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NOTHINGNESS
OF SELF ESTÉÉM
PART I: KNOW YOURSELF!

To know one-self is to seek knowledge of “What am


I?” This single action cannot be compromised with
anything and it must be understood well so as to live
a stress-free life in any realm of existence. It is
better to light a candle than cursing the darkness.

A A Adedeji 1
ILORIN, NIGERIA
[2009]
A A Adedeji/NOTHINGNESS OF SELF-ESTÉÉM

Contents
The need for a higher truth:
KNOW YOURSELF
Source Codes for Nothingness of Self-Estéém
(ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS)
Human, Know Thyself
1.1 Subconscious Mind
1.2. Empowering Our Own Lives
1.3 Personal Transformation
Development of the Real Intuition
2.1 The Real Intuition
Expanding Your Real Intuition
2.3 Quest for Reality
Human Physical Body
3.1 Human Physical Body
3.2 Systems of the Human Body
Human Subtle Body
4.1 Introduction
4.2 Aura
4.3 The True Colours of Auras
4.4 Auric Sight
4.5 Multi-Sensory Perception
4.6 Chakras
4.7 An Electromagnetic Affair
4.8 Influences of Auras
4.7 The Energy Field
Thought Forms
5.1 Overview of Biological Functions of
Deoxyribonucleic Acid (DNA)
5.2 DNA Representations
5.3 How to Become Immune to Karma
5.4 Clearing the Heart Chakra
5.5 Thought and Consciousness
5.6 Awareness
Sexual Relationship
6.1 Know Yourself
6.2 The True Relationship
Intentions and Destiny
7.1 Intentions and Destiny
7.2 Dreams and their Recalls
7.3 Emotional Healing Through the Dreams

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7.4 Shamanic Healing


7.5 Work
7.6 Oddity of Life
7.7 Stress: Control, Change or Let Go!
7.8 Your Past, Present and Future
7.9 The Basic Survival Need
7.10 The Need for a Higher Truth
7.11 First We Need to Know Ourselves Better
The Laws of the Universe
8.1 The Laws of the Universe
8.2 Our Reality Within and Without
8.3 Your Fear or Masked Desire
8.4 Ultimate Truth about Yourself
8.5 Re-adjusting an Old Belief
8.6 The Role of the Ego
8.7 Turning Barriers into Bridges
8.8 Secret Power of Self-Detach
Karma
9.1 Finding Karma
9.2 Clearing Karma
9.3 Aka Cords: The Unity
Concept of the Prime Mover
10.1 Prime Mover
The Unity
11.1 Theory of Relativity
11.2 The Void and the Origin
11.3 The Path
11.4. The Fire Within
11.5 The Collapse of the Fire Within
11.6 Awakening of the Fire Within
11.7 Voodoo/Amulets/Oogun
11.8 Witchcraft
11.9 Cultism
11.10 A Force in Thought Form
11.11 Congregational Prayer and Rituals
11.12 Sex Psychology
11.13 Tradition/Religion
11.14 Affirmation/Ohun
11.15 Meditations
11.16 Phrases

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NOTHINGNESS OF SELF-ESTÉÉM

I Can Expand My Comfort Zone, Shatter The


Beliefs That Are Limiting My Life, And
instantly Boost My Self-Esteem Forever.

In 30-Minutes A Day, You Too Can Easily


Create The Life You Want - Guaranteed!

If you have ever thought about why some


people are successful in life and others live
out their lives in failure, if you have ever
wanted to be one of those people who live
their dreams, the answer is at hand.

However, this is not a religious book or a


bundle of doctrinal, but an inspirational
book of Knowledge that cuts across all
levels.

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The need for a higher truth:


KNOW YOURSELF

There is the need to make contact with the


creative force that is beyond the human
personality, to make sense of all the suffering and
injustices of the survival struggle on earth. This
need has been evident in all cultures, expressed by
all religions, and is the spiritual path towards
enlightenment, towards knowing the Most High,
towards discovering the truth of All That Is.

It is only by having at least a glimmer of this


spirituality that we each are part of that we can
aspire to the highest potential of being human. To
be able to genuinely love and to forgive
unconditionally, we need to see in all others - even
our enemies - the same essential quality that we
ourselves are part of. Spirituality is a
transpersonal quality; it is beyond the ego and
obsession with the self. It is the maturity of
intuition.

The path of personal transformation is primarily a


process of becoming aware of, facing up to and
taking responsibility for one's thoughts, feelings
and actions, and then expanding this self-

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realisation by communicating with others, retaining


integrity whatever the response, and further
enhancing the quality of communication with ever-
increasing empathy and understanding. Through
understanding others better, we can recognize
their essential goodwill, however misguided it might
have become, and begin to recognize the
spirituality of humankind. But first we need to know
ourselves better.

It’lub l’ilima walao bi Sin. The Prophet confirmed,


literarily means: Seek knowledge even if you will
travel afar. Read! Is the first word revealed in the
Qur’an. Seek and ye shall be given, is the other
revelation in the Bible guiding us to look around for
knowledge so as to be wise and not to seek for
material things of the world, so as to reach Nivena,
Aljanna or the Kingdom of Heaven.

To know oneself is to seek knowledge of ‘What am


I?’ What I am physically and spiritually. This is very
important and it must be comprehend well if we
must live a stress-free life in this world and
beyond.

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The need for a higher truth does not require a


dogma, belief, religion or cult as people think or
made to believe.

The years 1999-2012 are notable years, because is


the last 13 baktuns when the Sun’s larger cycle is
complete. Keep up with your own copy of this book
of knowledge.

This book has been written in such away that the


more you repeat reading the better your
understanding of the hidden meanings of the truth.
You will attain to a full awakening as you touch the
last chapter. Your attention may be called back to a
section you have read, but not really digested well
enough to comprehend the so-called present
chapter.

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Source Codes for Nothingness of Self-Estéém


(ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS)

The following entities are my Source Codes – Gilfro-Raool,


who were appropriately quoted directly/indirectly to maintain
correct and firsthand information, during the period of
compiling this book of knowledge – Nothingness of Self-
Estéém:

Peter Shephered, Will Edwards, Wallace Huey, Tim Ong, Owen


Waters, Davide De Angelis, Lisa Diane, Colleen-Joy Page, Angel
Shadow, Charlie Badenhop, Larry A Johson, Susan Weed,
David Deford, Carl Munson, Jasper Ehiers, Dharmbir Rai
Sharon, Sheree Rainbolt-Kren, Andrew and Bonnie Schneider,
Claudette Rowley, Doris Jeeanette, Abigal Natenshon,
Emmanuel Segui, Mick Quinn, The Glorious Qur‘an, Stephanie
Manston, Esther Andrew, Christa Muths, Kahlil Gibran,
Pradeep Gusain, Simma Lieberman, Gabriella Kortsch,
Claudette Rowley, Kingsley Bye, Niccholas Dixon, Brian C
Netherton, Paul David, Michael Sherner, Ching Hai, Jenny
Mailos, Roger Elliott, Anton Cheraner, Sam Sidiki, Jeff
Staniforth, Rab McBride, Ivan Fraser, Jill Ammon-Wexier,
Brent Belchamber, Jeri Nobel, Drunvalo,
http://www.avillon.org/spirit.htm. Rahindramah Tugore,
William Blake, Wolgang Goethe, The Holy Bible, Albert
Schweitzer, Phylameana Lila Desy, Master Subramuniya, Vicky
Thompson, Ashraf Salmawy, Nicholas Roerich, Ken Ward, Ayat
Hurst, Charlie Badenhop, Karim Hajee, http://www.kundalini-
Teacher.com/meditations/minor.html. Anodea Judith, Sabrina
Mesko, Gertrud Hirschi, Lois Jean Lany, Book of the Dead,
Marcus Aelius Aurelius Antoninus, Lorenz Attractor, Tom J

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Chalko, Psychic Elzona, Brenda Hoffman, Mary Ann Bailey.


Paul Hughes-Barkow, G Kumar. Master Choa, Geshe Kelsang
Gyatso, The Prophet (SAW), The Christ, Buddah, Tuesday L
Rampa, Peter Knowl, Frank Homan,….. All Amashida-kind.
Peace and blessings to all.

Through them, Eledumare – The Most-High – bestowed on me


distinct inspirations at this important period, of the complete
larger cycle of the Sun, which falls within the last 13 Baktuns.

I unify with all in order to love;


Attracting loyalty and freedom;
I seal the process of Heart;
With magnetic tone of purpose;
I am guided by my own endowed powers doubled.

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Human, Know Thyself


1.1 Subconscious Mind
As you think about your dreams and what is important to you
about moving towards your ideal lifestyle, you might realize
that you are either moving toward or away from your dreams
at all times and as often as possible.
If you must procrastinate, you are putting your dreams off
maybe for a few years or maybe forever. And when you delay
your dreams, you miss out on life.
The ideal thing is to live your dreams now before it is too
late. It is important to take some action each and every day,
no matter how big or small in pursuit of our dreams. In
reading “Nothingness of Self-Esteem” you:

 Stop Being Ruled By Your Past. Erase Past History


 Identify Your Own Path to Success
 Eliminate The Fears That Drain Your Power
 Effortlessly Embrace Your Strengths, Anytime You Need
 Are Breaking Out of Your Rut! Finding The Strengths To Do
Something Different
 Immediately Replace Your Limiting Beliefs With Empowering
Beliefs
 Learn Quickly How To Enhance Your Intimate Relationships
 Understand And Practice How Successful People Handle
Mistakes Differently Than Others
 Insure Your Children Grow Up With A Healthy Sense Of
Power
 Are Learning To Trust And Respect Your Decisions

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 Approach Others With A Benevolent Spirit


 Feel That You Can Make A Difference
 Are Having High Expectations For Success.

You Have Incredible Powers That Can Change Your Life. So


Use It!
One of the traits of people who are confident in their use of
power and who really go for it is that they immediately take
action. If you want to make your dreams reality, like so many
before you have done, you must focus your attention on what
you really desire inside your heart.
Get a picture of what you want. Make it vivid and focused
and as real as possible, because it ought to know how to make
your dream come alive. When your objectives are unfold then
you will be complete and enjoy a free living life by:

 Eliminating Stress From Your Life And Replace It With


Confidence.
 Taking Control Of Your Life And Watch Your Dreams
Come True.
 Creating Fulfilling Relationships Regardless Of Your Past.
 Being More Confident In Social Situations As You Meet
New Friends.
 Eliminating Debt and Creating Financial Stability.
 Boosting Your Creativity To A Higher Paying Job.
 Increasing Self Esteem And Self Confidence
 Stopping Worrying And Start Enjoying Your New Life.
 Enjoying Inner Peace Succeeding In Business.
 Enjoying Better Health Than Ever Before And Allowing
Your Body To Naturally Heal Itself.
 Meeting The Perfect Partner With A Loving
Relationship.

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 Eliminating Negative Feelings Towards Family And


Friends And Replacing Them With True Love.
 Taking Charge Of Your Life And Watch Obstacles
Melting Away In Your Path.
 Getting A Better Job Under Conditions That You Want
OR Become Your Own Boss.
 Giving Yourself A Pay Raise As Wish.
 Securing A Promotion Regardless Of Seniority.

But in order to get the most out of life you must first
understand how your incredible creating powers work. You
will develop your incredible powers personally that will yield
astounding results.
And if you're saying, perhaps that has worked for others but
it can't work for me, no way. Harness the power of your mind
and you will fulfill your purpose of this life
You have abilities and powers that you're not even aware of.
You were born with these powers, but you have never learned
how to master them correctly. Instead you go through life like
an unguided missile trying different things and hoping for the
best - but never really fulfilling your dreams
Doctors and scientists now firmly believe that 75% of all
sickness and disease starts in the mind. Researchers have also
proven that stress, which starts in the mind, is the number one
cause of all fatigue and illness.
Scientists have also proven that we only use 10% of our mind.
The rest is never used properly. That means 10% of our mind is
causing 75% of all sickness -- and we don't even know how to
use that 10% properly. Imagine what would happen if we used
our mind to it's fullest? We would stop getting sick and live
healthier, more productive lives.
Researchers have also proven that people who have a
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live better lives. Why? It is because; they know how to use the
power of their mind. Unfortunately most people never get
their mind working for them. Instead, they get their mind to
work against themselves, whereby creating things they don't
want. If this is happening to you, relax and enjoy your reading
of “Nothingness of Self-Esteem”.
Reading “Nothingness of Self-Esteem” will make you to
develop your Intuition by tapping into the power of your
subconscious mind. Rather, you'll learn a number of proven
techniques that will generate astounding results.
The fact is that throughout your life, you have been taught
all kinds of things. You were taught how to walk, how to read,
how to write and so on. But no one ever taught you how to
use the Power of Your Mind and Subconscious Mind.
Unfortunately most people think that in order to change their
life or grow as a human being all they need to do is set their
goals, plan things ahead, manage their time better, say their
prayers, one or two affirmations, become more disciplined,
work with a daily planner and a goal minder. Perhaps by
visiting and praying fervently to a Deity, for money, house,
cars and all sorts of the so called goodies of life, they think
that is all that it takes. Have you ever asked the question
within you as: Why must it be that you do not have the same
good results like your immediate brother, sister or colleague
as you pray and dance the same way that he/she does? Have
you ever asked that question once? If you haven’t, then be
sincere with yourself and ask. The answer is not far-fetched:
Human, Know Thyself. And know from now that the priests,
the mualims, gurus, pastors, who want you to follow such
routines, are not interested in helping you. No. Besides, on
whom do you expect them to feed fat? On stone or what?
They only want you to continue following them so that you
become dependent on them.

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The “Nothingness of Self-Esteem’ teaches you the way of


life and how to develop yourself and it follows the old adage
that says: "Give a man a fish and you can feed him for a day.
Teach him to fish and you feed him for life!"
You'll discover the most powerful techniques to quieten
your mind and develop your instincts or intuition, while
eliminating stress and enjoying greater fulfillment in every
aspect of your life. You will accomplish goals you never
dreamed possible.

1.2. Empowering Our Own Lives


The brain is the computer for the body, so to say. The senses
allow us to communicate with the outside world. There are
continual external expressions and we react to them like
puppets.
See the pattern. We are a body, yes it is true, the brain is the
central computer in charge of it all, including our emotional
responses and thoughts. We have five senses taking in
information all the time and we react through chemical
exchanges happening in our body and have thoughts and
feelings, opinions and woes, all from this same system that we
call man.
Nine (9) times out of ten (10) is all we become. There is
nothing wrong with that. Nature's cycles take care of it all
within the Unity. We are born to live in a variety of different
ways - all within certain parameters - until the day we exit this
realm of existence. That may be sooner or later.
However, there are some of us who have not had such an
easy time of life and/or been vulnerable to other influences
that have caused us to stop in our tracks. They have not been
able to settle for those things that make people accept their
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philosophical ideas and belief systems. Some of us have


stopped and asked: Eh, what is going on here? How come
things are the way they are? What or who am I really? What is
this place that we live in? I am here accidentally or is there
some kind of purpose? Many people have looked further and
spent time with others who have gained some knowledge
through spending their whole lives, looking for answers to
these questions. For most of us, we say: What's the point in
that, we can never really know?
But for others of us, we have asked and asked questions and
those questions have become the most important focus of our
lives. We have not wanted to stay 'scraping the bottom,'
behaving and believing we are important and valuable
somehow, whilst knowing that we do not really know a single
thing. These people become more than just puppets here,
more than just physical beings dependent on their
environment, and have experienced that there are realities
beyond the physical realm. That we are not just ordinary
bodies of very complicated machines.
Through questing and constantly challenging reality - we
find new horizons.
We take too much blame and we all suffer the same way, it's
just that some of us can manage better than others. The more
sincere we are, the harder it can be among the pool of
dishonest individuals - because we can only just acting a part.
It is impossible to go out of the Unity.
Don't take others responses to you as an accurate gauge of
who you are and what you are about - through your own self-
questing you will find a different and reliable measure. The
people around you will carry on in their relatively unconscious
and irresponsible manners if you have decided to opt out - it
doesn't mean you have to be the same if you stay within. All
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that way. Those lost figures simply don't know any way to be,
other than what they are being. Don't take it personally.
There are millions and billions of people here and there -
mostly scared and out for themselves - but all in their heart of
hearts, hoping for better days ahead, for a kinder world where
they can relax and be as they really are - to be able to stop
acting and still be accepted. The only way this can happen is if
there are a few of us that can take the strain and can take
these people with a pinch of salt and make a fuss out of their
good points. This way, we can bring enlightenment and
harmony to this world.
Is enlightenment a real possibility? This is being asked
because not everyone is going to change and be themselves,
as they are so caught up in surviving their lives.
Each one of us has a sort of ripple-effect. People meet for
the first time and there are subliminal (unconscious) messages
being given and received. You don't just have effect on the
people you notice - your influence is far wider. If there were
500 people and 5 maniacs within them, even if all the people
do try, there would still be chaos. Now take the same scenario
and imagine 5 conscious people. Can you imagine the impact?
This is what is going on.
There are people waking up and realising that as long as we
all behave so helplessly, waiting for them to be proof before
we make these greater efforts, then nothing will change. For
me, I have a way I want to be regardless of whether I am one in a
hundred, a thousand, or the only one. Human, know thyself!
When you go out to experiment with influencing others
positively do it consciously.
By the way, thinking about influencing others is not the
same as doing it.
We must begin by reclaiming the power in our own lives.
Once we are free of fears, illusions and subsequent

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constraints, we interact with our environment in a positive and


encouraging manner and we start to recreate our lives. Begin
with yourself first and all else will follow.

1.3 Personal Transformation


Take a look at your life and take inventory of the places you
find yourself asking: Why do I always end up with this or that
who always do this or that to me? Could it be my romantic
partners, jobs, bosses, friends, cars, appliances, or even
landlords? Just where is it that you find yourself in the same
situation over and over again, through what seems to be no
fault of your own?
Once you have a completed list written down in a paper,
pick one repetitive event to start with and allow for the
possibility that you have helped to make this event reoccur by
a belief you subconsciously hold. This may seem difficult at
first, but it will be part of the wallpaper of life, invisible to one
is also necessary for you to let go of the payoffs your belief in
your own self-righteousness afforded you - this was probably
the most difficult part of the whole transformation process
and it will also be the most worthwhile. There may be other
things you need to let go of, too - for instance your
stubbornness must let go.
On a separate sheet of paper, you may write down the
thoughts and beliefs you could be holding that might
consistently produce an outcome such as the one you are
repetitively experiencing. Keep this piece of paper in a safe
place so you can come back to it often and add new ideas.
Once you have a belief that feels like it could be the most
appropriate or the one that feels right, write a definition that
fits with the dualistic viewpoint, where an opposite outside of
you must occur in order for the event to happen.

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Once you have that definition in place, write another


definition for your goal, belief, or a word say: "righteousness",
that doesn't depend on an opposite or anything outside of
you to experience its outcome. For example, that your limiting
dualistic definition of "righteousness " was for you to be right,
someone else has to be wrong and your more abundant
definition of the so-called "righteousness " is that everyone
embodies Cosmic righteousness, so you too can enjoy your
righteousness without a need to have or make anyone else
wrong. So you may choose to enjoy your righteousness
independent of what others are thinking or doing.
The next step is to take your new and more abundant
definition and apply it to past experiences. Write down how
each event plays out now that the action is being directed by
the new, more abundant definition. As you do that, notice
how good it feels to be free of the fearful and limiting
emotions of being the helpless victim and how powerful it
feels to be co-creating with loving partners. Then write down
all the ways this new definition is going to positively change
your present and your future. As part of this list, make sure
you note that your transformation is going to benefit you in
ways you cannot even imagine. (This has been one of the
greatest benefits of a unique transformation – for instance
people, circumstances, and things have entered my life in
ways that I could not have ever imagined but also never been
able to engineer.)
This new viewpoint will give you a glimpse of how powerful
you really are and how, when you channel your power away
from negative, self-limiting, and self-defeating directions and
into positive, loving, and empowering directions, your life will
get easier and easier, Be wise and act wisely!
A final note on your transformation. When you change, the
world around you transforms. Your transformation is going to

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positively affect the people in your life. Some of these effects


you will see, while you will never know about others. In fact,
your transformation is going to provide the opportunity for
others to experience their own transformation. Many of these
people you will not even notice, they may just be passersbys in
the street, so you will know nothing of their transformation. It
is important that you trust that your transformation will have
positive effects that you will be unaware of. Accept and enjoy
the peace in your heart that comes with this trust.
Human consciousness has been defined in terms of
nothingness in order to emphasize the rift between the mode
of things and the mode of human existence. To say in a
traditional way that man is an animal endowed with reason
blurs, for Sartre, the main point: that human consciousness is
not just a part of the universal order of being, but that it
constitutes the world and that order itself is the Unity. This
constitution is rendered possible by virtue of the nothingness
of consciousness which in the form of a lack-of-identity
provides the condition for the possibility of self-deception
(bad faith). Without the lack of identity it would not be
possible to attain self-awareness and the world would consist
only of the being-in-itself . But without the synthetic ability of
consciousness that world would be non-existent. Even the
principle of identity (A=A as in 2=/=1), which traditionally
figures as an analytic (logical) principle, represents a work of
consciousness and is therefore in its nature synthetic.

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Development of the Real


Intuition
2.1 The Real Intuition
Most people will tell you that intuitive moments have occurred
in their lives - moments of an insight, flashes of inexplicable
clarity defying conventional understanding. Yes intuition is real
and yes it is fallible and yet, despite its nebulous nature, it has
been known to change lives. So, instead of waiting for your
intuitive insights to arrive randomly and with scarcity why not
develop this skill yourself? Can you imagine what having a
more fully developed and reliable intuition would do for you?
Most of us live in our heads and pay little or no attention to
the feelings that we so aptly called ‘gut feelings’. Our tummy
knows far more than we give it credit for - so start listening to
it and you will never go astray. This is the gateway to our
‘inner world’ or intuition. Intuition, as opposed to logic,
reasoning and rationale, is a gentler source of information that
often defies logic, challenges reason and is strongly connected
to feelings in the body rather than in the mind or head. Paying
attention to our inner world requires that we press the pause
button on the endless mental processing that consumes most
of us. It allows us to focus to emotions, feelings and our body
and with this we have taken the first crucial step to accessing
our intuitive self.
When trying to solve a problem or simply when thinking
about anything - it may be interesting, if not scary, to notice
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on inside - and no, this is not schizophrenia. It is important to


sorting out the difference between your internal voices of fear
from other calmer, clearer source of internal thought. The
tyrants on the internal committee may prevent us from
hearing the softer, wise internal guru, mualim, priest who
actually has something valuable to say.
What most people do not realise is that, fear literally
interferes with true intuition. Many profound eureka or aha
moments can happen in the shower, or while taking a relaxing
walk - why? Because when our body is finally relaxed and calm,
our intuition can kick in. While fear, stress, despair, grief, anger
and their friends on the internal committee are hogging our
internal bandwidth with their load and pushy behaviour, they
literally drown out the gentle, softer inner teacher. So train
your body to relax.
But the truth is that most of us don't want to be quiet, relax
or keep still for any significant length of time, because we
know that all sorts of nasty emotions, old baggage and inner
turmoil lies in wait to pounce the moment we shut our eyes,
(for anything other than sleep). Behind the doors of any likely
emotional purging, inner exploration, is your inner well of
intuition just waiting to be used. Although it is not necessary
to fully peel the onion to access your intuition, it will give you
high-speed access to your guru.
You and I are accountable for our choices, and even not
choosing is a choice. Every choice is an act of power, because
power is the result of responsibility and choice. Once we have
gone through all the aforementioned actions, we will find our
intuition and inner guidance system. Now we must use it to
actively increase our awareness of choices – to seek out new
ways of seeing and new ways of being. Open our horizons and
then use our intuition to choose paths and actions that feel
the most truly aligned with our inner 'fear-free self'. And we

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shouldn't be afraid to dream a bigger dream for yourself.


Dream! Dream!! Dream!!!
Any veteran of the inner world will tell, that sometimes
when you close your eyes and go inside, even after doing
fancy meditation postures and tricks - you still get thoughts of
last nights dinner, to-do lists and other garbage invading your
inner sanctum. So use discernment, because sometimes it is
just macaroni! Be patient with yourself and go back a few
steps and try again.
After you have started paying attention, fired and hired on
the inner committee, cleared up the inter-fear-ance, peeled
the onion, taken back your power and sifted through the
macaroni, amala or eba - you may be surprised to find many
easily accessible nuggets of insight and wisdom waiting to
enrich your life with support and guidance.

2.2 Expanding Your Real Intuition


Don't be surprised to discover that your intuition was there all
along, but that it was buried under morass of fear and was
simply malnourished and unable to germinate to a full grown
reality. Give yourself the gift of time and space dedicated to
getting to know you better - and excavate the magic that lies
within. Real Intuition is everyone's birthright; your inner
compass is waiting for you!
Yes, You Can Expand Your Comfort Zone, Shatter the Beliefs
that are Limiting Your Life, and Instantly Boost Your Self-
Esteem Forever. The Life You Want – This is so and
Guaranteed! If you have ever thought about why some people
are successful in life and others live out their lives in failure. If
you've ever wanted to be one of those people who live their
dreams, the answer is at hand.

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Did you know that there is a single ingredient that separates


people who are successful in life from people who are not?
That component is how you harness your personal power.
People who use their power will take their dreams and make
them come true. They are fearless in their drive and will take
immediate, massive, repeated action and will never give up
until they can live their dreams.
On the other hand, people who lack this ability still have the
same yearnings and desires as everyone else yet they stay
stuck and unfulfilled. They never make their dreams come
true. Their lives are an endless series of what-if questions they
ask themselves. But until now, success has never been so easy.
Many people feel powerless in their lives. They live forever
at the whims of others - nasty bosses, electric bill companies,
water rate board or others trying to hold them back. They
never discover the secret to incredible power that is hidden
within them. For most folks, harnessing this power is just a
dream or fantasy. But, now you can be on the way to
achieving your dreams in just minutes. Keep cool and read on.
I know it sounds incredible, but there's a simple, easy to use
proven formula which unlocks everything your heart desires,
and automatically creates the life you really want.

2.3 Quest for Reality


You should understand just how close you are to your dreams
right now, because in just a moment, I am going to reveal
what I discovered through 21 years of research that allows you
to harness your inner power and immediately attract
everything you desire, and bring its benefits into your life at
the speed of lightning.
The single most important key to living your dreams is
utilizing your personal power. No matter what your dream is,

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you make it reality when you master this skill. You'll be able to
handle every obstacle along the way. And you'll be able to
move in the direction of your dreams – within the first 72
hours.
You may be stunned when you realize just how high you can
climb and how you are being held back. When you are freed
from the prison of your fears, your life is entirely new. Unless
your personal power throttle is set on high, it affects every
aspect of your existence. The way you set your goals, choose
your values, or react to life is shaped by who and what we
think we are.
When you use your power, you have a more confident
feeling inside, you become successful in your lives, and you
become unstoppable and indistructible. When using your
power, you would be able to distinguish between the super
achievers and The an average person.
Your quest for reality will first depend on how much you
know yourself. Your true living body is the secret to show you
the way to activate it.

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Human Physical Body


3.1 Human Physical Body
In physics, a physical body (called simply a body or even an
object) is a collection of masses, taken to be one. For example,
a building can be considered an object but the building also
consists of many particles or elements (foundations, columns,
beams, slabs, roof etc).

Figure 3.1 Human body parts

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Specifically, a physical body is an object which can be


described by the theories of classical mechanics, or quantum
mechanics, and experimented upon with physical instruments.
This includes the determination of a position, and in some
cases the orientation in space, as well as means to change
these, by exerting forces. For instance, the force of gravity will
accelerate a body if it is not supported, thus causing a change
of its position by falling freely. However, it should be noted
that it is not necessary for there to be forces present for an
object position to change - only the rate of change of the
object's position, that is, its velocity, will change under the
influence of forces.

Figure 3.2 Female and male human anatomy


(Source: www.3dscience.com)

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A human's (animal's or vegetable's) physical body is made


up of organs and tissues and is a part of the total living being
which in the human being may also include a psychological or
spiritual component. However, whether or not a human being
includes a spiritual component is entirely up to philosophical
and theological debate. In Figures 3.1 and 3.2, human physical
body and their parts are shown. It is therefore necessary to
known the positions of human body parts as the knowledge is
essential for the spiritual development. Human, know thyself!

3.2 Systems of the Human Body


In a human body system the followings are defined as:

Circulatory system: pumping blood throughout the body


Digestive system: processing food with mouth, stomach and
intestines
Endocrine system: communicating within the body using
hormones
Immune system: defending against disease-causing agents
Integumentary system: skin, hair and nails
Lymphatic system: structures involved in the transfer of lymph
between tissues and the blood stream
Muscular system: moving the body
Nervous system: collecting, transferring and processing
information with brain and nerves
Reproductive system: the sex organs
Respiratory system: the organs used for breathing, the lungs
Skeletal system: structural support and protection through
bones
Urinary system: the kidneys and associated structures
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Certain professions, especially medicine and physiotherapy,


require the study of human anatomy (See Figure 3.2) in depth.
Textbooks usually split the body into the following regional
groups:

 Head and Neck: includes everything above the thoracic


inlet.
 Upper limb: includes the hand, forearm, arm, shoulder,
axilla, pectoral region and scapular region.
 Thorax: contains the region of the chest from the thoracic
inlet to the thoracic diaphragm.
 Abdomen: everything from the thoracic diaphragm to the
pelvic brim or to the pelvic inlet.
 The back: about the spine and its components, the
intervertebral disks and bodies
 Pelvis and Perineum: the pelvis consists of everything from
the pelvic inlet to the pelvic diaphragm. The perineum is
the region between the genital area and the anus.
 Lower limb: the lower limb is usually everything below the
inguinal ligament, including the thigh, the hip joint, the leg,
and the foot.

Human, know thyself! It is not only the medical or


physiotherapy profession that requires in-depth knowledge in
human anatomy, but every spiritually inclined individual. This is
because in any spiritual unfoldment, imagination is important
to activate the results during and after meditation. It is equally
necessary to invoke and bring to focus any part of the body
that need healing or development. The human subtle body is
going to be discussed in the following chapter.

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Human Subtle Body


4.1 Introduction
Everything has an aura; plants, animals, crystals, books,
planets, etc. If it vibrates, it has an energy field. The lower the
vibration, the more fixed (stabled or simpler structure) the
aura around the object is.
Animals have less complex but more intense coloration than
humans. Wild animals have more expansive auras than their
domestic counterparts. Pets often have certain aura colours
that are characteristic of their primary caregivers, e.g., the
dominant colouration. This explains why animals understand
their owner's language when you are able to see the
telepathic energy being received and sent between owner and
animal. If you want to know what your aura looks like, look at
your cat or dog for an indication. If you have no pet, watch
your own behaviour towards others. About the therapeutic
effect of animals on people; animals put green and pink
energy in our energy fields because they are loyal and love
unconditionally and this energy finds its way to influence your
energy.
Plants including flowers, trees, grass, etc. have an energy
field. Although it differs from the aura of humans and animals,
but there are similarities on a basic level. It is normally
iridescent/radiant. The energy of plants, particularly trees can
influence our own energy, in a full consciousness you will
realize that by passing a tree your aura becomes flooded and
charged with green. That is why they say if you are stressed
"hug a tree!". Surely this is true. (In parts of Africa, where
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insure their life as well as their children inside trees. Most trees
live 100 to 200 years, so it is safe as long as the tree in which a
life is insured is not cut off.) The green energy emanating
from the tree when hugged, immediately neutralizes lower
unstable energies thus having a calming effect on the person
and then the person again feels in harmony with himself and
others or his environment.
Cars, when looking at, reflect colours around it. A car can
have a unique aura received often from its owner. It could be
realized that we as human beings are emotionally attached to
our earthly goods, so a part of our energy resonates around
the goods we feel attached to. At the same time a car
symbolically represents our ego vehicle. The next time your
car gets a flat tyre, ask yourself when recently your ego got
punctured?! Think, ask and you must receive.
There is a natural energy which flows through a house.
Certain areas, spaces and corners in the house tend to hold on
to the negative energy. With auric sight these are perceived as
light and dark spots. The dark spots tend to stay at in 1 place
accumulating more of the same energy, but the light energy
tends to flow. Lower vibrations can be altered by placing
crystals in these spaces or corners.
To have a taste of what cosmic energy looks like, one needs
to take a look at the ocean. Because of the high amount of
oxygen at the sea, it automatically raises your energy levels.
And it looks like different textures dancing on top of the
waters.
If you try to look at the aura of a full moon - you will see that
there is much more going around the moon than you have
ever noticed before! You may wish to slide out at a quiet night
and watch!
Everybody is born with the ability of auric sight, which allows
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the lower mental layers. For the rest you need clairvoyant or
spiritual sight which you either received as a gift or obtained
through a lot of spiritual work on yourself to raise your
vibrations to such a level that you can perceive higher
dimensions.
Very young children (up to 5 years of age) see auras
naturally. Infants frequently look above a person in front of
them. When they don't like the color of the aura above the
head, or if this color is much different from their parent's aura,
they cry, no matter how much smiling the person does. While
naturally, some people’s aura, just like my wife’s, attracts most
children
Children have much cleaner and stronger auras than most of
adults, who are usually completely enslaved by the
materialistic world and suppress their Nature by following
superficial examples. When children ‘see’ and try to tell adults
of what they ‘see’ or feel, it is usual for parents or some adults
to feel their children are going nuts. In this area of the world
(Yorubas, Igbo in Nigeria) they are referred to as emere, abiku,
ogbanje or all sorts of names. The names signify that such
children can communicate with their other ‘heavenly mates’ or
Source Codes so to say. Hence they are obliged to go back to
them whenever the promised life-span elapsed. This is the
belief and a typical scenario. The truth is that children should
learn to see and read auras in our primary schools, so they
never lose this natural ability, because if taught and developed
well it would raise the world to a greater height than now.
Angels or Malaeka do not have wings in the real sense of it.
Within the energy field of a person it looks like bright energy.
To some clairvoyants, it looks like silver/gold stripes shooting
into a blockage. Archangels are a symbol of large hands
forming an arch. Normal angels may be revealed to others in a
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these symbolic images so that one knows what energy beings


he is working with. Whenever an angel or malaeka or iwin
being enters your aura, the vibration of your field is
immediately raised and expanded and to the clairvoyant eye it
looks brighter and more radiant. They can also make their
presence known by smell or touch. Angelic energy feels warm,
loving, kind and peaceful - so to say. Most people find it
overwhelming as this love and warmth cannot be compared to
any we find on earth. To some, Angels leaves a place smelling
like lavender, violets and roses.
The true living body comprises of physical and subtle body.

4.2 Aura
An aura is an oval shaped etheric emanation surrounding
humans within a distance of 600 to 1300mm all around the
body.

Chakras
Zone

Figure 4.1 Human body aura

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It is a multi dimensional energy field that contains all that was


and is.
It extends to become part of the cosmic universe. An aura is
composed of all the colors of the spectrum. Combinations
differ with individuals and are constantly shifting. The colors
are representative of mental and emotional states.
The human aura is a multi-dimensional energy field, which
consists of closely knit electromagnetic particles of varying
densities suspended around the body in several layers known
as auric bodies. The aura manifests the sum and sustains our
existence as an endless life force in the universe. It is an
extension of our higher self and a manifestation of the cosmic
nature of our being. It is the antennae of consciousness, a
treasure and throve of knowledge. Imagine an advanced
energy and information system that contains a true chronicle
of your past- present-and future. By referring to it you can
expand your awareness and discover exciting new dimensions
to your existence. It is also a system that can give you new
insight, growth and power into your life.
Einstein said: ‘Color is light, light is energy and energy is the
whole universe’. Think of the aura as a colorful light system
around any object which functions, not only in a 3rd dimension
but in a 4th or even 5th dimension which is timeless and
therefore it is only energy that interacts with everything as
well as the universe. It is alive and an ever changing energy
system and non-static. It is forever communicating,
interacting, responding and confirming with every impulse, in
and around it. It is an energy system, which contains all of
which you are and were as a body, mind and soul being. It is
forever present and forever evolving as you grow and expand
and experience life in all its forms. It can never dissolve since
energy cannot be destroyed. It can only be altered. Everything
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part of an atom, every electron, every elementary particle,


even our thoughts and consciousness are just vibrations.
Hence, we may define the aura as an electro-photonic
vibration response of an object to some external excitation
(such as an ambient light for example). This definition is
sufficient for the purpose of reading auras, providing that we
can train ourselves to see the aura vibration.
The most important property of the aura seems to be the
fact that it contains information about the object.
Aura around living (conscious) objects (people, plants and so
on) changes with time, sometimes very quickly. Aura around
non-living object (stones, crystals, water etc) is essentially
fixed. Above facts have been observed by scientists in Russia,
who have been using Kalian Effect to study auras for the last
52 years.
The aura around humans is partly composed from EM
(electromagnetic) radiation, spanning from microwave,
infrared (IR) to UV light. The low frequency microwave and
infrared part of the spectrum (body heat) seems to be related
to the low levels of the functioning of our body
(deoxyribonucleic acid or DNA, structure, metabolism,
circulation etc.) whereas high frequency (ultra-violet or UV
part) is more related to our conscious activity such as thinking,
creativity, intentions, sense of humor and emotions. Russian
scientists in Aura research are suggesting that our DNA can be
altered, by influencing its microwave aura. The high frequency
(UV) part is very important and most interesting but largely
unexplored. And this part can be seen with naked eyes.

4.3 The True Colours of Auras


It is very difficult to describe the energy and colours of the 4th
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photography a lot of people have the impression that that is


what an aura is all about and that is what the colours look like.
This could not be any further from the truth. This is merely 1
dimension attained from biofeedback and the colours are
reproduced to represent what the camera accesses. This
camera only picks up the type of energy you currently
manifest at body level.
Aura can be divided in to 4 bodies; the physical, emotional,
mental and spiritual bodies. All these bodies have a higher
dimension to them that function in the 4th and 5th dimension
except the spiritual body. Spirit is 5 dimensional and there are
even higher vibrations than that. All of these bodies differ
from each other.
The colour aspect of the aura functions within the emotional
body. We truly have colourful emotions and that is why we
have expressions in language using colour to describe
emotions, e.g.:

 red with anger. If one is mad the emotional aura is flooded


with red.
 green with envy. A slummy shade of green is in the aura.
 having the blues. Too much blue in the emotional layer is
telling you that this person is currently feeling melancholic.

Your soul's colours look completely different than the


emotional colours. It looks like nothing on the earth plane. The
closest description is that this aura has the same haziness a
misty day about it, but then with a tint of green, blue, red, like
the colours of the rainbow, sometimes more than 1 colour or
even 4 colours together with the sun shining from behind to
give it the radiance of the soul.
The general hue, which people talk about, is still not a true
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the sum total of the flow of energy through all your chakras at
whichever level it is functioning currently, projected outwards.
This correlates closely with the energy of the rising sun and 1st
house in astrology. People with the same general hue
normally get along with those of complementary colours like
reds and greens, oranges and blues, yellows and purples.
These keep one another on their toes. For instance, reds will
push greens to be more active while greens will calm down
the energy of the reds. So what you truly are on earth is a sum
total of all these bodies. So what does my aura look like? It
depends on which auric body you are looking at.

4.4 Auric Sight


Auric sight is a function of the eye that has been neglected or
shut down by conditioning, fear and also because we use our
left brain function more than the intuitive right brain as we
grow up. There are two main types of light receptors in the
human eye, rods and cones. We each have approximately 18
million rods and 3 million cones in our eyes. Cones are
concentrated in the middle of our eyes. Cones are receptive to
light in our normal visible spectrum. They are used to see
colours and objects in our everyday environment, focused
vision. Rods are receptive to shorter wavelengths of lights
(those in the ultraviolet spectrum). They are used for night
vision and to detect movement.
The so called Rods are concentrated in the outer portion of
our eyes. So we use our peripheral vision to see the aura. This
part of our eyes needs a lot of exercise if you have never used
it before. Other ways of perceiving the aura is through the 3rd
eye. In order to do that you need to let go of limiting beliefs,
conditioning and karmic issues stored within the 3rd eye. You
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teaching yourself to access the alpha brain waves. Alpha level


functions within the super conscious and when you can
maintain that level you are automatically open to perceive the
energy of the aura. Seeing auras is a different way of looking.
The aura is gazed upon not look at. To enter that state of mind
you need to relax and experience it as game of fun. The
moment you tense up or stress, you go back to a lower
vibration and then it is very difficult to access the energy.
Remember you use your eyes and your intuitive mind to
perceive! The secret to seeing auras is patience, practicing an
hour a day. Human, know thyself!

4.5 Multi-Sensory Perception


This is using all of your senses to experience the energy.
Seeing is believing, but feeling is the truth. In order to
understand the totality of the energy and what the energy of
the aura wants to communicate, it is important to develop
other senses like hearing, smelling and touch. The aura is
accessible not only through sight. Most of us are
clairsentience beings, i.e. by feeling the energy another person
is giving off or radiating. You have heard people refer to a
friend: I can feel he is in a bad mood. Here too, remembering
there are always more than one (1) level to feeling. There is
the immediate emotion a person experiences. Then there is
the deeper feeling of what the emotion is doing to the
person's other energies, for instance you can experience the
emotion of raging anger and that may make feel vulnerable
when you see one in a person right in front of you. You get
frustrated or confused.
Our hands are a kinesthetic sensor to feel energy. Normally
we receive and read the energy with our left hand and give
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We can also feel the energy of a place and animals. There is a


whole spectrum of sound outside our normal range of hearing
abilities within the spiritual dimensions that is accessible
through our inner hearing system. And this is the least
developed skill in most people. Because of noise or what we
did not want to hear we have blocked our hearing abilities.
People like mediums can communicate with other dimensional
beings, they see as silver/gold in the aura). There is no sense in
only seeing if you cannot hear or see what the energy wants
to tell you.

4.6 Chakras
Chakras, as represented in Figure 4.2, are energy points in our
aura. Chakras are energy vortexes that look like wheels
spinning, through which vital energy must pass in order to
nourish and maintain physical, emotional, mental and spiritual
well being. It is a profound system that integrates body, mind
and soul. Chakras focus the confluence of energy streaming
down on us from the cosmos and onto the earth. Chakras
enable us to gather process and release energy. What is so
unique about this system is the gradation and regiment of
energy available as we evolve through the chakras to higher
levels of awareness, responsibilities and consciousness. Each
chakra has 3 layers of energy. Note this!

Crown (7th) or MEDULAR


3rd Eye (6th), ajna or CAVICAL
Throat (5th) or DORSAL
Heart (4th), amahata
Solar Plexus (3rd)
Sacral (2nd)
Root (1st)

Figure 4.2. Positions of chakras


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The top layer relates to transpersonal energy. This is the


energy which can become congested in the comings and
goings of everyday life, especially when we forget our spiritual
nature and ignore our true purpose in life. The blockages in
this field of energy come about through unexpressed
emotions. These blockages reflect our capacity to experience,
express and release our feelings.
The middle layer relates to deeply personal emotional issues.
These may require a deeper therapeutic approach to work
through the disturbances, which focus around our birthing,
infancy and early childhood. Chakras can easily be blocked if
they are not well activated and used rightly, i.e. if activated
and abused by negative thoughts. Yes Chakras get ‘rusted’ or
‘corroded’ just like an abandoned steel. Not only can one must
use the steel but must be oiled properly and adequately too.
Water-air combination corrodes steel, so also will negative
thought do to your Chakras. So, be cautious! When the chakra
is blocked at this level the mind needs to be engaged and
committed to reprogramming negative thoughts about the
past. Unresolved issues will stand in the way of our
development and growth which work through our mental
processes as well as energetic processes.
The deep inner layer is related to the soul path. To disturb
the patterns, which are locked into the energetic, code would
be a violation of the person's life process. No one can know
the deep unfolding of the soul's destiny. However, these deep
layers of energy are more likely to open and blossom when
the top layers are free from congestion.
The chakras spin at such a high vibration that it is not
possible to see it with auric sight alone but with an opened 3rd
eye. It is my wish that everyone will have at least once the
opportunity to experience this. When you do you will
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spinning petals. the chakras can be perceived in their symbolic


representation, which is a red square for the root chakra, a
crescent moon for the sacral chakra, a circle for the solar
plexus, a heart shape for the heart chakra, upside down
triangle for the throat chakra, a star for the 3rd eye and a skull
cap for the crown chakra.

Balancing and Charging the Chakras


While the word "chakra" has Hindu (Sanskrit) roots, the
energy involved is not partial to any particular religion or
belief. It is a universal energy, and all people inhabiting
physical bodies on this earth have them. These energy
vortexes are the channels through which spiritual energy
flows through to manifest in the physical plane. (Matter is
merely slowed down or crystallized energy, hence, our bodies
are energy!) The chakras and other smaller energy vortexes
(such as acupuncture points) are openings and channels for
universal energy to flow into and out of the aura. Through
chakra meditation and learning and experience with the
energetic nature of the universe, we can awaken our
conscious minds to our true spiritual natures.
The following is a general summary of understanding the
physical locations and elements associated with each chakra.
Over the years some discrepancies have been noticed
between how different people "define" each chakra,
(particularly the second and third chakras), but the differences
have only been minor. Certainly the colors and locations of the
chakras are generally consistent. The base chakra extends
down and the crown chakra extends up, while the chakras in
between have vortexes both to the front of the body and to
the back.

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 The first chakra is located at the base of the spine and is


associated with red. It is the chakra that governs our
physical existence, our bodies and our health.
 The second chakra is located in the area of the womb or
spleen, and is associated with the color orange. This chakra
governs creativity and emotion.
 The third chakra is located at the solar plexus and is
associated with the color gold (yellow). It is associated with
the will or desire.
 The fourth chakra (the middle chakra in the chain of seven)
is the heart chakra and is associated with the color green,
and also the color rose, which is the "color of love." This
chakra is connected with emotion and human love.
 The fifth chakra is located at the throat and is a bright blue.
It governs communication and personal magnetism. It is the
chakra that most influences intercommunication and our
"personas." It is also the link between emotion and thought.
 The sixth chakra is located at the third eye (mid-forehead)
and is indigo (deep purple/blue). This chakra is associated
with thought (though some say the third chakra governs
thought) and with vision, particularly psychic vision. It is also
the chakra of spiritual love and connection.
 The seventh chakra is at the crown of the head, and is violet
fading to white further away from the body. This chakra is
our connection to our "higher selves" and to the "divine." It
is associated with wisdom and integration of our eternal
selves (half education, religion fanatism) with our current
physical selves. It is like our umbilical cord to The Absolute.

When all the chakras are "whirling", open, bright and clean,
then our chakra system is balanced. When a chakra becomes
blocked, damaged, or muddied with residual energy, then our
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occurs habitually as the result of negative or incomplete belief


systems. The effects of our habits, feelings, beliefs, thoughts,
fears and desires can be found in our chakras.
For example, if you eat poorly (a lot of processed food, for
instance) and don't exercise, chances are your root (red)
chakra is going to become sluggish, darkened and dull. If you
"close off" your emotions because they're painful or
overwhelming, your heart chakra is likely to become tight and
closed and block emotional energy. If you are extremely
centered in your intellect, you may have a bulging and bright
brow chakra, but a disproportionately small heart chakra or
root chakra. Or perhaps you're cerebrally focused on finding
answers to deep questions about "reality" (as I was for many
years). In this country (Nigeria) and other Nations of the world
we tend to value the upper chakras over the lower chakras.
This probably has its roots in our ancestors' religious aversion
to the "flesh" and their focus on the rewards of "heaven."
The goal is a strong, clear, balanced energy system. The
more open, clear and balanced the chakras, the more
energy can flow through your system. This energy is
essential for vitality, health, and continued growth on all
levels.
The following exercise, looks unending for a beginner but, is
very effective, safe and powerful. Anybody at any required
time one feels empty, it can be used to ground oneself.
Use the power of imagination to locate each necessary
parts of your body.
Your body is the only authentic temple you have and not
somebody else or any place. You are endowed with it, use it wisely.
First know yourself.

Lie, stand or sit in a relaxed and comfortable position, as


you would for any meditation.

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(Remember this fact that your body is the only authentic temple
you possess, so use it wisely.) Your spine remains straight and your
head aligned with your body. It is preferable to learn about energy
and the methods of balancing, cleansing and charging the chakras
and allow one's own inner voice to lead the meditation. The
following is just one way of performing this balancing.

The body should already be relaxed and the mind


tranquil when beginning this meditation. Eyes are
closed. Now that you are relaxed and feeling very much at peace,
take a moment to ground yourself here in this moment, in this
body, in this place, in this time...

Take some deep breaths...in (six or seven counts as


wished but stick to one) and out (six or seven counts,
but stick to one). in...and out...

Follow the breath as it flows toward your nostrils, as it


enters your nose, as it fills your lungs and then as it is
expelled. Just relax into this quiet moment. Breathe in...
follow your breath... and out.

In... and out.

Feel where your body meets the (chair/bed/floor).


Become aware of your body from head to toe, of your
weight, of the heaviness of your limbs.
Somebody told me he likes to recite: “Allah-Akbar-Laahu-Akbar”
for 10 minutes to relax. Another said: A-U-M, while another recites
the mantra: “There is no life, truth or intelligent nor subject of
matter, all is infinite mind and infinite manifestations, for my... is
all-in-all, my…and my…is the image of my...and …therefore I am
not material but… ” You may wish to fill in the gap by your usual
name of your belief: God/Allah/PanBuh/AuraMashida, Spirit/ Inner
Force/, God/Allah/PanBuh/AuraMasishida, All the same.

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Now focus on the area at the base of the spine, the area
between your legs.
This is the root chakra. Its energy is red, and it governs your
physical body, your physical health and vitality.
In your mind, study the appearance of this chakra; note
its color and vitality. Mentally envision the chakra and
note any symbolic symptoms of disease.

If you feel your chakra is dusty, dirty, torn, or otherwise


less than a perfectly brilliant red whirling vortex,
imagine your hands (or those of a guide) working on the
chakra. If it is dirty, clean away the dirt and throw it into
an imaginary pail with a lid. Allow those hands to repair
any imperfections, and when the chakra is clean,
mentally take the pail and hurl it into the sun. Watch it
as it travels through space and then bursts into a zillion
bits of energy upon solar contact. Allow the sun to
recycle this energy back into the universe.

Now turn your attention back to the root chakra. It is


clean and red. You are surrounded by infinite root
energy. Imagine the room glowing red with this energy,
feel its strength and power. See red swirls of energy
flowing to your root chakra. You can feel this as a
tingling as the energy fills your root chakra. As the
energy swirls in, your chakra grows large and deep red
and strong. Allow the energy to fill your chakra until it is
so vital that it extends several feet out from your body.
In your mind you can see your root chakra, a brilliant red
swirling vortex of physical energy.

Now turn your focus up to your abdomen, to the area of


the "womb" or spleen/lower navel (if man).

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This is the orange chakra, that which controls clear thinking and
creativity.
Take a moment to observe the chakra. Note its color, its
vitality. Is it clean and strong? Or is there work to be
done here? Allow those invisible hands to cleanse the
chakra, to repair or heal it. Discard any imperfections in
the pail, and send the pail to the sun to recycle the
energy.

Focus on the orange chakra again. It is now clean and


whole, and a bright orange. Call out to the universe for
orange creative energy and feel the space around you
begin to glow orange. With a tingle you feel the energy
begin to swirl into your chakra, charging it with vitality,
with creativity, with clear-thought. Watch as your
orange chakra grows and whirls, until it extends out
from your body for several feet, just as the red root
chakra is still whirling and strong.

Turn from the red chakra, up through the orange


chakra, to the solar plexus.
This is the heart of the yellow chakra, that which governs will and
ambition.
Take a few moments to examine this chakra. Note its
color and appearance. Have you been lazy of late, or
perhaps too driven? Examine your will through this
chakra. Allow the invisible hands to cleanse the chakra
and heal it, discarding any imperfections or impurities in
the pail. Send the “pail” to the sun for recycling.

Now return your attention to the yellow chakra, that of


will. It is now clean and a bright yellow. 'Universe, send
me yellow energy, will energy, energy to achieve my
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the yellow energy surrounding your body, and with a


tingle feel the energy swirl into your solar plexus. In your
mind you can see your red/root chakra glowing,
whirling, your orange/womb chakra pulsing brilliantly,
and your yellow/solar plexus chakra glowing strongly,
extending several feet out from your body.

Turn your attention to the middle of your chest, to the


heart chakra, the green chakra. You may feel an instant
wave of emotion.
This chakra governs your feelings, your emotional connections to
others and to the universe, to life itself. Examine this chakra.
Note its color, vitality, any impurities. Gently allow those
invisible hands to cleanse and purify the chakra. Reflect
a moment on how you've been feeling emotionally
lately. Are there bindings holding in pain? Or is the
chakra tight and hard with anger? Release any tensions,
imperfections or impurities to the pail. Send them to the
sun for recycling. They are still yours if you choose to
hold them, but for now, release any pain or anger.

Now focus back on the heart chakra. It is clean and a


beautiful green color. It whirls strongly and evenly. Say:
“Universe/God/Allah/Most-High..) send me green energy
for my heart! Open my heart to the world, to all beings,
with compassion for our shared experiences and
journey. Fill my heart with love energy, that I may in turn
give love to others.”
Must you use any familiar phrase for yourself, so be it.
Feel the green energy whirling into your heart. Watch
the chakra grow and glow and spin with this new
energy.

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From the red chakra through the orange chakra through


the yellow chakra through the green chakra, your
chakras are cleansed and charged and huge with energy.
Focus on the throat, center of the blue chakra which
governs communication and personal magnetism.
Examine the chakra, noting the color and any
imperfections.
Perhaps you haven't been honoring your own beliefs and speaking
out when you should. Or perhaps you've been talking over others,
or not listening well. Perhaps you've been feeling shy and afraid to
extend your energy in communication.
Allow the hands to heal and cleanse the chakra and
when finished, send the impurities to the sun for
recycling.

Now the chakra is clean and strong and bright blue. Feel
the air fill with blue universal energy. Feel the throat
open as this energy swirls into the throat chakra. This
energy charges your aura with magnetism, drawing
others to you. Feel your throat open with this swirling,
strong blue energy.

Focus on the middle of your forehead, the third eye. This


chakra is indigo and governs psychic vision and intuition.
Examine the chakra for imperfections. Perhaps it is
locked up due to fear. Perhaps it no longer spins out of
neglect/stagnation. Allow the hands to cleanse the
chakra, to heal any imperfections and recycle them in
the sun. Now look at the chakra. It is a beautiful deep
indigo, clean and whirling.

There is psychic energy available to you beyond


measure. Feel it charge the air, swirl in and around and
fill your third eye chakra with deep, vital indigo energy.

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Feel the third eye open, and note any mental visions as
this occurs. Now is a good time to ask for increased
psychic power. Note the red/root chakra, the
orange/womb chakra, bright, strong, big! Move your
attention up to the yellow/solar plexus chakra, to the
green/heart chakra, open and brilliant, to the
blue/throat chakra and the indigo/third eye chakra. Your
chakras are huge, whirling, and fully charged.

Now focus your attention at the crown of your head.


This chakra is violet near the body, fading to white
further away. This chakra governs your connection to
the Universe/God/Goddess/The Creator, etc... This chakra
is like an umbilical cord to "home." Reflect on your
spirituality of late, examine the chakra and allow any
healing needed. In my experience this chakra generally
needs much less work than the others.

Allow the hands to heal, to cleanse, and recycle the


discarded energy in the sun. Now examine the chakra. It
is brilliantly violet, glowing white around the outside.
Mentally reach out to that which you consider your
"Source" to "The Absolute" or “The Universe”. Feel the
response, the energy flowing back to you. Ask for the
peace and joy of a strong crown chakra connection. Feel
the violet energy flowing in, a loving embrace of your
whole self, of your soul. See the crown chakra grow
enormous, and the white energy surround your body.

All your chakras are now clean, charged and in balance.


From the red/root chakra, to the orange/womb chakra,
to the yellow/solar plexus chakra, to the green/heart
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purple/third eye to the violet/crown, your chakras are


spinning and whirling, full of energy and vitality. See the
white energy that extends up and out from the crown
chakra enveloping your whole body in an egg of white
energy.

You are completely refreshed, calm, and peaceful. Your


energy is balanced. You are full of vitality. After few months of
practice, you may not want to get involved with any other
meditation again. Try it! Alternative to this is your regular al-
solaat, pelvic movement or your group dancing and clapping of
hands.

4.7 An Electromagnetic Affair


Most noticeable human shifting includes the alarmingly
frequent occurring nervous system disorders; increasing
incidents of unexplained phenomena; and extra-sensory
development. Strangely, almost as if there’s something in the
air, a heightened intensity of emotions is being felt and people
are embracing “know thyself” and “above all else be true to
thyself” philosophy.
There’s a whole lot of shifting going on as in Figure 4.3.
Evidently, there’s an electromagnetic energy surge/shift now
underway.
Electromagnetism is the stuff that when the Sun emits more
electromagnetic radiation, the Earth’s geomagnetic field, iron-
based inner core, and its frequency rate are altered. This
energy alteration affects all creatures, and evens our body’s
natural electro-magnetic field.
Consequently, within the Universe, if one energetic member
shifts, all the others are likely to follow - like the Earth, Sun,
You, Me and everything else that exist within.

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Figure 4.3 The shift

It is what makes you wonder which energetic member is


affecting “Ra” the Sun?
Without a doubt, we are in a spectacular and peculiar time
of great change. A time when old wisdom merges with
modern knowledge, exposing the basic mechanics of creation
-- electromagnetism.
The ancient Mayan’s were wizards of time and numerology.
Their calendar reveals an important time (1999 – 2012) when
the last 13 baktuns (Mayan years), the larger cycle of the Sun,
is complete.
In the meantime, since 1999 to date, our modern
technology, amongst other Geophysics and Astrophysics
intelligences, observe the Sun with watchful and astonished
eyes as our Solar System leader “the Sun”, displays an intense
and rather abnormal fiery and explosive behavior.
Currently, we are in the half-way point of this Sun cycle,
meaning a whole lot of shifting is most likely yet to come ...
affecting Earth and Everyone. Listed below are a few helpful
suggestions for preparing your body-mind-spirit for energy
surges and shifts.

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A very noticeable year is the year 2007 (20:07 in the Qur’an),


in which the difference between 7 and 20 is 13, yet it is not the
last circle of the Sun.

Electromagnetic Shift Tips


Associate with the vibration of the earth’s core energy
By walking barefoot, sitting or lying on the Earth’s natural
floor, you are connecting to Earth by creating an energy
current circuitry that improves your bio-energy system.

Stretch your body and feel the internal vibrations


Try this by standing up right with your feet on the floor. Now
lean over and touch the floor with both hands grounded. Hold
a position that creates your body to shake or vibrate.
Rearrange different positions to enhance vibration in certain
areas of the body.
By doing this you are activating synergistic nerve
conduction, allowing your bio-energy to flow more freely and
efficiently, thus, preparing the body for easier adjustment in
energy surges and shifts.

Support and enhance your body’s equilibrium


During an event of electromagnetic shifting, physical
symptoms are known to occur. These may include vertigo,
nausea, and anxiety, tingling of moving energy throughout
body, changes in energy level or changes in auditory and other
sensory functioning.
We need to stimulate and strengthen our sensory systems in
order to improve our adaptability to vibration energy
surges/shifts.
The following is an easy exercise: Stand up-right and spin
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spins and then pause a moment. Repeat the spin in the


opposite direction (clockwise).
This practice of sensory recalibration is most helpful for the
auditorial (sense of balance) region. Changes in air pressure,
sonic energy waves, etc, are likely to throw off your body's
balance mechanism.

Use natural salts and baking soda


Use natural salts and baking soda in your bath for detoxifying
the body, grounding and stabilizing your energy field. Salt and
soda creates a negative ionic atmosphere, thus drawing toxins
from the pores and balancing excessive positive charge. Eat
well.

Drink and eat electrolytes


Everything in our body, especially optimal nerve transmission,
operates with electrolytes. (natural form: sodium, potassium,
calcium.) In the midst of new changes and shifting taking
place, perhaps the most important helpful factor to state is to
inculcate:

Get Awareness
Awareness or consciousness is a nonphysical form of potent
energy that will create into physical manifestation one way or
another. Protect and strengthen your bio-energy field by
thinking wisely!

4.8 Influences of Auras


Negative influences are negative thoughts, noise, drugs and
then electronic equipment. Negative thought patterns about
yourself attract negative people and incidences in your life.
Mental and emotional cleaning is recommended on a regular
basis.

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Continued loud noises disturb the balance of the layers and


therefore lower your vibration level. Restore the balance of
your aura with the gentle music and or other nature sounds.
Drugs and cigarettes and other medicine taken over a long
period of time create a grayish layer in the vital energy and
prevent the natural ability we have to heal ourselves from
functioning at an optimum level. If it is not a life threatening
illness, go along other routes like homeopaths and alternative
medicines. Remember that all disease has a mental and
emotional cause and which if addressed will also clear up the
disease. Alcohol suppresses the emotions, creating a phantom
effect that boomerangs back on your psyche! Electronic
equipment and power lines have a different magnetic energy
field that runs in the opposite direction of your natural energy
force. Over long periods of time the electric energy wants to
change your natural flow while your own energy wants to
correlate it again. It creates tension within the fields or
weakens your energy that makes it receptive for disease. It is
advisable that if you spent a long time in these unnatural
energies to balance it out by spending time in nature to
restore your energy.

Figure 4.3 The shift

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Your energy field can also be strengthened by the use of the


transformation meditations.
Positive influences are natural sounds, natural sunlight,
meditation, healthy eating, wearing bright colours, and decent
behaviour.
There is nothing ‘paranormal’ in the Universe, except our
limited understanding of Nature. What we think we know on
Earth now is just a tiny drop in the Ocean of Knowledge. Long,
long time ago, people admired things they could not explain
and called them “miracles”. Long time ago, people were able
to see auras. Advanced spiritual people such as Buddha, Christ,
Mohammed, Rampa and other saintly persons were covered
and often seen with golden halos around their heads, because
some artists could actually see auras just as shown in Figure
4.4. Nature gave us all we need to see auras. All is required is
the knowledge on how to use your senses together with your
conscious effort. If you decide not to try, you will never see
the aura. On the other hand, when you see something for
yourself, no longer will you need to rely on believing someone.
You will know that you ‘know’ because you ‘know’. And you
can use your knowledge to learn more and help others.

Figure 4.4 The true aura

Many great people in the past complained that: we have


eyes and we do not see. If you probe further in the
“Nothingness of self esteem” you will discover what they
meant.

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Anyone can see auras to some degree. Rather than create an


aura of mystery around my newly acquired skill, my approach
is to show everyone what their eyes are capable of. (but Sumu
bukumu, umuyu, wa-hun la yah-kiluun - they are deaf, dump
and stupid, they do not make any sense.) When nearly
everyone (including children) sees a similar thing, I consider
this a part of our Nature and I say that it deserves our
attention.
Let’s see. Stand in front of a full length mirror, watch your
forehead (at the boundary of your hair-cut, even if you are
bald). Just relax and you will surely observe your own aura
flying off your head. With a little patience, it manifests clearly.
Colors and intensity of the aura, especially around and above
the head have very special meanings. Watching someone's
aura you can actually see the other person's thoughts before
you hear them expressed verbally. If they do not agree with
what this person is saying, you effectively see a lie every time.
No one can lie in front of you undetected. We cannot fake the
aura. It shows our True Nature and intentions for everyone to
see.
Also, aura is our spiritual signature. When you see a person
with a bright, clean aura, you can be sure that such person is
good and spiritually advanced, even if he/she is modest and
not aware of it. When you see a person with a gray or dark
aura, you may be almost sure, that such person has unclear
intentions, regardless how impressive, eloquent, educated,
good looking or well dressed he/she seems to appear.
It is especially important to check the aura of any religious
leader, spiritual teacher, master, muallim or a guru. Such a
person should have a clearly defined yellow-golden halo
around the head. If he/she does not have it, you are much
better on your own.

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Joining a sect or a religion that is led by incompetent people


without good auras is very dangerous for your consciousness.
Where is the danger? When the time comes to really use the
information stored in your consciousness from this lifetime,
there may be almost nothing useful there, if you focus your
life on follow-follow-type rituals and the flock of other people.
In such case it is necessary to re-learn everything from the
beginning. Most sect, religion and political leaders have only
two things in mind: money and power to control people. And
you can see it in their aura for yourself. Imagine changes on
the Mother Earth if many people can see auras of their leaders
and start choosing them on the basis of their auras. Refer to
the section ‘nothingness theory’ in this book.
By reading aura it seems possible to diagnose malfunctions
in the body (diseases) long before physical symptoms become
evident. Yes. By consciously controlling your aura you can
actually heal yourself.
However, healing of the physical body is nothing in
comparison to what seeing and reading auras can do for our
consciousness, spiritual development and our awareness of
Nature.
Everyone has an Aura. But most people on Earth have very
weak and dull Auras. Some people’s aura if perceived can
make one very sad indeed for dull colour it bears. This seems
to be a direct consequence of their lifelong materialistic
attitude negating and suppressing the development of
consciousness, cultivating fear, envy, jealousy and other
similar emotions – I beg of you leave this material thing alone,
at least develop your inner power first and you will be better
for it. Such attitude suppresses your True Nature, and your
aura seems to become suppressed too.
When people realize that their Aura is on display and many
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they will try to see and improve their own Aura. In the process
they will become better and wiser, being able to recognize
intentions of other people. Surely, the entire world will
become much better if all people can see and read Auras.

4.9 The Energy Field


MerKaBa is a term translated as 'chariot' in Hebrew. In ancient
Egyptian (18th dynasty) means Rotating fields of light Mer),
spirit(Ka) and soul(Ba).
The MerKaba is the energy field that exists around every
living thing throughout the Universe. Literarily, MerKaBa is the
force field of energy which surrounds every living thing and
'activates' when a person is in a state of Unconditional Love.
When MerKaBa is activated around a person's body, he or she
is in a place of complete protection, generated by the Love of
the Universe. Back in the times of Atlantis, everyone’s
MerKaBa was activated. Since the fall of Atlantis, we have
forgotten how to activate this living field.
(The huge chunk of land, of continental dimensions, to
the south of Southeast Asia, became sunken when sea
level rose, at the end of the Pleistocene. Another sizable
piece of land in the Indus Delta, the site of the second
Atlantis, also disappeared likewise, at that occasion. No
other regions of the world display a similar event,
including the Americas. The conclusion is that Atlantis, if
Plato was in fact speaking truthfully, could only have
been located in that region of the world. This
continental-sized land was indeed larger than Asia Minor
and Libya (North Africa) put together, exactly as Plato
affirms. It is seen to have been about two or three times
larger than continental-sized India. See Figure 4.5.)

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Figure 4.5 Ancient world during ice-age


The activation meditation has recently been released back
to humanity because we are ready for it again and it plays a
vital part in the vibrational changes that we and the Mother
Earth are going through. The MerKaBa Meditations facilitate
deep spiritual growth and activation. They serve to balance all
chakras, and lead one into whole-brain synchronization. The
right brain, or the feeling aspect of the brain, already knows
that the ascention is possible. The left brain on the other hand,
deals with logic and linear time, and remains skeptical to the
possibilities of ascention. Therefore the MerKaBa teaching is
based on Sacred Geometry, thus appeasing the left brain's
doubtful nature.
The meditation also incorporates deep (pranic) breathing
techniques, which brings Life Force Energy directly into the
body in the same manner before the fall of Atlantis that the
dolphins and whales breathe. We used to breathe in this
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breathing activates all the chakras (energy centers) in the


body and has them function as one.
MerKaBa as a 'tool for ascention' means that the MerKaBa
meditation provides the means for learning to work with our
energy fields and to realign ourselves with Source by creating
a sacred space of Love and Joy around us. The MerKaBa
literally is the force field of energy which surrounds every
living thing and 'activates' when a person is in a state of
Unconditional Love. For the human body, this 'activation'
would be seen as a subtle energy field that expands out
around the body in a disc-like shape approximately 20 m in
diameter. Therefore, this particular meditation is a means to
showing us how that state feels and provides an experimental
understanding of how to realign our energy fields and holds
the higher vibration of Love in it throughout our daily
activities. It is a powerful meditation for this very reason and
should be done only with the highest intentions for remaining
in a love-centered focus. As it amplifies the energy of the
heart, one finds the higher energies are what is referred to as
the 5th dimension space. Therefore, thoughts (and fears)
manifest more readily when inside an activated MerKaBa,
which then demands a sense of responsibility to maintain clear
thoughts and actions at all times. The MerKaBa also functions
as a multi-dimensional force field which when activated
through love will protect you from any darkness trying to
invade your system. Note that the energy that protects you
will avenge you.
The term 'ascentions' is one that has been widely used in a
variety of contexts. However, the use of it only in context to
the MerKaBa is as follows:

 To raise the energy level of physical body (mental,


emotional, etc)

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 To have ability to tune-in to higher frequencies and access


information or detect subtle energies.
 To strengthen one’s connection to his soul and monad
(single cell organism).
 To attain a oticeable shift to the focus of conscious
awareness for awareness of other levels of reality.

While many believe that the concept of ascention implies


physically departing from the Earth, in the Golden Age which
we are entering it is more like anchoring heaven on Earth and
heart’s consciousness.
Once we bring to shift our forces of awareness up from the
solar plexus/ gut level to the heart center, we begin to add
love to all the emotions we take in from our environment and
send out to others. This is living and operating through your
heart’s consciousness mind not through your negative ego
mind. This changes the perception of ordinary events in our
lives and makes them more magical, colourful and alive. We
can then more fully enjoy this Earth experience!
In order to be in control of your manifest experiences, you
first must understand about what your thoughts are, how they
create, and how you can make them manifest into what you
desire to see in your reality.
MerKaBa or spherical breathing brings about a complete
and final bliss which comes from within and not from without.
you should know that before you start to use a version of
MerKaBa meditation, your intention must be pure and
positive.

Ground yourself properly. Use any taught method hat is


convenient for you.

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1. Sit cross-legged or stand erect, whichever is convenient


for you.

2. Breath-in by drawing light energy from the inner core of


the mother Earth and allow the energy to flow up, lighting
up your chakras. The light flows out your crown chakra
and disappearing into the cosmos.

3. Now, breath-out and draw down the light energy from the
cosmos flowing down to your head (crown chakra) to the
root chakra, to your feet and down to the Earth core
again. Move up the light as in 2 above

Repeat Nos 2 and 3 five (5) times

4. As the light reaches the cosmos, after the fifth time in 3


above, breathing out and bringing the light down by your
left side, outside your body, to the inner core of the
mother Earth. Now breathing out, circulate up the light,
through your right side, outside your body to the cosmos.
Repeat this process 5 times.

5. from the cosmos pass down and breathing out the light in
front of your body down to the earth and from the Earth
up to the cosmos breathing in. repeat 5 times.

6. Now from top down, bring the light and place it in your
solar plexus exercising your wish (positive only).

7. Then send the wish light into the atmosphere. Sit for as
long as you wish before any daily activities commences.

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Remember: what you sow is what you reap You are your own
worst enemy as you are your best friend.

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Thought Forms
5.1 Overview of Biological Functions of
Deoxyribonucleic Acid (DNA)

DNA contains the genetic information that allows living things


to function, grow and reproduce. This information is held in
the sequence of pieces of DNA called genes. Genetic
information in genes is transmitted through complementary
base pairing. For example, when a cell uses the information in
a gene, the DNA sequence is copied into a complementary
ribonucleic acid (RNA) sequence in a process called
transcription. Usually, this RNA copy is then used to make a
matching protein sequence in a process called translation.
Alternatively, a cell may simply copy its genetic information in
a process called DNA replication.

Figure 5.1 The structure of part of a DNA double helix

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The details of these functions are covered in other articles,


books and literatures here we focus on the interactions that
happen in these processes between DNA and other molecules.
The structure of part of a DNA double helix is shown in
Figure 5.1 and two strands of DNA are held together by
hydrogen bonds between bases are shown in Figure 5.2.

Cytosine

Phosphate
dioxyribose
backbone

3rd end 5th end

Figure 5.2 The two strands of DNA are held together


by hydrogen bonds between bases

DNA can be damaged, as shown in Figure 5.3, by many


different sorts of mutagens. These include oxidizing agents,
alkylating agents and also high-energy electromagnetic
radiation such as ultraviolet light and x-rays. The type of DNA
damage produced depends on the type of mutagen. For
example, UV light mostly damages DNA by producing thymine
dimers, which are cross-links between adjacent pyrimidine
bases in a DNA strand. On the other hand, oxidants such as
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damage, including base modifications, particularly of


guanosine, as well as double-strand breaks. It has been
estimated that in each human cell, about 500 bases suffer
oxidative damage per day. Of these oxidative lesions, the most
damaging are double-strand breaks, as they can produce point
mutations, insertions and deletions from the DNA sequence,
as well as chromosomal translocations.

Figure 5.3 Benzopyrene, the major mutagen in


tobacco smoke, in an adduct to DNA

5.2 DNA Representations


Thought is define as scalar wave configurations of multi-
dimensional vibrating patterns of bi-polar electromagnetic
energy radiation, which form specific patterns of scalar
frequency within the personal manifestation template
In other words, thoughts are real things. And one’s mind is
an energy force that continually generates these patterns of
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is not difficult then to understand how appropriately directed


thought can directly influence one's manifest experience and
reality. And this is what thought manifestation is about. How
thought gets transduced into externalization and holographic
projection. Reality is actually just a hologram that is created
right through your DNA template. The more strands of DNA
are active within you, the more expanded your hologram will
become, because you are able to bring in more dimensional
levels of consciousness into your body via these frequency
receivers.
If you do not have the frequency receivers in your DNA,
called apparthi, turned on and active, which happens during
DNA activation then, your body will not be able to hold a
certain frequency that, which you are trying to see in your
hologram, like a fabulous wealth, will not be manifest in your
experience. There is no way to see something if you don't
have the receivers for that frequency (Video, TV, GSM,
Osanyin) with its modulation. The frequency will be blocked
out as if it doesn't exist so you won't see the reality fields
formed by those types of frequencies. It's like trying to explain
to your great grandmother how the astronauts landed on the
moon. She just doesn't have the receptors to receive this
information turned on, and will not be able to comprehend it.
This is exactly what happens to many individuals they ‘hear’,
‘see’ but do not comprehend even when things are very loud
and clear.
These people seem to work in a very low frequency and
dealing with them requires patience to drive points home.
They do not understand because they are in a self-imposed
frequency fence first of all, and they don't have the apparthi
turned on to even receive the frequency of information that
the self-Esteem is driving at. So it doesn't matter how many
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Because they believe that if they can't see it with their eyes,
then it doesn't exist. By the way science is blessed by the facts
of nature making it easy and real for it to travel to space, so as
to understand the cosmos.
It's like when we look up into the stars and into outer space,
we are actually seeing a massive reality field that's filled with
life and consciousness and all sorts of structures and forms
and density levels and civilizations. But we don't see it all - we
see deep space - the huge amounts of black distances
between planets. Space between objects is a vibrational
frequency. It is a vibrational frequency that our body systems
are not used to perceiving so they block it out. If the
frequency receivers (apparthi) inside your DNA are not doing
their job to receive frequency, then the frequency will be
blocked out as if it doesn't exist. Since we don't have the
frequency receptors turned on for that specific frequency, we
literally won't see it in our reality. If we had all of our sense
receptors turned on, complete DNA activation, we would not
see the hologram. Everything would be direct cognition and
known as part of us within ourselves when we know ourselves
as Source.
So there are lots of things that we can't perceive with our
Three-Dimensional (3D) consciousness and that is one reason
why science can't "prove" yet that there is "life” on other
planets. Because the beings exist in higher harmonics of
frequency, so that their senses can’t be detected by the
current 3D technologies.
Science tends to look at thought as one of those
unquantifiable things as a result of physical "phenomena". But
thought is just as physical as your physical body. Your body
and the planet's body are just thought forms. Even thought
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Thoughts also wear chemical toga. They exist in your body in


form of chemical. They will be in some types of chemical
molecular structure in your body and DNA. In fact, the ones
that are disharmonic are the ones that cause chemical disease
in the body. In order to prevent these discordant thought
forms from manifesting as physical disease, the auric clearing
and karmic sessions must be embarked upon often - Every
thought that you created has a chemical reality in the body.
Your thoughts are running through your blood and through
your organ systems. They are in your body doing things. So a
big part of learning manifestation is learning mental body
control - how you are going to use the physics in your body
and in your mind to control your thoughts and direct your
holographic reality. All depend on you. Think positive and
receive positive, think negative and receive negative. It is as
simple as that.
A lot of what is happening when one is looking through
electron microscopes at parts of atoms, particles, and sub-
atomic particles, because there is a time-thing going on within.
What is happening is the things flash on and off from the
source and then back to polarity so fast that they are beyond
the perception, of not only the brains of the scientists trying
to see it, but also out of the range of the time distortion that
you get by looking through a microscope.
Things flash on and off so quickly (as now proven by our
quantum physicists) that we can't see it with the senses
because the senses have a certain mathematical calibration
that gives them a range of vibration that they can perceive but
a large part is blocked out - because of the inactive apparthi
(frequency receivers in the DNA).
When scientists look through microscopes and telescopes,
remember, they are seeing a holographic projection. They are
using lenses that bend light which means it's creating sound

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waves, which means it is changing interrelationships between


templates - so it allows them to see certain levels of the
microscopic kingdom and macroscopic kingdom that normally
our sense facilities would not project out.
But the thing is, we do have these sense facilities. If we can
see these things through mechanical instrumentations, which
are thought forms, that were created out of the belief that we
need an instrument to do this because we did not have the
innate ability to see these things ourselves.
We don't need microscopes to see our microscopic particles.
In fact, we will get a much more accurate assessment of what
the particles look like and how they actually behave, when we
begin to turn on our own micro-vision, which is part of the
natural senses that start to come with 4th strand DNA
activation.
There are all sorts of things that we could do when human
consciousness was functioning within its hologram the way it
was designed if the DNA was operating properly and fully
activated.
The very ancient civilizations that lived thousands of years
ago didn't have a lot of the so called stuff as we do now. They
didn't have a problem with disposing of things like we do, and
it wasn't because they were primitive cultures at all. In fact,
they didn't bury bodies, because originally, they didn't even
die. They ascended when they were tired of being here. This is
the fact as it was so I am.
When certain things happened to the DNA when they did
die, they didn't die and then bury the body. They transmuted it
with frequency. And the parts that wouldn't transmute would
become dust. "Ashes to ashes, and dust to dust" so you say. It
would all be controlled by the most powerful source or force
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frequency and everything is formed by frequency. Watch out


of negative thought that has become major part in your life.
So we're actually going back in time to reclaim the
knowledge and the power and the understanding that was
once ours when the DNA was functioning properly. That is
what we are teaching you now, so yield! It also a fact that
thought manifestation from a 3-D level alone (3rd strand
activation which most people are now in) is a hit or miss
situation.
The new age teachers teach you to say, "I am He, so that
means whatever I command to do will happen". It doesn't
really work very well, does it? It's because your consciousness
is still stationed in the 3rd dimension, and Source is still
beyond the 15th dimension. In order to be more like Source or
God, you have to be able to embody more dimensions of
frequency which happens as you activate your DNA.
If you happen to create an alignment between you and your
higher levels of self and you happen to create an alignment
between your particles and their angular rotation of particle
spin, then you will create a thought field that does indeed
jump out from you and in about 3 days time, start to become
manifest. But again, it's hit or miss trying to manifest from 3rd
dimensional consciousness.
But, if you have 6 strands of DNA active, this means you can
embody 6 dimensional levels of consciousness (your soul's
frequency), so therefore you are closer to fully embodying
Source's energies and thus when you use your thoughts to
direct this energy, manifestation happens much faster and
more consistently. When the frequencies in the planetary grids
are running properly and the DNA inside your body is working
properly, thought manifestation is instantaneous. This is the
power you have to look forward to eventually and not the
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DNA is the literal vessel through which the illusionary


experience of physical, external reality is manufactured.
Knowing this, you may then realize that when you are shifting
your consciousness and using the imagination to program
desired thought-forms into the past, present, or future, you
are literally reprogramming the frequency patterns of your
cellular content and the operational holographic program that
will manifest into physical reality through the DNA.
The holographic, thought-form program through which your
external reality will manifest is literally stored, as a
multidimensional electromagnetic program, within the sub-
atomic particle structure of your cells, much as a computer
stores data within its memory. The DNA serves as the literal
conduit through which that holographic program will project
data from cellular memory into physical manifestation, much
as a computer’s circuitry allows the electronic data stored in
memory to be projected onto the screen, into forms
recognizable to human perception. Your external reality field
is the screen upon which the thought-forms that are stored
within your cellular memory program will be displayed, and
the DNA operates as the electromagnetic circuitry through
which that memory comes into physical manifestation.
To gain creative control over your manifest events, you must
edit the cellular memory files (clear and transmute the lower
pulsating particles from the body and auric field – do an auric
clearing), upgrade the holographic thought-form program
(create new visualizations of desired past, present, and future
events, living them in imagination “as if they are happening
now” within the desired time period) and expand the DNA
circuitry (have your DNA Activations) in order to allow new,
desired reality pictures to project into your world of manifest
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you are already doing with my sessions, this cellular clearing


and DNA transmutation is exactly what is taking place.
For those of you who have not had your DNA activated,
when you create “future memory” visualizations, you are
putting specific manifestation instructions into the
morphogenetic field of the DNA strands you have not yet
assembled. You will encounter those reality pictures in
manifest form once those DNA strands come into activation
when you have your sessions. You can literally shift things in
your present manifest experience by reprogramming the past
memory impulses stored in your DNA – add new past
memories and new events will manifest in the present. Create
new future memories now, and you can direct the path of your
evolution from your present moment in time.
When you release crystallized thought-forms composed of
slow-pulsating particles from your present cellular structure in
the Auric Clearing and Karmic Sessions, you are stopping those
lower thought-form patterns from activating into your DNA,
through which they would otherwise project into physical
manifestation. Your moment of power is always in the
present, when you realize that your present focus of attention
can alter and direct events in both past and future, and within
the present. It takes practice to develop skill in conscious
manifestation and you must become familiar with the “feel”
of your own inner focus of consciousness in the present, in
order to direct your power of manifestation.
Prior to learning manifestation skills, you must first learn de-
manifestation skills. Learning how to remove undesirable
morphogenetic thought-form patterns from your active
holographic program, which is stored within the cells and
made operational through your DNA, is the first step in gaining
mastery over the contents of your external reality field. And
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slower-pulsating particles from your body systems, you make


room for the addition of new morphogenetic thought-form
patterns composed of faster pulsating particles, which contain
the electromagnetic imprint for more harmoniously ordered
events.
The 21st century descendants of Jesus and Mary Magdalene,
like their ancestors, give free spiritual energy healing
treatments to others. These ancient healing treatments use
naturally causing high frequency electro-magnetic energies to
heal people of health problems. The electrical wavelengths
and magnetic currents of a healthy body, when “Super-
Energized”, can be used to heal injuries and disease in oneself
and others. An individual in the “Super-Energized” state of
high frequency electro-magnetic energies, known as
Enlightenment, is able to focus a flow of high frequency
energy to heal injuries and disease at the sub-atomic cellular
level.
All life is comprised of different electrical wavelengths of
Light and magnetic currents of Love at the sub-atomic, or
quantum level. In advanced multi-dimensional physics, String
Theorists, Quantum Mechanics adherents and Einsteinian
physicists agree that the basic substance of our universe is
comprised of electro-magnetic energies. Today, the people
use an ancient natural healing technique which enables us to
focus a flow of high frequency electro-magnetic energies to
heal ourselves and others.
A spiritual energy healer is able to focus a flow of high
frequency electro-magnetic energies down to the sub-atomic
cellular level. High frequency spiritual energy heals people at
the cellular level by replacing damaged cells with new stem
cells. This process, of natural stem cell replacement therapy,
combines high frequency electro-magnetic energy with an
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process enables one’s body to heal itself, naturally and


normally.
Naturally occurring high frequency electro-magnetic energy
is used by a healthy human physical body to create and replace
the cells which a human body loses each day. A healthy body
naturally replaces billions of cells on a daily basis. The high
frequency electro-magnetic energies used by our body to
create new stem cells comes a little from the food that we eat
and some from the air which we breathe, however, most of
the high frequency energy which our body needs for constant
cellular replacements, comes from the electro-magnetic
energy fields of our Light Body.
Who we really are, is a body of Light, or a Light Body. We
visit our permanent Light Body at night when our temporary
physical body, (which we use to experience 3rd dimensional
earthly activities), goes asleep and we dream. Our Light Body,
which surrounds our physical body, is that part of us which
some religions refer to as one’s Holy Spirit.

5.3 How to Become Immune to Karma


This issue of the DNA Perfection focuses on something you’ve
all heard about called ‘karma’. Karma has frequently been
misdefined by the poor ignorant in the New Age movement as
“whatever you sow, you shall reap”, or “what comes around
goes around”. And that everything that happens to them in
this life is karmic debt from what they’ve done in past lives.
This is totally ridiculous because if those were the cases, you
would be so far in debt that you wouldn’t have a reprieve for a
million years! An entity would never get anywhere
evolutionarily speaking if that was true.
A simple definition of karma is: whatever you think, you get
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concepts, alignments, contracts, oaths, vows, unresolved


emotions and attitudes, held consciously and unconsciously
that creates, influence or magnetize events and experience in
current reality. In other words, the reason the world is the way
it is today is because it was thought into being by a bunch of
stupid people.
Every thought you think combines with like thoughts of past
and future selves, to give you the manifest illusion you
presently perceive. Like thought and action attract and re-
manifest like thought and action. Your past thoughts and
deeds will show themselves in your present reality, but you
have the absolute power to change them, by using your
present focus of attention to create new thoughts and
redesign those that are undesirable, whether they are coming
from the past, present, or future.
Thought patterns from your past selves, which are
composed of more dense and slower pulsating particles,
manifest within the cellular structure of the body. This is
frequently referred to as your karmic imprint, or karmic debt.
These thought patterns of past selves will remain in the body,
and replicate themselves in the present and future, until the
slower-pulsating particles of those thought patterns are raised
in speed and released from the frequency patterns of which
the body is composed.
You have the power, in your present moment, to change any
thought pattern from your personal past, present, or future,
and in doing so you will change the contours of your present
reality.
You can become “karma immune” once you learn to master
this power, for you will train your consciousness to move
backward and forward in time, to recreate undesirable events
and redesign more desirable outcomes. The slow way to
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discomforts from your life is to wait until the events manifest


in external reality, or as conditions of disease in the body.
Then you take action in the present to create a personal
solution, and that solution expands backward and forward in
time to create some degree of resolution of the pattern in the
past and future. This is the usual path of “walking through
your karma”, or walking through the cumulative thought
patterns of your past, present, and future selves.
The fast way to change your karmic imprint is to catch those
slower-pulsating thought patterns before they move into
manifestation. And this is precisely the purpose of the Karmic
Session. Thought patterns from the past and future become
part of the particle make-up of your consciousness, bio-
energetic field, body, DNA and external reality field. They
become stored in the DNA as minute crystallizations of
energy, which inhibit the natural process of DNA strand
assembly and activation.
The crystallized thought patterns stored in your DNA and
cellular imprint will continue to manifest within your body and
before your eyes, until you learn to find and release them
while they are still within the cellular memory imprint of your
body.
When you participate in accelerated DNA evolution via DNA
activation, you are rapidly shifting and elevating the frequency
patterns of which your body and consciousness are
composed. The whole process of spiritual evolution on earth is
about activating the complete 12 strand DNA blueprint. As the
earth increases in frequency, all the life on the planet will
naturally begin to assemble new strands. But currently on
earth, the average person only has 3.5 strands assembled.
Complete 12 strand DNA activation will not happen for most
people until at least 2017 unless you are currently doing the

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accelerated DNA activations. So far what is important is not to


allow your DNA to damage beyond repair.

5.4 Clearing the Heart Chakra


The heart stands at the center of all energies and unifies our
being as a whole. It is the point around which all the energies
turn. A discord or imbalance in the heart chakra will adversely
affect all the other centers. A clearing of the heart chakra will
improve the interaction of all the other centers. It is important
to maintain a balance to all the energy centers so a healthy
level of awareness is manifested in our everyday lives.
If more concentration is given to the upper chakras, then the
lower energy centers lose sensitivity and function. If more
concentration is given to the lower chakras then the upper
energy centers will become cloudy and not function properly
as well. Proper balance is the key.
As we begin this meditation, take some peaceful breaths of
cleansing and renewal. Feel the breath draw life into the body
and the spirit. Breathe deeper and feel the breath draw not
just from the air around you but also from the earth below.
Breathe in this earth energy with each breath. Breathe with
every pore of your body, feeling the awakening that is
beginning to happen. Allow the life giving energies to pour
into you and renew both your body and spirit. Let the earth
energy surround you and flow into you. Feel it pulsing through
your veins and surrounding you altogether. Continue to
breathe this way, slowly and begin to relax even more.
As you sink deeper into this relaxation, feel yourself moving
gently away from your body. Feel the freedom and relaxation
as you move away from your body. Know that the body itself
will be refreshed and renewed and will be perfectly safe until
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Now you are moving again, farther and farther into a field of
clouds. You are very pleased and refreshed by the unique
shapes and colors of the clouds. Watch how they form and
reform, turning gently and constantly on themselves in an
endless dance. You look ahead and see the clouds are denser
as if they are "hiding" something. The closer you draw, the
clouds start to thin out as they start to become transparent
the gracefully pull away. Now they have pulled back
altogether to reveal a beautiful pink rose quartz
Look closely at the color and notice the intensity of pure
color that it radiates. Feel the warmth of the pink. Allow that
warmth to wash over you. As it covers you from head to toe
feel the love that is radiating from the rose quartz. Let it seep
into your every pore, every fiber of your being. Receive the
love that is being given to you freely. The color pink is as deep
as it is radiant it is very pleasing to the eye and you feel
yourself being drawn into it you feel yourself passing through
the walls of pink and now you are suspended within. You
notice the graceful intricate archways of pink surrounding you.
You feel a slight breeze move through and hear a sweet
melody, one note after another as the breeze goes through
the arches to create this melody. Another breeze stirs again
and you hear the harmony and this harmony comes from deep
within your being. It is part of you, it is you. You feel it in your
heart as it vibrates throughout your entire body and spirit. It
pulses through you with great strength in all directions at
once. You are recharged and renewed.

5.5 Thought and Consciousness


The essence of thinking is that it unifies disparate behaviour.
Any move towards uniformity is a move towards equilibrium,
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complex patterns of behaviour, conceptually unifying them.


Thinking is the mechanical system that processes logic,
information, and organizes behavior, but it does not generate
these things. Organized behaviour in natural systems, and the
logic and information underlying it result from the rules of
existence. Nothingness Theory distills the essence of these
rules by noting that a single motivator, attraction to
equilibrium, is sufficient to generate the patterns of behaviour
common to the universe and all of its constituent systems.
The self is the conceptual equilibrium to which the trillions of
mind/body systems of an individual human are attracted.
Hundreds of brain/mind modules work together in a social
network to achieve this unifying process.
Thinking modules organize and process information and
actuate behaviour. The Interpreter of the brain’s left
hemisphere module assigns meaning and reasons to those
thoughts and actions in the context of an unfolding story with
itself as hero/protagonist. This is the ultimate form of unifying
summation because the self is the sum of everything that
occurs within and around the body it represents.

5.6 Awareness
While thought is the physical process of summing patterns of
mind/body systems, Consciousness is the experiencing or
awareness of the holistic result. These processes only become
meaningful when experienced. The definition of
consciousness includes thoughtful awareness of one's self. It
also is defined as the aspect of mind that is apart from the
physical or material.
Meditation is the soul of awareness that unfolds the human
consciousness.

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Sexual Relationship
6.1 Know Yourself
As with anything in life, the more we come to know who we
are, the more we know who or what fits us. Sometimes you
can have a great lover, but he or she may be unsuitable for you
emotionally, or lack other qualities you need and desire. Or,
someone can be unattractive to us physically, but have many
other qualities we appreciate. There will be people who do not
interest us, and others who can offer us sexual experiences
that bring us to new understandings. One thing I do know is
that there can be as many sexual experiences as there are
people on this planet. Everyone is different and will have a
different chemical reaction with us. However, I would not
advocate making love with millions of people to learn what we
like and what fits us! This is wrong and is never the right thing
to do.
Knowing ourselves takes time - it's a lifelong journey. In life,
by choosing one road, one person, or relationship, it means
that we have to let go of taking some other road. We can't
take them all. Life just can't work that way. So we have to
make choices. Hopefully the choices we make come from a
place of clarity. Often, the only way to get to that clarity is by
going through life and learning about ourselves as we go. As
we make choices, and are willing to see ourselves clearly, we
grow. There will be confusion. The most important thing is to
come to know the deepest parts of yourself - to find out what
is your real truth and who you really are - and what brings you
true happiness.

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There will never be the perfect road. But we can go deep on


the road we do choose. It will show us who we are, both our
good stuff, and the stuff we don't like much about ourselves.
And if we become wise, we will learn to separate who we
really are from what our reactions and issues are. The reaction
of either feeling repulsed by someone or something, or drawn
to someone or something are strong ones and can teach you a
lot about yourself. If you feel good about someone, they
represent something in yourself that you love and value. If you
feel repulsed about someone or something, sexually or
otherwise, it is a sure bet that they represent something inside
of you, a place where you feel insecure about yourself, or
wounded in some way. People who repulse us represent some
wound in us. Find out what that is, and you will have learned
something very important about yourself.

6.2 The True Relationship


Of course, we don't have to sleep with someone whom we are
drawn to simply because we feel that there is some degree of
connection going on. We often mistake a spark of interest or a
sense that we have things in common for an immediate sexual
connection or relationship. Then we jump in, head first, often
to end up stuck in the mud. There are many levels of
connections, and a true partnership relationship has deep
complexities to it - people are complex beings with all sorts of
layers to them. If we are to become involved sexually, and
allow an intimate connection to occur, it is wise to know more
about who we are getting involved with, and what we will be
dealing with, what the situation is really about.
Any experience you have will teach you something if you
ask: What am I to learn about myself through this experience?
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on what road to take. A relationship may turn sexual, or it may


not. But it is always good to take your time and seek the
answer to the question of whether or not a relationship
should turn sexual by looking deeply at what is really going on
- what the connection is really all about. It makes life a lot less
confusing and can save a lot of possible distress and turmoil.
Making a commitment to a certain path, relationship, or
person can be a scary thing, and many issues will come up for
you when you do. It is really making a commitment to facing
yourself - a commitment to your own growth. We can have
many experiences, sexually, and many relationships. It is good
to have enough experience in life to know what fits you. I
think we can and do learn what fits us by being willing to face
ourselves and to learn about ourselves by diving deep in a
relationship through commitment. No one choice or person
will ever give us everything. And even within a deeply
committed relationship, you will have times when a person
repulses you, and times when you gain new understandings
from them. Deep relationships often have long cycles to them
- periods of great connectedness that can last for quite a
while, as well as more difficult cycles of time that may also last
for a while. True, deeply rooted growth and change takes
time, and as we cycle through these periods, we gain a lot, if
we are willing to understand what is trying to transform, and
what needs to be seen and understood so that growth may
occur.
People who love one another can certainly learn to please
each other sexually. It may be a spectacular experience to
begin with, or it may not, and even later on there will be more
rewarding sexual experiences with your partner.
There are many people who advocate a swinger lifestyle
these days. Being a "Player" is seen as being cool, omo-
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must be seen as being very distorted and harmful. People


aren't trophies to be captured, or big game to be bagged, and
relationships or interactions with others certainly isn't about
scoring, like getting a high score on a video game. Everyone
has feelings, can bleed, and be damaged and badly wounded. I
don't think being a swinger and allowing a lot of sexual
activity in one's life is the same thing as being cool or mature.
Being mature means you know yourself well enough to know
what you can handle and where you're at. Being mature
means that you don't seek to harm others. There are issues of
honor and ethics in life which we must live by to truly feel
good about ourselves, and there are these same issues in a
relationship. This means that we make choices which are
moral, fair, and honest, choices which benefit ourselves and
our partner in the best way. This allows the relationship to
grow to be a healthy entity. Having ethics and honor in a
relationship involves loyalty, wisdom, insight, discipline, and
integrity: the strength of will to do what one says one will do.
Often, if some or all of these issues are out of balance, or
missing in a relationship, in oneself and one's partner, many
people choose to go looking outside of the relationship for
someone else instead of healing what one has. Heal within and
not without. The only truth it is. A relationship will always
mirror for each person, or reflect, whatever issues and
patterns they have in their lives that are good, or
dysfunctional. Going elsewhere does not solve the problem. It
will come up again and again until it is faced and resolved.
A relationship, as far as I am concerned, requires sound
ethics, honor, and strength of will, making good choices, and
devotion to flourish. A relationship is about loving another and
caring for the happiness of the other as much as for one's self.
That is real maturity. To use another being for sexual purposes
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and nothing of importance has occurred, that it is


meaningless, that there is no connection, is, as far as I am
concerned, a profound misunderstanding of what sex, life,
and how we treat others, is all about.
When one has a sexual connection with another, there is a
deep exchange of life force energy. A deep connection does
occur. Sexuality is the joining of two beings for the purpose of
creating life and pleasure. It is the capacity to share oneself
completely with another. It is the human equivalent of
surrendering to another, of trusting another, as we hopefully
can allow ourselves on the spiritual level to surrender to
trusting the Love of God - to be vulnerable and giving in a fully
open and loving way. It is the ultimate physical manifestation
of love and connectedness. It is an incredibly powerful force,
and to use it lightly seems to me to be missing out on what the
journey of life is all about.
Giving ourselves pleasure is a wonderful and important thing
to do. However, when one has sex with another, there are
actually psychic cords that connect you to that other person.
These cords allow an energy exchange to continue long after
the act of sex itself is over. Your energy is then mixed up and
connected to that other person's in a way that can be
detrimental, unclear, and confusing for a long time. Therefore,
we must choose wisely who we will allow to enter into our
energetic space and whose space we are willing to connect to.
Be warned!
Even after having sex with someone we love, it is important
to disconnect from being attached to their energy, as we all
must keep our own energy in our own space. Otherwise, part
of our energy is lost to us. Even with people we love, it is
important not to confuse their space, or ours, by having either
our energy mixed up with theirs or theirs with us. We must
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to love, but not by being "outside" of ourselves in someone


else's space.
Sex can be a fleeting pleasure on the "playing around" level,
but ultimately that is not fulfilling, and can even be extremely
detrimental, especially if your energy is entwined with many
people. If one continues to seek fulfillment that way, it can
become an addiction because it is seeking something you
need from a place where you won't be able to get it, and that
means you are chasing an illusion, thinking it's the real thing.
To think something external will fulfill what we are all really
looking for, which is Love, ultimately, feeling loved, safe, and
worthwhile, doesn't get it. That's the same thing as needing to
eat chocolate as soon as one feels tense or unhappy, thinking
somehow that will bring peace and safety. It doesn't. It's a
temporary fix, and one can't sustain oneself on it. I tell you,
too much chocolate undermines health after a while as too
much iyan (pounded yam) can cause uncomfortably and
malaria complicity.
It is ok to seek pleasure in a way that does not cause harm to
self or others. However, often we seek pleasure in a way that
does cause harm. The journey of life is to learn from our
experiences - to learn to honor life and to do no harm.
Because sex is such an intimate act, there always is the chance
that people who connect seemingly in a casual way can
become deeply connected, and therefore hurt if sex is treated
in a cavalier manner. And that's what a swinger lifestyle is all
about - using people sexually and treating it in a cavalier
manner. It's a set up for disaster, I believe. If we are in balance
with our masculine and feminine energies within, if we have
developed these other qualities of honor, ethics, strength of
will, and devotion, I think we feel balanced and do not need to
be looking for something "without" to make us feel better or
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we don't "need" them to feel good about ourselves and our


lives.
Until we become safe within ourselves, we will turn to
things outside of ourselves to try to feel safe or worthwhile.
When we face these issues in ourselves and heal them, we can
transform the patterns that cause distress. Then we no longer
operate out of the pain or rage or fear we were caught in. We
always have the choice, moment by moment, to choose either
love, or fear. We have the choice, every moment, to get the
support we need to change. Any dysfunctional pattern found
in a relationship can be healed if people have the willingness
to face it. Then there is the opportunity for deep growth to
occur, both for the individuals involved, and for the
relationship itself. It's up to each of us. When we realize that
maintaining a state of love and clarity within ourselves is true
power and safety, we don't need anything external to make us
feel better. A great sex may make you feel good for a little
while, but you always come down from it – feeling guilty or
regret. It is by no means the whole answer. Whereas we may
have sex once a day, or once a week, or once a month, we still
need to relate in a fulfilling and clear way for all the rest of the
time we are together with the other person.
It is our inner power, our knowledge of our Higher-Self,
God-Self, of who we truly are, and not anything external,
which heals and serves us. Finding our way to reconnect with
that, in whatever way is right for one, is the key. Going out to
have sexual adventures may be fun, for a while, but it is only a
temporary fix. Taking it one day at a time, one moment at a
time, is the answer also. We are always in the present or now,
and the now is always the Self. So, we are always safe, and full
of that power which transcends time, personality, and drama
in each and every moment, if our connection to who we are is
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now; when we accept what is without fear; when we meet


whatever shows up in the moment with love and trust,
honesty and clarity, we surely will find that fulfillment we are
seeking, in relationship, and in every other moment of our
lives. Read about Sex Psychology (11.12).

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Intentions and Destiny


7.1 Intentions and Destiny
Conditioned values are sufficient for a successful material life;
however, they cannot guide your intention to be free. Often
we declare a desire to change with great gusto and conviction,
but may find that within a few days or weeks that enthusiasm
(root: God within) to change has almost completely dissipated.
Why is this so? How can we make great choices and sustain
permanent change?
The core of the issue is that, although our intentions are
good, the way in which we use our values to direct those
intentions is subject to both individual and collective
conditioning; hence, the purest objectives can be misdirected
by ego, and we end up essentially back at the beginning where
we started.
Intention is classically defined as the aim or anticipated
outcome of an action. Your intention to awaken to authentic
joy, however, will be completely ineffective without a
supportive decision-making process. Though you mean well,
your values and the way in which they are arranged can't
support or manifest your best intentions. To sustain the
conditions for awakening to authentic joy, your decision-
making structures–your values–must be capable of influencing
and guiding a pure intention to awaken.
When our values and the way in which we use them are the
domain of ego, lasting transformation is difficult, if not
impossible. Values are core psychological structures by which
all major decisions are made and, as such, they greatly
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by the ego are sufficient for a successful material life, but


completely inadequate to support an awakening to authentic
joy. By looking at your current life situations you can uncover
proof of what you value and of what is important to you–you
can determine what your current values and intentions are by
simply looking at the tangible evidence for them in your life.
Many who consider themselves genuine seekers on the path
spend significantly more time engaged in activities that
support the ego than they do in support of their awakening to
authentic joy. What the ego calls "a balanced life" is often one
of mediocrity and compromise when viewed from an
awakened perspective; you may realize that your values are
arranged by the ego to suit its ends.
Conditioned values cannot direct pure intentions, because
ego-values and awakened intentions are drawn to parallel
outcomes. For example, if your values are focused on a
productive career path, and you also have an intention to
awaken to authentic joy–it will be impossible for you to
manifest the latter without first being clear that your values
are capable of directing that intention. The most humble of
wishes would be to awaken to an authentic joy, also known as
freedom.
To stabilize the conditions for your pure intentions and to
yield changes that your benefits, you must reclaim
consciousness that will otherwise be consumed in a
continuous struggle with ego-based outcomes. Liberation
from the effects of hand-me-down values is the outcome
when those values are rearranged into one conscious group.
When the primary value of this single hierarchy supports and
guides your intention to awaken to authentic joy that will be
the outcome. This sustains the conditions for awakening by
reclaiming your awareness that would ordinarily be lost in on-
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These consequences always appear in the form of good or bad


karma.
The primary value you select for this single hierarchy always
represents your interest in awakening to authentic joy
marginally more important than other interests in your life.
Making a decision based on an awakened choice on such a
conscious primary principle will produce an awakened effect.
This will supports all other necessary aspects of living because
your subsequent values can include money, security, family,
love, creativity, learning, etc.
An awakened person's life is centered on a clear but on an
single hierarchy of values, and when asked, one could instantly
identify a primary value and may, however, has some difficulty
determining what the second and third values are, as these
will vary from one major decision to the next. Her primary
value however, will be consistent with awakening to authentic
joy, and significant choices made in the day-to-day life will give
consistent and tangible proof of this arrangement.
To create the conditions for awakening to an authentic joy,
one can align the outcome with that intention by placing a
primary value, such as freedom, fulfillment, or potential, over
and above all other values on a single hierarchy.
By making all major life decisions according to a primary
value, such as freedom, the intended outcome will be realized
regardless of the circumstances surrounding the decision. You
will discover that awakening to authentic joy is not dependent
on options or outcomes, but on how consistently your
intentions to live such a life are directed by a conscious
primary value.
Eventually, this becomes clear that you are "choice-less", and
you will approach change, transformation, and the evolution
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because you now know that your intention to awaken to joy is


always going to be your outcome.
Conditioning, on the other hand, segregates values into
distinct and concurrent groups - related to career, home,
family, friends, hobbies, etc. The ego does this in a futile
attempt to manipulate reality. For example: A working mother
would have different groups of values for decisions about her
job than she would for decisions about the welfare of her
children. The struggle you experience with major life decisions
and their subsequent outcomes is the result of the conflict
between all of these groups of ego-guiding principles. It is also
important to understand that not only does each group have
its own divergent agenda, but, at the time of deciding, each
group will also have its own presiding primary value.
This arrangement ensures that the ego remains in firm
control of your life experience. You regularly put off some big
decisions vacillate between your options, or seek the opinions
of others. Then, having made a decision, you often change
your mind. Frequently you will shop around for opinions until
you hear one that you think is the right one. Yes? At other
times you are unable, or unwilling to follow through on the
choices you made because you realize they were not the best
ones you could have made.
Because most of us are not aware of the existence of these
multiple groups of values, we experience great anguish and
confusion in times of making important choices. Not knowing
what to do, is different from ‘not-Doing’ (This is expressed in
another part of this book), and it is a clear manifestation that
the ego is entrenched in values. An awakened person can
make major life decisions in a matter of seconds with no
worries or regrets and without fear that a decision may need
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Stressing over choices is a reflection of conditioning as it


drains your attention with compelling and conflicting
alternatives. The ego controls your decision-making process by
offering you the most important conditioned values from
these multiple and conflicting groups, and then it lets you dig
it out. The point of this internal struggle is to deplete your
energy so that the ego can continue to manipulate you with
the short-term solutions and quick fixes. In this way, the ego
easily orchestrates your actions-and your fate-as you try in vain
to weigh all the options, consider all the alternatives, or look
to the past for patterns or to the future with tarot cards.
Whatever the original intention may have been, it is now
lost, and the outcome is conditioned. And as a result of this,
lasting changes never seem to stick. Your future looks just like
your past, filled with conditioned outcomes you have to
overcome. The continued existence of these multiple groups
of values precludes you from discovering and expressing your
full potential by following through on any wholesome
resolutions you may have.
As you awaken to authentic joy, it will become apparent
how the first big decision you ever made independently of
your parents was based on the existence of multiple groups of
values; the result of a conditioned intention; and a product of
the ego. You may also realize that you have essentially been
doing this ever since.

7.2 Dreams and Their Recalls


The stuff that dreams are made of is the etheric energy. It has
often been called the astral light because this energy can be
seen glowing with radiance in the air. Also, it can be referred
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In your spirit body, which you inhabit at night during your


out-of-body travels, your subconscious mind can create
thought forms as quickly and easily as possible. A thought
form is a projection of etheric energy into the seemingly solid
form of etheric matter.
Thought forms can be furniture, rooms, scenery, even
people or animals as long as your consciousness maintains
enough attention to animate them. When you move on to
other scenes or awakened state, these quickly-created
thought forms will dissipate back into etheric energy over a
period of hours or days – depending on its well fixed into the
pelvic chakra.
Lucid dreaming occurs when you become aware, in your
physical consciousness that you are dreaming. This means that
the conscious, physical mind has become engaged in the
dream state. These vivid dreams are therefore easily recalled
when you awaken in your physical body. A lucid dream is then
recalled, from the physical mind's point of view, as being more
vivid than a regular dream. It actually isn't more vivid than
other dreams are, it's just that the physical mind's recollection
of the dream is more vivid.
The deepest levels of sleep typically occur in the first two or
three hours of the night. During deep sleep your spirit body
can travel to higher states of consciousness, sometimes
merging with your soul family as a nighttime reunion of like-
minds. You are also able to meet the spirits of friends and
family who have passed on from physical life. The spirit realms
are their home and you locate them simply by focusing upon
their personality, then projecting your consciousness to that
location. This thought-powered form of travel has been
traditionally called astral projection.
In the lighter states of sleep, emotional issues are often
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understanding dreams is that they are composed of symbols,


rather than actual people, places and objects. When you focus
on the emotion that the dream evoked, then you can unravel
how the symbols in the dream played out the emotional
tension that you were working through.
For example, when frightening things happen in a dream,
they are not literally happening. Instead, they are a playing-out
of the fear issue that the dream represents and an opportunity
to examine such a fear.
You can develop dream recall by keeping a dream diary
beside your bed. When you awaken each morning, before you
do anything else at all, write your dreams down in as much
detail as you can. With practice, you will bring the lessons of
your dreams closer into your daily waking awareness.
The night is a time for your spirit to travel to other realms of
consciousness and for self-healing to occur. While your
physical body sleeps and recharges for another day of waking
consciousness, your spirit body soars through other realms
within your complete range of consciousness.
You can gain great insights into the events of your physical
life when you tell yourself, each night before bed, that you will
remember what you learned while you were out of your body
and cruising the other realms of consciousness.

7.3 Emotional Healing Through the Dreams


Everyone dreams and those dreams range from happy,
storybook romances to our utmost fears and anxieties. If it's
important to take responsibility for our actions in our awake
life, then we also have to accept responsibility for our dreams,
for they represent our inner thoughts and programming.
In our dreams, our actions/reactions are the vehicle our
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to them. Allow yourself to feel the emotions coming through,


for they are raw expressions of your inner being and this is
where you'll find your answers.
Emotional resolution dreams reflect a past or present
situation that you hold an emotional attachment to. Your mind
is simply trying to process the information and your emotions
play a vital role in resolving the conflict. If there's one phrase
to remember in dream work, it's, your emotions drive the
message. Remember that and your dreams will start to make
more sense. Coming to terms with the emotional attachment
will bring healing.
Your dream represents symbols that will best express your
emotional attachment to a situation. These symbols are not
the same for everyone. What one person views as relaxing and
comforting, another may find stressful and harmful. You have
to ask yourself what emotion you personally attach to each
symbol, because that's where the key is. The symbol is merely
a tool you've been given to work with.
Dreams are personal information sent by the subconscious
mind. We live in the world we create for ourselves, so this
holds true for our dream world as well. But in the dream state,
we are open to receive insight we usually miss during the day,
because we're too busy to stop and listen. Ironically, our
dream time is our wake up call. We can either roll over or hit
snooze or wake up to the message(s) coming through.
The most difficult dreams to deal with are what we consider
nightmares. If you start to see your night terrors for what they
are, unexpressed or unresolved emotions, they can be seen in
a new light. Instead of blaming some outside force, take
responsibility and heal the parts of yourself that are
demanding attention. Do some shadow work and figure it out.
Once you resolve the issue (emotional attachment) the
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Any time you have a nightmare spit, lightly, three times


towards your left side and the dream will never manifest. So
be it!
Individuals that come into your dreams are sometimes
aspects of yourself trying to get your attention. Look to the
emotion you carry toward that person. Treat locations the
same way. What is the emotional reaction to the location of
your dream? This could also reflect a certain time period in
your life. Look at these things for clues.
Dreams that come to you for emotional resolution take
place in the 4th & 5th dimensions. Since these are so closely
related to the 3rd dimension, they give us an opportunity to
playout our unresolved issues in an environment we are
comfortable with. But with our emotions coming along for the
ride, it could make that environment suddenly uncomfortable.
In dreams, the message stems from your issues, even if
other individuals are involved in the dream sequence. Every
aspect of your dream is you, trying to work out your issues.
With dream work, it's all about emotional responses. What
you don't resolve during your awake hours, your mind will
process and relive during dream time. This is another way to
release and heal situations you are currently holding on to. By
paying attention to the message trying to come through, you
will be able to quickly work through any unresolved issues and
take another step forward in life.
Emotional resolution dreams are a personal, for your eyes
only moment in time. Think of it as a time where you can work
with your Guides one on one, without your ego. Raw
emotional release and healing will be the result. Use that to
your advantage.

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7.4 Shamanic Healing


Shamanism, one of the oldest and most enduring spiritual
practice, is an evidence of the relationship with Spirit from the
very origins of the human race, which is expressed through
ceremony as a way of maintaining a union with creation.
Placing the flowers on the graves of our past ancestors or
paintings upon cave walls to totem animal's knowledge, all
this is a reflection of our own desire for personal and
conscious union with the All-That-Is and of our spiritual quest
as being an innate human drive.
Inherent with the Shamanic worldview is the understanding
of each person's own unique and autonomous path to reach
their own purpose and truth. Being free of dogma and
doctrine and organised spiritual institutions, shamanism
enable and supports us to find and walk upon our own
destiny. This recognition of the individual's right and
responsibility of ones own awakening and fulfillment is but
one of the very specific elements of Shamanism which
establishes it as a viable means of meeting today's desire of an
honest and authentic approach to self realization and ones
integration in society.
Shamanism as a whole is humanity's spiritual inheritance and
contribution to the collective unconscious of our species and
therefore it provides a firm and proven system of knowledge
regarding the relationship between Nature, Cosmos and
Humanity.
Shamanism worldwide gives us a compendium of
ceremonies, dances, songs, approaches to spirit, meditations
and rituals not only to keep the connection between our soul
and All-That-Is open but to develop and grow.
Shamanic healing is a multiple connection between
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integrate our whole being within our universe. Many diseases


and an feeling of being unwell are due to an separated
connection between the soul of the individuals and it’s
spiritual home, a disconnection between ones inner and outer
worlds.
Shamanism does not dwell on past events: there is only a
vast, awesome, ever-moving, great moment of now, where
there is no separate past, present or future. It is the aim of the
shaman to help a person to connect to this inner integration.
Methods, tools, medicines and symbology will vary from
culture to culture but all forms of shamanism intend to
connect people to their own spiritual path. Most cultures use
the following shamanic techniques:

Animal power in us
Getting in touch with our animal connections and finding the
power of the animal kingdom that support us in our lives
struggle.
Soul retrieval
When alienated from our spiritual source and have a strong
feeling of a loss of soul, that may be linked to traumatic events
in our life, a soul retrieval dance can re-unite us with our soul
and feel a very strong unification with our Spirit and Being.
Extraction
The old cultures believed in malevolent spirits or jins who were
out to harm us or found their way into our body. Through
Shamanic extraction we can change malevolent images and
concepts we harbour and we are able to leave our being and
consciousness and united with our own being.
Divination
Learning to look into the past, present and future.

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Healing journey
To go on a shamanic journey is to find all the healing power
within to overcome obstacles and clear our own pathway.
Drumming
Scientific research has proven that shamanic drumming
relaxes the cardio vascular and activates the lymph system.
Sound and rhythm also connect with our Soul and Spirit so as
find clarity and an inner strength in our path.

7.5 Work
We must work or act so that we may keep pace with the
universe and its soul and keeping the brains fresh at all time. If
one is idle – doing nothing - one has become a stranger unto
the seasons and out of life's procession, which marches in
majesty and proud submission towards the infinite. When we
work, we are a flute through whose heart the whispering of
the hours turns to music.
Who among us would like to be a reed, dumb and silent,
when all else sings together in unison? When you work you
fulfill a part of earth's furthest dream, assigned to you when
that dream was born. And in keeping yourself with labour you
are in truth loving life, and to love life through labour is to be
intimate with life's inmost secret. But, if you in your pain call
birth an affliction and the support of the flesh a curse written
upon your head, then the answer is that nothing but the sweat
sweeping down your head shall wash away that which is
written from the ‘Echoes of Destiny’.
You have been told in one time or the other that life is
darkness, and in your weariness you echo what was said by
the weary. But life is indeed darkness-save only when there is
an urge, and all urges are darkness-save when there is
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work, and all work is void-save when there is love. And only
when you work with love can you bind yourself to your inner
self, others and the Unity.
And what is it to work with love? And not ‘Oga-ota, oga o’ta
owo alaaru yio pe’. Meaning, if you don’t work for your value
you miss out the love. It is only proper to weave the cloth with
threads drawn from your heart, so that your beloved are to
wear that cloth and to build a house with affection for your
beloved to dwell in that house. It is also to sow seeds with
tenderness and reap the harvest with joy, even as if your
beloved were to eat the fruit. It is to charge all things you
fashion with a breath of your own spirit, so all within the Unity
will be standing about you and watching.
Note that work is love made visible. And if you cannot work
with love but only with distaste, it is better that you should
leave your work and sit at the gate of the temple and take
alms of those who work with joy. For if you bake bread with
indifference, you bake a bitter bread that feeds a half man's
hunger. And if you grudge the crushing of the orange, your
grudge prepares a poison in the juice. And if you sing like
angels, and love not the singing, you muffle man's ears with
ordinary noise. So work to love and love to work.

7.6 Oddity of Life


Let us start our search for happiness from the very beginning
of the universe. The most plausible and widely accepted
theory of the creation of the universe is the 'Big Bang' theory
of creation. According to this, the universe is created from an
explosion in the super condensed material and consequent
expansion of material. However, even if all the conditions for
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factors had to be right for the consequent formation of the


universe.
It is known that our universe is expanding like a round
dotted balloon, which is being blown out. Each dot,
representing a star or a galaxy on it, is distancing itself from
each other. Now, if the rate of expansion of the newly created
universe had differed even very minutely from what it were
actually, there would have been no universe – perhaps, the
end of the Unity. A little slower and the cosmos would have
collapsed back, a little faster and the cosmic material would
have long ago completely dispersed.
If the density of the universe were a little more, the universe
would not be expanding but, due to the force of attraction of
atomic particles, contracting, ultimately collapsing. If the initial
density were a little bit less, then the universe would be
expanding far rapidly than now and no stars and no galaxies
would ever have formed.
Both the mass and the volume of a proton are incomparably
larger than those of an electron; but strangely enough, these
two particles have equal (though opposite) electrical charges.
Because of this fact atoms are electrically neutral. If the atom
was not neutral electrically, each atom would repel the other
and the entire universe would explode.
The four fundamental forces in the nature, in decreasing
order of intensity, are Strong nuclear force, Weak nuclear
force, Electromagnetic force, and Gravitational force. Still
within that range of forces, the individual and the comparative
magnitudes of the forces are delicately balanced otherwise
the universe would not have existed.
If the creation of the sustained universe was a miracle, the
evolution of life on it was also the same... Had our sun been
30% larger it would have been burnt out in four billion years,
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smaller 95% of stars are smaller than the sun other difficulties
would have followed. Similarly, had the sun not been a source
of steady energy for billions of years, had the orbit of earth
around sun been a bit narrower or wider, had planet Jupiter
been too close or too far to save earth from the rain of
steroids, had moon not been so improbably large to stabilize
the tilt of the Earth's axis to around 23 degrees, had the solar
system's position in the galaxy been too near the edge or too
close to the middle, advanced form of life would have been
impossible.
Carbon based molecules can only survive between the limits
of 120° and -20° C and earth is the only planet whose average
temperatures fall within those limits. When one considers the
universe as a whole, coming across a range of temperatures as
narrow as this is quite a difficult task because temperatures in
the universe vary from the millions of degrees of the hottest
stars to absolute zero (-273° C).
Nearly all of the radiation emitted by the sun falls into a
single band that is 10-25 of the whole spectrum. Radiations
which are necessary and conducive for life fall in this narrow
band. This is also the only radiation under which
photosynthesis works and our eye is able to see.
Water has extraordinary properties conducive for life below
4° C, it expands (so that even if ponds etc. are frozen at
surface underneath water is not), highest latent heat, high
thermal capacity, high thermal conductivity while that of ice
and snow is low, high surface tension, and viscosity, etc.
The first step to happiness is to realize this happy but,
impossible oddity of creation and life. We are extremely lucky
to have a universe, and even more so to have a universe full of
life. Since life is so improbable, Earth may be the only planet
on which there is life. To be born as a human being is the
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The seeds that ripen when we die are very important


because they determine what kind of rebirth we shall take.
Which particular seed ripens at death depends upon the state
of mind in which we die. If we die with a peaceful mind, this
will stimulate a virtuous seed and we shall take a fortunate
rebirth; but if we die with an unpeaceful mind, in a state of
anger, say, this will stimulate a non‐virtuous seed and we shall
take an unfortunate rebirth. This is similar to the way in which
nightmares are triggered off by our being in an agitated state
of mind just before falling asleep. The analogy of falling asleep
is not accidental, for the process of sleeping, dreaming, and
waking closely resembles the process of death, intermediate
state, and rebirth.
More direct and indirect proofs are discussed in the later
chapters.

7.7 Stress: Control, Change or Let Go!


Have you ever tried to exercise control over others until they
gets stressed out? Have you ever tried to control things or
events over which you had no control until may be you get
tired and stressed out.
There are different types of stressful situations, like people
interrupting you all the time but you can control. You can let
the interrupters know you are busy and don't have time to
talk.
Other stresses, like rush hour traffic, are usually beyond your
control. Right? But there are some things about rush hour
traffic that you can personally change, which may help may be
you taking a different route, or traveling at a different time. Of
course, these changes are not always possible. In that case,
you have to change your attitude about the situation, in order
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tapes or books-on-tape. Rush hour traffic won't seem as


frustrating because you'll be doing something to help keep
your mind off the traffic and other drivers.
In order to let go of commute stress, you have to accept the
situation. You must accept that you cannot control the traffic,
no matter how much you yell and gesture at other drivers to
speed up. A stressful commute can ruin your whole day, don't
let it! Accept that, if you are unable to change your route, or
your time of travel, you are powerless over everything on the
road, with the exception of your car and your attitude. Control
your attitude, let go of the traffic, and you can control your
stress!
You can learn to manage a great deal of your stress by
asking looking at each stressor and asking yourself, "Can I
control it, can I change it, or do I need to learn to let it go?"
The "control, change, or let go" concept is an important key
to stress management. We spend too much time worrying
about things over which we have no control that we have no
energy left to control the things we can. We become so
overwhelmed, that we feel like our whole life is out of control
and we'll never catch up. Once you understand the "control,
change, or let go" concept and start putting it into practice
you will be able to deal much better with stressful situations.
So much of our stress comes from trying to control other
people, places and things when we simply cannot. We are the
ones who end up with the stress and resulting headaches! The
people we try to control go home, or simply ignore us, barely
giving us a thought. That's why it is so easy to build up
resentments against other people in situations or jobs when
we don't think we have much control. On the job, it impedes
productivity and healthy teamwork. People tend to blame
other people. If you are stressed out because of others, it's
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letting go. Unless you are ready to leave your job, family, or
the planet earth, chances are you will continue working or
being around the "stressful people." Ask yourself if the other
person is actually a "stress carrier," or simply has a different
style.
Letting go is a process. It takes time, and doesn't always
happen at once just because we will it. We have to use our
thoughts to control our emotions and our actions. Remind
yourself that there are people and events you cannot control.
All you can control is your attitude and your reactions. Its
possible to change yourself-talk about the situation. Identify
which stresses you can control, take appropriate action, and
learn to let go of the things you can't.
Pick something in your life that stresses you out. Can you
control it? If so, what can you do? Can you change it? If so,
how? Perhaps you can only change or control a part of it. Do
you need to let it go? If so, what can you do in order to let go?
You can view life as unexpected and exciting or your can
view it as scary because you don't know what the future
holds. Take charge; take control or let it go. The choice is
yours!

7.8 Your Past, Present and Future


Yes, transformation is possible. You have lots of opportunities
to transform your past, present, and future. I have
experienced this myself.
Change is one of the most difficult things for people to
experience. Change scares us because whenever things
change, we are propelled into the unknown. Unfortunately,
much of what we "know" no longer serves us. So, even when
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familiar. And it is often the familiar we want to change, a


repetitive patterns in health, relationships, career, and money.
The definition of "transform" is to make over to a radically
different form, composition, state, or disposition. By
definition, then, to be transformed means we have to change.
Therefore, in order to experience the transformation of our
past, our present, and our future, we must be willing to
experience fear for a short while. To allow transformation to
happen, we have to be able to "be" with change and the fear
that may accompany it.
So if we want to be transformed - to change the form of our
lives and bodies, to alter our biological and experiential
composition, to have a "re-do" with a clean slate, and to
change our natural predisposition to life for the better - we
need to experience a personal transformation. The clues to
how we can enjoy all that are found in the definition of
"transformation"–a fundamental alteration in one's system of
beliefs. So in order to experience a personal transformation
we need to change our beliefs, specifically the beliefs that
created the portions of our lives that we would like to have
transformed.
Unfortunately, changing our beliefs can seem scarier than
changing things that are external to us. I was always told and I
believed it at the time that transforming my present and my
future were possible, but very difficult. And that changing
one's past history has already happened? This type of
transformation was only possible in movies, where the stars
magically time travel into the past, heroically changing the
course of a pivotal event earlier in their lives, and then return
to their present where they watch their lives and the lives of
those around them happily change right in front of their very
eyes.

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7.9 The Basic Survival Need


In the hierarchy of human needs, Maslow expresses the basic
survival needs as the first priority, and the needs is concerned
with man's highest potential when other needs have been met
–such as needs for love and affection, control and self-esteem
needs and the need for self-actualization, i.e. to find and fully
express one's true self.
There is one further need as a self-actualization is the need
for a higher truth.

7.10 The Need for a Higher Truth


This is the need required to make contact with the creative
force that is beyond the human personality, to make sense of
all the suffering and injustices of the survival struggle on
earth. This need has been evident in all cultures, expressed by
all religions, and is the spiritual path towards enlightenment,
towards knowing God, towards discovering the truth of All
That Is.
It is only by having at least a glimmer of this spirituality that
we each are part of, which we can aspire to the highest
potential of being human. To be able to genuinely love and to
forgive unconditionally, we need to see in all others - even our
enemies - the same essential quality that we ourselves are part
of. Spirituality is a transpersonal quality, it is beyond the ego
and obsession with the self. It is the maturity of intuition.
The path of personal transformation is primarily a process of
becoming aware of, facing up to and taking responsibility for
one's thoughts, feelings and actions, and then expanding this
self-realisation by communicating with others, retaining
integrity whatever the response, and further enhancing the
quality of communication with ever-increasing empathy and
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recognize their essential goodwill, however misguided it might


have become, and begin to recognize the spirituality of
humankind.

7.11 First We Need to Know Ourselves Better


The psychologist Nathaniel Brandon developed a technique
called Sentence Completion, to help his clients uncover and
communicate their true feelings that previously were
suppressed. This denial of feelings and true wishes or desires
occurs because of fear that acting on them or communicating
them will bring scorn or ridicule - in short, will upset the apple
cart. But to continue suppressing what one truly wants is to
die inside, to lose integrity.
Try completing the following sentences, with as much
honesty and frankness as you can muster. Move on to the
next one when you have uncovered an awareness that you
were previously suppressing. And then put this self-realisation
into action in your life.

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The Laws of the Universe


8.1 The Laws of the Universe
 TO CREATE 100% OF A REALITY WHICH NO ONE CAN CREATE BUT YOU.
 IT IS NEVER ABOUT ANOTHER PERSON, PLACE, OR THING, BUT YOU.
 EVERY PERSON, PLACE, OR THING IS A MIRROR AND HAS THE POTENTIAL TO BE A
GIFT FOR YOU.
 AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT, ONE EITHER IS GIVING LOVE, OR ASKING FOR LOVE.
 EVERYTHING IS THE MOST-HIGH, THE ALL-IN-ALL, THE ALL-THERE-IS. THEREFORE,
I AND YOU MUST BE HIM TOO.

8.2 Our Reality Within and Without


When we attach a value and a meaning to some event, we are
creating a perception. In other words, it is our choice how to
interpret what happened. One will usually interpret an event
by seeing it through whatever issues or beliefs he already have
going on inside of him. In other words, how you choose to see
something, the perception you have of an event, is not
necessarily what is happening, but how you choose to view it.
If one is angry enough, he will likely interpret what someone
says as sounding angry. If you clear yourself of internal issues,
you will be able to interpret and ‘create’ things from a higher
vibration state. Whatever perceptions you may have, and then
living by those perceptions, may determine the reality you will
have.
Here is an example from one of my Source Codes: you are
walking down the street, and a dog begins barking at you. If
you choose to live by the Laws which state that you create
your own reality, you will say to yourself: I am creating that
dog barking at me. That dog is a mirror of something going on
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you may discover that you were actually feeling a lot of fear,
or anger, maybe you weren't even consciously aware at the
moment that you were feeling fearful or angry about
something, and the dog sensed your fear or anger and barked.
The dog reacted to something fearful, some energy of fear or
anger that it felt from you. In that way, the dog was a mirror
of what you were feeling. You felt fearful or angry when the
dog barked, and that alerted you to the fact that you had to
be feeling that inside of you to create it happening on the
outside.
Then you have an opportunity to look within and figure out
what you are feeling fearful or angry about, get clear, and heal
it. That would be the way to perceive what just happened if
you are willing to accept that you create your own reality. If,
however, you do not take responsibility and accept that
whatever is going on inside of you will manifest as an event, a
mirror, in your outer world, then you would perceive the
situation more like this: I haven’t committed any offence. Why
did that stupid dog bark at me? Someone ought to have
trained it better than to let it bark and scare people. What a
mean, stupid dog a bulah-bulah . It scared me half to death.
And then nothing gets looked at internally, and there is no
opportunity to heal.
If you perceive or make a decision somewhere along the
way that you are a bad person and responsible for other
people's emotions, for making them feel bad about you, then
you will go through life hating yourself, thinking you are evil,
perhaps without knowing it. You may feel constantly ashamed
and guilty. You will continue to create situations where you
feel bad about yourself, where you think you have done
something wrong. You will, in all likelihood, create your life
where things always seem to go wrong, and relationships and
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And, all of this will change as your perception and


understanding of how the universe works becomes clearer -
such as the understanding that no one can create the reality of
another. And your life will also change when any false
perceptions you have about yourself, as well, are made
conscious - and you change them.
When you know that you are responsible only for what you
believe and what you feel, and when you know that others are
responsible only for what they feel and believe, that feelings
and beliefs about reality can only come from within, from
what each person chooses to believe, there is no longer
shame or blame, guilt or self hatred. Then you have the
opportunity to believe and create your life in any way you
choose - in a good way that works for you. You no longer
believe it if others tried to blame you, and you no longer
blame anyone else for your life. That is being the creator of
your life. You choose consciously, not unconsciously, what you
want to believe - you perceive yourself and life and others in a
way that is positive and allows life to work harmoniously for
you.
If you remain a victim, in victim consciousness, things don't
change, because victims never heal. How can they, if they
never accept that they are the ones responsible for creating
life that way in the first place? You can't change something if
you don't think you created it to begin with - or, if you don't
believe that you even have the power to create or change
anything. Victims remain stuck, thinking it is someone else's
fault, and that someone else has the power over their life, to
create their life a certain way, instead of themselves.
As soon as you give up 100% responsibility for creating your
own reality; as soon as you give up the responsible role; as
soon as you think someone is doing something to you, you
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only a reflection of your own energy and a reflection of


whatever energy you are putting out, or have inside of you.
In other words, if you have a perception that someone is a
hurtful person, you must have a belief that you will be hurt.
They then just play the role for you that you are expecting.
You create what you believe in.
The higher vibration is to see whatever happens as a mirror
of oneself in the ‘now’ or presently: You may ask yourself this
question: Am I still doing that? Where do I still hold that
judgment about myself - where do I still think that I am not ok?
I identify the judgment I am making against myself. I then ask:
What part of me do I still not love, and therefore I judge it?
Then I look at the other person and think: I don't need to
judge them. They are simply being a mirror of my own issue. I
ask: What in me been created that is in my reality?
In reality, all of us are really asking for love, which is what
we all truly want.
What is the mirror to me? Has instantly removed the
judgment. Note that if there is no charge, there is only
acceptance. Acceptance is the higher vibration. It is above
forgiveness, because forgiveness implies that something has
been done wrong. Acceptance says all is happening perfectly,
as it should. All is perfect. Whatever is happening enables us to
grow, if we look at it from being the Creator, not the victim. If
we look at it all as perfect, we immediately move into the
energy of Love, Trust, and Peace. Then there is no judgment. If
it's complicated, it's not Truth.
Know that if you feel anger or any other unpleasant or
uncomfortable emotion, you must carry that energy within
you. It isn't because of what someone else did. The situation
just reflected what was already there in you. Then you have
the opportunity to see what the mirror is for you, to see what
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change - therefore, seeing your reflection in another or in a


situation is a positive and useful thing.
In a thought triggers emotion you can see what kind of
thoughts you are thinking, and what kind of emotion it
creates. See how you feel. Use your five (5) senses to ask if
something doesn't feel right or comfortable in the way you
are responding or feeling. If you don't like the emotion you are
feeling, change the thoughts you are thinking. Get a new
perspective, in other words. Healing comes from taking
responsibility – the 3rd law.
The word emotion is a fascinating word. Look at it this way:
E-motion, or Energy, put into motion. That is what our
emotions do. They move energy and bring things into motion,
or manifestation. The force behind what we feel is what allows
us to create. First we have our thought, or perception. But it is
the emotional energy, the fuel that allows something to get
created. "I felt so strongly about that that I had to rush out
and do it". Therefore, to create in a positive way, we must
generate positive emotions from clear thoughts and
perceptions.

Lower vibration
expectation
judgment
rejection/blame
sorrow/apologizing

Higher vibration
Responding from compassion
observing
acceptance
seeing the mirror

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Fear is only a mask of our true desire. You need to find out
what your true desire is, and state that desire 100% positively:
"I choose to have or create...." There are 3 universal fears:
(1) abandonment
(2) not feeling worthy or good enough
(3) loss of trust which is the fear of surrender
Any time there is a fear, it will fall into one or more of these
categories. Check out what your fear is about.
You will continue to create the same kind of situations, you
will keep yourself in judgment, you will reinforce the lower
vibrational state of thinking it's someone else's fault, and you
will keep yourself in the perception of being victimized, until
you get out of the program and have a new perception.

8.3 Your Fear or Masked Desire

To find out and work with your fear, or masked desire, first
state what you fear - say or write the negative expression of it:
all that you think is going on, what bothers you, who you think
did what to you, another's flaws, etc.

ALL BELIEFS THAT CAUSE YOU FEAR ARE ERRONEOUS.

This exercise will help you see what your erroneous beliefs
are that keep you in fear, that create the difficulty you are in,
that make you see your own issues in others and judge them
for it, and that keep you from manifesting what you want.
The number one addiction to an erroneous core belief, what
keeps you in it, comes from feeling guilt and shame. That's
what makes us not want to see these issues as our self. In
reality, there is no shame or guilt. There is only growth and
love. If you treat yourself with love, you will be able to see that
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become even clearer, ever more loving. And that is the


perfection of the journey, of what we experience, of seeing
ourselves in the mirror.

8.4 Ultimate Truth About Yourself


Next, say or write your preferred truth, expressing what you
choose to create, as 100% positive. Use all positive words. Then
put your highest truth in the form of an "I am" statement. For
example: "I am powerful" or "I am a loving, wonderful human
being," or "I am able to love myself." Continue to say your
positive I am statement throughout the day and for as long as
you need to, until the negative program is neutralized.
Here is the cycle of an erroneous core belief loop:

1. You feel guilty.


2. You judge something or someone, including yourself.
3. You feel guilty about doing that.
4. Then you become fearful that you will be punished.
5. You feel shame, and you hide it all away so you're not
aware the issue is really even there, that it's yours.
6. In order to get away from the shame, or deal with it in
some way, you blame others. This is called projection. You
put it out on someone or something else.
7. You feel guilty about doing that and the loop goes on.

8.5 Re-adjusting an Old Belief


1. Own the fear or pattern. See how you react to a given
situation - look at what you are afraid of. Ask: "What keeps
me believing in that fear? What will happen if I let go of it?
What is the pay off for keeping it? What do I get to do or
not do if I keep the fear?"

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2. Decide if this pattern serves you anymore. Decide if you


want to keep the program, or change it. If you decide to
keep it, observe why, without judgment.
3. If you decide to change it, decide what you want to
change it to, exactly. Be specific. You must have a new
belief, a choice for a new perception. If you choose to
believe in a new reality, you eliminate fear.
4. Put out your intention - what you intend to create. Say: "I
intend to do …." You can even state how you will do it,
step by step. Your intention must be followed by
willingness.
5. Ask Spirit or your Higher-Self, for guidance or help to
achieve the new intention. State your new reality in the
form of "I am"
6. Now, most importantly allow yourself to feel very clearly
and strongly what it would feel like to operate out of and
have that new belief in your life. What would you feel? Let
that feeling flow into every cell of your body.

Intention, or a new thought form, plus emotion creates the


transformation into new ways of being and brings about the
new pattern you are choosing. "E-Motion" means deep feeling
and it is the energy that puts things into motion. And that
which creates joy, growth and freedom. What could be better
than that?
Fears have supported us, and we tend to want to hold onto
them through our anger or other emotional reactions because
it's the only way of life we've known. Fears can be survival
tools, but will keep you locked in a lower vibration that
doesn't help your life. This is the energy that sucks ways of
behaving out of fear:

 Being aloof.

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 Being an interrogator (Who did this?. Why did you....?!


Didn't you realize that...?! etc.).
 Being an intimidator (energy makes others feel afraid
of you by backing people down).
 Being someone who creates confusion for others
(gets them off center).
 Being a "poor me."

If you find yourself worried or fearful about what other people


think, the mirror of that really is: you are in judgment of
yourself.
If you are in doubt, you are caught between realities and
aren't sure what to believe.
If you are in fear, you are actually holding a belief that you are
inadequate to deal with something.
A fear of judgment is actually a desire for unconditional love.
If you are in pain, you are in resistance to something. What
are you resisting? Identify what you are getting by holding
onto the pain.
Change the perception that there was any damage done in a
given situation. If you are the creator, then you created that
situation for some reason. What was the reason?
If you are in pain, you are judging. Move instead to
acceptance. It is all perfect. Ask: What is the gift of the mirror
for me here?
If you are asking why, you are into blaming. Go to your
heart, instead. There is no war happening, unless you create
one by your perception.
If you are in resistance to something, you are trying to be in
control, and you are fearing a loss of power. It is a false belief
that you will lose control or power, because:

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If you identify with God, The Most-High, if you know that


you are God, that is power enough. And that is all there is. It's
already working out perfectly. And everything else is God, too.
Everything is already perfect, and there is no need for you to
try to control anything. It is impossible to do so, anyway.
What you can create is responding from Peace and living
from higher vibration states. That then creates a reality that
will mirror that higher vibration state.

8.6 The Role of the Ego


It is the ego which allows us to be in this reality where there is
duality. That is why we see this reality with 2 eyes. But, we
must understand the Higher Truth - that all is One, One Energy
Source - and that perception comes with seeing from a single
eye, the spiritual eye. The ego's true purpose is to offer us
choice by comparison. It helps us decide what we want to
experience and learn in this lifetime. The ego controls
emotions. We need it for our wide range of emotions, which
we learn from - in this way we learn to work with energy and
use it appropriately. Self sabotage is the ego in its lower
vibration.
Listen to the Higher Self. The ego was designed to deal with
polarity - neither side of which is the real truth. The Higher
Truth is larger than, bigger than, either side of polarity. It is the
point in the middle, the zero point, the neutral point where
there is no attachment.
Honor where someone is in their development, what lessons
they have set up to learn for themselves.
Using these laws will help you to allow others to express
themselves, while you remain at peace.

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Accept WHAT IS as Perfection; then use your


power of choice to create the reality that you prefer.

8.7 Turning Barriers into Bridges


Only the person who never gives up in life, who persists with
his wish to find and fulfill the promise of himself, makes this
truly self-liberating discovery: those places that he once
mistook as being impassible barriers to his happiness become
as bridges to the same, but only if he learns to welcome them
as part of his journey. From now on you must spin your straw
into gold. So be it!

8.8 Secret Power of Self-Detach


When you hear someone say, "I'm sick and tired of it all", what
he is really saying without realizing it is that he's sick and tired
of suffering from his own lack of understanding. This all
becomes clear once we understand that unhappiness does not
come at us, it comes from us. For instance, impatience with
our level of understanding is the very level of understanding
we are impatient with. The understanding of this spiritual
principle allows us to disconnect ourselves from our
impatience. Life becomes instantly better. For one thing, the
frustration fades and in its place, learning flowers. And the
more we inwardly grow, the easier our whole life flows.
This new and higher idea of disconnecting ourselves from
whatever we think has us blocked leads to true self-liberation
because we have never been trapped by anything outside of
our own lack of understanding. This is why even the attempt
to disconnect ourselves from our present life-level already
belongs to a higher level of understanding.

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This new, intelligent action we are calling "self-disconnect"


works for you by gradually breaking down the painful circle-of-
self that is repeatedly formed by asking the problem for the
solution. Barriers begin to crumble and disappear, because
you have stopped creating them. In the truest meaning of the
words, you are getting out of your own way! Practice self-
disconnect as often as you can. The more you work at this
special kind of letting go, the freer your days will flow and the
higher your life will go.
Persistence is everything in your personal work. You must
persist even if it is only with your wish to be persistent. You
must persist in spite of all forces that seem to be against your
wish to break through to a New You. Believe me, there are no
real obstacles to keep you from making it all the way to a
Brand New World. Remember this. With any true inner-
growth, the hardest step is always the one you have never
taken before. The greater the doubt you will step across, the
greater the possibility for walking beyond yourself, because
doubt and fear form the perimeter of all self-limiting barriers.
Risk only comes into account in the self-limited view of seeing
life as a win/lose scenario.
When self-discovery becomes more important than winning,
then every situation in life presents you with an opportunity to
win in a new way. Every time you step past yourself, you win a
little more freedom, freedom to take another and yet another
step into the great unknown where eventually, with
persistence, fear turns into fearlessness because you have
disconnected yourself from yourself.

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Karma
9.1 Finding Karma
You can work through your karma the slow way, by living it, or
you can go looking for it. It is by the emotional content of
karma that we usually discover it, but you can also access it
visually. Wait until you have been practicing the grounding
eight times a day for at least two weeks.
Then, do the grounding as usual, but after you have locked
it in, start to look inside of yourself and see where the Light is
not. Surrender those places. You can be very methodical and
start with the big toe of one foot and work your way through
your body, or you can just let your unconscious show you what
it thinks is most important first.
Every nerve and cell in the body is capable of retaining
memory, not just the brain.
This is not a process you can do once and call it done. It is
daily hygiene, just like brushing your teeth. Your body will only
show your karma that is ready to be cleared. Clear it all one
day, and by the next day the next layer shows up to be
cleared. It is like peeling the onion – do remember this. Day to
day events will also trigger karma, bring it into consciousness.
Your thoughts can trigger it. Notice what bugs you, and
surrender or let-go the feeling of being bugged.
All day, every day there is a conversation going on between
your mind and your body. You can detach from both, and
observe it happening. You have a thought, and your body
provides an emotion, which brings another thought, and
another emotion, and a feeling. By feeling, we mean a
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aware of a place of tension inside of you. Feel the tension, and


surrender it. I do this every night, by pumping my belly several
times during a breathing exercise. By doing this I release any
thing that gave me tension during the day.
You are not only your mind, or your body. You are an
infinite spirit, and so you can watch the mind and body
chatting away to each other, and simply surrender the tension
points the body shows you. Those tension points are your
karma. Even after you clear your personal karma, you may go
on to clear the karma of the group ego mind of your city, your
ancestors, your country, your environment. Yes it is a simple
thing to do if you decided to do it. (Know that you will clear,
successfully, those karmas that have the same auras with
yours at the time of your action.)
If you are clearing karma from someone you know by
remote, you will tend to feel it in your body, as a mild physical
discomfort that draws your attention to what areas need
clearing. It is therefore preferable to do it visually.
Take for example, if you are dealing with someone who has
a lot of power chakra issues, you might feel a tightness around
the bottom of your ribs like say you cannot take a deep full
breath, or a knot in your stomach, or an ache in my back, or a
tingling in you head. You will observe the sensation with
detachment.
But must feel fancy to do it, you will follow the connections
it makes through the body. Most stuff will make a complete
circuit up and down of the body, where it is feeding on the
energy meridians. You might trace a stomach knot's threads
down one leg and through the foot into the earth, back in the
heel, up the back of the leg following it's own path to the
shoulders and around one side of the head, and back down
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whole circuit and everything attached to the knot to be


removed as well.
Practice! Practice!! Practice!!!
You may also use counter-clockwise tornados. Clockwise
dancing and vortexes are most often used in Wicca. That
action can result in the manifestation of Karma. I'm sure
everyone has had the experience of a spell having unexpected
negative side effects? Counter-clockwise spin dissipates
energy, so it can be used to break up and remove the
blockages of karma. I seek nothingness or void, so I use
counter-clockwise vortexes 100% of the time. I
RRRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIII all night. Do clear your karma! It is so
simple. You go left to end up at the left, while somebody else
prefers the opposite. So be it!

9.2 Clearing Karma


Faith method
Faith, surrender, submission and gratitude, do the magic. Give
it up to Cosmic Reality, or use the name of whatever Deity or
Power you prefer.
Your attention to something is an attachment to it, so you
need to let go by distracting yourself so Cosmic Reality can
take it. Shifting your attention to taking a deep breath
afterwards, will detach your attention from it, and also shows
that you believe it is handled, God/Spirit/Cosmic Reality will
take care of it, and you are not going to worry about it
anymore. That aspect of surrender is very important if you
have faith. Worry shows lack of faith.
Feel it flowing out your head. (Usually, but sometimes, out
your feet, and sometimes burning up in the heart chakra or
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Sometimes a release will be accompanied with muscle


twitches and a desire to stretch. Muscles tighten against the
old memories of pain, and relax when the memory is cleared.
One of the most dramatic cases of this is that one may grew 8
cm taller in a single night, as all of the crap that held one in a
slouched posture, curled protectively around his belly, will fall
away.
First, there must be recognition of stuff (or the so called
‘gift” you wish to give out), somehow through visualization or
feeling, getting a grasp on what is to be released. What is to
be released might be, this pain in my body, this feeling of
doubt, this funny grey bit of resistance I am seeing/feeling, this
annoyance with so and so. Some people don't like this idea of
giving karmic crap to Cosmic Reality as a gift. The reason you
offer it as a ‘gift’, is that Cosmic Reality doesn't judge it, and
your negative opinion of wanting it gone, is also an
attachment. Everything in life, including life itself is a gift of
Spirit, whether we judge it as gift or garbage from our limited
perspective, gift is what it is. Don't worry about giving up too
much, or giving away something you need. What is given to
Cosmic Reality, surely comes back better if it is still needed.
She will give it a tune-up and hand it back. This is real.
Thanking Spirit for accepting the gift, is like showing faith
that you believe and expect that It will and that, which It has.
Thank you is showing trust that nails the request into the Now,
seals the deal, like “So be it” or “Amen” or “Ashe”. It good to
know that gratitude itself can be enough to remove a
blockage. Even If you don't like something, apply gratitude,
and it will change.
After the pause of breath, gently turn your attention to
where the thing you gave away used to be and you will
discover you see it, if it is still present, completely differently.
All of its silver linings will be showing.

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Give up karma, get back insight and compassion.


Sometimes there will be some bits of crap still left, because
your indication of this ‘gift’ didn't cover everything. Find and
surrender those bits too.

Alternate phrases:
“Cosmic Reality, please take this, and everything connected to
it, wherever it exists. It is a gift for You. All Yours. Thank you
very much.” (breathe a sigh of release)
This clears what you can see and what you cannot see, that
is related. Like, some issues may have connections and
reflections all through you, your environment, your past lives,
and even in other people. Cosmic Reality will know what to
take.

“Cosmic Reality, please take this, in top down fashion from


point of origin. It is a gift for You. All Yours. Thank you very
much.” (breathe sigh of release)
This is time travel to change the past. After a speck of
karma is first created, it will come up again and again, as
Cosmic Reality gives you an opportunity to make a choice to
release it. Likely, you did not know to release it, so instead it
got bigger from your resistance.
For example, perhaps when you were a child someone put a
spider down your shirt, and ever since then you have had a
phobia about spiders, and every time you see a spider it gets
worse. This phrase asks Cosmic Reality to go back to before
the first event occurred, and clear the whole pattern from the
beginning. When the first event is cleared, all other events
that came after disappear right into the now. The event is
gone as if it never existed - it no longer exists.
Time and space are illusions, the universe is being created
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now, and using this phrase you can change the past using the
power of surrender in the now.

“Cosmic Reality, please take this, and everything connected


to it, in top down fashion from point of origin. It is a gift for You.
All Yours. Thank you very much.” (breathe a sigh of release)
You must clear everything and everything connected with
it, all the way back into the past.
Nature abhors a vacuum, so it is important to fill the ‘void’
with light or else a clearing session can leave you feeling kind
of ‘empty’ and seeking new attachments to fill the void.
Surrender the karmic stuff, then also surrender the hole where
it used to be like bugs bunny cartoon, portable holes, hand
them over now!

“Cosmic Reality, please take the hole/space/place where that


stuff I surrendered to You, used to be and fill them with Your
Grace and Light. Thank you very much.” (Breathe in light,
through your feet.)

Additional universal phrases of surrender:

Cosmic Reality (God/Allah…) Will be Done;


It will be as Cosmic Reality Wills;
Cosmic Reality has it handled;
Even though I walk in the valley of death
I will fear no evil, for I am;
It is in the hands of Fate;
I release any attachments;
It is the Will of God/Allah...

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9.3 Aka Cords: The Unity


The ‘Aka cords’ is a term from Huna mysticism, it defines aka
cords very elegantly. Everything is connected to every other
thing: relationship, attraction, gravity, love etc. They are the
‘super strings’ that are holding the universe together.
As aka cords show up in the etheric, they are the underlying
nature of how relationships connect people. Everything you
see, everything you touch, creates a thread of energy between
you and it. However, these threads of attraction are usually
are only readily visible when they represent the union in
relationships, because the cords of love between people are
stronger than attachments to things. Like the apron-strings
between mother and child, they are how we exchange
empathy, love, and information. This usually happens on an
unconscious level for most people. These etheric cords are a
normal connection between friends and lovers. Most cords
are flimsy and fade quickly, and they can also become negative
attachments and vampiric siphons.
When you grow an awareness of these threads, it becomes
very easy to manage these cords with the power of
imagination. Even without intuition, one can do the ritual.
Guardian angels (personal Malaeka) will act on your requests –
so you think. For most people, knowing about the cords is not
very important because the unconscious mind takes care of
them. For healers, professional psychics and other folks who
are doing energy work, it becomes more important to keep
the tools in order and cut cord attachments that no longer
serve. Sometimes a patient will continue to draw energy from
a healer after the session is finished, and while this is a good
thing in the short term, in the long term it can be hard on the
healer and become a crutch, or negative addiction for the
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This is why it is necessary to occasionally do a ritual to cut


any aka cords that are not in one’s highest good, by sending
out a last blast of unconditional love and make the fire to
manifest whatever the person on the other end needs.
Usually I may not ask who is cut, one of my Source Codes
said: I simply trust in the judgment of my Higher-Self or All-
That-Is. There is only fear to fear, and it comes from me. I ask
that the highest good be done, anyways, as I am not yet free
of creative fears. So, I give up my fears to Him, and get to ride
out of duality, into that space where all things begin.
There are several ways to disconnect cords. It is best to be
clear in your intention, so that you don't cut cords which
represent win/win relationships that serve your highest good,
as said earlier. In the ritual you first ask to be shown the
beneficial cords, and send love, gratitude and blessings down
these cords – Use power of imagination. Then ask to be shown
ones that do not serve, and cut them out of the race. This
method is nice and simple, but those who are determined, will
sometimes show up in your life again, or simply connect new
cords as often as they are cut. Always determine to cut them
out.

Get grounded and draw in as much light as you can hold,


especially with the earth's fiery crystal core. With your
imagination, first, ask to be shown all of the cords that
connect you to people who are in service to your Highest
Good, and only those cords. You may get an impression of
being in the center of a big spider web or perhaps a
cocoon with many threads coming from different chakras
and radiating out from you in all directions. You may
possibly get a sense of being surrounded by a crowd of
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imagine it there... it doesn't matter. What is important is


your intention.

These are the cords that benefit you, so you do not need
to clear them. Thank these people for being in your life
and gratefully send light and love down the cords to
them. Give thanks for being shown that you are loved and
supported, and let the vision go. Do not be surprised if
some old friends contact you in the days following, to tell
you they were thinking of you warmly. Nice bonus!

Then, once again fill yourself with as much light as you can
hold. This time, ask to be shown all of the cords that
connect you to people or things that feed on your energy
but do not serve your highest good. Most of these are
people who want something that they think you can give
them. Release a generous blast of the light you have
drawn into yourself down the cord, as a farewell gift of
unconditional love for them that will show up on their end
as whatever it is they think they need from you. Let your
intention be that the recipient's higher self choose the
form in which the love manifests on the other end.
Essentially, this means that the recipient's higher self or
unconscious will use the energy as it thinks best. You do
not need to know what it manifests as.

As the light goes down the cord, imagine that it burns up


the cord like a lit fuse, so that the cord is gone. Then,
breathe more light into yourself, to replace what you gave
away. Be sure to offer thanks to Goddess for Her
abundance that allows you to be generous, and conclude
the ritual. You may find that some of these people will
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might contact you in the days following and complain that


you feel distant. Others, the bottomless pits will not be
satisfied with your gift and will promptly a reattach to
you.

Twenty four to seventy hours later, repeat the exercise.


Give love to those who support you as before, and again ask
to see the cords that connect you to those who do not serve
your highest good. There will be fewer cords than before;
ideally there will be none. The cords that have been
reattached will be those of the persistent bottomless pit
vampires who reconnect the cords no matter how many times
you cut them, or how much of what kind of energy you send.
If you are dealing with this kind of persistent bottomless pit
vampire, there is another method you can use according to my
Source Code. In this technique, instead of sending them more
energy, you leave the cords as they are, but reverse the flow
and take back only your own energy that they stole from you.
Imagine you are sucking on the cords like a drinking straw. Be
clear in your intention not to feed on their energy, but only to
take back your own stolen energy from them. Since you are
just taking your own energy back, you are not going to get any
junk from them.
Take your time at it, sip slowly so they will not be abruptly
and unnecessarily deflated. You would not want them to pass
out while driving – would you? or anything of that nature - No.
When these vampires realize (probably unconsciously) that
there is no free lunch and they are no longer getting
fed/rewarded through the cords, they will detach them from
you on their own, like a leech dropping off. They will give up,
pull in their cords and stop preying on you. They may go off
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someone else does. You can only control your own energy or
you tax your daily Karma unduelly.
Then if there are still any negative cords that have been
reconnected in spite of your generosity, leave them attached,
and draw on them several times a day until the vampires give
up and detach.
When I get impatient with it, I put it on autopilot... I ask my
guardian Angels to disconnect the cords from me, on my end
and plug them into the sender's higher self, or the Earth
source, as They think best. To do this, as they are formed. I'm
not suggesting you do this, though. The traditional ritual is
good practice for learning about how relationships work, in
the etheric. astral, spiritual world. Learn. You are learning.

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Concept of the Prime


Mover
10. Prime Mover

If we apply the idea of causality to the study of motion of


objects, then the motion of a body is the result of its being
moved by some other body, i.e., another body moved any
moved body.
In the so-called cosmological proof: that in the worlds, some
objects are in motion. All motions result from being moved by
some other objects; that if an object itself is moving and it is
necessarily being moved by some other object, then the latter
must necessarily be moved by something else; that the above
argument cannot be repeated indefinitely. Therefore one can
definitely arrive at a prime mover that is not moved by anything.
The above conclusion belongs to simple-minded and lazy-
minded individuals. This notion needs to be examined logically
and brought to its finality, since there was nobody there in the
origin. Even the Pious, Saints and Prophets waver in a pool of
open and logical challenges, because of a sole reliance on
spiritual perceptions, which change from one time, era, tribe,
race to another.
The question of evolution or creation of Man, animals or
non-living things is not solely coming to mind now. What
comes to mind is how the spiral galaxy, a system beyond the
Milky Way Galaxy (a rotating disk containing about 1011 stars
including our Sun) came about. How?

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Nobody was around at the origin. So there are no


eyewitness reports. Cosmogonists can reach their conclusions
only on the basis of the subtle observations that are barely
within reach of modern instruments. These instruments give
them vast scope within which to exercise their imaginations
only.
There are two models for the creation of the Universe: Big
Bang and Continuous Creation. These would be brought
forward in the discussion. The following few observations and
analyses are to be noted without any bias reference.

He made him complete and breathed into him of


His spirit, and gave you ears and eyes . . . it is that
you give thanks. (Qur’an)
This is saying that the spirit of God is breathed into every man
created, and it points to the mystical relation between human
and Divine Nature. And for the created man to function
properly, some features were incorporated during the ‘time’
of creation.

Let there be light and there was light. (The Bible)


Obviously this has taken us, vividly, back to the period of the
creation of man, animal and other matters in this Earth. What
happened before this statement was pronounced could not
be ascertained. It is only obvious and quite clear that the Earth
was in a total darkness before this command was initiated. It
was believed that God had made the command.

In the beginning was the word and God was the word. (Bible)
The above statement has shown us that there was a Prime
Mover, perhaps as at the time of creation of the Universe, and
at the time of the creation of Man, animals and other earthly
things.

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The heaven and the earth were joined together as one unit of
creation before they were cloven asunder. (Qur’an)
This is an obvious proof of the occurrence of the so-called “Big
Bang” or the expansion of the core-centre in the evolution of
the Universe. There was no indication of the period of and
what brought about this action.

Qi develops and rises, jing hua floats aloft, turning about


following the flow, it is called the Heavenly River, also called Yun
Han and all the stars appear. (Wu Li Lun, a Chinese scholar in the
3rd Century, AD)
This simply means that stars are being formed by the
contraction (mover) of gas clouds. The above statement
supports the two above references mentioned from the holy
Qur’an, Qi representing the context of God’s breath in this
respect. Note that Qi = breath, hua = essence and Heavenly
River is the Milky Way.

Man is born into this Existence and the tradition didn’t know any
thing regarding human creation. This is confirmed through most
of their words and doings. They referred to their
Ancestors and not a particular Deity. They have lesser gods who
carry off their request, through sacrifice or rituals, to the
Supreme Being. (African Tradition)
This idea has shown that the so-called ancestors migrated
from another world or space to found or husband the earth,
so to say. So there had been an existence somewhere else.
And that the universe was in existence before the so-called
Aur-Amashida, who were the descendants of the primordial
ancestors. The Amashida-kinds were so powerful that they
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According to a superior account, in a proper study of


mankind, Allan Wilson at the University of California, has
shown by genetics and after studying the pattern of DNA
(DEOXYRIBONUCLEIC ACID) in people now alive and produced a
human family tree showing that the species emerged in Africa
about 200,000 years ago and first left the continent to begin
its world wide spread 100,000 years ago.
Wilson’s work relied on a type of DNA found not in the cell
nucleus, but in its mitochondria. These structures, which
convert sugar and oxygen into carbon dioxide, water and the
energy that runs the cell, are the descendants of bacteria that
took up residence in eukaryotic cells about 18 billion years ago.
One consequence of their origin is that they carry their own
genes. And since (in people, at least) individual receive all their
mitochondria from their mothers, it is easy to trace
mitochondria DNA back through the generations without
having to worry about the mixing of genes from mother and
father that goes on in the rest of the DNA.

Scientists have two general models for the existence of


Universe:

Continous Creation and Big Bang (Scientific Statement).


According to the Continous Creation (CC), creation is
continuing all the time and so very slowly for any known
sensitive instrument can measure. And in the course of some
billions of years, the amount of matter in the Universe would
double as a result of the slow drizzle of creation. In this action,
the galaxies would have moved apart to the point where the
amount of space between them had increased or even
doubled.
When the highly condensed hydrogen matter exploded from
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of still expanding galaxies, the energy required in this creation


is zero equivalent energy of light balanced with the negative
energy of gravitational field. The time of the bang obviously
would be so negligible. So, the four energy laws came into
play: Gravity, Electromagnetism, Strong nuclear and Weak
nuclear are acting together (Unity) in the space-less compact
at the equivalent or even beyond the speed of light. The first
ever Big Bang (of stored energy in vacuum or void) explosion,
in the presence of light space, could have been released and
registered between 10 to 20 billion years ago. The fifth energy
was formed in order to eternalize the initial outburst. So is the
word: The heaven and the earth were joined together as one
unit of creation before they were cloven asunder.
The word ‘join’ could mean that the total elements of the
Universe were originally in a single space, but broken apart
due to a bang or expand continuously in space, hanging about
There have been other minor explosions, such as one
produced our Milky Ways, but formed within the fifth energy
product of the Big Bang. Man-made explosive matters are
ones that quickly come to mind. The fission and fusions of
atoms forming bombs. The lesson here is that both light
and spirit evolved at the same time since the occurrence of
the first Big Bang.
From the above examinations and analyses, it is absolutely
unreasonable for any human being, who just came to this
Realm of Existence; just in a recent time of less than. 200,000
years ago (since whatever vision, miraculous occurrence that
might have happen to man must fall within the light of the
formation of the Milky Ways, be it spiritual or scientific) so as
to claim who is or was the Prime Mover. A stupid question
asked by feeble-minded individuals.
What could be certain is the existence of Matter. Behind the
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exactitude of proportion and precise method granted by the


Invisible Mind.
What we should bear in mind is that there is and was no
such thing as injustice in the Universe. What it means here is
that if we have granted the above stated premises concerning
the composition of Mind and Matter, there can be no such
thing as injustice. Yet seemingly unjust things are done every
day and seemingly go unpunished, because the punishments
are always administered. So the so-called ‘scientific ghosts’
come in i.e. vengeance is mine. The sinner who imagines his
sins are undiscovered is a compound fool who deceives
himself. For instance, a murderer (direct or indirect) who has
secretly torn the life of his shrieking victim in some
unfrequented spot, and has succeeded in hiding his crime
from what we call ‘justice’ cannot escape the Spiritual Law of
vengeance within the Unity. Murdered creature often returns
to the Realm of Existence in human form to dodge his
murderer down. No known man has ever escaped the psychic
law of equity any more than we can escape the material law of
gravitation. So, it unbelievable therefore to attribute the
spiritual law of vengeance on the Most High or the so-called
prime Mover. Not much of a Deity or a prime Mover but what
you are or represent.
If there is any race with superior historical pride over others,
it is the Africans. Their existence was closer to the period of
the so-called ‘creation’; hence they have full authority talking
about the Prime-or-Nonprime Mover. As more scientific
researches are proceeding, Africans are likely to be proved
right. So be it!
One of the oldest questions to be asked about the universe
was "How did it begin?" That question always puzzled
mankind. The answer to such question depended on the faith
and civilisation current to the scientist.

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In the early days of the Greek philosophers the universe was


the making of gods and goddesses, but how they actually
performed the act of creation was not to be inquired into, for
such matters were considered divine and, thus, laid outside
man's comprehension. The Greek plan incorporated a
marvellous scientific picture of the universe, for whilst they
described the motions of the planets with mathematical
precision, they believed them to be, like the stars, made of
some celestial material that never decayed.
In ancient China, the whole universe, everything on earth
and in the sky, was considered part of a giant organism.
However, they envisaged a universe that was many millions of
years old and, in this respect, they were close to today's view.
Western civilisation has grown up under the influence of
Greek ideas and also that of Chinese teachings, which insist on
a single God who is creator and sustainer of the universe; a
God, who is also the single God according to the Muslim faith.
The Bible does not contain any scientific information of note
about the universe, but it reminds us of that: In the beginning
was the word and the word was with God and the word was
God. Galileo used to be fond of saying that the Bible teaches
the way to go to heaven, not the way heavens go. The Church,
in its constant attempts to keep the masses under its control,
permitted no speculation into these divine matters. The
misfortune of Copernicus, as a result of his statement, that it
was the sun and not the earth to be the centre of the spherical
universe, is well known.
Even after the beginning of the modern scientific period,
when Newton had worked out the motions of planets in great
detail and also invented the idea of universal gravitation,
people still considered the creation of the universe to be a
divine act, which lies above speculation.

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With the vast amount of information collected by


observation of deep space in the last sixty years, as well as the
development of relativity and quantum theory, scientists are
at last in a position to work out how the universe began.
Today, speculation and scientific research into cosmology
lies outside the realm of religion, to the extent that some
scientists today do not consider the creation of the universe to
be a divine act altogether. However, these scientists are
forgetting that when they trace the origin of the universe to
its origin, or to that moment that sparked the beginning... they
too concede that science becomes unable to function, for at
that initial moment all the laws of physics seem to break
down.
The failure of some scientists to contribute this initial
moment of creation to a divine force stems from the fact that
they think of this initial moment as the moment when all the
laws of physics break down, rather than being the moment
when all the laws of physics came to be.
The creation of the universe is a subject that is given great
attention in the Qur’an. The huge and varied amount of
information contained in the Qur’an about almost every stage
and aspect of the creation continues to astound scientists
today because of its very accurate agreement with 20th
century knowledge. How can a book written in the 7th century
contain such a rich amount of scientific information that was
to be attained 14 centuries later? Much of this information was
discovered only in the last fifty years! Neutral and unbiased
observers do consider this to be valid evidence that such a
book could never have been the product of any human being
for the simple reason that, at the time, no human possessed
such knowledge.
All the evidence available today suggests an explosive origin
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existence. This is what is referred to as the ‘Big Bang’. The


theory of the Big Bank which has successfully taken over the
place of the 'Steady state' theory was worked out in the 1920's
by two scientists quite independently of each other, the
Russian meteorologist Alexksandr Friedmann and the Belgian
mathematician Georges Lemaitre. The Big Bang itself resulted
from an extremely dense singularity. The creation of the
universe is one of matter, space and time that are intimately
linked together. Matter and space were joined as one and
then were separated in the explosion. This is described in the
Qur’an.
(It is very important to know that science does not
discriminate when it comes to disseminating of facts and
nothing but facts. It must be stated here that, until proved
otherwise, most of the italics to follow are written from the
Qur’an without any emphases or reference [any individuals
who want to know more must read more], because they
open up some basic facts that no one can push aside. These
facts, which could also be found in all other scriptures, was
written openly by one of my Source Codes, are not known to
be direct to any scientific statements. It is the facts the
Nothingness of Self-Esteem cares about.)

"Do not the unbelievers see that the skies and the earth were
joined together and we ripped them apart?"

The subsequent history of the Big Bang saw the Americans


George Gamow, Ralph Alpher and Robert Horman indicate
that the whole event took place at a very high temperature.
This view has been confirmed by the later discovery of the
background microwave radiation. The eventual formation of
galaxies resulted as a condensation, under gravitational pull,
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contained helium and a few other light elements as well. Over


the ages, and with the formation of galaxies, the gas has
gradually condensed into individual starts. The universe in its
very early stages was, thus, still in the form of hot gases which
is mentioned in the Qur’an in the following verse:

"Then He took hold of the sky when it was smoke."

Note that the verse did not say clouds or gas, but smoke,
which is a very accurately described as smoke are cold. Once
these stars were formed a system had to be devised to govern
their motion. The kinetic energy stored in the foreword
movement of these bodies could not be relied upon on its
own, otherwise stars and also planets would have shot off in
straight lines dispersing into space. No planet would ever
revolve around its mother star, which also applies to earth
and, thus, life would not have evolved on earth, because the
whole of life on earth is so dependent on the sun.
Gravity was the brilliant divine invention, working as an
equating factor to the centrifugal force to induce precise
orbits for all heavenly bodies. The speed, mass and distance of
two bodies have to be worked out very precisely to induce an
orbit.
If you were to throw a tennis ball upwards towards the sky,
it would travel upwards as a result of the kinetic energy stored
in the throw but, eventually, the gravity of the earth will
overcome and the ball fall back to the ground. But, if you were
to throw the ball at a very high speed (say 10km per second) it
would escape the gravity of the earth and leave the earth
altogether. This is what is known as the escape velocity. It is
the speed required for a moving body to enable it to escape
the gravity of a planet or star.

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When an artificial satellite is placed in orbit around the earth,


what happens is that at a required distance, while the satellite
is shooting out of the earth's gravitational field, its speed is
reduced which reduces its kinetic energy and with some
directional adjustments its kinetic energy can be equated with
the earth'' gravity. All these adjustments must be very
precisely executed at a precise distance and speed otherwise a
correct orbit cannot be obtained.
The endless intricate orbits and mathematical precision in
the universe leave one in a gasp in awe. (All the planets that
circulate around stars also revolve round the centre of gravity
of their own galaxies.) These very accurate balances are
mentioned in the following two following verses:

"The sun and the moon follow courses precisely computed"


and
"And the sky He raised and set the balance"

The orbits of the heavenly bodies are mentioned in the


verse:

"And the sun and the moon, all travelling in orbits."

‘all’ as in the last verse is not 'both' which indicates that the
reference to the sun and the moon is symbolic only, and all
other heavenly bodies also obey the same rules.
The next stage sees these massive newly formed stars start
to shrink under their own gravitational pull. As a result, their
central regions become denser and hot. When the material in
the centre of the star has heated up sufficiently, to say at least
seven million degrees Kelvin (K), nuclear reactions begin.
These reactions, which are similar to those which take place in
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These reactions are distinctly different from ordinary


combustion - as in a burning wood. What actually takes place
inside a star is that hydrogen is converted to helium with the
emission of huge energy. This is precisely what the Qur’an
speaks of with the words:

"…as if it were a brilliant star……..whose oil is well lit, even no


fire touches it."

The verse mentions a star, it's oil (i.e. fuel), and a reaction
which is not combustion (fire) - 'nuclear reactions'. The verse
is a very accurate description of what goes on inside a star.
These nuclear reactions cause the stars to radiate all types
of radiation into space, from x-rays and gamma rays in the
short waves all the way to the longer radio waves. The visible
section of those waves which are found between the ultra-
violet and the infra-red is the sunlight. On the other hand,
planets do not emit any light of their own, but only reflect
light. This differentiation between natural light and reflected
light is mentioned with the words:

"Blessed is He who made constellations in the sky and placed


there in a lamp, and a moon giving light."

"It is He who made the sun to lighten up and the moon


that is lightened."

In 1965, a very important discovery was made, and that was


the background radiation which supported the Big Bang
theory. But, the Big Bang theory, together with the detection
of the red shift in the spectrum of far away galaxies, gave birth
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this was briefly explained previously at the beginning of this


chapter.
Doppler Effect applies to any waves and not only that of
sound. When applied to light waves it was found that if the
source of light is approaching its light would be shifted
towards the blue end of the spectrum, while as light from a
receding source would be shifted towards the red end of the
spectrum. In the same vein, a light received from distant
galaxies have a red shift which indicate how much they were
flying away from us. That contribution of the red shift analysis
meant that the universe is indeed expanding. This conclusion
is literally mentioned in the Qur’an:

"and the heavens we created with might and we are


expanding it”

Note that the word "expanding" is used in the present tense


and not in the past which again is in agreement with the fact
that the expansion of the universe is a continuous process.
This phenomenon was also explained at the beginning of this
section.
At the time of the Qur’an (7th century), it was still believed
that all the stars in the sky including our sun were eternal and
are made of a material that never fades or decays. No one was
really aware of the nature of the reactions that took place
inside stars for that was to be 20th century atomic theory
territory but that, and as was mentioned before, was
mentioned in the Qur’an. These atomic reactions would take
place inside a star for a finite time and then the star would
eventually run out of energy when it has used up all its
resources. When that stage is reached, a star like our sun will
undergo a series of drastic changes. First, it will expand to
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swallowed up and the intense heat given off by the sun in this
red giant stage would be amount to cause all the seas and
oceans on earth to boil over and evaporate, signalling the end
of life on earth. In other words, the star would start to
collapse and lose its lustre and end up as a white dwarf. Here,
the Qur’an uses the very accurate scientific words:

"when stars lose their lustre"

The finite life, or specific life span, of each star is also referred
to accordingly:

"He has ordained the sun and the moon, each one runs for an
appointed time."

in its opening verse, Qur’an describes the end of time as


follows:

"When the sun is rounded"


"When the stars have collapsed"
"When the oceans boil over in a swell"

It is very significant how the verse said "when the stars have
collapsed" and not 'when the sun has collapsed', because the
boiling of the oceans will be a result of the expansion of the
sun (red giant stage) and not it's collapse, that is, the ocean
will boil over long before the sun starts to collapse. Also, the
term "collapse", as used in the Qur’an, is the precise term used
by today's astronomers to describe that stage of a star's life.
Whilst the Big Bang provided an explanation as to the origin
of the universe, it still remained necessary to calculate its age.
To do so, astronomers once again rely on red shift to
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quasars. These distances give us indications to the age of the


universe. The most distant quasars, which have velocities of
some 240,000 km/sec. (80% the speed of light), are at
distances of up to 14 billion light years (a light year being the
distance travelled by light in one year). When we look into
depth of space, we are actually looking back far into the past.
When we look at that distant quasar, we are not seeing it as it
is now, but as it was 14 billion years ago.
The modern accepted figure for the age of the universe is a
little bit more than 18 billion (thousand million) years. The age
of the universe is also found in the Qur’an?

1) "the angels and the spirit ascend unto Him in a day, the
measure of which was fifty thousand years."

The verse clearly said a day that ‘was’ and not a day that 'is',
which clearly indicates that that day was in the past (50,000
years ago) after the angels ascend. How many days a space
ship takes to reach the moon?

2) "…a day relative to your God is equivalent to a thousand


years of your count."

If for God, 1 day = 1000 years for man, and 1 year for God is
1000 x 365 = 365,000 years for man. Then 50,000 years of
God’s = 365,000 x 50,000 for man = 18.25 billion!

The importance of these analyses, as brought up by one of my


Source codes, is to put your mind at rest and to direct your
attention to your inner-self to answer the question: “What am
I?” and not to brother with “Who is the Prime Mover?” but
that you are within the Unity, perhaps brought about by the
‘Big Bang’.

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The Unity
11.1 Theory of Relativity
There is Unity, one origin, the primordial Ancestors, the Most
High. There is no power among men that goes beyond men.
The power, driven by the energy generating within men and
moving randomly from man to the others and his surrounding
is the maximum. Man controls other attractions, to and from
lesser animals and non-living things, in this Realm of our
Existence.
The law of attraction indicates the unity of the whole
creation. No exception. Negative to positive and vice versa.
Let us examine the Einstein Theory of Relativity, that energy
(E) is equal to the product of mass (m) and square speed (c) or
E = mc2.
Since c2 = c x c, a multiple of itself shows that one thing
(body) is first attracted to itself and then to other things
around it (him). The speed of this motion will depend on the
magnitude of the inner energy driving the resultant power of
the body. This inner self is known as Kundalini, Spinal-thread,
Serpent of Eden, Life Force or what have you. The name this
thing is called does not matter, but what it is and how it
works. Even the Mother Earth as an entity in the unity has her
own kundalini.
Man can accelerate motion (vertical, against gravity) of its
‘serpent’ towards his goal (good or evil, but not above evil and
good). It is only when it is dormant, or the so-called ‘serpent’
remained coiled at the base of the spinal cord that Man cannot
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result to catastrophe. We shall learn more of its structure and


its application to obtain our goals.
First, let’s examine if the universal energy depends on time.
Assume that speed is a distance (s) covered in a specific time
(t), so that the speed is equal to a distance, covered by a body
in motion, divided by time (or c = s/t) the Energy E = m (s2/t2).
Simple.
In cosmos, it is a real phenomenon that distance always
approaches zero. Then in a simple mathematical expression, s
s ( is the space difference), indicates that the distance
approaches zero (or s0). As this last condition holds, the
energy (E) becomes larger and indirectly proportional to time.
This results to the time (t) becoming smaller.
In the view of the above explanation, it could be seen that at
the absolute unity, space-time relationship is 1; there is no time
in cosmos, where the energy is large. And at zero mass (m)
such as in light, the energy (E) is zero, while the negative
energy of gravitation played a part.
The relationship between distance and velocity is neither in
strict proportionality nor a straight line. In general more
distant objects have greater apparent magnitudes, while
velocity is directly deduced from a shift. Even the speed of
light is finite. The more distant object corresponds to earlier
times and the nearer ones to later times.
We are not separate individuals but part of a colossal
spiritual network linking all atoms and all other things that
exist in this world. All these are held together in the spiritual
force field – The Unity. The existence.

11.2 The Void and the Origin


The Sun, the Milky Way, galaxies and clusters of galaxies are
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the central region, surrounded by empty space. In contrast,


super-clusters are not clearly demarcated, rather, the
distribution of matter is net-like and the empty space is now
isolated in holes or voids. The void is the Original Self, the
spiritual force field, like light. It has no image visible to the
naked eye. It is porous and permeates every atom including
Man. It is the command and active principle of the creation.
The African origin of belief and spirituality describes it as
Nameless, while Zoroastrians called it the Unlimited Source.
Hindus equate the void, or darkness with consciousness or En-
Sof in Jewish religion.
The characteristic features of super-clusters is brought about
as in nebular theory: that as long as the original gas cloud has a
certain amount of angular momentum, then no matter what its
original shape, the body formed after the collapse must have a
symmetrical shape indicating rotation. This was the idea of
heavenly bodies having circular shapes.
From this principle, the spaces between the heavenly bodies
are dark and void.

Purpose for the Existence


In giving some security belief, Isaac Asimov gave good
accounts of the reasons for creation. There is some purpose to
the Universe. After all, if one is going to have a whole battery
of spirits and demons running the Universe, as it is being done
in the world of Man now, one cant really have them doing it all
for nothing.
The purpose of existence is the Unity, in which everything
must participate.
The Egyptian god, Thoth (Hemes Trismegastus) said that
every existing thing is composed of the four elements: fire
(dry and heat), water (moist and cold), air (heat and moist)
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another state – cold is gradually turns to heat and heat to


vapour (air), so also this transformation (development)
occurred in human and other things. This effect of changes in
things in the Universe can be felt in the ozone layer. Ozone is
the protective layer in the atmosphere that shields the Earth
from the sun’s rays, in particular is the ultraviolet-B radiation
that can cause skin cancer and can burn marine life. In
2000, NASA said the ozone layer expanded to three times the
size of Australia. But due to the extreme warm condition in
2003, the ozone hole reduced drastically. This is an indication
of gradual change in all things.
The Zoroastrians of Persia worked out a delightfully complex
scheme of the Universe. They imagined the whole of existence
to be engaged in a cosmic war. Ahura-Mazda or Mara, leading
countless spirits (other gods?) under banner of Light and
Good, encountering an equally powerful army under Ahriman
fighting for Darkness and Evil. The force was almost evenly
matched and individual men could feel that with them lay the
balance of power. If they strove to be good they were
outstanding to the ‘right’ in the most colossal conflict ever
imagine.
Some of these notions crept into other beliefs and we have
the war of God versus the Devil. In this view however, there is
no question as to who will win. God must and will win.
In science however the so-called Security Belief is assumed
to be false. Science does not merely ignore the possibility of a
cosmic war, when it has tried and still trying to workout the
origins and the ultimate fate of the Universe. Therefore, the
purpose of existence is the flow within the Unity.

Destiny
Destiny comes from men’s thoughts and men’s actions
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Existence. The Nature who wears the whole of our universe as


though it were one head upon a necklace, will not deny your
right to use your body and mind in the ways that seem right to
you. But remember that Power isolates those who hold too
much of it.
The breathing exercise becomes an entity in itself, an actual
state of consciousness in its own right. Body breathing
becomes the embodiment of the breath. It is also a
renunciatory technique to achieve a predetermined trancelike
state – an isness, in Zen word.
The echoes of destiny vibrate on all human beings within the
Realm of Existence after the so-called creation.
It is also true that karmic (past creation) destiny vibrates on
Man, also within the Unity
Existence of Man
The creation of man can be likened to playing with clay to
produce a product (ceramics, etc). Figure 9.1 expresses the
making of a ceramic object. Clay and water (human body)
have been moulded to form a green paste or mortar.

Time
Clay + Water 0

Product air-dried to harden 12 days


+
Hardened product fired 30 minutes
+
Air-dried to cool 23.30 hours
=
13 days
Final product

Figure 9.1. Ceramic production

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The paste is then left to dry by natural air for a period of 12


days before it is fired in a kiln or sort of that. The firing takes
little time, while the fired product is left again to cool off
naturally. Cooling is also rapid, resulting in a few times.
It is the time of firing that the paste becomes a whole and it
occurred within a short period. In cosmic creation, this is the
time of Hu (In the beginning was the word and the God was
the word, says the scripture), and that was when the fire-
within is formed. This period is so small that it may be
impossible to note not even in this Realm of Existence.
When you wish for something to occur, just hu it by the
word of mouth. Be and it becomes or k’un fayakuun says the
scriptures.
Remember that the power of the name is almost limitless.
Africans know this source of power and they use it fully and
appropriately in naming their children. When you call
‘Mojisola!’ in Yoruba means literally, ‘I-wake-into-a-wealth’.
You are indirectly wishing yourself well. In a spiritual realm,
you are directly wishing your child well. This is the same in
Ya’Adua (a child that deserves prayer).
Even the so-called spirits guide their names. And when
Jacob, in the scripture, asked the angel he’d wrestled for his
name, the angel kept it secret for fear that the name would
give Jacob power over the angel. In other words when a man
calls you ‘stone’ he makes you a stone for an instant.
When you will wake-up your child, in the early morning, by
the name ‘Oloriburuku’ (One with bad luck) you are indirectly
creating a realm of sub-existence for your child and a direct
new existence for your self. Then you wonder why you are in a
perpetual state of poverty and in that your supposed happy-
mood. The suffering and smiling syndrome. Remember that a
man’s voice should be his own to command, so it shouldn’t

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carry another man’s message hidden within its sound. Be


warned!
We create with our thoughts, our substance and our spirit.
According to Sefer Yezirah, the Book of Creation, the
knowledge of mysteries of the cosmos will reveal to you that
you too can create life. Our thoughts cannot be pure unless
we wake up the ‘fuel’ or the fire within.

11.3 The Path


In the beginning was the word ‘hu’ or ‘u’. To hu is to create
(Emet) or give life to at least until the appointed time of the
so-called de-creation (met or mut).
In the beginning, all other things, aside Man, were in
existence. Man came to be by the command hu.
The air or wind, which is not normally visible to naked,
unobstructed eyes, represents the unsounded hu.
The combination of the two words: “human” resulted to the
existence of Man. No hu, no Man. But must we ponder well on
this matter, in the combination of the two words hu-man,
there is a gap in human consciousness and that is the so-called
awareness. And without pure awareness, Man is out of the
Existence.
Following a simple experiment by focusing your attention on
an object, a simple object for that matter, which could be a
figure or whatever. Do your focusing at least for 20 seconds,
and the close your eyes. And immediately your eyes
are closed, try to recollect the image of your chosen object or
figure. Can you guess what happen?
Now let us get back to our discussion before the above
experiment. An impure awareness may unbalance Man’s mind
and body. Any form of disconnection of mind from body is
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The word hu or u is also related to a sort of ‘open-and-close’


affairs. And if you opened an action, it is obvious that such
action is closed to be relevant and complete. Any closed action
must be opened, allowing for further action to take place. The
gap between open-and-close affairs is the so-called
awareness.
In The syllable, A-U-M, the mouth is opened when ‘A’ is
pronounced, while the pronouncement of ‘M’ closes the
mouth and the gap between ‘A’ and ‘M’ is ‘U’, the so-called
awareness. So, AUM is a word of power. Note that open-and-
close of the word AUM without the conjunction ‘U’ is
impossible.
As you open with ‘A’, a flow of air flows into your mouth,
yes?
There is this question, what is making you opening your
mouth to pronounce the word ‘A”? This is the energy within
that also comprises the same word ‘A’ for A-hu-man or simply
AUM. If one can perceive this, the one understands the
principle of creation. Aside Man all other things came into
existence by the same action.
Note that the word ‘hu’ or ‘u’ has been attributed to Man.
Man is intelligent homo-sapiens in this world that can control
his fire within to achieve anything in this world as wished.
There are other beings, jins and aliens or UFOs. But our limited
experience has assured us that man is the only intelligent
beings in the Universe. But if we remember Wuli Lun,
regarding the creation (Qi develops and rises, that jing hua
(essence) floats aloft, turning about (and) following the flow,
and which is called the Heavenly River (the Milky Way), also
called Yun Han and all the stars appear) then we know that
other things might have existed before the Realm of this
existence.

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11.4 The Fire Within


The Fire Within, ‘fire’ or simply kundalini sits at the base
position of the spinal cord of man. The word position indicates
that kundalini cannot be seen physically, but can be felt in a
conscious or alpha state.
The seat of kundalini is a form of cup, as shown in Figure 9.2
is like an inverted triangular figure or cone object, with a point
downward. Note that the cone point sits on vertex of another
cone. This point-to-point of the two ‘cups’ or cones is never
stable. It takes a serious disciplined, knowledgeable and
episteme mind to balance this of the two ‘cups’ or cones is
never stable. It takes a serious disciplined, knowledgeable and
episteme mind to balance this unstable structure.

Kundalini (Fire within)

Figure 9.2 Seat of the fire within

A light tap or a little stir or movement of the ‘fire’ will


certainly destabilize the top cup-like structural member to a
point of collapse. If the top portion of the structure fell off,
the ‘fire’ may die-out. And hence the ‘fire’ is put out, the
results is that the host (man) becomes insane. This is because
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It is very interesting to know that the structure will not just


fall off by itself, but by man himself, due to so many factors to
be discussed in the subsequent sections.
The house of the ‘fire’ must be protected jealously so as not
to fall or destroy.
When the ‘fire’ is not excited or kindled the so-called fuel, or
more so like a stick of match that is not excited or rubbed with
a frictional object, remains unused. But a little thinking or even
hunger will kindle the dormant fire. Hence the idea of daily
prayers, litany, mantra or religion’s activities will certainly
kindle the fire. But how and which? We shall answer these
questions as we proceed.

11.5 Collapse of the Fire Within


The top as the lovely cradle of success is a stupid idea
designed only for stupid, backward individuals. Let’s get the
story.
In the Hope for the Flower, narrated by Trina Paulus and
retold by Denis Whitely: There was this ‘caterpillar’, Pimpe,
who found his normal routine dull and meaningless. Pimpe
among other caterpillars during their crawling spree came
upon a towering column or pillar of squirming, wriggling
caterpillars that seemed to rise forever into the clouds high
above. These sets of caterpillars seemed to be desperately
trying to craw and wriggle over one another to reach the top
of the pillar and Pimpe got exited. Ah, something interesting is
up there, he guessed and perhaps the top of the pillar is where
he will find what he’s looking for. “What’s up over there?”
Pimpe asked as one caterpillar rushed past him, shoving him
aside – Bo o’lo ya fun mi, the como’t make I pass syndrome.
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rushing to get up there”. So Pimpe plunged into the wriggling


mass of bodies to begin fighting his way up there.
Sometime along the line, Pimpe met a friend, Bimpe who
was also wriggling, stepping and been stepped upon. The two
friends fell in love with each other. And decided to get out of
the caterpillar race, so they got down the column and live
together happily.
Soon, the boredom engulfed Pimpe; he talked to Bimpe,
saying that it was a mistake pulling out of the race to reach the
top. Bimpe didn’t agree with him, so they parted and Pimpe
went back to the wriggling up the column (pillar) trying his
luck to reach the top. Bimpe, at this time crawled off and
discovered the secret of how to become a butterfly.
With ruthless discipline, Pimpe kept stepping on others to
reach the top. As he got near the very summit of the wriggling
pinnacle, he realizes that he can’t get to the absolute unless
he gets rid of those who are above him. Whao! He could hear
the screams of falling bodies who have been displaced by the
ones next in line. Ah! He has only a few wiggles to the top,
when he heard someone saying: ‘There is nothing up here
after all!”.
Pimpe stopped wriggling and looked around. Holy Heaven!
He couldn’t believe his eyes. All around him as far as he could
see, the world is full of thousands of giants, tall pillars with
countless caterpillars trying to reach the top. As he started to
climb down the pillar, he saw a very beautiful and colourful
butterfly circling the pillar, he looked closely and verily, it was
Bimpe. Pimpe started fighting his way down the pillar. As he
wriggled downward, he tried to tell others that there is really
nothing up there.
One of the crawlers sneered at Pimpe and told him how
foolish and stupid he is to think if he came down he will
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that. Others simply called him an idiot, who lacked tenacity,


and who is full of sour tastes; who could never make it to the
top and jealous too.
Pimpe wavered at first, but decided to go and find out from
his friend how to become butterfly. He eventually learnt how
to spin his cocoon to become butterfly.
The so-called ‘top’ is not the lovely cradle of success that we
have been hypnotized to be. There is nothing up there that
worth wriggling for. Be on your guide and watch out for the
usurpers as those caterpillars may have falling back to the rock
of failure.
The fire within get weakened in man when he tries to force
himself above his capability, by trying to follow others, who
have different echoes of destiny different from his. Then the
fire will eventually die and such a man will be out of existence,
because he, by so doing is trying to be outside the Unity.
Hence the fire within him would go wild and he will burn out
of existence within the Unity.

11.6 Awakening the Fire Within


It takes a lot of energy to drive the wheel that awakens the
coiled Serpent of Eden, Yog Sothoth – kundalini.
Imagine the action of a sleeping hungry lion when a careless
gazelle, gliding straight ahead, bumped into the sleeping lion.
It is not hard to know that when the lion wakes up, sees his
prey it will jump at his prey in a sudden rush. And unless a low-
current electronic garget is fused (braced) or attached to a
stabilizer, a high current of electricity, which is released
suddenly and passing through the wire, will blow up the
powerhouse buried in the garget. When that happens, the
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idea of how a dormant, coiled Serpent of Eden will react to a


sudden excitement.
In a way, unless Man goes on gradually in a spiritual
development, other forms of developments (scientific,
metaphysics, philosophic, etc) would be out of the way. This is
exactly what most of our race lacked.
You can only grow when you shun surface materials - just for
the sake of it, just for others to know you as a big guy, just to
see yourself as a man to be reckoned with - in a society of
idiots. In the developed nations of the world today; their
citizens have grown beyond materials in its ordinary context.
They grow in mind-development that lead to technological
advancement which everybody can witness.
A love of money or surface materials leads man to a dead
spiritual development. It often does.
Prayers, mantras, monologue, all born out of thought form
coupled with good deeds and love of others of your own race
and others in that order, will awaken kundalini and direct you
towards your goal according to your inner urge. It is my saying
that: If you hate you halt but love so that you live.
There are a lot of affirmations and dances that keep you
going forever. This book will introduce you to few affirmations
and dances to begin with and you must develop spiritually by
yourself according to your inner urges.
When would human beings come to understand that they
shape their fate and not fate them? They kindle their fire
within, not and never by the permission or help of a priest,
pastor, alfa or what have you. With lofty words they build their
castles in the air, without foundations; they paint their
pictures in engravings on the walls around them.
As from today, you must break through the wall around the
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Seize this moment for the comfort and joy of all, if you
would secure eternal life and you are not to become a torment
and tyrant to your immediate neighbour.
There is a critical part of the brain that may be called the
guardian of your mind. The scientific term for this 100mm
network of cells radiating from the brain stem is reticular
activating system (RAS). And without going too much
technical about this, we can imagine a little character sticking
in mind, and in keeping with its functions, we refer to it as Ras.
Ras is the sentinel that is responsible for filtering all
incoming stimuli, everything ranging from sights and sound to
smells and touches. Ras determines moment by moment
which information is going to become part of man. So Ras
decides what habits man breaks or forms. Ras however
cannot controls man’s life leaving him a prisoner of forces
beyond control? No. Ras is an obedient servant. The straight
truth is that man commands his Ras to do his bindings. You as
man must be sure of what you want, because Ras has uncanny
ability to do only what is really important to you. Note this.
What is the justification for man claiming to be a servant of
the Most High? To be directed by or direct the Most High? If
individuals could have special power that will enable them to
get something for nothing, it is wish. Heaven helps those who
help themselves.
Once you’ve decided, for instance, to live in a noise-polluted
area - all other conditions being equal, Ras enable you to get
or build a house right in that place and get used to the noise.
Living there becomes your priority. And once your Ras was
convinced that you were satisfied with your idea, it filters out
the noise and you wouldn’t hear any noise anymore. Never
tells you what to do, but only do what you want.
Someone who sticks in a failure syndrome, or accident-
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“I think it is fate”. The Ras of such individual will simply yab by


saying: Sebi it was what you have programmed me to tune in
on, you have directed me to block all positive thoughts that
could lead you to success and health. So wetin now?
So now, what to do to ignite the fire within, positively, so as
to command Ras to carryout our bindings?
Your constant habit in the use of raw power (amulets,
voodoo, witchcraft, cultism – secret or open, ‘holy’ or ‘poor’
water) to awaken the fire within is to make yourself infinitely
vulnerable to grater cosmic powers. The end is death –
physical or spiritual. That is the truth.
A few ways of awakening the fire within you are briefly
explained as follows:

11.7 Voodoo/Amulets/Oogun
The so-called amulets or voodoo diabolical objects always
represent the fullest extension of human psyche – the male
human psyche in particular.
Black, white magic or voodoo practice goes back to the
Middle Ages, when witches were believed to have made a
contract with the devil. Even witches use amulets to boost
their wayward powers.
The so-called amulets come on different forms: they could
be ordinary symbols (eye-in-the-triangle, ankh, cross, star-in-
the-moon, two-opposite-triangles, ying-yang, left- or right-
handed pentagrams, sacred chao, ouroboros, serpent-eating-
its-own-tail, swastika, sacred heart, etc, etc) or objects (all
sacred symbols when added to other things, such as cutting
eye in the triangle on gold and the voodooist put it on for a
purpose; or when a voodooist. wears a cross cut in gold or
silver or any other symbols for whatever purpose, they were
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osanyin or GSM). In African context, one may not be practicing


the oldest religion, witchcraft, before one uses amulets.
The use of any of these objects, if they were used
diabolically, for the purpose of protection, health or wealth,
has qualified or made the user as a voodooist. Whatever angle
you look at it or you try to protest or dodge, the user, in that
respect, is a voodooist.
You can as well stay healthy and wealthy without you
getting indulged in any of the voodoo symbols and objects if
you so wish. So be it! So when you indulge yourself in the use
of amulets or the likes, you are inviting some external forces
that may not be compatible with your spirit. Then you end up
in an untimely death (physical or spiritual).

11.8 Witchcraft
Witchcraft, the oldest religion, is the act or craft of sucking the
fluid of life, kundalini fluid, from someone else without any
physical touch. The fluid of life, when disturbed or made
absent in the body, may result to insanity or uncoordinated
thoughts.
A witch has a sort of demon in him or her body. The demon
grants the witch special faculties and powers for the exclusive
purpose of making it easier for the witch to reach his or her
victim. The so-called demon, like any other parasite needs to
feed to live. So, the host must be on guard to produce enough
to eat for the two.
Any other power (by a sect, mafia, society, secret or open
cult in religions, government, individual, etc) that makes the
live of others (race, family, individuals) miserable in whatever
form is witchcraft. By feeding on their victims’ fluid of life
directly or indirectly, such victims become the living-deads,
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Here is the example and one of the origins of the slavery,


narrated by Naiwu Osahon and part of which has been
mentioned here for the purpose of our discussion. One can
read, read and read in Daily Sun of February 26 of 2004.
At a conference in Belgium in1885, in one of the common
messages sent to proposed colonies, King Leopold described
directly how Congo should be evengelised. Then, King Leopold
agreed that the tasks before the Reverend Fathers and his
compatriots were too enormous and must be done with
tactics “Your objective in Congo,” said the king, “is never to
teach niggers how to know God, this they know already. They
speak and submit to Mungu, one Nzambi, one Nzakomba and
what else I don’t know. They know that to kill, to sleep with
someone else’s wife, to lie and to insult is bad…Your essential
role is to facilitate the task of administrators and
industrialists”.
As if that was not enough, the king said further. “… Sing
everyday that it is impossible for the rich to enter heaven.
Make them pay tax each week at Sunday mass. Use the money
supposed for the poor to build flourishing business centres…’
The modern slavery, open witchcraft (IMF, World Bank,
artificial democracy, cultism, etc), is all around, seeping deeper
and deeper into every atoms of our existence.
A Witchcraft coven could be a secret or open cult on its own
that operates within a particular number (13) of members. And
when the number exceeds 13 (secret), they split up into
ministries (open) for effective operations. Wherever a victim
of a coven may go, other ministries will surely attend to him or
her. So be cautious!
This is a very dangerous way of awakening kundalini. Avoid
this way like a plague. Those (race, individuals) who used this
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regretting it, through protests, direct and indirect


confrontations. So be it!

11.9 Cultism
The proper dictionary meaning of the word ‘Cult’ is a system
of religious worship i.e. in devotion to a Deity. Cult is supposed
to be an endeavour that has taken on forms to make in some
ways acceptable to the earthly senses that is beyond earthly
comprehension.
Only that which does not conform to the laws of Creation
can have an unusual effect. Such ones that are not in the
harmony with universe are very much evidence in the present-
day cults.
You find open and secrete cults. Open, when they are bold
enough to threaten other with hell fire as well as the
economic and spiritual flogging to those who do not partake
in their practice of the obvious open witchcraft as they do;
secrete, when they are afraid you will not accept their dirty
tricks. And just as the open cult, the secret one is the same,
but goes a step further by flogging you without prior warning.
Often they employ the help of voodooists or spiritualists on
their victims.
Must you, as a father or the so-called society mother,
partake in a cultism or fetish practice, and then you should
expect your children to be interested in such, so far as your
children or even admirers can pick a trace of success in your
life. They want to try on whatever has made you thick. No
wonder the society is full of rotten youths. So, be conscious,
because your so-called success is a tormenting one that which
will surely end at death.

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11.10 A Force in Thought Form


The Thought of Man is a guide to the mysterious knowledge of
the inwardness of creation. We create with our thoughts, our
substances, and our spirits. If you know how to use it you can
create life.
Thought became more than just the rambling monologue,
that which you are accustomed to hearing within your head.
Thought is a force that has shaped the Universe – The Unity.
Each person creates his own world (sub-Realm of Existence in
the cosmos, his Universe), and by his own thinking it is taking
shape by how he sees it and how he sees it depends on how
he is inside and from the first moment when he begins to
notice the world around him. Before we can use its power to
influence the world around us, we must learn its power to
influence us.
Ignorant people play with thoughts in the most careless
way and think that they emerge from thoughts unaffected.
But they err, for thoughts belong to the Unity.
Thought form can be made by anyone at all with a little
practice. To create a thought form, one must first decide what
one want to accomplish, and be sure that it is for good. Then
one must call imagination or visualization into play. One must
visualize exactly the results which one wants to achieve. At all
time we must speak to the Thought Form that we have
created in a firm, positive voice. There must not at any time be
any suspicious of negativeness or of indecision. We must
speak in the simplest, possible and a well-understood
language and in the most direct manner possible. So be it! Act
and awaken your dormant fire within.

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11.11 Congregational Prayers and Rituals


Parable
You wake up in the morning without what to eat and you must
go to your ritualistic prayer session. Your friend woke up the
same morning having some grudges against you, for not
asking him to follow him to a ‘wakening’ ceremony organized
by your friend’s brother; your wife was not happy that her
junior brother could not have enough money to take to
school. And when you announced that your family should
prepare and eat the little food you have and speed off to the
prayer session, about 23 km away from home, Junior was only
too happy that, he will meet one of his schoolmates in the
prayer ground, so he quickly docked a slice of bread and put it
in a plastic bag and shoved it inside his top jacket. He was
ready for Kilometre23.
In other area, a community leader has just been kidnapped,
ngigeed, his whereabouts unknown. The people have just
decided to go into groups’ prayers, each sect in his own prayer
ground. Few of them belong to Kilometre23. Off they went.
In Kilometre23, the congregation has started their ritualistic
prayers, calling the usual Spirit they were used to. But
suddenly in the mists of the ‘reckless’ prayers, an unhappy
wife started to think of her brother who, in the couple of
hours will come to pester her life for the school fees that is not
available. Somehow along, the husband is thinking aloud what
will become of a family with nothing at home to eat; and his
friend is seriously considering how disappointed and bad his
friend would feel when he found out that he was not been
invited to the ‘wakening’ ceremony of his mother who died
some 25 years ago; while Junior was so exited to talk to his
friend, whom he has not met for quite a long time. The
community representatives are just wondering what or who
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In all of these, different thought forms are created, each


person as aspired for, but all in a random aura. The vibration at
this time would be high. The only problem is that each person
will receive, according to his or her inner urge some portions
of others’ thought forms. This may cloud-up and confuse his or
her thoughts and may eventually send a wrong signal to RAs
of the individuals. So the sad sister may end up receiving more
funds from a friend to support her home for purchasing food
item, instead of getting enough money for her brother to
school, If the husband’s imagination was stronger than hers.
So it may occur to others, ending up getting no definite results
from their prayers.
And unless the whole congregation focus its attention on a
particular goal to be achieved, it is very difficult that prayers of
people, of diverse or unfocused thoughts, would be
answered. It can never work and it has not worked in million
years. Even if a whole country murmured and cried for
hundred years nothing positive is unlikely to happen. And
since the majority of the people are liars, cheats, the results of
their so-called congregational prayers are death and agony.
May we all overcome our adversaries.
Your thought form is pure only in a state of silence even if
you are alone. So be it!

11.12 Sex Psychology


The original and pure sex psychology is devoid of all mundane
inebriety. The whole existence of the universe moves under
the principle of sex life. In modern civilization sex life is the
focal point for all activities. Therefore sex life is not unreal. Its
reality is even experienced in spiritual or conscious Realm of
Existence. Only the material sex life is but a perverted
reflection of the original fact, the Absolute Truth. Truth cannot
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Consequently, the impersonalist priests, alfas, gurus,


teachers, philosophers, physicians and the likes have given
impetus to the abominable mundane sex life, because they
have stressed the impersonality of the ultimate truth. The
religionists even attributed the awakening of the ‘fire’ or the
Serpent of Eden as the cause of the original sin, but against
whom? If one may ask. Therefore, man without information of
the actual spiritual form of sex has accepted perverted
material sex life as the all in all.

Sexual Energy
Sexual energy is passion and aliveness. It is the life force, the
creative force of the Universe. The key to a passionate life is to
trust and follow the ‘fire within’ or simply ‘fire’. Man’s life, as
mentioned earlier, is filled with the sexuality of the universe.
Unfortunately, lesser human beings, non-spiritual and people
of no conscious minds, who have their life force, ‘fire’,
dormant or misdirected towards evil, have become masters at
cutting down their sexual energy.
Man should know now that his sexual energy has the power
to create and transform. Man’s ego should not be afraid of
this, as our peers and especially the religion’s organizations
that are now emphasizing only the evil of sex and not teaching
how well one can use sex life for creation. These individuals
use sex in its natural form to gain whatever they wish to gain.
Unfortunately, the lesser beings in the form of priests or alfas,
teachers, heads, leaders of organizations and the likes, are
misreprenting their sex life when they themselves engaging in
pervasive sexual harassment on the opposite sex under their
command. Their own lives become entangled and their
prayers not answered, even when they fast, dance or cry. So
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bundles of prayers and yearly, monthly, weekly, daily and


hourly fasting.
It is far from the truth that sex is the origin of sin. This is
never truth from the first man to this present existence. Sex as
said earlier is by divine prescription, it is something man must
handle carefully. And once you can overcome the pangs of
sex, you can overcome anything, any temptation whatsoever.
If you can obey that cosmic rule, every other thing in your life
would fall into place. A man who has attained sexual
disciplines is one who has risen against and above the lust of
the flesh will not succumb to the lure of money so much as to
loot the treasury or exhibit some other forms of corrupt
tendencies
It is erroneous and dangerous belief that spiritual energy
and sexual energy are opposite, and that one should deny his
sexuality in order to be more spiritual. Not only that such
practice is creating a tremendous conflict within themselves
and ends up blocking the very cosmic energy they were
seeking. Remember that Universe is pure sexual energy
waiting to be tapped by fuelling the kundalini, the Fire Within.
In the developed Nations of this world, in which both spiritual
and scientific energy have been released, sexual energy is
mostly being directed to creation, whereby harmonizing the
energy within to the cosmic energy without. We are all
witnesses to the effects of this action.
From now on, clear out your old ideas, fears, prejudices or
negative beliefs about sex.
The idea of getting a life partner (wife or husband) is to
streamline your sexual energy in one direction, aligning your
track of energy in harmony with the Universe, and when the
two of you (unique couple) are constantly in one direction,
because you are in harmony with the Universe, you can move
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wise your command becomes the Unity’s or Eagle’s (so to say)


command leading to Absolute Nothingness (AIN or ‫ ﻌ‬not ‫)ﻋ‬.
And since Nothingness is indestructible, your family life
becomes stable. There is no need of crying, fasting or praying
for whatever (within the Echoes of Destiny) your minds are set
on, since the two of you (husband and wife) are always
involved in enlivening or fuelling your kundalini towards a
common goal all the time. So be it!
Love exists with the presence of adoration, service,
friendship, conjugal love and paternal affection and only when
these are absent that the so-called material sex results in the
sensual pleasure which may lead to: anger, conjugal love,
comedy, chivalry, servitorship, fraternity, parenthood, horror
and shock.
Not-Doing
Carlos Castaneda, in his ‘Journey to Ixtlan’ has explained in
detail the power behind not-doing. Not-doing is so powerful
that not until you stop the world only then can you benefit
from its power, by stopping the world you stop doing. Doing
make one separate cats from dogs, but if you want to learn
not-doing, you must categorize the cats and dogs into one
group – animal, so that the word animal is generalized and
made easy.
If I ask you, in earnest to use your hands to draw energy into
your being or ward-off evils, of course I am teaching you by
not-doing. And since you have been taught, or been-doing, to
use hands for physical things not for the unseen crackpots like
what I have just told you, you wouldn’t take it as the truth, and
that action of yours is doing and what I’ve just told you is real
and nothing.
A normal person tries to affect the forces of doing by
changing it into not-doing.

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Not-doing is very difficult to comprehend until one masters


its use and usefulness. And unless you master and practice the
following actions you are still doing.

Erasing Self Importance


You take yourself so seriously. You are too damn important in
your own mind that you feel justified to be annoyed with
everything. You are so damn important that you can afford to
leave if things don’t go your way, because you think by so
doing you have character. That is not it. You are weak and
conceited. You are probably indulging yourself in material and
perversion sexual life. The world around us is a mystery and
men are no better than anything else. If a little plant could be
generous with us, in providing us its curative tendency, we
must thank it whenever we tamper with it. Your feeling too
big to thank the plant is doing and that’s stupid.
From now on you must erase your self-importance.

Erasing personal History


There is this secret of life you should not fail to understand
and practice daily. Nobody should know your personal
history. No one knows who you are or what you do. Not even
you. The question is, how would you know yourself then?
Little by little you create a thick fog around yourself, you must
erase everything around you until nothing can be taken for
granted, until nothing is any longer for sure or for real.
Man’s problem is that he is always too real, his endeavour is
too real; his moods are too real. Man must erase himself. I
mean it. Eraze your personal history completely.
What for? is the next question. If you hide from people, they
will also hide from you, is another illusive statement. Ha! Emi
ko. Really? Not I.

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You may begin with the simple thing, like you not revealing
what you really do. It doesn’t matter what you do. Another
protesting question that crops into mind is that’s absurd, why
shouldn’t people know me, Olodumare ma jen’yo ile Aye wa-o,
May I not come to this world like ghost. That’s how he sees it.
How silly!
But what is wrong with that is once your folks know you,
you are an affair taken for granted and from that moment on
you won’t be able to break the tie of their thoughts. You
should like the ultimate freedom of being unknown, so no one
will know you with steadfast certainty. The so-called lie
becomes lie only if you have personal history.
When one does not have personal history, nothing that one
says can be taken for a lie. The trouble is, when you are
available to people, you’ll have to explain everything to
everybody compulsorily, and at the same time you want to
keep the freshness, the newness of what you do. And since
you can’t be exited after explaining everything you have done,
you lie in order to keep on going. Is that not it? Survive! And
later you become an object of ridicule.
From now on you must show people only what you care to
show them without ever telling exactly how you’ve done it.
No! I can’t keep secret, is the next statement. I am a scientist
or I am an open person and everything must be exposed for
acceptance, you will say.
Scientist keeps secret during his findings and only when he
has reached his concluded result that he cares to expose the
findings. Not before or during his findings. Scientists are not
ready to give out failed or unacceptable results. So, they often
erase personal history in this regard.
In general when nothing is for sure, we are always on our
toes. So be it!

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Stopping the World


In order to stop the world one must imbibe certain attitudes in
him. You must stop doing.

11.13 Tradition / Religion


For those free minds, that see things in an open perspective,
we write this piece and not fanatical minds – Religious fanatics
do not understand what they stand for and neither do they
know much in what they practice. They have poor awareness,
so they are really dead-alives and very awkward in their
attitudes towards anybody who doesn’t believe in what they
themselves have no knowledge of. They must be discarded
and avoided like plague, in all ramifications, because they are
dangerous to people. These are the scum of the Unity.
The so-called religious ceremonies are the moderated
traditional attitudes of a race attributed to Deity or Grand
Master. The Truth is that all religions have been traced back to
their primitive origins, with their base in old traditions. There is
no exception. The truth must be told and let the evils be
damned.
This is not to damn the religions of the world, but to
strengthen the mind of a highly spiritual man not to waver in
his belief. After all, all religions preach love, without which all
efforts of the ceremonies and rituals are doomed.
The aspect of belief is a thing of mind. Tradition follows the
common behaviour (marriage, burial, food, habitation etc) and
attitude (worship, rituals, etc) of a race or community.
In general, the word tradition refers more to a process. The
process in which opinions, practices, customs, beliefs are
handed down from ancestors to posterity. Tradition is always
as old as the people and race. No matter where the
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them. Traditions do not change. A people’s tradition cannot


be traced to its origin.
Every single theistic religion has a particular person (Guru,
Prophet, Teacher, Krishna etc) as the founder, autodidact or
originator. Even in the case of non-theistic religion, where
their beliefs and practices aimed at bringing people together,
the idea is the same. It is necessary to say that some religions
unite all human beings together, from its original inception
and not as an afterthought, are superior religions for that
mater. Any religion that uses fear to bind people to any Deity
is an inferior religion. In many cases, certain religions may
become part of tradition of a race.

11.14 Affirmation / Ohun


“Let there be light and there was” was the words to hu the
creation of the world, the Realm of Existence, as we know it.
In the beginning was the word and God was the word, says
the Bible. “Whatever you say trice is the truth”, says the
Hadith Nabiyi [the Prophet SAW].
In the above contexts, there was no idea of supplication to
any Deity. To whom the command ‘let” was directed is not the
subject of discussion here. But the question is why must it be
only words – devoid of other external things, such as: juju,
voodoo, scientific artifacts (such as GSM), etc?
Sets of “calculated” words are the so-called ohun. All
religions and sects are involved in the use of ohun to achieve
one thing or the other (evil or good).
Ohun is far superior to prayers. This is simple. Prayers are
directed as supplication to an unknown Force or Deity, while
ohun is specific for awakening the Fire Within.
Affirmations, mantras, rudra or simply ohun (African) could
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store in Ras, which will sieve out the old unwanted or used
ones. Few examples of ohun are given below. Note that the
so-called ohun are created so they can be decreated as
wished.
Affirmations or ohun are one of the most important
elements of creative visualization. It is a strong, positive
statement that something is already so. So it is superior to
prayers. Let there be light and it was. Whatever I say trice is
the truth.
A secret must be told here and now. Just go ahead, is a
powerful mantra created by the Americans. So be it!
There are three elements within you that determine how
successfully you visualization in the practice of affirmation will
work for you in any given situation: Desire, a desire to create
that which you have chosen to visualize; belief, the more you
belief in yourself for what you have chosen, the more certain
you will do it; acceptance, that you must be ready to accept
your results completely. All these three are your intention to
create. So create! The clearer and stronger your intention is,
the more quickly and easily your creative visualization for your
affirmation to work.
Having a strong intention then you may wish to embark upon
simple statements as follow:

Direct:
 I am getting better and better everyday.
 I slip into harmony with the Universe.
 I rise above evil.
Indirect
 Just go ahead.
 You are not the target.
In praise

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 Blessing the sun, the moon and the earth


Blessing the man who stands on the earth
In blessing I walk
In blessing before me I walk
In blessing behind me I walk
In blessing above me I walk
In blessing above and about me I walk
It is finished in blessing. . . . . .

The above statements are just typical examples of


affirmations. Anybody can make one depending on the wants
and intentions. Any affirmation picked for use must be
repeated often. So, invoke often as you banish often.

11.15 Meditations
People mix the idea of prayers and meditations together.
Prayer is a supplication made with a vow or covenant to a
Deity, while meditation is the enlivenment of ones body/sprits,
i.e. making your body and mind work together within a frame
of the Unity.
Meditation comes in many forms, depending on a race or tribe
and their common beliefs. Any exercise performed physically,
without the use of ritualistic materials is meditation. This
includes: Yoga, al-solaat, dancing, clapping of hands, singing in
chorus, etc. They come in different forms depending on the
founder. And they look similar.
When you raise up you hands (this is a practice common to
all religions, even a baby does that often, and when waving in
greeting to others) you are supposed to be receiving cosmic
rays, and when you concentrate on this simple act, you benefit
from these cosmic rays. For a well normal person, walking
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A good example of enlivenment of the fire within is given


below.

If you stand erect, then read or recite any favourable


affirmation preferred or used to. Now putting imagination
into play,

Visualise a ball of golden light circulating on the top of your


head for few seconds. Bring down the light to you’re the
position of your throat and circulate the light round it. Do
that repeatedly in the position of your heart, your pelvic
region, your middle-point region and your feet.

You can now elevate the light from your feet to the top head,
bring down the light from your head pouring down through
your outside left side, reaching your left foot and proceeding
to the right foot and elevate it by the right side reaching the
top head. Repeat three times. Do the circulation by pouring
the light down through the outside front and elevating to the
head along the back three times repeatedly. Now the light is
pouring out of the whole body in circulation of up-and-down
three times before you close down by a pure positive
thinking.

Remember to close down properly (positively) for easy


opening. This is the same way by closing down a running
programme in your computer when you have finished the
days job, and in this way, the opening of the computer is
made easy for the next programme.

The example of a simple meditation, given above, points to


a simple golden rule that you are your own worst enemy and
your own best friend. The so-called light you circulate round

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you body is the cosmic light or an extension of light from the


Most High, which must be used to the benefit of mankind. Be
cautious!

11.16 Phrases
 To compete is to prepare for failure, as you prepare to
proof yourself in the den of enemies.
 Don’t be trapped by the need to achieve anything. This way
you achieve everything.
 All barriers to your expressions and happiness of life are
now dissolved if you are within.
 If you stand for nothing you will fall for anything.

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Afterwards
Why will Man boast of sensibilities superior to those apparent
in the brute; it only renders him a more necessary being.
If our impulses were confined to hunger, thirst and desire,
we might be nearly free, but no because, we are moved by
every wind that blows a change of word or scene that the
world may convey to us.
Remember that nothing may endure but mutability, since
Man’s yesterday beside now may never be like his morrow.
Time is not a track that we run on from birth to death as
inexorably as a train will follow its rails. Man feels instinctively
that time follows a straight line, the past lying behind, the
future lying in front. Then it is clear that time is analogous to a
surface rather than a line, a rolling hilly surface at that. The
track we follow over the surface of time as a winding road cut
trough hills. Every little way the road branches and the
branches follow canyons. And you are may not be aware that,
at these branches the crucial decisions of your life take place.
Yes they do.
You can turn right or left into different futures. Occasionally
there is a switchback where one can scramble up or down a
bank and skip over a few thousand or million years – if you
don’t have your eyes so fixed on the road, you miss the short
cut. Once in a while another road crosses yours. Neither its
path nor its future has any connection whatsoever with only
the realm-of-existence we know. If you happen to take that
turn you might find yourself on another planet, whoa. Yes, in
another space-time, with nothing left of you or of your realm-
of-existence you know but the continuity of your ego.
But, must you have the episteme knowledge; you may leave
the roads of that high probability and strike out over the hills

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of possible time, perhaps following them for a little way, even


following them backwards, with the past ahead of you, and
the future behind you.
In the part II of the “Nothingness of Self Esteem”, you will
truly meditate. So be it!

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