.
idea
The
was
certainly not to
my
liking,
but
I I
grudgingly consented.
By
the time I
of Lawrence's work
trees.
no longer
There remain of
finished pages.
and there
are,
of course, voluminous
notes.
Two
:
things
worked
of this work
;
arose in
on with my own story two, the confiision which my mind as to what indeed Lawrence did actually represent.
" Before a
says Ch*ing-yuan,
;
are mountains
after
him are not mountains and waters are not waters but when he really attains to the abode of rest, mountains
more mountains and waters
what he was
it, I
after this,
are once
sort
are waters."*
Something of the
Today he is once again beginning, but knowing this, and being sure of
need to
air
no longer
feel the
my
views.
interpretative studies
of authors so
vitally
W. Watts
201
our
own
interest, I believe.
Our labors only serve to make Our subjects seldom need our
Usually they are dead by
we
get to them.
As
am more
and more
and
less assistance
or instruc-
it is
more important,
certainly
do beHeve,
for
them
to struggle
on
own.
for Joyce,
I
As
am
indebted to him.
affinity
is
Certainly
But
of
my
My
which
"
attracts
me
to him, but, as
that
When
has
all's said,
;
in this field.
It is
He
no equal
I
he
from
the
imaginary influences.
all influences,
have done
my
utmost to acknowledge
yet
I realize
my work
You
The
the writers to
come
which
have
have ignored
stressed.
The Rime of
work
man
read this
They
work in school, of course, together with The Lay of the Last Minstrel. are among the few books I enjoyed reading in school, I will teU you. But the book I remember best, from school days, the book
left
it, is
Tennyson's
of the King.
The
by
reason
King Arthur
Only
the famous
SchHemann
as
an age of
an age of chivalry.
the
historians."
I
Homer.
I
mention Gladstone's
faith,
a noble
youth, chivalry,
true arboreal
up
in
me.
said a
moment ago
that
my
New
New
Directions,
York,
193 8.
such.
?
But what
and deed.
is it
that nourishes
!
and
sustains
this species
The
In a word, the
hterature of imagination
When
is
I I
still
think of
it,
because in
it
Today
or
girl
it
would seem
inflamed
boy
by
contact with
it.
And
this leads
me
to say
how
who
beheve that certain books, because universally acknowledged as " masterpieces," are the books which alone have power to inspire
and nourish
us.
titles
him
is
matters not
what evaluation
authorities
:
made of these by
and
critics,
by pundits and
for the
man who
We
acts
;
do not
ask of one
who
we do
not demand
his credentials.
Nor
should
we
be forever
grateful
since each
of us
has the
power
in turn to
awaken
do
so,
often unwittingly.
learns as
the holy
scholar,
much from
from
Good Book.
you would
translate
Yes,
would indeed be
from
grateful if
I
one or
this
two
tales
the fabliaux.
literature.
Which reminds me
list
that,
have received
many
good
I
me
book on
Gilles
whom
am
tremendously interested.
There are
certain
The
in the
them.
is
clustered or spangled
with constellations
of Le Goeland
or
more
which
Hterary
we
never hear of
Even
in Volonte,
which
is
not a
strictly
203
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFB
periodical, I find articles
sec
never
worked
to
at
New
York
Company
I recall
what
a pleasure
it
made
my way
up
see stacked
latest issue
of Sim-
In those days
we
had
at least
two
excellent magazines
in this country
The
Little
Today
there
is
Nor
I I
can
on without
word about
Benn.
Transition in
whose pages
discovered
the
can never
forget
Gottfiied
to
But
come back
to Saladin
and
Gilles
de Rais, than
whom
two more opposite types I have inquired of our libraries as to what books are available concerning them and I have gathered a few titles, mostly by English or American
there could hardly be
authors.
These
titles,
however, do not
incite
me
to look
up
is
the so
books
eminendy American.
most
am
searching not so
much
for scholarly
I
presume
that the
serious studies
But
do not want
I
had to choose,
of this strange
would
soul.
I
am
still
searching for,
also
want
a
?
book about
I
Do you know
unique
of a good one
this altogether
remember
my extreme
bewilderment
as I
Now,
my
early past,
I feel
that
it
As for Restif de
Bretonne
me
am
expecting any
day
now
;
attache stationed in
Jidda
he has written
me several letters
telling
me of the remarkable
this singular
affinities
Tropics
and
French
104
You
can imagine
how
curious
am
strange creature.
I
In addition to books
for, I receive
many
that
do want
of the
received
in fact,
listed.
by now
titles
it
One
It is
that I
my
is
favorite
author
ville
when
not a
brilliant
work
It
(the author
G. Man-
Fenn) but
forty
some
odd
of gazing upon
photo which
deceptive.
the face of
my my
beloved author.
is
must say
that the
in
no wise disappointing or
There he
large as
is,
Henty "
to me),
life,
la
Whit-
genial, kindly
Though
he nevertheless reminds me strongly of another idol. Rider Haggard. They belong to the " manly " side of British men of letters. Rugged,
stalwart, honest
selves, fair
reticent
about them-
and upright in
many
ways,
besides writing
active
men, good,
variety
and scope of
From an
in their
saw
the
rough
Even
Though
and
analysis
of
their material.
the
**
more immersed
in
life.
Both enjoyed
too,
on reaching middle
Hfe.
the
good fortime
to
secretaries,
or amanuenses, to
that
!)
whom
to
(How
a writer
to
envy them
Henty
is
who may
not be
known
you
at all
but he was
known
as
probably regarded
But
let
me
his
quote you
this
man
Henty,
work, and
205
They
strike a
sympathetic note.
**
boy, he
a
states,
His aim
is
to
become
man and
done.
Hence
the
great success of
essentially
manly,
boys to be bold,
part,
young man's
not to be
milksops."
early
youth
^he
Which
explains
books
also
explains
...
only the
a weakling prizes
good
health
he was building up a
by
enlisting
on their body of
gifts.
buyers of presents
who
By
this
body
is
conning the publishers' hsts, famous name for the hero of the story and exclaim
history
Ha
that's safe
*
!
In this
himself
with the great body of teachers who joined with him hand in hand hence it was that the book-writer who kept up for so many years his wonderful supply of two, three and often four boys' books a year, full of soUd interest and striking natural adventure, taught more lasting history to boys than all the schoolmasters of his generation."
;
But enough on
discover
that they
this score.
find
it
strange,
must admit, to
characters "
my
game hunting,
What a contrast to the characters who are later to influence me, so many of them " pathological," or, as Max Nordau would say " degenerate." Even dear old Walt, the man of the great outdoors, the poet with a cosmic sweep, is now studied from
the People
"
the
**
Fenn saying
was
as
far firom
Henty
to
asunder " sounds almost comical " neurotic " was not even known in Henty's
206
LETTER TO PIERRE LESDAIN
day.
it is
Hamsun used to flaunt the word " neurasthenic." " psychotic " or else " schizophrenic." Today I
Today
writes
Who
Seriously, I
?
mean.
What do
youths of today
Last night
I
A
I
most
interesting question
...
This happens to
had great
me
frequently since
:
am
engaged on
this
book.
The
I
reason
is
simple
am
have such
for
me
to decide
what
I
not
Everything
touch
reminds
me
my
intellectual being.
As
reread a
to
book
known
I
my
former
Conrad
says
somewhere
after
A partial truth.
is
know what he
There
is
meant,
Conrad, but
the
life
of a creator
which a man
a time for
play and a time for work, a time for creation and a time for lying
fallow.
And
there
is
its
scarcely exists,
mean
^when boredom
me
to recalling the
wonderful fellows
office at
30 Broad Street,
I
New
York.
was so charged
connected
grabbed
my
names of
these individuals
I
and the
clearly
with them.
saw them
all
and
distinctly
Eddie
Ray
Rink,
Wales,
Frank Selinger,
Wetzler,
mouse of
whom we
the peppery Southerner from Virginia, who would repeat over " ToUiver ! the phone a dozen times a day, " Not Taliaferro
whom my memory
I left
fastened
was
a fellow
never
age of
the
company
at the
Harold
Street
his
was
his
I
name.
We
record
" vacant
Jotting
down
name,
wrote alongside of
for the
207
days."
That
is
how
I associate his
name with
mine
^by the
remembrance of blank,
idle,
in
was.
would go
pass as in a
home,
sort
day would
Not
the faintest
remembrance of
how we
envied
But
to
to visit
him
I
in those quiet,
I
me, that
life.
do remember.
him
As
far as I
And
that
was
utterly
strange to
mebecause
Harold was
men who know how to get oa in the world, how to adapt themselves, how to avoid pain and grief It was that which attracted me to him. The deeper reasons for this attraction I will undoubtedly uncover when I go
into this period
I
more deeply
^in
Nexus
^which,
as
you know,
have not even started to write. Enough, however, to call attention '* periods in which, fortunately for us, we are not to those " vacant
even concerned to
in Ufe.
I
know who we are, much less what we will do know one thing definitely, it was the prelude to my break
my
break with
I
office routine
the wanderlust
all
me
and soon
my
friends
well as
my
No more books
And
then,
"
said to
myself
Done with
on
at
Chula Visu,
who
work
who
takes long
me
after
And
happen upon
Emma
it,
am
of
the
!
first
all
celebrated
European
I
dramatists.
So
it
turns, the
wheel of destiny
Last night
could not
fall asleep.
old favorite
Edgar
I I
I
Saltus
an
never heard of
one of those
books which
me
The
208
night before
which nude
incredible to think
what
this
Yes,
know
Thomas
Rene CaiU^ (of Timbuctoo fame), and Gandhi and scores of other " active ** men. They all led incredible Uvcs.
Edison,
But somehow
man SchHemann, a grocer's boy who becomes who learns eighteen languages "on the side," as it were, and speaks and writes them fluendy, this man who all his life conducted a heavy correspondence in his own handand made copies of each and every letter by hand this man who begins his career in Russia, as exporter and importer, who all his Ufe is traveling between distant points, who rises at four in the
this
a great merchant,
morning
swim winter
out,
or summer,
is
at his
who
reads
Homer
in season
and
later
insists
modem
he
is
Greek to
wife but
on using
the Greek of
Homer's day,
who
of the man
whom
man
addressing,
who
has ever
well
how
book down
Order,
doggedness, authoritativeness,
how German
he was
And
this
Greek
and
a Teuton.
imaginable.
places,
Uncovering
and almost
Losing
had
lied to him about the number of oUve trees on the property. Only 888 instead of 2,500. What a man! I waded through his fat tomes on Troy and Mycenae I read the autobiographical pages he
;
inserted in
And
!
then
decided on Ludwig*s
book
of the man.
What
Twenty thousand
:
papers Herr
Ludwig examined.
words
First of all, there was the long series of diaries and notebooks which he kept and wrote up almost continuously
209
"
There were
letters,
books,
his
family
legal
documents,
passports
down
to
script.
all
Besides
quarters
all this,
were newspaper
lists
cuttings firom
with historical data and dictionaries of his own compiling in a dozen languages. Since he preserved everything, I found, along with the most illuminating memoranda, an invitation to attend a concert in aid of a poor widow. Every paper was dated in his own hand-
of the globe,
writing.
of his days, discussing for the thousandth time, perhaps, the question
of whether
it
young
assistant,
Dorpfeld
call
I
him
go
to
Schulze
bed and
(I
digest the
book or books
Henty's
have
at the
most
the
day to do
all
my
reading.)
One
night
it is
life,
next Rider
little
book on Zen,
of
book on Dostoievsky,
to another
either
by
Janko Lavrin (another old favorite and eye opener) or John Cowper
Powys
and
go
in rapid succession
Aretimo,
Ouspensky
Rabelais,
en
Orient)
^then
Hermann
(Voyage
I
his Siddhartha
am
obliged to read
and compare with the German and French), EUe Faure (The Dance
Over
with sideswipes
at certain passages in
The
History of Art,
comme
eyes.
Let
me
stop a
moment
here.
Crommelynck
Flemish genius.
has contributed
my
dramatist
who
And on my
I
favorite
themejealousy.
Othello ?
You
I
can have
it
prefer
way.
2IO
don't sec
how
possible to
tliis
great theme.
(My
see
it
respect
to your colleague, J. Dypreau, for his excellent review of the recent presentation
of
this
play in Brussels.
When
will
we
here,
wonder,
Yes,
I
if ever ?)
marvelous books.
Each one
are
sufficient to set a
new
is
to
me, others
old.
They
Some They
?
disparate.
one.
it.
wanted
True.
to
remember
Too true, alas. " The order is in us, and not elsewhere," he says. " And it does not reign elsewhere, only if we have the power to make it reign in us." One of my readers, a young French psychoanalyst, sends me an
have
aims
excerpt
in
which the
latter
speaks of
and then adds that this chaos is also in me. As if I did not know " The artist aims at a final order." Bien dit et vrai, meme s'il essaie
de ne rien donner que
le
Ca,
c*est
mon
je
avis.
Aux
moi.
autres a denicher
ou
la
v6rk6 ou
le
complexe. La,
reste,
To
this let
me
add
I
that, in
of mine
for the
books
wanted,
"
same gratuitous
fantastic
I
from
all
medley of
As
if,
in selecting
from
all
the books
last
forty years,
certain pleasing
Where
they
My
I
order,
my
my
life.
meaning.
My
continuity.
?
what order
what
should have
read,
and in
The more
I
uncover
past, as it
reveals itself
logic, the
It
more
grand
order, the
discipline I discover in
it
my
makes
even when
a ledger in
Hved
?
were recorded
Would
it
No,
(>ur
am
we
211
as I
solemnly believe,
it all
why
can
us, at least as
own
I
individual
lives
it is
am reading,
to
of
my
reading
infinitesimal
compared
what a
Helena
bookworm
worm, and
it is
devours in a day.
(Think of Napoleon
at St.
ordering up stacks of books each day, devouring them like a tapecalling for
more, more
!)
No,
it is
the
memories
associated
I
And yet, here is a fact the man I was when I first read Mysteries, I simply cannot get over let us say, seems to be hardly a whit different from the man I was yesterday, the man I still am, let us suppose. At least I am no different
were looking
at
my many
in
my appreciation of and enthusiasm for the author of this book. (That he was a " collaborator " during the last War, for example,
if,
as a writer, I
am
aware
with each rereading of the "defects" or, to be more kind, ** the weaknesses " of my favorite author, the man in me still responds
to him, to his language, to his temperament, just as warmly.
I
or
I
may
not either
I
in
intellectual stature,
say to myself,
my
essential
is
must
be,
made
to one*s soul
and irrevocable.
And
it
is
we
grasp the
essence of another being, not with the mind, not even with the
heart.
One day
as
was a
It
letter to
make
of a
reminded
me
better spirit,
from
Strind-
tone of the
la
dieu personnel
cris
pourquoi vous
finissez
de con, de merde et d'enfer." " Oh, Henry, what beautifiil golden teeth you have
" exclaimed
into bed
my
913
on climbing
mes
with me.
confi-^res,
sec
how beautiful
.
.
.
how
ugly or
artificial
they are
But there
keep
are
little
which
also
and
this
me awake nights after finishing a book. For example, time again I am struck by the factand I hope you will not think egotistical of methat so many of the writers or artists I adore
their Uves just
Nothing,
actually.
But
it
serves to
bemuse
my way
out of the
rest
!
womb,
protestingly,
when
way
or another.
Their
I
experience, their
inherit
wisdom of
Hfe,
their teachings,
nothing do
I
by
virtue
must wait
even hear
their
names
vitally
mentioned.
interested in
figures
am
;
to their
end
whether
it is
through accident,
suicide or chagrin.
Sometimes
the
(Jesus
.only
one to be
bom
in a manger,
find.
Nor was
predict the
own
The few who were comfortable and affluent during their are vastly oumumbered by the hordes who knew nothing
who were
imprisoned,
banished,
beheaded,
hanged or
genius there
drawn and
quartered.
clusters a constellation
who
are
bom out
Those
I
of time. They
in the tradition, as
we
tradition.
some reason
The Diary of a Madman, the author of the Cossack Iliad end of one of his stories "A gloomy
world, gentlemen
**
!
He, Gogol,
settles
down
in
Rome, of
all places,
fearing to remain in
Holy
Russia.
incidentally, in
what
strange, foreign,
places
our
famous books
Dead
Souls a
was few
completed in Rome.
days before his death
;
Thus, in spite
213
holy penitent,
this
wretched, con-
to write a Divine
**
Comedy
message," perishes
has
and weep,
who had
And by
is
a former admirer
But
how
how
prophetic
!
that passage
on the
troika
I
which
first
volume
whom
have drawn
**
Gogol
addresses
all
is
^asking in vain.**
Here
you not speeding along like a fiery and ? Beneath you the road is smoke, the At bridges thunder, and everything is left far behind. your passage the onlooker stops amazed as by a divine
Russia, are
matchless troika
miracle.
Was
of lightning
he
is
asks.
this
?
What
force
is
this
surge so
of
terror
And what
!
unknown
!
Ah, you
horses, horses
^what
horses
Your manes
are
whirlwind And are your veins not tingling like a quick ear ? Descending from above you have caught the note and at once, in unison, you strain of the famihar song your chests of bronze and, with your hooves barely skim;
ming
the earth,
you
straight lines
air, and on you rush Russia, where are you under divine inspiration flying i Answer me. There is no answer. The bells are tinkling and filling the air with their wonderful pealing everythe air is rent and thundering as it turns to wind thing on earth comes flying past and, looking askance at her, other peoples and States move aside and make way.f
Yes,
for
it is
it
memorable
But
words
is
me
In these
!
and
especially
when
it
comes
to,
**
Answer me
There
no
answer."
seem
of so many famous
fath^r-s
exiles, all
Sylyan
|*rcss,
London,
by George Reavey.
314
"
I
am
here.
You
it.
arc there."
That
is
what they
love
it
are saying.
"
know my
I spit
upon
am
is
and
I shall
if it
not too
But
I shall
not
from here
I
until
citizen
of my home town.
than any loneliness.
greater
it
is
not the
time
I
now know
to reveal it."
And
so
on
a
of anguish,
full
of
despair, full
of such
as to burst
man
asunder.
When I urged you to read with special attention the piece called The Brooklyn Bridge " (in The Cosmologkal Eye), perhaps it
this that I
had in mind.
You
You
my point " I am grateful to America for having made me realize my needs ..." But did I not say, too " I am a man of the Old
:
World i "
let us
of
Who
or
from
of
I
said,
Edmund
Too
is
Wilson, or any
this
are
fiiU.
fiill.
At 6.20 sharp
The cock
rest.
Tony,
I
my
litde son.
From
Often
changing
Valentin
to be.
Then comes
am
put back
peasant.
the
soil, like
good Chinese
rush to
my
answer.
If
I
sets
go alone
It is
on
the trot,
my
I
ideas.
am
do
empty
my
the battery.
Some
pulls up.
Many of
my
books.
"
WeVe
As
215
"
tune
Between
times, as
at
it
were,
I
write.
If I
hours a day
my work
I
tomorrow.
to a
in
It
does
me good to write
letter,
which
is
not a response
demand, a gratuitous
like the waters
so to speak,
I
me
of a
reservoir.
it
You
aspect
have evoked
without knowing
it.
How
from
college students
who
on some
of mine.
to
The
i
And
get a
what end
such
What
could be more
thesis
i
useless,
(It is
more
a waste
of time
we
as
Some,
in utter
me
to explain
my
whole works
I
to
them
look wars
in a few brief
the trench
I
lines.
look
up from
am
digging
^it
is
beginning,
by
the way, to
like those
!
sometimes,
carry
looking up
at the
sky in which the vultures are careening, or looking out to sea where
perhaps not a ship
all,
is
to be sighted,
I
i
wonder what
is
it
mad activity It is not that I feel lonely. I doubt if I have known that feeling more than two or three times You write, in my whole hfe. No, I wonder simply to what end others write me likewise, that my work should be disseminated,
on
this
why
that
it
wonder.
!
How
**
good
only
it
would
feel
not to do anything
at all for a
while
Just
set
and ponder.
Twiddle
my
thumbs.
is
Nothing more.
to
As
it is,
the
way
book. Just he
flat
on
I
my
What
a luxury
Sure, if I
would
rather be spending
^Timbuaoo,
I
my
**
**
vacation
let
us say, or Mecca,
I
But
since
make
imaginary ones.
heart
As companions
Ramakrishna,
my own
Cendrars,
rout out
Dostoievsky,
EUe
Faure,
Blaise
unknown
devil or saint
whom
his
I
Himalayan
fastness.
Sometimes
get well of a
suddeninto
and jumping
my
yet.
clothes
run
down
my
friend Schatz or
my
friend
it
aware of
He
doesn't
know what
would have
to travel
Which reminds me
ing and revelatory
to
letter
Theodore
Dreiser.
Crane and Vachel Lindsay, two well-known American poets, " For the last year or two," Anderson begins, " I have had something in
my
mind
that
you and
during the
last
year or
two
it
my
mind by
the suicide of fellows like Hart Crane, Vachel Lindsay and others,
to say nothing of the bitterness
think
it is
do not
believe that
singers,
etc.
we^and by
the
writers,
word we by each
*
mean
other."
He
on
can
Ameri-
Man
to
American Man."
says that
it
He
another.
He
And
this
For example, Ted, suppose that every morning when you go to your desk to work you would begin your day's work by writing, let's say, one letter to one other man working in the same field as you are. Suppose we did, by this effort, produce less as writers. There is probably
too much being produced. I am suggesting this as the only way out I can see in the situation. It isn't that I want you to write to me. t could give you names and addresses
possible to build
need you and whom you need. I think it up a kind of network of relationships, something closer say between writers and painters and songmakers, etc, etc Further on he continues this letter on the following day ^hc writes Can you bcUevc
of others
who
217
I
It
don*t
will think
of
this idea
of Anderson s.
may
strike
But
that
it
American.
By
that
mean
we
we
will work.
But
is
as I
was saying
young
writer
it is
who
Uves
nearby and
who
a projert
Why
shouldn't
writers
communicate with
hopes and dreams
?
a soUd nucleus,
of older writers
who
is
ference, stupidity
An
older writer,
have noticed,
He knows
which
the
He
apt to be
of any
creative
work,
own
included.
so firmly beheve that the blind should aid the blind, the deaf
young
writers the
young
from
writers.
Moreover,
we
more
to learn
the
from
lucky
Aye
And
be
so.
scientist
day who, arguing with a young friend of mine about the coming
insisted that it
to think
arrant
nonsense
science
As
if
we were
to
until the
men of
"Go
had made fiill preparation and provision, until they said " Would anything ever happen if that were the procedure ?
to
But
come back
I
to
I
Dreiser.
rather think
my
" influences,"
to
when
wrote on
had the
good fortune
* The
Portable
meet Anderson
;
just a
few
Sherwood Anderson
The Viking
Press,
New
York, 1949.
218
LETTER TO PIERRE LESDAIN
It
was shordy
after
It
happened that
was
at
staying at the
made
a date to
meet him
when
arrived
found to
my
Dos
Passes
was
sitting
with him. be
I
them, was
writers
!
^how odd to
though
I
My first impression,
**
on greeting
(In Paris,
sitting
I felt as
of course,
close to
letters."
were so
"
men of
that,
during
recall
I
my
in America,
can hardly
I
own
writers,
mean, that
Of course
sipated
this
feeUng of
was immediately
dis-
men.
I
by the warmth and friendliness emanating from these two They were very, very human and at once put me at ease.
this because,
mention
I also
my
unknown
my
books,
am
I
knew my name.
We got
along splendidly.
I
was intoxicated
also impressed
especially
by Anderson's
storytelling gift.
was
by
his
Dos
me
as
very American,
I
The
fact
is,
soon observed
at
home
in their
own
country.
They
too.
liked America.
I
They had
it
of
it,
say
bar.
Yes,
his early
con-
magazine
also
that
I
led
me
to beUeve
might
become
a writer
one day.
read a
number of his
Transfer
bom
storyteller in
Sherwood Anderson.
of them had
I
But before
days, that
either
swum
I
into
my
ken
his,
read everything of
in those early
fint
even modelled
I
my
book on
book of his
Twelve Men.
this
tell
whom
he portrayed so tenderly in
writer.
book
Dreiser, I
need hardly
%o the
young
W|:iters
219
The Finander^wt
call
unwieldy" today
sombre,
realistic,
carried
tremendous impact.
at least to
can
life
So
sincere
men
artificial
like Sinclair Lewis, Hemingway, even Faulkner, appear by comparison. Here was a man who had anchored him-
self in
seamy
as
a reporter he had seen life close up-the He was not bitter, he was honest. As honest any American writer we have ever had. And that is what he
midstream.
As
side, naturally.
at life honestly.
fullness.
I
There
that
was
know
of the difference
in
**
The
of
his
the emptiness
of the American
tural heritage.
The
**
fullness
so manifest
unknown
I
When
artist
spoke of the
gave
me
to
meant to
indicate
so to speak, for a
week or more.
It is
names and
and
it is
part
of
so
Our
critical
meagre
we emerged from
is
But when
more of what
called experience.
I
am not sure.
dangerous to generalize.
can
by French
In general, however,
ment, ?30
if
you hke.
racial, cultural
firmamentnot
firmament.
It's
as
clavier.
voice gets
predigested.
works on
all levels at
is
once
stop and he
But
pare
let us
me
in
modem
Hterature.
Dostoievsky was
more than
novelist,
of course,
just as
Whitman was
as
But
the difference
my eyes
Whitman,
as
though the
**
lesser artist,
though not
Dostoievsky.
He had
We speak of him
be given Dostoievsky
social
^not
less
than
a " democrat."
**
hope
it is
when
use the
word
big
democrat "
mean
individual
whose
allegiance
arisen
enough, wise enough, tolerant enough, to include as citizen.) No, Dostoievsky was human in that " all too human " sense of Nietzsche.
He
is
when he
;
of Hfe. Whitman
impersonal by comparison
the great
swarms of humanity.
man.
He
talks
brotherhood
Dostoievsky
talks fellowship.
Dostoievsky
stirs
us to the depths,
close
causes us to shudder
times.
our eyes
at
Not Whitman.
Whitman
poems.
We
as the
know
for
Whitman
He was
Word
had
virtually to create
was
Dostoievsky rose from the depths and, reaching the summit, retained
still.
With Whitman
have
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image of a
submerged
man tossing like a cork in a turbulent stream he now and then but there is never any danger of his
;
going
down for good. The very substance of him prevented that. One may say, of course, that our natures are God-given. We may
that the Russia
ako say
far different
all
the factors
as
come back
;
to the question
of
vision.
strain
And
too,
is
the
world
not forget.
;
From Whitman
is
which
godlike
in Dostoievsky there
superhuman.
the present.
Russians,
is
many of the
flux,
Nineteenth Century
strain.
eschatological
Whitman,
almost indifferent
He
He knows
it,
wrong with
is
knows
He knows au fond that all*s well He knows that if there is anyno tinkering on his part will mend it. He way to put it to rights, if we must use the
more.
first
expression,
put himself to
rights.
His love and compassion for the whore, the beggar, the outcast,
the afficted, deUvers
social problems.
him from
preaches
inspection
and examination of
He
no dogma,
celebrates
no Church,
with the
recognizes
no mediator.
He
why he can do nothing better He had problems, I know. He had his sore moments, his trials and tribulations. He had his moments of doubt too, perhaps. But they never obtrude in his work. He
is
is
remains not so
cosmocrator.
I
much
He
There perhaps
have put
my
finger
on
it.
(Not
that I
mean
to
physicallythe
I
man of
the outdoors.
am
language, which
Stress
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mean
to indicate that
freedom from
of culture, probably of
his poetry.
It
him
those inroads
culture
Whitman seems
almost
impervious to the
ills
of the day.
'*
He was
fullness.
maintaining such a
condition "
beleaguered
on
is
all sides.
He must
be for or
against.
it. He He must
:
participate. It
at the
him to be **
getting to be
is
difficult to
the ele-
wonder
if I
have made
fullness
clear
what
meant
to bring out
of
life as it is reflected
in literature.
the fullness
of the world
Dostoievsky to the
is
New
Testament.
The
of Europe
life
another.
It is
Compared
It is
to Dostoievsky,
Whitman is
either.
less It is
in a sense empty.
of the name-
It is
the emptiness
which
precedes creation.
Dostoievsky
is
Humanity,
with him,
is
He had
it
in
him
to give birth to
many
But
this
God.
other
too.
And
of
world.
no matter how
could,
perfect his Hfe or the life of the world. Whitman we feel. And it is Whitman who is called the great democrat. He was that, to be sure. He was because he had achieved selfsufficiency What speculations this thought opens up Whitman arrived, Dostoievsky still winging his way heavenward. But
.
. .
there
is
no
no
superior or inferior.
One
*"
is
a sun, if you
the other a
star.
where of Dostoievsky
moon of
his being,*
He who gets nearer the sun is leader, the aristocrat of aristocrats, or he who, Uke Dostoievsky, gets nearest the moon of our not-being."
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typical
Lawrencian image.
Behind
I
it
lay a thesis
which Lawrence
:
accept
and in utterance.
have put these two luminaries side by side merely to bring out
certain differences.
light,
to
me
is
to
glow with
human
;
and he
is
thought of
as a fanatic, as a
demonic being
the
of all men,
that
is
as the
man
in the midst
of
life.
is
Hght,
Dostoievsky
passion,
Whitman
compassion.
difference in voltage, if
you
like.
In Dostoievsky's
work one
in
has the feeling that the angel and the devil walk hand
hand
devoid of such
entities
there
is
is
eternal,
and
the breath
of the great
Dostoievsky which
it
hung
York.
in the
window of
people, the
a bookshop
on Second Avenue
in
New
That
me the real Dostoievsky. It is the man of the man who suffered for them and with them. The eternal
docs not care to
moujik.
One
a saint, a criminal
or a prophet.
the photo
know whether this man was a writer, One is struck by his universality.
I
As
for
Whitman,
which
I
had always
identified
with
his
In the
found a photo of
Whitman
I
He is
He
**
to say
sage."
is
But there
so
is
something about
is
the expression
just a tinge
of melancholy in
that ruddy,
Or
seems to me.
He
is
has not
yet
become
It is
deep quest
* Walt Whitman, by Paul Jamati ; Editions Seghers, Paris, 1949. This same photo (from the collection of Hart Crane) serves as frontispiece to the 1949 reprint by The Bodley Press, New York, of Walt Whitman the Wound Dresser, edited by Richard M. Bucke and ynth. an Introduction by Oscar Cargill.
224
is
also a
**
remote
stellar
eyes.
veiled
register,
and which
at the
is
contradicted
as
The by
it
world
though
were "aHen,"
as
This
without
support.
mere
But
the thought
no matter whether
the world.
my
conception of the
to
way he looked
image
the
I
conflicts disturbingly
'f)
Siberia
his fellow
battlefield,
man why
can see
why
destiny, in other
in his hand.
is
It is
the look
seer.
who
also a poet
I
and
must speak
is
fiirther
of
this arresting
which
I
by
at the
type
from which
a steel engraving
Grass.
To me
young
there
is
thousands of
this
Whitman.
What
is
amaadng, to
my
mind,
is
that the
Whitman,
Maurice Bucke.*
at the
It is,
unfortunately, a description
of Whitman
:
age of sixty-one.
However
Says Bucke
brows
it is
is
a long distance
from
one most
large
at fint sight.]
The
* Cosmic
Yoric.
E. P. Dutton
&
Co.,
New
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small
;
IN
MY
LIFB
they have is kindness, composure, suavity." He goes on to say that " his cheeks are round and smooth. His face has no lines expressive
of
care, or weariness,
or age
...
his look,
I
known him to sneer at any person or thing, or to manifest any way or degree either alarm or apprehension, though he has
of Whitman's body.
I
in this
volume
find
literature
who
point out
some of the
me
finest
and
example of
this
type that
full
power of
his searchlight
on
the
new
We
expect and always find a difference between the early and mature
writings of the same
that
man
But
in the case
of Whitman
{as in
no
followed (and,
study)
Whitman's
of which in
;
case,
without practice or
by pages
across each
letters
of ethereal
fire are
by such
for
vital sentences as
..."
the observations
And now
interesting
some of
which
find singularly
and
significant
...
Walt Whitman,
in
my
talks
with him
at that time,
always disclaimed any lofty intention in himself or his poems. If you accepted his explanations they were simple and commonplace. But when you came to think about these explanations, and to enter into the spirit of them,
*
Italics
mine.
226
He
tion):
said to
'I
me
average
heroic*
man
now in what connecwhich should be that of the average circumstances, and still grand,
forget
life
this in
mind
It is
devastatingly important.
read any book deUberately through, and was no more (apparent) system about his reading than in anything else that he did ; that is to say, there was no system about it at all. He read no language but English, yet I believe he knew a great deal more French, German and Spanish than he would own to. But if you took his own word for it, he knew very Httle of any subject. Perhaps, indeed, no man who ever Hved Hked so many things and disHked so few as Walt Whitman. All natural objects seemed to have a charm for him ; all sights and sounds, outdoor and indoor, seemed to please him. He appeared to like (and I beUeve he did Hke) all the men, women and children he saw (though I never knew him
there
He seldom
felt
.
.
He
he liked him or her, and that he liked others also . was especially fond of children, and all children Hked
at once.
For young and old his touch had a charm that caimot be described, and if it could the description would not be beUeved except by those who knew him either personally or through Leaves of Grass. This charm (physiological more than psychological), if understood, would explain the whole mystery of the man, and how he produced such effects not only upon the well, but among the sick and
wounded.
He did not talk much ... I never knew him to argue or dispute, and he never spoke about money. He always justified, sometimes playfully, sometimes quite seriously, those who spoke harshly of himself or his writings, and I often thought he even took pleasure in these sharp
criticisms, slanders
and the oppositions of his enemies. He were quite right, that behind what his fiiends saw he was not at all what he seemed, and that, from the point of view of his foes, his book deserved all
said that his
critics
2^7
tHE BOORS IN MY LIPB
the hard things they could say of it and that he himself undoubtedly deserved them and plenty more. He said one day ... * After all, the great lesson is that no special natural sights not Alps, Niagara, Yosemite, or anything else is more grand or more beautiftil than the ordinary sunrise and sunset, earth and sky, the common trees and grass.* Properly understood, I beUeve this suggests the central teaching of his writings and Hfe namely, that the commonplace is the grandest of all things ; that the exceptional in any line is no finer, better or more beautiftil than the usual, and that what is really wanting is not that we should possess something we have not at present, but that our eyes should be opened to see and our hearts to
feel
what we
all
have.
never spoke deprecatingly of any nationaUty or class of men, or time in the world's Imtory, or (even) feudalism, or against any trades or occupations ^not even against any animals, insects, plants or inanimate things, nor any of the laws of nature, or any of the results of those laws, such as illness, deformity or death. He never complained or grumbled either at the weather, pain, illness or at anything else. He never in conversation, in any company, or under any circumstances, used language that could be thought indeHcate (of course he has used language in his poems which has been thought indeUcate, but none that is so.) ... He never swore ; he could not very well, since as far as I know he never spoke in anger, and apparendy never was angry. He never exhibited fear, and I do not . beheve he ever felt it
He
And now
come
to the passage
I
from Whitman's
Bucke
says
prose, to be
it
signalled.
of it
that
" seems
wish to
prophetical of the
coming
race."
Howsoever
that
I
may be,
say to you,
as the
my
regard
this passage
it,
but
it
this egotistical
I
^I
regard
fiirther
as
my own
will even
go
and
and
things strikes
as the
this
view of
another way,
sentatives but
man." And
life
is
if I
am
view of
reflected (even
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LETTER TO PtBRRE LBSOAIN
Strata
of American
to be
society, there
is
new
race
of
a
man new
bom
But
on
let
this continent,
earth.
me
growing up in right conindoor harmony, activity and development, would probably, from and in those conditions, find it enough merely to live and would, in their relations to the sky, air, water, trees, etc., and to the countless common shows, and in the fact of life itself, discover and achieve happiness ^with Being suffused night and day by wholesome ecstasy, surpassing all the pleasures that wealth, amusement, and even gratified intellect, emdition, or the sense of art, can give.
bred
as
race,
ditions
of outdoor
much
as
You may
note
think
it
presumptuous of me,
that the tenor
or what, but
I insist
its
of
it strikes,
is
at the
same time),
this
absolutely American.
would say
that
it
was on
rock
it is
temporarily
of the
forgotten
that
America was
founded.
For
abstraction
That
it is
not the
trae
way
and
of the
elect,
what makes
it
seem more
elect
**
vaUd to me.
cursors
as the pre-
historical point
of view,
thrown up.
Viewed from
we
seeds
which
will
to come.
is
We
The
real revolution
is
taking
And
the
name
emancipa-
tion
self-liberation
*'
in other words.
What
Whitman
is
The world
him who
is,
is
himself
complete."
Is it
i
superfluous
self,
of the
of one's
own
inaHenable rights
plete beings.
The
New
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IN
MY
LIFE
is
community. That
If we see
it it
is
Are we
it
to see it
ever ?
now
eye "
we
see
is
everyday life," you will find written in every book on the subject. " Nirvana is capable of attainment now" you will also
find in every
Zen
book on
the subject.
Attainment
is
because the
**
something
like
to be realized in the
is
this
How
f
very
Zen
bom
It is
just as lucky
to die."
In
lived
was the
sense
of eternal Ufe so
absolute.
show any
of
sin.
sign of
He had no
And what
If there
sense
of Evil ?
Suddenly
it
is
Dostoievsky's voice
I hear.
be
evil, there
can be no God.
?
Was
But the
rebel
and
doubter
is
end, silenced
by
a magnificent
out.)
affirmation.
Not
resignation," as
Love all God's creation and every grain of sand in it. Love every leaf, every ray of God's Hght. If you love everything, you will preserve the divine mystery of things.
(Father Zosima, aUas the real Dostoievsky.)
thus,
"
And
say there
is
in fact
no
evil."
Twenty
like Jesus,
years after he
life,
had taken
become
Whitman
oj Columbus^ ostensibly, as
Bucke
says, his
own
which
him
230
He
by
worldly standards,
would seem
as if
i
God had
The
last
deserted
lines
Whitman doubt
shall
two
Bucke
?
writes
of
moment
thus
What
he say to
God
He
is
says that
willing to
How
of a
death
is
not the
man who had written " I feel and know that ending, as we thought, but rather the real beginning
is
and
The
or can be
lost,
nor even
die,
nor soul
nor matter."
questioning, the doubts, the denial and the negation even,
in
which abound
mouths of
Dostoievsky's works,
expressed
through the
and revealing
his obsession
with
Whitman's
In
some
respects Dostoievsky
reminds us of Job.
He
and Hfe
life
itself.
To
again
..."
it
Unable to accept
as a
to take
life as
up
problem."
And
he adds immediately
satisfy
" But
our rational
life
and
irrational selves.
At a
meaning of
may
life
One
can rejea
our consciousness."
A
It
my
article
had torn out of the magazine Purpose (London, 1937). was by Erich Gutkind, on Job. I was tremendously impressed by
this
of
his
new reading. I am sure I had never grasped the essential meaning words when I read it and put it carefully away in 1937. I
this Httle essay,
mention
it
Gutkind
my
Dostoievsky.
" In the
the world,
Book of Job," he
by
says,
**
God
is
no longer measured by
But the world
231
(just as it is light
is
with Einstein)
is
And
that
which changes
the world.
The Book
of Job
leads us to a deeper
He
then
is
explained
by
his
own
sins"
is
sharply
rejected in the
Book of Job.
is
not the payment of a debt," he says, " but Job did not have to answer for sins which he had committed. He took upon himself the terrible problem of suffering." [Note how all this connects with Dostoievsky.] "The question with which he wrestled is a basic question of the order of the world, the struggle between God and Satan ... It is the question of whedier the world b meaningful or meaning" Suffering
rather a burden of responsibility.
less.
Is
the world
good or
evil ?"
And
also.
so on.
end every-
^his
Greek heroes."
:
" But
i
What
sphere
in
which God
leaves everything
"
He
Job
" Where wast thou, man, when I founded " That was God's reply. He points out that " in the
else
...
All
is
balanced."
Nature
of Fate, he sutes. He says that Job, in seeking to understand God's ways, " takes God as a kind of cause, a natural force." " But," says he, " God is not only a principle whereby the universe
can be explained or given meaning.
theologians
That
is
the
God of
the
an abstract God."
man and God can never come together. God is to be found everywhere in
is
In the cosmos,
The
nature,
of God
relative
one of the causes for the decline of the concept . . Nothing has reality of itself Nature is through and through. Every phenomenon is itself
.
232
of an indescribably complicated net of relations. The Jewish tradition is not to be found there. teaches that Abraham sought God in the cosmos. But he did not find him there. And because he could not find him there, he was driven to search for God where he reveals himself, namely, in the direct conversation between God and man.
part
Then
follows
this,
which
is
what
One must always so conduct oneself as if there were no God at all We may not explain the riddle of nature by God that would be the end of science. We may not wait for succor from God that would be the end of human initiative. The less we concern ourselves with the idea of God in our explanation of the world and in our practical Hfe, the more clearly will God appear. This is what the Book of Job teaches when God asks Where And even wast thou when I founded the cosmos ? * Where art thou, when I direct the cosmos
! : :
It is
often said of
Whitman
said
that
am
sure the
same might be
of Dostoievsky,
we
are to look at
one through
other
his ceaseless
by
of
life.
Dostoievsky under-
took, as far as
was humanly
possible, to
of all
menand
we know Whitman
answered
man s
fimdamentally, than a
different,
D. H. Lawrence
a mixture
of amazing acuity of
shattered
did.
perception.
himself.
To mc
to
it
is
the rock
to
on which Lawrence
eventually,
He had
come
Whitman
and he
He
cannot pay
is,
The
is
truth
Whitman
a pheno-
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mcnon
IN
MY LIPE
of phenomenon
the American
phenomenon.
But, despite
all
the
fuming and
Whitman which
fails
are imperishable.
much
in
Whitman he
to grasp,
much he
lesser
because, to be honest
over
who
But Whitman's
it is
way he
interprets
a challenge to
interpreters to
'*
come.
essential
Whitman's
road.
man
himself"
Declaring that the
speaks out in
true
rhythm of
is
the
American continent
white aboriginal, that
Whitman,
he says
that he
first
the
first
he
is
no Savior
affection
also that
in the veins
of men.
essay
Whitman, the great poet, has meant so much to me. Whitman, the one man breaking a way ahead. Whitman, Ahead of And only Whitman the one pioneer. Whitman, nothing. Ahead of all poets, pioneering into the wilderness of unopened Hfe, Whitman. Beyond him,
. .
.
He
speaks
of"
new
doctrine, a
new
The
Magnificent words, and Lawrence meant them undoubtedly. " the essay, speaking of " the true democracy
it
makes
itself
known,
234
at all.
but just
The
And
recognized,
If
it
be a great soul,
will
be worshipped in the road." " The only riches, the great souls."
That
is
of the
essay
(Dated Lobos,
I shall
New
Mexico.)
And on
this
think
end
my
letter,
my
very dear
Pierre Lesdain.
May
Postscriptum
I
lothf
1950
can't bring
my
letter to
There's
more
to say.
tingly
What matter if it assumes elephantine proportions ? UnwitI am being led to disclose certain views and opinions I might
I
not embarked on
this
unintended excursus.
will not
You
man
I
in
Europe
who
wince or
balk at anything
say,
whom
idiot.
I
cannot deceive or
disillusion,
no
But
matter if
reticent
I
You
about yourself
that
know
know
you
you
faith, loyalty
Anyway,
threads
threw out,
reconcile certain
I left
"apparent"
contradictions,
First,
dangling in mid-air.
.
.
.
then, let
me
dispose
of the
last-named, rapidly
is
a photograph of
Whitman
below
the
which
It
might be taken,
is
uncertain,
says
definitely
some
which
have
may
still
more
appearance, did
also
you
I
Some;
how,
never pictured
him
as
it
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is
IN
MY
LIFE
an
irresistible
combination, in
man
or
woman. The
Irish
have
it
occasionally.
As
a
for Lincoln,
men
imaginable, if
wc
are
to beheve his
own
number of
times, there
diem.
A
his
he took part in
sometimes
at the risk
of
Both recognized
had and
the tnan.
we might
I
have
could
all
adverse conditions,
this letter
on what
if,
War, assuming
alive
alive,
dead or
Tom
Thomas
Jefferson,
Robert E. Lee,
John Brown, Ralph Waldo Emerson, Henry David Thoreau, Mark Twain, Walt Whitman.
I
rites, as
Jamati gives
last
it,
with
Bob
?
Ingersoll,
of
all
words.
Who
would
And not
firom
his
only
that,
Whitman's
("
own work
after
another of
peen.
Dc ses pairs," says Jamad.) Who were these ? Buddha, Mohammed! What American
fight to gain
recognidon for
work.
What
a roster of names
we
find enlisted
on
his side
Beginning with Emerson who, on receiving a copy of the first edidon oi Leaves of Grassy writes : " Les Amiricaius qui sent a Yitranger
peuvent rentrer
;
il
nous
est
ni un
artiste**
Carlyle, Burroughs,
Mark Twain,
Rosettis,
the
(California's
. . .
Edward
Carpenter
236
LETTER TO PIERRE LESDAIN
And
it
last
least,
omnibus
driver.
to
home now!
was
this
poet of the Sierras who, incensed by the outcries against " Get homme vivra, je vous le thus
:
Get
homme
dome
puissant
du temps."
of the monument to
the
ait
memory of Edgar
r^pondu h
Allen Poe.
(**
Le
I'invitation
du
work began
strange!
to
draw
as
attention in
Europe
^in
England
particularly,
one
first
happy coincidence.
And L^on Bazalgette, the most devoted of Whitman's biographers! What a labor of love his was! What a tribute from the
Old World!
remember
same period
I
remember reading
though
Bazalgette's
work
in Paris
too,
I
my memory may
be
was
of
works
The
Confessions
;
St.
God
;
Nijkisky's
Spirit
;
Diary
The Absolute
;
by Erich Gutkind
the Hfe
The
of
La
of the Tibetan
Glaudel.
I
and Connaissance de
I'Est
by Paul
(No,
was never
There
alone.
At
was with
God!)
is
a side
of Whitman which
is
stressed
and which to
me
extremely illuminating
of the
goal.
How
opus are issued at his own expense! What a struggle to get those few " obnoxious," supposedly " obscene," poems included in a
definitive edition!
He
marches on,
resolute,
unwavering, unflinch-
As
he follows
* His
real
and he was
bom
in Indiana.
237
They
wake.
endeavors to remonstrate
poems
in a
Whitman
on
is
the superior of
the
two
Had Whitman
altered.
whole
picture
(True, he
made
benefactors in omitting
from
he did
so, I
am
sure,
knowing
that ultimately he
would
win out
Century
stressed
in the homeland.)
it
taking place as
of the Nineteenth
the
by
**
in
our history
cannot be
lettcn
too much.
it.
was
affected
(As
Dreiser's
it is
Sister Carrie.)
When
Ulysses.
comes to the
**
case
of James Joyce,
by
a sort of
the author
circulation
generous revenge
that
of
How much
full
easier
was
of Ulysses,
than to grant
earlier!
It
Whitman
ovm
by French, English and American authorities, in the case of However, I did not touch on questionable works
.
my
this
my own
of
special providence
seemed
of
at,
reviled or insulted
friends
other
human
and admirers. Jamati speaks of the astonishment which the recriminations against
Gilchrist.
EUe y
la vie tout
reUgieux et
elle se
si
aHerbe, si ces versets n'ont pas ^t^ Merits He adds : Cette femme sp^cialement pour des femmes. au grand cceur, cette m^re accomplie, respect^e, admir^
qui
sait
d^couvrir
lui
tout,*
quel
t^moin pour
Her 'Hnginuiti"
Her courage. Her
238
says Jamati.
sublimity.
LBTTBR TO PIERRE LBSDAIN
No, even though Whitman may not have written them
for
It
'*
especially"
women,
his
to
women
as
as well as to
men.
is
woman
equals.
He
raised their
manhood and
their
in
man and what was masculine in woman He has been slandered because he
all
instances
where he made a
stitute
radical
was
to sub-
woman
What
for a
manin
to allay suspicion of
"homosexual"
score!
tendencies.
absurdities
What
filth
on
this
Whoso
under suspicion.
These same
of the
yet,
is
all-inclusive
seems to repel
us.
And
man was
is,
originally
The
first
Adam was
complete
or hermaphroditic.
man
and
distant
In
being
man
and
woman
in
I
both.
When some
Whitman's
think of
pages back
eyes,
it
look
was
not,
him
"Brahmic
field
when
the
The
and in the
hospitals should
What greater sacrifice, what greater renouncement of self, man have made t He emerged firom that experience shattered to the core.* He had witnessed more than is humanly
jttdon.
could any
demanded of
that
man.
It
was not
the
inroads
upon
his health
were so
close
cruel,
though a great
tribulation,
is
of too
communion.
is
Much
related
of
for
his inexhaustible
it.
sympathy. Empathy
more
I
nearly the
word
is
repeat,
Saint ") to
* See page xvii of Oscar Cargill's Introduction (" Walt Whitman The Wound Dresser.
239
THE BOOKS
IN
MY
LIFE
Whitman, were
tested in the
crudble by
command of
remark
idly.
Fate.
No
matter
how
great the
elected for
such an experience.
instances
do not make
this
in man's history
where
I
individuals
awesome
trial
or
test.
move-
prove
martyrdom.
In both
all,
was
thrust
upon them.
But
there, after
It
the test
of a man
^how he meets
batdefield,
was
in
exile that
of Jesus.
that
was on the
among
wounded,
Whitman
Only
heroic
men
could
Only
illuminated
men
could have
Whitman had
few years before
toievsky.
some
Dos-
period in his
life.
Not
so with
it
Both had
in the
Whitman underwent
a change, a deepening.
man who
is
a bit stunned
by
the
^and the
inanimate
world
as well.
His expression
is
no longer
that
of one coming
accepts his lot
of one
who
it,
is
in the thick
it,
of it,
who
completely,
less
who
rejoices in
of the divine
in
come what may. There may be but there is more of the purely human.
humanization.
If,
as I
firmly believe,
had
he were to go mad, a
to live as a
(via
revaluation of
all
human
values.
Whitman had
man,
not
as a
god.
this
how
Solovyev
persisted.
probably)
man-god "
240
him.
to
Whitman,
divinize
receiving
the
his
illumination
from beyond,
fecundation of
sought
man
in
him.
This
in
is
god and
effects
manthe man
both
in god, the
god
it
in
instances.
Today
of these two great figures have come to nought. Both Russia and America have become thoroughly mechanized,
the prophecies
autocratic,
tyrannical,
its
materialistic
But wait!
course.
The
Biographers and
life
critics
of a
of
spirit,**
give the
on " brotherhood " and " universality impression that it was the mere proximity to
attributes
suffering
subjects.
in
I
their
But what
affected
Whitman and
Dostoievsky, if
read
their characters
They were
affected,
wounded
social
priest.
worker, nor
Whitman
of each one of
:
of
utter lack
of privacy
he lived
to
like
a beast, as
records.
Whitman had
was no one
become
about
else
who combined
magnetism
But
that
same animal
to
go beyond themselves.*
situation,
An
;
ordinary
man,
after release
from such a
well conceive
it
**
But
have
Whitman and
a mission
it
If they
.
message "
that
it
If I have not
made
it
me say
was
precisely
artists first
men
acatcd the
Not
all
great
men
arc capable
case
was the
To witoess
not once,
^ As in the
case
of Cabeza de Vaca.
241
THE BOOCS IN MY
ahnost beyond
1*
man unbaring his soul is human endurance We do not come forward with our souls ordinarily. A man may lay his heart bare, but not his souL When a man does expose himself to another in diis way
but again and again, the specucie of a
there
is
are
capable of.
some ways
Performing for
did,
his
^ow-
Whitman
he was nevertheless
always regarded as one of diem, that is, a criminal Namrally he thought ho more of ** reward " than Whitman, but his dignity
as
human
it
*'
In another sense, of
course,
very
fact
made
it
easier for
him
to act the
ministering angel."
It nullified all
thot^ht of being an
angel
He
let
me
not lose
it I
^is
that,
whedier
it
was
two
them turned
between
instinctively
and unerringly.
if
God
and man, or
''experts'*
intercessors,
whose
they
had assumed.
common was
utter
**
was
their
their
humanness which made them " of suffering. They share because it was a " privilege," not
responsibility
their mission in
]ic.
was
their
duty or
Thus, aU that
passed between
them and
gamut of ordinary
saw
away.
experience.
Men saw
The Utde
When it was
any more, but
private tasks.
artists
men of letters,"
vehicles.
How could
are not yet
be otherwise
The
revolutionizing
art
we
properly aware of^ was part and parcel of the greater task of tranvaluating
all
human
with
art
was of a
It
different
was
move-
242
(which
is still
veiled to us)
we
it
have yet to
But
let
us not for
was a vain or
lost irruption
of the
spirit.
man
Whitman
this
underwent.
personal way.
dear
You know
book what
was bound
Even a
from
this glut
which was
my
everyday
fare.
seems to
me now,
this
situations into
which
was plunged
of
But did
emphasize suflSciendy
aspect
my
daily
experience
that
men
knelt at
my
feet,
they snatched
my
hand to
?
kiss
go
And why
In order
!
me
for giving
them one
As
As
And
either
the
last
man on
destiny
of another, the
above or
who wished to interfere with the man on earth who wished to stand below another man, who wanted to look each
earth
last
a brother, as an equal,
this role for
;
was obliged,
believed that I
I
(Because
because
could find
no
other job
because
was thoroughly
!
Accidental, yes
because
employment manager
And
so every
day
my
gaze.
was
in turn humiliated
and exasperated.
me
as his
human
beings could
*43
was not
Yes,
too had
made
a big thing
of it
of
this lousy,
unmenI
was.
on
my rights.
I was
to be rejected
?
on
earth
Incredible
knowing
is
in
my palmnotice now
the
Dostoievskian touch
^nothing
will
do but
to represent myself
God's
is
know
dud who
listening to
me
that
no longer a
Had my
become
listener told
me
me
to
company,
instead
of the employpride
ment manager of
so inflated that
I
my
eye.
was then
I
But, though
I
nevertheless
till
for.
never imderstood
that
moment when
destinies
the the
of over
a thousand individuals in
my
hands,
what
(That there
the
is
no such Being
and
ironic.)
as these
more
I
horrible
messengers
Not Jesus the Christ, not his And to be God, if only as simulacrum, is about the most devastating situation a man can find himself in. These petty tyrants who call themselves dictators, these mice who think they alone can govern the world of men, I only wish to God
was
dej&nitely
God.
God
these idiots
them-
Why,
in the
knowledge of their
utter fatuoumess,
why
can
we
citizens
to
them
fiiU
Nothing
would
shatter this
quicker than such a sanction. But ifwe are not even willing to
ourselves to God's hands
listens
on
this sickly
i
this tiny
abode
called the
Earth
(For
!
from
it
we are not the one and only order of creation. What of the other stellar abodes ? Think of diose
which
I
Far
long
exploded
as well as those
My
is this ... a man by being put in a position above men, by being asked to dp what no man has the right
am
trying to say
human
dignity
condemn,
is
every
human
being
is
entided
to.
to endure
I
only
know
that I
was torn
apart, that I
life
my own
slave.
and to do
time
I
am
Now
role
have to
all,
listen to
what
others want,
" what
sells."
But
there
is
new
^I
am
not
If
mouth by plying
I
my
trade.
have a boss, he
I
is
invisible.
And
more
than
I think I have made myself into a capable worker, when I think I know my trade, when I think I can give satisfaction, when I am even reconciled to a long postponement of" my wages," PubHc Taste. You I come face to face with the big bugaboo remember I said that if Whitman had capitulated on this issue, if
:
Then, when
he
had
his counselors,
a totally different
edifice
who
appear
crowd
who
rally
menaced.
is
The
of support
from
those
who
the
245
total acceptance.
Those
who
defend you
in spite
of
your
a
faults
work
against
you
piece
through
The
thread
broken.
But
wiU
enter
by
.)
When
when
He
takes time
One
n<Jt
only
sees
That extra
by
may
put
it so.
It
The whole body, in fact, expresses the joy of surrender. The more it relaxes, the more it glows. The whole being becomes
incandescent.
"
solitary
" angels.
An
extraordinary utterance,
no
gainsaying
it.
And
one
did not
Whitman
is
say
i
**
:
Sooner or
later
we
get
come down
in
to
"
Aye, eventually
we
to bedrock, to the
node which
as eternal in the
human
being as
God.
And
if,
in the presence
of such
individuals,
we
have the
impression
...
the thought
was
was about to
15th
!)
express.
But
will doubtless
come
all
back.
It is
now May
my
One of
(Jules
these
is
**
:
II
Romains.)
" The
worm
in the to
apple.
Look
for the
worm
"
With
these
came
the
command
This book
^I
346
son's
preface
^had
It
an unprecedented
sale,
one which
was
translated into
don't
know how
are a
many
few
languages.
Today
I
it is
virtually forgotten.
citing
:
But here
lines
of Bellamy
is
find
worth
"
ended.
Its summer has begun. Humanity The heavens are before it." These words
just five
be exact, before
long
after these
died.
:
but there must be the poems of the purport of life, not only in but beyond itself"
The worm
in the apple
its
I
it
worm
makes
appearance
the
**
should be hailed
as a sign
of new
is
Hfe.
We
is
ought to
call it
angel-wonn."
Au Au
fond there
no such
There
nothing
thing as literature,
no such thing
as
humanity.
fond there
is
but
life
manifesting
itself in
To
I
live, to
be
alive, is to
line,
is
The
other night
encountered a
goes thus:
dering.
I
"To Hve
That
line set
me
to pon-
could
realist,
I
that the
moment
I
we
are
born
we
by "
tiese
do not
know,
meant
words
this
came
^life is
the
all,
Ufe
is
;
the
only privilege,
fact
Hfe
the
of being
alive
supreme
faith, in
other words.
From
moment we
are
bom we wage
we
a struggle
is
Nearly everything
glorify
in the
nature of commemoration,
struggle.
We
put the struggle above the flux, the past and future above the
:
* I have just found Paul Bellamy's preface. Here are his words "Looking Backward, first published in the winter of 1887-8, won such universal acceptance that in the middle Nineties it was said that more copies of the volume had been sold than of any book hitherto written by an American author, with the two exceptions of Uucle Tom's Cabin and Ben Hut."
247
THF,
BOOKS
But
IN
MY
LIFE
present.
is
life
bids us
swim
of
Cosmology
answers Job
the
myth of
his
the mystery
to
creation.
When God
is it
cosmologically
it is
remind
man
that
he
that
it is
When
man puts his head out of the stream of life he becomes self-conscious. And with self-consciousness comes arrest, fixation, symbolized so
vividly
existence
is
consciousness.
It
steals
The
seers, the
smash
this
They
man
him back
in the stream
There is a line firom Tete d'Or " Mais rien n*empechera que je meure
saisisse la
joie
..."
is
pro-
found and
surrender.
beautifiil utterance.
It
The joy he
speaks of
the joy of
could be no other.
I
In
lips
my
study of Balzac
cited a
number of
like to give
utterances
from the
at this
of Louis Lambert.
would
is
them again
juncture
exist
..." My
point
may
.
.
between
is
not
this
is
If
man
bound up with
everything,
bound up
If he
is
The
It
;
activity
of the universe
is
is
not absurd
it
that
end
body
constituted as ours
...
seems to
me
we
are
I
on
human
struggle
the forces
do not
..."
ing,
The Balzac who wrote these lines, and others even more discernmore inspiring (in Seraphita), was not mistaken in his view of things. No more than Edward Bellamy or Dostoievsky or Walt Whitman.
I
mentioned
the
I
man whom
With
In
looked upon
this
as
a master in
my
youth, and
:
whom
have written of in
book
as
John Cowper
called Obstinate
is
Powys.
Cymric.
this letter
came
it is
Welsh
for
248
this
chapter,
the
characterize the
change which
is
"new
revelation" being
may
of
all life,"
he sutes
endeavouring to suggest in
all this is
Now
what
am
of
fe
great historic
change coming over the human race, this change so closely connected with the movements of the heavenly bodies, this change which impHes the passing forth out of the two thousand years of the sign Pisces into the sign Aquarius this change which produces the effect of a living body slowly and dreadfully restored from death to Hfe, or even of a hving infant emerging from a dying mother's womb, may be nothing less than that very change of heart which the prophets Iwve always spoken of and in which the revivalists have always beHeved, a "change of heart," " however, not by any means on the lines which the " law
"prophets" predicted but on on lines startling and unexpected, on lines in tune in fact with that **Stream of Tendency" in Nature which is steadily moving, and moving in
promulgated
and
the
of the
Law and
lines,
both
Let
God and
the Devil.
for they concern us,
me
our part
this
--or our
refiisal
^in
this
new
vision
of things,
new
way of
hfe.
None of us
Our immediate
which we
bulists
to
We
are like
somnam-
in a
moving forward together, killing and being killed huge world migration from one climate of thought
into another.
whether
dismay,
we are moving perforce, we respond in blind faith or react in hostile we can see the wavering lineaments and cloudy
desperation
With angry
wc
249
tm
BOOKS
Ilf
MT
ttPB
are
corns as they
swept on,
Wc
we
body that is falling back, newborn utters its first cries, and
more
desperately
we
cling,
the
more more
we
fling
imprecations against
surely are
we
unwilling."
We
are
no longer " on
the eve
of a great human
struggle," as
is
Balzac wrote,
saying that
we
right in
is
it is
the
human
soul
which
in revolt
The
soul
sick
^^^lich
few thousand
years.
There
who
has vmtten
coming over
us
more
know o Many of
his articles
appeared in
His
if
we were
name
is
associated
is
enough
to
make
his
Such
I
is
^and
of
the uneducated.
he
sees the
coming age
it
as
**
The Age of
The cup
earth, all
will fertilize
humanity.
The
of
all
men.
The world
is
many now
seem to
stitions,
fear.
What
is
coming
fetiches, super-
of
social contract,
into a
life.
ceremony of death.
The
chains will
fall
We have nothing to lose but the corpse of away with the mummy which they hold fast
slave does not free himself merely
fetter
to the earth.
The
by hacking
away
is
the shackles
free
before
Once his spirit is liberated he The putrefaction has to be total absolutely and forever. there can be new life. Freedom has to manifest itself at the
which
him.
roots before
it
250
decomposition.
busy angel-worms,
about, unconscious
on
new
by
forces
of
life
for their
own
ends,
destruction.
is
GoUaths
Europe
of the old
is
Europe
not a sleepwalker.
faith.
Fear and
America
is
is
like a valetudinarian
Uving in a
is
glass
a threat
and a menace to
This delicate,
upheavals and
many
word "
is
it
shudder with
life
fright.
"the winter of
over."
thaw.
its
No
doubt
ice
rigidity.
In working
ceaseless transmutations
ice,
to break
it
up
And
that, I feel,
is
at the
bottom of the
terror
if
in
its
grip.
He
is
which
" If
it is
what
is
"
I
if
it is
hke what
rather not
have
gomg on in China or America or India, then it." He is even ready to take his rehgion
it
would
seriously,
he thinks
idea that
The
new way of Hfe may be a godless one, the idea that the responsibility may be wrested from God and conferred upon humanity as a whole, only adds to his terror. He sees no cause for rejoicing in the thought that the new dispensation may be man's. He is too human, yet not human enough, to beUeve that authority should rest with man, especially with "the common man." He has
wimessed revolutions from the top and revolutions from the
bottom, but no matter
himself as a beast.
how
man
And
if you say to
him,
as
Powys
the soul of
man which
is
in revolt
**
!
it is
as if
you
said
"
God
has
become
He
great
stirrings in the
as the
autochthonous rebel
creation
is
To him
order,
of the
devil.
from every
soul
thrall,
The
of art may be
undefinable.
or the tasks
it
We are not to question the direction takes, the aims sets We are to obey dictates.
itself.
its
me from
. .
I put it in my mouth like an eternal food, like a you crush between your teeth, and its juice gushes
deep
down
in
your throat
That
soul's
is
the language
this is the
language of the
own wisdom
so clear that
it
It is
the fire in
that
And
which you are seeking your own lantern. your rice has been cooked from the very
that the fire
beginning.
When
from
**
came
to
Europe
was so ove^oyed
where
that I
had escaped
the
is
homeland
that I longed to
is
This
my
belong."
And
then
fotmd myself in Greece, which has ever been a Htde out of Europe,
I
and
thought
would remain
there.
But
life
seized
me by the scruf
Because of that
me down
again in America.
of what happened to
and
truthfiilly
me
I
there,
was
I
still,
think
"
can
the hardest
home anywhere in the world." For a type like myself, place to feel at home is home. You know that, I guess,
It
and perhaps you understand it. that " home " is a condition, a
against places
that " to
took
me an infinite
I
time to realize
revolt
state
of mind.
was ever in
I
But when
became
discovered
be
at
like
had attached
252
itself
word
fell
away.
It
my business,
or
"
my
privilege^ to
have been
easier for
me
earth, I think,
yearn for
Greece.
And I am
I feel that I
am much
And
feel that I
am
good European, a
when
descent
from an earUer
of all
like
race
of man,
I feel least
an American, though
else.
a bom Welshman. am probably more an The American in me which I acknowI feel like
I
I salute, if I
must put
that
is
which
new
experiment, establishing
love."
the
dty of brotherly
This
is
not the
man who
Not
ran
man who
The man
to seek but to
himself.
"
What would you say to one who comes to you with nothing " Throw it away "
!
This
"mondo" was
used to
spiritual
illustrate
"we
means
of Zen."
is
The
world.
spiritual
It
poverty of America
was not assumed to grasp the truth of Zen, But the Song of
the
certainty.
Open Road
in
is
altogether American,
and
it
impoverished.
bounty,
It
might
of one
who was
St.
life.
Francis
of
Assisi.
Walk on
Whitman,
all
Let go
Cease squirming!
man
Hved with
his sluices
creature
of the deep.
this
But could
there be a
adrift in the
human net
anchor
?
stream of life
h he not divinely
253
poisedin the
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
Is
there a road
Then
it is
We
Vasdy more.
not a dream.
Dreams and
not the all
and de Nerval has made of this faa the most haunting music. Dream and dreamer are one.
cardinal.
But
that
is
That
is
not even
the
The dreamer who knows in his dream that he is dreaming, dreamer who makes no divorce between the dreams he dreams
is
with eyes shut and the dreams he dreams with eyes open
to the supreme realization.
life,
nearer
who
passes
&om
dream to
who
ceases to sleep,
because he
an Awakener.
My
But
I
my
letter to
it
has that
it
*'
ultimate
prefer to reopen
note.
Schatz,
that
visit
friend, Bezalel
him down
The
other
day, going to
town (Monterey), we
things.
to discussing
Ac
books
we had
tides
It
first
time
we
his
However,
ought to
as
he began to
native tongue,
that I
tell
you something of
all this,
think the
first
time
we
opened
this subject
was when he
it
dis-
covered on
Jerusalem^
my
it.
Beside
was
Loti*s
and he was
have had
Testa-
curious about
course, that
we
many
ment
talks
especially the
Old
about
it
and so on.
Sometimes
we
of the world
which Mt.
Sinai
is
located
sometimes
is
Sometimes
it is
who
have in
Yemen
San'a.
Or
it
may
who
setded in
254
and
their
wond-
Sometimes
are
we
talk
Nazareth,
which to him
associated
with
very
mundane
experiences.
vifhidi
Or
we
it
may
he has
visited.
Eventually
always return to
literature.
What
started us of
read.
suppose
it
that his
Hebrew and
his
home
Jerusalem
I
!
almost fainted
away when I heard the name Robinson Crusoe eariy one was Don Quixote, also read in Hebrew.
read was in
Another very
Everything he
Hebrew
until
(Arabic he
ridiest
knew from
childhood.
He
that,
still
swears in
Arabic
the
he maintains.)
**
i
It
the
first
me, too."
" What about Gulliver's Traveb t You must have read that too." " Of course " he said, " and Jack London's books Martin
Eden,
The Call of
the
Wild ...
(So do
all
I.
of diem.
But
remember
after his
about
read quite a
too.
it
successfully.*
'*
:
But
read
it
two or
three times,
"
He had
!
"
Oh yes
Pidtwick Papers
"
same age
through
I
it.
book
myself.
didn't like
it
Two
Cities,
* To my astonishment, when speaking of Babbit later, he confessed that this book by Sinclair Lewis had given hmi a better picture of America than any of Mark Twain's. The Stockholm Royal Academy made a similar mistake in awarding the Nobel Prize to Lewis instead of Dreiser.
255
"
THE BOOKS
**
IN
MY
LIFE
?
And
Alice in Wonderland
"
cried.
**
that too
He
in
Hebrew or
not
he was
certain,
(Imagine trying to
recall in
book
!)
list,
We
the
names
rolling off
like
maple syrup.
'*Ivanhce"i
**
You
bet
And how
Par-
of Rebecca.**
was thinking
how
strange
indeed must
salem.
I
this
had the
of gladness
as to
for
Sir
his
Walter
Scott,
where
books might
wondered
book.
(I
how
I
knew
in Paris
if
Mr. Tcheou,
?
was.
One
:
day,
"
You mean
by Jack London
We
Saladin.
"
told him.
Why
aren't
we
talking
more about
I
Next
time
to
King Arthur,
was prepared
he's the
can
think
of
this
I
By
It
for
any
title
he might mention.
the
me
to hear that he
ever read
!)
it
me
to hear
of
this
("
ful experience.")
for every
Ah yes, to mention that book is to summon man and womansome of the most soul-stirring hours
crosses the threshold
of youth. Whoever
256
who wrote that book called The Red Rose "* he demanded.
i
by a French author, Tm certain." It had made sion on him, apparendy. From this we skipped to The Mysteries of Paris,
"
It's
a deep impres-
the
works of
de Maupassant, S(^ho
Tartarin
de
Tarascon
(which he adored),
to
by Tolstoy
That man
'*
:
which Tolstoy
the tide.)
!
(I
know
say.
this
I can't recall
!
And
as
then
we came
!
to Sienkiewicz.
still
some Southerners
person
")
Meaning
That
That impos-
sible
Yes,
first
comes in
I
"
What
a volcano
he was
So Polish
If as
boys
we
i
we
Hugo
Do
astounding passage
I
Let
me
remark, before
quote the
we had
Man Who
Laughs, which,
am
is
overwhelming,
the
incommensurable.
His
most
characteristic
words
monstrous.
He
finds a
him
is
to be natural.
is
his distinguishing
mark
is
a kind of Titanic
its
power with
strange dissonances of
magnificence. Where he is weakest is in and sense of humor he fails in esprit, in the subtlest sense of the word . His resources are inexhaustible, and age seems to have no power over him. What an infinite store of words, forms and ideas he carries about with him, and what a pile of works he has left
pueriHty in
measure,
taste,
behind him to mark his passage His eruptions are like those of a volcano and, fabulous workman that he is, he goes on forever raising, destroying, crushing, and rebuUding a world of his own creation, and a world rather Hindoo than Hellenic ...
! ;
By
257
THE BOOKS IN MY
firebrands
LIP;
who sowed
I
the whirlwind
discovered,
^Tamerlane,
reads
Genghis Khan,
Attikwhose names,
were
as thrilling
and
terrifying
who
A
in
coincidence,
I say,
had marked
records
Amid
that
It is
a Turk, Ou'igour,
:
who
He
continues thus
empire
known
to history, stretching
from
the Blue Sea to the Baltic, and firom the vast plains of Siberia to the banks of the sacred Ganges."
cussing, the fact that a
(This
is
dis.
stupendous
feat.)
" This tremendous hurricane, starting from the high Asiatic tablelands, felled the decaying oaks
The
is
descent of the
yellow, flat-nosed
a historical cyclone
and broke,
known
barrier
world,
that
which
which made a
world oC
of i^orance and
Attila,
superstition
round the
Uttle
Christendom.
the
of
human
rivers
loose
of things
..."
A few lines
this is a
fardier, speaking
the revilers of
war [who]
declares
and
I
it
"Catastrophes
for
whenever
encounter
restoration
It is
of equiUbrium
"They put
the world
brutally to rights^
It is
a long cry
from Amiel
to the
in
Baron Munchausen
tales
and
to
dog!).
Once
again
was bowled
over.
So in
of humor
Hebrew
To
think
"
funny
bookfunny
! .
only
once,
however
was
'*
just as
funny in Hebrew
You
must
remember
please try
Alice in Wonderland in
Hebrew."
Then, scratching
his head,
He
"
tried,
but he couldn't.
he said
!)
smoke it
recalled that
translations
of
most of
in Poland.
Hebrew
recall
moment.
heft
Like
child's
book but
of the
Then he informed me
had been
he
said.
that practically
all
**
translated into
1
Hebrew very
that Celestial
early.
kingdom.
And how,
along
Sinclair.
It
a wonderful
moment
in the
life
it is first
invaded
by
foreign authors.
(And
more
Count
any country
in the
world
!)
Of
The
Suddenly he gave
me
all
another
warm
read
thrill
Yes, he had
golden.
at the
Hamsun,
it
was
(Pan, Hunger,
Victoria,
Town, Women
Pump
.)
Some
thought
titles
he mentioned
to myself, I
am
still
aUve, I
may
way
read
to get these
even
have to
them
read a
in
Norwegian
the Yiddish too," he suddenly
"
declared.
But
**
better than
!
was Mendele
?
Mocher-Sfarim
Do
"
asked.
Or
Israel
Zangwill
"
?
259
Israel
Zangwill
had read Children of the Ghetto and had seen the dramatization of The Melting Pot, of which Theodore Roosevelt
told
I
him
was so enamored.
"
I
He shook
his
can
I said,
"
>
Neck
"
!
"
You
got
me
:
there,"
he grinned.
he countered
"I
most wonderful
It
know one book youve never read. It was the book of all to me Metnories of the House of David.
:
was
in
many
least."
ought to have a drink on that one," I suggested. But instead we got off on the subject of the " lamedvovnik." According to legend, " there are in the world not less than thirty-six (latued-vav)
righteous persons in every generation
"We
upon
whom
the Shekina
we came
of several times before and always with the same passionate enthusiasm Ingeborg, by a German named Kellermann. " He also wrote
:
The Tunneh a fascinating thing ^ la Jules Verne, don't forget that he shouted. " Maybe I haven't spelled it right, but it sounds like
!
"
that
^Ingeborg or Inge6r^.
!
It
was a love
story.
And what
a love
story
Site
"
I'll
make
promised.
**
name
still
down
for
me
my notebook." He
no logic
in
it,
wrote
it
down
beside Robinson
" Krtiso " and " Baalzac " and " Zenkewitz."
bafHes him.
(English spelling
There's
he
insists,
right.)
all
he
said,
**
don't
a thick
book about
of
Jews
it
..."
was about
dwelt on
called
But
that
Narcisse et
we
at great length.
some
curious
reason,
it is
Death and
a
the Lover.
this
book
which profoundly
wisdom. "
Life
magic in
and great
It is
wisdom,"
D. H. Lawrence would
art.
It
is
say.
like
also
" a heavenly
360
on
It celebrates
the pain
art.
To my friend Schatz, who had witoessed Palestine, who had been directly implicated
it
through
naturally.
Whoever
of the
reads this
great revival
eternal truth
et
Under
they are
GoUmmd we
rambled
onabout
wonderful
how
intimately, about
the
banana
his father
incomparable
son
all
the
arts,
even
as in
days of old.
anecdote about
into Palestine.
how
reminded
beHeve)
me of
(in Bourlinguer, I
wherein he describes
of his amazing
clavier the
of commerce
gods and
on
the backs
of
beasts,
men, appeared one day over the ridge of the Andes (he was then
in
village)
slowly, tantalizingly,
this
To me
the great
emptied
finally
by some
!
super-gravitational
Kriss Kringle
in
is
the midst
of nowhere
In
all
me
is
Jericho.
For
Schatz, Jericlio
below
sea level, to
which
one descends from Jerusalem as on a toboggan slide. For me it is not only " the walls " and the sound of the trumpet but an inconspicuous village
on Long
Island, whither,
Turnpike,
for a
would
from Jamaica
How
!
different individuals
hardly dare
tell
the
name Bethlehem.
Always
alive
with whores
")
26l
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
One of the lasting impressions I shall retain of Palestine is his story man who made Hebrew a Hving language once again.*
is
about the
Doubtless there
always a "
first
dead language
is
concerned.
But
who
of
that first
man
it
in connection
?
tongues
with Basque, Gaelic, Welsh and such weird (Perhaps these were never wholly " dead.**) However,
our
was
in
own
generation that
Hebrew was
it
revived
and
man
teaching
to his four-year-old
much
is
talk
of reviving
it
before
this celebrated
moment.
It
Such an event
...
is
There
relates
a sequel to
this event,
little
with
relish, that I
cannot omit.
It is
about a
member of
the famous
Palestine,
Habima troupe who, arriving for the first time in from Russia, where Hebrew was spoken only on the
"
stage (and in the synagogue), suddenly hears the urchins in the street
Now
know
that
a living language
**
!
he exclaimed.
is
mention
is
this to
remark
revitalized it
as
we were
? **
why
did
Did he name
*
it after
you or
were you named after the school ? He laughed. " You know that it means of course. But
that
is
in the
shadow of God,*
merely
its literal
meaning.**
He
it
paused and
Hebrew. He went on and on ^like an incantation " What arc you doing i ** I asked.
" I'm reciting some verses from Exodus
the fint sculptor, didn't
really.
about Bezalel
He was
than
that,
you know
that
He was more
Bible
!
The
first artist,
you might
say.
It's
Read your
Find the
elaborate,
..."
And
first
Next morning
the
first
mention
* Elicer Ben-Yehuda,
who
also
compiled the
Hebrew
dictionary,
362
"
LETTER TO PIERRB
1.
Lord spake unto Moses, saying. have called by name Bezaleel the son of Uri, the son of Hur, of the tribe of Judah ; And I have filled him with the spirit of God, in wisdom, and in imderstanding, and in knowledge, and in all manner of workmanship, To devise amning works, to work in gold, and in silver,
the
See, I
And
and in
brass.
And
in cutting
of stones, to
in
all
set
timber, to
I
work
manner of workmanship
read on and on, about the building of the tabernacle, about Ark of the testimony, about the altar of burnt offering, about keeping the Sabbath holy, about the writing of God graven upon And I came upon the verse in Chapter 35 (Exodus) the tables
the
. . .
which
Lord
!
reads
whosoever
;
of a willing
silver,
among you an oflfering unto the heart, let him bring it, an oflfering
brass,
of the Lord
scarlet,
gold,
and
and
and
blue,
and
fine linen,
skins,
and
goat*s hair,
and badgers'
Ught, and
...
**
As
read
on and on
got drunk
it is
and
poetic, fiigitive
and
cunning
as I sat
his
" collaborators."
And
bethought
me how
Boris Schatz, the father of Bezalel, and with what loving patience,
all
the crafts,
all
the
this
even the
of Juval.
this
saw
that his
from the
name,
cradle.
And
it is
whispered to myself:
"Blessed be thy
!
Bezalel, for
And now,
my
really the
end
In
we
have come
at last to the
let
Book of Books,
to the
Ark and
the Covenant.
Here
us rest in
Your
friend.
May
2otht 1950.
Henry Miller.
263
XIII
READING
There
I
is
IN
THE TOILET
involves a habit
httle has
which
of a
is
wide-
my knowledge,
As
been written
safe place
mean,
reading in the
toilet.
a youngster, in search
classics, I
I
sometimes repaired to
in the toilet.
Should
take
my book
good
know of no
book than
I
by a running stream.
as
you
We
a "
have jobs,
;
" But we are not all as fortunate we travel to and from work in crowded we have hardly a minute to call our own."
to
was
did most of
I
It
was
under
always.
remember
instead
when
catalogue,
fired,
my job. How
now.
when
think of
life
it
Was
to
I
important in
my
my way
on aU
trips
offices
of the
Cement Co.,
sides
by
on
memorized long
more,
it
passages
from
If nothing
was
of
concentration.
At
this
job
often
worked
late into
I
not because
I
wanted
my
as
pals.
soon
had gulped
down
my
my
many
night.
a year to come,
I rarely slept
more than
Yet
did a vast
amount of reading.
And,
repeat, I read
264
READING
IN
THE TOILET
easiest ones.
for
I
me,
at least
kill
the
ill
most
difficult
never read to
was indisposed,
or pretending to be
As
look
back
it
(Which
find.)
stress
all
it,
the
way most
I I
most
painters paint,
is,
But what
that
The
point
if I
must
when
I
the faculties
possessed.
I
When
played
it
thing.
Now
to read.
and then
would go of an evening
to myself:
pubUc Hbrary
That was
Often,
on
leaving
this
the library, I
oftener
?
would say
reason
I
"Why
don't
you do
life
"
The
came
between.
One
I
pleasure or any
foolish distraction.
From what
with intimate
is
friends,
done
in the toilet
serials,
idle reading.
The
magazines, the
of
to the
toilet to read.
Some,
am
told,
Their
avidity people
comb through
the
as it is called,
which
is
Is it
to keep their
Or
is it
to
make up
?
My own
^i.e.
Umited observations
teU
me
their share
disasters,
war
war
again,
bank
these
robberies, war,
cold.
Undoubtedly
are the
same
individuals
who
and night,
get
who go
fresh
^where they
who buy
But what
!
more
and
All to be informed
do they
really
know
that
is
these dreadfiilly
People
may
insist that
to the radio
a sheer delusion.
The
truth
is
that the
265
in themselves.
much,
frankly,
as
To
meditate
is
on
last
on
the
Even
it
unnecessary to
at
one
is
moment of
bliss,
for
it
a minor sort of
has to be broken
I
by concentration on
favorite kind
printed matter.
Each
one,
own
privacy of the
only the
fluffiest,
flimsiest crap.
And
One wonders
are their
^what
you
of dreams do they
dream
With what
dreams tinged
tell
who
will
that
!
only in the
Life
is
toilet
do
Poor mothers
indeed hard
on you
these days.
you have
a thousand times
more opportimity
for self-development.
If it
was
time
to save, in acquiring
all
you
When
You
all
other excuses
foil,
You
nap
after
as early as
you possibly
approved "
modem "
All
have
as
as possible.
household chores.
methods.
and
efficiency.
un
...!")
there
is
is
we know
I
true that
rests
your job
never
except
wonder
Who
his
on
looks
upon
work, when
terminated,
and fmds
266
it
good
Only
READING
I
IN
THE TOILET
mothers
wonder sometimes
I
if these
conscientious
is
who
are
work
form of self-praise),
with them to the
they have
left
wonder,
as I say,
to take
toilet,
?
jobs which
ever occur
undone
Or, to put
sit
it
it
to them, I wonder, to
during these
precious
Do
moments, ask the good Lord for strength and courage to continue
in the path
?
How
they did,
is
what
often wonder.
Some
to
mothers of old,
as
we knowfirom
managed
do a
of them,
for everything.
own
children, teach
them
all
they knew,
make
clothes,
but some at
managed
to
give their husbands a hand, especially if they were plain country folk. Countless are the big and Httle things our forbears did unaided
before ever there were labor-saving devices, time-saving devices, before there were short cuts to knowledge, before there were
kindergartens, nurseries, recreation centres, welfare workers,
pictures
moving
all
kinds.
also addicted to
men were
If so,
it is
not
R^my
on
cultivated
this habit.
rather
were too
active,
too intent
they
The very
fact that
would
It is true,
;
read
able
same time.
falls
There
a breed of
men who
cannot
resist
reading whatever
they will read Uterally anything, even the Lost and Found notices
in the newspaper.
They
are obsessed,
at this
and
piece
of sound advice
juncture
If
267
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
your bowels refuse to function, consult a Chinese herb doctor
; !
at
hand.
What
you
what
it
responds
to, is
thorough
concentration, whether
will.
upon
what
If
you
bothering you.
Something
The same
true
of the
stool.
at
hand.
with a
free
mind and
a clear conscience.
sound.
the
The modem way is to attempt several things at one and same time, in order " to make the most of one's time," as it is
This
it !
said.
is
**
ineffectual.
Easy does
take care
practice
If
it is
Take
care
of the
little
Few
ever
it.
of
vital
it is
of equal
W^t
is
day
you go
which
you
are
by
utilizing
these precious
moments
in filling
" crap."
Would
moment of life
is
you
insist
life
on reasoning
which
"
is
to yourself that
no
negligible portion
of one's
W.C."
your
or
**
some
^then ask
for
"
Do
I need
Why
do just
this
when trying
!
do
alcoholics.
It's
Supposing
and
this is
one
who
reads
it
Even
so, I say
**
:
that
it is
Suppose
of reading
That
would mark
268
improvement.
It
would be
still
better,
however,
EADINC
not to mediute on
as
IN
THE TOILET
literature at all
If
offer
up
your
bowels
still
function
!
Think what a
takes
little
plight
you would be
in if they
this
were paralyzed
sort,
It
and with
it
in the sunlight,
terms.
am
certain that
by
associating his
no author, not even a dead one, is flattered work with the drainage system. Not even scatoto the fullest in the water closet.
It
logical
make
Having
of the
said
some harsh
?
modem
mother, what
father,
modem father
I
American
because
know him
best.
we know
unappreciated
of Hfe, he does
as
much
it
as possible.
Should he have an
his
Sometimes he
feels
undernourished,
vdfe
locks
is
the
toilet
or
down
crisis
spot.
Let
me recommend
is.
when
such a
occurs, to these
who
are at a loss to
know what
is
their
tme
She
role
is
herself pretty.
" Then
wltat in hell
now
let
know how
on
it is
when you
the
in there
woman you
Don't be jealous
is
of Dante, Balzac, Dostoievsky, if these be the shades she municating with in there. " Mayhe shes reading the Bible
comShe's
know.
and you
Seraphita,
know how you feel. But it's not the Bible she's reading, know it. It's probably not The Possessed either, nor
nor Jeremy Taylor's Holy Limng.
"
"
"
Wind.
The
thing
isbcHcvc mc,
brother,
to try a
example
:
different tack.
Try
questions and
answers.
for
"What
you doing
**
in there, darling
" Reading." " What, may I ask ? " " About the Battle of the Mame."
(Pretend not to be fazed
**
by
**
this.
Continue
!)
**
What was
I
dear
'*
said
is it
good yam
"
i
'*
No,
Let
it*s
borii^."
**
you something eke." " What's that, dear i " " I saidwould you like a cool drink while you're wading through
get
that stuff?"
me
"What
* **
stuflf?"
I'm on something else now." " Darling, do you need any reference books ? " You bet I do. I'd like an abridged dictionaryWebster's,
I
The Oh,
Battle
of the Mame."
finished that.
if
It's
a pleasure.
I'll
fetch
you
the unabridged."
No
It's
easier to hold."
"Darling,
What
is
it
you're looking
for
is
wash the
dishes,
Hke
I'll
read to you.
I've
reading."
called
Napoleon and
Does
270
a detailed study
The Memoirs of Marshal Joffre, with a foreword by of the major campaigns by a professor
of military strategy
that
they
name ! at West
?
Point.
READING
"
Perfectly.
this
IN
THE TOILET
(At
point
you make
one.
woodshed. If there
is
no woodshed, invent
were grinding the axe
Make
you
^Uke
Minutten in
Here
a
is
an alternative suggestion.
When
she
is
copy of
Put a marker
The Cardinal had just found himself deceived by The crafty Italian had seen in the younger branch of the Royal Family an obstacle she could use to
Catherine.
check the pretensions of the Guises ; and, in spite of the two Gondis, who advised her to leave the Guises to act vdth what violence they could against the Bourbons, she had, by warning the Queen of Navarre, brought to nought the plot to seize Beam concerted by the Guises with the King of Spain. As this State secret was known only to themselves and to Catherine, the Princes of Lorraine were assured ofher betrayal, and they vdshed to send her back to Florence ; but to secure proofe of Catherine's treachery to the State the House of Lorraine was the State the Duke and Cardinal had just made her privy to their scheme for making away with the King of Navarre.
counsel of the
The advantage of
that
it
is
put her in
mind completely off her houshold duties and a frame of mind to discuss history, prophecy or symboHsm
rest
of the evening.
She
may even be
tempted to
by George
him
from writing
and a
logician, not
Man, by Paul Weiss, a professor of philosophy of the first water merely, but of the " waters
of a rabbinical
in this
One
The
can read
at
random
work
and not
lose a shred
of
predigested
by
the author.
text
is
pure thought.
Here
is
a sample,
from
the section
271
in
between premise and conclusion ; there is no principle which provides content for the conclusion. Such an inference is derivable from a contingent inference by treating the contingent principle as a premise. C. S. Pierce seems to have been the first to discover this truth. * Let the premises of any argument,* he said, * be denoted by P, the conclusion by C, and the principle by L. Then if the whole principle be expressed as a premise the argument will become L and P .*. C. But this new argument must also have its principle which may be denoted by L'. Now, as L and P (supposing them to be true), contain
determine the probable or necessary V. Thus L' must be contained in the principle, whether expressed in the premise or not. Hence every argimient has, as portion or its principle, a certain principle which cannot be eliminated from its
all
that
is
requisite to
Such a principle may be termed a logical priti' Every principle of inference, Pierce's observation makes clear, contains a logical principle by which one can rigorously proceed from a premise and the original principle to the conclusion. Any result in nature or mind, therefore, is a necessary consequence of some antecedent and of some coune i^ch starts from that antecedent and terminates in that result.*
principle.
ciple*
The
the
reader
whole nutcracker
suite
of
intellectual hocus-pocus,
Co'.
or Wittge
!
stein,
Korzybski, Gurdjieff
&
Why
Ot
not, indeed
Why
not
Vaihinger's Philosophy of
As If?
Diringer
Why
Why
not
Ah
me,
if
this
he were to give
this habit,
serious
what
With
would manage
process.
Wdss
New York,
1947-
272
RBADING
If
IN
THE TOILBT
this
He
of the
'*
with paintings.
How pleasant
!
roam over
For a
starterRomncy,
Gainsborough,
Wood,
(Works
Or,
of
art, incidentally,
are
no
affront to the
autonomic system.)
the
**
watterre
more
**
language of dianetics.
himself embroidering in
off-moments, busy
quaint motto to be
hung
at the level
motto such
knows,
Home
is
This, since
it
ways
unimaginable.
clutches
Who
I
might
!
free her
At
this
think
it
The
Sunday supplements
of the age. The
are full
of this
subject.
Next
to Dianetics, die
is is
of love gives the stamp of approval which (seemingly) Jesus the Christ, The Light of the World, was unable to provide. Mothers,
Wardens
will be
their their
inmates
arms.
men
to
throw away
The millennium
still
just
beings will
will
still
They
meta-
how
is
This problem
virtually a
To
blush,
seem the
this
easiest
To
perform
The only
273
THE BOOKS IN MY
demands
Creator,
is
LiPfi
the willingness
on our
Evidendy the
it
when
;
designing the
human
were
were allowed
of
themselves
vital functions as
were
left
to our disposition,
some of
would
go
to the
toilet.
There arc
who
see
eat, sleep,
breathe or defecate.
They not
only question the laws which govern the universe, they question
of their
beyond
They look upon the demands of the body wasted. How then do they spend their time, these
Are they completely
is
so
much
time
>
superior beings
at the service
of mankind
Is it
because there
so
much
**
to
do
of
It
would
know what
these people
wasting time."
I
if
suddenly
we were
time.
For the
moment we
we
can no longer
retain the
image of society
life
is
now
constituted.
We
spend
of all
the
sorts
everything
human body
to
body
poHtic.
body, with the correlative smooth functioning of the social body, " What would we do with our time ? " To limit the problem I ask :
for the
moment
readingtryt
beg you, to
imagine what books, what sort of books, one would then consider
necessary or
to.
studies
&om
this
away.
We
read
now,
as I see
;
one, to get
real or
away from
ourselves
;
imaginary dangers
two, to arm ourselves against three, to " keep up " with our neighbors,
;
four, to
know what is
Other
five, to
me
to be the prin-
274
READING
cipal ones
IN
THE TOIIET
their current
and
I
importance, if
know my
much
all
reason, the
sway
at present,
others
would
because there
would be no reason
There
And even
no hold over
individuals
us.
are,
who no longer have need of books, not even holy " books. And these are precisely the enHghtened, the awakened ones. They know full well what is going on in the world. They do not regard Me as a problem or an ordeal but as a privilege and a
blessing.
They They
seek not to
fill
wisdom.
with
fear, anxiety,
ambition, envy,
They
and
at the
same
time detached.
ticipate direcdy.
They enjoy everything they do because they parThey have no need to read sacred books or act in a
life
holy
way
whole and
is
whole
How
And
why
there have
been
many
answers
because
whoever
Some view
these rare
;
in prayer
and meditation
some
one
in the midst
all tasks,
how
disagreement there
may be
utterly
as to the
way of
key to
on
their
men have
rest
distinguishes
them
from the
d*^e
have
all
tim
busy
hands
These
call.
men
to respond to a
for them.
simply nonexistent
They Uvc
on
his
moment and
These other
you
:
would be
fruit,
a thought to take with you daily to the water " Meditate on free time " Should this thought
!
bear
no
your
thriller-dillen.
Arm
yourselves,
have done
all
more contented
.
beings.
.
know you
closet
but that
It is
is
of water
equilibrist
according
and
is
to the medicos
read.
I refer
^is
could manage to
to the kind
one
which makes
scat,
rail
the ordinary
American
tourist quail.
There
no
no bowl, just on
a hand(Les
One
doesn't
one
squats.
vraies chiottes,
quoi
!)
One wants
feet
to get
!
done with
it
as
soon
as possible
and
wet
We
we
Americans,
through disguising whatever has to do with the end up by making " the John " so attractive that
long
after
is
vital functions,
linger there
we
business.
and-bath
to us just ducky.
To
as absurd.
with truly
delicate susceptibiHties.
Break ...
a heavy fog.
fly.
A
It
in
was a
light sleep
In one of my
the
fitfiil starts,
came
to
me
remembrance of a dream, or to be
It
of a
dream.
was an
old, old
comes back to
mein
parts
At times
I
it
comes
if
it
doubt
And
then
begin to rack
I
my
brain to recall
which
At
this present
is
moment
recurrent
dream
not
as clear as
has been
on previous
occasions.
associations
it is still
which
usually
accompany th?
recall,
^76
READING
IN
was
THE TOILET
that
I
A moment
this
ago
was wondering
why
it
thought of
dream
that in
coming out of
my
fitful sleep,
or half out of
it,
brought
with me, so to speak, the frightfiil odor of the toilet which was secreted in " the storm shed ** at home in that neighborhood which I always telescope into " the street of early sorrows." In winter
it
was a
cubicle
by a
flickering
wax
taper in sweet
But
there
was something
past.
last
else
which
precipitated the
I
remembrance
Just this
morning
my memory.
As always,
collection
upstairs
mind
house,
usually
I
was
in
when
ever
literature as
a Water-
fowl,
The Wealth
John
it
and such
like.
believe
now
that
whom
had no
If so,
I
relish, that
when I made
their
me
must thank
hid them
departed
for
making
I
me
recall this
with a
in a
it
set
of magic books
vault
do away
to
Is
little
youth,
me
than anything
have read
Obviously
my
sleep,
inventing
I
titles,
Now
and then,
as
At such
series
moments
its
go almost
is
work, and
book,
contents, meaning,
comes
at times to the
very threshold
of consciousness.
One of
more tormenting
aspects connected
377
by what
that
I
it
was
in the
that
upon me
business
where
this
house
exactly,
whom
it
belonged
to,
what
brought
recollect
me
there, I
faintest notion.
the vicinity
which
when
Like a
consumed with
my
first
sweetheart.
ghost on wheels,
^whenever
I
^Dyker
I
I left
the house
that
thinking of her.
So engrossed was
I
:
in thoughts
of her
was
rear
absolutely unconscious of
right fender
my
body
of a car
I
at forty miles
an hour or
along like
a somnambulist.
hung heavy on
Occasionally
my
I
hands.
The
heaviness
was
my
heart.
would be
roused from
head.
for
my
I
reverie
by
my
to,
would bring me
whenever
were
men
are
herded like
there
like.
cattle, I
But
also pleasant
if
you
when swinging
!
as a
How
had spent such marvelous days with Joey and Tony. time had changed everything I was now, on these Saturday
afternoons, a
young man
mooncalf
threw myself
into a
book
it
too
much
for me.
my
refuge.
my
The
might
just as well
I I
set.
Whatever
looked
only
mind me of
her.
Sometimes, in order
would encourage
those
which
assail
making
bend
who
should be standing
!
there to greet
me and
^but she.
If she failed
with such a warm, gracious, lovely smile to " materialize " at this point I would lead
378
READING
myself to believe that
it
IN
THE TOILET
point, towards
would be
at
I
some other
would proceed
to rush full
my
this girl
my very
own,
my
heart
!
must
those
Yet
of
this I
am
certain
They were beyond such such what ? They dealt with unutterable things. Even now, foggy and time-bitten as the dream is in remembrance, I
to
can
recall
as these
on a throne
(as
in ancient stone
bunch of
large,
heavy keys
but
tell
is
more
like
Noah
or Methuselah.
He
is
trying,
it is
so clear, to
I
me
something beyond
my
comprehension, something
have
(A cosmic
as I
secret, doubtless.)
have emphasized,
whole
series.
is
tive, if it
want of a
better
word, "forbidden"
As
if legend,
flights
beyond
description,
sustained
benefit
!
moment of godlike
But
And of course
for my
dream,
especial
is
situation, in the
that I
can always
volume but
of
it
for no obvious,
I
dropped
sense
of irreparable of guilt. of
this
loss
book
Why, why, I ask myself, had I not continued the reading Had I done so, the book would never have been
?
lost,
either.
In the
loss
loss
^
of
contents, loss
as one.
279
THB BOOKS
There
is
still
IN
MY
LIFB
this
I
dream
my
mother's part in
have described
my
visits
to the old
home,
visits
made
expressly to recover
my
for
youthful belongings
some unaccountable
become on
these occasions
my
a perverse delight in telling me that she had "long ago" given " To whom ? " I would demand, beside these old books away.
myself.
it
Or,
if she did
remember, the
brats to
whom
this
had long
since
course she
no longer knew
and
on her
part
that
this time.
And
so on.
Some
Good Will
moments,
I
me
frantic.
Sometimes, in waking
would
titles
actually
wonder
dream
real
books whose
were not
flesh-and-blood
recklessly given
books
away.
which
my
mother
had
thoughdessly,
Of course, all the time I was up there in the parlor wading through the dreary five-foot shelf, my mother was just as baffled by this
behavior
as
by everything which
understand
how
She could not it struck me to do. could " waste " a beautiful afternoon reading
That
as to
why
she
Occasionally
would
me more
I
deeply
since
wanted to drown
my sorrows,
me
like so
many
fat,
buzzing
keeping
awake, making
"
How I jumped the other day when I read in one of Marie CorelU's
now
is
forgotten books
'
Give us something
that will
endure
the exclamation of
weary humanity.
our
The
*
!
things
we
is
have
pass,
their
Give us
try
call
own
forever
This
why we
when we
by impostors
READING
even find vent in words."
IN
THE TOILET
bitter to
is
I tell
of in The Rosy
in
it
book which
I)
and another person (her unknown lover probably) are reading over
my shoulder.
I
It is
mention
it
all
it
would
come about
series
what whole
it
^was written
by myself and no
from another
other.
If I
in a
a waking dream
Is
one
state so different
Since
this
add
that
(What
time
this
I
this
from the
my
one
desire has
been to unload
book which
my belt,
To
that
in
all latitudes
and longitudes, in aU
guts,
and
vicissitudes.
dig this
book out of my
make
it
warm, Hving,
.
. .
palpable
has been
who
away
is
dream of a
he not
edifice.
you might
say
^who
he but myself,
my
most
He holds a bunch of keys in his hands, does And he is situated in the key center of the whole mysterious
names
it.
Well, what is that missing book, then, if not " the story of my
Is
there
one which
is
most mystifying
That
we
a signal thing.
What
stir
are
we
reading,
what
can
we
ness, save
the
brain.
Occasionally
we
and thought, between that which thinks and the mind which
of our dual
self
Brain
is
we may
it
be certain of
truer
of mind, then
is
would be
to situate
it
in the heart
merely a receptacle, or
transformer,
Thought has
a
is
made
active
and meaningful.
There
is
book which
is
part
being, and
Our
being,
say,
and not
our becoming.
we
is
continue
it
only
when we
are about to
be
reborn that
a
we
bring
it
Thus
there
whole
series
tale
of identity.
We
are
all
authors, but
we
are not
heralds
and
sign
it is
prophets.
What we
we
But
only a tiny, tiny fraction of the record which even the best of
us,
the strongest, the most courageous, the most gifted, ever bring to
Ught.
What cramps
our
style,
what
falsifies
of writing
we
never
lose,
we do
lose
sometimes
is
the art
of reading.
is
is
restored to us.
always to interpret.
The
is
universahty of thought
is
What
Acedia
:
fails
us
is
the
desire to
know,
The Holy
it
Ghost.
Drugged by
itself,
whatever form
manifests
and
it
assumes many,
is,
many
forms,
we
Humanity
an orphannot because
divine parentage.
We terminate
to understand
the
book of life
let
we
is
reftise
which
and, for
some
Some of
one in which
Would
it
* See the chapter called " Remember to Remember Rjtmember to Retnember ; New Directions, New York.
from
my
book,
282
READING
to SO build one's
IN
THE TOILET
one could
it
home
least
that
from the
?
command
a breath-taking
panorama
the
My
thought
is
that
does
If,
what
your
toilet
may
be.
you have
you
window
shelf,
is
a desideratum.
paintings,
In that case
you may
well
build a
book
as
hang
this lieu
d*aisance.
one
may
Then, instead of going outdoors and seeking a bo-trec, well sit in " the bathroom ** and meditate. If necessary,
build your
Let the
rest
of the
of
this
supreme function.
art
of eHmination,
make
it its
business to eUminate
Ufe.
all
that
is
"
deleterious
" in everyday
Do
that
toilet to
a heavenly place.
But do
not, while
making
use of this
sacred retreat, waste your time reading about the elimination of this
or
that,
itself.
The
difference
between
the people
who
whether to read,
who go
there only to
do
their business,
that the
act.
The
Lord
if
!
old saying
trust in the
"
There's
wisdom
and
Broadly speaking,
it
means
that
your mind
clear,
you
will cease
as
such
how
tranquillity.
There
no
hint or suspicion
contained in
homely
your
also struggle to
with the
latest fashions,
maxim is
the very
better. I say
"
it,"
meaning
going to the
if it
toilet.
are
**
sitting
on
the stool
is
an aid to
383
sayread
trust in the
the
most
lenitive Hterature
Read
it is
Lord
I
and
con-
" to
Lord." Myself,
trust in the
I
am
vinced that
reading
is
possible to
have
faith
and
Lord without
Holy Writ
in the toilet
faith
Indeed,
am
apt to have
more
visit
and
tnist in the
Lord
if one reads
When you
when
should
He
should,
you know.
It
To
an analyst
it
make
make
do not read
^in
the
toilet.
It
Such matters
is
enough
discussed.
It is
believe
are
The whole universe is more and more, there are keeping tabs on us, be certain
secret doings.
own private affair. concerned. If, as we are led to creatures from other planets who
toilet is one's
our
most
of this
of our
earth,
toilets
what
i
is
to stop
them from
to meditate
upon
^in
there. Let
when
New
deal
fact,
What you
tell
good
does not
everything.
The
however, that you are reading when you should be doing has a
certain importance.
It is
a characteristic
It
which men
planet
judgment of us.
And
merely
if,
we
terrestrial beings,
but beings
grotesque and ridiculous about poring over the printed page while
seated
logical
on
is
something
mad
about
it.
This pathois
element evinces
itself clearly
combined with
Why
284
is
it
when we
connected
READING
with the
these
act
IN
THB TOILBT
though you never
of defecation
Is
two
things simultaneously
Supposing
that,
intended to
toilet
become an opera
in
singer, every
you began
all
Supposing
though
singing was
to you,
you
Or
because
Would
But
bowels, then,
not enough
Must one
has
of pocket-book authors
Dear me,
how
complicated
life
become
Once upon
would
do.
For
hooting of an owl.
nor
Lord.
This
that
trusting in the
to connect
it
who
is
also a metaphysician
and an
Nothing
is
simple
any more.
one can be
behavior
Through
said to
analysis
a wonder any
know
now
such
And we
scorning to
beings
!
who
become
shall
angels, are
is
certainly predictable
closets
!
in space
we
Formerly
we used to
ask
"
What
The
cows could
fly
"
question which
now
How
when
?85
we
are
no longer subjea
to the
sway of gravity
"
Traveling at a
THE BOOKS
we may
that the
as
IN
MY
LIPE
of thought
this
it
be able to accomplish
stars
!will we
?
be able to read
at all
and planets
model space
laboratories,
new
the nature of
we were
this interspatial
literature
ing to
on
a deserted island.
No
one, to
my
a questionnaire as to
this
coming
indeed
Homer, Dante,
I shall
be cruelly disappointed.
That
I
first
returnwhat
will contain
!
know
it
Mcthinks
books
have
not
oflfer
The
on
great possibility, as
all,
I sec it, is
that these
read at
toilet
they
care to
time in
286
XIV
THE THEATRE
Dbama
that
it
is
of
literature into
which
have delved
My
I
almost seems as if
I
were
bom
backstage.
From
the age of
on Drigg*s Avenue, Brooklyn. I always went to the Saturday " matinfe. And alone. The price of admission to " nigger heaven
was then a dime.
get a
(It
really
could
good
ex-pugilist
remember
there.
this
any of the
acts
or actors
saw
He was
was
just
who
play
dominated
I
my
to
troubled dreams.
The
first
was taken
I recall it,
was
Uttcle
Toms
Cabin.
the play
whatever.
my
My
mother loved
don't
stead
know how many times I was dragged to see The Old Home" (with Denman Thompson), Way Down East, and similar
theatres in this
favorites.
Ward) to which I was also taken by my mother at intervals The Amphion and Corse Payton's. Corse Payton, often referred to as "the worst actor in the world," put on melodramas of the
ten-twenty-thirty variety.
Years
later
my
father
and he became
The
first
play to
make an impression on me
^I
wasn't
It
more than
was a jolly*
the
bawdy performance,
ravishing Bonita.
As
see
it
now,
it
glorified
287
Wer
licbt nicht
Nan
sein
this
Leben lang/')
event
is
connected with
selves.
that
I
Wein, Wcib und Gcsang, The most astonishing thing we occupied a box all to ourif I ever entered
fortress
The
theatre,
which
doubt
againit
reminded
Folly,
me somehow
at the
of an old French
^was called
The
and stood
Brooklyn, of course.
By
to the
this
time
we had
from
Ward
York,
Bushwick Section
("
The
Street
of Early Sorrows
called East
").
A Uttle
distance
from
us, in the
neighbourhood
New
Once
company
a year
somewhere
huge
Forepaugh
&
I
Sells
spread their
circus tents.
Not very
is
far
away were
a Chinese cemetery, a
reservoir
this
seem to
I
recall
from
no man's land
But
undoubtedly saw
Cloak Model.
street
was
still
going to granmiar
exciting to
school.
The
life
of the open
was
vastly
more
me
was during
this period,
would
my cousin in Yorkville where I was bom. Here in the smnmer evenings over a pint of ale my uncle would regale us with memories
visit
of the
theatre
I
nmning.)
strong
of his day. {The Bowery After Dark was probably still can still see my imcle, a fat, lazy, jovial man with a
accent, sitting at the bare
I
German
round
programs out
stock,
playbills printed
on newspaper
at the
gallery entrances.
plays, the
as
Such names
Booth,
Henry
the
Irving,
Tony
Pastor, Wallack,
R^ane,
Street
still
ring
the days
when
in
was
its
were
my
my
father used
go to
the theatre.
(A pattern
was soon
to follow with
my
288
Henry Miller
and
Sister
THE THEATRE
buddy, Bob Haase.)
It
came
into the
world
my
father
do with
that world.
mention
this fact to
emphasize
when one
day, while
I
workto the
my
me
he
asked
would
like to
accompany him
his cronies
from the
The Gentleman
He had
me
along because of an
whom
he thought
would enjoy
and
coming
into prominence,
seeing, an actor who was wha was none other than Douglas
Fairbanks.
role.)
me
was about
New York
company
Strange
to be in, too,
the time he
It
my father and the dissolute Major Carew, who, from arrived in New York, was never sober for an instant.
later that I
reahzed
High School,
which
made
was
That event,
my
mind
some
strange reason,
I
my
initiation into
burlesque.
was
still
when an
if I
older
boy
me
one day
would not
theatre in
pants,
first
our neighborhood.
though
doubt
if
my
That
burlesque
rose
I
show
I shall
From
the
moment
I
the curtain
woman
had seen
pictures
women
in
tights
Sweet Caporal
cigarettes, in
every
But
to see
one of these
on
Suddenly
289
THE BOOKS
IN
MY
LIFE
Street, called
I
on Grand
The Unique,
that
or as
saw again
long Saturday
Leon
{life
de Leon), the
girl
who
I
Suddenly
to
billboards that
flanked
the
entrance
the
showing
billowy,
I
sinuous curves.
first visited
At any
rate,
from
that
The Empire I became a devotee of burlesque. Before long I knew them all Miner's on the Bowery, The Columbia, The Olympic, Hyde & Beeman's, The Dewey, The Star, The Gayety, The National Winter Garden all of them. Whenever
headed
there
Thank God,
Had
But speaking of
I
billboards
is
One of the
:
strange recollections
have of
I
this
period
it
Sapho.
remember
for
two
reasons
first,
I
because
it
was posted
best days
on
where
knew my
because
it
and second,
the
flight
was a
lurid
openly revealing a
man in
aa of carrying
of stairs.
woman,
(The
clad
woman
which
was
must
scandal
the dramatizaI
eighteen or nineteen
Tartarin books,
my
twenties before
Ulmer
that
it
Though it
highly improbable,
I still
Patti I
At any
like a trip to
Vienna. In
*'
the
time "
it
would remember
fessed that
(Poor Balzac,
how
pity you,
three or four
happy days
290
^i
THE THEATRE
your
life !)
On this
mother,
steins
The
little
round
table at
which
we
sat,
my
sister
and
I,
reflections cast
by brimming by brooches,
to the
glasses
of
Pilsener,
by gleaming
belt buckles,
chains,
by
that generation.
What good
things
were to
!
and drink
And
it
the
programso
I
Hvely, so scin-
tillating
that
boys
my own
age, or so
come out
each wing.
They
did
bowing and
smiling.
Very important
adjuncts.
The
all
way
with
it
As soon
as I
started at seventeen
there
in
at the
Brighton
prominently
my memory. But more vivid still is the remembrance of an unknown zany who was then making " Harrigan famous. It
'*
was again
and
I
a hot day,
To
can*t
But what
the enclosure
itself,
a circular tier
of benches exposed to
monkey to do his stunts in. Here, on a rude, springy platform, this unknown minstrel gave one performance after another from noon to midnight. I went back to hear him several times that day. I went back expressly to hear him sing
the sky and hardly big
enough
for a
H G
...
A A
dooble
...
spells
Harrigan
. .
Divil a
And
so on.
Ending with
291
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
It's
name
that a
shame
that's
me
Why
this
ditty
it
should
have
infatuated
me
don't
know.
fried
was
A strange
to come to an end. The Edison phonograph, Terry McGovem, WiUiam Jennings Bryan, Alexander Dowie, Carrie Nation, Sandow the Strong Man, Bostock's Animal Show, Mack Sennett comedies, Caruso, Little Lord Fauntleroy, Houdini, Kid McCoy, the Hallroom
Windsor McKay,
Case,
the
Molineaux
Vadis,
The Haymarket,
Dewey
Murray
Hill Hotel,
Nick
Carter,
Tom
Sharkey,
Ted
Sloan,
Mary
Max
Old Apple
Trie, the
RememPinkham,
Bobby Walthour,
Henry
Way
Charleys Aunt
no longer remember.
as the funniest
I
know
only
this,
that
it
remains in
my
s
mind
play
ever saw.
Not
until the
movie
see anything
to
which
hard.
Charley
Aunt
is
the belt.
There's nothing
ofl*
succumb
years,
It
and on
now
and
presimie
will
go on being played
for another
yean to come.
No
i
doubt
it is
To
keep an audience in
a feat.
What
amazes
me is that the
later, I
author,
Brandon Thomas,
was
British.
In Paris, years
Boulevard du Temple
sidesplitting farces.
Le D^'aarefwhich
In this old
bam
of a place
Broadway
292
on
THE THEATRB
From
or so
I
the time
until I
was twenty
my
chum, Bob
from the
Haase, to the
Broadway
up
Theatre, Brooklyn,
after
where the
hits
We
saw
usually stood
at least
way
two hundred
Camille,
among them
Ticket,
such
as
The Witching
HouTy The Lion and the Mouse, The Easiest Way^ The Music Masteft
Madame X,
The Yellow
Tite
Servant in the House, Disraeli, Bought and Paid For, The Passing of
the Third Floor Back,
The
Virginian,
The
Third
Degree,
Mill, Sumurun,
Tiger Rose.
My
favorites then,
Fiske,
among
Carter, Lilly
Maddem
Anna
Held.
As soon
out in
all
going to the
I
New York
all
theatres
branched
directions.
frequented
as the
such
The Provincetown,
I
the
Neighborhood Playhouse.
in Haarlem.
And of course
went
to the
number of
and the
Moscow
my memory
that given
by an
unprofessional group,
I
all
youngsters, at the
Henry
Street Settlement.
was
by
a messenger then
working
for
me
at the
telegraph company.
He had
few stamps.
To
see
him
in doublet
and hose
^he
declaiming with
as
I
was
my mind
nier*s
much
the
same way
Time and
again
went back
to the
Henry
hoping to rcHvc
first
once in a
lifetime.
Not
so far away,
I
^I
on Grand
Street,
was the
visited frequently
and where
performed.
saw Joyce's
Exiles
293
"
many of
I
will
de BergeraCy
From
Mom
till
Him,
Gods of the
Mountain, The Boss, Magda, John Ferguson, Fata Morgana, The Better
*Ole,
Man
best
theatres,
where we occupied
inveterate theatre-goer.
his
choice seats."
My
friend's boss
was an
He had
plenty of
money and he
enjoyed indulging
gang of us
twelve
to a
that
rowdy,
lusty youngsters
to
It
accompany him
in the middle
"good show."
saw
If he got
Elsie Janis,
our great
and
!
also
Elsie
Ferguson
" Such a
Little
Queen
"
Not only
at
Reisenweber's, Bustanoby's
Nothing
"
!
"
Ah
At
old
when
took to working
full
mana
was
training to
become an
made
the acquain-
Brothers, photographers.
man
money.
He had
connections and
affiliations
everywhere,
it
seemed, not
least
The
was
that
whenever
or a
symphonic
Pach, as
recital
ballet,
we
called
him, and a
seat
was waiting
for
me.
Now
and
then
or an overcoat. In return
we received photographs, all sorts of photographs, oodles of them. And so, in this pecuHar way rather miraculous to me I heard
clubs
* See Plexus, Book Two of The Rosy Crucifixion, for a full picture jof these which played such an important part in my early life.
294
THE THEATRE
in the Space
of a few years
virtually everything
of music.
It
more than
all
As
beHeve
began
this
The Harvard
Classics,
recommended by old
The
real impetus,
however,
Emma
in
me by Goldman through her lectures on the European drama, San Diego, back in 1913. Through her I launched heavily into
as I
I feel
most
at
home
the
in.
took to with
same
and sense of
In
familiarity as
Chinese philosophy.
and
would
imitate if
The
Irish
satiation.
There
humor
altogether unique.
There
is
also darkness
and violence, to
seem to
possess.
indebted to the
true language
Through them we
get
gHmmerings of the
of the bards,
as
now
lost
comer
Irish writers,
still
comes through, in
is
translation,
is
Ibsen.
Duck
still
dynamite.
Compared
to Ibsen,
Shaw
is
just
" a talking
fool."
visit
able production
was rendered in
expressionistic
manner, a
la
Georg
whole
Kaiser,
I
my theatremovie
295
going days.
Finished, the
Today
business. I
would
must confess
that the
lost
may seem
tried
no
me
to Hue the
drama than
Besides,
it is
which
I regret.
But even
all
if I
no longer go
me
the
excludperiod
ing Shakespeare
Bible.
whom
cannot abide
For me.
Often in
my
mind
What
to impress
me
is
two
periods of drama.
The Greek
is
simple, straightforward
;
the Elizabethan
language
is
In Russian
the machinery,
of another order.
What all good drama has in common, I find, is its readability. And this is the drama's supreme defect. The drama to come will
lack this virtue.
As "Hterature"
it
The drama
altered.
has yet to
come
into
its
own.
is
And
this
cannot
come
had
in a
radically,
fimdamentally
actor, playwright,
illuminating ideas
tract called
on
this subject,
Le Theatre
de la
Cruauti*
What Artaud
this
is
proposed
we
shall
transformed.
audience,
Books tend
* " Mais, et dang^reux de
The
nouvcaut^, il y a un c6t^ virulent et je dirai mSme po6sie et de I'imagination a retrouver. La po6sie est une force dissociative et anarchique, qui par I'analogie, les associations, les images, ne vit que d'un boulcversement des rapports communs. Et la nouveaut^ sera de bouleverscr ces rapports non seulcmcnt dans le domaine ext6rieur, dans le domaine de la nature, mais dans le domaine intdrieur, c'est i dire,
c'est ici la
la
Comoedia,'
September
296
THE THEATRE
like jelly in the
two which
is
it
takes to give
Only during
a revolution
there anything
is
com-
Used
one of
of decay
it
When the
common
crowd
is
theatre lags
means
at a
low
ebb.
To me
stream.
To
company of
Not only
which
all
swims
In identifying them-
selves
own
An
invisible super-director
is is
is
at
work.
Moreover, in
parallel
another, unique
witnessing.
drama going on
is
Even
to
one's
own
language
is
it is
neces-
The
talk
of the boards
of a
different
street.
Just as the
parable, so the
most indeUble
what one
is
We
how much
silent
drama we
in
which goes on
action,
our
The man of
all
Hves out in deed but a fraction of the drama which consumes him.
In the theatre not only are
exalted, but the ear
is
the
senses
stimulated, enhanced,
new
ways.
We
are
made
of human
actions.
Every-
on
the stage
is
We
is
called destiny,
we
experience
it
beyond the
we
I
all
find
meeting
place.
When I
THE BOOKS IN MY LIFE
in SO
many
diflfercnt
tongues,
when
theatres
my
journeys
homeward, often on
slush
foot, often
I
bitter gales or
through
that
impinged on
my
which
experienced vicariously,
when
which permitted
of the
effects
me
to grasp
them and
suffer
them,
when
think
which
certain plays
me
upon
of this
my
associates
or even people
unknown
to
me, when
think
itself
tide
when
is
think
how
utterly, inexorably
human was
all this,
so
human,
that
so salutary,
so remarkably universal,
my
appreciation of
is
all
connected
augmented
to the point
of
To
take one
form of
aHen
which seems so
intimate
is
bizarre,
so
^how
it.
remarkably
close
and
it is,
now
that
look back on
make up
idiots,
life
dancing, joking,
feasts,
horseplay,
fiinerals,
beggars,
anxieties, frustrations
(I
am thinking,
know
of
course,
good
stew.)
need not
One One
"
?
One becomes
:
thoroughly a
"
Jew
for the
nonce.
Am
not
also a
Jew
With
drama
the
same
thing occun.
in doing so
One becomes
Through
the
all
these
universal
self.
drama we
find our
individual identity.
We
we
realize that
we
earth-bound.
Sometimes, too,
world
as
utterly
unknown,
with
perhaps
worthy of
note.
The
inveterate
who
298
THE THEATRE
who imagines
lives as
way to live
other people's
gets
what he
from
it
the play
of himself
so very
much
much
has to be divined.
One's
own
exteriorly,
would never
rapport between
establishes.
good dramatist
is
In
drama inexhaus-
from
playwright draws
his material.
breast trickles
itself in
a vaporous ocean,
bark of a play
is
constantly
as if to
The
The
no more than
as it
detectors flashing
back to
stuff
us,
momentarily
is
were, a
line,
a deed, a thought.
life
;
of drama
drama
lies
in the
very substance of
cell
I
embedded
am
things
is
intended.
This
me
it is
particularly
where the
one that
theatre or
I
the cinema
concerned.
I
If
a failing,
it is
am
not
ashamed of
I
about me.
water.
I
at
an early age,
it
as
a duck takes to
For
me it was
went
With
the
rising
was prepared
to accept imphcitly
my
eyes.
life
me
**
as the life
real.
in
I
which
was immersed,^
that
it
was more
Looking backward,
must admit
But
at the
Hterature,"
its
much
sheer claptrap.
It
Ufe at
It
fullest.
colored and
influenced
my
irrevocably.
for
it
what the
I
I
critical
play*
which
bom
of
At home,
then
I
in school, in church,
in the street,
If it
wherever
went,
theatre.
as this
a tender age
may
sensed
On
everything.
The
great
stars,
whether
my memory
so, since I
Perhaps more
knew them
in the
We
are
obHged to imagine
how
Charlus spoke,
how
Not
so
could speak of
if
I
at
who
who
still,
but close
my
working
There were
theatrical couples
who
members
of our
own
family.
for example.
families endeared
Eddie Foy's
of our fancy
no other type
but their
think of a
possibly could.
actresses either,
I
personahties
cluster
were
of them immediately
Elsie Janis,
Elsie
Ferguson, EflSe
Anna
Held,
Fritzi
Scheff,
Trixie
Friganza,
Gertrude Hoflfman,
and
of course
whose name
am
sure
no one
will recall,
fact that
they were
flesh
of the
screen, endeared
them
even more.
sometimes
Sometimes
we saw them
breathlessly,
in their
weak
that
moments
300
we
watched them
knowing
their hearts
were
really breaking.
THE THEATRE
The same
been
pleasure one has in discovering his
own books,
of the stage
as well.
We
sec
was imperative to
("before
they die ") such as John Drew, William Faversham, Jack Barrymore,
great
Holbrook Blinn, O.
Elissa Landi,
Edward
Maude,
Olga Chekova,
many othen, now almost legendary. The names, however, which are inscribed in my book of memory
of gold
are those
in letters
and burlesque.
Let
me
mention
Raymond
which
program.
than
would
or shine, job or no job, money or no money, I was always there. To be with these " men of mirth " was the best medicine in the world,
the best safeguard against melancholy, despair or frustration.
I
can
way
and pandemonium.
The
book
in
There
is
know of
in the
throughout.
One
one
felt
moment
or two.
was
scarcely necessary to
do or say anything.
mere waggle of
could
the fingers
was
sufficient to
make one
sec
The man I liked best of all was Frank Fay. I adored him. him of a mating and go back in the evening to see him
What
by the way
all
over
Frank
!
is
the
title,
would
give anything to
know
301
THE BOOKS
Fay impressed
IN
MY
LIFE
man who could put on an act without the man who could hold the stage alone for ten or fifteen hours, if he chose. And who could vary the performance from day to day. To me he seemed possessed of inexhaustible wit, intention, inteUigence. Like many another great comedian, he knew when and how to cross the borderline into the realm of the forbidden. He got away with murder, Frank Fay. He was irresis-
me
as a
slightest preparation, a
tible,
imagine.
as
up
his sleeve.
He was indeed
one-man show."
In passing
in
in
one play,
I must make mention of an actor whom I saw only whom I never heard of again after his enormous success
I
Bartels.
this play,
to Bartels* acting of
remains a
it.
landmark in
and again
blatant,
I
my memory.
went back
like
Again
" the
to see
infectious
haw-haw-haw
can remember,
I
of
Bartels,
who was
show
As
off."
far
back
as I
seem
to be
aware of voices
mean by
form of
held
this that I
about
this.
It
was
intercourse
I
indulged
could go on
while
Dialogue
constant dialogue.
in
books
my
head
in
smothered sort of
dialogue
speak of
One more
it
would have
Not
that
I.
If
thought about
to
at all
mean
I
tell
myself that
I
never thought of it
it
unnatural
attain.
or exceptional.
Nor
is it,
may
I
Thus
his
it
some one,
heard
to his words,
his
would
interpolate
words with
;
others of
my
more eloquent
302
THE THEATRE
through,
I
would
words
him
as if
him swallow
his
own words
and
marvel
at their
It
complexity.
was
these
whom
interest
who became
attached to
me much
artist.
It
mountebank or
a sleight-of-hand
never occurred to
that
me
enjoyed the
unknowingly.
or
it,
this,
>
if
What was
doing
no doubt, and
without intention
i
And
this task
Not
I
to mirror
my own
The moment
what
I
realize that
have struggled
more
To unburden
though
it
myself, therefore,
of Revelation.
The
better part
of my
theatre,
may
this
actor,
and
script itself
never-ending drama,
take a
It
my own
and
walk alone
is
Cafe Rotonde
never
in Paris,
read Robinson
Jeflfers*
Women
at Point Sur,
dreaming that
called
Little
at a place
life
!
Dreams and
dream,
when
of the Montague
Street Library in
In the preface to the first volume of his celebrated roman-fleuue, Jules writes : "I wish that it will be understood that some episodes lead nowhere. There are destinies which fmish none knows where. There are beings, enterprises, hopes, which one no longer hears about. Meteors which whole pathos disintegrate, or aperiodic comets of the human firmament. of dispersion, of fading away, of which life is full, but which books nearly always ignore, preoccupied as they are, in the name of old rules, with beginning and finishing the game with the same cards." {Hommes de bonne "
Romain
uolonte.)
303
my
would
did
I realize,
on
Dijon
at the
one day be
Lyc^ Camotthat the man I was talking to would the man to start me off on this book. Nor did I think,
Caf6 du D6me,
the author
it
when
at
the
Paris I
Crommelynck,
Le Cocu
I
of
that celebrated
Magtiijique, that
his play.
would be
did
fifteen years
or more before
would read
Little
I realize,
when
man
responsible
my
and
friend, that
me
to the
home of Jean Giono, his Hfelong friend. Little did I imagine either, when seeing Yellow Jacket (written by the Hollywood actor, Charles
Cobum),
Co.),
that I
would encounter
Machine
who,
talking
of
would end
on
Yellow Jacket.
How
play,
could
foresee that
it
would be
in a fiu:-off
see
would
my
as
shadow
?
Katsimbalis
a troupe
Or, enamored
was of burlesque
I
(often following
from town
to town),
how was
Athens
sec the
same type of comedian, hear the same jokes, catch the same
and banter
i
How could
man
I
same evening
I
(in Athens),
should
a
encounter a
I
my
life,
man
the
but
whom
And
remembered
as
one
who came
after a
is
this
not a strange
in glancing
now,
just a
my
in the
Yellow
by Dennis Johnston by
^I
first
was played
the French
New
my
304
friend
him widi
least
translation
And though
there
may
not be the
connection
me
as curious
hiss
and coincidental,
in a
**
was
cinema in
they hissing
replied.
showing of my beloved Peter Ibbetson. " I asked. " Because it is too unreal/*
Why
are
my
friend
Ah
yes, strange
memories.
Walking down
I
of
Heraklion,
on
my way to
Knossos, what do
see but a
huge poster
Gold Rush
Tweedledee.
at the Minoan cinema. The Minotaur and the Arthur Evans. Tweedledum and
?
some weeks
several
later, I
advertising the
coming of
American
One of them,
amphi-
bcheve
it
Another incongruity.
At
theatre listening to
my
delivered there.
In a split second
am
one
after
my
first
The
real
later,
when
!
at the foot
of the
citadel at
Mycenae
. .
.
of Clytemnestra and of
Agamemnon
But
the
and the
but
least
of human kind,
classics
I also listened
to the voices
to
of Caruso, Cantor
Hilliard,
Sirota,
Robert
reciting
"A
rich,
now
memories,
on
the Boulevard
to
du
end
Temple (Le
Dejazct),
where
of the performance,
my
down
only
my face.
to
where
listened
which
it
stood, almost
Guignol
all
From
bill,
hair-raising
on one
But of
all
is
A world of
THE BOOKS
IN
MY
A
LIFE
as
transmogrification.
say.
world
old as civilization
itself,
one might
show and
its
the
shadow
play, there
equestrians
and clowns.
But
where
. . .
heard
Emma Goldman
whorehouse
Montana.
in
on
?
the
European drama
I
ago
ask myself.
was on
my
Can it way to a
company with
cowboy named
we went
was
town
for that
one
purpose.
deflected, derouted,
my
!
whole hfe
altered,
by
the
announcing the
arrival
of
Emma
Through
worthy,
her,
Emma, I came
Schnitzler,
Wedekind,
Gals-
Hauptmann,
Brieux,
Pinero,
Ibsen,
Gorky,
von
Hof!mansthaI,
was her
consort,
that
I
sold
me
the
fir^t
book of Neitzsche*s
The Ego and His
was to read
The Anti-Christ
as
well as
Own by Max
I
Then and
there
my
world
was
altered.
When,
a Uttle later,
European dramatists
John Ervine,
such Americans
Out of this
originally
name of an
actor
who came
Like Nazi-
For years
his voice
and
me.
?
But which
one of
his
figure
him
exactly.
It
was
after
patrons had
pianist
left,
we
till
dawn
to a
whose whole
was
Scriabin.
Scriabin
and Ben-Ami
are
indissolubly connected in
my
mind.
306
THE THEATRE
Just as
the
title
(in
German),
is
named Nahoum Yood. Whenever, wherever I met Nahoum Yood, he would begin talking about this mad book of Hamsun's. Similarly, in
associated with another
Yiddish writer
Paris,
whenever
we would
Germans.
inevitably touch
on Ernst
Toller
Whenever
the
encounter
names
Schiller
sec the
book on
trains, either
hanging on to a strap
into dirty
down
windows of
long
ever cease
Hfe,
woe-begonc
hovels, whilst
committing to
memory
it
passages
from
the
works of
to
these authors.
Nor
does
to
seem remarkable
me
day of
my
on
my
mind immediately
Tlte
Maeterlinck's plays
Death of
The Blue
Bird,
Monna
et
of which,
almost
It is
as
much
as the
the
women
of the theatre
who seem
impression
Perhaps
Httle
this
due to the
everyday
life
women
have so
chance
drama
is
tends to
saturated
women.
Modem
woman
are
drama
to a
with
level.
social
more human
:
In ancient Greek
has ever
superhuman
no
modem
in real Hfe.
In the Elizabethan
certainly,
drama they
are also
and bewilder
us.
To
get the
measure of
woman
female as given in ancient drama with those which only the burlesque
theatre (in our time) has dared to reveal.
I
am
alluding,
of course,
God,
I
* Pauline Lord's
only a poor
actress,
I
Anna
Christie
"
am
bum "or
m Dommage
the voice of Ludcnne Lcmarchand, the French qu'elle soit putain ! Or our own dear Margo's.
307
comic
bits
in burlesque
which
derive
from
the
commedia
life
del' arte
of de Sade,
who
spent
some of his
closing
what
it
would be
At
like to
insane people.
on
work upon
the aid of
literally
all
would
go mad and,
and unthinkable
excesses.
One
its
me
is
power
racial barriers.
few plays
Often
can do more,
the
first
reactions
anger,
resentment,
deception or disgust.
But once
aUen,
what was
and
becomes
accepted
approved,
after
nay,
enthusiastically
endorsed.
wave of such
foreign
of our
own
native drama.
last.
The
all
American
Ah, but
its
own
it
the shocks
which
let
are administered to
from time
to time.
!
me
About
my
father
his
list
of
tailor
shop
this
who,
backwards,
sensual,
who
!
David Belasco
name
that
Broadway
will ever
He was not my father's customer but the cHent of one of my father's associates, a man named Erwin, who was mad about two things
figures
There were
at that
fixtures, so to say
connected with
Each one was an
shop
Bunchek, the
cutter, this
man Erwin,
these did.
THE THEATRE
aiid
each one, with the exception of Bimchek, had his very personal
not
many
either,
sufficient, apparently, to
Or
perhaps
it
would be more
accurate to
say"
by playing
his
billiards in the
who was
crazy about
show up on
on
the side
by taking
sail.
his solution
club,
all
common was
boon
life
their
The
greatest
at
noon
twelve sharp,
if possible
swimming
As for
likewise.
was
**
take
it
or leave
;
it."
Erwin
They gave
of
one
fitting
they
could go elsewhere.
Which
of
their peculiar,
odd
associates
new
I
clients
as I said,
was
What
these
in
common
father's
Nothing, apparently.
my
General astonish-
ment on
Many of my
at the
father's customers, as I
have
street.
Some of
309
men of
parts (a
number of them
home
in the
tailor shop.
astute
enough
to engage
Bunchek
in conversa-
Many
an
when
it
seemed
as if the
estab-
we
Bunchek's cutting
and cosmological.
when
is
but the
name of
is
a play
of Zionism,
me
George Washington.
One of
was
who
a customer
of
my
father's
named
Julian I'Estrange,
who was To
^Paul
Poindcxter
discussing
the merits of
listening to
Paul of Tarsus.
Or
(who caught
their talk,
their lingo
he
Waller
after a session
it all,
listening to
monologues
the
on
place
discussion
own
was
as if
against their
But
was just
me
the necessary
of the
solitary male,
gave
me
strange, premature
and premonitory
Was
it
me
on
my
arm one
day, the
good Paul
me
aside
and give
me
I
a long lecture
Paul down.
310
THE THEATRE
And
Belasco ?
I
silent as a
hermit.
A
I
oflf
silence
which
reverence.
But
this
do remember
with
vividly about
him
that
helped
him on and
his trousers.
And
remember
the
:
was
shop
You
sec, if clients
plentiful.
Not
day
of taking
an order, but to
fashion.
rest their
chew
The two reigning favorites were Don Marquis and Bob Edgren. Oddly enough, Bob Edgren, a sports writer, had a great influence upon me. I sincerely beHeve I am telling the
on
the columnists.
truth
when
that
I
I
say that
it
column
cultivated
;
what
sense
of
fair
play
have.
Edgren
man his due after weighing all the pros and cons he would give his man the benefit of the doubt. I saw in Bob Edgren a sort of mental and moral referee. He was as much a part of my
gave every
Me
then
as
It
Cabell.
ringside,
was a
I
of course, when
when
my
relative merits
idols
were
prizefighters.
my first my own,
Terry
McGovem,
Tom
Jim
Jeffries,
Ad
Litde
Jim Londos
was almost
as
much of a god
me
as
And then there were the six-day What I mean to point out by all
contests, the banquets indoors
bike riders
this
is
Stop
of books,
the sports
we waged,
fiestas
(our
own
activity.
On
the
way
to the
an event,
311
THE BOOKS
IN
MY
LIFE
remember
discussing
my
pianist,
significance
later,
A few years
lieuy I
La Guerre
suddenly recalled
black day
when
of
my
favorite, Carpentier.
Iliad,
or trying to
for
it
went
^but
anyhow, reading of
Achilles, the
the
on one
of Georges Carpentier,
It
occurred to
me
was just
god.
grin,
And
with
this
whom
Jules Laforgue
?
had
Why
Why
But thus
are
books
From
when
the Xerxes
music-making
am
tall
a fine musician,
"),
horseplay.
There
Chez Bousquet,
(O
fiddledee,
I
O fiddledee, O fiddledum-dummy
head
off.
I
dee
!)
And
all
the while
was reading
I
can
still
of those books
I
my arm,
Stories,
no matter where
was headed
Satyricon, Lecky's
Human
Marriage,
The
Scientific
Bases of Optimism,
The
Volpone,
Development of Europe, the Song of Songs by Sudermann, " tears over the " convulsive beauty
of
Francesca da Rimini,
memorizing
bits
famous
letter to
Gauguin,
as
Apres), struggling
(a gratuitous struggle,
because
had
THE THEATRE
wrestled with
exploits
it
for a
whole year in
Cellini,
of Benvenuto
Herbert Spencer's
the
by everything from
Mailer's
**
at
Max
philo-
logistica,"
moved by
prose, studying the great Finnish epic, trying to get through the
MoUere, Sardou,
Scribe,
de Maupassant, fighting
series,
my way
I
wading through
a hfe
!
that useless
book of
Voltaire's
Zadig
What
Small wonder
tailor.
title
is
(Yet thrilled to discover that The Merchant Tailor was the a well-known Elizabethan play.)
of
At
?
the
same time
and
this
more
talk
bizarre
carrying
as
on a kind of
George Wright,
"vermouth duckbill"
Bill
naughty play
we
!
all
went
on Broadway
What
a great
So risque
!
of it afterwards
Bousquet's
on
of a dark winter
I
like
an iceboat,
would
be shaking with laughter over the events of the night before just
a few hours before, to be exact. This, the Spartan regime, combined
with the
feasts
and
festivities,
the
one-man study
reading, the
argument and
discussions, the
the fights and wrestling bouts, the hockey games, the six-day races
at the
halls,
of money,
the contempt for work, the goings-on in the tailor shop, the soHtary
promenades to the
reservoir, to the
pond where,
skates
if the ice
would
try out
my racing
313
this
unilateral,
drunk and
feet
good
same
who
never had
borrow somehow
to give to others, a
at heart
and
on
gathered
Manhattan
from*
cheese-box of
armories,
concert
circuses,
halls,
churches,
saloons,
arenas,
canal,
markets
Gansevoort
and Wallabout,
stinking
Gowanus
Arabian
ice
cream
dry docks,
Navy Yard, suspension bridges, roller skating rinks. Bowery flophouses, opium dens, gambling joints, Chinatown, Roumanian cabarets, yellow journals, open trolley cars, aquariums,
sugar refineries.
Follies,
the Hippo-
homes of
my
fiiends,
of the girb
loved, of the
men
in Greenpoint, Williamsburg, Columbia Heights, Erie Basinthe endless gloomy the gasHghts, the gas tanks,
revered
streets,
fat
the throbbing, colorfiil ghetto, the docks and wharves, the big ocean
liners,
gun
abandoned
forts,
Dutch
streets.
Place,
United
(hard
sodas
by
!),
^such
milky
ice
cream
the
open
trolley to
the smell of crabs, lobsters, clams, baked blue fish, fried scallops,
when everything -wis and never-to-be-forgotten age has ever been since, or ever will be again when Buttermilk Channel was quite dry at low water when the shad in the Hudson were all salmon, and when the moon shone with a pure and resplendent whiteness, instead of that melancholy yellow Ught which is the consequence of her sickening at the abominations she every night witnesses in this degenerate
!
*"
Ah
blissful
better than
it
dty
"
(Washington Irving.)
314
THE THEATRE
the schooner
of beer for
somewhere, anywhere, every old where, always one of Andrew Carnegie's " pubUc " Hbraries, the books you so passionately wanted always " out ** or not listed, or labelled, like Henncssy*s whiskies
and brandies, with three
stars.
Rome, nor
froHcsome days of Elizabethan England, nor were they even the "good old 'Nineties " but it was " httle ole Manhattan "just the
name of that
little
remember
Alley, but
all
is
just as famiHar to
me
it
won t come
hams such
as
back, not
all
now.
But
it
was there
ottce,
including the
They
still
man my father loathed, his namesake, Henry stand, in memory at least, and with them the
some of
critics still
/
days long past, the plays long since digested, the books,
them,
still
unread, the
the universe
am
!
comes
to
me,
name of the theatre Wallack's ! Do you remember it i You see, if you give up struggling (memoria-technica) it always comes
back to you.
Ah, but
see
it
again
now,
just as
it
theatre.
And with it
Rector's
So naughty!
So daring!
So
what matter
I
>
was going to
see
them.
They seemed
so important to
I
me
more important
I
cahbre. buddies.
For then
was with
others,
with
my
friends,
my
pak,
my
Stand up,
ancient
members of
must
tell
all
how
often
the beyond!
THE BOOKS
And now
I
IN
MY
LIFE
of
that
take leave
young man
What
a dismal picture!
What
them
swallowing them
The
Classics!
Slowly, slowly,
am coming
Where
.
.
to
join
is
on
the field
Voltaire,
neither
And why
?
pick
on
that
it
Because
me
at this
moment.
could
different
who
likewise gave
?
me
nothing.
could
let
To what end
that,
To
and adjudicate
skates or without,
or six-ounce gloves,
comes
first.
Oui, en terminant ce
fatras,
d*^v^nements de
ma
pure
jeunesse, je pense de
nouveau
a Cendrars.
De
la
musique avant
toute chose!
elle-meme
January
to
December, 1950,
Stir,
Bug
California.
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APPENDIX
The Hundred Books Which
Ittfluenced
Me
Most*
Author
Title
Elizabethan
(ex-
Story of
My
Misfortunes
The Wanderer
Fairy Tales
Louis Lambert
Blavatsky,
Mme. H.
Boccaccio, Giovanni
Breton,
Andre
Bronte, Emily
Benvenuto
Cendrars, Blaise
Chesterton, G. K.
works
of Assisi
The
Leatherstocking Tales
De
Nerval, G<$rard
list
* This
Wale;
Editions Gallimard,
Paris, 195 1.
317
APPENDIX
Author
Title
His works in general His works in general
Salavin Series
Trilby
Dostoievsky, Feodor
Dreiser,
Theodore
Anarchism
Representative
Men
EUe
Fenollosa, Ernest
Gidc,
Andi6
Giono, Jean
Que majoie
Jean
te
demeure
Bleu
Fairy Tales
Haggard, Rider
Hamsun, Knut
Henty, G. A.
Hesse,
The Absolute Collective She His works in general His works in general
Siddhartha
Hermann
Hudson,
W.
H.
Hermann
Kropotkin, Peter
Lao-tse
Men
in
War
Caheza de Vaca
Interlinear to
M.
Machen, Arthur Maeterlinck, Maurice
Gospel of Ramakrishna
Mann, Thomas
Mencken, H. L.
Nietzsche, Friedrich
Nijinsky, Vaslav
NordhofF&
Hall
W.
O.
Petronius
Plutarch
The Satyricon
Lives
318
APPENDIX
Author
Powys, John Cowper Prescott, William H.
Proust, Marcel
Title
Visions and Revisions
Rabelais, Francois
Rimbaud, Jean-Arthur
Rolland,
Romain
New India
Ivanhoe
Henry
Quo
Vadis
(in
Anghclos
Proanakrousma
translated)
Esoteric
manuscript,
Sinnett,
A. P.
Buddhism
^^
Spencer, Herbert
Spengler,
Autobiography
Oswald
Strindberg, August
Suar^s, Carlo
Zen Buddhism
Gulliver^s Travels
Idylls
of the King
Civil Disobedience
and Other
Essays
Twain, Mark
Theo The Maurizius Case (Trilogy) Akhnaton The Unveiling of Timbuctoo Star of the Unborn
Letters to
Whitman, Walt
Leaves of Grass
319
APPENDIX
Books I
Still
II
Intend
to
Read
Title
Author
Anonymous Aquinas, Thomas
Aragon, Louis
Bonaparte, Napoleon
Calas, Nicholas
My
Secret Life
Summa
Theologica
de Paris
Le Paysan
Memoirs
Foyers d'Incendie
Memoirs
Athenes
et Jerusalem
Le Latin Mystique
Monsieur Nicholas
Dangerous Acquaintances
Doughty, Charles
Fielding,
Arabia Deserta
Henry
Tom Jones
Sentimental Education
Tlie
Flaubert, Gustavc
Gibbon, Edward
Harrison, Jane
Decline
and
Fall
of the
Roman Empire
The Orphic Myths
Prolegomena
of the Sea The Waning of the Middle Ages The Golden Bowl Melmoth the Wanderer
Toilers
Multatuli
Max Havelaar
Ann Ward
The Mysteries of Udolpho
Correspondence
Entile
RadchfFe,
Piviere, Jacques
& Alain-Fournier
La
SuUivan, Louis
Swift, Jonathan Vach^, Jacques
works of the following authors :Jean-Paul Richter, Leon Daudet, Gerard Manley Hopkins, T. F. Powys, Ste. Ther^e, St. John of
the
Novalis, Croce, Toynbee, Leon Bloy, Orage, Federov,
the Cross.
And
320
APPENDIX
Friends
III
Who
Supplied
Me
With Books
Mohegan
Lake,
New York
Sticklepath,
England
Carmel, California
Hamburg, Germany
Monterey, CaUfornia Phoenix, Arizona Yonkers, New York
Paris,
WiUiam
Rene
E.
Auk
Oscar Baradinsky
Barjavel
Bartell
France
Roland
Richard Beesley Dr. Pierre BeUcard Hilary Belloc Raoul Bertrand Earl Blankinship Andre Breton Robert A. Campbell Robert H. Carlock Blaise Cendrars Rives Childs J.
France
Seattle,
Washington
Paris,
France
Hugh Chisholm
Cyril Connolly
Kankakee, Illinois Tucson, Arizona Paris, France Jidda, Saudi Arabia Big Sur, CaHfornia London, England
Paris,
Albert Cossery
Pascal Covici
France
Frau Elisabeth
Lawrence Durrell Jean Dutourd David F. Edgar Frank Elgar Pete Fenton Robert Finkelstein
London, England
Spring Valley,
Paris,
New York
France
J.H.Flagg
Mme.
John
Raymond Gu&in
Jac.
de Haan
E. Haldeman-JuHus
Los Angeles, CaUfornia Los Angeles, CaUfornia Chicago, Illinois Paris, France Bennington, Vermont Sacramento, CaUfornia Manosque, France Paris, France Bordeaux, France The Hague, HoUand Girard, Kansas
Solna,
Sweden
Walter Holscher
Andrew Horn
Willard Hougland
APPENDIX
Louisa Jenkins
III
Claude Houghton
London, England
Pebble Beach, California Sacramento, California Paris, France Norfolk, Connecticut
JohnKidis
Pierre Laleure
Nottingham, England
Paris,
France
Berkeley, California
Brussek, Belgium
Paris,
Paris,
France France
Viennc, France
J.
France
Illinois
Albert
Mermoud
Neiman
Swami Nikhilananda
Stan Noyes
Raymond Queneau
Paul Radin Rajagopal
France
Berkeley, California
Ojai, California
Man Ray
Georges Ribemont-Dessaignes
Hollywood, Cahfomia
Saint-Jeannet, France
France
James
Mrs.
S.
Russell
Inverness, California
Mark
Saunders
Carmel, California
Tawfig Sayigh
Bezalel Schatz
Berkeley, California
322
APFBNDIX
W.
J.
Schild
France
Henri S^guy
Jack
Sarlat,
France
W.
Stauffadicr
Frances Steloff
Ruth Stephan
Irving Stettner
Carlo Suar^
W. T.
Symons
Richard
Thoma
Gny Tosi
Ckura Urquhart
France
Johannesburg, South Africa SausaHto, Califomia Carmel, Cahfomia Carmel, Cahfomia Paris, France Los Angeles, Califomia
Emil White Walker Winsk>w Bemhard Wolfe Kurt Wolff Jacob Yerushalmy
Dante T. Ziaccagnini
New York City, New York New York City, New York
Berkeley, Califomia
Port Chester.
New York
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