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Afriwn n buxmmimn Afr 1 Tifras d ibuvas

Wn, zzg nx, vrs ujar n umrag, d tajllabit nx. amjju iffr tasrrayt ns. Illa urifi g waman. Tamdyazt, ia amyyan smi azip imqadda it uraoa , azip iccn it tuodl allu. Ku tasraft d tazart imafrawn. 16

ami nx d aws itsnlla. Acal: tamqqit waman. ivilawn I ban aza n imal: amassk n ivilawn. Uggid n drus. Adrus u itg uggid. Taddart ur t f xas s pitrrma. 17

Nnican ubbaw, xmmem g joai. Uggid ur iqqa I wn inin arwis inu xas allig it mrag zg ixf ns. Amdyaz vrs ifassn g tarviwin, walaynni iggur ian pui. Aman gyyl nin ivmi ns ixmj. Ku idj d uccn n oari ns. 18

Tasflilt inu tfvl, inna uni. D, ak at ipar, la t it ffr. Ixs at arit s izwwign nk mind iommin nk. Xmmem am makka n t : ak ur t aduz x I uxmmemat tssidf tudart. Axmmem ivzan irwi. Buxmmem ivzan, idj urttuqasn. Tamdyazt: ma urtaoattavul urtssid 19

Km iil init, tiormt ns tgu abavus. wn izwarn ur sar ibm I ssiwl niffari. Mag ivin ad yuc allu:anggaru ur xas n tffv ti walaynni frud tawala iwn, ag ssrs n amqadda. Tamdyazt tgu apmaddju n udmawn. Aolulu izdv ull nx am tizinin. 20

Tazart usrbubaraw xas ntat ag t ttn tini ns. Iskkin tmawan s tmit nsn. Ustu ur sar i. Ull: tamiqst ixsin.twarz zg ukud vr ukud, timrilin nx la x ssgunufn. 21

Tivmas ssflilin g ujojo. N t ffr afvvul nx ddaw ufvvul inin. Lftiyat, ax it asin, xa t zwwagn. Yixs ur n sbdd a abu. Uggid it ggz zg tatca. Tatca t ggz zg uggid. Akk mag mvn g umaal iggar uggid. Akk mag mvn g uggid iggar amaal. 22

Vrnx kuyyas ujar I iprrazn n ma ur nstahl. Vrnx kuyyas drus iprrazn n ma ur izri nstahl. Taddart tqqan alln g icti n ict n tazart. Tissam ax I ssalayn. Ur xa n tkpaa xas s ixba . tiruwt t twagg s ixba it msawan. 23

aa itg walu. Axmmem walu.tamdyazt tqqa walu. Anlli ixs tivuniwin. Ustu, tizdiwin. Jar uggid d awal ns, tlla ict n tiddi iln. Iwaliwn tar tiddi ur gin ag ca. Lqsapit iskkin tlava ict n txmmemt n tvmas usrrm. 24

ntc d tajddigt, inna ubavus. Day issnot akuzzu nns. Tiwlafin axt zwarn, dat-upa n unuv. Xas unuv u rig I tawlaft. Tudrt tissirut tmdyazt.unuv ur vrs araw. Iri mag bhdln : asif it afifn. 25

Ah! D hiwa! gin snn iviawn n uxmmem. Ag idj ur igi idj. rm, igu asmv n tirut. Tamdyazt : idj ubavus iun ict n tjddigt. pierre emmanuel : bujnna d alava izdin, ig u idj ig u allu alava uzdig illan. 26

Imqqn i snyuddu ax ns. aji avzaf imrrtn n taa. Ayn illan it urar s tizzit. Ayn illan it uodl g icrrign. Tafuyt tsa auv nx. Day isf wau azuv. G urzzu n lgud n warlgud ay tgg tmdyazt lgud. 27

Ivmi amllal it lluz zwar. Ayn Ak ad inw I wakud, uggid is sittl timrilin. Ur ssuu ca bzzaf-day qqimn bddn. Akuc it qfqif day I ttr ax, at n sstap. Xas sar I ssavul asnimmr. 28

Nv s pssi, ussan I, makka gin, llan susmn. Tadamumt, tgu at dmut is bujnna izdv uggid, bujnna xas x at I tbbi. qqax bujnna amzaray u. Jjin ur dmix is s awal: I ssnw dgi tabuhalit, xas awal ur ighiz zg umaal: tlla t f dgi aij. Xmmem lq s lq ammi n t snsraoban. Al anl anggaru. 29

Ntcni nzdv axub nx ak ur t nt adj a ax izdv. au isf oari. Askkin u i rsn g ull, d tajddigt. Askkin u I srrpn g ustu, d tii n tjddigt. Axmmem al tama, tgu pa I tzu. tn it xmmamn urtnyuddu d xas I ntat. Wn I ssvusn tanwalt ns illa issiv iiwn s tummrt. 30

Tarbat I iln n taddart, tgit aman. Tawuri taswat d tabuhalit is tudrt d tabuhalit. Tawuri taswat tcwa. Zg ict vr tn inin, ticwi d tabuhalit, tggur tzizwit n ils. ifujn ujnna ssisidn ifujn n ils. Ntcni n t ddr jar ifujn. ivan gin tiwinst ict imqaddan. Zzat n twinst u tapuit, tudrt t ttwtiw. 31

Ddrn: tussut n uydda tba, akud ara tu, au I tmmucn. Tamdyazt: ils u n ukud I ssaddn jar tfrvt n tatca d tnift uzgu. Amzruy it ini I uggid( aka t ssap): gix ujar g urf. La t it tf ak as trm. Ixss a w au a kat tssid taddart. 32

Kks ddrt ak ac isinx. Idmuyn n rum, ail n krist. iln idmmuyn qspnin, iwhn inwu w ail. Xas ukrist issn, s tussna n tallest, is amzruy iuhnn. If ijdjign ur tgu tadla, m tadla to. uv zg i, tuv mqadda, nta at gt tamvut tamullaft tamvut I vzan. Is i lgud n t uufin. 33

annak d uza: ijj umdyaz vr tama yu mqqa ur I bdd I pu ha icrrg. Kuidj, s txdmit ns iffrn, I sswa ict n tjdjigt it wasnn xas zzgs nta. ntc a ggin, tssiwl loafit, ana. D ay ts ana. Bujnna d agmgum. La n tgg idj mind-ugmgum. 34

Uggid: idj butxcic I twarja s ma urillin. Tudrt, tlul s idj uriul, asay, aba, ifin n boit ax ixan. Ttunv s w assay u. Vr usird n tsmmi uhinn w aman. Imdras imarawn t arin mind win inin. Iswatn g lp n iqa nsn. 35

manig llan tismuqqal inu? isqsa wn izrin ijla aqql. Apids: inir ns ihrcmn it arf ivilawn g tquat itwafn. Arus ns igu arus n irdn. Amjr zg ur n nwir, la ck n tgguni, mind n imal, taawin qqnn. Ur xa n tpaa xas I yixf. Zgssya: apu. Aman vrs iri: xa t, ttuuv. 36

S umvi ntuga g uxssi n tuga. G umzwaru: awal. Vr ughaz: asusm. Xas awal, n rm allu, I tg zg ususm ma ur ifan izddi. m ur igi uggid, mara I ssmvn au n tznzawt? au ayI sszrafn . S tpiznt n i, cigan I ttarun ikks as ils. S tpiznt n ils, cigan I ttarun ikks as yi. 37

aqaf ag mvn. Tudrt ur tgi xas ict n tglmamt ittl uqaf. G tirra, illa usvuy ha y ili u. Magllan igni s ifili. Magllan if vr ifili. Ta magllan t-ufud tlla g ifili-igin walu. Tamdyazt tllm : aguni ns a tg zg ict n titrit ujar n idj ulava. 38

Aprrf ur id d araoa. Isryalin ddjin aqql. m txst ur, it ngigi w acal ddaw a, ig ammi vr txrcic g mag llan. Amarg n bujnna t f au g uxmaj nx. Bujnna nta, vr uhaz ihazn, tabuhalit nx I ttucaca. Tunuvt tgg zgnx d itwahli, arba it unuv n igu amuru n umaru ns iddrn. 39

Amgganu izdi ax. Urmgganu ur ta izdi ax. Mag ttrn ad ili ur ta izdi wahli ? ivil n umgganu. Ntcni nggur idis uzrdab. Zg ujmma inin, injda inin axt asin afus. Tiznnirin tiswatin, azzurn tirsal. Taznnirt tamzwarut : tirci, azzur amzwaru : tirci. Tawuri taswat twv day t uttu. Ammi n tnhaj ha nt tt is n tnhaj. 40

Tifras d ibuvas. Uggid I ssufv askkil I wansa. ntc tisnt n acal tnna tisnt. ntc tirjt n loafit tnna tirjit. Day mdukaln. Uggid I qqa I bujnna s tummra am add ant qqa I tslmya s tionla. Amfraw n tunvt I u, s afr pssi, amafraw n tudrt. 41

Idj umuc issnot Iyyi taprfit, idj umuc isnot iyyi aum. Taprfit d uum, ku tawala manig mpaan imuccn inu, tmyamasn tinzar. Xas wn ur iwatan ay n sszwir. imutn iswatn: wid icnn. Iskkin nng idj n lgud. La tmqacapn g ugyyl. Tazarin, imvan nx. 42

Vr tafuyt n unuv; tcatn ijiman nx am ict tzrmumit. Y ixs cigan n tisutin irgazn ak ad I twagg idj umuc. Udm I udm yavul I yixs I iln: uggid mi loafit tffv g imawn, tisdnan mi tvusn taawin. Amafraw ikpan tasurrift s tsurrift s tidt n tcc. Xas tn ur ngguni vr llan afriwn. 43

Tawuri: av n tmi Tawuri taswat tnna: qap d axub. Ur tlli twuri taswat I rmn. Nietzsche, ixsn ixf irm, t usskn as tnbalin s tfvlt. Aman ujobub avuln tagut. Azgal n ayt tilawt. Amlgaz irru tuzlin. Tinvut ns I xitrn tgit tajdjigt tudirt. 44

Ari, tgu . Tgu, zg uggid, ssavult d amza. La n tgg timlliagd tafuyt. Day dvya tssusf x udm n tafuyt, tavul d tmlli iiln. N spal tudrt. Tunuvt t spl ax g uhba x ur ngi. Ssrs timqqit anggaru n twinst it mzaray d lpmlt. Aoruru aba d asarut n iij amssad. 45

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Tawlaft: Henri MATISSE

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