In the beginning, there was darkness. In that darkness was created light.

How true
this statement is, much can be seen in the overall view of our universe in the
complexities of energy, light, matter, and the naturally evolving galaxies that
fill the space within our universe. What we can see in the megacosmos is
reflected to a great extent in the microcosmos that we have been able to explore
with our primitive technologies.

Our universe is far more complex than what we can imagine it to be when everything
is compounded by the sixteen natural dimensions that separate energy and matter.
Or, is the number sixteen relevant to the billions of years that the universe has
aged from it's first beginning. Perhaps the complexities of dimension are
dependent upon the number of multiverses of which our universe is only a tiny
fraction. Ancient sacred geometry is based upon a complex flower much like the
fundamental structure of a buckminsterfullerene. Experiments in Japan have
confirmed stable complexities of two hundred plus mathematically theoretical
dimensional structures. So, what does that mean in layman's terms? It means that
very complex dimensional structures can exist with continuity and stability enough
to support the evolutionary byproducts of matter, antimatter, and other energy
degenerations that make up the apparent and visible universe as we know it.

At some point in time, humanity branched off the evolutionary tree before full
sentience could have developed as an inherently reliable characteristic supported
by necessary genetic biological background. Where physics concerns energy and
matter potentials as likely probabilities, psychic capabilities inherently evolved
to control possibilities in reference to future events and unfolding evolutions
beyond patterned predictabilities determined by logical extrapolations.

Sometimes it is necessary to alter or influence natural evolutionary patterns in

order to create and preserve possibilities that couldn't otherwise exist. It is
one thing to create something and another thing entirely to create the
appreciations and other intangibles associated with that creation in syncronistic
balance of basic existence within complex multidimensional multiverses.

Paradoxes are natural endings of possibilities that have been somehow affected or
influenced to exist beyond natural endings in normal circumstances. Often,
survival means the influence of paradoxes to yield up alternative circumstances to
support existences beyond natural or visible factors that would negate any
possibilities of survival. In that sense, intangibles such as chance and skill can
become inherent patterns of reliable predictabilities ensuring evolutionary
assurance of survival rather than a sum of random factors resulting in existence
of possible survival.

Inevitably, there will arise intelligences that will take advantage of ensuring
existences beyond the natural limitations of each dimension of each universe in a
multidimensional multiverse. At this point in time, humanity is only beginning to
understand the context of singular existence in a single dimension of a single
universe. Theoretical predictions of stable dimensions can be construed as likely
generalized directions for determining proof of probabilities in the existence of
far more complex structures in existence within multidimensional multiverses. Only
the range of imagination can hint at the possibilities of the kinds of survival
necessary for existence in multidimensional multiverses where psychic capabilities
necessarily predict possibilities to the extent of determining probabilities by
factors beyond naturally evolving logical limitations.

Correspondingly, there are levels of intelligences that necessarily evolve

conditionally to meet the demands of survival in complex existences determined by
circumstances in multidimensional multiverses. Factors of complexity are only
conditionally relevant in evolutionary existences of intelligence to the degree of
predictability necessary for survival. At some point, factors of intelligent
energy and matter must combine to provide the continuity and stability of
predictability. The duality of existence is not necessarily interchangeable.
Energy and matter are separately dependent upon natural evolutions for inherent
continuity and stability. Combined, both energy and matter are still limited
conditionally and necessarily dependent upon their combined patterned values. Only
energy can exceed the bounds of existence to provide continuity beyond dimensional
limitations not evolutionarily inherent. Only energy forms the basis of all other
energies and matter that are separated into dimensional existences within the
multiverses.

So, how often is it that little things just seem to fall into place as easily as
they had fallen out of place in the first place? Right. Never, not often, or as it
is with me, whenever I have need of things to go the way they are supposedly
intended to be. I can only think of the 'luck' that is involved in everything we
do. Then it has to be said that it isn't so much as luck as it is just the
following of patterns that have been made consistent down through the ages by
everyone to bring about the same sort of circumstances that culminate in the same
sort of patterns being basically maintained. In that sense, Luck takes on the
significance of being infrequent occurrences of reliable patterns that just aren't
as readily perceived.

I don't think of it all as being a magic as much as it is merely following some

sorts of patterns that we just don't happen to see very clearly while it is
happening. We do owe a lot to our ancestors for so many things that we do almost
unerringly inherently. Our personal habits are just habits that have been enforced
with continuity over the course of our lives to the point that we do seem to
benefit from our own patterns of behavior.

The luck we seem to enjoy so much in our lives is often a direct result of
following patterns we have made for ourselves. We are gregarious and habitual
creatures that often find the easiest way of doing things, and by cutting corners,
we often become more efficient with our efforts. I don't often look through the
dirt that I sweep up from the floor. But, when something catches the eye, or when
something is lost, that little bit of extra attention makes a big difference in
finding little lost treasures, like the small earring backing that dropped
invisibly and soundlessly into the bath mat. In that case, a little treasure was
lost and subsequently recovered when it could just as easily have stayed lost. It
was of no real significance, yet some sort of continuity was maintained in finding
that little piece of metal. And, there is no way to determine the actual
precipitation of events that could have unfolded from the loss of the earring
backing.

We take for granted that we can rush through habits without consideration of other
factors. It isn't necessarily a guarantee that the habits can be relied upon to
the extent that we do. It is merely a generalization of efforts directed over
time to accomplish a particular task. We don't consider the forces of friction
and dissipation created by our actions and spill energies that become actualized
by the energy of effort that we generate. We don't consider the impact of our
actions in other dimensions of the multiverse. Perhaps one day we will have
evolved to the extent that we might be able to perceive or predict the effects of
our actions in ways we can't consider now.

How can time be going by so quickly? I am shocked at the rate that time seems to
be passing by right before my eyes. I think it has a lot to do with my
prescriptions, but there are other factors at work that do deserve as much
consideration as being part of the cause. I do know that there are many events in
my past that did involve electricity, high energy, high altitude, deprivations of
all kinds for many different reasons, and the fact that I have always had a high
level of adrenaline in my system. I think that has a large influence on how I act
and react to circumstances in general. One thing for sure, I am getting older,
not any younger as days pass by in rapid succession.

It's funny to think that I would have lived as long as I have, considering all of
the things that have happened to me for bad and good over the years. Some things
were much harder than others to recover from, and then other things have left
invisible scars as much as the visible ones that mark my soft skin in such a
ruthless manner. I wasn't always peaceful and quiet as I like to think of myself
as being now. There were times when my circumstances demanded all that I could do
and more just to survive literally impossible odds against success.

Success always meant the successful completion of my job, project, or mission of

whatever I had set for myself to complete. So, there were times when I was not
entirely as successful as I would have liked, incurring damages, contaminations,
and sometimes wounds to mark the moments when I should have ducked or dodged, and
otherwise avoided certain circumstances. But then, there were times when risk
wasn't such a consideration when something had to be done to save an even worse
outcome. It is a good thing to know when it is necessary to act despite any risks.

Gee, it sure is a great thing to be able to sit back and think of all of the good
things I have done in my life. I think of this and that, all the while time is
ticking away for the movie we rented and have yet to return to Blockbusters.
Right. It all comes out in the end as to whether or not we have what it takes, the
mental and physical disciplines and all of the right stuff of what it is by being
alive in the end, having accomplished all that we were supposed to do, and by
getting the rented movie returned within the designated amount of time specified
in the rental agreement. Gee, no wonder I get to pay fines on occasion, eh?

How often is it that we have tried to say something worth while and some sort of
senseless dribble spouts out of the mouth past the lips instead of what we really
meant to say? How often we think of great dialogs in hind sight for those past
occasions that we know we made such blundering mistakes over? How often we think
of wanting to do things all over again for whatever reason, simply because we know
we should have done so much better than what we actually did. But then, are we
really so sure we only think we could have done differently when the script we
followed was actually what we were supposed to follow, and the things we said or
did were not any different than what was already written and what we wanted to
have written. Could we have created some sort of paradox by not following our
scripts as we were supposed to do, or are we so wrong in following our own inner
scripts as we are prompted to do when we make those vital decisions. I guess it
all boils down to how well we trust our instincts and make decisions on the fly by
following our own advices.

How do you tell time? It used to be that I told time by simply looking at the
position of the sun in the sky. Now, of course, I am lucky to see the sun in a
day. I spend a lot of time inside, looking at a northern view. So, I have lost
the ability to tell time by looking at the position of the sun in the sky. Funny
how something as simple as that could disappear so completely and quickly. Hey, I
don't even wear a watch anymore. It just isn't important to know the time of day.

Time is such a fleeting thing that changes so quickly and constantly. Most of the
time, I am not aware of the passing of time nor do I even care. I could sit for
hours in the same position and not care about how long I sat. I think it happened
in 1987 when I had a concussion from an accident. It wasn't entirely my fault
that the brakes locked up and I couldn't release them. It seems to me that ever
since that incident, I have not been able to tell what time it was. I might be
aware of a lot of things, but I don't know about the passage of time in any way.

Funny how it just isn't important to tell the time of day anymore now that time is
told by the high or low of a pill. The flow of time from beginning to end can
pass in an instant. Or, the beginning begins and takes forever to end. That is
the story of the multiplex universe and our simultaneous existences as I am led to
believe. Somewhere in the flow of time is a world, our world, passing slowly
through existence as we know it. Our place in time is marked like the patterns of
genetics, evolved into a state of existence by simple factors and forces that
unite and break down the cosmic building blocks of matter and physics.

What matters is the part we play in the continuity of energies and patterns that
play out in the proximity of humanity. In a flash we are created and become
alive. In that same flash we are multiple universal expressions have empowerment
and importance within the continuity of time. The question remains concerning how
we make choices if those choices are to only follow patterns that would be
naturally inevitable.

Natural flow of time is like energy in motion of a sort. The precession and
procession of the instant can flow around a bubble of the present. Yet, within
the present we can't divine anything outside that bubble of time. We can only say
that Time stands still because of the effects that seem frozen into immobility.
So much of our societies are derived from or are part of the process that is time.
So, from an early age we are taught how to see and what to do within the bubble of
the present that is our time, and our existence. Now that you can see what is
created and maintained as a cosmic factors of existence, you can also determine
what part of the cosmic flow that Time comes from and how it is maintained within
any paradox.

Time can have a rippling effect, or simply move into position as if by it's own
accord. There is a certain amount of adjusting to fix continuity into existence.
The term of fixing only refers to the little adjustments that have to be made to
minimize the effects of inevitable paradoxes that do occur. A flash of light, a
burst of energy, and a ripple of time always distort existence when one timeline
joins up with another timeline, no matter how sensitive the sensors are that
control the energy adjustments. It never seems to be just right and other factors
always need a slight rearrangement to line up the time lines perfectly.

Paradox only means that one timeline will end before another timeline can begin.
A timeline is like a line, or more preferably, a string that stretches from one
moment into the next, bridging progressions of actual evolutions. According to
most authorities on time, any adjustment of a timeline will always shorten the
length of that timeline because of energy that is lost in the making of any
adjustments. There are many kinds of paradoxes that all mean a shortening of a
timeline in one way or another.

I have gone into such a long explanation to show how complex everything can be if
distorted from the natural courses of evolution. Evolution is the base stability
and continuity of a timeline. And, it is by the adjustments of the factors of
evolutions and evolutions themselves that make the sensitive adjustments of
timelines.

I know how important it is to try to keep the natural evolution of a timeline for
more than just the obvious reasons. You simply can't have timelines start from
nothing or end with nothing because of the resulting repercussions of energy
disturbances and imbalances. The effects of a distorted timeline can be as
disastrous as a theoretical black hole that eventually consumes the entire
universe. It is an unthinkable circumstance of destruction and disaster.
Life begins with a burst of energy that expands and matures in the exquisite
dances of energy and matter swirling along a timeline. The timeline of Life only
ends when that energy is slowly dissipated enough to let matter be released from
existence. It is the evolution of life that joins patterns of energy and matter
until entropy and degeneration set in to allow the slow release of energy and
matter over the course of generations of patterns until that timeline can no
longer be supported. That is how timelines of existence evolve and degenerate in
natural circumstances from beginning to end.

Theory of natural timelines are taught to many kinds of scientists and researchers
in the hope of preventing avoidable disasters from which there can be no escape.
The concept of making a super bomb to blow up a star or a star system is taught as
simple basics. The key moral to that lesson is the fact that the destruction wave
carries out indefinitely so that the entire universe is eventually consumed. It
is a reminder to be responsible for the effects of whatever is designed or
created. The gist of that lesson rings in my mind as I think of my past
accomplishments and my future intentions. Nothing is spared when anything is
possible. And, with sufficient energy and time, any sort of evolution can be
created and recreated.

The main factor of any evolution is the intent of the intelligence or intellect
behind the forces controlling the directions of evolutions. Natural evolutions
can be hastened or delayed according to the demands of controlling intents. And
timelines can be as malleable in the same way as evolutions if the conditions are
altered enough. Artificial control of the conditions means infinite possibilities
can be inserted or recreated into any evolution depending upon the desired results
that are coaxed along through evolutions into timelines. It all comes to an end
that only the controller intends to allow to be that final possibility.

I have faint recollections of times when there weren't enough factors present in
the actual circumstances to allow for the desired end results to come about. What
happened was that a number of timelines were followed back to points where they
could be altered enough to bring about the desired conditions in the present
conditions and then recreated as evolutions to bring those actual events into
existence and replace the conditions of the present sufficiently to allow the
desired evolutions to end as was originally desired.

I know it seems to be a real confusion of wording to portray the impossible

factors that did evolve in other timelines to recreate the circumstances necessary
to advance the evolutions of that present timeline to continue in the new
directions. What I am trying to say is that there is no end to the possibilities
of any evolution being recreated to alter the circumstances enough to ensure the
desired results in any timelines.

The key factor of it all is the continued manipulation of energy and matter until
the effects are seen to produce the desired results. In the final evolution, only
the desired circumstances and factors are present when the rest have been reduced
to no effect or eliminated. The hard part is to realize that somehow the basic
laws of fluid dynamics and energy have to be obeyed in every respect during the
entire process, even if it means to alter some factors in artificial circumstances
that would allow such possibilities to exist in the first place. Space and Time
have no limits to size or extent in artificial circumstances and it is possible to
carry out seemingly impossible alterations that are constrained only by concepts.

There is a good reason that less energy and light reach the earth. Our little
star system is going into a dust cloud that stretches across the path of our
galactic orbit. Isn't it strange that we would be learning of this condition by
our own personal observations instead of reading about it in astronomical journals
and other media presentations.

It just so happens that I read an article on the Internet about the dust clouds
and the effect on the amount of energy that radiates from the sun. The article
was one of the short stories I blogged within the past month. While everyone is
worrying about global warming, another era of cooling has begun. Perhaps a
glacial age can come about much faster than previously supposed. It would be a
disastrous thing if that were to happen. Supposedly it would only take a matter
of seven years of continuous cold weather to initiate the factors necessary for a
glacial age to begin.So, here it is that we are talking about inevitabilities.
There are so many inevitabilities that we must be prepared for, in a realistic
manner with an appropriate timetable. The only trouble is that there are so many
lists of priorities that we have to busy ourselves with before we even begin to
think of the longer lists of priorities further down the road. Perhaps we should
count ourselves as lucky to get even a little of our priorities out of the way.

The real fact is that there are a lot of things that go on in our lives that we
don't have control over, don't expect, and most often, don't have any preparation
for. Every actor goes on stage with ringing comments of "Break a leg." Little of
that remark has anything to do with the height of a stage above an audience as it
does in preparing ourselves to expect the unexpected. That doesn't mean to say
that we should expect to fall over the edge of a high stage at any point in time.

The question of control in any part of our lives is a hotly debated topic. The
fact is that humanity is a gregariously dichotomous carbon-based waterbag lifeform
that supposes unique intelligence with self-righteous and self-aware attitudes of
discernment. Pros and cons of discussions regarding humanity as a species will
invariably agree to disagree. And, so it is with people, who function at various
levels of one structure or another, with or without the self-assuaging
manipulations of interactive interpersonal coercions. To say that it is complex
is a gross understatement. Yet, there are those who would at least try to connive
or control every last detail of any possible circumstance or situation.
Fortunately for most, not all humans are bent on complete total control of their
own lives as much as that of others within their spheres of influence. Still,
there are enough humans striving to rise above others around them to cause more
than enough concern.

Humanity is a very adaptable and capable species that survives well enough if
adequately prepared to meet their circumstances. There is a sense of multipurpose
motivations that drive most individuals efficiently enough, and further for some
who accomplish very high ideals. While Earth is a bountiful planet, not all share
in the vast opportunities and resources that can be made available. There is a
wide range of differences between those who have and those who live in primitive
conditions, and between those who live in rural verses urban areas of development.

Why is it that I bother with all of these basic generalizations that everyone
would take for granted in knowing. It is only to help set the bounds of the
extent that a greater theoretical stage may be set. That stage is the playground
of principles and paradoxes that faintly define even fainter conceptual patterns,
timelines, and other structures including universes. The bounds of energy and
matter encompass that much and more beyond which we have no clues.

It is a fact that the visible universe is only the apparent result of many unseen
factors that produce the effect of what we see as being the visible universe.
There can be and usually is a large number of facts that result in many effects
that sum up together to result in the end product that we determine as the final
end in a visible universe. How many times do we not see what goes on in the
background of any given circumstance? How often do we sail on uninterrupted into
an incident of encountering rough waves of an oncoming storm of contentions? At
what point do we determine to take heed of the warning of impending circumstances
enough to begin altering our course and thereby changing the effects of possible
impending circumstances?

Humanity is a product of serial successes that result in our continued survival

leading up to the present point in time. By whatever means we have taken, we do
arrive at the present moment by maintaining serial events of consistent continuity
in our course of actions. We do depend upon the momentum of maintaining our
course of actions up until the point of perpetrating our species (or not) and the
successive series of actions that generally leads to the present. The question is
that we have to decide at what point is it necessary to review and alter our
course of actions to take into account the changing of circumstances that alters
the action and reaction of our survivability. At what point do we decide to forgo
continuity for an altered course that leads into a new future of possibilities?

I can think of many examples where a warning of some sort decided the alteration
of events to change for the better or worse, but decidedly different outcome of
events. It isn't usually apparent at first, but eventually there can be small
changes in the series of background events that do change the outcome of the
future events by acting or reacting differently at critical moments of time. The
future can be changed from inevitable series of events into a new realm of
possibilities by introducing new factors and products of events. We can decide to
change the future by our actions even if we only change our attitudes and
reactions at critical moments. We can train ourselves to be better survivors by
being more sensitive to the background events that we usually take for granted.

We usually take for granted that continuity will go on until something

significantly changes the course of events that determines the present. We can
arbitrarily change the course of events at any given moment or by following
certain patterns that take precedence over the sum of background events. By
changing the resistance to change we do change the effects of inevitable
resistance at different moments than what a natural pattern would normally begin
alterations to occur.

Is it still today or is it tomorrow already? I can't tell. I am in such a state

of mind that there is no difference between the days or nights. All I care about
is the fact that a steady supply of pills slide down my throat to sting my stomach
with acids and spiral my mind up into a blissful oblivion of painless awareness.
Only then do I have the chance to make my muscles work in the ways that they were
designed to work and then on to do the things I do. Who cares what I do so long
as it keeps me busy and not involved in other things that could cause so much
trouble to some, some merriment to others, and perhaps keep a balance that only I
and a few others could barely perceive.

Balance, what is that all about? Is it the eternal fight between good and bad or
is it merely patterns living out their lives in the dance of genetics that
culminates in the final day of days. All leads to the end, but only how we dance
to let it happen as it speeds along it's way through the universe like the waves
of light it follows. Who cares about the laws of hydrodynamics or the laws of the
photons? Some do who have to know that there are limits to everything, including
the unfathomable and intangeable worlds that are beyond any possible
understanding. Believe that they are there, just as there are vast reserves of
accumulated matter and energies waiting to be used as was originally intended. It
is only a matter of time before that preparation so long in the making will unplay
to the ends of space and time.
A few words at a time for each entry always spares the mind from the full impact
of the view. Who else would dare to see and so unerringly plot to those ends? It
isn't a matter of seeing into the future as much as it is of remembering the
events of the past. What happened so long ago was hidden and still remains
hidden. Yet, the knowing of those resources, those little bits of technology that
remain scattered across the surface of the planet are still there in waiting. One
day it will be necessary to collect those bits and put them to use in the manner
that they were intended to be used. Now wouldn't that be an amazing thing to see
come about.

Why is it so easy to express something in English and yet that very thing is so
complex and difficult to accomplish or bring about. The main reason is that
English is an evolved complexity of a command language. Some languages are
evolved for different reasons. Arts and poetry's languages tend to flow and be
overly descriptive in certain aspects while neglecting attention in other areas.
Hence the necessity of management in certain areas of language structures to be
adapted to certain specific circumstances and situations. In this respect,
English is a very accomplished language even if it does lag behind in certain
conceptual adaptations.

Perhaps it is the certain lack of energy and motivation that prevents me from
entering anything descriptive about the concepts that I want to express in my
blogs and other works. I will admit that there is nothing to relate to in my
immediate environment. And, most often I will instantly refer to almost lost
memories that were instilled many decades ago under extreme circumstances.
However, any post trauma stress fails to establish a connection to the almost lost
memories simply because there isn't any trigger circumstances similar in
adrenaline stimulated moments, energy, intensity, and significance of priority.

Those four main factors would normally trigger PTSS events that would eventually
lead to coping with the stress levels. But, the almost lost memories that weren't
ever uncovered by similar circumstances are forced to remain in an unaltered and
unremembered states as maintained by natural mental processes. It's these kinds
of almost lost memories that I want to be concerned with momentarily in the
present as conceptual descriptors of circumstances that would be possibly treated
somehow in artificial safety.

Not everyone has events of trauma in their past that can't be adequately managed
or dealt with in some manner. For those few who do have that certain uniqueness,
there are factors beyond fear levels involving interactive adrenaline
communications and vaulted bodily capabilities. Realms of conditioned reflexes
can exist for the fleetingly momentary instances when such necessities are primal
survival skills and traits instead of relying upon raw luck in making valid
choices. The odds of success in survival do change radically from theoretically
predictable odds to ones of ensured values.

The odds of success in survival for most humans can be simplified to a base level
or something that is or it is not. But, in certain humans who have backgrounds of
extraordinary circumstances and conditioning can be seen to exhibit survival odds
of significantly greater success rates ranging from three fourths to almost
perfect scores of demonstrable success rates. Along with success there comes
other factors of mental and psychic capabilities that rise unexpectedly to
phenomenal levels of observable control.

By most appearances, there is no connection between luck and intangeable or

psychic abilities with those of conditioned skills and physically prepared
capabilities. Intellectual and mental processes aren't necessarily dependent
upon physical capabilities. What does matter is the background of hidden genetic
capabilities that does make a difference in the odds of survival through extreme
circumstances however unlikely survival might seem. The importance of genetic
backgrounds does deteriorates rather quickly, but it still does make a difference
in subsequent determinations. The importance of familial backgrounds becomes
evident when generalizations are made about specific populations. tbc

It's funny to think that what I write should be read by the light of a yellow
star. Any kind of darkness changes the mood, the texture of meaning and the
connections of the threads that weave together to make the words come out. It
isn't just a matter of meaning that is coloured by the yellow light, but also of
context and priority of significance that underlies the framework of words in
building the whole story as it should be told. Otherwise, there is no sense or
sanity to connect the intentional phraseologies and descriptive dialogues.

I was just out to see the little area of the world that comprises my mundane
world. It is a piece of the city that borders a river to the west and the
southeastern boundaries of the urban area. It would be considered a day's worth
of travel to cross the land by foot. But, a mere half hour was all that was
needed for todays' little outdoor adventure. I don't go out every day, but I do
go out often enough during the week to keep our house in supply of it's basic
needs.

It isn't all that interesting to see me out and about, driving around like the
professional that I am. I've not had any accountable accidents and I do avoid
most little surprises anyone might encounter in city traffic. What I am getting
at is that I might have particular destinations in mind, but I also listen to some
sort of warning I might have about my intended route. It's only when I am not
driving that I might have any trouble with circumstances and situations that I
might handle inappropriately.

Decades of evolving my driving skills has enabled my senses to recognize accidents

in the making and other sorts of trouble spots as they arise. It is much like
having someone drive ahead to report on the road conditions as to what I might
expect. I rely on my warnings to keep me out of trouble that can't be allowed to
happen. So far, my survival has been literally ensured because of timely warnings
and something I call extra help during emergencies.

How many people depend upon extra senses and conditioned responses in times of
danger? I would suppose that there are more people than you might imagine who do
have developed their inner senses and skills of survival to a point that far
exceeds what might be explained by genetic background and carefully honed skills.
Yes, a certain amount of our skill conditioning becomes programmed into
information that is maintained and gets passed along in our genetic material.

Humanity began to survive and build genetic libraries of information before we

learned to talk and make tools. Those libraries of information still carry
information that made the difference in survival for our ancestors long ago and
down through the ages. Those innate libraries of information are still being
maintained and added to as we evolve ourselves and our civilization. Somehow, the
complexities of genetic structures are able to contain and maintain those innate
libraries of information that define the bounds of our existence and survival.

Humanity has an amazing amount of information recorded in our genetic material.

That genetic information is added to and enhanced by new skills we develop with
conditioning to increase our chances of survival in circumstances and situations
we encounter. In a sense, we learn and increase our intelligence by our learning
as we continue to survive. Yet another factor of our ability to survive is the
fact that we can and do anticipate situations to the point that we can even
psychically sense dangers before they arise should we begin certain courses of
action.

It is thought that at a certain point of intelligence, a level of psychic ability

arises to increase our

states of awareness and our perceptions to the point of being able to make
reliable and safe choices of actions in our daily activities. It isn't just a
matter of going from point A to point B, but of also being able to expect what
might happen as a result of making those specific choices.

No one leaps ahead in time to actually see what might be ahead in the future.
But, something similar can result from making informed and rational decisions
about what might be possible to expect. It isn't necessarily the same as seeing
into the future, but it does do a considerable task of anticipating what might be
expected to occur in the future given the present circumstances.

No one leaps ahead in time, or do they? I have often had thoughts of having
recognized places and people before the actual moments of the present encounter
took place. Literal flows of information passed in thoughts from somewhere to me
that contained sufficient information for me to alter something appropriately for
the better. I have avoided unnecessary and unwanted trouble or was able to give
certain advice that was far more accurate than could be explained.

Deja vu is often connected with psychic possession or reincarnation. It doesn't

necessarily connect with time travel from the past or into the future. Rather, it
is information that might be possessed by someone from the past or future who is
separate and different than the person involved in the present.

Deja vu is not to be confused with time travel because the amounts of information
involved are vastly different in basic composition and content. There is no
logical or rational way to compare information that is passed by either deja vu or
time travel other than the sense that the source of information is one or the
other.

I have sat still and mused the thoughts I experienced about various past and
future experiences. It is my opinion that the information I receive at times can
be only attributed to remembering from times when I was actually in the past or in
the future at specific locations while engaged in doing something logical and
reasonable with set priorities and significances as if I had been on some sort of
mission to gain specific information as I needed it. However, I came about having
the information I needed was not by any sort of deja vu experience.

Survival is a cruel and primitive aspect of life. You would think that not
everyone needs to be in a survival mode at all times, especially in a civilized
world. There is a time and place for everything, survival included. But, when it
comes to survival, it must be that survival takes the highest priority in any
circumstances. It is only after the fact of survival being ensured that there
could be any debate as to the why's and wherefore's of any given circumstance. I
do know that not everyone would agree with the matter of survival over moral or
social objections to actions that might be taken in the course of survival.

Survival reduces everything to the most basic levels of argument regarding

conditions and possible actions. It is thought that survival at the cost of
another's life or an action such as cannibalism would be disdained in the face of
survival. Such arguments go back to the basic tenants of personal values. Would
you or would you not do such things under supposedly extenuating circumstances.
The real fact is that you won't know until you are faced with the actual
circumstances bringing about those decisions.

It is one thing to sit and gloat in judgement over innate values of personality
when it isn't necessary to actually face the circumstances that cause those
decisions in the first place. I am not entirely sure that I would be able to
avoid making mistakes in judgement while under extreme duress. I do think that
almost anyone can be coerced into making decisions they wouldn't ordinarily make.
But, that sort of generalization would have exceptions, especially in regard to
strong-willed individuals with high moral standards.

Survival doesn't necessarily lend itself to concessions. Arguments in hindsight

are better than no arguments at all. It is necessary to survive first, then
debate the aspects of concern once survival is ensured. A hungry hunting creature
doesn't debate the facts of life with it's intended prey or victims. Perhaps it
is a human value to be able to discern the fine line between predators and prey or
hunters and the hunted. We really don't know what goes through the minds of such
creatures of questionable intelligence.

In times of war, are we necessarily reduced to primitive survival values or do we

carry our ethical values with us through to survival in times of war. Rarely does
it matter what you think beyond making decisions that ensure survival. A heritage
of successful ancestors have only succeeded in creating successive genetic lines
that culminated in the present individuals who may or may not carry on the lines
of successful genetics.

The past several days have been idyllic and warm by comparison to the previous
weeks of frigid snowy conditions. Nothing makes Life more pleasingly comfortable
than the enjoyment of warm weather. Warm weather also eases the hardships of
survival provided there are enough other factors that aren't as important in
priority as the survival triangle. Somehow, shelter, food, and comforts of
clothing and furniture all take a back seat in importance when the weather warms
up.

People can say that it has been a long winter. We haven't passed the record in
snowfall, so it hasn't been as cold as it could have been. Still, weather plays
an important part in the overall disposition of populations. I should have kept
up my watch over the SOHO images that I normally copy to my harddrive. It is with
regret that I allowed myself to be sidetracked enough to forget my habit of sun
watching and monitoring the flow of energy to Earth. Originally, I became
interested in the anomalies that often showed up near the sun that led to my sun
watching habit.

Today was busy enough for me while I remained awake. I did sleep away the
afternoon after getting a minimal hour and a half of sleep during the night.
Perhaps I will manage to get to sleep earlier tonight. Missing out on sleep is a
bad habit to start especially when I can fall asleep in an instant when I am
tired. It becomes increasingly dangerous for me to stay awake when I tire out.
Funny how I don't think of what cost to me personally it might be when I try to
stay awake for long periods of time. I really don't need to demand so much of
myself about anything anymore in my disabled condition. Yet, I still drive myself
relentlessly to keep busy and accomplishing things as I always have.

I know I am very hard on myself in many respects. It bothers me a lot to see

anyone who is not as self-disciplined and motivated as I am. I had to survive in
very difficult conditions and against sometimes impossible odds. I had to
sacrifice all kinds of things that almost everyone else takes for granted. Yet, I
am jealous of anyone who has had an easy life, who also gets more chances and luck
in life. But, when it did count, I was the lucky one who got away, who was able
to do the impossible and get things done. That's when I used far more luck in
mere moments than most people might have consumed during their lives. Luck isn't
a value commodity and it isn't something you can buy, earn, or manage in any
realistic way.

I know I have been luckier at some things, not at other things that I might have
preferred. I would have had a far different life had I any sort of say in what
luck I did get. Perhaps the luckiest thing I should consider is the simple fact
that I survived as I did when I know other people simply didn't. I really can't
complain about anything considering how lucky I really was to survive at all. I
will be the first to admit that I wasn't the most capable or learned sort of
survivor. It wasn't a matter of skills that I did survive. It was a simple
matter of blind, ignorant luck that I was able to accomplish even some of the
things that are attributed to me.

If anyone were to examine the factors of circumstances and situations that I was
able to survive, it would not be easy to identify any one particular factor or
skill as being the main contributing factor. I know that there were times when I
was able to be skilled enough and at other times when I was lucky enough, and then
the rare instances when I simply did survive. My survival wasn't simply because
of background genetics, or of skill, as it was a result of the combined factors
that culminated in my survival.

I take for granted that I go from one place to another with speed and safety that
puts me in a rare two per cent of the world population. I take for granted that
my survival puts me in an even more rare percentile of the population. And, I
take for granted that my combined factors of survival, circumstance, and
situation, also put me in a rather unique class of survivor. Perhaps it is the
main reason why I think of things in the manner that I do, thinking of subtleties
that few would even begin to reason out, let alone develop into a skill set that I
can depend upon as I do.

Who knows what all goes on in the name of survival, evolution, and the progress of
life in general. It can be so complexly convoluted that any maze by comparison
would seem so simple. Perhaps that is the best way to describe the dance of
atomic structures, energy flows, and genetic evolutions. In the face of the
almost limitless background complexities, humanity has the great self-awareness
and temerity to announce the 'right' of choice in any matter. Choice? A human
has no more choice than a rock has in rolling down a river bed in the push of
water flowing by gravity to wards the ocean. Most of the world of humanity lives
without the benefit and freedom of choice in most mundane activities.

Can humanity have the grit to say that there is such a thing as choice in the
world, or the universe, for that matter. Then again, what is meant by the word
'choice'? Humanity does seem to have the mental capacities to deem choices in
actions and other distinctions. The question is whether intelligence has the
option for choice in the face of patterned universal existence. Given multiple
dimensions in multiple universes, there should be the inevitable fact that
something will occur at some point in time regardless of any other factors.
Scientists go so far as to imagine monkeys playing symphonies in at least one of
those multiple existences. I think that is taking the possibility of
inevitability too far in even the theoretical definitions of multiple dimensions
and multiple universes.

Humanity does live in a petri dish of existence. It is one thing to sit back and
imagine the world as we know it at the mercy of infinite factors of energy and
matter that may or may not be influenced by alien and even unknown intelligences
who deign to interfere with the course of humanity's actions and interactions.
While humanity professes a certain amount of awareness and self-assuring
perceptions, humanity can barely see a tiny portion of less than five per cent of
the universe's measurable energy and matter components of existence. It is what
humanity can't imagine or perceive that can and often does make a significant
difference in the evolution and outcome of existence within the invisible petri
dish. Woe be it that humanity should ever escape the bounds of that invisible
petri dish.

It is hard to imagine the bounds that define human existence. The simple ability
of humanity to adapt and alter innate patterns of existence also changes the
possibilities that may be realized by any of those changeable factors. As
humanity evolves into the future, the complexities of patterns increases
accordingly. At some point in time, humanity's innate intelligence would increase
enough to be able to redefine the bounds of existence and so escape the petri
dish.

What if the impossible happened and Humanity somehow escaped the petri dish by
some inconceivable method? What would be the effect of Humanity upon any other
intelligence or lifeforms? What could Humanity do that hasn't already hasn't
happened in the natural course of evolutions within the multiverses of existence?

The answer, my friend, isn't blowing in the wind. Instead, it is carved across
the annals of space and time within the existences possible within this dimension
of this galaxy in this multiverse. The answer can only be begun to be discovered
as energy converts to light and matter that can be broadcast across the galaxy
from an incredible power source. Now, isn't that a simple thing in the complexity
of everything. See, we are back to the point where a primitive language doesn't
have the expressions to convey concepts that contain elements.

Somehow I have ordered the conceptual information into more relevant terms that
anyone can grasp. What isn't offered up are the technologies and sciences
necessary to bring about the creation of the survival sphere or ship that would be
needed to cross the void of distance, energy, and time between the here and now
existence to the where and when position of future reference relative to the point
origin of the multiverse existence.
I admit that I have experiences that I remember as having at some point in the
past or the future. The simple fact that I exist now is my own proof of having
successfully gone through multiple paradoxes, multiple universes, and probably
multiple existences. How that all came about is not something I can answer, only
that what did happen is only relevantly represented in the scraps of memories that
I manage to remember. It might not be important now, but at some time it was
vital to existence. At some time I did have the controls of what was necessary to
bring about the natural flows of energy past problematic obstacles to the future
possibilities beyond what would have been otherwise prevented and or impossible to
exist.

Take care for now,

Cathy