1) The document describes a person's experience spending four days alone in the deep ocean depths with few stimuli and injuries, relying only on their watch for direction.
2) With limited food and growing hunger, their thoughts drifted to family and hometown as they contemplated how to contact them in their changed state.
3) After six days without eating, they decided to return to shallower waters to search for food, finding the surface waters and skies brighter and more lively.
1) The document describes a person's experience spending four days alone in the deep ocean depths with few stimuli and injuries, relying only on their watch for direction.
2) With limited food and growing hunger, their thoughts drifted to family and hometown as they contemplated how to contact them in their changed state.
3) After six days without eating, they decided to return to shallower waters to search for food, finding the surface waters and skies brighter and more lively.
1) The document describes a person's experience spending four days alone in the deep ocean depths with few stimuli and injuries, relying only on their watch for direction.
2) With limited food and growing hunger, their thoughts drifted to family and hometown as they contemplated how to contact them in their changed state.
3) After six days without eating, they decided to return to shallower waters to search for food, finding the surface waters and skies brighter and more lively.
slipstream flowing around my body, the endless green haze of deep water, and the pain from my injuries. There was no sound, and my eyes simply focused out into infinity. At first I would check my direction by turning on the indiglo in my watch. The light seemed so bright that I would turn it on with my eyes closed, then open them slowly. I only varied from east by a few degrees north or south. It occurred to me that with so little stimuli that I could intensely feel the changes in the flow of water as it washed over my body and my fins even if I altered course a minute amount. Staying on a straight course was so easy that by the third and fourth day I simply checked the compass twice a day. Though I was in the center of what seemed to be infinite space, the sameness of it all made it feel very small. I traveled for four days straight, and not even the temperature or smell of the water seemed to change. I was reluctant to go toward the surface due to my injuries. With a lot of time to think, I recalled hearing at some point about how great pressure prevents bacteria from infecting wounds. People with lower intestinal injuries are put into hyperbaric chambers so that their body can heal, because the pressure inhibits bacteria from feeding on their body's waste. I figured that the pressure in such a chamber can't be more than a few atmospheres, at most. But I also didn't know the depth to which predators could dive. I could go higher, but I was worried about swimming in the ocean with my wounds merely poorly sewn up. If they opened and leaked blood, I could be attracting unwanted company. I pushed through hunger on my second day in the deep, and again the pain this brought faded away, replaced by the ever-present knowledge that I needed to eat. I could feel the strength I had gained from feeding slowly ebb away. My mind wandered in the deep, and again I found it difficult sometimes to define dreams from reality. Daydreams dropped into sleep, and sleep devolved into waking. Sometimes, I swore I heard and saw sharks coming straight at me. I would awaken, body warm with adrenaline, to find myself alone in the deep. Often, my mind focused on my family. They lived in Wilkes-Barre, Pennsylvania. That's where I grew up. My father, a burly, red-faced firefighter who was retiring at about the time I had my accident with the necklace. Mom, homemaker, who shuffled us to and fro basketball, recitals, and school plays. My sister entered college the same time I had entered the Marines. I was supposed to follow her after my enlistment. And, I had a kid brother, who was just starting high school this year. Wilkes-Barre was a coal town that was saying goodbye to its best days just as I was born. First, its clothing industry went over to China, then its coal industry disappeared into memories of black dust and forbidden mining tunnels. Then, just before I was born, a massive flood decimated the town. It never quite recovered. Still, it was a happy town, in its own way. The mine-scarred hills that surrounded the town grew over with trees, and the river that had brought the flood was diked. It had the comforts of a city and the familiarity of a village. My parents would take us on a walk, down the block to the ice-cream store. For some reason, every block had at least a bar or a VFW. I grew up thinking it was normal to call trick-or-treat at the bars. In the summers, we went up to the lake country in New York, where my family owned a house on the water. It was there that my siblings and I became fascinated with the water. It seemed that we'd swim from sunup to sundown. Our mother and her friends would play club at the picnic table in the shade on the shore and watch us. "I swear, by fall they'll have gills," was something we often overheard. How was I going to meet my folks? I decided it was all situational. I had to get to the West Coast, and then decide. Maybe I could coax a boater to lend me a cell phone. Maybe, I could steal one from a boat. Perhaps I could find a beach that had easy access to a pay phone. I tried to think of ways I could send a letter, but nothing came to mind. But, if I can possibly contact my folks, what then? I have a girl's voice, so simply speaking to them won't convince them of who I am. The key would be to get them to agree on a meeting. Perhaps I could say that I'm a friend of their son, and that I have to meet them to explain what was going on. But if we ever met face-to-face, could they comprehend what had happened to me? Maybe, I could try reaching my sister. Folks born and raised in Wilkes- Barre aren't usually very open minded, but she was always a hippy. I remember the ruckus caused when my mother found a book on Wicca in Sarah's room. "Sarah Perkowski, you are not going to worship Satan in my house!" "Mom, it's not about 'Satan!'" "I don't care!" Besides that, I never really picked on Sarah. She was one of those artsy kids who simply don't fit in small-town schools, because there aren't enough other artsy kids. So, she had a pretty rough time just being an outcast. The only reason she didn't get picked on a lot more was because she was smart, pretty, and I was popular in school. I had been a starter on the basketball and soccer teams every year from freshman to senior. Though I'd never been college-great, I'd been small-town great. Hell, even I had picked on Sarah about her witchy stuff. But she was a hard target to pick on. She always had a way of letting taunts roll off her back. "Yeah, Jason, I'm a witch. Oh of course, it's only about running around the woods naked, exactly. Oh and cavorting with demons? Yep, that too. I sit in a pentagram and offer myself to Beezlebub. Uh- huh." The more I thought about it, the more I realized that the best way to contact my family would be through Sarah. Even though anyone would agree it's pretty radical to meet a mermaid, and then comprehend that mermaid is actually your brother, I figured that she could handle the situation far better than my retirement-aged parents. Mom had only left Pennsylvania to go to New York, once to Canada. Dad had been out of the country once - to Vietnam, then straight back to good 'ol PA. Sarah was the key. But after meeting her, then what? How would I be able to spend time with my folks? There was no way I could live on land. I would have to be hidden from outsiders, and I'm handicapped outside of the water. They can't live in the water, obviously. I thought about our house on Lake Carter, in New York. It was a pretty big lake. A puddle compared to the ocean, of course, but perhaps if my family lived there on the water, and I in the water, we could make a compromise. Or perhaps Dad could build a boat house that actually served as my house. But how could I possibly get to that lake? Even if I did, it seemed like a dangerous prospect. There were a lot of houses on the lake, and a lot of boats. If I was spotted enough, a search would be done, and I was sure to be eventually found out. The idea of being dependent on my aging folks wasn't very appealing, either. I also felt ashamed. What would my parents, especially my dad, think about me being turned into a creature so feminine? I felt that he would blame me for changing on purpose. I didn't know if he would even want to meet me. My change is so freakish in every aspect that he might not want anything to do with it, whatsoever. He had always been so supportive of my athletics. We would play basketball in the driveway for hours on hours after school. I remembered how his broad face beamed when he came down to my graduation from Marine recruit training. In body and face, I'd always had his looks, whereas my sister had the look of my mother. I know he was proud of the man I was, or was becoming. Now, I'm no longer what he wanted me to be in any regard. I wanted to pray to God for guidance. We hadn't been raised as perfect Catholics, but when I was young we went to Church for all the holidays and observances. I went to chapel sometimes while in the Marines. I'd prayed for my grandparents when they passed away. Other than that, I hadn't really ever thought of praying for much. Now, I wanted to pray for this transformation to be undone. But the very fact that God had allowed it to happen convinced me that prayer was useless. Gluboks cryptic comments also dissuaded me from faith. He had mentioned gods, not God. I regretted not asking him more questions, until I recalled that he wasn't keen on conversation. Alone in the ocean, I yearned for his company. Then, I laughed to myself. One must be pretty desperate to yearn for the company of a massive, irritable squid. I went six days without eating. Still, I kept moving east. Even thinking started to grow tiring. I simply kept moving and dozing. I had company only in dreams. Sometimes, I was with my family on leave. Other times, I was getting drunk with my comrades. I had a dream that the entire mermaid affair was simply a dream, and when I woke up in the barracks, I was unbelievably happy. But somehow, this dream dissolved into unfortunate reality, and I awoke in the deep. Other times, mostly while drifting into sleep, huge, phantom sharks darted at me from my unconscious mind, snapping me into terrified wakefulness. Despite what had happened to me the last time I played with the sharks, I realized I would do it again for the chance at a meal. I finally decided that I had healed well enough to go back up, into the living altitudes where I could find, or be, prey. As the water grew lighter, my mood elevated. Without realizing, the gloom of the dark had somehow affected my spirit. The bright glow from above grew more defined, until I could see the surface from below, like a vaulted ceiling in Heaven. The waves were as tall as a man, the sky was steel grey, and the air was filled with salty spray as a whistling wind blew from frothy wave peaks. My view of the ocean grew and shrank as I slid from the wave peaks into their troughs. The ocean's color was the same steely grey as the sky, only darker. It looked like rippled metal. From the peaks, I could only see waves in every direction. It felt like I was a microbe on the center of a gigantic, flat coin. The horizon was simply the merger of sea and sky, a flat, uninterrupted line between two colors. I sank back under the waves and continued swimming. Later in the day, the sea grew calm. The clouds broke up under afternoon sunshine. I broke the surface and cruised along. Every few minutes I would dip my head under the water and listen for the sound of prey, but to no avail. I was skating just below the surface when I heard the whispers of prey thrashing. I thought it might be an audible mirage or a trick of my mind and tried to forget about it, but it only became more distinct and clear. Soon, I radared in on the location, submerged, and headed toward it. The sound grew stronger and stronger. Not only did I hear the smooth swimming of healthy fish, but the hiccupping of wounded fish. I descended to fifty meters and kept my eyes peeled. The first thing I saw was a shark, swimming parallel to me, toward the sound. It had a massive crescent tailfin that seemed to be half as long as the body. It was also nearly twice my length. I gave it a wide berth. Multiple targets appeared ahead of us. A loose school of fish was milling around a point of interest, darting in and out, and random sharks of different sizes mixed with them. The fish were like nuclei around the cloud at the center of an atom. The water in the center of their attention was cloudy. I smelled blood. I dove deep and looked up to observe the action from below. For a moment, my heart stopped. Above the swimming fish was a massive black body. It took me a moment to realize it was a large boat. "Fishermen," I realized. I felt the urge to swim right up to the boat and make contact, but something restrained me. It took me a minute to a second to realize that I simply couldn't swim up and say 'hi.' This angered me, until I realized that the presence of a fishing boat meant I was somewhere near land. I could follow this thing back to its port. I lay on my back and observed. Tiny pieces of fish floated down toward me like snow made of meat and scales. The fishing boat was chumming the water. Mackerel and junkfish, and the sharks, were all attracted to the smell. From all sides of the boat I could see shiny pieces of metal dropped into the water, and dancing in the sunlight. As I saw fish strike them, I realized they were jigs. The fish were feeding on the chum and attacking the jigs, and the sharks were going after the fish. After an hour, I realized that the orbiting sharks had something of a choreographed routine. They had a traffic flow that they intuitively followed. It all seemed to be timed off the largest shark present, which happened to be the big fellow I swam in with. The smaller sharks followed in his wake, and snatched up pieces left by his carnage. I swam up and drew my knife. I fell in line behind a shark that seemed to be about my size. I was so close I could taste them, and somehow I could even feel energy rippling from their bodies. I could see their dark eyes shifting in their sockets, and their gill coverings flowing in the water. I could see their fins shift and bend as they maneuvered. I started to shake uncontrollably. The shark in front of me suddenly angled into the mass of fish. The water tasted and smelled terrible here, like the air in a greasy kitchen. I realized I was only a tailfin thrash away from the bottom of the boat, but I couldn't look up. I simply registered its shadow. With a swift stab I impaled a fat mackerel. I accelerated to make a clean escape, nearly catching the hook of a jig in my eye as I did so. Before I left the range of the boat, I saw a mackerel hooked on a jig. A fisherman was trying to reel the desperate fish up. I pulled my catch from the knife and in two quick slashes kill-stabbed the hooked mackerel, and cut the fishing line above the leader. I didn't slow down, but moved out of the way and at while maneuvering and keeping my head on a swivel to scan in all directions. I ate on the move, then swung wide around the whole scene and came in for another run. Again, I moved in behind a shark. I entered the fracas, trying to look in all directions at once while also focusing on a target and maneuvering away from danger. Out of the corner of my eye I saw a large movement. It was the big shark, with the gigantic tailfin. He wasn't heading straight for me, but all the other sharks were giving way to his approach. I rolled to my right and suddenly felt a sharp, stinging pain in my dorsal fin. I rolled, and felt something tear and hook into me. Thick wire and fishing line wrapped around my waist, and pinned my wrist against my body when it went taught. Out of the corner of my eye, I could see a bright jig had snagged my dorsal fin. Its hook went all the way through my flesh. I rolled and reached for my knife with my free hand. As I did so, I drew another line around my torso, trapping my free arm. At the same time, the lines went taught. It felt like I was being cut in half by piano wire, and the tearing pain from my dorsal fin nearly blinded me. I was about to transfer the knife when the pain hit, and I lost grip of it. It was attached to my wrist by a 'dummy' cord I had weaved, but there were a few feet of play in the cord. I reached for it, but another huge tug on the line paralyzed me. At my angle, the knife was free floating straight for my face. I rolled hard and it passed by my ear. This only entangled me deeper in the lines. I looked up. I was only about 10 meters from the surface. I was being reeled in. I realized I just had to reach my knife. I could fight these lines, but didn't want to cut myself up. I started worming an arm free when adrenaline suddenly swamped my body. I heard a loud, rushing noise and knew what was coming. I turned to see the big fella headed straight at me. He could tell I was handicapped and decided I was going to make a good meal. In a split second, I decided that the boat was a pleasant place to go. I shot upward and the huge shark barely missed me. But it didn't stop. It was doing a fast u-turn. Without the ability to maneuver I had no chance against this thing. I kicked up hard and broke the surface, and came down with my stomach resting on the gunwale of the boat. Tourists lining the gunwale with fishing rods exploded away from me. I could still sense the predator below me coming for another pass, and I flopped down a few feet, knocking my jaw on the hard deck. I saw stars and heard screams and shouts. "Oh my God! A mermaid!" "Mermaid!" "Jesus Christ! That thing is real!" My point of view was only a few inches from the deck. I saw lots of white, suntanned legs in Hawaiian shorts and feet in boat shoes and Tevas. I took advantage of their shock. I wiggled, grabbed my knife, and started cutting. Once my right arm was free, I quickly sliced through the rest of the line. The jig that had penetrated my dorsal fin dangled like an earring. It was just barely out of reach. It would have to stay like that for now. I could hear cameras clicking, and shouts of authority - maybe the crew? I turned, reached the gunwale, and hauled myself up. I was about to flop back into the water when hands grabbed me all over, and threw me back into the boat. I landed on my fin and shrieked in pain. I rolled onto my stomach. "Get her," a tanned man yelled. It was the crew that had grabbed me, and I guessed this middle-aged guy in a polo shirt was the boat's captain. The crew formed into a group. I stared up at them, held out my knife, and gave them a look that told them I was going to fillet their guts with that ten-inch blade. It suddenly dawned on me that I was going to have to hurt someone. They were in shock simply from me landing in their boat, and my brandishing a sharp weapon must have simply been too much. They looked nervous and a few simply backed away, holding their hands up. Should I say something, or act mute? As I pondered this, they were starting to come to their senses. One kid came running back with a net. The captain grabbed it from him and started approaching me. He made gentle, petting notions with one hand. "Easy now, easy, we're not going to hurt you." I waited for him to make his move. If I could snatch fish straight out of the water and dodge sharks, I knew my reflexes were way too much for a human. Not only did I know it, I _felt_ it in this body. But, crawling around only on my belly was a handicap. All my power was in my tail. As the captain approached me, I instinctively knew how I would be using it to fight bipeds on terra firma. I saw him throw the net before he realized he was throwing it. His eyes narrowed, his nostrils flared slightly. Waiting for his body to commit to the momentum of the throw was the hardest part. The captain threw. I moved in one motion that used the muscles from my tailfin to my fingertips. I came up on my fingertips and kicked my tail toward the captain as hard as I could. The force took me by surprise, nearly giving me whiplash. My tail, just north of my tailfin, clocked the captain right in the ankles. To my shock, I felt the first ankle break under the blow of my tail. My upper body spun, following my tail, and the net hissed onto the empty deck. Its weights clunked against the wood. I spread my arms and came to a stop. The captain's feet were pointed to the sky as his head and shoulders hit the deck. He collapsed and lay there, knocked out cold. A storm of screams arose from the passengers. The young crewmen stood in absolute shock. I heard a gasp, and a woman collapsed onto the deck in a faint. I stared at a clump of crewmen. Two of them darted right for one another, knocked skulls, rebounded, collapsed to the deck, and scrambled back to their feet. One of the boys simply grabbed his head with both hands, stared at me, and shrieked. I could feel the panic and fear in the air. It was like being at a rock concert so loud that the sound vibrates your entire body. Somehow, it was tangible to me. I could sense it, like I could sense whether an animal was sick or whole. I looked around. I was on the quarterdeck of the boat. The crew along the gunwale ran forward. A group of about fifteen tourists huddled in the stern, too afraid to try and pass by me. As I looked at them, their faces contorted into masks of absolute fear and horror. People were crying and huddling together as they whimpered. I stared at them. For some reason, a thought filled my mind, but it was directed at them. _Fear._ The people transformed into quivering bodies and howling masks. Three people passed out. Others started pissing themselves. Shrieks of horror rose from all over the ship. I'd never seen people this thoroughly horrified in my entire life. They looked like depictions of people in old paintings of the unfortunates in Hell. And it was somehow transmitting from me. I suddenly felt guilty, and shocked, that I was the source of this horror. But I realized that to reverse it, I had to calm down. Apparently, I could induce fear voluntarily, but it also seemed that I transmitted it involuntarily, when I was afraid. The fear I was witnessing, and the realization that I was causing it, was raising my anxiety. It was like a feedback loop of emotion. As I watched an old man grab his chest in pain, I realized that the crescendo of this loop could be the deaths of some people. I fully felt that I had barely started to realize how much horror I could induce, and it was already too much. The last thing I wanted to do was kill people through sheer terror. The sight of the old man clutching his chest nearly made me panic. The first thing to pop to mind was the word _calm_. I performed the manta against panic and tried to broadcast feelings of calm and peace. The screaming ceased as if someone had been controlling it with a faucet. I could feel the horror in the air melt away. Again, the feelings I received back from people affected how I felt. I felt more calm and peaceful. There was a slight bump in the global level of anxiety as I realized that if everyone was calm, they could figure out that they could grab me and somehow cash in on the novelty. _Happiness_, I thought. Calm, peaceful, happy. As if light pierced dark clouds, the horror melted from everyone's face. I started making my way for the gunwales. The people broke up from their groups and started talking calmly amongst themselves as they watched me. I heard honest laughter. People who had fainted were waking up. The captain groaned, and some of his crew went to his side. As I approached the gunwale, people started to crowd me. But I felt no fear. They stayed about a tail's length away and simply watched. Some snapped photos. I propped myself up with one arm, and reached up and grabbed the gunwale with my other. I then grabbed the gunwale with both hands and hauled myself up onto it. I lay somewhat on my side, with my pectoral fin over the edge. The slightest push and I'd be into the water. The people, sensing that I could escape at will, crowded in. "I'm sorry," I said. My feminine voice surprised me. I hadn't felt very feminine as I had fought for my skin! But now, somehow spreading this mood of calm and joy, I did feel feminine. "What about your wound?" a middle-aged woman asked. For a moment I didn't realize what she was saying, until I remembered the jig in my fin. "We saw that you couldn't reach it," she said. I looked around. The crew had gathered on the rungs of the second level and were observing from up there. "Ok," I said. "If you can help me." Someone appeared with a pair of wire clippers and handed it to the woman. I rolled inward, and let her work on the jig. She was able to snip it off of me in a few seconds, and she reverently backed away. "Thank you," I said. "Goodbye." I rolled off the gunwale and belly-flopped into the water. I dove deep, deep, welcoming the mounting pressure of the deep. It felt safe.