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... i n n e r v o i c e
by tanka pd. chaulagain

a kakhar
kakharaa publication
supported by dr. sundar mani dixit
SAURAV’S STORY
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SAURAV’S STORY
Today is saurav’s eighth birth day. It means he reached
eight years old since today. He prefers celebrating birth day,
by inviting guests and receiving different gifts and souvenir by
others. Birthday of his and the son of his house owner fall on
the same day. Today in the house of his owner there is a grand
celebration of birthday. But he has no any single penny to buy
and distribute chocolates to his friends.
Now, saurav is studying in class three in a government
school. He is an average guy of his class. There is no good
teaching in his school. It is said that he has no books to study
well. He wants to read to deserve first position, but he has to
work so, couldn’t read as he wished. He has four sisters and
four brothers. Anyhow they all have got opportunity to read.
All of them have studied in freeship by appealing here and
there. Otherwise their parents were unable to admit them in
the school. But none of them have done best in study.
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Madav dai is better in study among all. He is studying
in campus. The worst among them is Shankar dai. He
accompanies with drug addicts. He even drinks sometimes.
Saurav was borned at the same year of his eldest sister’s
weeding. Though he is the youngest brother, he has not
enjoyed as he wished. Others play videogames, but he couldn’t
get in spite of great desire. He prefers cycling the most but
lack of money made it impossible. Sometimes he plays
videogames by requesting and begging with his friends.
Their ancestral home is in Okhaldhunga. They became
homeless when flood swept away their home and land. Now,
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they live in a small village of Kathmandu. They are living there
poorly since fifteen years ago. During election, a political
leader had used sweet words of arranging public land to settle
them. But dammed care after winning election. Familial
economic crisis made them poorer. Due to poverty saurav
couldn’t fulfilled his childish desire. He still brings up the
desire of being either army or hero of monies. He has also
acted in the nepali movie “maina” . He has earnest desire to do
something. But poverty always gives him frustration.
Saurav has never got chance to bring Tiffin for his
school. His friends have Tiffin in the break time but he has not
such experiences. Thinking all of there, he feels unhappy. He
longs to eat but have no money. None of them give him tiffin.
After the school, he returns home and devours left over stale
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lrDn]/ pm ksfks af;L eft vfG5 .
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Pp6f uf8f 5 . p;sf afa'cfdf uf8fdf t/sf/L / kmnkm"n Jofkf/
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food to quench his hunger. He knows well about what his
teachers suggested in school for not to eat stale food. But he is
compelled to have it. Avoiding all these preaching of his
teacher he devours stale food.
His elder brother sometimes works as a helper in
autoriksha. They use the money they have earned according to
their wish and rarely give to their parents. His madav dai
sometimes gives him some money. But rest of his brothers
never gives him.
They have to pay a great deal of dues to the store of
foodstuff. Saurav sometimes feel sad for doubting to pay all
the dues by his poor parents. After paying the udes, he hopes
of buying thing he prefers by his lovely parents. He likes to
work as his brother in his leisure’s time so that he sometimes
carry bricks with his parents. His sister also helps him in this
work. Now, they have a small cart. His parents sells fruits and
vegetables by keeping in the same cart. But both of them are
severely diseased. Hence, they can’t pull the cart and further
going to sell it.
Saurav loves his parents very much. He is also much
loved by them. He finds his lovely mother even in his dream.
He even cried for the love of mother when he left his for four
days and lived with sister.
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There is e great movement of dashain in the village.
There is heard a huge noise of player of “Langur Burja” at
tempo park. The game is played on there, four sites. Times and
again they are quarreling and fighting. There is the crowd of
travelers the members of tempo is increased than before and
they are carrying new-new passenger and visitors. Plenty of
players of carramboard are around the tea shops.
All the people are wandering here and there by wearing
new and smart dresses. Saurav also likes to wear new clothes.
Some people are dragging goats on the road. Some are
sharping the edge of knife. Saurav likes to see slaughtering of
goats from his own eyes. There is no act of scarifying goat in
his home because they don’t have enough money to buy goats.
Sometimes his elder brothers work but never give
money to parents. So that his family is poor. All the children
play happily but he has no interest at all. He assist to his
parents for selling fruits and vegetables. They have kept a
tamed dog in their home. The owner of the house brings bones
of chickens to it. Saurav gives these bones one by one to the
dog.
Saurav thinks, he is ready to do any kind of work if he got. He
has a dream to earn money by working hard. He likes to read
hard and became a rich man.
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They are living in a small room on rent. His parents talk
about their village at night. They talk about their land and
children. All these things influence saurav very much. He
understand everything, they talk. He has understood all these
things in such a young age.
He is very serious of nature but very prudent. He is very
mature and wise in such a little age. He always thinks well. He
has a dream of earning a lot of money in spite of having poor
family background. He has dreamt of reading well and earning
a lot of money and become a hero of film. Moreover he has the
dream of cheering the face of his old parents.
áàá
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SUSILA’S STORY
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SUSILA’S STORY
Her name is Susila B.C. She was borned in 2054 B.S. at
Rampur VDC of Palpa. Now, she is eleven years old.
Palpa is one of the very important historical places of western
nepal. There are many heart touching places in Palpa. Many
tourists come to visit there. Having borned in such a beautiful
places, now susila is compelled to live at old baneshwor of
ktm. She is living with her father, mother, brother and a
younger sister. She used to read in class three at village school.
She prefers to live village than town. If any body asked the
reasons, she would answer for having beautiful hills and
hillocks in village.
We can take around in the village. She remembers of her
village mates. She also remembers of her lovely grand parents.
Both of them are expired. Her grand father used to love her
very much. He was pensioner. He used to give some money to
Sushila. She finds all the people of village are as her own but of
the town are naughty, aggressive and heartless.
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She started to read at Ratna Rajya School after arriving
in kathmandu. Now, she is reading in class six. Her brother
sagar and younger sister Samundra are also reading in the
same school. Sushil is very discipline. She believes that a
person becomes bad without discipline. She is very hard
worker and laborious. She believes that, without hardworking
one can’t be a great person. She also requests her friends to
believe on discipline and hard working. She reads well in the
school and speaks sweet words. Her behavior is very good and
impressive. She always smiles while talking with friends.
Hence, she has many intimate friends.
She finds maths hard and science easiest subjects. But,
she secures highest marks in mathematics. She further tells that
she secured highest marks in hard Subject due to her habit of
laboring more for harder one. She is never punished by her
teachers in the class.
She has never stepped outside the valley but she likes to
visit pokhara much. She has never stepped in spite of hearing
much about pokhara. She plays less. She likes to play dolls
while playing. She has habit of regular reading. She always
read two hours in the morning and two hours in the evening.
Sushila is very intelligent girl. She also takes part in extra-
curricular activities expect reading. She likes to act in drama.
As she has won the heart of audience by acting in many
dramas since her childhood. Her acting and performance in
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drama is superb. She is talent on dancing too. She is soft
hearted girl. She feels pity when she finds poor’s and helpless
people. She likes to go forward to help them. She remember
what her grand father had told when she was child.
Her grand father used to say that there is no any religion better
than serving poor and helpless. It is imbedded in the core of
her heart. So, she wants to identify herself as an angel by
helping poor and homeless people. She has also understood
one thing that we should satisfy ourselves on whatever we
have otherwise, we will be the poorest person of the world.
She does almost all works inside home. She assists other
in household works except reading. Father loves her very
much. Mother scolds her even in trivial matters but her father
convinces her. In spite of all these thing, they have no
discriminating between son and daughter.
She has poor familial life. It is difficult to run family
only by father’s income source. It is insufficient to manage
room fare, food and study expenses for three of them. She is
always scared about; whether her familial economic status will
improve of remain as usual.
Sushila has heard about falling the people of towns in
bad habits. So, she always suggests her colleagues to walk on a
good path, not to fight each other and not to take bad habits.
áàá
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INTRO KAKHARA
sv/f : the biginners...
KaKhaRa works for Children and
youths through the medium of art,
litrature and communication.
This organization is established
in 2064 B.S. in a join efforts and
participation of artists, writers and
media persons working in the field
of art, litrature and media since a
long period for genuine creative
activities.
KaKhaRa has forwarded its
activities through the medium of
art, litrature and communication
like painting, music, drama, film
and print media (newspaper and
books).We strongly believe that the
different aspects of art alone are
only the right means for social
transformation.
Objective
The main objective of KaKhaRa is
to present its creations through art,
litrature and media. This believes
art and media are not only for
entertainment but also a right
means for social transformation.
Therefore, KaKhaRa will work for
the welfare of communities at risk.
As there is growing concern on the
Concept of “New Nepal”,
KaKhaRa respects children and
youths’ growing political
awareness and is committed to
make active participation of them
in creative activities to make this
concept a reality.
Work
KaKhaRa organizes different
instruction classes and workshops
based on litrature, acting, painting
and music in different occasions
focusing children and youths .
This also publishes literature
books and other materials. It
prepares and produces drama,
film, documentary, docudrama,
music video, newspaper, brochure,
pamphlets & books and organizes
painting workshops and
exhibitions on contemporary
issues and events, in the name of
social transformation. KaKhaRa
can collaborate with other helping
organizations for this work.
KaKhaRa Movement:
Art for All
Kakhara conducts various
trainings and workshops based on
art and communication like music,
painting, acting, and personality
development for the school
students, youths and community
at risk. Regarding this movement ,
KaKhaRa has already organized
various workshops on Collage
making, play production and
personality development for
school students and youths.
Children for Nation
Art and media plays important
role in the development of a
nation. Similarly, the participation
of children and youth is very
necessary in creative activities.
Keeping this fact in consideration,
KaKhaRa organizes different
programs and workshops focusing
them.
We strongly believe that creative
activities of children and youths
who have participated in such
programs play vital role in the
progress of nation. Many of them
have been keenly devoting to
theatre (performing art) painting,
music and other creative activities
after the completion of such
trainings.
Creative Archives
& History
Nepalese art realm has got many
excellent and valuable, prolific
artists some of which have got
right place and opportunities to
expose their talents while the
creative potentialities of many
other artists have been confined
within themselves only. KaKhaRa
believes that such artists are to be
given due opportunities, respects
and encouragement. Therefore, it
is always willing to bring such
talents in light and encourage
them. Regarding this, it has a
movement to publish their
biography and produce
documentary, teledrama based on
their real life.
This is dedicated in constructing a
glorious history of fine art.
○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○ ○
KaKhaRa-Nepal
Gothatar-08, Kathmandu, Nepal
Ph. no.: +977-01-4991066, 9841-364543
(Tanka), 98032-10196 (Mahesh)
8Dd/]sf] syf
8Dd/] clxn] !! jif{sf] 5 . p;sf] 3/ lqz"nL xf] . p;n]
;fg}bl] v k9\g kfPg . p;sL tLgj6L cfdf lyP . p;sL sfG5Lcfdf
ufpFdf / dflxnLcfdf sf7df8f}s F f] gf/fgyfgdf 5g\ . p;sL cfdf
h]7L x'g\ . pg}af6 8Dd/] / p;sL alxgL hGdL . b'js } f] hGdkl5
p;sL cfdf cs{; } uF lxF8L . hfFbf alxgLnfO{ cfkm";uF } lnP/ uO{ . 3/df
sfG5Lcfdfn] p;nfO{ b]vL;lxg .
8Dd/] c;fWo} ;f]emf] 5 . pm Odfgbf/ / cg'zfl;t 5 . p;nfO{
w]/} af]Ng cfpFbg} . To;sf/0f s;};uF w]/} af]Nbf klg af]Nb}g . c¿n]
p;nfO{ nf6f] eG5g\ t/ pm uDeL/ 5 .
p;sf afa' sf7df8f}dF f sfd uy]{ . pgn] 8Dd/]nfO{ klg
sf7df8f}F lnP/ cfP . sf7df8f}F cfPkl5 pm v';L eof] . p;sf afa'
;fgf]ltgf] 7]Ssfk§f;DaGwL sfd uy]{ . 8Dd/] klg afa';uF ToxL sfd
ug{ yfNof] . p;n] l;d]G6Lsf af]/f, O{6+ fsf ef/L, afn'jfsf] 8f]sf] af]Sg
yfNof] . o;sf ;fy} p;n] xyf}8f / ;fa]n klg rnfpg yfNof] .
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DAMBARE’S STORY
Now, Dambare is eleven years old. His home is in
Trishuli. He didn’t get opportunity to read since his childhood.
He has three mothers. His youngest mother is in village and
second mother is at narayanthan of kathmandu. His own
mother is the eldest one. He and his sister are from her. After
the birth of both of them she is eloped with another man. She
has also taken his sister with her. At home his youngest cruel
mother couldn’t tolerate him.
Dambare is very gentle guy. He is honest as well as
discipline. He doesn’t talk more. So, he can’t talk much with
others. He is called dumb and uncivilized by people but he is
very sober and gentle.
His father used to work in kathmandu. He also brought
dambare with him. Dambare was happy after brought him
with father. His father was a simple contractor of mason.
Dambare also started to work with his father. He carried sacs
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 p;sf] k9\g] pd]/ xf] . p;n] klg sf7df8f}F cfP/ k9\ga] f/]
;f]rs
] f] lyof] t/ cj;/ kfPg . pgsf afa'n] snd ;dfpg
l;sfpg'kg{] xf] t/ ;fa]n rnfpg l;sfPÙ emf]nfdf lstfa af]Sg
l;sfpg'kg]{ xf] t/ 8f]sf]df O{6+ f af]Sg l;sfP . ;x/df cfPkl5 pm
lbgel/ sfddf vl6G5 . p;n] laxfg–a]ns ' fdfq vfg kfpF5 t}klg
l/:6k':6 5 .
p;sf] zl// km';f| ] 5 . zl//df nufPsf sk8fx¿ kmf]xf]/ 5g\ .
p;nfO{ ;kmf;'U3/ ul/lbg] sf]xL 5}gg\ . p;n] /ftL e'OdF f ;'Tg'k5{ .
p;nfO{ o; ;x/ / oxfFsf dfG5]sf af/]df s]xL yfxf 5}g . p;nfO{
cfˆgf afa'n] NofPsf tLgj6L cfdfsf af/]df klg Tolt /fd|f; ] uF yfxf
5}g . s;}n] p;nfO{ 3/ sxfF xf] eg]/ ;f]Wof] eg] lqz"nL;Dd eGg
;S5 t/ ufpF3/sf af/]df /fd|f; ] uF yfxf 5}g .
Pslbgsf] s'/f] xf] . 8Dd/]nfO{ ;fyLsf] sf]7fdf 5f8]/ p;sf
afa' ufpF uP . p;sf afa' kf]On uPsL 8Dd/]sL cfdfnfO{ vf]h/]
NofpF5' egL lxF8s
] f x'g\ . afa' lxF8k] l5 pm clxn] afa'sf ;fyLsf]
sf]7fdf a:5 . pm lbgel/ sfd u5{ / laxfg–a]ns ' fdfq vfgf vfG5 .
sfdaf6 slt k};f cfpF5 / s;n] lnG5 < p;nfO{ yfxf 5}g . cfdf
vf]Hg uPsf p;sf afa' w]/} dlxgf;Dd kms{g] g\ . clxn] Psjif{
eO;Sof] p;sf afa' gkmls{Psf] klg .
kl5dfq p;n] yfxf kfof] p;sf afa'n] sf7df8f}d F f w]/h
} gfsf]
k};f ltg'k{ g{] /x]5 . To;}n] gkms{s
] f x'g\ ls < clxn] p;sf ;fydf g
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of cements, bricks and sand and other heavy loads. Including
all there, he started to use hammer and shovels.
It’s his age of reading. He has dreamt of reading after
arriving Kathmandu but didn’t get such opportunity. His
father should teach him to read on the contrary he taught to
use shovel. He should teach to carry books and pens on his
tender hands but taught to carry bricks in basket. Whole the
day he is busy on work since the day of his arrival. He has
robust body, despites of only getting chance to eat onlt
morning and evening.
He has dry and rough skin. His worn clothes are dirty.
Nobody is there to keep him clean. He sleeps on the floor at
night. He is unknown about the city and the people. He is also
ignorant about his three mothers brought by his father. He
doesn’t know well about his own village but if anybody asked
him about it, he only can tell them that he was from trishuli.
It’s an event of a day. His father went to village leaving
him in his friend’s room. His father has gone there to bring
back his eloped mother. Now, he is living with his father’s
mate room. Whole the day he works hard by taking food only
morning and evening. He doesn’t know about how much
money he earns and who takes his wage. His father who was
gone to search his mother didn’t return many months from his
village. Now, one year passed but his father hasn’t returned,
yet.
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afa' 5g\, g cfdf . clxn] pm 6'x/' f]h:t} 5 . afa'sf ;fyLdfq p;sf
lrghfgsf dfG5] x'g\ . pg}nfO{ pm cfKkf eG5 . afa'sf ;fyLsf
tLghgf 5f]/f5f]/L 5g\ . pgLx¿n] cfKkf eg]sf] ;'g/] p;n] klg cfKkf
eg]sf] xf] . pm ToxL kl/jf/df ldn]/ a;]sf] 5 . ToxfF pm laxfg–a]ns
' f
efF8f df‰5, n'uf w'G5 / lbgel/ n]a/ sfd u5{ . p;nfO{ ca afa'
kms]/{ cfpF5g\ h:tf] nfUb}g .
p;sf xftdf 7]nf p7]sf 5g\ . lbgx'F sfd u/]sf sf/0f p;sf
xftkfv'/f alnof 5g\ . pm c;fWo} ;f]emf] ePsf]n] c¿n] klg p;nfO{
cfˆgf] 3/df sfd ug{ eG5g\ t/ pm dfGb}g . pm cfKkfnfO{ ;f]Wg'k5{
eG5 . pm cfKkfn] h] eGof] ToxL dfG5 .
pm vfg lbP klg af]Nb}g / glbP klg af]Nb}g . s;}n] lk6] klg
k|ltlqmof hgfpFbg} g\ t/ a9L eof] eg] k|ltjfb eg] u5{ . c¿ a]nf
l/; p7\bf / ef]s nfUbf gaf]nL 3f];] d'G6f] nufP/ a:5 .
w]/} ;do;Dd p;sf afa' gkmls{Pkl5 cfKkfnfO{ cK7\of/f]
k/]sf] 5 . csf{sf] 5f]/fnfO{ slt ;do;Dd kfNg'kg]{ xf] h:tf] nfu]sf]
5 pgnfO{ . pgn] p;nfO{ lqz"nL k'¥ofOlbg] ;f]rs] f 5g\ t/ lqz"nLdf
klg p;sf afa' sxfF a:5g\ eGg] pgnfO{ yfxf 5}g . glrg]sf] 7fpFdf
sxfF lnP/ hfg] xf] eGg] pgnfO{ nfu]sf] 5 .
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Later, he knows that his father had to pay debts to many
persons in kathmandu. Perhaps he was not returning for that
reasons. Now, neither his father nor his loving mother is with
him. He is like orphan. There he recognizes only to his father’s
friend. He calls him “appa”. His “appa” has three children. He
used to call “appa” as he heard the word “appa” from the
children of his father’s friend. He is living with the family
happily. He cleans the pots and dishes, washes clothes and
work as labor whole the day. He doubts about the return of
father back to him.
There are scars and wounds on his palm. He has strong
hands and legs due to his daily hard work. He is very honest
so many people call him to work in theirs home but he always
denies. He replies, he should ask the permission of “Appa” for
it. He honestly obeys, whatever told by “Appa”.
He never complains whether he was given food to eat
or not given. He never reacts if anybody beat him but protest if
severely beaten. Rest of the time, he just remain quite and
bows down his head if he is very angry and hungry.
It’s very difficult to “Appa” due to the absent of
Dambare’s father for a long time. “Appa” complains about
how long time, he should bear the child of others. “Appa” has
thought about sending him to Trishuli with his father but he
doesn’t know, where does his father live in Trishuli? He
realizes where to take him in such an unknown place.
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 cfhef]ln 8Dd/] Pp6f 3/df sfd u5{ . Tof] 3/ cfKkfn] sfd
u/]sf] / lrg]sf] dfG5]sf] xf] . To; 3/sf dfG5]n] p;nfO{ kl5
sfnLdf6Ldf sfd ug{ nfg] eg]sf 5g\ . ToxfF sfd ubf{ klg k};f
cfpF5 ls cfpFbg} < p;nfO{ yfxf 5}g .
áàá
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Nowadays Dambare is working in a house. That is the
same house where “Appa” used to work and it is the house os
a person whom “Appa” recognizes well. The owner of house
has promised him to send to work in kalimati, later on. He
doesn’t know clearly whether he gets money for working there
or not.
áàá
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DEEPAK’S STORY
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/fd]5fk lhNnfdf l;DkfgL eGg] Pp6f ufpF 5 . bLks ToxL
ufpFdf hGd]sf] xf] . Tof] ufpF g} p;sf] k'vf{n
} L ufpF xf] . clxn] p;sf
kl/jf/ ^ jif{bl] v sf7df8f}dF f a:5g\ . pm clxn] !@ jif{sf] eof] / &
sIffdf k9\5 . p;sf] kl/jf/df ddL / lbbL 5g\ . sl/a tLg
jif{cufl8 p;sf afa' lat] . To;kl5 bLks / p;sL lbbL 6'x/' f eP .
klxn] pm ;/sf/L :s'ndf k9\Yof] t/ clxn] af]l8{ªdf k9\b} 5 .
p;nfO{ k9\gsf nflu :s'n / ;fdflhs ;+:yfn] ;xof]u u/]sf 5g\ .
k9\gdf pm t]h 5 . p;n] n]Vg] cIf/ /fd|f 5g\ . pm lbbLnfO{ klg
l;sfpg ;S5 . p;nfO{ lx;fa / g]kfnL ;lhnf] nfU5 . klxn] p;n]
;/sf/L :s'ndf k9]sf]n] p;nfO{ cª\uh
]| L cln ufx|f] nfU5 . k/LIffdf
pm /fd|f] cª\s NofP/ kf; u5{ t/ klxnf] x'g] p;sf] OR5f k"/f x'g
;s]sf] 5}g .
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DEEPAK’S STORY
There is a small village, simapni in Ramechhap.
Deepak was borned in the same village. It was the village of
his ancestors. Now, his family is living in Kathmandu for six
years. He is now 12 years old and reading in class Seven. In his
family, there is mother and his elder sister only. About three
years ago his father died. Since then, Deepak and his sister
became orphans.
He used to read in public school but now he is reading
in a boarding school. He is helped by the school and a social
organization for his study. He is brilliant in study. He could
even teach to his sister, too. He prefers maths and nepali
subjects. He finds English a bit difficult because he was from
government’s school background. He secures good marks in
examination but his earnest desire to be first in class is
unfulfilled.
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;fyLx¿ agfPsf] 5 . c;n / ldng;f/ dfG5]sf w]/} ;fyLx¿ x'G5g\ .
pm sd af]N5 / s;};uF emu8f klg ub{g} . pm 3/sf] sfd klg
;3fpF5 .
bLks ufpF uPsf] 5 . xfjfkfgLsf sf/0f p;nfO{ ;x/eGbf ufpF
dg k5{ . ^ sIff kf; ePkl5 dfdfn] p;nfO{ lel8of] u]d lslglbP .
clxn] pm a]nfa]nfdf ToxL v]N5 . & sIff kf; ePkl5 p;nfO{ dfdfn]
;fOsn lslglbg] eg]sf 5g\ . To;sf/0f klg pm ldlxg]t u/]/ kl9/
x]sf] 5 . x/]s jif{ p;sf] k9fO /fd|f] x'bF } uPsf] 5 . k9fOsf cltl/St
p;nfO{ km'6an v]Ng dg k5{ . km'6an v]Nbf pm ls t lsk/ a:5 ls
t AofsLsf ¿kdf v]N5 .
cfh ;a}lt/ ltxf/sf] /demd 5 . ;a}hgf gofF n'uf nufP/
lxFl8/x]sf 5g\ . sf]xL /dfpFb} v]Nb} 5g\ . af6fel/ ;okqL / dvdnL
km"nsf dfnf a]Rg /flvPsf 5g\ . /ftL ;a}sf 3/df aQL an]/
lemlnldnL x'G5 . ljleGg lsl;dsf k6sf k8\lsPsf] cfjfhn] jftfj/
0f u'Ghfodfg 5 . rf/}lt/ pHofnf] 5 .
p;nfO{ k6sf k8\sfP/ laTyfdf k};f vr{ u/]sf] dg kb{g} .
o;af6 b'36{ gf klg x'g ;S5 eGg] pm ;f]R5 . ltxf/df hyfefjL
k6sf k8\sfpFbf cfunfuL x'g ;S5Ù To;}n] xf]l;of/ x'gk' 5{ egL pm
eG5 . ;a}sf 3/df lemlnldnL x'bF f klg p;sf] 3/ cGwsf/df 5
lsgls pgLx¿nfO{ pHofnf] dg kb}g . cfkm"nfO{ dfof ug{] dfG5]sf]
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He is very honest and discipline. He is friendly and co-
operative too. He has made many friends as honest persons
have many friends. He speaks less and never quarrels with
others. He helps on household works too.
Deepak has gone his home. He likes village than town
due to its pleasant climate. After being passed grade six, his
maternal uncle bought him a videogame. Sometimes he plays
the same videogames. His uncle has promised to buy a bicycle
after he passed grade seven. So that, he is reading with hard
labor. Every year his study is getting better. He likes to play
football except reading. While playing football he either plays
from the position of goal keeper or choose to be a defender.
Today’s, there is a grand celebration of tihar festival. All
the people are shone with new dresses on the street. Some of
them are playing and enjoying. On the street, the garlands of
marigolds and Amaranth are kept for sale. The colorful lights
are shone on everyone’s house at night. Different types of
crackers are blasted and the Environment around it is just a
commotion of huge sound. All the sides there are lights.
He doesn’t like extravagance of buying and blasting
crackers. He believes that it may come accident sometimes. He
further suggests that we must be cautions while playing
crackers randomly otherwise it may case firing. All the house
are bright with lights but his is dark and gloomy because he
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d[To' ePsf]n] o:tf] ePsf] xf] . o;}n] rf/}lt/ lemlnldnL eP klg
p;sf] dg b'MvL 5 .
bLkssf w]/} /fd|f afgL 5g\ . To;dWo] p;nfO{ lrq agfpg dg
k5{ . p;n] w]/} lrq agfPsf] 5 . p;n] agfPsf lrqx¿dWo] ;a}eGbf
/fd|f] lrq eLd;]g yfkfsf] xf] . k9fO ;lsPkl5 snfsf/ aGg] /x/ 5
p;sf] .
p;sL lbbL !) sIffdf k9\l5g\ . lbbL k9fOdf sdhf]/ l5g\ .
lbbLsf] k9fOvr{ klg Pp6f ;fdflhs ;+:yfn] a]xf]/s
] f] 5 . lbbL
6\o;
' g k9\g ;w}F laxfg hflG5g\ . pgn] vfgf ksfP/ cfkm" vfO{
p;nfO{ /flvlbP/ :s'n hflG5g\ .
p;sL ddL Pp6f :s'ndf sfd ul5{g\ . pgL laxfg} kfFr ah]
sfddf hflG5g\ / ;fFemdf cfpFl5g\ . ddL sfdaf6 l9nf cfpFbf
bLksnfO{ lrGtf nfU5 . slxn]sfxLF ddLn] ufnL ubf{ p;nfO{ afa'sf]
;Demgf cfpF5 . afa' ePsf eP ddLnfO{ ufnL gug{ ;DemfpFy] xf]nf
eGg] pm ;f]R5 . :s'ndf ;fyLx¿ afa'sf df]6/afOs r9]/ cfpF5g\ /
cf]n/]{ æafO–afOÆ eG5g\ . To:tfa]nf p;nfO{ cfˆgf afa'sf] ;Demgf
cfpF5 .
ddL PSn}sf] sdfOn] 3/vr{ rn]sf] 5 . p;n] ddLsf] b'Mv
a'em]sf] 5 . ddL PSn}n] sdfPsf] k};fn] vfg / sf]7fef8f ltg{ klg
k'Ub}g . To;}n] bLksnfO{ eljiosf] lrGtf nfU5 . p;sf afa' ePsf
eP Tolt lrlGtt x'gk' g{] lyPg . afa' / ddLsf] sdfOn] 3/vr{ ;lhn}
38 cGtcf{jfh
doesn’t like bright lights. He is so due to the unexpected
demise of his near and dear one. So that now he is sad and
gloomy despite having bright light outside.
Deepak has very good habits. Among them, he likes to
draw pictures. He has made many pictures. Among his
pictures, he likes the picture of Bhimsen thapa very much.
After completion of his study he has thought to be a Artist.
His sister reads in class ten. She is very weak in study. The
study expenses of his sister are also funded by a social
organization. Every morning his sister goes to take tuition
classes. In the morning, she cooks food, eats herself and keeps
it for him and goes to school.
His mother works in a school. Early in the morning at
5am she goes t office and returns after sun set. Deepak worries
when his mother returns late evening from office. Sometimes
he remembers his expired father when he is scolded by his
mother. He thinks that if he had his father, he would convince
his mother for not to scold him again. In the school, his friends
come on the bike of their father and gat off with greeting
them. At that time he remembers of his father.
The whole expense of his house is only by toil of
mother. He has understood his mother’s problem. It’s not
sufficient to pay the rent of the room only by mother’s income.
So that he always scares about of his future. If he had father, he
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] uF k9]/ 7"nf]dfG5] aGg'k5{ eGg] s'/fn]
3f]lr/xG5 t/ k9\g kfpg] xf] ls xf]Og eGg] lk/ klg 5 . c¿n]
;xof]u gul/lbPsf eP p;n] k9\g kfpFbg} Yof] . h] xf];\ /fd|/L k9]/
ddLsf] ;kgf k"/f ug{' p;sf] hLjgsf] p2]Zo xf] .
wouldn’t have to worry about his future. Both of father and
mother would earn enough money to run the family smoothly.
He wants to be a great person by reading hard which disturbs
him very much. He further doubts that he could get such
opportunity to study or not. It is the matter of his great

áàá trouble. If he was not assisted by others, he wouldn’t have to

get chance to read. However, his goal of life is to fulfill the
dream of mother by reading hard.

áàá

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 NABIN & NABINA’S STORY
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gjLg / gjLgf e'hn] bfh'alxgL x'g\ . gjLg clxn] !) jif{sf /
gjLgf ^ jif{sL l5g\ . pgLx¿sf] k'vf{n } L 3/ /fd]5fk xf] . clxn]
pgLx¿ sf7df8f}d F f a:5g\ . gjLg /fd]5fkdf hGd] klg gjLgfsf]
hGd sf7df8f}s F f] u'hw'{ f/fdf eof] . tLgjif{cufl8 pgLx¿sf] hLjgdf
Pp6f 36gf 36\of], h'g rnlrqsf] syf h:t} 5 . of] jf:tljs 36gf
gjLgn] cfkm}F eg]sf] xf] . p;n] klg afafn] eg]kl5 ;a} s'/f yfxf
kfPsf] xf] . gjLgn] u/]sf] j0f{g ;'Gbf syf h:tf] nfU5 .
ætLgjif{cufl8 ;Dd afafn] gfO6 uf8L rnfP/ k};f
sdfpg'xG' Yof] . xfdLnfO{ klg dL7f–dL7f vfg]s/' f Vjfpg'xG' Yof] .
afafn] sdfpg' ePsf] k};f hDdf u/]/ ddLn] /fVg'xG' Yof] . /ftL alxgL
/ d e'Od F f ;'TYof}F . cfdf vf6df ;'Tg'xG' Yof] . afaf / cfdfsf] emu8f
kYof{] . emu8f a9\b} uPkl5 cfdf cs{; } uF hfg'eof] . dnfO{ clncln
yfxf 5 . Tolta]nf alxgL tLg jif{sL lyO{ . ddLn] cfkm";uF } hDdf
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NABIN & NABINA’S STORY
Nabin and Nabina bhujel are brother and sister. Now,
Nabin is ten and Nabina is six years old. Theirs ancestral home
is in Ramechhap. Now they are living in kathmandu. Nabin
was borned in Ramechhap but Nabina was borned at
Gurjudhara of kathmandu. Three years ago, an important
event has occurred in their life which is just like a story of a
film. This real story is told by Nabin himself. It seems just like
a story from the narration of Nabin.
“Three years ago our father used to earn enough money
by driving night taxi. He used to feed us delicious food. The
money earned by is kept and managed by mither. At night we
used to sleep on the floor and mother used to sleep on the cot.
Father and mother used to fight every day. Due to regular
quarrels and fight, mother is eloped with another man. I know
little bit about it. During the time my sister was just three years
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afafn] xfdLnfO{ kmsf{P/ Nofpg'eof] . clxn] xfdLnfO{ cfdfsf] dfof
clnslt klg nfUb}g t/ afafsf] w]/} nfU5 . xfdLnfO{ klg afafn] w]/}
dfof ug{x' G' 5 . ddLn] lng cfP klg ghfg" egL pxfFn] eGg'ePsf]
5 .Æ o;/L gjLg cfˆgf 36gf ;'gfpF5 .
clxn] pgLx¿ cs{} 7fpFdf sf]7fef8fdf a;]sf 5g\ . cfhef]ln
pgLx¿sf afaf vf]nfdf afn'jf lemSg] sfd u5{g\ . pgL laxfg kfFr
ah] sfddf hfG5g\ . pgLx¿ lbpF;f] :s'n hfG5g\ . afaf sfdaf6
/ftL cfpF5g\ . pgLx¿ afafnfO{ efF8f df‰g, kfgL Nofpg, t/sf/L
sf6\g / sk8f w'g ;3fpF5g\ . gjLgf cln lh4L 5] . slxn]sfxLF
afafn] gjLgnfO{ lk6\5g\ t/ gjLgfnfO{ ;Sb}gg\ . afafsf] dfofn]
gjLgf cln k'nk'lnPsL 5 . pm afafn] eg]sf s'/f klg dflGbg .
slxn]sfxLF t :s'n klg hfGg .
gjLg :s'n hfg slxNo} 5'6fpFbg} . pm k9]/ 8fS6/ aGg] eG5 .
clxn] pm tLg sIffdf k9\b} 5 / gjLgf lzz' sIffdf . gjLgf
;fyLx¿nfO{ sf]7fdf NofP/ v]N5] . Pslbg p;n] cfkm"n] nufpg]
u/]sL gofF k|ms sf6]/ v]nL . p;sf afafnfO{ lk/ k¥of] t/ ufnL
ug'e
{ Pg / lk6\g' klg ePg .
pgLx¿ b'jn} fO{ c;n dfG5] aGg'k5{ eGg] yfxf 5 . cab]lv
rsrs gug]{ egL b'jn} ] jfrf u/]sf 5g\ . afafnfO{ b'Mv glbg] klg
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old. Mum has taken all the money she had. She has also taken
us with her. Later father has brought us back from her. Now,
we are not missing our mother but we love our father very
much. We are also loved very much by him. Father has warned
us not to go with her even if she comes to bring us back.” This
is the story by Nabin.
Now, they are living in a new place on rent. Nowadays,
their father is mining sand in the river. Early in the morning at
sharp five, he gets out for work. Nabin and Nabina go to
school on the day time. Their father returns from work only at
night. They help father in household work. Nabin is a bit
stubborn. Sometimes their father beats to Nabin. Nabina is
slightly doted due to sheer love of father. Sometimes she
doesn’t obey even to her father. Sometimes she doesn’t go to
school.
Nabin never miss his school. He wants to be a doctor
after reading well. Now, he is reading in class three but Nabina
reads in Nursery class. Nabina calls her friend and plays in her
room. One day she played by cutting her new school frock.
Her father was very sad but didn’t scold and beat her.
They both know well that they should be a good man.
They both have promised not to do nonsense activities. They
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sk8f lslglbPsf 5g\ . sfddf sf/0f afafn] pgLx¿nfO{ ;do lbg,
:s'n uP ls uPgg\ egL x]g,{ vfgf vfP ls vfPgg\ egL x]g{ / n'uf
kmf]xf]/ eof] ls egL x]g{ klg EofpGgg\, t}klg gjLg / gjLgf lg/fz
5}gg\ .
pgLx¿ cfˆgf sfd cfkm}F u5{g\ t}klg afnaflnsfnfO{
cleefjssf] cfjZostf kbf]{ /x]5 . cfdf gePsL sf/0f pgLx¿
6'x/' f ePsf 5g\ . pgLx¿n] ;fg} pd]/b]lv plrt :ofxf/;';f/ kfPsf
5}gg\ .
pgLx¿ b'j} ;/sf/L :s'ndf lgMz'Ns kl9/x]sf 5g\ . pgLx¿n]
kl5;Dd k9\g kfpg] x'g\ ls xf]Ogg\Ù yfxf 5}g . st} afafn] klg 5f8]/
lxFl8lbg] x'g\ ls < afafnfO{ s]xL eP pgLx¿sf] eljio s] xf]nf <
;f]lrlbg] sf]xL 5}gg\ . pgLx¿nfO{ eljiosf af/]df yfxf 5}g . o;}n]
pgLx¿sf] jt{dfg /dfOnf] eP klg eljio clglZrt 5 .
pgLx¿sf afafnfO{ st} cfdf cfP/ pgLx¿nfO{ n}hfg] kf] xf]
ls eGg] lrGtf 5 . cem tLgrf/ jif{ x'sf{pg kfP pgLx¿ a'‰g] x'Gy]
eGg] pgsf] ;f]rfO 5 . pgLx¿sf afafn] st}af6 ;xof]u kf] kfOG5
ls eGg] cfzf klg /fv]sf 5g\ . pgLx¿sf afafsf] ;kgf 5, gjLg /
gjLgfnfO{ k9fP/ qmdzM 8fS6/ / OlGhlgo/ agfpg] . Tof] k"/f x'g] xf]
ls xf]Og < cfh;Dd o; k|Zgn] pQ/ kfpg ;s]sf] 5}g .
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have also promised not to trouble their father any more. Father
has fed them well by making his stomach empty and he has
bought good clothes to them. Due to work, theis father
wouldn’t have enough time to watch, whether they are going
school or not, they are having food or not and they have
washed their clothes or not, etc. Having such many problems
Nabin and Nabina are not sad and frustrated.
They do their works themselves, however children need
their guardian. Due to the absence of mother they became
orphans. They are not getting proper care and protection since
their childhood.
Both of them are studying free in government school.
Whether they get chance to study further or not, it is not sure.
If father also left them… if any disaster occurred to the father,
who would save their future ? No one is there to think about
their future. So, even if they have happy present, they have
uncertain future.
Their father worries about, one day their mother will
come and takes them away from him. He worries if he could
bring up them for three-four years; they would be independent
and understand everythings. Their father has expected and
hoped the assistance for the better future of them. Their father
has dreamt of making Nabin, a docotr and Nabina a enginner
in future. Their father dream will be fulfilled or not, it is not
sure. We are not getting the answer of the question till now.
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