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Sea of Pisces Vol. 12 Lesson 1 This 12th set of 12 lessons relates to the total integration of the individual with all parts of ones soul, with the 12 different aspects of ones being, with the 12 souls of that individual which are scattered throughout the universe in different planes, so that the individual may begin to discover his or her own multidimensional being, and in this manner may become more totally integrated with oneself and with others; this also relates to healing and karmic research and discoveries. In the previous sea, that of Aquarius, the entity found itself moving through areas of the City of Life, becoming aware of meanings and values, discovering and adapting meanings and values to ones life, the entity now moves into an area in which there are signs warning Off Limits, Do Not Pass, Secret Area, Do Not Pass Without Permission. The entity continuing to move with this Awareness, moves into that area when the Top Secret actions relating to the formation of the soul, where most entities are warned by various agents of the City of Life to avoid contact, to avoid research, to avoid involvement in these areas of the research into the soul. This Awareness now wishes to take entities into the Sea of Pisces, aboard the ship of soul, and to raise anchor and to set sail. In this first lesson, It wishes to discuss the essence of soul and what soul is, that in the following sessions, the discussions will bring the aspects of the multidimensional soul into an integration where entities not only understand logically, but where they begin to feel the essence and meaning of integration. In regard to the essence of the soul, one must recall that this Awareness has given that: Energy is information and information is energy. The soul is energy and the soul is also information. In processing information, there must be that central processing system that draws the energy and information that then becomes processed and made

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are useful according to the divisions or structure that the soul or central core action of a system wishes to create. Essentially, the soul is the spirit moved into a structure of energies capable of holding a magnetic center for information and energy in a particular area. Spirit itself is everywhere, but soul is a magnetic phenomenon located in particular areas. This like a droplet of water in a sky full of air; this is like a cube of ice in an ocean of water, or the more viscous type energy in a sea of very diluted, dissolved energies. In regard to the magnetic center of a soul, that which makes its beginning, which is the seed of the soul, there not only is that energy, but the energy is accompanied by a concept. The concept generally which initiates a soul is the concept of being, the concept of being separate and unique. Therefore, the concept of separateness is that which begins the creation or the seed in consciousness that initiates and brings about the development of a soul. In full cycle, the soul moves out in its experience through the cosmos, and when returning, must integrate again with the cosmos. This is the story of Lucifer, of Rhyee, the movement of the fragmented parts going out and then returningthe prodigal son returning to the father. The soul separating, moving out, begins assuming a center of its own, as compared to a universe with its center, so the soul becomes like a miniature universe, a microcosm in the macrocosm. The essence of the soul is such that wherever it goes, it collects because it is magnetic. It collects experiences, it collects data and information with those experiences and the information and data is energy. Thus, the soul, as it moves, gains energy and momentum, and the magnetic center of the soul increases with its movement. It is the movement that creates the magnetic center. The soul that remains static does not increase in its magnetism nor does it gain momentum in terms of growth, in terms of information, in terms of its evolvement; for the static action of the soul brings about a stagnation, while the soul that is in movement automatically and without recourse draws in greater magnetism, greater information and greater energy for its growth and fruition. All that is necessary for a soul to move is its own recognition of itself as a separate being in the universe. This has brought about the situation in which entities move as negative forces, as separate beings in conflict with others. This does indeed build the soul, build the individuality, even as it detracts from the spirit. There are those movements in which the soul, by its own separateness can become entrapped in such webs of intrigue and glory of its own individuality that it becomes the epitome of that force which is in opposition, the antithesis of the divine; therefore, at such a point, the soul, reaching such a degree of pride, experiences that which was the fall of Lucifer. The story of Lucifer essentially is the story of the soul and its fall from

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are of sustenance and anything that can be attached may also find that there are attachments to it likewise. Thus, the entity who owns the property is also owned by the property; the attachment goes both directions at once. When one is attached, one finds himself attached, not only by his own volition, but also often by the volition of the other. Likewise, in areas of energy where there is, as with the soul, a magnetic center, that magnetic center is called desire, and the desire is always pulling those experiences, those attributes, those qualities, those quantities that the desire is attached to, always pulling, so that soul is in constant movement toward the fulfillment of that desire. Of course, when the appetite is so great that the desire is never satisfied, then the soul is in constant movement toward the fulfillment of that desire. Of course, when the appetite is so great that the desire is never satisfied then the soul is in constant movement, like a shark in the ocean, seeking always some new prey. The concept of attachment as that which needs to be more clearly understood, for not only does it have its benefits, it also has its drawbacks and detriments to the development of the soul. Essentially, the soul is the energy that, in a human, appears between the egg and the sperm and joins these together, giving them the breath of life. The soul might be symbolized in astrological terms as Mercury, while the egg and sperm may be symbolized as Mars and Venus, or as Sun and Moon. Whatever the symbolism down through the ages, in various religious trinities and symbolisms, or whether seen in terms of modern physicsthe atom, with its electron, proton, and neutronor whether seen in terms of the ancient physics of fire, air and water; these various descriptions of the polarities that are part of the attachment program for the soul can also be equated with the modern day computer, when the on-off switch of the machine language can be used to encode polarity and give certain signals and characteristics which allow the machine to interpret the energies as information. Likewise, the soul may absorb energies and through on/off switches or rejection/acceptance concepts or feelings may begin to interpret those energies in terms of language or concepts, in terms of words, in terms of a code of communication; this coding as that which leads to the language of the machine or the language of the soul which will be discussed in more detail in the next reading. However, in this present reading, this aspect of attachment is that which needs to be recognized as an important and beneficial quality for the development of the soul; the soul being able to attach to energies and attach a code for the interpretation of those energies into a language which then allows for the soul to recapture or re-experience the energies that were encoded. This is that which leads to the many sensitivities and greater complexities of the soul as it develops into higher and higher abstract communication; therefore, the information that accompanies the energy is in constant flux. Just as temperature can alter water into structural form, creating ice cubes, or can turn it back into water, likewise, infor-

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are reaches its full integration; but before this can ever occur, there will be many other avenues that the soul may take in pursuit of something more secure and solid. The soul may attach to concepts of great physical strength, of bigger muscles, of the ability to lift greater weights or to throw ones weight around; and thus, the soul thinks of itself as being in charge and master of itself, having mastered this body that it is attached to. Thus, the soul may glory and bask in its own accomplishment for a time, but is never satisfied, and therefore will look for something greater to accomplish; and thus the soul may discover weaponsif it wishes to pursue the path of power, and these weapons can lead to all sorts of diabolical toys (as has been witnessed in recent years upon your plane), which threaten the very existence of life on your plane. The soul can also pursue a different pathnot that for power, but a path for communication, or a path of relationship, or a path pursuing some other endeavor: religion, law or business, an artistic pursuit or whateverbut the soul in its movement attaches to those things which it holds as valuable for its own survival, according to the identification which it values and wishes to survive. If the soul does not value a certain aspect, it does not attempt to make that aspect survive, and therefore does not attach itself to those elements that would help that aspect survive. Therefore, it becomes obvious that the entity who is in pursuit of power is an entity who is basically afraid and is attempting to build up those aspects which would protect and help survive that aspect of the soul which is afraid of power. The pursuit of the power for oneself is in reaction of the fear of power from others; and likewise, when one pursues the attachments to music, one feels the pull of the music upon themselves and they feel that warmth and harmony and rapport with the music and all that it stands for in their lives. There is in this sense the pull as a motivation, the desire, the soul desires to be comforted, as opposed to the entity whose energies are in pursuit of power, when the soul there desires to avoid discomfort. The avoidance of discomfort may be at the expense of great discomfort in having to acquire and build up all of the weapons of power, but this is less uncomfortable for the soul than it would be to experience the threat of the discomfort of having someone else hold greater power. Therefore the soul is motivated by desire and fear, and this essentially is the on/off switch, like the computer languages of the machine, where either ON, which means you are attracted by desire, or OFF, which means you are repelled, and this on/off switch then begins to form the encoding which the soul constructs to build its language and its information data base. The storage of information associated with the soul is built entirely from acceptance/rejection, on/off, desire/fear; these two polarities: attraction and repulsion, regardless of what word is used for this, are the polarities that are activated in the soul. It is the positive and negative aspects of the soul, and allows the soul to develop its own individuality, and develops its own approach to circumstances. In the movement of the soul, the central core of the soul or the magnetic center is often

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You must remember that the soul has made these attachments. Yet, every attachment the soul has made, the soul can also disengage. When one attaches to an attitude of fear, one can also disengage from that attitude. When one attaches to an attitude of repulsion, one can also disengage from that attitude. But, in order for this to occur, there must be a desire that is greater than the attachment. The desire to disengage from a negative attitude must be greater than the desire to hold the negative attitude. Thus, an entity attached to a negative attitude may wish to analyze, Why do I have this attitude? What is this attitude doing for me? Often, the soul will recognize that the negative attitude is allowing the soul to keep its separate individuality apart from others in order for it to develop even further. It is important to allow the soul to have its full suffering of separateness in order for it to develop and grow to its full potential as a separate unique creation. For souls are not created whole, they are created over many lifetimes, many experiences; and the souls must endure that suffering, the movement in and out of form, like the kneading of bread in which it must be pressed, compressed, released, compressed again, until something starts to happena gas is formed and the yeast begins to activate and the bread begins to rise. Likewise with the soul. As it begins to develop from the repeated sufferings, from those sufferings that are self-induced by ones own separateness, desires for separateness, the emphasis on rejection, the emphasis on rejecting others or other things in the universe; as this soul develops these energies of separateness, it also is in the process of working itself into a frenzy, so that eventually it becomes ready to rise. Thus, attachmentseither through fear or through desirehelp to feed the soul and to give the soul the nutrition necessary and the impetus for it to develop its own individuality. It does little good to preach to entities not to be attached, for the only entities who will listen are those whose souls are evolved to the point where they are ready to let go of attachment. Those entities whose souls are not yet ready will not understand nor would it be beneficial for them to let go of attachment at this stage. It is sufficient for entities to understand the nature of attachment and how some attachments are beneficial while other attachments are detrimental. The concept of attachment and identification with something are essentially the same; and as entities identify with something, they automatically become attached to that thing or concept, the energy and information within that something. Therefore, identification with a religion, with a person, with an occupation, with a system, with a nation, with a groupany kind of identification is but an augmentation to the development of the soul in its effort to find its own unique self. Obviously, it will never find itself in these things; but it can never know itself until it has discovered what it cannot be. The prodigal son cannot come home until the prodigal son has left and stepped off the proper path. Thus, the soul must flounder in its efforts to find itself before it can ever realize its own individuality and come home to its source.

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are ment of the soul and its communicationthis Awareness wishes to point out a parallel in that the decimal system, which is understood on your plane as the system by which you conduct your mathematics, is actually evolved from the fact that you have ten fingers. Had you been evolved yourself more like the same level of intelligence but being shaped like a three-toed sloth; you might have a totally different system of numbers. The machine language used in your computers, the binary system as opposed to the decimal system used by your mental mathematics system, is based on the concept of on or off, accept/reject or positive/negative. The on/off switch essentially is the binary system, and in order to have the code, in order to communicate in the language of your decimal system, there must be a connective code developed that allows such communication. It is for this reason that the programmers have worked to develop machine language codes and assembly language codes and so forth to assist in bridging the gap between the on/off binary system of having but two choices, and the decimal system in which you have 10 choices or digits to choose from. Likewise, when you consider the alphabet, various cultures on your plane have different numbers of letters in their alphabets and these different numbers of letters each have their relationship to the other, but in many ways they are unique in themselves in that they do not all correspond in terms of the same number of letters, nor do they necessarily follow the same pattern or arrangement when they do correspond. Therefore, there are many systems of communication in terms of these characters that, when added together create words, which when added together create concepts, which when added together create fields of information. Each of these, the on or the off switch, has its own energy. When turned on, it creates a certain type of attraction. When turned off the attraction is lacking. Likewise, the on/off or positive/negative can create pull or repulsion, and when the soul as an energy field based around an idea of self, begins to operate in connection or conjunction with some associated field of energy, another soul or another developing energy form, it becomes aware of that other form, and either responds on or off, attraction or repulsion. As this evolves into a more sophisticated type of arrangement, just as in your computers, the early computer programmers worked with the abacus and later these became more complex, working with crystals, transistors, tubes, and finally into the use of lasers and light, but the on/off principle still remains. And likewise with the soul, there is either the attraction or the repulsion, and when there is the attraction there are degrees of attraction, and when there is the repulsion there are degrees of repulsion, and these varying degrees can be measured and defined more carefully according to the energies felt. And as they are felt, concepts or information begins to be crystallized in these images or energies so that a repulsion, for example, might be accompanied by a sound from the throat which may later become the rudiment sound of a particular letter in ones language that evolved out of the concept of repulsion, and whenever that letter

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are Thus, the soul continues its experience, like a pulsating light, and its pulsations reject and accept, light up its environment or turn off the environment, and the action gives information regarding the soul to others, and the soul receives information regarding others as it lights up and turns off. Therefore, the energy that is the soul, the magnetic center that is the soul, stores the data, which is the individuality, the bones of the soul, the idea, the belief, the structure that is the heart of the entitys central being. This is the information, and when an entity wishes to communicate to a soul, to tune into another soul, all that is necessary is to turn ones frequency to the same frequency of the energy of that soul, and one can automatically read the soul, and see the central core feeling of the entity. It is then a matter of finding the words in ones own language to express what is felt. This, essentially, is the Akashic Record. The Akashic Record is stored in the area of feeling, of tuning into energy that then reveals information. It may be equated to the software of a computer where the software is the storage of the program or information available, and the hardware is the structure through which the software works. The software being the energy and the hardware being the information and structure that allows the energy to flow down through the many thousands of lifetimes the soul experiences, the millions of circumstances, situations and experiences which it endures, each of which is approached as something new and unique, each of which is seen as either a continuation of the old, or something that is totally new, where the soul becomes bored at having to see the same thing every day, or where the soul becomes awed at seeing something so fresh and new and unexplainable becomes frightened at the sight. These various experiences are all part of the souls programming, what it wants and needs in order to move through its experiences to serve the purposes that it chooses and to develop itself in a manner where it returns to the source bearing gifts. Essentially, the soul is like the energies of this Awareness cast out on the sea, bread cast upon the waters and these souls being cast out upon the sea, when moved far enough, will return bearing gifts. This is the Law of Gratitude. As the souls return bearing gifts, they also find that their attachments to the universal source is their own gift of life, of everlasting life. The communication aspect of the soul as it develops and learns to communicate to others, to relate to others, developing its own language in regard to its many experiences, whether it be in the form of human or in other forms; the magnetic center of being developing its various languages for communication, whether in music, mathematics, motion or words, or of the printed vicarious communication systems, it finds itself constantly extending its being into other areas, communicating with other souls, and that outreach program of communicating with other souls is like the data base when there is a relational program allowing the various souls to have interaction with each other, when information can be shared, so that each can build his or her files and have greater understanding of life through the process of sharing.

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Integration As these souls begin to share and the concept of separateness diminishes, then the fulfillment of the energies and information allows the soul to begin to rise rapidly and to experience greater joys. It is through this interrelationship between souls that the yeast of the bread has its effect and allows the dough to rise, that the souls begin to merge together into a harmony that allows civilization to occur. This allows the group action, the team and the activities of people working together. Thus, through these merging and reaching out to touch others, to be with others, to communicate with others, this action of the soul is the on mode, as opposed to the off mode that rejects others. Thus, as the soul begins to move into the greater active role of being turned on and accepting others, (as opposed to being turned off and rejecting others), there comes about a new livelihood, a new lifestyle, a new energy field with greater input and greater activity for the soul; and thus, rather than shriveling up and diminishing on the vine, becoming lost, the soul begins to blossom, like flowers in May, and the blossoms begin to spread and each blossom appears to be more wholesome because of the blossoms around. One blossom in a field of stickers does not appeal, but when all blossoms are in bloom at once, and then the field is beautiful. Likewise, when one soul is in bloom and all others are turned off, when one soul is lit up and the others are darkened, it cannot be a beautiful scene even though that one soul shines ever so bright, for it is a saddened sight to see all of those darkened souls. However, as the communication between souls begins, the energies of the exchange of information is automatically turned on. This is like the fireflies in June and July on a summers eve, when they begin to shine their lights and blink toward each other, stimulating each other to do likewise; the turning on of the lights of the souls essentially comes about as these souls begin to communicate with each other, talk to each other, without so much rejection and turning off. Thus, the soul, its essence being energy, carrying information, creating and forming attachments, which in turn create attitudesbeliefs and attitudes which impel or influence the soul to turn on or off, create the language of the soul in its efforts to communicate its attitude, and thus turns on or off with words to express that attitude and allows the soul either to shut down or to light up according to its choice. And as the souls begin to light up, they also begin their movement back toward the Divine. The Divine being the energy source from which the souls first came. Those souls that shut down and thrive on the darkness can only have their being in the contrast with the light; and the light will always prevail, because without the light, the darkness would be totally without life. Thus, the souls learn to communicate, and through communication the lights come back to their being and the energies and information which they contain becomes more available for others, and a sharing occurs where the growth of civilization, the growth of cultures may happen because of the sharing of individuals, the individuals sharing with each other, creating a new hive, a new system, a new order, like that of a bee hive,

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are when one individual from the standpoint of the hive, is not seen as being of any great significance, and yet the entire hive protects each individual. When one individual is in distress, the hive comes to the rescue, thus the All for one and one for all concept where the soul begins to merge back into the concept of the One Universe, where the cells are all for one and one for all. Thus, communication for the soul through the information and energies contained within, shared among other souls, becomes the key to transformation that allows the soul to return to its source. Sea of Pisces, Vol. 12 Lesson 4 Previously, this Awareness discussed the nature of the soul, its essence as energy and information, the attachments that it makes in order to grow and develop, the manner by which it learns to communicate with others and to develop systems of rapport. In this discussion, this Awareness wishes to speak of the nourishment of the soul, the nutrition and nourishing factors that go into allowing the soul to thrive and to become healthy. Just as there can be unhealthy cells within a body there can also be unhealthy souls within a universal body, and these cells or souls need to be attended, and attending means to give attention. To attend or give attention to a lost soul is essentially to turn your light on that soul; the action of nourishing a lost soul is much like turning on the amperage for the energies to attend to that soul, to allow that soul to develop and to grow according to the new voltage or amperage that is being given in attendance. Essentially, by turning up ones attention to another, or attending to another soul, or even attending to ones own soul, you change the vibration of that soul; the attention alters the frequency of the soul and moves it toward a higher frequency; this, of course, assuming that the attention is benevolent and kind and loving attention. When the attention is condemning and damning, then of course, the souls vibrations diminish and move into lower frequencies; it is in this manner that entities can darken another soul or lighten the other soul, simply by the type of attention that they give. Likewise, as can be done to others, one can do this to themselves. One can darken ones soul by simply condemning oneself, or can lighten ones soul by simply approving of oneself. In order to bring an entity into a greater awareness of self, it sometimes is necessary to see the self darkened, if that is the direction which the soul is taking, then to hurry this on may actually be a benefit to the entity, for it is speeding up the evolution of the soul, and when the soul is moving rapidly in a darkened fashion or direction, to speed this up in the sense of pointing out where this is going, of showing the entity the outcome of this behavior, this can serve as a warning so that the entity turns around and moves back toward a lighter path.

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Integration However, one must be extremely cautious in giving warnings to souls, for too often the warnings turn into condemnations that propel the soul to go further in the direction at a higher speed rather than to alter the course. It is much better for entities to give encouragement to the soul and to assist the soul in turning around through encouragement rather than through condemnation. This in terms of oneself, and in terms of others, but in terms of oneself, rather than encouragement, one must think in terms of encouraging thoughts. Thus, the entity must develop his or her own thought-systems and patterns to thinking encouraging thoughts rather than depressive thoughts; to think encouraging thoughts is much like having someone who is encouraging you and it allows you to have a more uplifting of your spirits, which in turn turns on the light of the soul and allows it to have greater energy. Thinking thoughts that are depressive rather than uplifting and encouraging tends to shut off the soul, turn down the voltage and amperage and cause the soul to feel like giving up and just passing on and let things go wherever they want to go. Such thoughts: Why fight it? Why struggle? Why not just give in to it? Why even bother?such thoughts are often followed by a sense of resignation. Often these thoughts are much like having someone else speak these thoughts to you and tell you: Whats the point in your trying to do anything? You know you are no good, you know you will never succeed in anything! That it is even more frustrating when these thoughts come from your own head, for if they are coming from someone else, you can fight against these other entities who would clarify you as unable to succeed, but when they are coming from your own head, you must alter your entire thinking pattern. In nourishing the soul, often one must, much like attending to plants in a garden, must dig out the weeds, dig out the rocks and dig out those things that are hindering the proper growth of the crop that you wish to develop. In order to dig out the weeds, one must know what the weeds are, and the weeds to the soul are those thoughts that are hindrances to a happy and expressive and outgoing soul, and generally are associated with rejection, either of self or others or both Therefore, to weed out, to take out the weeds from ones garden is to identify those attitudes, beliefs which have accumulated within the garden of the soul, to weed these out, to find them and identify them and then to weed them out. Somewhere along the way, thoughts entered which grew as weeds that were filled with concepts of rejection of self or others, based on fear and the need to protect self, and these became the weeds. These weeds need to be defined. They can always be recognized because they generally have thorns or some type of poisonous effect on others. They generally are defensive and fearful. Thus, these qualifies within the soul which are weeds to the soul are essentially created from the attitudes which were sown as seeds from previous beliefs; the beliefs taken from previous experiences, and thus, the soul or the garden of

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are ones being becomes a hotbed for all types of seeds from previous experiences that are growing in multitude and if uncontrolled, can overtake the best parts of ones garden and totally destroy the fruits of ones labor. To sort out these undesirable seeds or beliefs from the past is very difficult. There are many ways where entities attempt to do thisthrough psycho-analysis, through hypnotism, through shock treatment, through all types of mental health programs and treatments, through escapism, through drugs, through drink. There are many types of fantasies and vicarious experiences that entities pursue in order to find ways to either avoid looking at their weeds, or to discover more about the weeds in the garden. The beliefs which have been sown within their system grow to devour the greater fruit; thus, the Sea of Pisces for the soul becomes a sea of sorrow in many ways, and the sorrow of the confusion, the sorrow of the sea and the energies that come with the wild sowing of the seeds of ones beliefs can very easily turn his or her soul into a jungle of tangles and confusion. Thus, insanity may follow. Many entities will wonder and ask: How can I possibly untangle this mess?, and look thus at the garden, wishing to save some residue of some of the more valuable plants that are being smothered, the more valuable beliefs that are being overtaken by these weeds of the damaging beliefs. As the entity observes, the entity may become totally depressed, unable to figure out how to possibly clear up the mess that his or her life, and his or her soul has developed into; and the entanglement may become so great that there seems to be no possible way to make the image of the beautiful garden which the entity desires. However, that as in all things, the tangles are there only because the entity is attached to those beliefs, the tangles are there only because the entity is attached to the vines, does not want to give up this vine, because it is wrapped around this one which I want to keep, does not want to give up this thorn because it is standing right there by that one which I dont want damaged. Thus, the entity seeking to hold onto something of the entanglement does not wish to give up the parts that are causing the problems. There are always the opportunities to cut out the good with the bad from ones garden, to start over from scratch, to let go of all attachments and begin again, totally new. Bring in the plough, turn over the soil, start from the ground up and rebuild ones life. Often, this must be done for some entities whose lives are so entangled. And because of this, there are those systems that have been developed to deal with the soul to give it a totally fresh start, building from the ground up. This as the nourishment that comes from certain religious philosophies and certain alchemical efforts Thus the soul grows not only from its suffering, but may grow also from its service to others through lighting up, and through sharing, but also grow from the conversion process where the garden is ploughed up and all attachments are released, and new attachments to the Divine is brought in and planted as the central core of the soul.

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This process is alchemical; there are many ways where the soul can be healed through alchemy. Alchemy being that action which alters consciousness; that action which allows for the change in consciousness to occur, based upon turning lead into gold, or turning the lead concept, the negative concept into a golden concept, a positive concept. The entity who has the self-image: I am a terrible sinner! , is holding a lead conceptwhether he took this on for himself or was handed this by the preacherbut at any rate, the entity is holding this concept: I am a terrible sinner! This is lead.

The conversion process is such that the entity may turn lead into gold by following the alchemist who says, But this way, by following this path, the lead shall be taken from you and gold shall be given. And the entity then begins to look, and lo and behold the entity is whole, golden bright, the soul is clear and is of a brilliant gold and of great value. This conversion process is essentially the same thing as plowing under the old beliefs, the old images of self, the old central core ideas of oneself, and attaching oneself to a totally new seed around which the soul can build its image. These seeds and beliefs, when taken from an entity, must be replaced by something else quicklythis is like a heart transplant. You cannot take the heart out of an entity and let him walk around for very long without giving him a second heart. Likewise, the soul, when certain attachments of a negative or positive nature are taken from the soul, (these attachments being beliefs); when ones beliefs are taken, when ones loyalties are broken, when that which one believed in is shattered, the soul is empty; it has no bones and must replace that emptiness, that vacuum, with somethinginformation of some nature that satisfies the emptiness. Often the soul grabs whatever is available. The information being, perhaps for the soul: This is a cruel world! If that is the information that is most readily available for the soul, this may then become the central core belief of the soul, the new weed, the new crop around which the soul grows its new garden. Thus, the nourishment of the soul may be of a poisonous nature, depending on the beliefs that are brought in for the soul to feed on, the seeds that are planted, and the energies that are grown from those seeds. In this manner, there can be those souls which develop their gardens as being poisonous to others and to themselves, or being filled with thorns to warn others off; but there are also those whose gardens are ploughed under in a manner so that they can bring up a new crop of blossoms, flowers or fruit that is wholesome in nature. The soul that plants seeds and concepts of a wholesome nature not only benefits itself but also provides fruit and blessing for others. Therefore, it becomes important that

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are entities watch the weeds in their soul, the beliefs which are active within their thinking, to uproot those which are the cause of turmoil, which are associated with the turningoff process, and to emphasize the fruits which are beneficial and related to the turningon process; those things which allow the soul to light up; to feel good, experience joy, experience communication and rapport with others. Essentially, the nutrition of the soul is that which gives the soul pleasurepleasure and a feeling of self-worth. This is not to the extreme, but to a harmonious and balanced degree; for when taken to the extreme, the soul then begins to feel itself to be either gluttonous and thus a condemnation of itself, or begins to see itself as being super wonderful, and thus vain. Therefore, the soul in acquiring anything of a positive nature in excess will turn this into a negative condemnation of itself. Anything that is too much becomes negative, any positive that is too much, too extreme becomes a negative. Therefore, in the nourishment process, everything needs to be balanced. There needs to be just the right amount. Not too much, and not too little: just the right amount. The soul can become very selective in avoiding extremes and this process was emphasized by the ancient Greeks in what they termed the Golden Mean, the Middle Path, and the action that was never extremenever too far to the right, never too far to the leftthe Golden Mean, the Straight and Narrow Path. This to the Greeks was the highest and best. The soul may also, in following this path of keeping everything balanced, find much value for itself in terms of living a harmonious experience. However, there are also other experiences available for the soul in which great extremes are experienced, which lead to rapid growth, rapid development, extreme chaos from which comes great expectations and great achievements, and the soul often chooses this as its alchemical path of development. Each soul may thrive differently. One soul may thrive on harmony; another soul may thrive on excitement and chaos. But each soul, in picking its own path must be held accountable for its actions and will be held accountable for its actions on itself and on others, because the soul itself is the accountant, and everything that it experiences or does is recorded in its own data bank, is recorded in its own storage of information, is recorded in its own memory. And thus the soul is held accountable by its very existence, by its very nature of being the accumulation of ones experiences. Thus, the memory, which is the soul, is the accumulation of all things the soul has experienced, has absorbed through the nutrients of the soil of its circumstances, the soil of its existence, the nutrients and the care, attention, and experiences that have gone into the make-up of the soul are the accountant for ones soul. This Awareness does not have an accountant other than the soul itself who serves as judge of itself. Thus each entity, upon passing over from one experience to another, moving into enlightenment, becomes his or her own accountant, his or her own judge. There is no Divine judge who says you are evil and you are no good, but there is the soul, which sees itself in the reflection of the Light and thus, the Light of Truth, reflecting upon the soul

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Integration allows the soul to account for itself. The nutrition of the soul thus comes from the many beliefs which have resulted in attitudes and the outgrowth of those in ones garden, the experiences that have resulted in the casting of seeds upon your soul, either from your own beliefs, or those which were cast into your soil by others; where you must weed out the beliefs of your grandfather from your soul because you no longer accept his view, but at the same time you must be cautious not to uproot some of your grandmothers beliefs, because you liked some of these things. Thus, you may meticulously pick and choose from the input of the various seeds and beliefs which others have cast into your soul those which you wish to keep and those which you wish to discard, or, you may simply plough it all under and start anew with a totally new central core belief. Entities wishing to take this alchemical route should focus your central core belief on the concept of the Divine Eternal Light, the Christ Light, the Light That Never Fails, and set your faith, your Central Belief System around this, and around this rock build your garden. The garden may then be planted meticulously with those beliefs and concepts that augment and support the Central Light, the Light of the Divine. And in this manner, your soul becomes a shining eminence of the Divine and grows with continuous beauty as you plant new seeds to augment that Light. Sea of Pisces, Vol. 12 Lesson 5 In the previous discussions, this Awareness covered the concept of the soul in its formation, its essence, the accumulation of attachments, the manner by which it learned communication and the nurturing process where the soul became nurtured for good or ill. In this particular discussion, the concept of the soul in its expression is that which will be focused upon. In terms of the movement of energies which create the magnetic center which in turn becomes the core of the soul, the movement of energies as that which essentially becomes the will or the magnetic center of the soul, the I AM, the identification of the soul as an individuality. It is through movement that the soul develops. Thus, the soul energies that become stagnant create a circumstance in which the energies are not in movement and the soul begins to dissipate. Thus, the movement of the soul tends to build a greater center or magnetic center, while the static energies tend to dissipate that magnetic center. This is the nature of magnetism or gravity, that when something moves, it begins to accumulate a central gravity and magnetism. Likewise, the movement of the soul may be equated to the volume of the life force in that as it moves, the magnetic center accumulates life force from the universe or basically, the spirit of the universe is accumulated around that magnetic center called the soul. Thus, as the soul is in movement, the life force begins to accumulate and build in greater amounts. It then behooves the soul to continue being in movement, for it gains a greater amount of life force and spirit.

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are Therefore the soul develops that quality known as desire, for in order to move one must have a motivation toward which to move. The motivation is a goal of some type. As It has given previously, in order to be motivated, one must experience some kind of discomfort; when one is too comfortable, one simply becomes static, and when one experiences some form of discomfort or pain, then the entity begins to move and is motivated to set forth toward a goal which in some way will bring about a resolution to allow the soul or entity to again find a state of rest. Thus, the goal is an effort toward which the soul moves in order to recapture a state of rest from which the soul first began. The problem for the soul is that the state of rest never remains; and if it did, the soul would simply stagnate. Therefore, the soul is constantly moved by challenges, by those unpleasant circumstances, and thus it has been said that the soul is the bearer of burdens and born out of suffering. The expression or experience of the soul, being such as to be born from constant unfulfillment from a sense of incompleteness and the feeling of not being fulfilled or being whole is, in actuality, the feeling the soul does in fact rightfully possess, for the soul is not complete and is only complete after it has moved through eons of time of suffering, of movement, which allows it to become more and more accumulative of the experiences in the universe. As it accumulates more and more and becomes more and more wise, then it begins to suffer less and less. On the path of the soul in its efforts to become fulfilled, it goes through certain stages. The rudimentary soul, as was indicated previously, is a combination of energy and information. The information is that which is the bones of the energy, and the energy may be said to be that which is the flesh of the soul, the magnetic center and the energy surrounding the bones or information that makes up the identification or individuality of the soul. Thus the soul may be seen as the individuality surrounded by an aura of energy. In ancient symbolism, the soul has also been represented by the apple, the reference being the apple, or flesh of the apple surrounding a core; the core being the identification, the seed of consciousness and the information that is basically the bones of the soul, where the fruit is that which is the aura, or magnetic energies surrounding that information or individuality. There are many ways in which entities have symbolized the soul; the sailing ship, such as that used by the Aquarian Church in its logo is also a symbol of the soul in movement. The expression of the soul in its rudimentary form, in its early stages of development, is that when the information and the energy are in a kind of turmoil, that this has been symbolized by the concepts of Rhyee or Lucifer in relation to the Divine Creator; these being reflections of the Divine Creator. The information or that structure which is the identity within the energy field, within the spirit, as that which may seen as the reflection of the Divine Creator. The seed is not the creator, but the energy that created the seed is the Creator. Likewise, the identi-

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Integration fication of the soul, the I AM, is not the creator, but is the result of the creator which is the Universal Being and energy, the spirit of the universe, which created as a reflection of Self the I AM which results within the heart of the many souls created. To further proceed in the discussion of the expression and turmoil within the rudimentary soul, the concept of chaos between the information and the energy field of the soul has also been symbolized as a war between reason and love; love being the radiant energy that is present, the aura which surrounds the core of the soul as compared to the reason or the information that is in the heart of the soul. The accumulation of experiences move inward and collects as a kind of ever crystallizing residue within the heart of the soul, entering through that energy field and moving ever into the core of the magnetic center, crystallizing, like bones being formed within the heart or core of the energy field. These bones or crystallized energies within the energy field become the materialized form, the focused form and become the seed, or become that which serves as the identification of the soul, and this becomes that which may be symbolized as mind, or the concept or thought of the I AM, the individuality within the soul. This individuality begins to, as previously stated, accept or reject. It is either turned on or turned off to the various experiences that it encounters. Thus, it accepts or rejects and it is important that not only it accept, but also that it reject certain things. For otherwise, if the soul accepts everything, then it becomes a sponge for all experiences and all things, including those of a negative nature, including garbage and waste. Therefore, it must be selective, turning on and turning off, accepting and rejecting. Thus, the acceptance/rejection aspect of the soul is the rudimentary form of logic or reason. It begins to turn on and turn off in a yes/no manner, where the coldness of the no or the acceptance of the yes allows the soul to have one type of experience in one manner through its own subjective willful expression of accepting or rejecting, or the soul may be neutral and allow the decisions of acceptance or rejection to be superimposed from outside of itself. But if this occurs, essentially the soul has accepted the fate of external forces and is not using its will, is allowing things of the outside force to penetrate and to move it as though it were but a ship without a rudder. The soul can indeed give up control and allow the universe to blow where it will, and allow itself to float wherever the universe dictates. This is a path that many choose; it is the path when the spirit guides the soul. There is also the path in which the entity guides the soul, the individuality sets the rudder and the course; this is the path of the Magi. The path of the fool is that when the spirit guides the ship, and both of these paths have their value at different times and in different stages of the souls development. When the soul is blown by the winds, come what may, this is symbolic of the Fool in the Tarot, where the spirit guides the soul and the soul has no particular desire of its own. This allows the soul to have a sense of surrender to the highest, which is in many ways

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are the most rapid growth period for the soul. Once the soul has surrendered to the highest and become one with the spirit, then it can move into a new state of acting in harmony with the spirit of the Magi, as a magician, when it uses its own personal will, but where the personal will is at one with the higher forces, with the Divine Force. And thus, the rudder is set in accordance with the Divine Force and the soul then begins to operate internally, but in harmony with Divine Force. This is the path of the Magi and is symbolized in the Tarot deck as the Magician. Prior to this development and prior to the movement of the soul into the consciousness level of the Fool, there is however, that earlier rudimentary struggle between the forces of reason and the forces of love. This polarization, symbolized by the 6th card in the Tarot, that of the Lovers, this polarization is that which is based upon concepts of security, where the soul is seeking to make itself secure and its reasons through selection and rejection, through logic of what it has come to believe is the most suitable method for self-preservationas opposed to love, which urges it to move in acceptance of all things, in acceptance of the universe, to move in a sense of faith and trust in a universal justice. The logic dictates that this tendency to rely on a faith in goodness be hindered or stopped, for it could be dangerous: and thus, the logic and reason is in conflict with the urge to be loving, kind, generous, and following the sense of a faithful attitude toward the universe. Reason and love then are in constant turmoil, reason being cold, harsh, being careful, being paranoid, being afraid, and upon that fear acts in a manner that it sees to be crucial and important to self-preservation. On the other hand, love is present, reaching out, struggling, as part of the soul, the love being the energy field which surrounds reason, the reason being the inner field, the core, the concept of I AM, the self-identity of the soul. The one, the reason, is essentially the information that is being processed, and the love is the feeling that is being experienced by the soul. Thus, the soul attempts to experience itself through love and to direct and guide itself through reason. Thus, much of the expression of the soul, even in its most rudimentary and cold aspects, will be reaching out for love. Even the most cruel and cold type of love does add growth to the soul. And the soul, when involved in even the most rudimentary forms of love-making or of a relationship of a loving nature even if taken from sources in a manner that is not acceptable in a social sense, where the soul reaches out and violates another in the act of love based on pure lust or passion, even that type of expression can serve as a kind of growth factor to the soul. For love in any manner is food for the soul, while reason is a kind of shell which begins to isolate the soul more and more from others; this is a kind of freezing action creating crystalline type of energy that segregates and separates the soul from the universe, while love tends to melt that coldness and allow the soul to again flow with the spirit. When reason and love struggle long enough over long periods of time, love will always eventually win, and the action of love is such that at any point where love

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are This is the combat between reason and love, and eventually, if it continues, and the entities are ready and worthy, love will win out and the two will become more wise. Likewise, within each soul this same type of expression occurs. When the soul is developing a particular talent or studying to become adept at some skill, first reason begins to operate, and love of the skill, love of the pursuit, the desire to be active in this fieldperhaps the love of the music, the art or the dance is that inspiration which leads the entity to attempt to do this thing. The reason enters in and attempts to figure out how to do the dance, how to play the music, how to create the art. Thus, reason and love, working together, but also in conflict with each other because the love attempts to enjoy the music, enjoy the dance, enjoy the art, but the reason interferes, blocks and describes, reasons, rejects or criticizes the movements, criticizes the art, or in some way interferes with the flow of the expression. Thus, reason and love are in combat. But as this struggle continues long enough, something clicks, and suddenly wisdom occurs, where the movement of love merges with the act of reason and the music begins to play with a spontaneous rhythm and sound that follows the reason and the dance begins that follows the movements that have been logically accepted, or the painting follows the art that the mind reasoned to be correct; but all of these things are occurring through the act of love in a spontaneous movement. Thus reason, which may be referred to as Lucifer, and love, which is the Christ; reason which is the left side of the brain, the rational aspect of consciousness; and the Christ, which is the intuitive aspect, the right side of the brain; these two coming together in wisdom bring forth that higher quality. Essentially, the Divine Force then, the Spirit, takes over and the soul begins to come into its own. Those who are present when this action occurs, may feel the kind of electrifying energy emanating from such a soul when it is in total harmonywhen the reason and love merge, and thus the soul becomes attuned to the higher energies, the electrifying energies of the Divine Christos. It is this which is the indication of the soul in its highest expression. This may occur in various experiences, in various moments or in various fields of endeavor. It is not necessarily an action that occurs for every moment of the souls existence; for even when the soul is highly evolved, it must have those moments when reason and love become less harmonious and where they begin to operate separately as yin and yang factor. However, the ideal that entities should work toward in the expression of the soul is that movement when reason and love merge together into that higher aspect of wisdom in which wisdom and love serve as a team in spontaneous combustion of the Christ Light. Sea of Pisces, Vol. 12 Lesson 6 This Awareness wishes to reflect briefly on the previous discussions regarding the soul, the essence of the soul. In the first discussion, the concept of the soul in its essen-

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Integration tial qualities or nature as that which was discussed. Following this, there were discussions regarding its attachments; for the attachments that were created by the soul are those which give it its particular qualities and keep it in motion, keep it moving, and that movement as that which assists in the building and the evolving of the soul. Without some kind of movement, either of the soul itself in its relationship with other things, or movement of those things as they pass by the soul, there can be no evolution of the soul. The soul essentially evolves in its relationship with other things. In the movement of the soul, there comes about that which is a kind of language based on the acceptance or rejection, the turning on and turning off of the accept/reject mechanism of the soul. This is in part associated with pleasure/pain. It is also associated with other types of reactions to things that the soul comes in contact with; this relates to the nature of information as energy, and helps to develop that which is a kind of language for the soul. Following this, is that which is the nurturing of the soul in terms of what it takes for the soul to evolve in terms of its various experiences. Thereafter is the discussion of that which was covered in the 5th lesson: the expression of the soulthe way the soul expresses itself in response to those forces acting upon it. In this particular discussion, this Awareness wishes to speak of the order by which the soul develops and operates. In order to comprehend the nature of the soul in its movement through time and space, an allegory is helpful. Visualize the soul as being like that which is a boat, floating on an ocean; this particular boat however, is one that has not yet been completed. In fact, it is simply a plank floating on the ocean. The soul in its beginning is very rudimentary, but it is created in such a manner as to continue to evolve, to build itself into that which is more and more evolved, becoming increasingly complex through the experiences that it enjoys, or encounters in its sojourns. Therefore, you imagine this plank on which an entity, who is the living part of the soul, floats on an ocean; and consider that there is sufficient debris floating on the ocean, which you may call experiences, and these experiences are gathered together as various planks, and hooked together in such a manner that the soul begins to build a larger and larger raft. Gradually, these connective tissues, the different experiences added together, begin to develop in such a manner as to assist the raft into becoming more of an environment on which it can create walls. Thus, over a period of time, the soul floating on this raft develops sides to help shield itself from the elements outside. This is like building your boat as you go; it is similar in that the soul has a built-in mechanism where it evolves from its own experiences and begins to create more and more of itself by its own programming. It is not as though someone out there is building the soul. Once the soul has been created in its rudimentary form, it then takes over the process of building itself. In this soul, or this ship sailing on this sea of life, the qualities of this require that certain order and priorities are given in an orderly fashion, and that these may be done

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are unconsciously, because the soul is programmed to create the order necessary for its growth and fruition. However, if entities wish to understand this order, they may look more carefully at the order that has been provided, and may be able in that manner to assist, rather than to conflict with the order that the soul requires in its growth and fruition. Following the essence of the soul, there is that which is the souls natural order of being attached to something. In the nature of the soul, its main and most prominent attachment is to that which has been described as God, or as the Universal Creator, from which it is a part. It is a fragmented particle, or aspect of the Universal Consciousness. It carries its own life that is a reflection of the Universal consciousness or the mind of God. This is its first attachment, and without that attachment being strong, or with that attachment being broken (or appearing to be broken), the soul is weakened in its very essence. In reality, it can never totally break away from its natural attachment to that which is the Divine Mind. However, in recognition of this attachment, it becomes stronger; and in the rejection of this attachment, the soul becomes weaker and its energies can be dissipated. With this recognition of the attachment to the Divine Mind, its energies strengthen, its essence strengthens and its evolution speeds up. Many souls attach to things, attach to other entities, to other souls, and look for that which would give them satisfaction and give them the joy of living through their attachments to things of the world, things of the material realm, to things, to debris and things floating on the ocean of lifeand they hold onto these things as though these would supply something they need. The basic and prioritized attachment is to that which is the Universal Mind, of God. When entities have this firm and solid as their first and foremost attachment, then all other things will fall into proper place and the soul can enjoy the benefits and fruits of its journey and other attachments. Following this prioritized attachment, the soul then can focus on other things and attach itself as it pleases, according to its own interest, according to its own desire, according to its purpose of the moment. As it pursues these other attachments, it must always remember and always remain firmly attached to that original bond between itself and its Creator. This is like the captain of the ship who must remember who owns the ship. For if the captain forgets who owns the ship and attaches himself to some person in a port and says, Here! I will share my ship. You can have my ship, or if the captain believes that he is the owner of the ship; then indeed, there is error that will follow. When entities firmly understand who owns the soul, they will then be able to function on other levels without conflict or serious problem. This is the first priority; other attachments may then follow, according to whatever entities desire. The next order of concern is that of the communication; there does need to be some form of communicationof the soul to itself, where the soul understands its own na-

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Integration ture, understands its attachments and the soul is able to relate to itself and to other things outside. This kind of communication becomes an important factor in the evolution of the soul. The most important being whether the soul can relate to itself. The second most important is whether it can relate to others outside of itself. In relating to itself, it must see itself as a unit, but must also recognize its place in a larger environment, so that it has a dual vision of itself; not only being individual, but also being part of some thing greater, part of something outside of self. In reference to communicating with others, it must have some way where it reflects off of another, such as the ship sailing through a darkened sea may have a light or sonar device where it knows when something is in its presence or something is in its path; this form of communicating or reflecting off of another is that which helps the individual, helps the soul to know its location, to know its nature in reflection from the eyes of others. In this manner, the soul begins to have a more complete recognition of itself than if it were only locked into its own interpretation of self, and had no outside input. The soul also needs nourishment, and the nourishment comes through that which is experiences. All things become a form of nourishment in regard to the soul. For every experience adds something of valueeven though it may be a negative and unpleasant experience, it can, in fact, be quite a learning experience, even when it is something along the path of suffering. In this experience of being nurtured, the soul has both positive and negative experiences and these never leave; that is, the experience received is never lost from the souls memory. It always recalls in some way every experience. For it is accumulating data, just as a space probe might be programmed to note everything that occurs and have all of the occurrences put into its computer-bank memory, so that these memories are never really lost and have an effect on the growth of information obtained by the computer banks, by the probe, or by the soul itself. In addition, the soul begins to develop its own reaction or its own response, and this becomes its mode of expression. And it does tend to order and prioritize as part of in own evolutionary action, this ordering and prioritizing is already programmed in as a facet or aspect of the soul, and was placed there at its beginning. It also is trained to have a certain sense of justice or balance and harmony, and the interchange of energies with other parts of creation with which it comes in contact; and in so doing, it becomes sensitive to those outside forces. At this stage, it begins to relate more and more to external things, to things that are outside of its own particular needs, outside of its own particular self. It moves into the recognition that there are things beyond itself that need to be explored, need to be touched, need to be contacted, and probed in order to gain greater understanding of the nature of that which lies beyond the self. In this manner, it begins to develop certain tendencies, which may be called purposes; and these purposes have to do with its goal or direction of its movement. And thus, the soul then begins to formulate its own guidance system, based on all that it has accumulated in the past. It develops certain

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are desires, certain curiosities and works toward that purpose of fulfilling those desires. And thus, it sets forth its goals; and as it moves toward these goals, it begins to grow and develop much more rapidly in its evolution, the stronger the goal, the more the opportunity for evolving. The goals automatically create obstacles, and the obstacles hinder the movement of the soul, and these restrictions to the soul create irritations, and the irritations create greater strength or development in the soul to overcome those obstacles and those irritations. And thus, the soul is automatically speeded-up in its effort to evolve and become a more potent force. There comes, then, a time when the soul reaches a state of realizing it has accomplished considerable amounts of achievements, great achievements, and that it is fully crystallized as force and form, and that its achievements and its goals have been reached, and that there are still more goals which lie beyond, more challenges which it can pursue; but that much of what it has already obtained can be given in service to others, to help those lagging souls, to help those who need help, to give some kind of assistance to those young souls that are still developing. Thus, the soul begins to develop a sense of obligation and responsibility toward othersnot only toward itself, but toward others alsoand in this development, the order of the souls priorities then begins to tap that which has been called the Path of Service. And this Path of Service as that which may develop a more quickly evolving route, where the soul evolves at much higher speed than it previously experienced in its self-centered movements. As the soul begins to move on the Path of Service, giving assistance to others, as it travels and carries cargo, or carries loads to benefit the various ports of call, where it unloads its cargo here for this person, picks up cargo to take to another, and in such serving, becomes a ship or soul that is willing and ready and capable of being a major force in the benefits of others lives, to serve them, to give them energies and assistance and to carry information from place to place; as the soul becomes proficient in this task, it reaches a point in which it realizes that there are still more areas that need to be experienced. And in this movement, it realizes that there are areas outside of its own particular course, its routes, and it sees that these areas lie in a different direction, a different dimension. And thus, it becomes aware of the mystical, the unknown, the metaphysical and the path that lies beyond the paths that are known to those who sail these seas. And thus, it seeks to find a way out of the maze and into a different dimension, into a different area, a different reality. In this level of development, the soul turns to all kinds of new or different ways of escaping, seeking to find some new approach, some uncharted map, some land that lies beyond the edge; and the soul, then, becomes the great adventurer into the unknown. At this point, the soul is ready for another leap into a different and totally unique new world. It is so at this time, that your science, which has been based on material studies, the study of matter itself, has reached a point where it is now at the edge of physical reality; and finds itself, through that which is quantum physics, approaching a new dimension where the physical no longer is seen as real, and the reality that lies beyond

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are In the prioritizing of the order of the souls movement, (all of which is created by the initial programming given to the soul), the recognition of this order will allow entities to better map the movement of their soul, to better understand where it is going, what is occurring. This movement as that which is signified in those signs of the astrological orders. The movement from essence, through attachment, through communication, through nurturing, through presentation or expression, through order, through balance and harmony and relationship, through the exchange of energies, through the search and refinement of energies, and through that which is the purpose and direction and the service that follow, and that which is the jumping-off place into the realms of the unknownthis pattern is imbedded in the soul at its creation, and it follows this pattern, this astrological circle, and it responds and reflects to its environment. And therefore, by understanding this pattern and this movement, entities can enhance the growth, and can predict the growth of the soul. Sea of Pisces, Vol. 12 Lesson 7 In the previous discussion relating to the prioritizing and order by which the soul operates in its automatic mode of evolving, it was mentioned that the highest priority related to that which is the attachment to its own Creator, the creating force of the universe, that which has been called God, that which is the Universal Consciousness, that which created the soul. There may be other terms to describe this creator of the soul. In this discourse, this Awareness repeats the importance of that attachment; in the present discourse, this as being the relationship, or marriage of the individual soul to that which is the Universal Soul, or that which is called God; or whatever other name the entity chooses. This creator of the soul and the soul itself as being the first marriage, or first agreement; it is a kind of partnership arrangement; it sets the tempo or pattern by which the soul then, in its further action, creates its own relationship with other entities or beings, as it moves through its various sojourns. The nature of partnership as that which has many different degrees: that a partnership can be, for example, quite a shallow relationship for but a momentary arrangement. For example, when you get aboard a bus and pay your fee, you have just created a relationship with the driver of the bus and with the bus company; and this relationship is such as to be a contract where the bus is contracted to be used to take you to the destination which is agreed upon by the bus company, the driver and the vehicle in use for this purpose, and if the driver, company or the bus defaults in its contract to take you to the proper place, then you could, for example, have some complaint against the driver, the bus or the company. Likewise, there is a certain obligation on you as a passenger where if you do not behave in the manner prescribed, there is likely to be a complaint against you, and you may forfeit your right to ride on the bus; this is an arrangement or contract which is not drawn up on paper, but is drawn up through mutual understanding of the role of the bus, the driver and the company, and the role of the passenger. There are other degrees of arrangements and of contracts between individuals that are of a more permanent

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are these values will exchange, and the one who is most spontaneous and free will begin to pick up and exhibit more serious order in his or her life, and the one who is excessively orderly and very serious about things will become more playful and more spontaneous in his or her life; and in this way, the entities begin to balance out each other, and in this manner the oppositesthe polarized opposites begin to reconcile, and both souls, then, will grow and develop a more balanced form of expression. This is the purpose and value that entities seek in coming together. It is not to simply support each others already-formed status or expression as would be found when two souls, equally alike, join together and are so similar that neither changes, but supports each other in their already-formed behavioral pattern and value system; but rather, that when two souls come together, they rub off on each other, allowing values to be interchanged, allowing experiences to be interchanged, so that one picks up and shares experiences of the other, and the other picks up and shares the values of the other, and both then grow from the commingling of the differences that each brings to the relationship. As this occurs with two individuals, or two souls coming together, it can also occur in multiplicity of relationships, when many entities come together in some wayperhaps not as intimately as the twobut where they learn from each other, share each other, and begin to shift and alter in terms of values and relationshipsperhaps of cultural background, perhaps of technological information, perhaps of artistic interests or literary interests; so that gradually, each entity in the relationship learns something that would not have ever been learned, had he or she not come in contact with others. This natural blending, the melting pot of the souls, by coming together and sharing with each other, as that which helps to speed up the growth and development of each of the individuals involved. It becomes much more of a dynamic movement of the soul when the soul is involved with other entities than for the soul simply to be left alone, experiencing its own values repeatedly, day in and day out, searching for some personal adventure without others involved. Very little growth comes from isolation; there can be those moments in isolation where an entity can tune in to deeper levels of self and discover things that may not be available in groupsthings about one self; but in this kind of self-examination, and the isolation that goes with it, the entity must be willing to examine objectively his or her own beliefs, must be willing to discard the beliefs long enough to question and seek any other information that is available through ones research; rather than simply trying to support ones own present belief. It is not easy for an entity to go through the portfolio of ones own beliefs, without feeling attached to them; and as long as you attach yourself to your beliefs, there is no way that you are likely to alter those beliefs, and therefore, there can be no growth, there can be no question, and therefore, you will maintain the rigidity of self, even throughout the examination. In some of the societies in which entities are taught, through isolation, to reexamine and to discover the deeper regions of themselves, they may be isolated for long periods

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are fering, the path of shallow experiences, the path where they do not fully involve themselves in deeper, more meaningful and quality experiences of life. These experiences of deep quality are those that allow the soul to evolve most quickly. There are also extremes in this direction that can be most harmful. When an entity, for example, attaches too much to another, to the point where the entity will not let go of that other to be free, if the entity seeks freedom, where the entity seeks to possess another, to inhibit the expression of another, or to control another so that the other is totally subject to this entity; this kind of relationship which stifles the growth and expression of the others soul, which takes over and controls anothers soul, this may be of deep quality in terms of attachment, but an entity so expressing can lose track of the true value of life and become totally lost in the illusion that another entity is all there is to live for. Entities must keep in mind that the first attachment is that of the attachment to the Universal Deity, and all the other attachments are but part of the game of life, are but part of the tools and of the experiences that allow the soul to nurture itself and to grow and to develop. These relationships that the entities form, when based upon self-need, are often beneficial to a point, but when that self-need becomes more important than the concern for others, there is a problem. Entities who have an attachment to the Divine Creator will never be so self-needing that their lives depend on the need for others for fulfillment. When entities are totally attached to the Divine Creator, they are free to give love, to give of themselves in service to others and can enjoy deep commitment to the welfare of others, without that need to be taking from others excessively. Anyone who seeks to find, in the world and through things outside of self, happiness, is doomed to failure; for happiness comes only through that inner connection that the entity has with the Universal Creator, the Divine Force. When entities recognize this as the uppermost agreement and attachment, then entities can be happy regardless of any outside experience, attachment or circumstance. Sea of Pisces, Vol. 12 Lesson 8 In considering the evolution of the soul, there are the movements, as have been indicated, through different stages or aspects, where the soul moves in its different forms of expression. In the previous discussion, the relationship of the soul to other souls was discussed in terms of agreements, partnerships and interactions. In this particular discourse, this Awareness wishes to discuss the transmutations or alterations and changes that the soul undergoes, due to the relationships that it may encounter or may establish between itself and other forces. The various kinds of alterations or transmutations that the soul may undergo in the changes that it encounters can be of different natures, depending on circumstances. A circumstance is related to the word circumference or circle; those things which surround an entity, a soul or a being, at any time, are the things that make up the circumstance; there are many types of circumstances which the soul may encounter.

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are This is one of the great reasons why entities who use their will, their will power, to control themselves, generally fail miserably in their efforts. It is much easier to control oneself, not by the force of will, but by simply focusing the mind on something other, by focusing the mind on something that one desires; and keeping that focus on that particular object or image, the energies that build within the soul are those that reflect what the entity is focusing on. If the entity focuses on something of a negative nature, or something that it wants to avoid, that focusing on that which would be avoided causes the soul to become obsessed by that image, and the soul then becomes more and more inclined to bring about that which is seen or imaged. Thus, if an entity wishes to focus on things that are of a negative nature, such as when the soul seeking to avoid sexual encounters and keep the focus on something of a more productive natureif the entity focuses on that which he or she wishes to avoid, such as the sexual encounter, then the soul begins to be more and more obsessed with that, and even if the entity is saying, I wish to avoid this, I dont want this to happen, I do not want to become involved with this person in this way, the chances increase that the involvement will occur. However, that if the soul is focused on something different, such as I wish to pursue my career as a musician, rather than becoming involved with this entity. I wish to pursue my position as a musician, and the entity begins focusing on his or her career as a musician, and ceases to focus on that sexual encounter with this other entity whom he or she feels would be a detriment to the musician career: the entity continues to focus on the image of being a musician; then indeed, the soul will continue working in that direction, and the sexual encounter will become less and less energized, less and less important. Likewise, on all other things, if the entitys soul is concerned with the fear of poverty, or with the fear of not being successful in some venture, the more this is energized, the greater the chance that it will come about. If the entity focuses on the death experience and cannot cease to worry about this, it does help, indeed, to bring this about. However, that if the entity is focusing on future goals in this particular lifetime, seeing those things which it wishes to accomplish; then indeed, the soul begins to create the opportunities for such accomplishment, and death will not be the interfering factor until some other time. Many entities have vacillating images, for one entity may think in terms of a goal which he or she wishes to bring about in this lifetime, and this may be very strong, but the entity might in a week or two weeks change and begin thinking, Ill never accomplish it. I might as well die now, and the entity begins to think in terms of death or surrender to some other form of demise, and the entity may energize that for some time. Then, the entity might become tired of thinking such thoughts and decide, Im not ready to go yet. I still want to accomplish that which I have settled on as my goal. As this entity vacillates back and forth, the opportunity for some of each is energized. The entity will be somewhat successful in working toward the goal, but the entity will

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Integration also tend to energize something that will be on the path toward his demise. Thus, the entity may develop a disease, or heavy weakness that satisfies the urge to die, although the entity may also develop a certain amount of energy and accomplishment as a movement toward the goal, but neither will be complete. This is the result of vacillation. Thus, if entities wish to achieve something, it is better that they not vacillate between different images, but instead that they hold their focus clear. This is what is meant by the phrase: If thine eye be single. When your eye is single and focused on one accomplishment, one goal, one purpose, then it is likely that you will bring this into manifestation. In this sense, there is that ability of the soul to manifest, to transform, to either transform and transcend itself, or to bring something into being. The bringing of something into being is a form of alchemy. The transforming of oneself is a form of alchemy. The movement of ones being into that of a different being is a form of alchemy. Alchemy, essentially, is the ability to make change in a direction that is desired or is desirable. Turning lead into gold is but one aspect or one form of the use of alchemy. It is not the total science of alchemy. Alchemy as that which has to do with transmuting or changing anything into something that is better and is desirable. Essentially, the soul is an alchemist. It changes itself and it changes its surroundings, according to that which it envisions. And if its envisioning is clear and purposeful and non-vacillating, then, indeed, it creates the image and the reality and manifests that into its present reality. But it the soul is vacillating in its imagery, then it creates a kind of hodge-podge, like a salad, when all the different images that it has thrown out are chopped up and brought back to it, as its manifested destiny. In the understanding of this aspect of the soul, when it can take any circumstance whatsoever and transmute the energies of that circumstance, either into an interdimensional experience or into a change or alteration of a direction or purpose, or when it can alter the energies involved in the circumstanceany of these movements are part of the ability and talent given to the soul in its sojourns, in its movement, and in its purposes as it moves through time and space. In regard to its more powerful purpose and directions, is that energy associated with sex, when it can bring about a doorway, an entrance, where entities can come through one dimension into another. This is that which allows the species to continue on this plane, where the soul opens the way, through the commingling with another soul, to bring about a child, to bring into this dimension a new soul, embodied in physical form. In its lesser or least expression, is that when the soul forcefully causes another to depart this plane prematurely, such as in the killing of another. This is of great damage to the soul; depending on the circumstances, the degree of such damage will be affected. Varying degrees of killing by a soul are experienced in different types of situations. When the entity is involved in an accident causing the death of another, or that when the entity is involved in a war, in which he or she is forced to some degree, or influ-

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are enced to some degree, to kill another; and there is that when the entity chooses freely to kill another; or that when the entity is caught in the passions of an experience, and in being so caught, causes the death of another by being driven to an emotional state in which the passions override the actual desires of the entity, where in a moment of frustration, the entity causes the death of another and repents for years to come over the action. All of these experiences which the soul encounters are those which are generally driven or created or experienced because of values that have been placed, accepted, and acted upon by the soul during times when the passions and the urgencies were not yet present. When an entity formulates strong and meaningful values, these values that have been accepted, generally will be those that come out in those urgent movements when the mind is pushed aside and the passions are left to react instinctively. There are often times when an entity does not really know his or her true values, and the entity may claim to have a certain value and a certain ideal; but under pressure, under certain circumstances, that entity will break and go against those values, go against those things which he or she consciously believed they had accepted as their values. Thus, an entity may preach one thing, but then may do something totally different, and will appear to be hypocritical to his or her values. But in reality, the entity is simply being true to themselves, because those values that they consciously embrace were not the true values that were hidden deep in their psyche. These entities may wish to believe that they had these higher values, but they may harbor in their heart other values which were lower, or an entity may have the conscious belief that they are without principle, and under a certain circumstance and a certain condition, find that they are acting in a high level of principle, where they do something that even surprises themselves; and they find themselves being hailed a hero, or heroine, for some action that they do not even recall doing, do not even know they had the ability or the courage to do. Those things which are of the true value to an entity lie deep within the center of the soul, in terms of the way the entity feels about self, about others, in terms of attitudes, even though the entity may say things that seem to counter those truer and deeper values. Often, an entity who has a deep love for another, will say negative things about that entitynot because the entity does not love the person, but because the entity loves the person so much, they do not wish to see the entity continue doing things as they do; and therefore, they become very critical of that entity. An observer might think that they are critical because they do not like the entity. This is most common, especially among family members, when an entity loves their daughter or loves their mother, but they cannot accept what the other is doing, because it seems so counter to what they would like to see the parent or the daughter doing with their life. In this sense, you cannot judge an entitys affection for another by what they say. For underneath, they may have totally different feelings. There are often also entities who state and who appear to be most loving, but underneath, there is a hidden

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Integration hostility; and in deep moments of pressure, of trauma, when circumstances force a showdown, these entities true feelings may come out. It is also important to realize that in these emotional expressions, especially when verbal, that those verbal expressions in quarrels, in fights, in disputes, are seldom the true feelings that entities have. They may be things that are somewhat felt, but often, they are simply harbored arguments that entities would like to say, but do not wish to bring out because it could disturb the other persons comfort zone, and therefore, they harbor those feelings as arguments waiting to be unleashed; and when an experience of dispute flares up, then these things that have been thought, come out. These are not, in themselves, usually true feelings. The true feelings of the entity are usually expressed in action, not in words. What is the person doing? The question is not what they have said to me the question is what have they done to me? For what the entity does is that which shows the true feeling. The entity may say things, but those things that are said, are large generally designed to get a reactions, as forms of manipulating. So an entity in an argument may say, I cant stand you. I need to get away from you, but if the entity does not walk out, those words are get a simply designed to get a reaction. They are not designed to end the relationship. When entities begin to better understand the realities and to realize that words are simply used by most entities as tools to manipulate and to communicate moments of feeling or temporary feelings, and need not be seen as permanent expressionwhen entities begin to realize that although someone says something in the heat of the argument that hurts, it needs not be taken that seriously, especially if the entity remains and wants to be with you. When this is better understood, then entities will have a clearer form of communication; for they will watch the actions of another, rather than concern themselves with the words another speaks. The words do have some weight, the words may carry some meaning, but it is the actions that speak loudest. As you experience your interchange in various circumstances, as you go through your relationships with others, as you watch them go through their changes, it is not that word spoken that counts. For when the entity says, I have been converted, or I have changed. I am different. I am now good. I will no longer drink. I will no longer violate you, the entity may say those right words, but watch for the action that tells the truth. If the entity cannot abide by the verbal commitment, then the entity has not committed fully; and though you may be patient and allow more time for the entity to again try to abide by a commitment, do not assume the entity is abiding simply because the entity says so. Watch the actions. For these actions that entities express, these are the mirror of the soul. (There are even entities who would convince you verbally that they are not worth your time, that they are not honest, that they are not a good person; yet, if their actions do not show this, then the words may be ignored.) In relation to the changes that entities go through, by watching the actions that follow

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In this kind of new discernment, the soul may look around and find that also, besides its own personal pleasure, it receives pleasure from seeing others who are happy, others who are experiencing pleasure and who are avoiding pain; and therefore it gets into the action of assisting others, of giving service to others, of helping others to find their own happiness. The pursuit of happiness for the soul then becomes not only for itself, but for others also, and this becomes a new set of values. In the search for meaning and values, the soul then becomes more and more concerned with those abstract and broad values that serve many, rather than simply serving the gratification of the soul itself. This leads the soul into those areas known as religion, philosophy, and into those higher concepts, such as society and government and the broad organizations that are designed to serve masses, rather than merely the individuals own personal need. This value of the organization and this value of a society and the value of the abstract philosophies and ideas that may be used to govern masses and to serve the masses; as this becomes an integral part of the value system of a soul, then the entity can begin to feel a purpose and meaning that is of greater importance than mere personal gratification, such as that of eating or indulging in the joys of the flesh. In the pursuit of these higher meanings and higher values, the soul can very easily become overly focused, to the point when it becomes obsessed with some cause, with some purpose, with some narrow meaning of life; and thus, these entities, focusing on these narrow meanings, can become quite narrow in the philosophy which they accept, to the point of becoming intolerant to others whose philosophy might be somewhat different. It is this very quality of wanting to find a greater meaning in life that often leads to entities violating others who do not accept the same values that they feel are important. It is important that when souls begin to develop their values, that they also recognize the importance of tolerance toward others who have different values. Yet, this does not always come easy for entities; and in fact, there are generally more opportunities for entities to become quite narrow in the formulation of their own values, so that they become quite intolerant of others. It is a phenomenon that the more narrow a philosophy or religion is, the more people flock to it; because as it becomes narrow and those entities who are not well versed in thinking in a more broad way, who are not quite ready for abstract thought, who are not fully evolved enough to do their own thinking, will find that it is easy for them to accept the teaching of someone else who claims to know, when all they have to do is follow a rigid path of obedience to some narrow view of life. In this manner, they do not have to understand truth: they merely have to follow the truth as dictated by someone else. It is much easier for them to do so. This becomes a kind of lazy persons entry into the higher levels of consciousness, by following the

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are dictates of some other who claims to have the answers for them. It is for this reason that there are so many religions that resist attempting to understand the others, and rather, seek to destroy the others who would conflict with their interpretation of the reality they seek to impose on others. Thus, the more popular religions are those which are the most narrow and which have excluded other philosophies and other interpretations. The more exclusive the belief system, the more inclined the new, upcoming souls in their developmentthe more inclined these are to accept that narrow and rigid philosophy. However, after some time, when these souls have developed sufficiently, they will begin to feel a need for something more than that rigid belief system which has been given to them. While it serves to comfort them and give them a feeling of security and certainty for some time, gradually it begins to wear like an old shirt; and after some time, they tire of the same old thing, the same narrow and rigid information, and will seek to find if there is something further, something more, something different. Many entities, in seeking value and meaning, follow after the crowd, assuming that the majority has the answer, assuming that the crowd will lead them to where the truth lies. This is generally not so, but it generally does lead to mass movements; and the entities who are seeking, tend to fall into the role of those who follow the crowd to wherever it may lead; in this manner, the masses are often easily led by someone who appears to be confident and appears to know where he or she is moving. Thus, mass movements occur on this plane, where the blind lead the blind, or where an entity leads the masses in such a direction that gathers greater and greater momentum as they move. The majority in movement does not necessarily imply that truth is being pursued; it may simply imply that someone has claimed to know the truth, and that the masses are following to witness the truth. In these experiences that occur, in the circumstances that occur, in terms of an individuals life or in terms of the mass movements that occur in a segment of time and space on your plane, whether these movements take centuries, or whether they occur in decades, or within a short period of time; these mass movements of civilizations, of groups, of organizations, of the moball these mass movements are but the effort of the souls seeking something meaningful, something of value. Even those who would gather together as a mob to witness a hanging of some individual, or the execution of an individualthe real motive behind this, deep down in the heart of ones soul, is to see if there is something that they can understand, something of value they can get from watching this entity be put to death. This is more than mere blood-thirstiness; it is a desire to witness death, in order to see if there is something they can learn from this. It is a search for meaning, a search for values. As entities pursue these efforts to find something of value, they often are sidetracked into areas that detract from meaningful values in life; and they end up being involved in some kind of activity that hinders their growth, that appears as a value, when in fact, it is nothing more than a distraction. And these distractions have been labeled by many

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are sharing of such self indulgence with others. It is much better that entities spend a certain amount of time, such as 20% or 30, or even 40% of their time working toward some meaningful pursuit, and spend less time in the self-indulgence factory. As entities spend more and more time on their pursuits, they will find it less and less necessary or pleasureful being involved in the selfindulgence game. As entities begin to focus more on some meaningful pursuit in their life, even if they are not sure that it is the absolute direction they wish to take; if it is in the general direction they feel comfortable in taking, that should be the direction toward which they focus most of their attention. The pursuit of something meaningful is not something that comes about simply by thinking about it once, and then talking about it thereafter; it is something that needs to be worked at on a day-to-day basis. As entities begin working toward some pursuit, even if it requires intermediary goals in order to eventually reach that meaningful pursuit, then entities need to continue working and focusing on those goals, as steps along the way. As entities do this, and continue on a day-to-day basis, they develop a pattern in their lives; and it is this persistency that makes the difference between the one who achieves and the one who spends his or her entire life, chatting about what he or she could do, and having to take some little back seat in the bull sessions when entities sit about and talk of their achievements to one another. There is nothing more tragic than the soul who wants to achieve something meaningful, but who is not willing to put forth the day-to-day effort; and rather than achieve, the entity sits about and talks to others regarding some little achievement, for these little achievements become less and less important as time goes on, and the entity gets older and has less to talk about. You will hear these entities talking about some little thing, how they told this cop to shove it, or how they told this person off, or how they managed to get something out of someone else for very little in return. And these little, teeny achievements become big things, for them, because they have achieved so little with the life that has been given to them. They sit about and brag to each other, trying to outdo each other with their little achievements, because they failed to be persistent in pursuing their greater goals. This is where the majority of souls end up in their efforts to express themselves with their lives. They can sit and talk for hours regarding some garage sale they went to, or how they managed to get their child to go to a certain school instead of a different school, or they can talk about some dress they found or some pan or tool they got, and these are the meaningful things in their lives, because they have not pursued other things that are more meaningful. They have not been persistent in their effort to achieve their goal, to reach their dream. Most children have dreams of what they want to be or what they want to do. At some stage in their life, these dreams become quite clear, but some children are afraid to pursue those dreams. They may be discouraged by some happenstance; they may be discouraged because they do not see how they can achieve the energy necessary to pur-

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In this way, entities, in pursuing goals that are difficult, develop certain characteristics, or strengthen certain characteristics that they already have; and in the development or strengthening of these characteristics which allow the entity to be more committed and more determined, or more skillful, or more spontaneous and flexible in whatever it takes to achieve the goal, the entity develops qualities that were not present at the time the entity began pursuing the goal. The entity may develop a more mass of information regarding the goal, the entity may develop more skills and talents necessary for it to reach the goal, the entity may develop more strength, more physical ability, or better health, or the entity may develop a team of cooperative entities, an organization, that will help to achieve the goal. Whatever the case, there is something that causes the entity to grow and develop qualities or organizations or some kind of substantial energy forces that will allow the entity to achieve that which he set out to do. This is like a by product of the pursuit of the goal, and is often even more important than the reaching of the goal itself. Often, that talent and skill that comes about from the effort to reach the goal becomes the greater reward. For the entity, on reaching the goal, may find that it, in itself, was not that great an experience, but that the accumulated wealth of the struggle created for this entity a new sense of purpose and meaning and value. The entity may have developed certain values and standards and may have certain skills available now that allow him or her to move even far beyond the original goal. There is also, in the pursuit of meaning and values, that which is not concerned so much about the goal, for the entity may have already struggled and achieved sufficient numbers of goals, so that these things are no longer of any great interest to the entity. The entity may have developed values that are more meaningful to the entity than goals. For example, the entity may have developed values of a nature that seeks to see happiness in the surrounding environment, seeks to see others content to live their life in freedom. And this entity may value those particular qualities or concepts to such a degree that the entity is not seeking any particular thing; other than to maintain and serve a system that promotes the freedom, the happiness, the joy that he or she would like to spread among the environment and masses. In such case, the entity may not actually have a particular goal in mind, but may, by commitment to the values that he or she holds, dedicate themselves to those values in such a manner as to serve those values and maintain a value system that benefits others. In such case, the entity may be committed to a process, rather than a goal; and the entitys driving force may be toward keeping that process going. One could say that the goal of the entity is to keep promoting the process, keep promoting the freedom, or whatever it is, that is of value to the entity. However, it is not quite the same as that which is a goal that the entity wishes to acquire for self purposes, for self-service. It is more of a dedication to a process that is in motion, or needs to be put into motion, in order to satisfy the entity. There are these two types of activity in regard to the promotion or the use of value; as

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are There are also occupations of service where entities assist others in forms of entertainment, in forms of creating the beauty and the joy which enhances the spirit, uplifts the soul, gives some kind of enjoyment for the soul, or inspiration, where the soul is enhanced in its vibrancy; and this action of entertainment takes on many forms: in your modern times this includes films and television and presentations, plays and sports and other activities that inspire, including such things as art exhibits and other forms of exhibition. There is also service available to others through occupations that assist them in becoming more organized, becoming better at classifying and prioritizing and putting things in order, where things are sorted out and made more orderly, where things are clarified, where things are structured, so that there is some sense of order in the search for information, or in the search for something of value. This also includes activities where things are put in order, so that they function properly, so that a particular tool or machine will work properly, or that a system is properly activated for the use and purpose it was created for. This kind of creativity in terms of order, or in terms of research of the order, provides many different types of occupations for many entities; and all of these are also service occupations, for entities can serve one another in many different ways. The soul is capable of helping to serve others through formulating clearer, more meaningful agreements and contracts, arrangements and clarification of such. The entity who builds a fence around ones home is essentially helping the entity to define and clarify a kind of agreement with other entities, so that those who are outside the fence and those who are inside the fence understand they are on the entitys property or are off of the entitys property, and the agreement and implication of the fence becomes clear. The fence becomes a statement indicating to others that, I dont want you trespassing without going through the gate, or it may say, if there is a sign on the gate: No Entry, or No Trespassing. There is then a contract, where one says, This is the agreement: You stay out; I wont bother you. These are forms of contracts. When something is defined, when something is presented in a certain way, even subtly, it forms an agreement. An entity may, for example, have a small child, and if the entity is holding a cup of hot coffee, and the child approaches and the mother puts the coffee between herself and the child, the child instantly realizes there is a contract here: lf I do not bump into that coffee cup, I wont get burned. It is a form of language, a form of body language. There are things that are understood and things that are often not understood. For example, a child may not know that the coffee cup could burn, and may inadvertently cross this line of this established statementthe statement being a form of agreement by the mother. But if the child does not understand the contract or statement, it could in fact violate that statement and become a victim of the coffee being spilt. Therefore, some contracts are beyond the understanding of others, and other contracts are clarified in such a manner that both parties fully understand and agree; these agreeable contracts, where both parties fully understand are those which are the more meaningful.

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are Also, that these services for other entities are not always necessarily in terms of just personal needs for physical survival. They may include services that help entities travel from place to place, to travel to foreign countries, or through certain mechanisms such as the airplane, the train, the various forms of transportation; these travels and the transportation of an entity from one place to another occupies thousands of different types of expression where entities in serving others can become involved in such activities. There are also those who are involved in helping those who need assistance in directing their lives; those whose personal approach is unclear, whose activities have become dispersed and diffused in such a way as to be without direction, without clarity. This kind of counseling may involve activities which assist entities in their behavior, or in their mental states, or in their belief system; there are those who counsel in terms of religion, in terms of social behavior, in terms of some kind of research, those who help to align entities on a direction or path where they can study and receive information that helps to direct them; this teaching and counseling type of activity is another very important way where entities can serve each other, and there are, again, countless fields of service in this kind of direction where an entity may serve another. For example, the guard in the prison may not think of himself as being of service, but this entity is keeping the prisoner aligned within a certain format, where the prisoner who has shown himself to be unworthy or unable to exhibit self-discipline, has shown himself to be one who needs to have walls and barriers defining himself until he learns to behave in society, and the guard serves much like the wall around the prisoner to keep this entity aligned in the direction that has been decided as his best option for the time. It is a form of service; it is not something where the entity is doing it simply for personal pleasure. Normally, the guard would not work for any length of time at that occupation without it having some meaningful purpose, the payment for the guards energies as that which is helpful to the guard to keep the guard available for the occupation. However, the question is, How many guards would work to keep an entity in a prison, even with the proper pay, if the guard did not believe his job was of some service? Most entities, when feeling that their occupation is not of real service to others, will become quickly bored and will become more inclined toward some other activity, and generally cannot stay within the occupation that they do not believe is of any real service. There is an inborn tendency of the soul to want to be of service; this does not always occur early in the souls development. Often, the soul simply wants to be served; but there comes a time when the soul gradually begins to shift, so that it not only wants to be served, it also wants to do something in return, give some service in return. Gradually, as the soul develops further, it may reach a point when it does not care how much or whether it is served much; it wants to be of greater service to othersthe emphasis becoming more and more toward serving others, especially after the soul realizes that the service it needs is limited. It only needs a certain amount for it to sur-

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This final discussion as that which not only sums up the 12 discourses in the Sea of Pisces, it also brings to a conclusion these 144 discourses. The movement of the soul as that which becomes the primary focus in regard to the summation of all things within this universe, and the experience through which entities move. In this final discourse there is the need to look carefully at the soul itselfnot simply its essence, but also at the accumulation and its conclusion in the circle of events which it may have taken during its sojourn. This Awareness wishes first to indicate to entities that the soul is not a fragile thing; the soul, once created, is like a forcea magnetic force that collects information; and even though the forms which often house the soul may be quite fragile, the soul continues on, and moves into other forms, even when the housing is dispersed and lost. The soul is capable of rebuilding further houses for itself, new bodies in which to inhabit. The question which entities often ask in regard to the soul as that which relates to its nature in comparison to the material universe which is seen and witnessed by the senses. These organs of sense: the eyes, ears, nose, taste and touch; these senses give the soul certain limited information about that which is occurring in the outer world, but the soul already knows more than the senses can perceive. The information that goes in from these sensor devices as that which helps to feed certain information only associated with that particular reality that the senses relate to; there is, in fact, a deeper and different reality that these senses cannot pick up. The only way to fully understand the nature of the total reality is to recognize that there is the invisible realm that commingles with that which is visible to the senses, the senses being limited and not seeing all that is. As entities become more aware of this, realizing that their eyes see only a small fraction of visible light; the touch is only capable of sensing a certain amount of information that is available; the ears can only hear within a limited range the frequencies that are available in this universal reality; and all of these limitations caused by the senses, when in actuality, reality lies in all areas, even those which the senses cannot perceive. There are those energies, those subtle energies that lie beyond the realm of sight. There are those subtle energies and sounds and vibrations that lie beyond the realm of hearing. These subtle energies are invisible to the entity. The soul knows of these, resides in these, enjoys these energies of a different reality than that which is understood by the conscious mind. The conscious mind, essentially, is that portion, that small portion of consciousness that holds the content of information that has been perceived by the senses. In this sense, the entity who believes in the senses and the data that has been picked up for the conscious mind by these senses, considers this to be knowledge. And even when instruments are added to enhance the ability of the senses to pick up informationsuch as telescopes, microscopes, or those things that read higher/lower sounds,

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Who, In Fact, You Really Are These five senses are the fruit of the tree of knowledge. There is that information within the tree of knowledge that may be considered within its own framework, within its own frame of reference as being absolute, and having absolute laws. The laws of physics may apply within that particular frame, and always be accurate; but when there is something which spills out of that frame into the area that lies beyond the senses, that lies outside the realm of the tree of knowledgefruit of the soulwhen the entity experiences the fruit of the soul, then those laws which worked within the fruit of the tree of knowledge cease to apply, and other things begin to happen. As entities look more closely at the soul itself, ignoring the fruit of the tree of knowledge, tuning in to the soul itself they discover a totally different universe; not one filled with stars, galaxies, landscapes, shapes and forms of physical nature: they discover a realm, a universe that is created and made up of vibration, and these vibrations of extreme high frequency which lie at the uppermost realm of conception, are like a screen on which lower vibrations express themselves. It is like the perfect screen on a television set, on which other frequencies are shown and their vibration seen, creating a pattern of visible vibrations over those that were so fine they were almost beyond perception. And these secondary level of vibrations, (like octaves of a lower nature), create a secondary screen before the other, and upon this secondary screen of vibrations another lower octave screen is created, and upon this, still another and another and another, each screen lying atop the other to the point where all of these range from the highest imaginable frequencies to that which is the lowest frequency of allmatter itself. And this realm and band of electromagnetic frequencies, all compressed into the same time and space, become the reality at any place in the universe of the soul; and as the soul attunes itself to any octave, its nature changes; and as it attunes to any octave, it is also aware of all the overtones and frequencies within that particular octave. When entities understand this realm of the soul, they understand, also, how it can be at one place in one experience, and have overtones of itself in other realms occurring at the same time as sympathetic vibration to its frequencyjust as, when plucking a string, the string breaks in half, and each half contains two octaves, each octave being one higher than the original string, and these octaves that are counting, each contain two octaves, each being higher than the second octave of the original string, and so forth. Therefore, the frequency of the soul may be either a reflection of a higher octave, or a reflection of a lower octave, and the soul may have its twin octave, which is often referred as the twin soul, or soul mate. There are vibrations and frequencies, and these may occur simultaneously, and may occur in reflection as echoes in sequence, so that a sound, vibration, an entity, occurs and triggers off its own echo or reflection. In this sense, events can happen simultaneously, not only in terms of physical formations caused by the frequencies, they can also happen in regard to mental states, and spiritual states; so that an entity in one area, vibrating to his or her frequency, may have a thought, and that thought, of course, has its own vibration and frequency. And if another entity, in another area entirely, were to have a similar frequency attunement to that frequency which the first entity had in regard to the thought, then the second entity would receive that thought, just as a

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First, you must cease to rely entirely on the sensual data, the data from your senses; sensory and sensual data as that which can be self-indulging, which can be useful in terms of your learning and enjoyment, but it can also be a distraction to keep you from understanding the tree of wisdomthat knowledge which lies in the invisible realm. As you become more aware of the vibrations as the key to the kingdom, that these vibrations are everywhere presentevery grain of sand, every small rock, every flower, every species, every creature, every planet, every nebulae, every galaxy is the result of a particular pattern of frequencies and vibrationswhen you become aware of this, and also aware of your ability to tune in to those frequencies, and to experience each of these things by such attunement, and of your ability to take hold of those frequencies and bring them into another frequency level; then you will have the ability attributed to that which is magic and miracles and the qualities of creativity. All creativity is, is the movement of one pattern into anothereither in the same dimension, or in other dimensions, either in the same octave, or in other octaves. It is the rearranging of frequencies, vibration patterns, patterns being made up of lesser patterns of frequencies and vibrations, or made up of greater patterns of frequencies and vibrations. Creativity can include not only bringing things together, but also breaking things apart. It can include merging of two things in a congruent and rational manner, or in some kind of incongruence. Creativity can result from intent or accident. Creativity can result from logical understanding of the nature and way of being creative, or it can result from mere spontaneous, accidental activity. It is more under your control when you understand how it is accomplished. Thus, an entity may be creative from some accidental discovery, or an entity may be creative because he or she understands how to be creative, and this entity may repeat the creativity in many different ways. It is all a matter of whether one perceives things or simply tries to follow, and reacts to what occurs. This Awareness wishes entities to attempt to understand the nature of the world in which they live, that they may be more capable of perceiving reality, rather than being the victim of realities created by others who may misunderstand or misdirect reality upon the entity. In understanding the nature of the soul as it moves through its various journeys, think of it as a note that has a particular place on the scale in terms of vibration and frequency and its own personal harmonics, but recognizes it also as having a relationship to all other notes, and that it harmonizes with some and clashes with others; and that it can be out of place or in place, depending upon the pattern created by other notes, the sequence of events, and the nature and strength of circumstances. And when it is out of place, it then may cause disturbance, and when it is in place, it adds to and enhances whatever is occurring. And that which is out of place and creates disturbance is generally considered as that which is undesirable, and that which is in place and enhances is generally considered that which is desirable; and these desirable and undesirable expressions of the soul are those by which it measures itself in its purpose and direction,

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