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Tuesday 23/10/01. Had a good nights sleep in contrast to the last time. Got up
finally after an hour or so of raucous bird calls (interspersed with a variety of more melodious tinkling)
made by the large numbers of corellas that roost here. Yesterday at sunset as I was sitting on a picnic
table reading Paul Austers ‘The Invention of Solitude’ I was being covered by flying ants. The corellas
(just noticed that I havent brought my bird ID book so I cant give the scientific name) were going full
bore then too. Its 6.30 am. Here are a couple of quotes from the second part, ‘The Book of Memory’ :
““Jeremiah : “Then said I, Ah, Lord God! Behold, I cannot speak : for I am a child. But the Lord
said unto me, say not I am a child : for thou shalt go to all that I shall send thee, and whatsoever I
command thee thou shalt speak … then the Lord put forth his hand and touched my mouth. And the
Lord said unto me, Behold, I have put my words in thy mouth.”””
And
““The prophet. As in false : speaking oneself into the future, not by knowledge but by intuition.
The real prophet knows. The false prophet guesses. This was Jonah’s greatest problem. If he spoke
God’s message, telling the Ninevites they would be destroyed in forty days for their wickedness, he was
certain they would repent and thus be spared. For he knew that God was “merciful, slow to anger, and of
great kindness.” “So the people of Ninevah believed God and proclaimed a fast, and put on sackcloth,
from the greatest of them to the least of them.” And if the Ninevites were spared would this not make
Jonah’s prophesy false? Would he not, then, be a false prophet? Hence the paradox at the heart of the
book : the prophesy would remain true only if he did not speak it. But then, of course, there would be no
prophesy, and Jonah would no longer be a prophet. But better to be no prophet at all than to be a false
prophet. “Therefore now, O lord, take, I beseech thee, my life from me; for it is better for me to die than
to live”. Therefore, Jonah held his tongue. Therefore, Jonah ran away from the presence of the Lord and
met the doom of shipwreck. That is to say, the shipwreck of the singular.””
(Here is my journal entry from last wednesday : Lunch with Frank Lovece. Then
bought a couple of books by Paul Auster (‘The Invention of Solditude’, ‘The Music of Chance’) on his
recommendation. Met Susie Wall (23/10/01. former neighbour at 101 in Ivanhoe) as I was going into the
shop. Saw the ‘rice field’ event in the city square and said hullo to 2 of the participants who turned out to
be people who get my writing. Had a look at the exhibition in St. Pauls Cathedral. Had two beers in the
Spiegeltent : what a good feel place that is. Back in Miller st. met Helen (after a shower) for our usual
love in. Tea with H at Threshermans and then I rode and she drove back to Ivanhoe . A terrific day
really.)
8.45 am. After breakfast continued reading ‘The Invention of Solitude’. Yes, Paul
Auster is grappling with the mystery or meaninglessness of what he calls “the nature of chance”. He is
subject to the same kind of unlikely occurrences that I have described (that me & Frank were discussing
on wednesday for hes had them too as have many others (including Warren Burt) and some say you
should ignore them) and is equally bemused. My writing project since the beginning of last year started
out as a commentary on this very experience and it continues to be one of its main preoccupations. I
stopped reading with only a few pages to go to the end of the book because it started raining a little & I
thought Id find a town to read a newspaper. From the picnic area I took the road along Misery Creek till
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it came out of the forest onto a minor sealed road along which I headed north. Having passed a dirt road
to the left by some hundreds of yards I turned around on a whim & took it & only minutes later came out
at a very beautiful, old, secluded cemetery off Dales Rd. called Staffordshire Reef Cemetery. I know
where I am because I stopped here last year on my trip with Paranoia. I am somewhere not far south of
Linton where I should be able to get the paper. There is a place near there called Devils Cauldron where
I also called in & thought it interesting but was too agitated (& on the run) to explore. Now I will be able
to have a better look. Could it be that the paths weve taken remain with us outside awareness. Perhaps
thats what we are – an index of them. Now Ill finish reading the book. I interrupt the reading for another
quote. Auster is quoting Leibniz :
““Since all is a plenum, all matter is connected and all movement in the plenum produces
some effect on the distant bodies in proportion to the distance. Hence every body is affected not only by
those with which it is in contact, and thus feels in some way everything that happens to them; but
through them it also feels those that touch the ones with which it is in immediate contact. Hence it
follows that this communication extends over any distance whatever. Consequently, every body
experiences everything that goes on in the universe, so much so that he who sees everything might read
in any body what is happening anywhere, and even what has happened or will happen. He would be able
to observe in the present what is remote in both time and space … A soul, however, can read in itself
only what is directly represented in it; it is unable to unfold all at once all its folds; for these go on into
infinity.””
Completed ‘The Book of Memory’. A terrific read; good to compare notes. Thanks Frank, thanks
Paul Auster. Cant resist another quote by Auster, from Heraclitus :
““In searching out the truth be ready for the unexpected, for it is difficult to find and
puzzling when you find it.””
10.30 Im still at the cemetery, its raining & Im about to head off; probably to get the paper at
Linton. … At a crossroad at the corner of the cemetery I turned about & took the minor road. This must
be the rule, I thought, I have the habit of choosing the lesser road. But I wasnt recognizing the
surroundings though they were very attractive & I could see good spots to camp at or investigate. When
I came to a bigger sealed road I drove up it because I could see a church in the distance & thought it
meant a town. But that was about all there was. The church was not in use except by a white goose in the
front yard. So I went back to a minor sealed road continuing on from where I had come into the bigger
one. It took me to where Im writing now – The Devils Kitchen which I had incorrectly remembered as
The Devils Cauldron. … 2.45. Im in the pub at Skipton, quite a nice town that I havent seen before.
Bought milk, a sausage roll, filled up with petrol, checked the message bank (1 message left by Kate
12.00 yesterday saying to be happy & not worry about the kids), got the Age which Ive just read (long
piece by Edward Said & an excellent article by Dr Robert Wolfgramm of Monash Uni, & even a pretty
good one by Gorbachev). Outside its raining. There was a very agitated peregrine falcon in Devils
Kitchen & I could see its nest. Didnt go into Linton because I was seduced by roads with names like
Happy Valley rd. & Dreaming Hills rd. All beautiful country of small hills, rich pastures & scrubby
forests. Drove past a sign saying Caution Collapsing Mine Shafts Under Road. You can go virtually
cross country here along very minor lanes. Didnt come out on the hightway till just east of Skipton
which is on the way to Hamilton along the Glenelg Highway. Oh yes, when I bought my first pot of beer
at 1.40 I was the only person in the place & it was the first beer pulled for the day. Im onto my third &
last pot now & there are four people behind the bar (criticising Kim Beazley). There was no one in the
Little Hard Hills Hotel at Enfield either yesterday evening when I bought the stubbies … 5pm. Stopped
at Streatham Streamside Reserve for the night. Had tea. Am about to start reading Austers ‘The Music of
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Chance’. This is a very nice little reserve in a neglected, ordinary sort of way. The picnic tables are
rotting out. The noise of the traffic nearby is not bothering me & will probably stop later. The town
which is surrounded by fields of canola has a store but what looks like a pub appears to be closed. The
river which is flowing well is bordered by red gums. I can hear a golden whistler nearby & in the
distance magpies & a butcher bird … Rang H from the booth outside the store. Dan answered the phone.
Hes spent the day boozing at Kierans place. Then talked to H : everything is fine; shes taking Vi out to a
film; its raining in Melbourne.
Friday 26/10/01. 3.30. Ive just had a meal & a nap in the
Lakeside Highway Park on the edge of Brim (north of Warracknabeal). Now Im in the Commercial
Hotel known locally as the Brim pub. Its good here. Its about as opposite to a tourist destination as you
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can get. There is a general store & a garage. The peppercorn tree by the pub gives enough shade for as
many cars as are ever likely to be parked outside. In summer its important coz it gets hot here. The
lakeside park where Ill be spending the night goes on for a kilometre. Its a Lions community project
funded by a govt grant. There are any number of ageing picnic tables interspersed among straggly black
box gums. Signs everywhere : carparking, BBQ, boat ramp, camping area, walking track, picnic area &
a sign saying ‘toilets’ pointing to a large corrugated iron toilet block out in the open only 15 yards from
the sign. There is also a beautiful, coloured display map at the entrance of the lake & surrounds. Only
problem there is not a drop of water in it & hasnt been for some years. My kind of place. Theres no one
there of course & it felt good to have an after dinner nap. Im living in the slow lane; done nothing
physical at all on this trip; ready for an old mans habits. At Marnoo I was talking to a guy who was
doing his daily constitutional around the oval (3 times) who said he has a nap after dinner too. He was
complaining that people call him a pill popper because he takes 13 a day. Hes had a bypass & said if he
didnt do the exercise hed drop dead. Hmmm, us old guys got stuff to talk about. This morning from
Barret fauna & flora reserve I drove into Warracknabeal where I read the Age after inspecting the main
street & buying ½ doz buns . Nature abhors chaos : in my case order is imposing itself in the form of
habits, the Age in the morning & a couple of pots in the pub in the arvo. Its not as easy as you think to
travel without some initial idea of what you intend. Every time you get in the car youve got to make up
your mind if youre going right or left. Just before leaving Melbourne I did decide Id visit Ararat, for the
symbolism of its name, and I probably did have a subliminal intention of revisiting some of the country I
drove through this time last year. Today from Warracknabeal I started out westward on the dirt road to
Antwerp but when after 10ks I saw a huge black cloud ahead I went back & then north to here to get
around it. & it worked! After I finish this entry & have a third pot (10oz) Im going back to the ‘lakeside’
park to continue reading ‘The Music of Chance’ – the poker game is about to begin. Back in
Warracknabeal I rang H at work using the optus card. & yes, Ive learnt how to get into my mobile
message bank too. I had neglected to press the hash key after the pin number. That makes 37 numbers to
press to get in. There will be no place for drunks or dreamers in the world of the future. The big news is
that H sold Vi’s house for her in West Heidelberg ahead of tomorrows auction for $180,000. The house
is falling down & she was never going to get more than $200,000 so its better to be sure & get it out of
the way. The kids are OK, she had a long talk to Egle in Sydney (they had a great time in litho land) who
says mum is probably going to be released from hospital in a couple of days but will be on mega doses
of antibiotics for months. Shes depressed : its one thing after another now. There are two guys in the
pub. Theyre talking about horse racing form, bills, pathology test results, anthrax & bin Laden. Earlier
an old codger came up to me anxious to tell me about the history of the place. His grandfather had come
here with a team of bullocks in 1890 & gone on to Ouyen where there is a memorial to him. I hear these
stories all the time, people respect a writer. I told him I wasnt into history, otherwise he would have
cornered me.
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couldnt exist in a place like this. In the bright air & still conditions the gulls are sounding particularly
shrill.
this is my body
this is my blood
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