Searching for Spirit

By Norman Hutt
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Table of Contents
Chapter 1: The search begins P.4
Chapter 2: Joining the Spiritualist Church P.9
Chapter 3: The Sansea e!perience P. 14
Chapter 4: " big clima! P. 19
Chapter 5: #on to $arth P.%%
Chapter 6: Bac& to basics P. %'
Chapter 7: (ace changes P. )%
Chapter 8: The Noah*s "r& Society P. )+
Chapter 9: The Tesla coil in circle P.41
Chapter 10: Physical ,ersus mental- P.4.
Chapter 11: /nly the physical p..0
Chapter 121 2 lea,e the Tesla circle P..4
Chapter 13: " lonely time P..'
Chapter 141 3y on physical circle P.'0
Chapter 15: 3ore than 4ust messages P.'4
Appendix 1: 3essages from mental me5iums P.'+
Appendix 2: Some influential boo&s about me5iumship P.+)
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2ntro5uction
"re you curious about the psychic an5 the Spirit 6orl5- 6oul5 you li&e to loo& in to
it an5 fin5 out hat it*s all about- #o you on5er if me5iums an5 psychics are the
only ones ith any spiritual gifts- "re you reluctant to belie,e all that they say- #o
you thin& you are not psychic7 although you may ha,e ha5 limite5 pre,ious strange
e!periences you coul5 not e!plain rationally- #o you ta&e a lot of con,incing that the
materialistic sceptics are not correct-
2f so7 then this boo& is for you.
Those ho ha,e natural spiritual aareness ha,e no nee5 of this boo&. Thousan5s of
boo&s ha,e been ritten by me5iums an5 psychics7 an5 they belie,e in hat they say7
5o7 an5 thin&7 but non8psychics7 the ma4ority7 ha,e to ta&e their or5 for it.
2n life7 the best ay to learn is by 9trying it out for yourself:. 2 began my spiritual
search as a rational sceptic7 ho as an engineer an5 research technologist by
profession7 ith no pre,ious personal contact ith the psychic or Spirit that 2 coul5
recall.
Tenty fi,e years later7 2 ha5 mo,e5 to a position of acceptance of the psychic an5 a
Spirit 6orl57 by a stea5y accumulation of e!periences an5 e,i5ence from many
sources7 hich in the en5 force5 me to realise that it oul5 be irrational an5 in fact
coar5ly to 5eny the conclusions.
So all you genuine curious searchers out there7 please 4oin me on my 4ourney. 2 ha,e
been calle5 a 5oubter many times7 but 2 5oubt no longer. ;our 4ourney ill be
5ifferent an5 uni<ue if you choose to ta&e it7 but 2 hope that my personal pathay ill
open up for you some of the opportunities a,ailable for personal 5e,elopment an5
groth7 an5 &nole5ge of Spiritualism an5 it*s acti,ities.
3y 4ourney began as an open8min5e5 sceptic7 ho ,isite5 a clair,oyant in 19=..


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Chapter 11 The search begins
2t all began ith a rea5ing from a clair,oyant7 in 19=.. 2 ha5 ta&en my son7 age5 '7
to6eymouth on holi5ay7 an5 2 as rather bore5 an5 lonely one e,ening. "s 2 strolle5
along the promena5e7 2 sa a fortune8 teller*s booth7 ith the name >ee Bennett on it.
2 felt strongly attracte5 to ha,e my fortune tol5 for the ,ery first time7 although
intellectually 2 5i5 not belie,e in the psychic. 2t as curious that so many stars an5
celebrities ha5 poste5 up their testimonies about ho accurate he ha5 been ith their
rea5ings. Hoe,er7 he as engage5 for <uite some time7 an5 2 almost ga,e up an5
ent bac& to the hotel. >ittle 5i5 2 &no that my future life as hanging on a threa57
for ithout the rea5ing 2 oul5 not ha,e begun a search for Spirit. 6hat oul5 ha,e
happene5 instea5 2 5on*t &no. 6e can all loo& at &ey points in our li,es7 an5 on5er
hether it as meant to be7 or 4ust 9 one thing after another:.
6hen 2 entere57 the cheapest rea5ing as bille5 as palmistry7 hich 2 selecte5. >ee
har5ly loo&e5 at my han5s7 but tal&e5 for about tenty minutes ith no fee5bac& or
<uestions to or from me. 2 as earing casual clothes an5 4eans.
9;ou ha,e no heart an5 health problems7 an5 can e!pect a long life. ;ou ha,e 4ust
been through a re5un5ancy situation at or&7 but you sur,i,e5 it7 an5 ill be /? in
the future. ;ou are in the secon5 5i,ision at or&7 but ill ha,e a chance before
"utumn to get in to the first 5i,ision. 2t*s up to you to 5eci5e if you are happy ho
you are7 or accept an offer har5 to refuse hich oul5 in,ol,e more responsibility.
This ill in,ol,e problems ith communication an5 learning to e!press yourself
more effecti,ely. ;ou ha,e an air of spirituality about you7 an5 you are capable of
healing8 not physical7 but mental. ;ou can help others ho are mentally 5on. ;ou*re
a soft touch7 you ant to help lame 5uc&s7 an5 you can heal if you ante5 to. ;ou ill
sur,i,e7 an5 it is up to you if you ant to change. ;ou seem ,ery <uiet7 but you are a
rebel insi5e an5 ha,e a lot of inar5 aggression. ;ou li&e company7 but not all the
time7 you nee5 lots of time to yourself. ;ou are anting spee5 no7 but you are ol5er
no7 an5 ill ha,e to accept a sloer pace.:
"s 2 left7 my hea5 as spinning. 2 as trying to memorise accurately hat he ha5
sai57 hile at the same time feeling shoc&e5 at the accuracy of the statements. 2 rote
it all 5on as soon as 2 reache5 my hotel7 an5 coul5 not stop thin&ing about here the
information came from. 2t seeme5 too specific to be shre5 guessor&.
"s 2 left 7 2 loo&e5 at the testimonies on the all of many ell8&non personalities
ith their photos. . The clair,oyant ob,iously ha5 9something: hich enable5 him to
satisfy his clients ith information he shoul5 not ha,e &non7 an5 intrigue them7 as
ha5 happene5 to me. 2t seeme5 too accurate to be pure chance. 2 on5ere5 hat ere
the mathematical o55s that he oul5 be correct by chance guessor&7 an5 hether
something similar happene5 to all the other clients.
2t surprise5 me that nothing as incorrect in the rea5ing. Three statements seeme5
specific to me7 others fitte5 my character7 but the bit about healing meant nothing to
me.
2 ha5 lost se,eral colleagues to re5un5ancy only the pre,ious month but ha5 escape5
it7 an5 escape5 re5un5ancy also in later years.
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Before the "utumn7 2 as promote5 at or& an5 became a Pro4ect >ea5er. 2t meant a
mo,e from an a5,ance5 technician role to loer management. This in,ol,e5
5eli,ering presentations to senior management an5 better communication s&ills.
2 ha5 been a left8 ing i5ealist socialist an5 acti,e tra5e unionist in my younger 5ays
an5 5i5 ha,e a lot of inar5 aggression about politics7 although appearing <uiet on the
outsi5e.
2 ha5 no health problems to spea& of. @"n5 up to the time of ritingA.
2 ha5 been running competiti,ely for some time7 but my best times ha5 alrea5y been
achie,e5 in races an5 2 as force5 to slo 5on.
2 5i5 li&e lots of time to myself7 although 2 5i5 li&e company as ell.
This as nothing li&e a nespaper stars astrology columnB
"fter 2 returne5 home7 my sister8in8la rang me7 an5 sai5 that she ha5 hear5 that 2
as going to 6eymouth on holi5ay. She ha5 really hope5 that 2 oul5 go to see this
clair,oyant hile 2 as there. 2 5i5 not &no this7 or that she ha5 also seen him some
time before. She sai5 he ha5 been 100C accurate in telling her of her past life7
inclu5ing facts about her 5i,orce7 her ne husban57 her mother*s blin5ness7 an5 a so8
calle5 9spirit gui5e 9 ho as helping her.
This as all strangely coinci5ental7 especially as my sister8in8la ha5 not been in
touch ith me for a long time an5 2 5i5 not &no of her interest in the sub4ect. "t the
time7 2 ha5 hear5 of telepathy but &ne little about it. 3in5 rea5ing- Coul5 my sister8
in8la ha,e influence5 my min5 from here she li,e57 40 miles from my home7 to
,isit the clair,oyant- 2s that hy 2 felt so strongly compelle5 to ha,e my first rea5ing-
#i5 >ee Bennett rea5 my min5 to be able to gi,e me the information- 6as it
scientifically possible- 6ere there un&non or unaccepte5 mechanisms at or& for it
to happen- /r as it all chance-
6hate,er it as7 it cause5 me to begin rea5ing up the sub4ect. 2 learne5 about the
5ifference beteen psychics an5 me5iums7 an5 2 then realise5 that >ee Bennett must
ha,e been a me5ium7 ho claime5 to communicate ith the Spirit 6orl57 as ell as a
psychic.
(or about to years7 2 li,e5 in a orl5 of boo&s about the paranormal7 that is about
many &in5s of phenomena not accounte5 for by mo5ern science7 to try to fin5 out ho
it all or&e5. 2t seeme5 that the paranormal as all sub4ecti,e an5 connecte5 to states
of min57 rather than ob4ecti,e7 hich 2 as use5 to.
"s 2 ha5 no reason to belie,e that 2 as psychic in any ay7 it seeme5 that this
increasingly interesting sub4ect oul5 only be a si5eline in my life. But then7 an ol5
frien5 learne5 of my interest7 an5 tol5 me hat she &ne about Spiritualism. She ga,e
me some contacts ho belonge5 to the 9Christian (elloship for Psychic an5
Spiritual Stu5ies: 7 @C(PSSA.
. The (elloship as an $cumenical bo5y of Christians foun5e5 in 19.)7 e!isting for
the stu5y of the i5e reaches of the paranormal an5 e!tra sensory perception in their
relation to the Christian (aith. The fiel5 of stu5y inclu5e5 psychical phenomena7
mysticism7 me5itation7 spiritual healing7 telepathy7 clair,oyance7 clairau5ience7
precognition7 an5 psycho&inesis.
2 as not a Christian7 but as brought up as 3etho5ist until the age of about 1)7
hen 2 lost any belief in the 5ogmas of Christianity. 2 ha5 no reason to belie,e that 2
ha5 any psychic ability at all. Hoe,er7 the C(PSS pro,i5e5 a safe ha,en to begin
my in,estigation. The psychic is often regar5e5 as spoo&y or eir57 perhaps e,en
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5angerous7 so the fact that some committe5 Christians ere sympathetic7 an5 ha5
,arious psychic abilities themsel,es7 as reassuring. They met in a (rien5*s 3eeting
House in 3arlborough7 an5 2 began to atten5 their meetings. They ere open to
anyone intereste5.
The first lecture as about Near #eath $!periences7 an5 e,i5ence as presente5 that
these e!periences in5icate5 sur,i,al of physical 5eath.
>ater that year at the C(PSS7 2 as gi,en the first of hat turne5 out to be many
messages from Spiritualist me5iums. Drsula Eoberts7 a ell8&non ol5 school
me5ium7 ga,e a 5emonstration of clair,oyance7 an5 pic&e5 me out for a message
purporte5 to be from the Spirit 6orl5. 2t as from a tan& 5ri,er7 ith light coloure5
hair7 ho 5ie5 not in the 6ar7 but some time after. She coul5 9see: the tan& 5ri,ing
o,er san5. The tan& 5ri,er tol5 her that he belonge5 to the 9 6orl5 Brotherhoo5 for
Peace: in the Spirit 6orl57 an5 he encourage5 me to continue my interest in 6orl5
Peace7 an5 also to continue to stu5y the psychic.
2 coul5 only thin& of one person ho might fit the message7 my father8in8la7 ho 2
ha5 ne,er met but ha5 been tol5 he 5ro,e a tan& in 66%.
3y ife confirme5 that he 5i5 ha,e light coloure5 hair7 he 5ro,e a tan& an5 too& part
in the Norman5y beach lan5ings7 as a ,ery peace lo,ing man7 an5 5ie5 in the late
19.0*s.
This message <uite shoc&e5 me. 2t felt strange to thin& of my ife*s 5ecease5 father
shoing his i5entity to the me5ium7 pointing out ho to go to8 @meA 7 &noing that 2
as stu5ying the psychic7 an5 belonging to a Peace organisation in the Spirit 6orl5. 2
as also strongly anti8ar7 an5 felt angry about it7 as it happene5.
6hen the shoc& 5ie5 5on a bit7 2 began to rationalise the message7 an5 ent bac& in
to my sceptical shell. Some messages fit by chance7 2 thought7 an5 e ignore those
hich 5o not. Still7 Drsula as one of the top professional me5iums7 ith a goo5
reputation.
Drsula Eoberts 5emonstrate5 again to years later7 at the 3eeting Place. 2 too& the
opportunity of ha,ing my first pri,ate rea5ing ith her. 2 ha5 met her7 an5 as&e5 her
ho to tell hen me5iums are frau5ulent. 2 still ha5 a ,ery scientific approach.
She tol5 me that 2 ha5 a green aura aroun5 me7 hich meant to her that 2 ha5 healing
poers7 particularly for ner,y7 5istresse5 types. 2 as goo5 at counselling7 an5
listening to7 those ho ere mentally 5istresse5. Someone close to me ha5 a cric&e5
nec&7 an5 2 shoul5 lay han5s on to heal it. She sa a 6illiam7 li&e a gran5father
figure7 ith a boo& open on his lap.
I began to see how it is possible to get drawn in to belief by making information fit
yourself, and accepting advice or talents. For example, the Weymouth clairvoyant had
told me something similar about me doing mental healing. A coincidence? r do
mediums say this to everybody I thought, to get them involved? And yes, I did have an
uncle William, or !ill as he was known, and he had known that I was mad about
books and reading when he knew me. As it happened, my wife did have a cricked neck
at that time, and I laid my hands on and massaged it. It did improve "uite "uickly, but
it may have been nothing to do with the #pirit World.
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The ne!t month7 2 ha5 the ,ery rare e!perience for me of a ,i,i57 remembere5 5ream.
2 o&e up su55enly in the mi55le of the night7 in the mi55le or en5 of the 5ream. 2
ha5 5reamt that 2 as a spirit being7 loo&ing 5on on my separate5 physical bo5y. 2
ha5 the absolute con,iction in the 5ream that Spirit ontrolled the bod!" the
ph!sial brain and bod! did not ontrol the #ind$ 2 remembere5 spea&ing the
or5s for emphasis through the spirit form hich as apparently 9me:.
At the time, I put this down to my subconscious mind sorting out my problem with the
brain$mind relationship and telling me what it thought I wanted to hear. n the other
hand, it could not be disproved that perhaps %something in the #pirit World& was
trying to convince me of it's reality.
The me5ium7 Stephen /*Brien7 as a5,ertise5 to 5emonstrate clair,oyance in the
local area to a large au5ience in 1990. 2 5eci5e5 to atten57 to try to fin5 out more
about the claims of Spiritualism an5 e,i5ence of life after 5eath. He tal&e5 about the
philosophy of the Spiritualist 3o,ement7 an5 ga,e ten messages to members of the
au5ience. His metho5 as to as& the hole au5ience to listen to him as he ga,e out
information li&e names7 places7 e,ents. " single person as then establishe5 ho
un5erstoo5 an5 accepte5 the information. Stephen claime5 to act as a &in5 of
9telephone e!change: for Spirit communicators. He tal&e5 to the recipient7 ho as
suppose5 to anser ith a yes or no7 about information he claime5 to be hearing from
9the Spirit si5e of life:. The recipients seeme5 li&e or5inary people7 not actors7 an5 it
seeme5 to be spontaneous. There as a lot of specific information gi,en out7 an5
most of it as apparently accepte5. /n the face of it7 there seeme5 impressi,e
e,i5ence all e,ening that the me5ium as in5ee5 passing on messages from the Spirit
6orl5 to our physical orl5.
Hoe,er7 my sceptical si5e as saying that the recipients ere self8selecte57 therefore
negating that part of the e,i5ence. The e,i5ence after the acceptance as not
impressi,e enough to con,ince7 particularly as the rest of the au5ience 5i5 not &no
hat the e,i5ence meant to the recipient.
>ater that year7 the C(PSS hoste5 to spiritual healers7 ho ga,e healing to se,en of
our members. This &in5 of thing as ne to me. Ho 5i5 they &no that the healing
9or&e5:7 an5 ho 5i5 it or& anyay- "fter the healing7 one of them ent in to
9trance: an5 e!plaine5 ho Spirit or&e5. Cause an5 effect rules7 both here an5 in
the Spirit 6orl57 re8incarnation can happen for 9&arma:7 an5 e 5on*t control hen
e 5ie7 it is planne5. This as the first time 2 ha5 itnesse5 a trance a55ress7 hen a
Spirit communicator is suppose5 to spea& through a me5ium ho allos this to
happen hile his on spirit 9stan5s asi5e:.
Another experience of so(say working with #pirit, but I had no idea if any of it was
valid, or if the healing had any effect.
" later spea&er at the C(PSS as a Christian cleric ho as oppose5 to psychic
research an5 in,estigation. He thought that the #e,il an5 e,il spirits ere a reality7
an5 it as best for natural psychics to control themsel,es an5 a,oi5 opening
themsel,es up to these ba5 entities.
An open(minded sceptic should at least consider the possibility that, if there is a #pirit
World,and %good spirits& can communicate, why should %bad spirits& be unable to?
)he type of evidence produced, and it's effect on behaviour, good or bad, would
provide a clue. Why would an evil spirit persuade us to lead a good life?
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2 ha5 become more an5 more sympathetic to the claims of Spiritualism7 hile not
en4oying the theology hich as intro5uce5 at some meetings of the C(PSS. 2 rea5
pro8Spiritualist boo&s more an5 more.
By 199)7 my mother an5 el5est brother ha5 5ie5. "t a later C(PSS meeting7 a local
me5ium7 Sheila 6ebb7 5emonstrate5 clair,oyance. She coul5 not properly place a
communicator ho ante5 a 9Norman: on the earth plane7 ho as a scientist7 there
as a rift beteen brothers7 the brother as sorry it ha5 happene57 he as sa5 about
it. 2 5i5 not spea& up7 as the me5ium trie5 ith someone else ith limite5 success. 2t
fitte5 me perfectly. 3y name is Norman7 2 as a scientist7 an5 my brother ha5
5isone5 me an5 tol5 me not to go to his funeral. 2 spo&e to Sheila afterar5s about
it7 an5 she sai5 she ishe5 that 2 ha5 spo&en up7 so that she coul5 ha,e e!pan5e5 the
lin&. 2 5i5 not ant to be a 9message8grabber: as some call it7 2 prefer the me5ium to
come to me 5irectly.
2 ha5 ne,er met Sheila before. 2n a group of about ten7 hat ere the chances of one
of them matching an unusual name7 Norman7 a fairly unusual occupation 7scientist7
an5 a rift beteen brothers7 probably unusual e,en if you ha,e brothers. Coul5 it ha,e
been min5 rea5ing again- 2f it as7 it as still remar&able7 an5 not accepte5 by
mainstream science.
By no7 my rea5ing an5 e!periences ha5 le5 me to belie,e that the psychic as ell
orth in,estigating7 but 2 felt that it as essential to loo& insi5e the Spiritualist
mo,ement an5 ta&e part7 to ensure that all as hat it seeme5 to be7 an5 hat
me5iums ere li&e an5 ho they traine5. 3ost of the sceptics an5 5e8bun&ers
criticise5 me5iumship from the outsi5e7 ithout &noing7 or ta&ing note of7 the full
facts a,ailable.
2 ha5 often thought of atten5ing my local Spiritualist Church7 but 2 as a little afrai57
as other people*s attitu5es 5o affect you. Colleagues might thin& you ere a nutter or
a cran&7 it might be creepy or 5angerous7 an5 some Christians thought that it as e,il7
an5 Satan as at or&7 5i,erting you from 9the real faith:. The opportunity arose
hen a frien5 from or&7 ho &ne of my interest7 in,ite5 me to go ith her to the
local Spiritualist Church to see an up8an5 Fcoming me5ium name5 3ar& Bran5ist.
The small Church as pac&e5 ith nearly a hun5re5 people7 an5 3ar& ga,e lots of
correct names 9from Spirit: to people he selecte57 together ith 5escriptions of e,ents
an5 appearances. 2t as rela!e57 humorous7 an5 5on8to8$arth7 ith a pleasant
atmosphere. 2t as not hat 2 ha5 e!pecte57 as there as a prayer7 an5 hymns ere
sung7 but it as more cheerful than an ortho5o! type of Christian ser,ice.
2 felt a strong compulsion to atten5 the Church ser,ices on Satur5ay an5 Sun5ay each
ee& for si! months7 an5 also try anything else going on there. 2 oul5 be able to see
a i5e range of me5iums7 the <uantity an5 <uality of their message8gi,ing7 meet some
of the Church regulars7 an5 see ho genuine it all seeme5 to a 5oubter li&e me. 2t as
almost li&e a challenge to the Spirit 6orl5 to pro,e it*s e!istence to me. 2 resol,e5 not
to 5i,ulge information about myself7 an5 loo& at e,ents ith an open8min5e57 but
critical an5 rational outloo&.
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Chapter %1 Joining the Spiritualist Church
" goo5 start ha5 been ma5e in my search. "nyone7 psychic or not7 coul5 ha,e ,isite5
the clair,oyant7 or atten5e5 the C(PSS meetings7 or gone to a me5ium or&ing in a
public sho7 an5 gaine5 interesting e!periences7 as 2 ha5. /r maybe 2 as 4ust luc&y. 2
ha5 felt comfortable ith the people 2 ha5 met7 an5 some ha5 tol5 me of their psychic
e!periences. 2 as no ,ery curious7 to fin5 out hat it as li&e to atten5 Spiritualist
ser,ices. 2 &ne it as a registere5 religion. "nybo5y coul5 al& in to a ser,ice7
paying a small fee for clair,oyance only7 or free ith a collection for Sun5ay #i,ine
Ser,ices.
"s 2 entere5 Sin5on Spiritualist Church @SSCA on July )
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199) to atten5 my first
ser,ice7 2 sa that Jeff 6oo5house as the me5ium7 2 felt alone an5 a little
apprehensi,e. 2 oul5 probably not &no anybo5y7 my ife strongly 5isappro,e5 as
she as a Christian fun5amentalist7 an5 2 thought that 2 as a non8psychic. 2 snea&e5
unobtrusi,ely up the path7 hoping that nobo5y 2 &ne oul5 see me go in. Someone
ga,e me a frien5ly han5sha&e at the 5oor7 a hymnboo& as gi,en to me7 an5 in 2
ent7 a Joe Bloggs off the street for si! months. 2 sat 5on7 an5 rea5 the Se,en
Principles of Spiritualism on a poster on the all.
The (atherhoo5 of Go5
The Brotherhoo5 of 3an
Communion of spirits an5 3inistry of "ngels
Continue5 e!istence of the human soul
Personal responsibility
Compensation hereafter for all the goo5 an5 e,il 5one on $arth
$ternal progress open to e,ery human soul
No sign of any e,il there 2 thought.
"fter an intro5uction7 hymns7 an5 a collection7 Jeff began the me5iumship.
Some messages ere accepte57 but there as nothing ,ery con,incing. 2 felt at home
hoe,er7 an5 the ser,ice en5e5 ith a hymn an5 notices. 2t as <uite li&e a Christian
ser,ice7 e!cept that hymns ere a5apte5 toar5s Spiritualist principles7 an5 the
clair,oyance replace5 a sermon. 2 on5ere5 hat 27 or anyone else7 ha5 orrie5
about. 6ith about forty in the congregation7 an5 fi,e messages gi,en7 that as a one
in eight chance of getting one yourself. 2f this ser,ice as a,erage7 in si! months 2
oul5 atten5 about fifty times7 an5 might e!pect perhaps si! messages on a,erage7 if
all things ere e<ual.
The ne!t 5ay7 Sun5ay7 the ser,ice as longer an5 containe5 a philosophical a55ress
before the clair,oyance. Syl,ia Charleoo5 at SSC ga,e the last message to me. 2t
containe5 nothing significant7 but 2 en4oye5 the atmosphere7 an5 loo&e5 forar5 to
coming bac& again. 2 as gi,en se,eral messages 5uring the si! month trial perio57
mostly e,i5ential7 an5 one hich 2 ha5 no i5ea about. Hoe,er7 2 thought it might fit
an uncle 2 har5ly &ne hen 2 as young. 2 as able to chec& it out ith a cousin7 the
only one ali,e ho coul5 confirm the facts7 an5 he sai5 it as all true.
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3any messages folloe57 in this Church an5 other places7 but these are chronicle5 in
another boo&. 2 ha5 to a5mit that Spirit ha5 on my si! month challenge. /r perhaps7
instea57 they ha5 inspire5 me to as& for the challengeB /ne message7 sai5 to be from
my mother7 cause5 me e!treme emotion. "s the me5ium 5eli,ere5 about tel,e facts7
relating to my mother*s last years on $arth7 2 as ansering yes each time7 but
roc&ing bac&ar5s an5 forar5s in my chair in shoc& an5 surprise. 2 felt that she
really &ne this information as from mother7 an5 2 ha5 a 5eep con,iction that this
as the personal e,i5ence of sur,i,al that 2 ha5 been see&ing so long. " feeling of
armth an5 hope came o,er me.
"s usual7 my sceptical si5e hit bac&. 2 &ne all the information gi,en by the me5ium7
she coul5 ha,e rea5 it from me7 an5 fe5 it bac&. 2t as craHy to thin& of the possibility
of 9spirit people: <ueueing up in the Spirit 6orl5 to pass messages through the
me5ium. 2t as easier to belie,e in telepathy7 no calle5 e!tra sensory perception. /n
the other han57 ha5 2 felt the rare presence of Spirit insi5e me7 an5 re4ecte5 it- There
as no scientific or other e,i5ence 2 as aare of to support that 5egree of telepathy
in the message.
#espite my remaining scepticism7 my feelings an5 emotions ha5 been arouse57 an5 2
ha5 5e,elope5 a hope7 or semi8belief7 in the reality of a spiritual7 create5 Dni,erse
here e,erything ha5 significance an5 meaning e,en if e 5o not recognise it. The
Spiritualist philosophy 2 hear5 each ee& as ,ery attracti,e to me7 an5 2 foun5
myself increasingly trying to put it in to action in my e,ery5ay life. The Se,en
Principles fitte5 ho 2 ishe5 life as set up7 an5 there as a progressi,e change in
my ays of thin&ing.
2t as a strange feeling7 to be almost a 9belie,er:7 but partly a sceptic.
6hile atten5ing the #e,iHes Eoa5 Spiritualist Church in 199)7 2 first e!perience5
spiritual healing in the Church Healing Sanctuary. 2 ha5 been suffering for some time
upper respiratory infections in fre<uent cycles7 hich ga,e symptoms of tic&ly
coughs7 catarrh7 ra chests7 an5 sore throats. There is no me5ication effecti,e for this
5isease7 an5 the natural 5efences of the bo5y is the only reme5y against it. 2 ha5 hear5
of 9min5 o,er matter: healing yourself7 Christian faith8healing7 Eei&i healing7 an5
other unortho5o! healing metho5s7 but 2 as curious about spiritual healing hich 2
ha5 recently hear5 about7 an5 5eci5e5 to try it out.
2 as slightly apprehensi,e7 as 2 5i5 not &no hat to e!pect7 or ho it or&e5. 2t
might be spoo&y7 in the small healing room. 6ere they 9 calling up the Spirits: li&e in
some Hollyoo5 film- The Sanctuary as 5imly lit7 an5 soft soothing music as
playing. "s e aite5 to start7 patients an5 healers seeme5 <uite or5inary7 an5 chatte5
normally. " prayer to the 9Great Spirit: as spo&en an5 healing commence5. 2 as
seate5 on a lo stool7 an5 the healer e!plaine5 hat oul5 happen7 &noing it as
my 9first time:. He sai5 that Spirit tol5 him hat to 5o7 spiritual healers 5i5 not
5iagnose7 an5 healing occurre5 by means of energy from Spirit7 irrespecti,e of any
faith in it by the patient.
"s he starte5 healing7 he place5 his han5s first close to my chest7 an5 staye5 there a
long time. This as interesting7 because nobo5y else as treate5 ith han5s on chest
that e,ening7 an5 2 foun5 out that 2 as the only patient ith a chest complaint. 6hen
he mo,e5 his han5s close to my hea57 my hea5 9tingle5 9 as though by a small current
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of electricity. 3y session laste5 about tenty minutes7 2 aite5 for the others to be
heale57 an5 there as a closing prayer. 2t as ,ery matter8of8fact an5 peaceful7 an5 2
on5ere5 hat 2 ha5 been orrie5 about.
The ne!t ee&7 2 as heale5 by a 5ifferent healer. He also place5 his han5s close to
my chest at first7 an5 tol5 me afterar5s that he as gui5e5 to go there. 2 felt a
armth in my chest. "gain 2 felt 9tingles: as his han5s ent to my hea5. 2 as feeling
slightly better no7 but 2 hear5 that a special healing e,ent as ta&ing place at a ,enue
in Sin5on.
"t the e,ent7 a la5y ho tol5 me she as name5 3a!ine7 from Glastonbury7 as
5esignate5 as my healer. She place5 her han5s on my chest7 an5 2 felt a tremen5ous
heat pumping in to my chest. She also ent to my si5e an5 face. She as&e5 if 2 as
ha,ing ba5 hea5aches7 2 sai5 yes7 perhaps it as the catarrh. She sai5 chec& ith your
5octor to ma&e sure you are alright physically.
The folloing 3on5ay7 2 felt so much better7 the annoying cough ha5 stoppe57 an5
my chest as no longer 9ra:7 that 2 thought 2 oul5 see my 5octor. He ha5
prescribe5 the regular use of a nasal spray. He e!amine5 me7 an5 as surprise5 that
my chest as no clear. 2 tol5 him that 2 ha5 recei,e5 spiritual healing7 an5 he 5i5 not
5isappro,e7 but seeme5 <uite intereste5.
"lthough 2 no felt perfectly ell7 2 ent again for healing to than& them for their
efforts. There as no charge for healing7 unless you ish to ma&e a 5onation for
Church fun5s. 2 thought 2 oul5 ha,e a last session. 3y healer pro,i5e5 a 5ifferent
sensation this time. 2 felt col5 7 but rela!e5. "fterar5s7 3argaret sai5 she ha5 sense5
no illness in me at all.
2 as free of the illness for some years7 an5 it as ne,er as ba5 again.
"nother healer at the Church tol5 me that a patient ha5 come for healing7 but as&e5
her to be careful on his bac&7 as he ha5 a problem there. She heale5 him7 then 5ays
later he came bac& an5 tol5 her his story. He ha5 suffere5 a ,ery painful cyst on his
bac&7 he coul5 not sleep properly7 an5 5octors ha5 tol5 him that it ha5 to be remo,e5
ith an operation7 hich ha5 been arrange5. "s a last resort he ha5 recei,e5 the
healing7 ha5 felt less pain7 then ne!t 5ay the cyst came off hile he as in the shoer7
lea,ing no mar&7 he sai5.
This as all e!tremely interesting to me7 as 2 ha5 felt effects from the healing7 an5
this ha5 coinci5e5 ith a cure on this occasion. 2 began to rea5 a lot about healing7
an5 healers.
2 ha5 been atten5ing the Church for about si! months7 hen an /pen Circle starte5 up
at the Church7 ith a platform me5ium from the Church lea5ing it.
2n early 19947 an /pen Circle as set up in the Church7 ith me5ium Betty Pearce
lea5ing it. 2 &ne ne!t to nothing about Spiritualist 5e,elopment circles7 but 2 thought
it as an opportunity for me7 a non8psychic7 to try it out for myself7 to see hat
happene5.
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"bout thirty people turne5 up on the first night. 6e all sat roun5 the me5ium an5
trie5 to rela!7 but it as e!citing for necomers. 2 gathere5 that the others felt they
ha5 ,arious natural gifts.
Betty e!plaine5 that the psychic as a lot to 5o ith intuition7 also ith many
spiritual gifts an5 e!periences7 but it may not in,ol,e communication ith the Spirit
6orl5. 3e5iums can 5o this. "ll me5iums are psychic7 but not all psychics are
me5iums. 2 presume5 that 2 as the only rationally min5e5 non8psychic there. 2 felt
alone an5 out of place7 as the others7 mainly omen7 chatte5 about their personal
e!periences of me5iumship.
Betty tol5 us ho she or&e5 ith Spirit7 an5 ho to ma&e lin&s ith the Spirit
6orl5 an5 5eli,er messages from communicators there7 to recipients in the circle.She
opene5 the circle ith a prayer for gui5ance an5 protection as is usual in circles.
She as&e5 se,eral members to ma&e lin&s ith the Spirit 6orl5. They seeme5 to
en4oy trying to gi,e messages from Spirit to members of the circle. This ma5e me feel
,ery ill at ease. 6hen she as&e5 me7 2 refuse57 saying 2 as not rea5y yet7 2 as here
to learn7 it as too early.
"t the ne!t /pen Circle7 e ere all as&e5 to place a personal ob4ect in a bas&et7 then
in turn pic& out one of the ob4ects7 an5 rite 5on three things about it. This as
calle5 psychometry7 the ability to tell something of the history of an ob4ect by simply
hol5ing it an5 seeing hat comes to min5. 2 put in my signet ring7 an5 pic&e5 out a
bunch of &eys.
2 felt nothing7 but rote 5on 9re57 li,ing in the country or lo,ing the country7 an5
cottages.: When I read this out, and gave the keys back, it was to a man in a bright
red sweater, he did live in the country, and cottages were around him.
" man 2 5i5 not &no7 name5 Eolan57 ha5 pic&e5 out my ring7 an5 rea5 out7 9 the
oner lo,es 4ogging7 ha5 a tight chest con5ition7 Channel 47 an5 something about a
hairstyle.: I had been *ogging for many years, I had suffered tight chests in the past
and it was a weakness, I watched +hannel , "uite a lot, and I was fairly bald-
"t the ne!t /pen Circle7 besi5es 5oing psychometry7 2 ha5 to attempt a Spirit lin&7
after opening the meeting in prayer. This is ho it ent7 after the me5itation7 hen 2
ha5 a fe thoughts as to hat to say.
9 The name of Janet7 a la5y7 pretty7 long shiny blac& hair7 an5 a largish nose.:
To my surprise an5 shoc&7 a la5y name5 Jeannie claime5 to un5erstan5 it. Iery
ner,ously7 eyes close57 2 ha5 to or& ith her. 2 sai5 hat came in to my min5.
9 She as a ,ery acti,e person7 playe5 sport.: .o.
Betty sai5 5on*t assume7 as& her ho she passe5 o,er.
9 She 5ie5 in a car acci5ent-: /es
6here 5i5 she li,e7 as& them sai5 Betty.
9 She li,e5 inJ Ne ;or&.: /es.
"s& her if she*s family7 sai5 Betty.
9 She*s saying no7 not family7 a personal frien5..: @+orrect0
"s& her hat*s her reason for coming7 sai5 Betty.
9 2t*s /.?. o,er here7 you ill see for yourself one 5ay7 an5 she sen5s her lo,e to
you:.
Jeannie seeme5 to thin& that 2 ha5 gi,en her a message from an ol5 frien5 no in the
Spirit 6orl57 an5 some others also seeme5 to thin& it as a 9genuine:.
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2 regar5e5 it as a flu&e. 2 ha5 ma5e up the information as 2 spo&e7 this as ri5iculous7
2 as not a me5ium or psychic. Jeannie ha5 an "merican accent. The rest as 4ust a
luc&y fit7 as far as 2 coul5 tell.
2 tol5 Betty afterar5s that the or5s7 an5 the picture7 came in to my min5 ,ery
5istantly7 an5 2 5i5 not &no here it came from. 2t as not li&e hat 2 imagine5 real
me5iums e!perience57 real Spirit ,oices7 real Spirit forms7 or real feelings gi,en by
5iscarnate Spirits. #espite my 5oubts7 Betty in,ite5 me7 an5 to others7 to accompany
her to atten5 a ee&en5 course for me5iumistic 5e,elopment at the Sansea National
Centre for Spiritual "areness.
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Chapter )1 The Sansea e!perience
2 as ,ery reluctant to go to the Sansea Centre for the training course7 but 2 ha5
resol,e5 to try out all that became a,ailable. The training me5ium7 Betty7 must ha,e
seen something in me that 2 5i5 not thin& as there. 2 still 5i5 not feel that 2 as
psychic7 or me5iumistic7 that is7 being able to communicate ith the Spirit 6orl5
people. Curiosity an5 my stubborn strea& seeme5 to impel me onar5s.
Betty as ,ery forceful7 an5 ha5 complete faith in hat she as 5oing7 5espite her
telling us that she 5i5 not see or hear Spirit. She ha5 a strong frien5ship ith the
oner of the Centre7 #ell Eoun57 ho e ere tol5 passionately belie,e5 that
e,erybo5y coul5 communicate ith the Spirit 6orl5.
"s e tra,elle5 to Sansea7 toar5s my first real spiritual training course7 2 began to
feel that 2 shoul5n*t really be 5oing this. The programme state5 that it as all about
psychic an5 spiritual aareness7 an5 the stu5ents oul5 ha,e to or& toar5s ta&ing
part in a full stu5ent Ser,ice at the en5 of the ee&en5 of training. 2t ha5 all
happene5 too <uic&ly an5 2 felt some stress an5 pressure.
6hen e arri,e57 e fille5 in Eegistration forms7 an5 ha5 to anser <uestions.
Stu5ents ere 5i,i5e5 in to three groups1 e!perience5 me5iums7 fle5gling me5iums7
an5 relati,e necomers. Necomers oul5 only 5o psychometry in the 6or&shops.
/ne <uestion as7 Ha,e you e,er ma5e a lin& ith the Spirit 6orl5- Betty a5,ise5
me to anser 9not sure:7 rather than no.
To my surprise an5 consternation7 2 as then groupe5 as a fle5gling. 6e oul5 be
taught to 9e!ten5 our our me5iumship:. $!ten5- 2 ha5n*t really starte5 yetB
#ell Eoun5 roun5e5 up all the stu5ents in the main hall7 an5 as&e5 us to intro5uce
oursel,es. She then lecture5 from the platform on the theme 9 3e5iumship8 3ore
than a 3essage:. 2 ha5 hear5 many spiritual tal&s by no in the Church7 but this time
2 felt li&e ta&ing notes for future reference.
9 " me5ium is a channel for spirit people to gi,e sur,i,al e,i5ence. 3essages are
gi,en from lo,e5 ones. 3e5iums teach philosophy7 an5 their aim is to touch the soul.
They shoul5 set an e!ample to follo. They are e5ucate5 toar5s a purpose7 a
lifetime*s ser,ice to Spirit. This means e,erything7 no reser,ations. Changes in
sensiti,ity 5eman5s a mo,e aay from some habits. " 5esire to ith5ra from the
orl5 is felt.
There are not many true me5iums in the physical orl5. The stu5ents are not here by
acci5ent7 the Higher Self has alrea5y agree5. "ll life is lin&e5. 3essages nee5 lin&age7
if genuine you both feel it. 2f there is no aa&ening7 the me5ium has not 5one his 4ob.
;ou must be honest to e,eryone about hat you are7 an5 hy you 5o it. "ll of you
ha,e a team of people in the Spirit 6orl5 helping you an5 fulfilling their purpose. The
teaching of philosophy shoul5 be 4ust as goo5 as gi,ing messages7 or&ing ith the
Spirit 6orl5. Get your inspirational lin& going.
;ou ha,e to be a me5ium to be a healer7 you ha,e to be open to Spirit.
The hole point is to touch the soul7 stimulating a thought to 5e,elop later7 to sho
the >ight. 2t is a ay of life7 through ser,ice7 to be &non through your >ight. ;our
e!ample shoul5 be one of Spirit7 no ego8trips7 but self8realisation. ;ou nee5 to
un5erstan5 your on moti,ation7 there is a huge responsibility on you. ;ou ill fin5 a
nee5 to be ith others of li&e min57 you ill ha,e ups an5 5ons7 but you ill gro.
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2t 5enies a ay of life you are use5 to. 2 ha,e lost the ability to be angry no7 an5
ha,e gaine5 greatly in confi5ence.:
Jonathon John7 the other main Centre lea5er7 then lecture5 on 9 Constructing a lin& F
" programme for success:.
9 2n the 5eli,ery of messages7 the min5 gi,es an interpretation an5 can cause e,en a
real message to go rong. " me5ium sometimes tunes in to your auric fiel57 an5 fee5s
information about you bac& to you. 2n this case7 a communicator is not in,ol,e5. ;ou
must get an initial communicator. ;ou 5o not &no hat ill come7 as a me5ium. ;ou
ait to recei,e it as you tal&. >earn to spea& your ay in to a lin&. Dse the C$ET
formula.
C/33DN2C"T/E1 2 ha,e ith me7 someone here un5erstan5sJ
$I2#$NC$1 (acts important to them7 an5 you. He is tal&ing aboutJ.
E$"S/N1 They ha,e come for a reason. The spirits get frustrate57 they cannot alays
get through. $!ercise your inner &noing7 on a human le,el7 they share our li,es.
T2$ DP >//S$ $N#S1 #o not say ta&e it aay ith you7 the carrier bag syn5rome.
Practice saying the opening or5s7 to pre,ent bloc&age7 by saying for e!ample " la5y
is spea&ing to me aboutJthis 5ras information in to the aareness.
The Spirit 6orl5 touches our thoughts at some points7 the rest is lost or e mi! it ith
our on thoughts. Eelate e!actly hat you recei,e7 an5 no more. ;ou lin& a Spirit
communicator ith a recipient by gi,ing out information hich is un5erstoo5 an5
accepte5. $!amples are name7 occupation7 resi5ence7 means of passing7 5isabilities7
tie of relationship7 an5 appearance. ;ou shoul5 prime your min5 an5 practice ith
your helpers in Spirit. 2t is organise5 from their si5e7 ith your 3ain Control. ;ou all
ha,e a main control ho is close to you although you are not aare of it usually. He
teaches your communicator ho to get through hen you are here in the meeting.
;ou gi,e further e,i5ence by tal&ing about the communicator7 for e!ample he is
spea&ing about a time henJ
The reason the communicator has come shoul5 be gi,en. This ill come to you as you
are spea&ing.
This finishe5 the 5ay at the Centre7 so our group ent to our hotel for a snac&. 6e
5iscusse5 our me5iating for the ne!t 5ay. There ere to 6or&shops7 in each of
hich e ha5 to 5o a lin& ith Spirit7 either in the e!perience5 or fle5gling group.
/ur me5ium as in the e!perience5 group7 an5 my to frien5s from our Church ere
ith me in the fle5glings. 2 felt en,ious of them7 because of the fact that they felt they
ere psychic an5 me5iumistic. 2 felt that my on min5 ha5 imagine5 my only lin& so
far. There oul5 ha,e to be something special to con,ince me otherise.
2 oul5 ha,e been <uite happy to ha,e been an obser,er of procee5ings7 but e all
ha5 to or&7 an5 it as <uite intensi,e. 2t as fascinating7 an5 no 2 as here 2 oul5
continue to test out if there as a Spirit 6orl5 in an open8min5e5 but rational ay.
2 alloe5 faith that it oul5 or& to replace scepticism in my min57 an5 practice5 in
my room at 11pm.
2 as&e5 my main control7 as if he as really there7 to please supply to la5y
communicators7 &non to someone in the 6or&shop7 for my to lin&s the ne!t 5ay.
This oul5 gi,e me a start if they oblige5. 2 tol5 him 2 oul5 use the same formula
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each time7 so that he7 an5 the communicator7 an5 myself7 oul5 all &no hat as
coming ne!tB 2 as use5 to e!perimentation7 an5 li&e5 the unortho5o!.
2 sai5 2 oul5 use the mnemonic N/E3 each time7 stan5ing for Name7 /ccupation7
Eesi5ence7 an5 means of passing.
This ay7 hen 2 as in panic on the platform7 stuc& for or5s7 2 oul5 be able to try
for a communicator ith four specific pieces of information7 the first essential. This
seeme5 unli&ely to fit one person out of about tel,e in our group7 so 2 coul5 get off
an5 atch the othersB
This arrangement ith main control felt utterly biHarre to my conscious7 analytical
min57 but 2 tol5 myself it as an e!periment7 2 ha5 nothing to lose. 2 ha5 felt an
atmosphere of poer an5 purpose ithin the Centre7 hich might help.
Ne!t morning7 a me5ium le5 a gui5e5 me5itation. 6e ha5 to ,isualise climbing up
tenty oo5en steps7 then 5escen5 one by one. This or&e5 for me7 as 2 can see in
my min5*s eye <uite ell. Then e imagine5 a rainbo7 an5 2 steppe5 through the
colours to the green7 in 5ifferent sha5es. 2 as calm an5 still7 but sent out a thought to
my main control7 #o you accept my metho5 of communication N/E3- 2 felt that
this as agree5 someho7 then 2 sa purple clou5s or a smo&e effect in my inner
,ision7 as though to gi,e a signal. 2 as not use5 to me5itation at that time7 so all this
surprise5 me.
" lecture by Jonathon John folloe57 an5 it as soon time for the first 6or&shop7 le5
by #ell Eoun5 herself7 ith ten stu5ents an5 to staff members atching.
6e ere all re<uire5 one by one to mount the platform in the large hall7 an5 ma&e a
lin& beteen the Spirit 6orl5 an5 someone in the hall. Se,eral stu5ents seeme5 to
en4oy going up an5 ma&ing lin&s7 then it as my turn. 2 as ner,ous of course7 but
as 5etermine5 to trust my metho5 an5 try it out.
9 2 ha,e ith me a la5y gi,ing the name of :J." secon5 of 5esperation7 then 2 blurte5
out 9Phyllis.:
9This la5y is telling me thatJ she 5i5 office or& before she retire5:
9 She says that she li,e5 in the Sansea area7 or Neath:
9 She tells me thatJshe 5ie5 of natural causes:.
96ho un5erstan5s this la5y please-
To my utter surprise7 a han5 ent up at the bac& of the hall7 an5 a man ho as on
the staff there sai5 he un5erstoo5 it all. 2 ha5 not prepare5 further than this7 but
ploughe5 on.
9 She is saying thatJ. She li&e5 sport:. 6atching it7 not playing.
2 lost it then7 saying 7 9Her reason for coming isJ..: There as nothing7 but 2 sai5
9To pro,e to us that the main control really or&s to help us.: This as my
intellectual self coming bac& 2 thin&7 an5 2 sa a gentle smile on the face of #ell
Eoun5. The or5s at the en5 of the patter ha5 come in to my min5 someho7 but
,ery 5istantly7 an5 not 5istinguishable from ran5om thoughts.
"fter lunch7 2 prepare5 ith my main control for the secon5 lin&. 2 as&e5 for more
information this time7 an5 Gla5ys as in charge7 in a smaller room.
9 2 ha,e ith me a la5y gi,ing the name ofJ.Janet.:
She is telling me she as aJ.seing machinist:.
9She is telling me that she li,e5 in $nglan57 not 6ales.:
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9 She is also telling me that she passe5 o,er ith a stomach con5ition:
96ho un5erstan5s this la5y please-:
/h noB " la5y name5 "nnette7 a 6elsh stu5ent7 accepte5 all of the information. 2 ha5
to go on.
9 She tells me thatJ.she passe5 o,er <uite young7 an5 as not close family: . ;es7 2
&no her.
9 She is saying thatJ.you 5iscusse5 this sort of thing hen she as on $arth-: ;es7
she as not a belie,er in it.
9 Her message isJ.that it is real7 she is there in Spirit7 an5 she sen5s her lo,e to
encourage you to go on:.
2 as please5 to be able to 5iscuss it later ith "nnette. She sai5 she too& it to be her
mother*s sister7 ho use5 to or& a seing machine for a li,ing7 li,e5 in $nglan57
an5 passe5 ith stomach cancer. 2 sai5 only Janet 5i5 not fit then- She sai5 2 coul5
ha,e mishear57 as it is close in soun5 to "nnette. 2 can*t ma&e it fit 2 sai57 as a 4o&e.
"fter more successful lin&s7 the stu5ents ere calle5 bac& to the main hall to <uestion
#ell an5 Jonathon. Then #ell spo&e to us.
9 Spirit is energy force7 it unites ith e,erything else. The ,ehicle for Spirit is the
soul. "s the soul absorbs more &nole5ge of Spirit7 there is greater un5erstan5ing.
;ou ha,e to ma&e your on relationship ith your main control. Gi,e him your time.
He normally remains 5istant7 they are beyon5 romantic or affectionate. 6e can feel
5iscomfort7 because e ant an emotional response. $motion can be counter8
pro5ucti,e.
3any me5iums are psychic. They go from si5e to si5e7 an5 as& if anyone has not ha5
a message before7 then gi,ing one. These are all psychic rea5ings.
3y 5ream is for ">> to tal& to Spirit7 not 4ust special people.
The last e,ent that 5ay as a 5emonstration of psychic art7 by Jonathon John7 an5
clair,oyance by #ell. She sai57 that the 5raing an5 clair,oyance shoul5 go together
for the same recipient. Jonathon ha5 a rapport ith an artist in Spirit7 an5 cannot see
hat he is 5raing7 but he is gui5e5. He 5oes not 5ra for pleasure7 only for this
or& ith Spirit.
#ell ga,e four goo5 messages ith 5raings for stu5ents7 then off e ent to the
hotel for a 5rin& an5 5iscussion about the 5ay.
"t mi5night7 2 spo&e to my main control7 an5 ga,e him the name of George. 2 than&e5
him for 5oing such a goo5 4ob that 5ay. This seems insane hen 2 loo& bac&7 as 2 as
such a 5oubter then7 but 2 ha5 suspen5e5 5isbelief for a hile.
2 pon5ere5 about my lin&s that 5ay. "fter each prepare5 phrase7 2 ha5 aite5 for
something to come in my hea5. 2t seeme5 to ha,e or&e5 so far. 2 began to feel
emotional an5 tearful as 2 tal&e5 to George. 2 felt <uite stresse57 an5 oul5 ha,e lo,e5
to go home7 2 ha5 ha5 enoughB But 2 as stuc&7 there as no ay out ith honourB
2 as&e5 main control to please supply to Spirit men tomorro7 &non to someone in
the au5ience. Surely 2 oul5 not succee5 again-
Sun5ay began ith a me5itation. 2 again felt a great peace an5 stillness7 an5 2 as&e5
main control for his help again at the right time. 2 began eeping7 an5 thought hat is
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happening to me7 this is not goo57 li&e a psychological brea&5on. 2 sa purple
clou5s by my inner ,ision7 then it all change5 to blue.
6e ere calle5 bac&7 an5 my neighbour ha5 been eeping also. 6e 5iscusse5 it an5 2
as a bit shame8face5 to a5mit the same an5 about the colours. She then sai5 that she
sa purple an5 then blue colours in flashes before she ent to sleep last night. She
associate5 this someho ith Jonathon John.
#ell then ga,e another lecture about goo5 me5iumship7 an5 sai5 she as not a
Spiritualist7 she 5oes not li&e any label. 6e then ha5 a last preparation for the public
stu5ent Ser,ice. This as on the platform again7 ten stu5ents. 3y turn came roun5.
9 2 ha,e ith me a gentleman ho is gi,ing the name ofJ.#a,i57 an5 Thomas.:
9He is telling me thatJ..he or&e5 in mining:.
9 He is saying thatJhe passe5 o,er ith a chest con5ition.:
9He li,e5 in J6ales:.
96ho un5erstan5s this man please-:
Three people coul5 ta&e the names7 but only #ell un5erstoo5 the information.
/h no7 2 ha5 to or& ith the Boss of the CentreB
9He is tal&ing aboutJpicnics together:.
Not me7 but 2 un5erstan5 it.
9He is gi,ing meJcoalmining:
No7 she sai5.
2 blun5ere5 on7 eyes close5 hich as my ba5 habit7 hen 2 9sa: some trees an5
thought of forest.
9 #o you un5erstan5 a forest in connection ith this man-:
;es7 @ ith a smileA.
Time as up 7 2 coul5 not get a reason for coming7 an5 sai5 so.
"fterar5s7 #ell sai5 2 shoul5 open my eyes7 an5 his name as 3r Colman. She use5
to go to a forest ith this man hen young.
2 as really apprehensi,e about the Stu5ent Ser,ice. 2t as a large hall7 lots of the
public oul5 be present as ell as the stu5ents an5 staff7 an5 this non8psychic oul5
try to gi,e a message from Spirit. 2t as biHarre that 2 e,er got in to thisB 2 as
loo&ing forar5 to getting it o,er ith. The last e,ents7 especially the table tilt7
loo&e5 ,ery interesting7 an5 e oul5 be rela!e5 an5 relie,e5.
Chapter 41 " big clima!
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6e stu5ents ent to lunch7 &eye5 up but 5etermine5 to perform ell. 2 ma5e a last
minute re<uest to my main control to put a name in my min5 before e starte57 to
gi,e me a goo5 start. " slight change to the plan.
The Stu5ent Ser,ice as organise5 in to four groups7 each of hich ha5 a Chairman7
a spea&er7 fi,e psychometrists7 an5 fi,e me5iums. 2 as tol5 that 2 oul5 spea& in
Group17 an5 me5iate in Group 4 at the en5. 2t as 5aunting to mount the stage
platform as a Group an5 sit 5on7 facing a sea of e!pectant faces. 6ell7 about .0
anyayB 2 as use5 to 5oing presentations at or& so 2 as not orrie5 about
spea&ing from the platform. The Chairman intro5uce5 me to open procee5ings ith
a tal&. 2 spo&e about entering a Spiritualist Church for the first time7 an5 it floe5
ell although 2 as unprepare5. 2 then itnesse5 a series of perhaps surprisingly
goo5 tal&s7 psychometry7 an5 lin&s to Spirit.
6e 9me5iums: ha5 been as&e5 to place personal items in to a bas&et7 an5 the
psychometrists ha5 selecte5 from them hat they ante5 to or& ith7 not &noing
the source. Coinci5entally7 my signet ring as hel5 up for recognition by the la5y ho
ha5 me5itate5 ne!t to me that morning7 an5 ept together.
She sai5 to me 9she felt peace7 calm7 an5 gentleness ith this ring. She felt a
connection ith a piano7 nice shiny oo5. " s&ipping rope7 ith girls aroun5.:
2 replie5 2 ha5 playe5 a shiny8oo5e5 piano hile earing that ring. 2 5i5 s&ipping
ith girls hen 2 as young7 but there as no connection to the ring.
3ine as the last me5iation. The name Thomas ha5 come to min5 hile 2 aite57 an5
2 resol,e5 to use it. 2 steppe5 forar5 for my big moment.
9 The name of Thomas &eeps coming to me. 2 5on*t &no if this is a surname or
Christian name. 2 feel that he is a patriotic 6elshman. 6ho un5erstan5s this
gentleman please-:
(our han5s ent up.
9 Than& you7 this man is telling me he use5 to or& in J..engineering:.
/nly one la5y coul5 ta&e this7 an5 she sai5 he ha5 been a manager in an engineering
company.
2 as shoc&e5 once again. She as near the bac&7 so it as 5ifficult to hear7 an5 2 ha5
no feeling to help me.
9 He is telling me that he Jpasse5 o,er <uic&ly:. ;es7 in the en5. He as my
husban5.
9 He is telling me thatJ he foun5 it 5ifficult to e!press his lo,e hen he as ith
you.: He as reser,e5.
The la5y began to cry. 2 felt aful. This me5iumship as an aesome responsibility7
an5 2 felt totally unsuite57 untraine57 unbelie,ing7 an5 ashame5. 2 hurrie5ly tie5 it up
before 2 5i5 any 5amage.
9"ll he is saying7 he is gi,ing it no7 he is ma&ing up for it7 ta&e his lo,e. Than&you:
This as a ,ery unsettling e!perience. There ha5 been a clash beteen faith an5
belief7 an5 the rational. 3ost of the lin&s by the me5iums 5uring the Ser,ice ha5 been
<uite successful7 but ha5 not pro5uce5 tears in recipients.
Not one of the many messages offere5 out 5uring the course fitte5 anyone 2 &ne in
the Spirit 6orl57 so this in5icate5 that they ere not so generalise5 that they oul5 fit
most people.
"t last the me5iumship as o,er7 an5 2 ha5 learne5 some interesting lessons.
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The ne!t session as entitle5 9 " healing e!perience an5 celebration of life:.
The hall as cleare57 an5 chairs place5 aroun5 the si5e. Jonathon 7 a ,ery goo5
musician7 as on his &eyboar5 an5 got us 5ancing to arm us up. He then organise5
us in to to circles7 facing each other. #ell as&e5 us to hol5 han5s ith the person
facing us7 an5 sai5 hen the music starts sing to each other7 loo&ing in to each other*s
eyes. 6e ere all reluctant at the start7 an5 the young la5y ith me loo&e5 aay. 6e
ha5 to sing7 9 2 gi,e my lo,e7 2 gi,e my lo,e7 be not afrai5:. Eepeate5. Then 9 2 gi,e
my 4oy7 2 gi,e my 4oy7 be not afrai5:. Eepeat. 9 2 gi,e my peace7 2 gi,e my peace7 be
not afrai5:. These phrases ere continuously repeate5.
"s e became use5 to singing7 an5 changing partners after each phrase7 e gra5ually
opene5 up7 an5 2 felt the emotions rising up aroun5 me. 2t as ,ery unusual an5
5isconcerting to loo& in the eyes of another person7 an5 gi,e your spiritual lo,e.
Some ere crying7 some ere 4oyous. 2t as ,ery poerful. 2 trie5 to pro4ect my
positi,e feelings to my partners7 as 2 guesse5 this oul5 be part of the healing
e!perience.
" #i,ine Ser,ice folloe57 le5 by #ell. 2t as goo5 to rela!.
The final e,ent as a table tilt. 2t as 5escribe5 by #ell as a bit of fun7 but for me it
turne5 out to be a really incre5ible e!perience. 3agical might be the or5.
2 ha5 hear5 about physical phenomena. These ere sai5 to be paranormal acti,ities
hich ere ob4ecti,e7 in that more than one person coul5 itness the phenomena at
the same time7 an5 coul5 therefore compare notes for e,i5ence. Table tilting7 or table
turning7 came in to this category.
"t the Centre7 an or5inary &itchen table7 ith metal legs7 as place5 in the mi55le of
the hall7 hich as carpete5. >ighting as goo57 pro,i5e5 by re58coloure5 bulbs.
3e5iums from the Centre7 an5 some others selecte5 for their 9energy:7 stoo5 aroun5
the table an5 place5 their han5s flat on it*s e5ges. Jonathon John began playing
rousing songs on his &eyboar57 an5 the rest of us stu5ents7 about si!ty in all7 ho
ere seate5 aroun5 the hall7 sang 9 to raise the ,ibrations: as they say. 6e ere
encourage5 to clap our han5s as ell7 an5 soon the table as seen to mo,e7 a little at
first.
Sceptics an5 necomers ere loo&ing for tric&s7 mechanical 5e,ices7 pushing by
some metho57 an5 any other normal e!planation for the mo,ement7 but e coul5 only
see the han5s on the top. 2 ha5 inspecte5 the table beforehan57 an5 ha5 staye5
atching it until the tilt began. There as nothing abnormal to account for any
mo,ement. /nly the han5s on the top coul5 possibly be mo,ing the table.
"s e became e!cite57 an5 clappe57 ma&ing more an5 more noise7 the table roc&e5
<uite ,iolently7 then sli5 <uic&ly 5on the length of the hall7 causing the me5iums to
ha,e to run to &eep up. The table si,elle5 roun5 near the en5 of the room7 causing
someone to fall o,er as it change5 5irection. 2 sa no signs that han5s ere pushing
the table. This ent on for some time. 2n tos an5 threes7 e,erybo5y ho ante5 to
as in,ite5 to ta&e part7 replacing some of those at the table.
6hen my turn came7 2 atche5 ,ery carefully7 but all han5s ere only on the table
top. No le,erage to sli5e or roc& the table seeme5 possible. 2 trie5 to 9cheat:7 by using
my muscular action to stop the table mo,ing7 but it seeme5 to 4ust go it*s on ay7
ith poer behin5 it. 3y han5s ere pushe5 up although 2 as pushing 5on har57
the table roc&e57 then it oul5 si,el on one leg7 then sli5e <uic&ly 5on the room
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again. 2 ha5 to run ith it to &eep my han5s on it*s top. "ll this as <uite shoc&ing to
my scientific7 rational min5. 2t shoul5 not ha,e happene57 by the las of physics.
There as no 9normal: e!planation. 2 coul5 only speculate that hate,er 9energy:
ha5 been generate5 by the singing an5 e!citement7 an5 the me5iums7 ha5 been
con,erte5 to some &in5 of physical7 but unseen an5 un&non7 poer. This ha5 mo,e5
the table in a purposeful ay.
6hen all ha5 ta&en part7 an5 things ha5 settle5 5on a little7 the me5iums sat aroun5
the table ith only their han5s on it. 6e coul5 clearly see e,ery mo,ement they ma5e.
2n response to <uestions7 the table roc&e5 once for 9yes:7 an5 tice for 9no:. "
message as gi,en7 allege5ly from Spirit7 by the table tilting a number of times to
correspon5 ith a letter of the alphabet. /ne tilt meant "7 %' tilts meant K7 an5 so on.
The table tilte5 each time about 1% inches upar5s7 an5 gently 5on again. This as
repeate5 until a letter as complete57 then there as a pause before the ne!t letter as
tilte5 out. $,entually7 a meaningful message as complete5 in this ay7 an5 as
un5erstoo5 an5 accepte5 by one of the me5iums.
#i5 this message by tilting mean that spirit people ere intelligently communicating7
after controlling7 earlier7 the ,ery spectacular table tilt hich 2 coul5 not e!plain-
/r as there a form of energy7 hi55en to science at the moment7 an5 only a,ailable
un5er certain con5itions7 hich ha5 been pro,i5e5 to5ay7 hich coul5 mo,e tables
about7 an5 tilt out a message hen as&e5- "ll this seeme5 impossible7 but it
happene57 an5 2 ha5 to accept hat happene5. 2 thought that 2 oul5 li&e to ta&e part
in another tilt one 5ay7 here 2 as in,ol,e5 in setting up the con5itions. 2 oul5 li&e
to see all han5s to be completely off the table7 an5 the tilting continue7 although 2 as
sure that this tilt as 100C genuine.
2 no belie,e5 that there must be a relationship beteen our physical orl57 an5 an
un5efine5 energy connecte5 ith 9 the psychic: hich coul5 mo,e tables. This as
tangible an5 real. The Spirit 6orl5 may7 or may not7 be in,ol,e5. 2 ha5 rea5 that
ectoplasm may be in,ol,e5 in table tilting.
#ell Eoun5 ha5 her 5ream7 that e,eryone coul5 communicate ith Spirit7 not 4ust
9special people:. Her Centre ha5 certainly 5one it*s best to realise that 5ream.
Chapter .1 #on to $arth
6e 5ro,e home7 all on a spiritual 9high:. So much ha5 happene57 so <uic&ly. (or
se,eral 5ays afterar5s 2 as al&ing on air as they say7 an5 foun5 it 5ifficult to stop
tal&ing about the Course at my or&place7 to a fe ho ere intereste5. "fter 2 tol5
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them about the on5er of the table tilt7 they confi5e5 to me some of their on psychic
e!periences7 hich they normally &ept hi55en.
2 then atten5e5 a one85ay 6or&shop at the Church7 calle5 9 The Spiritual "pproach to
>ife:7 an5 this inclu5e5 lectures7 spiritual a5,ice7 an5 psychic e!ercises hich e
trie5 out on each other. 2 ma5e notes to refer bac& to7 but nothing special emerge5
5uring the 6or&shop.
2 face5 a 5ecision about me5iumship training. 2 coul5 not see ho my curiosity an5
personal 5e,elopment coul5 be satisfie5 if 2 ga,e up the /pen Circle. "lthough 2
5isli&e5 ma&ing lin&s7 felt unsuite5 to it7 an5 ha5 felt une<ual to the responsibility7 it
as the only ay to learn more at the moment. So on 2 ent.
2 as&e5 my main control to please supply a la5y communicator at the ne!t /pen
Circle. 2 5i5 not &no hether Spirit still ante5 to gi,e me more e,i5ence7 or e,ery
lin& ha5 been a flu&e so far7 an5 2 coul5 gi,e it all up. "bout fifteen people atten5e57
an5 5uring a me5itation 2 &ept thin&ing of a be57 an5 2 sa an ol58fashione5 iron8
frame5 be5 ith brass fittings in my min5*s eye. 2 as as&e5 to lin& ith Spirit.
9 2 ha,e ith me a la5y ho is gi,ing the name ofJ.Harriet.:
9 2 &ept thin&ing of a be5 ith brass &nobs7 connecte5 ith this la5y:.
9She is telling me her occupation asJ.houseor&7 something li&e that.:
9 She li,e5 in7 or ha5 lin&s7 ith theJ. South Coast area:.
9 She tells me that she passe5 o,er ithJ.a chest con5ition:.
96ho un5erstan5s all7 or any7 of this information please-:
2 sat bac&7 surely nobo5y coul5 relate to all thisB But no7 a man an5 a oman both put
their han5s up an5 coul5 ta&e all of itB 2 ha5 been taught to as& for more to sort out
the correct recipient7 an5 sai57 9 She is telling me that she asJ.mother of one of
you.: The man coul5 not ta&e this7 but the la5y as 5oubtful7 as it as not her
mother. She as&e5 the training me5ium7 Betty7 for a5,ice7 an5 she as&e5 me to re8
phrase hat 2 ha5 sai5. 9 Can you un5erstan5 hy 2 sai5 it as a mother connection-:
;es7 she replie5. She tells me thatJ you 5i5 not &no her ,ery ell7 but you 5o thin&
about her. She gi,es you her lo,e7 an5 says &eep thin&ing about her7 she ill sen5 her
thoughts bac&.:
The recipient as ne to the Circle7 e ha5 4ust met7 but 2 as&e5 her later to confirm
the facts. She sai5 that Harriet as the name of her great8gran5mother7 ho ha5 5ie5
in an ornate brass8&nobbe5 be5 in her presence7 hen she as only se,en. She coul5
not remember much else. She ha5 passe5 ith pneumonia. She or&e5 in ser,ice for
part of her life. She ha5 mo,e5 to Somerset7 an5 ha5 lin&s ith #e,on an5 Cornall.
Ju5ging by accuracy 7 it seeme5 that either 2 ha5 been e!tremely luc&y7 or Spirit ha5
been behin5 this message an5 the ones 2 5eli,ere5 at Sansea. But 2 5i5 not ant to
be a me5ium7 an5 coul5 ne,er 5o itB Then7 Betty as&e5 me to 4oin her on pri,ate
close5 circle. 2 sai5 2 as honoure5 to be as&e57 but 2 lac& faith in 7 an5 it felt
unnatural for me. She sai5 the others ha5 agree5 2 oul5 suit them.
2 5eci5e5 to consult a local me5ium for gui5ance. 2 as&e5 her here 2 coul5 go ne!t
on my spiritual search7 an5 about my 5oubts concerning me5iumship an5 the
metho5s. She sai5 that she as sure that 2 as a healer by listening7 caring7 an5
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counselling those ho ere mentally 5on. She coul5 rea5 my aura. 3y strength as
lecturing on spiritual matters7 it*s hat 2*5 5o best. 2 as being use5 by Spirit for my
scientific approach7 to e!plain7 an5 gi,e cre5ibility7 to the Spiritualist 3o,ement. She
sai5 that my lin&s so far ha5 been genuine7 but 2 coul5 not alays rely on getting so
much. She sa a gui5e ith me7 he loo&e5 li&e a Jesuit priest. Her circle as ,ery
intereste5 in scientific e!planations of the spiritual7 as you are.
2 too& up the challenge of 4oining Betty*s circle. To my surprise7 e,ery ee& 2 ha5 my
lin&s accepte5. 2 felt ,ery compatible ith Cin5y7 ho felt easy about message gi,ing
an5 rea5 Tarot Car5s for clients7 but as <uite sceptical about the reality of it all in
hen she as not or&ing.
Soon after7 our me5ium Betty arrange5 for her circle members to sit pri,ately ith a
5e,eloping physical me5ium. The me5ium arri,e5 ith to la5ies7 ho sat ith him
hen he trance5 an5 pro5uce5 phenomena in the cabinet. This as a tubular frame
ith a fabric 5rape5 o,er it to co,er all si5es but the front. This as sai5 to hol5 an5
concentrate the ectoplasm7 sai5 to be a special material acting as a lin& beteen the
Spirit an5 an5 physical orl5s. Spirits are sai5 to be able to use this material to mo,e
ob4ects7 an5 pro5uce ,arious other paranormal effects. 2t is mostly supplie5 by
physical me5iums7 ho are ,ery rare in the population7 an5 a little from the sitters. 2t
is sai5 to be 5estroye5 by hite light7 hich is hy 5ar&ness or coloure5 light must be
use5.
The me5ium sat in the structure7 a 5im re5 light as turne5 on in the cabinet7 an5 the
room lights turne5 off. He ent in to the 5eep trance state7 then his face became
contorte57 his lips curle57 an5 a comman5ing ,oice spo&e out through him. This as
sai5 to be a gui5e name5 ?arl7 ho ha5 been a Prussian hile on $arth. He trie5 out
some e!periments ith us.
He sai57 96e are trying to change the energy in the room7 you ill notice it becoming
hotter or col5er.: 2 ha5 felt a coolness before this7 an5 others ha57 but 2 oul5 ha,e
brought a thermometer to chec& if 2 ha5 &non this oul5 be 5one.
He as&e5 us to sing to raise more energy7 an5 as&e5 for a ,olunteer7 ho as as&e5 to
sip a glass of ater . The ater as returne57 an5 the me5ium ma5e some hn5
mo,ements o,er it. He han5e5 it bac& for tasting again7 an5 the ,olunteer sai5 it left a
5ry taste in his mouth this time. This as repeate57 an5 it taste5 e,en 5rier this time7
accor5ing to the ,olunteer.
Ne!t7 a la5y in the circle as as&e5 to thin& of an aroma7 an5 those on the spirit si5e
oul5 pic& up the thought7 an5 try to sen5 out the aroma to us. The 9 instrument*s:
han5s ma5e some complicate5 mo,ements7 an5 to my surprise 2 sa hite7 misty7
lacy loo&ing stuff7 mo,ing about un5er the han5s. The la5y ha5 selecte5 coffee7 an5
ha5 smelle5 it7 but not all 5i5. This as repeate5 for a floery smell7 an5 a la5y
closest smelle5 a seet7 floery smell7 an5 2 thin& 2 5i5 also.
The final e!periment began ith ?arl saying he as going in to 5eeper trance7 an5
su55enly a la5y notice5 a bright glo aroun5 the me5ium*s nec&7 4ust belo the top
button. She e!cite5ly pointe5 this out7 an5 the gol5en glo mo,e5 abo,e his shirt top7
in a ban5 about one inch in 5epth7 all aroun5 his nec&. "fter a time7 the glo
subsi5e57 so that e coul5 see the me5ium*s normal appearance in the goo5 re5 light.
Then the glo built up again as before. " fe or5s ere spo&en hich coul5 not be
un5erstoo57 an5 our me5ium7 Betty7 e!claime5 that her hair su55enly felt et. The
,oice through the me5ium mumble5 something li&e 9use5 to touch your hair: an5
9seet toffees:. Betty7 our me5ium7 sai5 she un5erstoo5 this.
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The physical me5ium came bac& out of trance after the one an5 a half hours sitiing7
an5 claime5 he remembere5 nothing about hat ent on. 2t as not him7 he ha5 been
ta&en o,er. He as tol5 hat ha5 happene57 then opene5 up his shirt an5 4o&ingly sai5
to me7 9 There*s nothing insi5e7 no torches7 no batteriesB: Someone else sai57 9
;ou*re the scientist7 hat 5o you ma&e of that-: 7 in great glee. NothingB
The me5ium e!plaine5 that the aromas ere 9materialise5:7 using the hite stuff 2
ha5 seen7 hich as ectoplasm. The gloing as energy use5 by Spirit7 to help buil5
a 9,oicebo!: through hich Spirit coul5 spea& to the physical orl5. He as
5e,eloping at "rthur (in5lay College7 an5 ha5 ta&en part in ectoplasmic e!periments
before.
/f course7 2 analyse5 an5 re8analyse5 all that ha5 happene57 to see if frau5 or
5eception or natural occurrences coul5 account for e,ents7 but no. 2t as paranormal
as far as 2 coul5 tell. So far7 e,erything that 2 ha5 in,estigate5 ha5 shon that Spirit
coul5 ell be in,ol,e5. Ho coul5 it ha,e happene5 ithout Spirit- " goo5 <uestion.
"s the ee&s ent by7 the message8gi,ing continue57 surprisingly successfully. There
folloe5 one of the strange e!periences hich seem to happen hen one in,estigates
the psychic.
2n the night7 after one of the sittings7 2 o&e up in the early hours7 to see my ife at
the be5room in5o7 loo&ing out. 2 thought7 that*s o557 she normally sleeps li&e a
log. 2 ent bac& to sleep. 2n the morning7 she tol5 me that she ha5 ha5 a ,i,i5 5ream
hich o&e her up. She then sa 9lights: mo,ing aroun5 the in5o. They ere
gol5en or orange in colour7 an5 ere li&e a flashing torchlight7 or flic&ering flames.
She got out of be5 an5 loo&e5 out7 thin&ing the she5 coul5 be on fire or something
li&e that. There as nothing outsi5e to cause this effect7 but the 9lights: remaine5
roun5 the in5o. Then she sa a 9blac& shape: out of the corner of her eye7 a,ing
aroun5 abo,e the be5. She insiste5 she ha5 been i5e aa&e7 not 5reaming or
imagining. She 5isappro,e5 of anything psychic or spiritual7 so 2 belie,e5 her story.
2 as surprise5 she ha5 not o&en me up7 or been frightene5 by it7 bearing in min5
she thought that spirit acti,ity 9is of the #e,il:7 an5 this might ha,e been to 5o ith
Spirit. She ha5 only felt a little perturbe57 but ha5 atche5 it for a hile before
5rifting bac& to sleep.
The folloing e,ening7 my ife as&e5 me to 9ta&e the lights aay:. 2 sai5 that she
5i5n*t belie,e in the Spirit 6orl57 so hat as there for you to orry about. Hoe,er7
she insiste5 that 2 shoul5 9pray: to them because 2 5i5 belie,e in Spirit7 an5 she 5i5
not ant them in the house any more. 2 then agree57 although it as biHarre7 to be
tal&ing to lights7 as though they ere ali,e. 2 sai57 9 Than& you for coming. 6e
ac&nole5ge your presence7 but e as& you ith lo,e to go an5 not come bac&7
because my ife is 5isturbe5 by your presence7 an5 you ha,e ma5e your point. Than&
you. "men.:
2n July 19947 Cin5y an5 her husban5 ha5 to lea,e the close5 circle 9on hol5: because
her husban5 ha5 to or& e,enings no. To other members ere ill as ell an5 coul5
not atten57 an5 another man left. 2 5eci5e5 my atten5ance oul5 be 9on hol5: as ell7
until the circle built up again perhaps. 2 as rather relie,e57 not to ha,e to ma&e lin&s
any more. 2t as not for me. 2 ha5 5e,elope5 a goo5 frien5ship ith Cin5y by no7
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an5 she ha5 a big influence on my future. She ha5 gi,en me an interesting pri,ate
rea5ing ith Tarot car5s in June. 2 ha5 been impresse5 hen she or&e5 as a me5ium
at a spiritual get8together locally7 gi,ing messages at least as e,i5ential as those 2*5
hear5 from regular platform me5iums.
The Church ha5 organise5 a spiritual ee& at "rthur (in5lay College at Stanste5 on
No,ember 4th7 an5 2 5eci5e5 to go7 ith 3argaret7 a frien5 2 ha5 met in the /pen
Circle. 2t as a chance to learn e,en more7 hopefully in other areas. There ere many
interesting e!periences there.
Surprisingly7 2 felt a ,ery hea,y 5epression about the place7 but put it 5on to me
being a bit 5epresse5 an5 orrie5 about my marital relationship.
2 ha5 a rea5ing from 3ary #uffy7 ho ga,e me much interesting information7
inclu5ing that a la5y ith a name li&e San5y7 an unusual name7 as going to share a
great 5eal ith me7 ha,ing a lot in common. 2 hope5 that this referre5 to Cin5y.
Then there as a message gi,en to me by a stu5ent7 un&non to me7 ho ga,e me an
e,i5ential message hich inclu5e5 a pre5iction that 2 oul5 5i,orce7 an5 meet
someone else from the Church. 2 ha5 been strongly thin&ing of 5i,orce at that time7 as
2 as ,ery incompatible ith my ife.
2 met a group from 6ales7 an5 they in,ite5 me to sit ith them for a circle. /ne of
them tol5 me that she ha5 seen an5 &non ,ery 5efinite spirit forms7 an5 ha5 absolute
faith. 6hen e began the circle7 she sat on a be5 opposite me an5 she loo&e5 ra5iant
to me in a soft light. Then 2 sa a globe of light abo,e an5 aroun5 her hea5. This as
ne to me an5 it as intriguing. 2 ga,e a message to her frien57 hich appeare5 to
relate to a son she ha5 lost se,en months ago. This as sa5 an5 upsetting of course.
Then 2 ha5 a Chinese (ace rea5ing7 an5 as tol5 2 as an ol5 soul ho ha5 li,e5
many li,es before7 an5 ha5 a is5om bump7 hich meant lots of &nole5ge.
" me5ium too& a table tilting session7 but although it seeme5 to or& using a small
table7 it as not ,ery con,incing7 ith all han5s on an5 able to influence the limite5
mo,ement.
6hen 2 returne5 home7 my ife tol5 me that on the 5ay 2 left for Stanste57 there as
an aful 5epression in the house after 2 left. #uring the ne!t night7 she o&e up7 an5
9felt: someone pull bac& the 5u,et co,er7 gi,e a sigh7 an5 get in to be5 behin5 her.
She as petrifie5 by this7 an5 as afrai5 to turn roun5. She felt li&e lea,ing the house7
an5 selling up.
2 5i5 not &no hat the Spirit 6orl5 ante5 me to 5o ne!t7 or here my search
oul5 lea5. 2 ha5 been tol5 se,eral times 2 coul5 5o healing7 but 2 5i5 not &no ho
to go about it7 or hether 2 coul5 5o it anyay. Physical me5iumship as ,ery
attracti,e also. 2 ha5 seen table tilts7 an5 the physical me5ium 5emonstration. 2t as
almost li&e starting again. 3any lessons ha5 been learne5.
"s it happene57 the ne!t Church #iscussion meeting as on the sub4ect of 9Bac& to
Basics:. 2 thought this as ,ery appropriateB
Chapter '1 Bac& to Basics
The Church #iscussion 3eeting as le5 by Tom7 a Church Committee member an5
healer. He ha5 also ta&en the training course at the "rthur (in5lay College7 an5 Bac&
to Basics ha5 been one of the lecture sub4ects. The atten5ees ere myself7 "u5rey
from $sse! ho as staying in the area7 an5 3oya an5 >ouise7 mother an5 5aughter.
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Tom ent through the history an5 basics of Spiritualism7 because 3oya an5 >ouise
ere ,ery ne to Spiritualism an5 &ne little about it.
2n the 5iscussion7 e tal&e5 about the <uality of me5iums. "u5rey7 ho &ne a lot
about Spiritualism7 remar&e5 ho brilliant a me5ium name5 Joe Ben4amin ha5 been
hen she sa him 5emonstrate at the "lliance Hall in >on5on. He ha5 gi,en out
names an5 a55resses an5 other har5 e,i5ence. 2 ha5 ne,er hear5 of him7 but7
coinci5entally7 3ary #uffy in a rea5ing ha5 tol5 me that Joe Ben4amin as ith me7
helping me from Spirit.
3oya sai5 she sees7 ith her eyes open7 a Ee5 2n5ian in front of her7 an5 they 9tal&:
to each other. She also sees an $gyptian7 an5 a me5icine man. She has 9left her bo5y:
an5 gone to another place she can 5escribe. She ha5 not rea5 boo&s about Spirit7 or
been influence5 by pre,ious &nole5ge of Spirit7 as far as 2 coul5 fin5 out by
<uestions. 2 felt ,ery e!cite5 to meet 3oya7 because she seeme5 to perhaps ha,e goo5
personal contact ith gui5es an5 helpers.
2 sai5 to 3oya that she as ,ery fortunate to ha,e this natural ability. Tom sai5 that
she shoul5 &eep her feet on the groun57 it is ,ery 5ifficult to 5e,elop these 5ays as fe
me5iums are a,ailable7 but perhaps 4oin the /pen Circle.
2 tol5 her ho poerful a circle is7 hich she &ne nothing about7 an5 sai5 2*5 lo,e to
hear more about her aareness7 an5 tell you about my pathay.
Ne!t morning 2 o&e up ,ery early7 ith thoughts an5 hopes for a me5itation circle
ith 3oya7 an5 her husban57 ho she ha5 tol5 me as fully supporti,e. Coul5 it be-
3e5itation 5oes not nee5 an e!perience5 me5ium to lea5 it7 an5 my pre,ious
me5itations ha5 been interesting an5 brought a 5ifferent aareness. 2 ha5 felt ,ery
compatible ith 3oya7 an5 she sai5 she as searching as ell. 2 felt li&e going for it7
but it as a big test. 6as it outsi5e of my capabilities- 6hat if Spirit came in an5
4oine5 us- Coul5 2 control things- 2 as not a me5ium an5 oul5 not see or hear
Spirits. 2 later consulte5 Cin5y an5 others for their opinions. They supporte5 me7
although one sai5 hat oul5 you 5o if she trance5-

6hen e met in the Church again 7 her husban5 as ith her7 an5 2 sat by them. 2
as gi,en a message7 part of hich tol5 me 2 as inhibite57 they ere not please5 2
as hol5ing bac&7 an5 2 shoul5 unfol5 as a free spirit. ;ou &no hat you shoul5 be
5oing7 but you*re not 5oing itB
2 li&e5 them both7 an5 on5ere5 if this message as a 9pro5: from Spirit. 2 suggeste5
that e meet to 5iscuss things. The ne!t Tues5ay e met7 an5 it as agree5 to ha,e a
me5itation circle7 4ust the three of us. 3oya sai5 that her gui5e ha5 tol5 her to 5e,elop
an5 be patient. Her father ha5 tal&e5 to her after his 5eath. Her mother ha5 5ie5 ten
ee&s ago7 an5 she ha5 seen an5 spo&en to her. Her mother ha5 sai5 listen to your
gui5e7 5o that hich ill ma&e you happy.
They insiste5 that 2 tell them ho 2 thought e shoul5 procee5. 2 as reluctant7 but 2
sai5 play a gui5e5 tape7 in their house7 must be un5isturbe57 prayers for protection7
some philosophy. Spirit might come in7 e 5on*t &no. 3oya sai5 she oul5 li&e to
5o it7 an5 her husban5 sai57 9 >et*s gi,e it a crac&B: Ne!t Tues5ay as arrange5.

Ne!t 5ay72 o&e up early again7 ith my hea5 full of thoughts about the me5itation
circle. Eules7 ho it shoul5 be run7 prayers7 an5 the tape. 2 type5 it up rea5y for our
first circle7 an5 trie5 out the ,isualisation tape7 Crystal Castle. 2 folloe5 the 4ourney7
but then 2 felt an intense tic&ly feeling an5 itching all o,er my face an5 forehea57 an5
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it mo,es aroun5. 2 ha5 ne,er e!perience5 anything li&e this. 6as it an encouragement7
as it Spirit 5raing near to me- 6as it a hint about a physical circle7 or ectoplasm-
6e thought that Spirit might be present hen e me5itate57 but e oul5 ha,e an
open min5.
2 rang my mentor Cin5y7 about the itchy feelings 5uring the me5itation. She sai5 it
happens to her7 Spirit is 5raing near7 to let you &no it*s / ?. She also gets a mass7
ith her eyes open7 ith lights an5 colours in it7 hen she me5itates. ;ou cannot limit
Spirit7 they ha,e been aiting a long time7 they ill 5eci5e hat happens. ;ou can 5o
it7 she is en,ious7 Spirit ill not gi,e you anything you cannot han5le.
2 sai5 that 2 ha5 misse5 her since e left the circle. 2 ishe5 she as ith us helping7
but she preferre5 me5itating on her on. She sai5 she oul5 li&e to7 as she too& to
3oya hen they met7 but the gui5e of 3oya may say no. 6hen you are un5eray7 2
oul5 li&e to be &ept informe5.
2 ha5 been taught that e,erything spiritual begins ith me5itation7 an5 it ha5 alays
been use5 in religions to gain a 5ifferent aareness. 2 ha5 5one ,ery little me5itaion
so far7 but ha5 rushe5 in to 5e,elopment using it as a sort of si5eline.
/ur me5itations then starte5. 3oya an5 her husban5 Phil agree5 ith my 9Eules:. 2
opene5 in prayer7 an5 too& us through a personal protection routine. The ,isualisation
tape as playe57 as 2 atche5 them sitting <uietly. 2t as their first e,er me5itation as
a group. "fter the tape finishe57 2 as&e5 them to stay in me5itation until 2 as&e5 them
to come bac& ten minutes later. 2 then as&e5 them ho they ha5 folloe5 the 4ourney7
an5 if anything ha5 come to them 5uring the ten minutes afterar5s. 3oya ha5
folloe5 it ,ery ell7 an5 ha5 some impressions after7 hich e tal&e5 about. Phil
partly ,isualise5 the 4ourney. 6e then tal&e5 about our feelings about it7 hich is
ob,iously pri,ate an5 personal.
Prospects seeme5 e!citing. 2 ha5 felt ,ery rela!e57 in a calm7 peaceful7 lo,ing state of
min5. There as a lo,ely atmosphere. 2 ha5 felt my right ear tingle7 go col57 an5 feel
95ea5:7 then there as a tic&ly feeling all o,er my face7 as though something as
craling aroun5. 2 on5ere5 if this as my un&non spirit gui5e coming close to
help me7 hether it as cause5 by a Dni,ersal energy 2 ha5 rea5 about7 or 4ust my
ner,ous system reacting to e,ents.
2 also on5ere5 ho these sensations relate5 to those e!perience5 5uring spiritual
healing.
"nyone can me5itate7 psychic or not. "nyone can me5iate ith others. But it is ,ery
basic to 5e,elopment7 if that is your choice. /ur me5itations continue5 e,ery ee&7
an5 3oya an5 Phil became goo5 frien5s. 6e got to &no each other ell an5
confi5e5 in each other on a personal le,el. 6e felt that trust hich means that
anything coul5 be 5iscusse5.
Cin5y as also a confi5ant7 an5 e ha5 long telephone con,ersations about spiritual
an5 personal matters. She <uestione5 e,erything about Spiritualism7 an5 often as
,ery sceptical7 but she ha5 many personal e!periences hich she coul5 not e!plain.
She as annoye5 that she coul5 not get ansers to her many <uestions. 2n fact7 she
as rather li&e me in outloo&. She ha5 alrea5y gi,en me a ,ery goo5 Tarot rea5ing7
but 2 as&e5 her for another rea5ing.
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"gain7 it as ,ery interesting7 ith sur,i,al e,i5ence7 but Cin5y ha5 as&e5 Spirit for
something 5ifferent an5 special this time7 as she no &ne me ,ery ell7 an5 2
nee5e5 e,i5ence of Sur,i,al un&non to her. Part of her rea5ing ent1
% & a# 'i(en a boo)" Cold Co#fort *ar#" &f !o+ read it" !o+ ,ill find so#ethin'
(er! rele(ant to !o+r life in it$-
2 5eci5e5 this as orth researching. 2 ha5 not hear5 of the boo&7 an5 neither ha5
Cin5y7 hose honesty 2 truste5. This phrase seeme5 to trigger off a string of ,ery
strange coinci5ences7 or as Spirit behin5 it- "gain7 the ambiguity hich is often
foun5 in the psychic.
2 foun5 that there as a boo& of that name7 by Stella Gibbons. 2t as publishe5 in
19)%7 an5 as 5escribe5 as the comic classic of rural life. 6hen 2 bought a copy an5
rea5 it through7 on page %. there as a section of a paragraph hich seeme5 out of
conte!t ith the theme of the boo&7 hich ha5 nothing to 5o ith the psychic.
% .erhaps *lora ,o+ld not #ind +sin' the lar'e atti" ,hih ,as no, +sed as a
#eetin'/roo# for the 0rient/Star/in/the/ 1est Soiet! on T+esda!s" and for the
Spiritist &n(esti'ator2s 3ea'+e on *rida!s$ She hoped that *lora ,as not a
sceptic, for #anifestations so#eti#es o+rred in the atti" and e(en a trae of
septiis# in the at#osphere of the roo# spoiled the onditions" and pre(ented
pheno#ena" the obser(ations of ,hih pro(ided the Soiet! ,ith s+h (al+able
e(idene in fa(o+r of S+r(i(al$-
I was a sceptic, I was an investigator in to #pirit, and I was sitting in circle on Friday
evenings at the time. I was thinking of getting involved in physical mediumship.
This really ma5e me thin&. "ssume that Cin5y ha5 ne,er hear5 of7 or rea57 the boo&
Col5 Comfort (arm7 an5 assume that she 4ust happene5 to in,ent the boo& title hich
actually happene5 to e!ist. The ne!t coinci5ence as the passage hich clearly stoo5
out as special for me. So7 an imagine5 boo&7 an5 a luc&y significance7 for my
e,i5ence of Sur,i,al. There as more to come.
" little later7 Cin5y selecte5 some no,els at ran5om at the >ibrary7 an5 foun57 to her
astonishment7 that one of them as about a tele,ision company hich ent to the
6est Country to filmJ LCol5 Comfort (arm* .
2t further so happene5 that hen Cin5y an5 her husban5 ,isite5 me on Ne ;ear*s
#ay7 a T.I. film of Col5 Comfort (arm as screene5.
To years later my 5i,orce as complete57 an5 2 tol5 the story to my ne ife. /h7
she sai57 the pro5ucer of that TI film as a schoolfrien57 "lison Gilbey7 an5 she
actually rote to me to tell me it as on7 beforehan5.
>ater7 e 4ust happene5 to bump in to "lison Gilbey in Tescos7 hen she as ,isiting
Sin5on.
6hat as behin5 all this- Pure coinci5ence- Synchronicity- Psychic precognition-
/r coul5 it really ha,e been people in the Spirit 6orl57 impressing Cin5y to spea& the
message7 hich meant nothing to her- They &ne that 2 oul5 rea5 the boo&7 hich
they ha5 pre8selecte5 because of the phrase hich ma5e me thin&. They can see a
little ahea5 at times7 an5 &ne they coul5 impress Cin5y to select the boo& at the
>ibrary7 that the boo& as going to be filme5 for TI7 an5 that 2 oul5 meet an5 marry
Joanna7 a frien5 of the pro5ucer.
6hich is the most li&ely e!planation- 2t as still ambiguous7 as precognition is har5
to accept7 but e,en if later e,ents ere coinci5ental7 that 5oes not e!plain hy Cin5y
ga,e me the boo& title7 in the conte!t of trying to pro,e Sur,i,al to me ,ia a rea5ing7
an5 the topic of Sur,i,al as in the boo&.
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2 felt that someho 2 as 5estine5 to help an5 support Cin5y7 she oul5 help me in
return7 an5 e oul5 alays be frien5s. 2 tol5 a fe selecte5 colleagues ho goo5
an5 accurate Cin5y as ith rea5ings7 an5 since then at least ten people ha,e ha5
rea5ings ith her7 that please5 them7 as far as 2 coul5 tell.
The group me5itations continue57 until one ee& 3oya became concerne5 that Phil
might be going in to trance. He ha5 breathe5 hea,ily 7 an5 seeme5 to fall asleep.
3oya ha5 opene5 her eyes7 an5 gently pro55e5 him to a&e him up. She as
concerne5 that Spirit ere trying him out for trance7 an5 5oubte5 our competence to
5eal ith it. Halfay through the tape7 2 ha5 felt strong tingles on my scalp7 my hair
seeme5 to rise7 then later my forehea57 then my face all o,er si5e to si5e7 became ,ery
tic&ly an5 itchy.
3oya sai5 she ante5 to sample all the e!periences a,ailable in Spiritualism7
compare e!periences ith others7 an5 fin5 out hat it as li&e to be in a Circle.
2 offere5 to go ith them to the Church /pen Circle7 to see if they li&e5 it. "lthough
they ere necomers7 an5 ha5 ne,er ma5e lin&s before7 Betty ma5e them 5o lin&s7
an5 both succee5e5 in placing communicators to Betty*s satisfaction.
The folloing ee&7 hen 2 rang Cin5y about Tarot rea5ings7 she seeme5 negati,e
an5 fe5 up7 5i5n*t feel li&e going to Church any more7 an5 nobo5y li&es her. . 2 trie5 to
cheer her up 2 &ne that she suffere5 from agrophobia7 an5 minor 5epressions
occasionally. 2 remin5e5 her of all those in the Church ho thought a lot of her7
inclu5ing me. She sai5 that she ha5n*t misse5 being in a circle at first7 but lately she
ha5 thought it as the right time to start again. "s she sai5 this7 she felt hot an5 tingly7
an5 sai5 that she oul5 li&e to ha,e a 9spiritual e,ening group: at her house. She
as&e5 me if 2 oul5 as& 3oya an5 Phil to 4oin7 an5 she oul5 in,ite some others as
ell. 6e oul5 meet on Tues5ays.
3oya an5 Phil accepte5 ith no reser,ations7 but sai5 she oul5 li&e to continue the
me5itations on (ri5ays as ell.
" fe 5ays later7 Cin5y rang me saying that she as 5issatisfie5 ith a Tarot rea5ing
she ha5 gi,en to a client 2 ha5 recommen5e5 to her. She sai5 she ha5 a 5rea5ful
hea5ache on one temple7 she thought roote5 in the nec&7 an5 it as 5ri,ing her ma5. 2t
ha5 been present all the pre,ious 5ay7 she ha5 not slept7 an5 she ha5 to more
rea5ings to 5o that e,ening.
2 promise5 to sen5 out healing thoughts7 hich please5 her. "t home at '.)0 pm7 2
began to me5itate to music7 an5 focusse5 all my thoughts on Cin5y. 2 as&e5 my gui5es
to help7 an5 opene5 myself up as a channel for them7 ith a prayer. 2 felt a 5eep lo,e7
ten5er caring feelings7 place5 a circle ith pin& light aroun5 her7 an5 no pain as to
be felt. 3a&e her happy an5 functioning for Spirit please.
Before se,en7 2 felt a poer7 ha5 tingles7 an5 felt ,ery emotional. "t 11 pm7 2 sent out
healing thoughts 5uring my me5itation to heal Cin5y7 an5 to sleep ell in peace.
Ne!t 5ay7 the client tol5 me at or& that she as ,ery satisfie5 ith Cin5y*s rea5ing7
although 5isappointe5 that her husban5 ha5 not come through. 2 rang Cin5y to tell her
this7 but she shoc&e5 an5 please5 me by saying that at '..0 pm yester5ay7 her
hea5ache 5isappeare5 completely7 in a flashB She sai5 she &ne it as 5ue to my
healing thoughts. The relief persiste57 she 5i5 goo5 rea5ings7 it floe5 an5 she as
happy. She then felt arm an5 goo57 an5 slept ,ery ell. Cin5y as full of praise for
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me7 but 2 felt humble about it7 it coul5n*t ha,e been me7 there asn*t a mechanism for
it. "part from Spiritualist theory7 that it as from Spirit7 through Spirit @mineA to
Spirit7 other possibilities inclu5e5 coinci5ence7 healing by faith as she &ne 2 as
sen5ing thoughts7 or 5irect healing from the Spirit 6orl5 encourage5 by my thoughts.
2 ha5 no ay of &noing the anser7 but the result as goo5.
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#ecember 19947 e ha5 the first circle in Cin5y*s house. She sai5 there oul5
be no lea5er7 e shoul5 en4oy it7 see hat happene57 by inspiration only. The other
sitters7 inclu5ing 3oya7 ere thought of as psychics. There ere some messages
gi,en7 a 9trance: by one of us7 an5 some healing as carrie5 out7 hich 2 en4oye5.
Cin5y thought that the thought as the 5ee5 in healing7 so she 5i5 not ta&e part.
"lthough 2 ha5 helpe5 to bring us all together7 2 5i5 not feel that 2 ha5 much to offer7 2
as li&e an obser,er really.
2 ha5 a similar feeling later hen e all ent to a cottage7 /a& House7 in "l5bourne7
to 5o 9ghost8 busting:. " ghostly mon& as repute5 to li,e in a particular room7 but
hen 2 entere5 it ith the others 2 5i5 not feel right about it7 as they claime5 to sense
his presence7 hear5 his name Eo5eric& or Bro5eric&7 an5 hear5 him 9hissing 9 in a
cubby8hole. 2 felt an5 hear5 nothing at all. /ne of us sai5 he 5i5 not li&e omen7 but
as alright ith men. They sat on a leather chair7 an5 sai5 they felt it mo,ing about.
Not for me it 5i5n*t. They all hel5 han5s an5 insiste5 2 4oine5 them7 then one of us
tol5 the mon& that he coul5 go7he as release57 an5 no longer ha5 to guar5 the &ey.
2 sense5 nothing7 an5 felt li&e gi,ing up the circle an5 trying something else. This
as psychic stuff 2 coul5 not relate to. 2 sai5 2 5i5 not e!pect to get anything7 it as
not my thing7 but 2 as criticise5 for being negati,e. 2 confi5e5 in Phil that 2 as
lea,ing the Tues5ay circle7 as they ere all psychics7 an5 2 5i5 not fit any more7 my
4ob as 5one. Phil must ha,e gone straight to 3oya7 for she came storming up to me
an5 sai5 5on*t you 5are lea,e7 e oul5n*t be here ithout you7 you starte5 it off.
"s 2 e!plaine5 ho 2 felt7 Cin5y came storming in as ell7 an5 there as a 5ramatic
confrontation ith the others atching. 9 6hat*s all this- 2f you lea,e7 2*m going to
pac& it in as ell. ;ou 5o a lot7 the times you*,e pic&e5 me up hen 2*,e been lo7
you gi,e lo,e to the circle7 you*re the hub on hich all 5epen5. ;ou on*t accept this
because you ere not lo,e5 hen you ere young7 you 5o not recognise your true
orth7 you ha,e lo self8esteem.:
2 listene5 in stunne5 silence7 but not strangely not offen5e5 by this rather public
character rea5ing. "nother la5y sai5 that 2 gi,e a lot of lo,e to the circle7 she feels it
strongly7 2 must not lea,e7 you can*t ha,e e,eryone going off ith the fairiesB
Soon after7 3oya in,ite5 to ne people7 Jac&ie an5 Barry7 to the (ri5ay me5itation
group7 hich 2 as not in fa,our of. 2t oul5 change the atmosphere7 hich ha5 been
peaceful7 in the home here 2 ha5 starte5 5oing some healing7 ith the personal
frien5ship. Hoe,er7 3oya ante5 it7 to mo,e on7 hich as fair enough.
The Tues5ay circle at Cin5y*s as reforme5 for the 10
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January 199. meeting7 an5 2
heale5 (re57 ho ha5 aching shoul5er muscles. 2 praye5 to Spirit to use me as a
channel for healing7 2 place5 my han5s on his shoul5ers7 an5 concentrate5 my
thoughts. >ater7 (re5 sai5 that he ha5 felt a armth7 an5 his shoul5er as no easier.
He sai5 to me7 92t loo&s li&e you*,e foun5 hat you*re goo5 at:. 3oya also tol5 me
that my healing ha5 ma5e her bac& feel better.
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This fee5bac& as encouraging. 2 ha5 recei,e5 se,eral messages from me5iums by
no7 saying 2 coul5 5o healing7 an5 2 as feeling an effect hich ga,e me confi5ence.
2 as not con,ince57 hoe,er7 that the source of the healing as from Spirit. There
as not enough e,i5ence. 6hat if there is a Dni,ersal energy hich anyone can tap in
to if caringMlo,ingM emotional enough- "nother goo5 <uestion.
Chapter+1 (ace changes
3y spiritual 4ourney as shoing that you 5on*t ha,e to be a psychic to en4oy contact
ith the Spirit 6orl5. ;ou can obser,e7 bring together7 5ocument7 support7 try it out.
$,en if you 5eci5e there is no Spirit 6orl57 then there are still interesting feelings
an5 e!periences as you search7 hich cannot be e!plaine5 by ortho5o! science7 such
as the table tilt7 healing sensations7 an5 many others 2 ha5 rea5 about.
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>ater in January 199.7 a colleague came to my office for a chat about my latest
psychic in,estigations7 hich intereste5 him. "s 2 spo&e7 he loo&e5 at me intently. He
sai57 9 ;ou probably notice5 that 2 as not listening 4ust then7 but coul5 2 as& you
about your aura7 5o you &no it*s main colour:- 2 sai5 that three me5iums ha,e tol5
me that it is green7 but 2 5i5n*t &no. "t this7 he sai5 9 /h7 it*s amaHing7 2 can*t
belie,e this7 your face7 hea57 an5 chin are green7 not your aura outsi5e7 but your actual
face. 2t*s still there7 the green colour7 it*s not the light7 2 &no hat 2 can see.:
Graham ha5 no contact ith Spiritualism e!cept hat 2*5 tal&e5 about sometimes7
as 5on8to8earth7 an5 a non8belie,er in Spirit. He as rather afrai5 of hat he*5
seen7 as 9gobsmac&e5:7 an5 as an!ious to lea,e the room. He 5i5 as& me hat 2
thought about it. 2 sai57 9 Spirit are sai5 to 5o all sorts of things to sho their
presence7 to people ho are intereste5. 2t may be their ay of gi,ing you a sign7 it can
happen7 you may not be rea5y yet but you ill not forget this:.
2 thought to myself7 is this another 5oor opening for me- Cin5y ha5 once seen my
face an5 @clothe5A bo5y change in to an 2n5ian bra,e7 an5 a Chinese8loo&ing man.
6ere these all signals that face or appearance changes on me7 to be seen by others7
oul5 be another stage in my learning process- 2 remembere5 that Shirley Tonsen5
ha5 seen my face change to that of my father as ell7 at the en5 of her rea5ing of me.
2 felt that 2 ha5 ha5 enough messages by no7 there as nothing further to con,ince
me one ay or the other.
"t a later Tues5ay circle7 Cin5y came to me7 an5 tol5 me that she sa me as an ol5
man7 my ears ha5 change57 2 as taller an5 slimmer. She ent on at length to say that
this man as trouble57 an5 she sa a noose7 an5 he hung himself. 2 as as&e5 to sen5
out thoughts to help him. /ther e,i5ence as gi,en hich 2 un5erstoo5 . This seeme5
to be a continuation of the face8changing theme. " hanging suici5e fitte5 my great
gran5father7 but 2 &ne little about him.
The ne!t me5itation at 3oya*s folloe5 the tren5. 6e me5itate5 in sub5ue5 light7
ith a toel o,er a single table8lamp. "fter a hile7 ith my min5 almost a blan& an5
rela!e57 2 opene5 my eyes an5 loo&e5 continuously at 3oya. Her hea5 ent out of
focus7 her face seeme5 a bit 5ifferent7 then 2 sa purple colours puff up abo,e her
hea5. 6hen 2 loo&e5 at the others in the same ay7 2 sa nothing unusual. Ne!t7 2 sa
a light 9halo: or silhouette aroun5 her hea57 she seeme5 to stretch then shorten7 then
her bo5y as a blac& blob7 then she ha5 a hea5 of ,ery blac& hair. Ne!t her face
appeare5 to be /riental7 perhaps Chinese7 sharper7 bron. " Ee5 2n5ian face also
might ha,e been seen7 not sure. 2f you loo&e5 aay7 or blin&e57 the changes
5isappeare5 until you loo&e5 har5 again7 hich in5icate5 that it as a peculiarity of
your eyesight. So then7 hy 5i5 it not happen ith the other circle members-
"fterar5s7 3oya as o,erhelme5. She ha5 seen a hea55ress come ,ery close7 an5
he sai5 that he oul5 help her. She ha5 ha5 lo,ely ,isions of light7 up to the ceiling.
She ha5 seen a blac& man as ell7 for the first time7 an5 a hite horse an5 blan&et7
hich Jac&ie claime5 to ha,e seen clair,oyantly. 6as this a &in5 of 9transfiguration:-
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th
7 the me5itation at 3oya*s as atten5e5 by 3oya7 Phil7 Jac&ie7 an5
myself. 6e listene5 to the tape5 music as before7 an5 hen 2 opene5 my eyes 3oya
loo&e5 normal. Hoe,er7 a fe minutes later7 ith i5e8open eyes7 2 sa her face
blur7 change shape7 then a glo of light sprea5 out roun5 her chair. 2 then sa her face
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change to that of a much ol5er oman7 but ith similar features. 2 began to feel facial
tingles. Soon after7 3oya place5 her han5s in front of her7 palms up7 slightly apart.
She seeme5 to be 9out of it:. Her face began to change to my perception7 longer an5
thinner7 then completely blac&7 then there as a yelloy an5 maroon bac&groun57 an5
other colours. 2t loo&e5 beautiful. 2t as li&e a 5ream.
>ater7 3oya sai5 that in the me5itation she ha5 seen her mother 7 a lot of light7 Ee5
2n5ians7 a blac& la5y7 an5 an angel. "lso an 2n5ian bra,e7 one feather7 prou5 in to
battle to be &ille5. She then sai5 that she ha5 seen my face change. 6as 2 li&e my
father7 his nose i5er than mine- 2 sai5 yes. She then ga,e me a message7 about my
mother an5 father.
6e met again at Cin5y*s circle on 14
th
(ebruary7 an5 2 atche5 Cin5y 5uring the
me5itation. Her face blurre57 an5 mo,e5 aroun5. Her face then seeme5 narroer7 but
ith thic&er lips7 i5er eyes7 but smaller. 2t loo&e5 pretty7 an5 9royal: perhaps7
imagination- The message gi,ing continue5 ith the others.
"t the ne!t meeting ith 3oya7 2 sa face changes on her again. Her face obble5
about7 an5 the light in the room seeme5 to change7 5ar&er. Su55enly7 3oya Ls face
became ,ery animate5 an5 e!pressi,e7 as she tol5 us my face as changing7 my ears
ha5 5isappeare57 2 as changing shape7 an5 2 as groing taller7 then smaller. The
others also sa changes .
3oya then sai5 that my face as e!actly li&e that of her father7 a clear li&eness7 the
first time she*5 seen anything li&e it7 as it o,ersha5oing- 2 felt strong tingles all
o,er my hea57 an5 emotions7 but hen 2 as as&e5 to spea& to 9her father: 2 coul5
not.
/n %%
n5
(ebruary7 2 sat opposite 3oya again in the me5itation7 an5 this as hat 2
sa. (ace change. >ight aroun5 chair. "n ol5er la5y. Blac& face an5 blac& hair. >a5y
ith a ,ery hite7 pale face. " pin&y8re5 coloure5 face. Gol5en orange bac&groun57
then yello7 then purple.
3oya sai5 afterar5s that she ha5 seen a beautiful Ee5 2n5ian la5y7 an5 she loo&e5 at
a beautiful gol5en coloure5 rose.
Jac&ie then 9trance5:7 sai5 a fe or5s7 an5 later her face change5. Phil sai5 it loo&e5
li&e 3oya*s mother.
3oya*s sisters7 >ana an5 Tishy7 ere in,ite5 to sit either si5e of 3oya at the ne!t
me5itation. 3oya*s face change5 as usual. Tishy*s face 5i5 not. >ana*s face
completely change57 an5 3oya as a bit orrie5 that she as going in to trance.
Phil*s face 5i5 not change.
6hate,er the face changes meant7 it coul5 not be seen ho to ta&e it further. The
other circle members began to 5isli&e my analytical7 scientific attitu5e. Cin5y sai5 e
ill ne,er un5erstan5 it7 it ill 5ri,e you ma57 it goes roun5 an5 roun5. 3oya sai5
she 5i5 not ant to analyse7 but accept hat as gi,en.
2 as healing 3oya an5 Cin5y at times7 an5 e ent to a Sheila an5 Phil Scott /pen
Circle. 6e me5itate5 there7 an5 ha5 to share our thoughts after. 2 ha5 heale5 Cin5y in
my thoughts7 as she felt unell7 an5 she sai5 she ha5 felt it strongly7 an5 as feeling
better no. 6e continue5 healing at the ne!t circle7 an5 Cin5y sai5 she felt lots of heat
an5 poer from me. The face changes continue5 in the me5itations.
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2 then applie5 to train as a healer in another Sin5on Church. 2 ha5 recently 4oine57
an5 a position as trainee became a,ailable. 2 ha5 trie5 it out ith some effect in the
circles an5 in 5istant healing for Cin5y7 after recei,ing messages 2 coul5 5o it.
Presumably there ere gui5es rea5y an5 aiting7 2 thought.
3y healing training at Somerset Eoa5 began on 14
th
"pril 199.. 2n 3ay 7 2 felt li&e
,isiting my sister Syl,ia in 6areham7 an5 she an5 her son Tim as&e5 me to tell them
about my spiritual e!periences. Syl,ia ha5 a sollen leg an5 a ba5 shoul5er. 2 sai5 2
as a trainee healer7 an5 offere5 to heal it. 2 5i5 so7 an5 as it happene5 she later got
,ery in,ol,e5 in Spiritualism.
#uring this perio57 2 as trying to interest 3oya an5 Phil in physical me5iumship. "
message a year ago ha5 tol5 me a Canon @ ho 2 might ha,e &nonA as ith me7
an5 he oul5 li&e to pro,e life after 5eath from the other si5e of life. He as saying
that 2 as intereste5 in physical me5iumship7 but as not <uite sure if it as the right
thing to 5o. This as true7 an5 in fact 2 ha5 that 5ay rea5 a copy of the Noah*s "r&
Society magaHine7 hich as 5e,ote5 to the safe practice of physical me5iumship.
2 ha5 4oine5 the Noah*s "r& Society7 but as thin&ing about ta&ing it further. 6e
loo&e5 at a N"S boo&let. There ere only us three7 an5 e 5iscusse5 here e ere
going. 6hat ere e sitting for- 3ental or physical- Healing7 philosophy7
clair,oyance7 o,ersha5oing- There as no recognise5 me5ium a,ailable to help us
further. 3oya7 supporte5 by Phil7 as all for going ithin7 hile 2 as still intereste5
in scientific e!planations an5 physical phenomena hich as ob4ecti,e. 3oya ha5
been tol5 in me5itation that something not in the boo&s oul5 happen7 an5 she oul5
see her mother an5 father. 2 too& that to be a materialisation from ectoplasm7 an5 e
might see that if e got in,ol,e5 in physical me5iumship.
6e trie5 sitting in blac& clothes7 an5 in blue light. /ur faces change5 as before7 but
nothing ne happene5.
/n =
th
June7 2 sa an a5 in the N"S magaHine to sit in a physical circle. /n impulse7 2
rang her7 an5 e met. She agree5 to 4oin us if e 5esire5 it.
3oya thought it all out7 an5 5eci5e5 that she ante5 three more sitters e ha5 met to
4oin us7 if they agree5 to sit for physical7 no 5ogma7 =pm to 9.)0. 2 as sorry that e
ha5 bro&en up our me5itation circle7 hich ha5 been so intimate an5 close7 since last
/ctober. 2t as my on fault7 2 ha5 instigate5 it.
6e starte5 the ne circle ith a Co5e of Con5uct7 the N"S ay of 5oing things.
Nothing ne happene5 the first time. 6e all ent to the S"GB to for a seminar on 1
st

July. " physical me5ium lecture5 about physical me5iumship. >ater7 he gesture5 to
3oya to trance7 she settle5 5on7 an5 soon ga,e her name as 6hite (eather. Her arms
ent up7 an5 she plea5e5 for lo,e an5 harmony. 2t as <uite emotional7 then the
me5ium sai5 there ere connections ith the 6hite Brotherhoo57 ?night*s Templar7
Conan #oyle. >ater7 3oya sai5 that hen he ha5 as&e5 her7 a great heat came from
abo,e7 her stomach as pulle5 about7 an5 her han5s tingle5 li&e ma5. 6hoosh7
se,eral ere there7 trying to get in. 2t as har5 sorting them out.
Healing continue5 at the Church an5 in the circles7 an5 there alays seeme5 to be
some effect on the patients. 2 began the SND course for healers C1+7 hich 2
e,entually passe5. 6e then left Cin5y*s Tues5ay circle7 because 3oya an5 the others
)4
5i5 not ant to sit in to 5ifferent circles e,ery ee&. 2 as sorry to lea,e Cin5y an5
(re57 but 2 hope5 e oul5 still be frien5s.
Trance as attempte5 in the first physical circle7 but came to nothing.
"t the ne!t circle7 3oya seeme5 on the e5ge of trancing an5 spea&ing7 an5 2
encourage5 an5 elcome5 the communicator7 but 3oya resiste5 it an5 came bac& to
us. >ynne then became 9trancey:7 an5 3oya encourage5 her to spea&. >ynne tal&e5 in
a rather serous clippe5 ,oice. 9 The irle '+ide is (er! pleased ,ith !o+r pro'ress"
there are so#e bri'ht so+ls a#on' !o+$ & died in a stor#$ There ,ill be #an!
stor#s and atastrophies$ The! are still #a)in' the sa#e #ista)es$-
Carol then became 9trancey:7 her arms began to titch7 but she as not rea5y yet.
Some healing folloe5 before the circle en5e5.
"fter e 5i5 healing in the Church one e,ening7 Syl,ia tol5 me that she as sure a
Japanese gui5e as ith me7 he li,e5 a long time ago7 small7 nice bron eyes7 not a
5octor but in to herbs an5 natural reme5ies. 2 ha5 no i5ea myself.
/n the %.
th
July7 Peter 3organ from the 3el&sham Church came to the 5iscussion
group to 5emonstrate trance. "n 2rish scientist spo&e through him7 an5 as&e5 for
<uestions.
2 as&e57 9 2s the spiritual ,ibration electromagnetic in nature7 an5 here is it in
relation to N8rays7 the shortest a,elengths e &no-:
% Shorter than 4/ra!s" (er! s#all" and hi'h in (ibration-$
2 on5ere5 if this as a scientific possibility7 an5 thought 2*5 loo& it up.
(ace changes on 3oya continue5 to be seen by me in the me5itations7 then there ere
attempts at trance7 an5 healing. Nothing ne as happening7 an5 >ynne began to
fi5get an5 feel out of place 5uring the circles7 she coul5 not rela!.
/n +
th
"ugust7 2 tra,elle5 to >eu,en in Belgium for my Company7 an5 there in my
hotel be5room 2 ha5 a ,ery strange ne e!perience. 2 me5itate5 late e,ening7 fell
asleep7 but o&e at about 1.)0 a.m. There ere lights in the room. 2 felt i5e aa&e7
an5 got up to ma&e sure 2 as conscious. 2 loo&e5 out an5 sa a restaurant light on7 2
close5 the curtains to bloc& out light7 an5 returne5 to be5. The light built up again. 2
trie5 to sleep by turning aay from the in5o7 but hile still aa&e 2 9felt:
someone as in be5 ith me. 2 turne5 roun57 9sa: a bo5y ith the bac& to me7 an5 2
put my han5 out to touch the entities arm. I felt solid flesh- The entity spo&e7 but not
physically7 something li&e 9it*s not the right time yet:. "t the time 2 &ne 2 as i5e
aa&e7 it as not a 5ream. 2t as something else. >ater 2 learne5 it might ha,e been a
luci5 5ream7 as they call it.
/n 11
th
"ugust7 2 ha5 a fran& tal& ith 3oya about the circle. 2 as feeling rong
about it7 an5 about being lea5er7 for ,arious reasons. 2 mistruste5 trance7 an5 oul5
li&e to run a circle the N"S ay for physical. 3oya then sai5 that she oul5 ta&e o,er
being lea5er7 an5 5o things her ay.
" Church member as running a physical circle7 ha5 hear5 about us7 an5 he as&e5
me to suggest to 3oya that e merge his circle an5 ours7 for physical phenomena.
3oya ante5 to stay as e ere7 so e 5i5.
).
" physical me5ium then le5 a ee&en5 6or&shop7 an5 he as entertaining7
informati,e7 an5 amusing7 but it as noticeable that he did not do an!thin' to sho,
his po,ers or ontat ,ith Spirit$
(or e!ample7 he as&e5 for a trumpet to be pro,i5e57 an5 sai5 he oul5 use it to sho
ectoplasm coming through it. 2 as&e5 a frien5 to supply one7 but he 5i5 not use it.
He sai5 e oul5 all hear buHHing in our ears by the en5 of the 5ay7 but it as not
mentione5 again.
He 5i5 not trance or prophecy himself7 but relie5 on others to 5o it.
He as late bac& from lunch on Sun5ay7 an5 seeme5 to let it run itself.
6e ha5 to fin5 our on metho5s in circles7 there as no gui5ance.
/n the Satur5ay7 to me5iums trance57 an5 5eli,ere5 prophecies.
/n the Sun5ay7 our circle as 3oya7 Phil7 Susan7 Eosemary7 (ran7 Paul7 an5 myself.
2n me5itation7 2 ha5 felt strong tingles on my face7 an5 col5 breeHes. Eosemary
trance57 an5 her arms a,e5 aroun5 rather gracefully7 as she spo&e in hat appeare5
to be li&e an $astern foreign language. 3oya an5 (ran sense5 Ee5 2n5ians7 but then
my heart starte5 poun5ing7 an5 2 felt a 5ifferent state of aareness. (ran starte5 to
spea& to me7 an5 seeme5 ,ery far aay. "lthough 2 as fully aare7 2 starte5 to spea&7
something li&e7 9 Eemember that ith lo,e7 the more you gi,e out7 the more it comes
bac& to you:. 2t as not really me tal&ing7 2 thought. 2 stoppe5 an5 came bac& to
normal aareness.
Carol as&e5 if 2 oul5 get Peter 3organ to carry out trance healing on her husban5
Pete7 as 2 &ne him slightly. Peter*s Spirit 5octor manipulate5 the ba5 shoul5er
through him as me5ium7 it as sai57 after hich Pete as able to lift his arm much
easier.
/n the %'
th
"ugust7 Carol an5 Pete hel5 their on me5itation an5 clair,oyant circle
for the first time. They in,ite5 to their home se,en people they &ne7 an5 Carol le5 it.
Some messages ere gi,en7 an5 2 5i5 four healings7 ith helpers. 2 felt heat an5
energy7 an5 so 5i5 the patients from hat they sai5 after.
6ith regar5 to circle or&7 none of my circle frien5s ere intereste5 in 4oining the
N"S7 or operating a physical circle using their gui5elines. 2 &ne that 2 ha5 to branch
out someho on my on to learn about physical me5iumship7 for se,eral reasons.
They 5i5 not li&e my scientific approach. 2t 5i5 not seem li&ely to me that anything
ne or ,aluable to me as li&ely to come from trance7 message8gi,ing7 or me5itation
from us. The healing 5i5 ha,e an effect7 an5 this as ongoing. $,en ith this7 2 as
5oubtful hether it as really from the Spirit 6orl5 through the healer to the patient.
2t as more li&ely7 2 thought7 to be the healer tapping in to some energy source in the
Dni,erse an5 transferring it to the patient himself.
2 5eci5e5 to atten5 my first Noah*s "r& Society seminar on 1
st
September 199.7 at
6estone Hotel7 Northampton. 2 ha5 to go it alone to progress the search.
Chapter =1 The Noah*s "r& Society
"t the 6estone hotel in Northampton7 atten5ees ere ,ery frien5ly. "s 2 registere57
someone intro5uce5 himself7 an5 5escribe5 ho he ha5 sat in a circle at Scole7 an5
seen light energies an5 mo,ement of ob4ects7 in a 5ar& sOance7 ie in complete7
blac&e5 8out 5ar&ness. 2 then met three la5ies ho 4oine5 us7 an5 2 sat by them at
)'
5inner. They tol5 me about some of the e,ents in their physical circle. /ne of them
as a 5e,eloping physical me5ium7 an5 the other to ere helping her to 5e,elop.
>ater7 one of the la5ies 2*5 met une!pecte5ly in,ite5 me to a sOance in one of the
be5rooms. 2t as pitch blac& in there7 the first time 2 ha5 e!perience5 this. Some
people fin5 this scary an5 claustrophobic7 but 2 felt all right about it7 it as <uite
natural to me. The circle numbere5 nine7 inclu5ing me an5 my ne frien5s7 an5 a
Society Committee member. /ne of ne my frien5s ent in to trance7 an5 a gui5e
name5 Ee5 "rro spo&e through her7 in a male type of ,oice7 then a la5y name5
(lora7 ell8spo&en but soun5ing a bit ol58fashione57 ho spo&e to another of our
group. " man ith a Coc&ney ,oice7 gi,ing the name of Norman7 as&e5 for help7
through one of us. Some of the sitters a5,ise5 him to loo& to the light7 then he
apparently sa relati,es ho le5 him aay. 2 ha5 hear5 similar things before in other
mental circles7 spirit rescue.
Ne!t 5ay7 there ere e!cellent lectures. 6ilfre5 6atts7 an e!perience5 me5ium7 ho
supporte5 physical me5iumship7 sai5 he oul5 li&e more science in,ol,e57 an5 sai5 it
coul5 eliminate the thoughts of the me5ium interfering ith accuracy of
communications. #on 3ercer7 a chemist7 5escribe5 some physical phenomena he*5
&non7 an5 emphasise5 the enormous potential an5 capabilities of the brain7 so e
ha,e to as& <uestionsB
These tal&s ma5e me thin& that perhaps 2 as in the right place at last. Then Stephen
Turoff tal&e5 about his history7 an5 emphasise5 that e must ha,e real e,i5ence an5
progress ith Spirit. He as a healer ho performe5 psychic operations.
6e ere tol5 ne!t 5ay by an atten5ee name5 Chris that they ha5 also ha5 a room
sOance7 he an5 others ha5 trance57 their fingers ere place5 on the table7 it ,ibrate57
then rose up7 en5e5 up at arm*s length7 an5 gently came bac& 5on again. This as
calle5 le,itation.
" 3argaret an5 Jac& then tol5 us that they ha5 atten5e5 Steart "le!an5er*s public
5emonstration sOance the pre,ious e,ening. To 9trumpets: ha5 a ,oice coming
through them ith a message7 trumpets ha5 hiHHe5 aroun57 re,ol,ing7 an5 a trumpet
ha5 rolle5 5on 3argaret*s bo5y an5 through the chair legs. Trumpets ere
aluminium cones7 often use5 in physical circles7 ith fluourescent tabs on them7 or
paint7 to sho up in the 5ar& hen phenomena too& place.
2t as no time for my first sOance ith a 5e,elope5 physical me5ium7 name5
9>incoln: at the time. His real name as Colin (ry7 an5 he later gaine5 fame as a
mental me5ium as ell. "s is usual at the N"S7 sitters ere searche5 as they entere5
the hotel room7 an5 ,arious personal items ha5 to be left outsi5e. 2nstructions as to
beha,iour ha5 been gi,en7 anyone not atten5ing this ere not alloe5 to sit in the
sOance. >incoln as tie5 up ith cable ties in a chair7 these ere chec&e5 by a
,olunteer for security7 an5 he on the chair as place5 si5eays in to the cabinet by
to helpers. . The only 5oor as loc&e57 an5 hen the lights ere turne5 off7 it as
pitch blac&.
"bout forty of us ere sitting close together in ros roun5 the cabinet7 an5 e ere
as&e5 to sing. Soon e hear5 a gurgling noise7 then a fine female ,oice 4oine5 in7 sai5
to be (rances7 ie Ju5y Garlan5. 2t as ,ery lou57 ith ,ibrato7 an5 5i5 resemble
Ju5y*s ,oice. 6e all sang for some time7 an5 as e change5 songs she 4oine5 in again.
The ,oice 5rone5 us out7 hoe,er it as pro4ecte5 an5 amplifie5 in to the room.
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Ne!t a man*s ,oice as hear57 a gui5e or helper sai5 to be (eli!7 an5 he ansere5
<uestions an5 spo&e some philosophy.
Then7 a trumpet hirle5 aroun5 the room abo,e our hea5s seeming to go close to the
ceiling. 6e sa this because fluorescent tabs ere stuc& on it. 2 as amaHe57 ha,ing
not seen this before. 2 coul5 not thin& of a ay in hich this coul5 ha,e been 5one
frau5ulently. "fter a fe minutes7 it fell to the floor ith a thu5.
Ne!t7 a man*s ,oice soun5ing li&e >iberace tal&e5 an5 4o&e5 ith us as >iberace use5
to 5o hen on $arth7 an5 he ga,e a message to someone hose chil5 as learning to
play the piano.
#aphne as the last to come through7 ith a 5istincti,e female ,oice. There as
some repartee an5 banter7 an5 a message as gi,en an5 accepte5.. " big bump as
hear57 an5 hen the lights came on >incoln as seen outsi5e the cabinet7 still firmly
tie5 up.
The sOance ha5 been e!citing an5 <uite humorous. 2t as mysterious ho all the
5ifferent ,oices ha5 been pro5uce5 through the male me5ium7 an5 ho the trumpet
as propelle5 aroun5 the room. Hoe,er7 the messages from communicators ere no
better than from mental me5iums7 probably less e,i5ential. They ha5 not pro,e5 their
i5entity ,ery ell. " critic can alays say that the 5ar&ness can hi5e 5eception. (aith
an5 trust in the me5ium an5 the bac&8up team as nee5e57 to eliminate the possibility
of frau5 an5 collusion. 6hile there as no reason to suspect frau5 5uring my time in
the N"S7 there ere sometimes calls from members7 an5 others7 to allo infra8re5
filming of the sOances. This as alays refuse57 allege5ly by the Spirit
communicators7 for a number of reasons.
Before e left for home7 my three ne frien5s sai5 that a me5ium ha5 gi,en them a
message7 to use a Tesla soil to amplify the soun5s hich they hear5 in their circle.
Ha5 2 hear5 of it- 2 sai5 yes7 an5 might be able to get one ma5e at or&.
The physical me5ium rang me a fe 5ays later7 an5 as&e5 if 2 coul5 get a Tesla coil
ma5e7 an5 in,ite5 me to one of their sOances soon. She hinte5 it might be more
permanent7 but 5i5 2 li,e too far aay7 '0 miles- 6e all met in Poole7 an5 the me5ium
ga,e us gui5ance from a trance8li&e state7 that my frien5 at or& oul5 be inspire5
hat to 5o.
2 agree5 to 4oin their circle7 hich as establishe5 ithin the N"S7 an5 sit for the
5e,elopment of the me5ium. 2 un5erstoo5 that my role oul5 be to supply energy to
the circle for the me5ium 7 2 oul5 be a bit more technically min5e5 than them7 an5
to be a itness an5 scribe of the acti,ities.. 2t ha5 been an unusual &in5 of electrical
circle7 2 as tol5.
2 ha5 tol5 a frien5 at or& about the Tesla coil concept7 an5 he ha5 some i5eas for it.
There oul5 be to oun5 coils7 lin&e5 together7 insi5e a car5boar5 bo!. The
principle as7 that Spirit oul5 intro5uce energy beteen the coils7 an5 this energy
oul5 be circuite5 to the amplifier an5 spea&er so that it coul5 be hear5. 2t is ell8
&non that either an electrical or a magnetic fiel5 intro5uce5 beteen to coils ill
cause a signal to be in5uce57 hich can be seen on an oscilloscope7 an5 can be
amplifie5 so as to be au5ible. Bob as an electrician an5 ra5io ham7 an5 e relie5 on
him to gi,e us a5,ice7 as my electrical &nole5ge as limite5. He felt that using the
principle of to resonant couple5 coils oul5 be safe to start ith7 ith no high
,oltage input7 hich is normally present in Tesla coil systems.
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The first sOance as ithout our coil system7 to get me intro5uce5 to the sitters an5
ho they operate5. The me5ium sat on my left in the cabinet. "nother sitter7 a la5y
ho 5i5 healing7 face5 me ith her bac& to the 5oor7 an5 the lea5er of the circle as
on my right7 operating to cassette recor5ers. /ne playe5 tape5 music to raise the
,ibrations an5 get us singing7 the other as to recor5 the soun5s of the circle7 an5 as
connecte5 to a microphone on a table in the centre. " trumpet as on the table also."
little &eyboar5 as place5 out of reach of us all in the centre. " 5ish of chemicals7
hich Spirit ha5 as&e5 for7 ere on my right.
2 as tol5 that the lea5er opene5 in prayer7 the cassette recor5ers ere turne5 on7 an5
the lights sitche5 off7 causing total 5ar&ness. The sitters ha5 a routine of playing an5
singing a fe songs7 pausing the tape7 an5 then chatting about hat as felt to be
happening.. 2 as tol5 to e!pect ,arious unusual soun5s through the spea&ers7 an5 the
&eyboar5 might be playe5. This as sai5 to be cause5 by Spirit or&ing ith us7 an5 2
thought 2 oul5 alays sit in this circle using the thought of Spirit as a or&ing
hypothesis. 2t as no use being sceptical or negati,e7 this as sai5 to inhibit any
phenomena. Iarious Spirit gui5es or helpers7 male an5 female7 ha5 spo&en through
the me5ium*s ,ocal chor5s7 after she became entrance5. They ere sitting for 5irect
,oice me5iumship7 hereby Spirit oul5 construct a 9 ,oicebo!: ith ectoplasm7
through hich spirits oul5 spea& to us 5irectly7 ithout the me5ium*s bo5y being
in,ol,e5. 2 ha5 rea5 about this before. >eslie (lint as a famous 5irect ,oice me5ium
ho ha5 been teste5 by scientists an5 in,estigators.
The lights ere turne5 off7 an5 the sOance began. "fter the prayers7 e sang a fe
hymns an5 <uiet songs7 then Pueen songs7 a particular fa,ourite of the me5ium. 2t
as pitch blac&7 only some fluorescent tabs to mar& the ob4ects coul5 be seen. 2 coul5
see colours7 blue an5 mau,e an5 purple7 aroun5 the trumpet. 3y bo5y became ,ery
arm7 an5 there ere intense itchings on my face. >ater7 col5 breeHes playe5 aroun5
my hea57 legs7 an5 nec&. The itches sprea5 aroun5 my face7 hea57 4a7 an5 in my
nose. There as pressure on my hea57 li&e a hea5ache. $,en my arms began to itch.
The gui5e an5 protector7 Ee5 "rro7 then spo&e through the entrance5 me5ium7
elcome5 me7 an5 sai5 ho much they appreciate5 me tra,elling a long ay to get
here. He sai5 that Spirit operators planne5 to use energies through the coil7 an5 my
suggestion to use an oscilloscope to 5etect anything happening as a goo5 i5ea.
2t felt eir5 to be tal&ing to a gui5e from the other si5e of life7 but 2 sai5 that the coil
might pic& up all sorts of signals7 li&e an antenna7 it may be a problem to filter these
out an5 only select Spirit energies. Ee5 "rro sai5 9your frien5 ill be inspire5 to
or& out a solution. Tesla as helping 3ichael @(ara5ayA ith the communication.
They are not using ectoplasm in the same ay no7 to safeguar5 the me5iums7 but
energies an5 chemicals from the circle7 an5 electricity. 2t ill be fantasticB:
"fter he blesse5 us all ith his 5ignifie5 male ,oice an5 left7 one of the regular
communicators &non as 9Seetheart: bro&e in ith a high pitche5 girly ,oice7 an5
elcome5 9an ol5 man: to the circle. She re<ueste5 to songs7 an5 soon after the
me5ium came out of trance7 coughing <uite ,iolently.
3y reaction to the circle as that this as an e!cellent opportunity to use the
scientific metho5 to recor5 an5 analyse e,ents in the circle. 2 as no an insi5er7 so a
lot of 5oubts coul5 be rule5 out no. Phenomena coul5 be ob4ecti,e if e!perience5 by
more than one of us. 2f not e!plainable in normal terms7 then un&non energy or
poer coul5 be consi5ere5 as a cause. 2 as in,ol,e5 in setting up the con5itions as
)9
ell7 coul5 e!perience e,erything going on7 an5 as& any <uestions. (rau5 oul5
seem 5ifficult in that en,ironment7 an5 hat moti,e oul5 they ha,e anyay- No
money as in,ol,e57 an5 in fact it as costing us all to sit in the circle in time an5
e!penses.
This 9poer: coul5 come from us7 e 5o not &no the limit of human poers yet. "s
ell as the Spirit 6orl57 anything else oul5 ha,e to be consi5ere5.
2 5ro,e the si!ty miles home tire57 but please5. 2t loo&e5 promising. "lthough the
others seeme5 to be the psychic ones7 2 ha5 a 4ob to 5o hich they recognise5 as
important.
QBefore e left for home7 my three ne frien5s sai5 that a me5ium ha5 gi,en them a
message7 to use a Tesla soil to amplify the soun5s hich they hear5 in their circle.
Ha5 2 hear5 of it- 2 sai5 yes7 an5 might be able to get one ma5e at or&.
2 agree5 to 4oin their circle7 hich as establishe5 ithin the N"S7 an5 sit for the
5e,elopment of the me5ium. 2 un5erstoo5 that my role oul5 be to supply energy to
the circle for the me5ium 7 2 oul5 be a bit more technically min5e5 than them7 an5
to be a itness an5 scribe of the acti,ities.. 2t ha5 been an unusual &in5 of electrical
circle7 2 as tol5.
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2 ha5 tol5 a frien5 at or& about the Tesla coil concept7 an5 he ha5 some i5eas for it.
There oul5 be to oun5 coils7 lin&e5 together7 insi5e a car5boar5 bo!. The
principle as7 that Spirit oul5 intro5uce energy beteen the coils7 an5 this energy
oul5 be circuite5 to the amplifier an5 spea&er so that it coul5 be hear5. 2t is ell8
&non that either an electrical or a magnetic fiel5 intro5uce5 beteen to coils ill
cause a signal to be in5uce57 hich can be seen on an oscilloscope7 an5 can be
amplifie5 so as to be au5ible. Bob as an electrician an5 ra5io ham7 an5 e relie5 on
him to gi,e us a5,ice7 as my electrical &nole5ge as limite5. He felt that using the
principle of to resonant couple5 coils oul5 be safe to start ith7 ith no high
,oltage input7 hich is normally present in Tesla coil systems.
2 as tol5 that the lea5er opene5 in prayer7 the cassette recor5ers ere turne5 on7 an5
the lights sitche5 off7 causing total 5ar&ness. The sitters ha5 a routine of playing an5
singing a fe songs7 pausing the tape7 an5 then chatting about hat as felt to be
happening.. 2 as tol5 to e!pect ,arious unusual soun5s through the spea&ers7 an5 the
&eyboar5 might be playe5. This as sai5 to be cause5 by Spirit or&ing ith us7 an5 2
thought 2 oul5 alays sit in this circle using the thought of Spirit as a or&ing
hypothesis.
The lights ere turne5 off7 an5 the sOance began. "fter the prayers7 e sang a fe
hymns an5 <uiet songs7 then Pueen songs7 a particular fa,ourite of the me5ium. 2t
as pitch blac&7 only some fluorescent tabs to mar& the ob4ects coul5 be seen. 2 coul5
see colours7 blue an5 mau,e an5 purple7 aroun5 the trumpet. 3y bo5y became ,ery
arm7 an5 there ere intense itchings on my face. >ater7 col5 breeHes playe5 aroun5
my hea57 legs7 an5 nec&. The itches sprea5 aroun5 my face7 hea57 4a7 an5 in my
nose. There as pressure on my hea57 li&e a hea5ache. $,en my arms began to itch.
The gui5e an5 protector7 Ee5 "rro7 then spo&e through the entrance5 me5ium7
elcome5 me7 an5 sai5 ho much they appreciate5 me tra,elling a long ay to get
here. He sai5 that Spirit operators planne5 to use energies through the coil7 an5 my
suggestion to use an oscilloscope to 5etect anything happening as a goo5 i5ea.
2t felt eir5 to be tal&ing to a gui5e from the other si5e of life7 but 2 sai5 that the coil
might pic& up all sorts of signals7 li&e an antenna7 it may be a problem to filter these
out an5 only select Spirit energies. Ee5 "rro sai5 9your frien5 ill be inspire5 to
or& out a solution. Tesla as helping 3ichael @(ara5ayA ith the communication.
They are not using ectoplasm in the same ay no7 to safeguar5 the me5iums7 but
energies an5 chemicals from the circle7 an5 electricity. 2t ill be fantasticB:
"fter he blesse5 us all ith his 5ignifie5 male ,oice an5 left7 one of the regular
communicators &non as 9Seetheart: bro&
Before the first circle ith the coil7 2 too& all the borroe5 e<uipment aay7 an5 set it
up as Bob ha5 tol5 me at home7 an5 also in my on laboratory. There as lots of
electrical e<uipment aroun5 7 but the oscilloscope alays 5isplaye5 only a straight
line7 shoing that the coil bo! as not sensiti,e to atmospheric 9noise:. The
me5ium*s house as in <uite a rural area7 an5 e 5i5 not e!pect any local 9noise: to
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interfere ith our e!periments in circle7 although this as not pro,e5 or 5ispro,e57 it
as beyon5 my capabilities to fin5 out.
"nything 9abnormal: pic&e5 up by the coil oul5 ha,e to be 4u5ge5 on it*s merits.
The first Tesla coil circle too& place on No,ember '
th
7 199.. 2 set up the oscilloscope
on a table on my right7 so that e coul5 all see it7 an5 it as connecte5 to the Tesla
coil bo! ithin our circle. The room as set up as 5escribe5 for my first circle ith
this group. This remaine5 much the same until 2 left the circle7 but any ,ariations in
the con5itions are 5escribe5.
The circle starte5 ith an e!cite5 atmosphere in the room. "s the music playe57 e
hear5 an 9echo:7 li&e fee5bac& in a ay7 but it seeme5 to resonate an5 ,ibrate. This
as outsi5e of my &nole5ge7 as the flat microphone as fi!e5 high on the all7
some 5istance from the recor5er. "t the same time7 e all sa the oscilloscope 5isplay
change from flat7 to 4agge5 pea&s7 an5 pulsations as the 5isplay ripple5 from right to
left7 an5 left to right. Some &in5 of energy ha5 to be being pic&e5 up by the coil.
The me5ium as then inspire5 to as& for the music to be turne5 up slightly7 this as
5one7 an5 a lou5 clic& as hear5 o,er the amplifier. She sai57 9That*s itB:7 an5 the
echo ,ibration increase5. Gra5ually7 a piercing note built up from the 9echo:7 hich
ebbe5 an5 floe5 in ,olume. 2t fille5 the room7 an5 5uring the >or5*s Prayer music it
increase5 so much that it 5rone5 our speech an5 the music. 6e calle5 this soun5
9the Hing:. 2t can be li&ene5 to a ,ery lou5 tuning for&7 ,ibrating an5 resonating7 at a
constant pitch. The 9Hing: stoppe5 ,ery <uic&ly to nothing each time7 correspon5ing
ith acti,ity on the oscilloscope screen.
The music as pause57 Ii, sai5 hello to Ee5 "rro7 an5 then folloe5 a ,ery lou5
9Hing:. The lea5er turne5 5on the recor5ing machine ,olume a little7 in case this
as causing the noise7 but it continue5 se,eral times.
The music continue57 an5 the screen shoe5 acti,ity. Se,eral clic&s ere hear5. The
music as pause5 again7 an5 the me5ium sai5 there as an aful stin&. 2 coul5 smell
a &in5 of musty7 acri5 o5our. The other sitter then suggeste5 that e might as&
<uestions7 an5 hope for a reply7 yes or no7 on the screen. 6e agree57 an5 the lea5er
as&e5 me to spea& to 9them:7 sai5 to be Tesla an5 (ara5ay.
2 as rather o,erae5 at spea&ing to the spirits of such famous scientists7 an5 5i5 not
really belie,e this as the case7 but e ha5 4ust pro,e5 that une!pecte57 not
un5erstoo57 electromagnetic energy ha5 been recei,e5 by the coil bo! because e ha5
seen it*s effects on the oscilloscope. 2 regrette5 the fact that 2 as not <ualifie5 to
un5erstan5 electronics enough to chec& for other causes or reasons7 but ha5 to rely on
as&ing Bob at or& later. 2 began.
% 1o+ld !o+ 'i(e +s a !es on the sreen please$-
)he display was a rippling bank on the right of the screen, moving left to right.
% 1o+ld !o+ 'i(e +s a !es a'ain5-
A similar rolling bank appeared again.
% 1o+ld !o+ 'i(e +s a no please5-
)he rolling bank, to my surprise, moved to the left of the screen, from right to left,
which we all clearly saw.
(re5 then sai57 % 6as the e7+ip#ent been of an! +se to !o+ toni'ht" 8ihael5-
)he rolling bank was now in the middle of the screen, did this mean maybe perhaps?
Ii, then sai57 % 6a(e !o+ been sin'in' alon' ,ith +s" *redd!5-
4%
We heard a click, and 1i saw a pulse in the middle of the screen.
Ii, as&e5 7 9 6as *lora and S,eetheart 9t,o re'+lar o##+niators: been
sin'in' ,ith +s5-
)he rolling bank gave a no, showing on the left of the screen.
%Shall ,e 'o on lon'er5-
A no to this.
% 6a(e ,e finished irle5-
A yes, as the rolling bank moved to the right of screen.
This phenomena ha5 astonishe5 me7 because hile ran5om atmospheric energies
coul5 ha,e cause5 the mo,ing pulsing mo,ements7 they ha5 actually occurre5 in
response to my re<uests straight aay7 an5 this seeme5 far too coinci5ental. 6e ha5
all seen it7 an5 agree5 on hat e ha5 seen. This coul5 be calle5 magic7 in the same
ay as the table tilt coul5 be7 there as no rational e!planation.
Ne!t 5ay7 2 e!plaine5 to Bob as best 2 coul57 hat ha5 happene57 an5 he7 5espite his
electronics &nole5ge an5 being a ra5io ham7 coul5 not e!plain the e,ents in normal
terms. The patterns on the screen 2 ha5 5escribe5 remin5e5 him of microphone a,es7
an5 he suggeste5 connecting the coil up to an amplifier an5 spea&er instea5 of the
oscilloscope. Perhaps 9they: ante5 to amplify an5 con,ert to au5io the energies
hich e ha5 seen 5isplaye5. Bob put together an ol5 amplifier an5 small spea&er7
an5 a T8piece connection7 so that e coul5 plug in either or both of the oscilloscope or
amplifier. 2t as connecte5 to the coil7 teste5 ith a signal generator7 an5 it pro5uce5
soun5 through a range of fre<uencies. 3y on range of hearing as up to 1%.00 HH7
the highest note 2 coul5 hear. Bob sai5 that the 9resonance: for this coil as %.00 HH7
hen the soun5 became lou5er an5 stronger. 6e no &ne that if Spirit7 or another
agency7 intro5uce5 a signal to the coil beteen .0 an5 1%.00 HH7 2 oul5 hear a
continuous note 5uring the circle.
2 continue5 healing training at the Church7 an5 after healing that ee&7 the lea5
healer tol5 me that she ha5 9seen: a tall Chinese man ith me 5uring the healing7
ith a blac& 5rooping moustache. He ha5 been an apothecary hile on $arth7 an5 as
s&ille5 in herbal reme5ies an5 acupuncture. She ha5 sai5 something similar before7
but 2 ha5 no ay of &noing if it as true.
Before the ne!t 3on5ay circle7 2 felt hea5achey an5 a bit sic& all 5ay7 an5 ha5 to 5ri,e
the '0 miles to the circle in fog. 2 trie5 to heal myself7 an5 5i5 feel better hen 2 got
there. "nother sitter ha5 a ba5 col5. /n arri,al7 2 set up the ne e<uipment. The
amplifier an5 spea&er as on the table in front of me7 an5 the coil as on my left.
#i ha5 some sensations after e began the circle hich she 5escribe5. Puite a lou5
clic& as hear5 from my ne setup as e ere singing7 then a soun5 li&e someone
5rumming their fingers7 then a lou5er clic&. >ater7 there as a ,ery long crac&ling
noise.
(lora then spo&e through the me5ium7 an5 ga,e ,arious pieces of a5,ice an5
instructions. She then sai5 to me7 96ho use5 to call you Normy-: 2 un5erstoo57 an
ol5 mate calle5 me this. 9>o,e from hoe,er use5 to call you Normy:. Chat an5
banter folloe5.
(lora confirme5 that the 9,oicebo!: as finishe57 e!cept for a fe things7 an5
another clic& as hear5.
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/n Sun5ay 1)
th
No,ember7 2 atten5e5 a N"S sOance at the Ba&er resi5ence in Bath7
ith >incoln @ Colin (ryA as the me5ium. There 2 met a #anish man name5 Carl7 ho
li,e5 in Germany. He as ell8e5ucate57 an5 &ne a lot about $IP @ electronic ,oice
phenomenaA. 2 tol5 him that our circle as also ,ery intereste5 in $IP. He as&e5 me7
hen he &ne 2 or&e5 in science7 if 2 &ne hat &in5 of energy as in,ol,e5 ith
this. 2 sai5 that 2 5i5 not &no7 but if they ant us to &no e ill fin5 out. 6e ere
all searche5 before entry as alays. "s it happene57 Carl as as&e5 to sit ne!t to me
in the front ro.
Carl an5 2 ,olunteere5 to chec& that the cable ties on >incoln ere secure. 2 pulle5 the
ties to chec& tightness7 note5 their position7 an5 ho he as sat in the chair. 2 coul5
see nothing insi5e the empty cabinet. >incoln7 trusse5 up in the chair7 as place5 ell
insi5e the cabinet. The curtains ere 5ran7 the 5oor loc&e57 an5 lights turne5 off.
The room as completely 5ar&.
6e all began to sing7 an5 the first ,oice through the me5ium as sai5 to be (rances7
a&a Ju5y Garlan5. /,er the rainbo7 an5 the /ne that got aay7 ere sung ,ery
lou5ly7 an5 soun5e5 similar to Ju5y*s ,oice ith emotion7 an5 4ust li&e 2 hear5 before
in the 6estone Hotel sOance.
(eli! then ansere5 some <uestions7 an5 2 as&e5 him7 on behalf of me an5 Carl7
9Co+ld !o+ tell +s an!thin' abo+t the nat+re of the ener'! ,hih the Spirit
1orld +ses to o##+niate ,ith +s b! #eans of ;<." tape reordin's et5 Are
,e #eant to find o+t e(ent+all! to help the brid'e bet,een the t,o ,orlds5-
The communicator replie5.
)he physical machines are only part of the natural energy, life itself is the energy, if
you want something it comes to you by way of inspiration. What matters is going
within to find your 2igher #elf, that you might develop and carry out service to others
in your life. #cience is not necessary to do this, it draws you away from going within.
% =+t there is a siene !o+r side" s+rel!" the nat+ral la,s +nder ,hih !o+ li(e5-
(eli! continue57 If you like to call it a science that is so, but it is not like 3arthly
science.
"fter a gurgling soun57 a ne ,oice calle5 out7 9Steiner" Steiner-$
Carl as&e5 something in German7 9J. Eu5olph-: 2 thin&. " reply came apparently in
German7 hich 2 5i5 not un5erstan5.
" trumpet came toar5s us7 shon by it*s luminous tabs7 an5 there as the soun5 of
pa55ing footsteps ith it. 2 oul5 ha,e 5early lo,e5 illumination at his point. Carl
as no as&e57 in $nglish7 to ta&e hol5 of the trumpet7 but it as out of his reach7
hile ithin mine. 2t as about to feet in front of my chair7 suspen5e5 horiHontally
about three feet from the floor. 2 felt li&e grabbing it in my curiosity7 but it as not
meant for me7 an5 e ha,e to go by the rules. 2t 5roppe5 to the floor ith a bang. "
con,ersation folloe5 beteen Carl7 an5 Steiner through the me5ium.
Carl 1 $IP is at a 5ea5 en5.
Steiner1 ;ou shoul5 start again at home7 you ga,e up too easily.
Carl1 2 ha,e trie5 e,erything.
Steiner1 ;es7 physical phenomena ill be pro5uce5.
Carl1 Ho- There is no me5ium7 ha,e you any clues-
Steiner1 There is a man7 young7 il57 an5 uncontrolle5. ;ou ill tame him. His
mother is "ustrian.
Carl1 2s it one of my stu5ents-
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Steiner1 There is one li&e that7 but he is staunch Catholic. Start again7 at home.
Carl1 2n 3unich-
Steiner1 No7 at home.
Carl1 "h7 in @ a name gi,en7 soun5e5 li&e 6eisenbaumA.
To communicators then came through an5 ere recognise5 by sitters. " bell as
rung. To la5y gui5es then spo&e. 6e sang hile >incoln came roun57 there as a
lou5 bang7 an5 hen the lights ent on >incoln as seate5 outsi5e the cabinet still
tie5 up. Carl an5 2 inspecte5 the ties7 an5 they ere still tight7 an5 in the same place as
far as 2 coul5 tell.

The ne!t Tesla circle as on the 6e5nes5ay7 because the others sat tice a ee&7 but
it as too far for me to tra,el. 2t as my 4ob to transcribe the tapes for all the
circles. They ha5 use5 my coilMampM spea&ersetup 7as e 5i5 last time. They hear5 a
5ouble clic& an5 a lou5 clic&7 then there as a lou5 crac&le o,er the spea&er7 an5 the
little &eyboar5 9sitche5 itself on: to play a recor5e5 tune. The button as out of
reach of e,eryone. #i remar&e5 that7 4ust before7 she ha5 as&e5 in her min5 to be
gi,en a sign 9to sho they ere there:.
There ere many more clic&s7 long crac&les of soun57 an5 a 5ouble 9raspberry: noise.
This as for me the thir5 5efinitely paranormal e,ent in my search so far7 an5 2 hope5
2 oul5 be ith them if an5 hen it happene5 again.
Chapter 101 Physical ,ersus mental-
That Satur5ay7 1=
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No,ember7 the fortnightly 9mental: circle as hel5 at Pete an5
Carol*s house. 6e me5itate57 my right chee& itche57 my right ear became numb7 an5
tingles mo,e5 all roun5 my hea5. 6hen 2 opene5 my eyes7 2 sa changes on the faces
of 3oya an5 Sue7 in the can5lelight. 3oya*s arms ent straight up in the air7 she ha5
felt compelle5 to 5o it7 it as not her7 she sai5 later.
Pete as emotional7 as he ha5 seen a being of >ight ith piercing blue eyes.
Someone suggeste5 an 9aura feeling e!periment:. This in,ol,e5 to people placing
their han5s close to a thir5 ,olunteer7 one roun5 the hea57 the other loer 5on.
Nothing special happene5 ith the first to pairs7 then some ent off for a smo&e.
"nne suggeste5 that she an5 2 shoul5 try ith Pete. He laughingly agree57 an5 stoo5
up.
2 stoo5 on a chair7 an5 place5 my han5s se,eral inches from his hea57 at the bac& an5
the front. "nne place5 her han5s on front of his chest7 some ay off.
Pete starte5 to say aroun57 an5 2 felt heat beteen us. 3oya an5 Phil7 atching7 sa
face changes on him. 2 felt 2 shoul5 mo,e my han5 on top of Pete*s hea57 an5 it
became arm. 2 felt 5reamy as 2 concentrate5. Su55enly7 Pete began to spea&7 an5 one
of his han5s began to sha&e strongly. " gruff7 strong ,oice sai5 9 2 am please5 ith
our progress7 an5 ill return again:. Pete then came bac& to us7 saying he ha5 no i5ea
hat ha5 happene5. 2t as <uite emotional7 an5 tearful. This as not suppose5 to
happen. 6e ha5 smelle5 a perfume before this.
2 5i5 not sleep ell that night. 2 on5ere5 if e ere capable of han5ling the 9poer:
at the 9mental: circle7 if that*s hat it as7 an5 hether it as connecte5 ith e,ents
in the Tesla circle7 hich 2 felt ha5 strong lea5ership.
Tesla circles folloe57 ith nothing e!tra going on of note7 until at the circle 4ust
before our trip to Scarborough Ee5 "rro ga,e a message through the me5ium.
4.
96oul5 @the lea5erA min5 if she 5i5 not present the circle or& at 9 "roun5 the
circles- 6or& that has been 5one is a first7 an5 your circle is not meant for the chosen
fe7 but others shoul5 learn about it. Can Norman present it7 because he has a
scientific min57 an5 ill put it o,er in such a ay that the authenticity ill not be
5oubte5.:
Soon after7 the circle members tra,elle5 to Scarborough an5 stoppe5 o,ernight
nearby. 6e ha5 a cup of tea in my be5room7 then 2 suggeste5 a group me5itation7 as
e ha5 not trie5 this before an5 2 as curious as to hat might happen.
>ights ere turne5 off as e listene5 to an $agle Spirit tape. The music got sloer
an5 sloer7 an5 slurre57 an5 it 4er&e5 me bac& out of my rela!e5 frame of min5. 6hen
2 opene5 my eyes7 2 sa the me5ium 5rin&ing tea. The others ere still 9aay:.
6hen the tape stoppe57 the me5ium laughe5 her hea5 off. She thought that 9they:
@SpiritA ha5 messe5 it up7 because she ha5 starte5 to gi,e out ectoplasm7 an5 9they:
5i5 not ant that. >ater7 2 foun5 that there as nothing rong ith the player or the
tape7 an5 it playe5 normally. @ "s it happene5A.
"t the Cober Hill Hotel in Scarborough7 e boo&e5 in7 2 met Carl again7 an5
intro5uce5 him to the others. 6e met 3i&e Eogers7 the N"S electronics man7 at
5inner7 an5 he ha5 the i5ea of using a 9crystal set: ith a germanium 5io5e7 attache5
to the coil an5 amplifie57 to mo5ulate the input.
There ere se,eral interesting lectures7 inclu5ing one by Carl Steenstrup on $IP7
hich he calle5 9the poor man*s 5irect ,oice:. He also ran an $IP 6or&shop7 an5
some claime5 to hear ,oices from tapes7 but 2 only hear5 one short phrase in a
hispere5 ,oice7 ith the or5 9me5ium: in it. He as ,ery 5e5icate5 to the sub4ect.
3ary "rmour tal&e5 about Helen #uncan*s life7 Steart "le!an5er tal&e5 about his
life as a channel7 "lf 6inchester lecture5 about trance states7 an5 Tom Harrison tal&e5
,ery mo,ingly about full materialisations in his circle7 beginning in 194'.
The main e,ent folloe57 a sOance ith Steart "le!an5er. " gui5e7 6hite (eather7
spo&e through Steart7an5 a boy Christopher ith his humour. To trumpets7 ith
tabs on7 fle aroun5 the room se,eral times <uic&ly an5 gracefully at 5ifferent
heights7 up to the ceiling at times. There ere un5erstoo5 messages through the
trumpets.
2 as sat by a ,ery attracti,e girl7 Jennifer. 2 4o&e5 ith her that 2 ha5 hear5 that a
fre<uent communicator7 6alter Stinson7 alays selecte5 an attracti,e young la5y from
among us to use in a 5emonstration. ;ou*re in ith a goo5 chanceB
"n5 so it happene5. 6alter calle5 out her name7 she as escorte5 by one of Steart*s
circle ith a 5im re5 torch through the 5ar& toar5s the me5ium7 an5 he tal&e5 to her
an5 materialise5 his han5s7 hich he use5 to pat her ith7 to sho his presence to a
itness. She as as&e5 to confirm that Steart*s on arms ere still tie5 up7 an5 she
felt the patting an5 sa han5s by the glo of a luminous pla<ue.
2 almost felt psychic @haBA as she returne5 to her seat by me in <ui,ering e!citementB
2 as unable to e!plain all this rationally7 unless it as a frau5 from start to finish. 2
coul5 not see ho that oul5 or&7 either.
"t the 9"roun5 the circles: session7 a fe circle spo&esmen tol5 of their circle
5e,elopments7 an5 the me5ium an5 myself e!plaine5 about the use of the coil in the
circle.
4'
Before e returne5 home7 e sa Carl again to listen to the $IP tape5 ,oices again
from the 6or&shop. 6hen e ere alone7 he as&e5 me if 2 as going to publish
anything about our communications ith the Tesla coil.
2 sai5 no7 2 ante5 to help an5 share7 lo,e an5 frien5s ere the most important7 an5 to
5e,elop through ser,ice to others.
Carl sai57 9;ou*re a saintB 2 oul5 lo,e to be famous7 especially in something hich
has ne,er been 5one before.:
The Tesla circles for the ne!t fe ee&s pro5uce5 some interesting soun5s7 an5
interactions an5 con,ersations ith communicators7 but there as nothing really ne
to mo,e the circle 5e,elopment forar5.
#uring this perio57 2 continue5 to sit in circle in Sin5on. The fortnightly circle as
again hel5 at Carol an5 Pete*s house. 2 felt uncomfortable about it. Complete
harmony is essential for success7 an5 it seeme5 that there as no consensus among
the sitters as to the aims an5 ob4ects of the circle. Hoe,er7 if 2 ante5 to stay ith
3oya an5 Phil7 an5 help an5 support Pete an5 Carol7 then 2 thought 2 oul5 ha,e to
stay ith it an5 try to be positi,e. Nothing of note happene57 e!cept hen 2 heale5
Pete later he almost 9trance5: again7 but fought against it. People ha5 an5ere5 in
an5 out hile the healing as going on7 an5 2 felt that perhaps a greater respect for
Spirit as nee5e5. Pete ha5 tol5 Carol that he ha5 complete trust in Norman to loo&
after him if he trance5. 2 sai5 e must not push him7 it ta&es a long time to 5e,elop.
Carol later as&e5 us all if e oul5 sit for Pete for trance7 an5 all agree5. 2 trie5 to
persua5e us all to 4oin the N"S7 for safety an5 to benefit from their e!perience7 but
they ere not prepare5 to 5o this. 2f it 5e,elope5 in to physical phenomena7 then e
oul5 ha,e been helpe5 an5 protecte5 by e!perience5 me5iums in the Society.
Hoe,er7 2 thought it better if 2 staye5 ith the group to help7 although they ere
5etermine5 to 5o it their ay.
2t as a ,ery busy time for me7 spiritually. 3on5ay as the Tesla circle7 e*5 4ust
ha5 the fortnightly circle7 an5 2 as still sitting ith at 3oya*s on 6e5nes5ays.
2n the ne!t 6e5nes5ay me5itation7 in a sub5ue5 hite light7 Carol*s face change5 a
lot to my eyes7 an5 2 sa coloure5 bac&groun5s behin5 her as 2 use5 to see ith
3oya. Her face turne5 blac&7 then li&e a man7 an5 ith shorter hair. 3y gaHe on her
seeme5 to clic& from one scene to another. >ater7 Carol sai5 that she ha5 seen a blac&
man7 her hea5 felt tight7 an5 her lips ha5 felt puffy7 5uring the me5itation.
The ne!t Satur5ay circle at Pete an5 Carol*s as suppose5 to be a physical circle7 but
they ha5 can5les burning. 2 felt intense tingles on my face7 but the sitters ere ,ery
half8hearte5 about singing7 an5 5i5 not &no the or5s. Su55enly7 Pete began to
spea&7 in a &in5 of 6elsh accent7 unli&e his normal Geor5ie speech. He sai5 that he
lo,e5 the 6elsh music e ha5 been playing7 he ha5 or&e5 in a coalmine7 an5 came
from 3erthyr. He tol5 us e ere on the right path. 3oya encourage5 him to tal&. He
sai5 his name as Te5 $,ans7 he 5ie5 in the battle if the Somme on July 1
st
7 191'7
ser,ing ith the Eoyal 6elsh (usiliers. He 5escribe5 the scene7 his mates moe5
5on7 an5 being caught on barbe5 ire.
2 as intrigue57 so soon after7 2 chec&e5 out 9Te5 $,ans:7 in the Eeference >ibrary. 2
foun5 the official boo& of casualties from the (irst 6orl5 6ar7 an5 foun5 there as a
4+
%)
r5
Eegiment of the 6elsh (usiliers7 they 5i5 fight in the 191' Battle of the Somme7
an5 it 5i5 begin on 1
st
July. There ha5 been hea,y casualties7 an5 many ha5 got caught
on barbe5 ire hich ha5 not been bro&en by the shelling. Te5 $,ans ha5 5escribe5
all this through Pete7 an5 here 2 as rea5ing eye8itness reports in the boo&.
The only problem as7 the communicator*s name as not confirme5. No Te5 or
$5ar5 $,ans or ith $ as a secon5 Christian name. /ther $5ar5 $,ans ha5 5ie5 in
the 6ar7 but elsehere at 5ifferent times. 6e ere 5isappointe5 of course7 an5 5oubts
ere plante5. "gain the ambiguity. Just hen it seems you are getting somehere7 it
falls apart. 6hat as the source of this correct information7 an5 hy ha5 9Te5:
spo&en - Perhaps 2 as being o,er8critical7 but proof of i5entity is nee5e5 before
getting carrie5 aay ith enthusiasm.
>ater7 2 as tol5 that the communicator Te5 $,ans ga,e an e!cuse about gi,ing the
rong name7 but 2 5i5 not &no any 5etails7 they &ept no recor5s of later circles.
2n the 6e5nes5ay me5itation circle ne!t time7 3oya as&e5 us all to 9loo& for the chil5
ithin:7 an5 2 9imagine5: a &in5 of fairy story. Strangely7 hen 2 later tol5 the Tesla
circle me5ium about this7 she sai5 that she ha5 ha5 a 9message: for me to 5ays
before7 but felt silly an5 5i5 not gi,e it. 2t as7 to tell me to loo& for the chil5 ithin.
/n the Satur5ay after Christmas7 e all turne5 up for Carol*s fortnightly circle7 an5
she playe5 my 6elsh music tape. "fter three songs7 Pete trance57 an5 9Te5 $,ans:
ga,e us all our gui5es an5 a5,ice.
To me7 he sai57 9 >o+ are the #ost sientifi & ha(e seen" dottin' i2s and rossin'
t2s all the ti#e" b+t this is neessar! and sho+ld be eno+ra'ed$ >o+ ha(e the 'ift
of healin' and does ?ostrada#+s #ean an!thin' to !o+5-
The group 5ynamics ere feeling rather a&ar5 for me by no. The others oul5
not ta&e my a5,ice to 4oin the N"S7 an5 my scientific outloo& as generally 5isli&e5.
This oul5 ha,e been the perfect time to gracefully ith5ra from the circle7 loo&ing
bac&7 but 2 still felt 5ran to 3oya an5 some others7 an5 2 5i5 not ant to miss any
future e!periences. The 6e5nes5ay me5itation oul5 also ha,e been at ris&.
Hoe,er7 2 as feeling ,ery negati,e an5 5on7 unli&e my usual self7 an5 it as
possible that an entity might ha,e been influencing me ithout me being aare of it.
Satur5ay 14
th
January as the 5ay hen Carol sai5 the last circle oul5 be hel5 in
her house. 2 ent along7 thin&ing one last time oul5 5o no harm. 6e me5itate5 as
usual7 can5les lit7 an5 2 felt tingles an5 col5 breeHes. 6hen 2 loo&e5 at Pete7 he
seeme5 to be going off. Carol stoppe5 the music an5 5i5 not seem to &no hether to
encourage the trance7 or bring him bac&. Because he ha5 as&e5 me to loo& after him7
an5 2 as concerne5 that e ere 9out of our 5epth:7 2 gently tal&e5 him bac&. 2
sense5 that the others ha5 ante5 him to continue7 an5 2 ha5 stoppe5 the
9entertainment:. Perhaps that*s unfair7 but my main concern as ith Pete*s safety.
6e ate afterar5s7 then ha5 a 5iscussion. 2t got <uite heate5 as they all seeme5 ,ery
much against the scientific approach7 an5 the N"S metho5s. 2 felt totally on my on.
The others generally ha5 a faith in Spirit approach. 2 ha5 a more scientific7 e,i5ence8
base5 approach. They oul5 continue in the same ay.
"t a folloing 6e5nes5ay circle7 2 as in a strange7 resentful7 negati,e moo5. 3oya
trie5 to cheer me up an5 5ra me out7 but 2 5i5 not respon5. She then ga,e me a
message 5uring the circle.
4=
9 2 ha,e someone ith me. 2 see you on a long7 i5e roa57 abroa57 there is a high
mountain ahea5. They are shoing me a big reel7 ith a cable on it. @ 2 ha5 recently7
un&non to 3oya7 ,isite5 3unich on Company business7 hich in,ol,e5 reels of
plastic tubing loo&ing li&e cable7 an5 2 ha5 tra,elle5 on an autobahn toar5s the
"ustrian mountains.A
9 To things7 loo& li&e cotton reels:. @ ;es7 the Tesla coil ires ere rappe5 roun5
formers loo&ing li&e cotton reels.A
9 " triangle7 li&e a 5iagram:. @;es7 Bob ha5 shon me the triangle symbol for a 5io5e
hich as in,ol,e5 ith the Tesla circle in a crystal ra5io setA.
9" piece of oo57 pins on it or scres:. @ Bob ha5 ma5e me a crystal set from a &it7
ith a oo5 base7 an5 pins an5 scresA.
9 "n ol58fashione5 ireless:. @ ;es7 a crystal set ha5 been incorporate5 in to the Tesla
coil setupA.
9 2 see a light7 hite an5 yello7 coming in on the reels7 li&e a cinema pro4ection
beam.: @ ;es. /ur me5ium ha5 sai5 in circle that she ha5 seen light on the Tesla coil7
an5 a flash toar5s her at timesA.
9 Something loo&s li&e a ,apour trail: @ 3aybe ectoplasm-A
9 " cone li&e a roc&et7 the en5 scres off:. @ 2 5i5 not un5erstan5 thisA.
9 They*re saying mo5ule7 or something. 6hat*s that-: @ 2 thought of mo5ulation7
hich e ha5 5iscusse5 ith reference to the Tesla coil for speech con,ersionA.
9 Something is the rong ay roun57 or upsi5e 5on7 to 5o ith all this. No you are
being shon to me in an aeroplane7 ith a parachute on7 they are saying 4ump out7 go
for it an5 trust it7 5on*t hol5 bac&. The parachute ill bring you bac& to $arth.:
3oya sai5 she 5i5 not &no most of the information7 but sa pictures in her min5*s
eye7 an5 ha5 to or& har5 to get it o,er for me. She rang me ne!t 5ay7 to in,ite me to
4oin them in a ,isit to a me5ium. 2 sai5 no7 ru5ely7 an5 e 5iscusse5 hat ha5
happene5 lately.
She sai5 2 as still loo&ing too much for e,i5ence of sur,i,al7 an5 e argue5
heate5ly. 2 felt frustrate57 being pulle5 to ays.
2 left 3oya*s circle. 6e no ha5 5ifferent pathays7 but it hurt7 that 2 no longer
belonge5 in mental circles ith my ol5 frien5s.
2 coul5 no concentrate on our physical circle7 an5 ta&e it as far as 2 coul5. 2t seeme5
natural for my outloo& an5 abilities.
49

Chapter 111 /nly the physical
The search as no concentrate5 ithin the Tesla physical circle. 2t as a relief in a
sense7 to help 5e,elop a physical me5ium7 rather than sitting in circles atching
members trying to 5e,elop their in5i,i5ual abilities. 2 ha5 left Pete an5 Carol*s
fortnightly circle as ell as 3oya*s .
3y healing training in the Church seeme5 to be going ell. $ach time 2 oul5 feel
heat an5 energy7 hich patients sometimes tol5 me they felt also7 an5 they felt
comfort7 an5 relief from pain at times. 2t as sai5 by some that spiritual healing as
physical me5iumship7 as it ha5 a physical effect as the healing energy passe5 from
Spirit7 through Spirit @ the healerA7 to Spirit @ the patientA. 6hen 2 heale5 2 alays
thought that it as ha,ing an effect7 hate,er the source of the energy7 an5 this has
continue5 until the present 5ay.
2n early January7 many ,ery lou5 noises ere hear5 5uring a circle7 an5 the me5ium
felt temperature changes from ,ery col57 to hot. Before the me5ium became
9entrance5:7 there as a long poer surge through the spea&er7 an5 three <uic& notes
ere playe5 on the &eyboar5 by an un&non mechanism. The me5ium hoope5 ith
4oy an5 triumph. 2t as the thir5 time the &eyboar5 ha5 been playe5 after a poer
surge7 a little 5ifferently each time. " Pueen song 96ho ants to li,e for e,er: as
playing7 an5 the me5ium encourage5 9(re55y: by saying7 9 Come on (re55y7 belt it
outB:
She sai5 she hear5 hispering7 although it as not on the recor5e5 tape7 an5 she felt a
cool breeHe on her face7 hen there as a short poer surge @ li&e an e!plosionA 7 a
longer poer surge7 an5 the &eyboar5 sitche5 itself on to play a recor5e5 tune. The
me5ium thought she hear5 to notes playe5 beforehan5. None of us coul5 reach the
&eyboar57 unless e got up an5 mo,e5 toar5s it in the 5ar&. 2 as pretty sure that
this 5i5 not happen7 as ob4ects ere in the ay7 an5 2 oul5 ha,e notice5 mo,ement. 2
felt trust in the honesty of all the sitters7 an5 hat as there to gain by cheating
anyay- This e,ent as a55e5 to the list of pre,ious paranormal occurrences. The
.0
others ere <uite blasO about it7 but it as to me li&e science fiction7 in reality.
6hoMhat playe5 the piano-
>ater in January7 Bob brought me the crystal set he ha5 ma5e up. He e!plaine5 it*s
principles7 an5 ho to connect it up. 2t as ma5e for me5ium a,e. 2 trie5 it out
before circle.
"t home7 2 connecte5 up a '0 foot long aerial ire beteen the set an5 the en5 of my
gar5en. "nother ire beteen the set an5 a ra5iator pro,i5e5 an earth. 2 listene57
using the earphone7 an5 it or&e57 a Spanish ra5io station as being pic&e5 up. 6hen
the set as connecte5 to amp an5 spea&ers7 there as <uite lou5 clear reception. 2
then 5isconnecte5 the aerial ire from the set7 an5 the set ent 5ea5. 2 tune5 the
capacitor for some time7 but coul5 hear nothing. This folloe5 the theory7 a long
5istance aerial as nee5e5 to obtain the energy from the aira,es. This meant that7 in
the sOance room7 e oul5 not e!pect ra5io stations to be pic&e5 up7 unless there as
locally ,ery strong signals7 perhaps7 or if there ere other energies7 from 9Spirit: or
other sources.
6hen the crystal set as connecte5 to the coil7 an5 also to the amp an5 spea&er7 in the
sOance room7 e hear5 a crac&le an5 faint speech in Spanish. This as surprising as
Bob ha5 sai5 that this as unli&ely ithout a long e!ternal aerial ire.
6e all got prepare5 to start circle7 an5 e hear5 the Spanish ra5io programme
increase in ,olume. Coinci5entally7 hat soun5e5 li&e a prayer as being spo&en in
Spanish to a congregation. The me5ium sai5 e ant Hea,en7 not SpainB She
suggeste5 that the 9poer: buil5ing up ha5 cause5 the increase in ,olume. Shei
than&e5 9them: for turning 5on the ,olume 5uring our opening prayer7 shoing that
they really ere in control. "fter 2 spo&e the or5s 96e than& you for your gui5ance
an5 inspiration:7 there as an e!tremely lou5 poer surge noise hich ma5e us all
4ump. "s e sang some songs7 clic&s an5 a lou5 surge as hear57 an5 taps an5
thumps. There ere bump soun5s long an5 short hich remin5e5 me of 3orse Co5e7
an5 2 sai5 so. 2mme5iately7 e hear5 a group of ,ery lou5 clic&s or e!plosi,e soun5s1
short7 short7 long7 pause short. 3ore clic&s7 5ouble clic&s7 an5 surges folloe5. The
me5ium sai5 she thought they ere tuning the set7 because there as a 5ifferent
language no7 an5 a clic& folloe5 as if to agree.
Three lou5 thumping clic&s folloe57 an5 the me5ium hear5 a &in5 of 9theme tune:
from the ra5io playe5 o,er an5 o,er7 faintly7 about ten times. 2 hear5 it as ell7 an5 e
humme5 it together. 2t as repeate57 2 sai5 e coul5 hear7 an5 there as a clic&. (re5
as&e5 if 9they: ere ma&ing noises o,er the ne e<uipment7 an5 there as a clic&7
folloe5 by others.
Ee5 "rro7 through the me5ium7 then spo&e to us7 an5 as&e5 me to change o,er the
crystal set to the short a,e ban57 before e close5 the circle.
Ne!t 5ay at or&7 2 tol5 Bob ho the crystal set ha5 performe5 in the circle7 an5 he
as surprise5. 2t as 9against the rules: to get a clearly hear5 crystal ra5io signal
ithout an attache5 long e!ternal aerial. 6hen he or5ere5 the set7 he 5i5 not &no
that crystal sets ere able to pic& up shorta,e transmissions as ell as me5ium
a,e. He too& the set aay to change o,er the tappings so that e oul5 recei,e
short a,e7 as re<ueste5 by the circle gui5e. This as 5one7 rea5y for the ne!t circle.
#uring the ne!t circle7 the me5ium began roc&ing bac&ar5s an5 forar5s in her
chair7 breathing 5eeply7 an5 a gruff in5istinct ,oice as hear5. /ur lea5er trie5 to tal&
to the communicator7 ithout much success. (lora then spo&e through the me5ium7
.1
an5 e!plaine5 that he as a ne gentleman. $ach communicator ma5e himself &non
to the me5ium in a 5ifferent ay7 so that she oul5 be satisfie5 ith the i5entity.
(lora continue5 con,ersing ith us7 an5 among the noises 2 hear5 a soun5 li&e a
telephone bell7 hich 2 remar&e5 on. (lora sai57 9 ;ou ill hear all sorts of things7 2
am being tol5. Perhaps you shoul5 anser it7 Norman 5ear. They must practice on the
correct a,e to come through:.
2 as hearing a tittering soun57 hich 2 thought coul5 ha,e been ,oices trying to
spea&7 an5 2 suggeste5 this. The lea5er sai57 9There is a rabble of ,oices7 isn*t there-:
(lora replie57 9 ;ou can*t e!pect perfect7 my 5ear7 in one e,ening.:
The energy seeme5 to be buil5ing up in the ne!t fe circles. There ere 5ifferent
unusual soun5s7 an5 the me5ium ha5 a lot of sensations li&e col5 air an5 cool energy.
6e all coul5 smell chemicals an5 musty o5ours at times. The me5ium an5 the lea5er
sa light flashes beteen the coilbo! an5 the me5ium. 2 5i5 not obser,e this. The
me5ium sai5 that a 9sheet: ha5 been forme5 ne!t to her chee& 7 her face ha5 been
mo,e5 aroun57 an5 9they:7 perhaps7 ere trying to spea& that ay.
2n a circle at the en5 of January7 there ere further 5e,elopments. The me5ium sa a
bright light in her cabinet 5uring the opening prayer7 then she felt something being
built up against her face again. "fter e hear5 a hymn7 there as a lou5 e!plosi,e
noise7 an5 the &eyboar5 recor5e5 tune came on. 6e all 5enie5 touching the &eyboar5.
"s it playe5 on7 the me5ium felt ,ery col57 then she as&e5 permission of Spirit to turn
it off7 hich e 5i5. 6e all hear5 many clic& soun5s7 hich sometimes the me5ium
sa as lighting up the cabinet. Then7 there as a ,ery lou5 short e!plosi,e noise7 to
longer similar noises7 an5 the &eyboar5 song as sitche5 on againB
(or se,eral times no7 the &eyboar5 ha5 alays come on after hat e calle5 poer
surges7 li&e e!plosi,e soun5s. There ha5 to be a connection. There folloe5 an
impressi,e series of poer surges. Short7 long7 short7 long7 short7 short7 short7 short.
/ther surges an5 a rumbling soun5 ere hear57 an5 the me5ium as&e5 for the light to
be sitche5 on7 because she as orrie5 about hat the intense soun5 meant. She
as&e5 9them: hat they ere 5oing ith electricity.
2t as notice5 that the cupboar5 ne!t to her ha5 been mo,e5 to inches aay from
the cabinet7 but nothing on top of it ha5 been 5isturbe5. Ha5 the noises anything to 5o
ith this7 e thought.
"fter the circle as close57 e hear5 attracti,e soun5s li&e bir5song from the
coilMcrystal setM amplifierMspea&er7 an5 a high8pitche5 9tittering: soun5.
This sOance ha5 pro5uce5 ,ery impressi,e phenomena7 hich 2 coul5 not e!plain
e!cept in terms of an intelligent poer behin5 it. The me5ium as a truste5 trance
channel7 an5 seeme5 connecte5 to all the paranormal e,ents. "lthough some of the
e,i5ence as sub4ecti,e to the me5ium an5 relie5 on trust7 the ob4ecti,e e,ents alone
seeme5 gui5e57 not ran5om.
2t struc& me that most of the paranormal e,ents that ha5 happene5 so far ha5 been
hile the me5ium as fully conscious an5 ta&ing part7 singing7 4o&ing7 as&ing for
phenomena in a humorous ay. Perhaps she ha5 a part to play hile conscious that
she coul5 not 5o hile in trance.
The Church then pro,i5e5 me ith a bit of encouragement7 hen a me5ium sai57
9;our father is helping you a lot an5 patting you on the bac&. #o you heal7 there is a
man in a hite robe7 a higher gui5e7 he is helping7 there is lots of lo,e aroun5 you.
.%
Besi5es healing7 there is something else you ant to 5o spiritually. ;ou*re not retiring
yet7 there*s a lot more for you to 5o.:
6hen 2 5i5 healing after the ser,ice7 2 felt lots of heat an5 poer going through me
for my to patients.
The ne!t circle on 3on5ay 1%
th
(ebruary as run ithout the coil an5 crystal set7
hich ha5 been re<ueste5 by (lora7 to concentrate on the circle an5 perhaps 5irect
,oice. There ere a fe 9Hings:7 an5 5uring 9Singing in the rain:7 the me5ium sai5 7
92*m honoure57 2*m honoure5. Come an5 sing ith us one 5ay.: She sai5 he as not
alloe5 to7 but it as the singer of the song.
She then felt someone ith her7 her bac& as li&e a ramro57 someone ha5 a gingery
moustache7 he felt o,er ' feet tall7 an5 a 41 inch chest. This feeling as ne to the
me5ium.. 2 as&e5 if he ha5 ginger hair. She sai5 he hasn*t gone up to my hair. 2 as
thin&ing of my brother Eaymon57 as this 5escription fitte5.
She then sai57 9 2 ant to 5o something. This gentleman 5i5 this. 2 coul5 hear that.:
She as 5rumming her fingers rapi5ly on the cabinet7 ma&ing a 5rum8li&e soun5. 2
sai5 2 recognise5 him. She sai57 9#i5 he ha,e a ran& or something7 he &eeps saying
attentionB:
3y 5ecease5 brother as ma5 about 5rumming7 use5 to 5o it roun5 the house7 an5
ha5 one5 lots of 4aHH recor5s featuring 5rummers. He ha5 ser,e5 in the Col5stream
Guar5s at one time7 then the Territorial "rmy for a long time. . This as a goo5 means
of recognition7 2 thought. The me5ium 5i5 not ant clair,oyance in her circle7 but it
ha5 happene5.
Ee5 "rro then spo&e through the entrance5 me5ium7 an5 our lea5er as&e5 him hat
the noises ere e ha5 hear5 that e,ening7 similar to those e usually hear5.
9 2t is the magnetic fiel5 being pic&e5 up. ;ou ha,e hear5 the 9Hing:7 2 belie,e you
call it7 Norman. They are gi,ing you the total magnetic fiel57 that is there all the time7
but to pro5uce that soun5 ta&es <uite a lot of energy.:
2 as&e5 about the communicators ho ere behin5 the me5ium earlier.
9 2 5o not &no ho they ere. 2 &no they ere goo5 souls7 an5 2 alloe5 them to
use the channel*s bo5y for a short hile7 not for speech at this point. They ill spea&7
but e can only put the channel through so much. They ere both tall gentlemen.
They stretche5 her spine. She cannot ta&e too much of this7 or she*ll loo& ,ery
peculiar in the morningB:
2 then as&e5 if they ere connecte5 to me7 as 2 ha5 thought.
9 ;es they ere. They are telling me they are still here. They gi,e you encouragement
an5 a goo5 bearing. They uplift you7 ma&e you straight again7 as the tree. ;ou ben5 in
the in57 but they are here to gi,e you strength an5 uprightness:.
/n Satur5ay %
n5
3arch7 a Church message as gi,en to me by a me5ium7 from a man
ith one arm7 saying 9frien5:7 ho as lonely at the en5 of his life7 ho ha5
a5,ance5 on the other si5e7 ho sai5 2 gre floers in5oors. This as e,i5ential
from my 5ecease5 brother7 ho ha5 apparently come through the me5ium7 ith the
5rumming7 in a recent circle. He ha5 lost an arm in an in5ustrial acci5ent7 an5 ha5
turne5 against me in his last years for no rational reason that 2 as aare of. 2 en4oye5
in5oor potte5 floers.
2 got hol5 of Bob at or&7 to as& a fe <uestions about the latest e,ents.7 an5 listen to
the tape.
.)
9 6hen e hear5 the Lbir5song*7 hat as it7 coul5 it ha,e been from a ra5io station
li&e a call8sign-:
Bob sai5 no7 they use a regular soun5 li&e a beacon7 not irregular li&e Lbir5song*.
9 2s it possible for a poer surge in the mains electricity to sitch on the &eyboar57
hich happene5 a fe times in the circle-:
2f there is a mechanical button7 2 5o not see ho. 2f a logic circuit7 on stan5by7 it
possibly coul5 happen.
9 2 playe5 the 9Hing: on tape to you7 coul5 it be fee5bac&7 or something else
electronically &non-: 2
2t soun5s a bit li&e fee5bac&7 an5 there is a lot of e<uipment poere5 up in the room.
To ma&e sure7 sitch off the amplifier7 set your amp to no gain7 an5 use a mains filter
soc&et to eliminate interference from the mains.
This as all 5one7 rea5y for the ne!t sOance.
Chapter 1%1 2 lea,e the Tesla circle
(or the 3on5ay 4
th
3arch 199' circle7 2 plugge5 a filter in to the mains7 an5
connecte5 all my e<uipment to this using a four soc&et e!tension. This meant that no
unante5 9noise 9 or surges in the mains supply oul5 affect outputs. The
oscilloscope as plugge5 in7 an5 shoe5 a straight line until the coil an5 crystal set
ere connecte57 hen the right of screen shoe5 a mass of sharp pea&e5 lines 7 but
the left si5e as blan&. The ,olume as set lo7 an5 minimum gain7 as Bob ha5 sai5.
9Kinging: starte5 lou5 early7 then clic&s an5 poer surges. The 5isplay as on the
right si5e throughout. The rea5out change5 slightly hen Hinging occurre5. There
as a buHH7 a lou5 clic&7 an5 the pea&s ent higher. 3ore thumps an5 clic&s7 then an
extremely long and loud poer surge as hear57 hich shoc&e5 us7 an5 the me5ium
sai5 something hit her in her solar ple!us. She &ne that they ere buil5ing up for it.
The music as turne5 5on7 the me5ium sai5 hello7 a clic&7 then a or5 9more:7 or
9amour:7 is on the tape. "s she tal&e5 to 9them:7 there ere a series of soft clic&s.
Clic&s continue5 as e spo&e as ell. She as con,ince5 that they ere trying ,ery
har5 to form or5s on a a,e. There ere no ra5io soun5s. " lou5 crac& as hear57
hich correspon5e5 ith a flash blip on the left si5e of the screen.
This circle seeme5 to ha,e pro,e5 that the phenomena ere nothing to 5o ith mains
fluctuations7 as so much ha5 occurre5 5espite the mains filter being use5.
The ne!t sOance pro5uce5 the usual strange noises7 but after the closing prayer there
ere e!tra 9"mens: 7 to be hear5 on the tape recor5ing later. There ere four soft
amens as one of us as spea&ing7 then three more in lou5er ,oice7 then a final three
amens in a 5ifferent ,oice again. This seeme5 to be a &in5 of electronic ,oice
phenomenon7 because it as confirme5 that no sitter ha5 sai5 these or5s.
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The sOances continue5 pro5ucing similar noises each ee&7 some hispers hich e
thought coul5 be attempte5 speech7 an5 long con,ersations ith ,arious
communicators7 regar5ing our con5uct of the circle.
There folloe5 a N"S seminar at Burton8on Trent7 o,er $aster. "fter the e,ening
meal7 our me5ium felt li&e ha,ing table tilt there an5 then in the lounge7 an5 they
began to gather roun5 ith frien5s7 2 5ecline5 to 4oin them7 an5 sai5 it shoul5 be 5one
properly in a <uiet 5ar& room or not at all7 in my opinion. 2t oul5 be real contact
ith Spirit7 an5 shoul5 be respecte5. The me5ium agree57 an5 as&e5 a fe N"S
notables to 4oin us in a be5room.
"fter the prayer7 finger tips ere place5 on the table7 an5 soon there ere tremors in
the table. 2 felt intense heat an5 facial tingles. The tremors got stronger 6e as&e5 for
one tilt for yes7 an5 to for no. >etters ere then pro,i5e5 by the number of tilts. "
name Scott7 then >ucy age5 +7 as spelle5 out7 &non to Beryl an5 Bren5a7 then to
more &non to them.
Ne!t as a Horace7 a relati,e of our circle lea5er7 an5 the table roc&e5 ,iolently
toar5s her until it as hitting her bo5y. 6e ha5 to pull it bac& to the mi55le.
2 then as&e5 for all han5s to be ta&en off the table7 or only fingertips on 7 to pro,e it
asn*t us mo,ing it7 in the goo5 but sub5ue5 light.
" message for Bren5a an5 Beryl en5e5 up ith the table on their laps.
>astly7 there as a message from (re55ie for our me5ium. The table roc&e5 toar5s
her. She as&e5 here are you no-7 an5 he spelle5 out by the table 92n Hea,en:. 6e
sang one of his songs7 an5 the table roc&e5 ,ery acti,ely in to her lap for some time.
She as an a5mirer of (re55ie 3ercury7 an5 2 ha5 been tol5 that he ha5 come through
our entrance5 me5ium before 2 4oine5 the circle.
2 felt <uite emotional about this. 2 thought that Spirit ha5 ta&en the opportunity to
encourage her to belie,e in her channelling ability. She as a 5oubter7 an5 foun5 it
har5 to belie,e that Spirit ere 9really there:. " bit li&e me really.
"fter the lectures7 2 as selecte5 to atten5 the Steart "le!an5er sOance for members.
To trumpets ere seen flying about. /ne came 5on on our lea5er*s lap7 an5 rolle5
aroun5. " 5emonstration of 5e8materialising an5 re8materialisinga cable tie7 to sho
a selecte5 sitter7as performe5 by communicator 6alter Stinson.
/ur lea5er then ha5 a trumpet come to her7 an5 a gui5e spo&e through it an5 ga,e
her name. 2t as her father7 an5 a Harry as accepte5. Them Jac&7 an uncle7 as
mentione5 by the gui5e7 an5 she sai5 that he as miserable. The gui5e sai5 he as a
miserable ol5 git7 but then7 an entity calling himself Jac& sai57 through the trumpet7 9
6hat a bloo5y chee&B: "n5 other things.
Seances continue57 an5 at one 9Hinging: began early7 there as a noise li&e a miao7
crac&ling7 poer surges7 then a lou5 poer surge an5 a piano note soun5e5. 2t as
hear5 by us all7 an5 coul5 be hear5 on the tape. Ee5 "rro communicate5 an5 trie5 to
persua5e me to 5o automatic riting7 so that 2 coul5 get information from 3ichael.
The other to ere as&e5 to continue trying7 they ere getting some success.
2n 3ay7 our circle tra,elle5 to Bath to atten5 another N"S meeting here >incoln
as 5emonstrating again. The ,oice an5 singing hich soun5e5 li&e Ju5y Garlan5
as e!cellent again7 an5 later (eli! as sai5 to ha,e materialise5. Someone al&e5
roun5 an5 shoo& some sitters* han5s. They sai5 it felt li&e a man*s han5. The me5ium
ma5e gurgling noises7 then a ,oice as&e5 for Norm7 then hat soun5e5 li&e Norman7
..
an5 my boy. This fitte5 me7 an5 2 ac&nole5ge5. The ,oice sai57 9 2 ga,e you lots of
lo,e7 a close relationship:. To test the communicator7 2 sai57 9 Eemember the chips
3um. "n5 hen 2 fe5 you hen you ere in hospital- 9 The ,oice sai57 9 ;ou
brushe5 my hair:. 2 as sure 2 ne,er 5i5 this.
9 6e are as close as it is possible to be7 beteen your orl5 an5 ours:. This as not
e,i5ence7 but my mother ha5 gi,en me many messages by no through me5iums. 2
as not sure if this message as for me7 it 5i5 not feel right. 3y memories ere not
ta&en up at all.
2 then recei,e5 a shoc&ing letter from our circle lea5er7 saying that the circle as
cancelle5. The me5ium ha5 become e!tremely unell7 an5 if the circle continue5 it
oul5 be in Poole. They presume5 2 oul5 not tra,el the e!tra 5istance7 an5 maybe
this is Spirit*s ay of mo,ing me toar5s forming my on circle. >ots of than&s for
my 5e5ication7 an5 they oul5 &eep in touch. So it as o,er. But 2 still ha5 the
healing7 an5 the Church. Perhaps it as meant to be7 as 2 as often tol5.
Chapter 1)1 " lonely time
3y ife an5 2 ha5 separate5 ithin the house for about to years by no7 an5 e
ere aiting for our 5i,orce to be finalise5. She ante5 me to ha,e custo5y of our
teenage son7 an5 2 ha5 to arrange sale of the house7 then split the procee5s beteen us.
2 then ha5 to fin5 ne accommo5ation7 an5 start again on my on.
"t a Spiritualist Church ser,ice7 2 spotte5 Eose7 ho 2 ha5 met once at a 6or&shop7
an5 e*5 or&e5 together in a group here she ha5 9trance5: an5 a gui5e ha5 spo&e
through her. 2 sai5 hello7 she came o,er after the ser,ice7 she tal&e5 about a
6or&shop she as going to7 an5 that she as no longer in a circle. She confi5e5 some
personal orries she ha57 an5 e agree5 to see each other in the Church. She sai5 that
she 5oes healing in her home7 ith some frien5s.
6hen 2 sa her the folloing ee&7 2 propose5 that e oul5 be companions7 as e
ha5 a lot in common7 an5 felt comfortable ith each other in con,ersation. This
please5 her7 an5 she sai5 e oul5 meet for spiritual interests7 but she ha5 a
boyfrien5. 2 gathere5 that Eose as another 5oubter about the reality of the Spirit
6orl5. 2t seeme5 that li&e attracts li&e. (irst there as Cin5y7 then the physical
me5ium7 an5 no Eose.
2 as still in regular contact ith Cin5y7 an5 2 as ,ery please5 hen e met up ith
her an5 family in the Church7 an5 she ha5 a goo5 message there. 2t as from her
sister. She rarely recei,e5 a message7 unli&e myself. Her #ons Syn5rome 5aughter
also ha5 a message.
2 spent a 5ay ith Eose7 an5 she tol5 me that she oul5 li&e to transfigure7 an5 use the
energy of a circle 7 not 5o clair,oyance. She ha5 been tol5 that to male energies
.'
oul5 help her. 2 suggeste5 e ha,e a me5itation7 an5 as 2 loo&e5 at her7 her face &ept
changing an5 blan&ing7 bigger an5 smaller. She sai5 that a Chinaman as ith me7
an5 energy as aroun5.
Some frien5s in,ite5 me to go ith them to a 3in57 Bo5y7 an5 Spirit $!hibition in
>on5on7 hich as interesting7 an5 e ,isite5 6hite $agle >o5ge later.
2 got to &no Eose7 an5 foun5 that she ha5 an o,arian cyst7 ,ery large7 hich re<uire5
a ma4or operation an5 ) months reco,ery time.
She as con,ince5 that e ere brought together to help an5 support7 heal7 physical
phenomena7 transfiguration perhaps7 an5 $arth healing as strong ith her. She pulls
out negati,e energy from the $arth li&e a rope. 2t goes up7 an5 turns in to goo5 energy.
People oul5 thin& she as nuts7 so she only tells those she can trust. She sai5 e
oul5 sit7 2 oul5 be lea5er7 not her frien5 Paul7 ho as too busy. She then shoe5
me an atlas here she ha5 been tol5 by Spirit there oul5 be a 5isaster by plates
mo,ing ithin tenty years7 fire an5 ater7 healing coul5 help but not stop it. 2 ga,e
her healing7 an5 she sai5 that her bac& pain ha5 no gone.
The ne!t ee&7 Eose as&e5 me if 2 as going to Church. She as going ith a
boyfrien57 but oul5 li&e to see me there as a frien5. So 2 ent.
He came to me7 an5 sai57 9 6ho is mo,ing-: 3e7 2 sai5. @ 2 as planning to sell my
houseA.
9 ;ou ha,e to mo,e. #i5 a la5y sen5 you here tonight7 or persua5e you to come-:
;es7 2 sai5. 2 loo&e5 in Eose*s 5irection an5 e smile5. @ 2 ha5 not inten5e5 to come
before Eosemary rang meA.
9/n the material7 ho is Cynthia-: " goo5 frien57 2 sai5.
9 ;ou are opening an5 closing a boo&:. ;es.
This as interesting7 that the me5ium ha5 gi,en the unusual name of Cynthia7 ho
ha5 been my closest spiritual frien5 up to that time7 an5 also gi,en a reference
concerning Eose.
>ater that month 7 Eose ha5 her operation. 2 ,isite5 her in hospital7 an5 later ga,e her
healing. She sai5 it as ,ery effecti,e.
3y ol5 frien5 3oya ha5 traine5 to be a counsellor7 an5 e met again an5 tal&e5 about
our 5ifferent pathays.
6e me5itate5 together ith her husban57 an5 there as lots of energy e thought.
She 9sa: my father on my face7 an5 sai5 he as ,ery strict. True. >ater7 she sai5 she
sa a long 9spout:7 ith oil or something coming out7 a lot of green7 an5 me in a
hite coat.
2 e!plaine5 that 2 ha5 been ma&ing some green coloure5 9gel: that 5ay at or&7 an5
e use a lot of oil to ma&e it7 poure5 through a metal 4ug ith a spout. 2 ha5 been
earing a hite lab coat. This as <uite specific7 an5 confirme5 her psychic abilities
hich 2 ha5 &non before.
"s time ent on7 2 ha5 become attracte5 to Eose7 but she 5i5 not ish to ta&e our
frien5ship further. 2 ha5 felt ,ery lonely lately7 an5 ha5 praye5 for a partner. 2 ha5
tal&e5 to a fe frien5s ho 2 felt7 inclu5ing to female colleagues. They tal&e5 about
fi!ing me up ith a blin5 5ate. 2 ha5 ritten a letter an5 a che<ue to apply to the local
nespaper 5ating columns7 to try to fin5 someone7 but ha5 not poste5 it yet.
That morning7 my colleagues came to see me in great e!citement.
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;ou &no you are trying to meet someone7- they sai5. 2 as tol5 all about Joanna7 a
sister8in Fla of one of the la5ies. 2 as gi,en her number to ring7 she as e!pecting
a call from me7 an5 she oul5 li&e me to ta&e her to the Spiritualist Church. Her
mother ha5 been a Spiritualist.
2 as shoc&e5 by this offer. Ha5 it been inspire5 by Spirit- 2 ha5 praye5 for a partner.
2 5eci5e5 to trust in Spirit7 an5 2 ha5 nothing to lose anyay.
The letter as not sent. 2 rang Joanna that e,ening7 an5 she ma5e it ,ery easy for me7
she as frien5ly an5 natural. She sai5 she coul5 not get out after 9pm7 she ent to a
Cof $ Church Sun5ays7Tues5ays an5 6e5nes5ays7 ha5 no car7 as a home bo57 ha5
to chil5ren at home7 an5 5i5 not min5 that 2 as much ol5er.
/ur first 5ate atten5ing the Church as ,ery pleasant7 an5 e arrange5 another
meeting. 2 li&e5 her imme5iately7 an5 thought that she felt the same. 6e ha5 a chaste
&iss goo5night7 an5 2 ent home an5 me5itate5. 2 felt intense itchings an5 tingles all
o,er my face7 lips7 chin7 an5 forehea5. 2 felt7 or hope57 that this as my helpers7
gui5es7 3um an5 #a57 appro,ing of hat 2 as 5oing7 an5 meeting Joanna.
6e continue5 to 5ate7 an5 e got on ,ery ell. Jo as ,ery practical an5 5on8to8
$arth. She belie,e5 in Spirit an5 an afterlife7 but as not really intereste5 in e,i5ence7
she 4ust belie,e5. She as happy to ta&e communion at ser,ices in her Cof $ Church
an5 as&e5 me to go ith her7 but also to go to Spiritualist ser,ices.
6e ent to the Spiritualist Church again soon afterar5s. " me5ium ent to her7 an5
sai5 that her mother as ith her7 she 5ie5 of a heart attac&7 5escribe5 her glasses7
an5 that Jo ha5 a brother. This all fitte5 an5 Jo accepte5 it.
Jo tol5 me that her mother ha5 alays atten5e5 this Church7 an5 a family memorial to
her ha5 been inclu5e5 in a ser,ice there7 after she ha5 passe5 o,er7 not long ago.
Coinci5entally7 2 ha5 been present at that ser,ice7 so ha5 been in the same buil5ing as
Jo before7 ithout &noing it.
"t another ser,ice later in the month7 the me5ium sai5 that 2 &ne my to gui5es. @ 2
5i5n*tA. 2 as on the right pathay no7 but ha5 ha5 orries. 2 5i5 healing. 6as 2 in
a circle- @ Dse5 to beA. They*re saying you*re thin&ing of going in to a circle again7
you ha,e potential.
2 as no 5oing healing ith Eose an5 Ju5ith e,ery ee& no7 an5 also atten5e5 the
Church as a healing trainee. 3essages from me5iums ere gi,en to me regularly7 for
encouragement.
"fter healing at Eose*s one ee&7 e me5itate5 together in a soft re5 light7 2 sa her
face change7 an5 ha5 facial tingles. Her han5s mo,e5 about7 an5 she spo&e in some
&in5 of altere5 aareness. 2 thought she might ha,e 9trance5: an5 ha,e someone ith
her7 so 2 trie5 to respon5.
9 ;ou as&e5 me to come:. 6elcome7 frien5.
9 The energies are goo57 there is also a goo5 attitu5e. ;ou ha,e 5oubts7 no matter ho
much e,i5ence you ha,e ha5. 2t*s the scientific min57 e can un5erstan5 this. 2 ant
to gi,e you blue. " passion floer. >oo& 5eep ithin the centre an5 let your min5
an5er to see the colours.: 3ay 2 as& your name-
9 ;ou may7 it is Simon.: 6elcome7 Simon. "re you a ne gui5e7 or helper7 to the
channel-
9 2 am ne to her7 but 2 ha,e been here before. 2 am alays aroun5.:
2t as <uiet for a hile7 then 2 sa her face 9blac&en: an5 energy aroun5 her 2
thought.
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" 5ifferent ,oice then sai57 9 Norman7 no tric&s:. 3y face itche5 an5 tingle5
intensely.
Eose gra5ually came roun57 an5 sai5 she ha5 been pulle5 in to 5eeper sleep near the
en57 but coul5 remember some of the things she ha5 sai5 li&e in a 5ream.
The healing as en4oyable for me. /ne ee& in Church7 a patient tol5 me that 2 ha5
heale5 her ba5 stomach the pre,ious ee&7 it as no much better7 an5 &isse5 me
gratefully. She then as&e5 me to heal her bac&7 an5 hen 2 5i5 so 2 felt heat7 especially
in one place. She tol5 me later that this as here the pain as . She crie5 afterar5s7
an5 sai5 she ante5 the armth of my han5s to go on an5 on. >ater she tol5 me that
her bac& as /? no. This ga,e me a lot of encouragement that it as or&ing7 an5 2
alays seeme5 to feel better after 5oing healing as ell.
#espite this7 2 as not con,ince5 that 9Spirit: as really using me as a healing
channel7 2 thought it as 4ust as li&ely that my energy7 or Dni,ersal $nergy7 as use5
in the healing.
The ne!t perio5 from 199+ as 5ominate5 by finalising my 5i,orce7 then my
relationship ith Jo7 en5ing up in marriage. She came to li,e ith me7 as 2 no ha5
no nee5 to sell the house. 6e share5 our resources to compensate my e!8ife. So it
as me7 Jo7 my son 3atthe7 an5 Jo*s to chil5ren7 >ynsey an5 Tom.
There as no circle for me no7 but healing continue5 at Eose*s7 an5 2 still heale5 at
the Church.
2n July 199=7 2 began sitting in a circle ith Paul an5 Eose on Tues5ays. This 5i5 not
really 5e,elop in to anything7 an5 2 left this in the No,ember. 6e ere still frien5s7
an5 2 as elcome to still come for healing sessions.
2 ha5 to spen5 a lot of time on my physical life no7 ith the ne family. 2 on5ere5
if my spiritual search ha5 finishe5. "ll opportunities seeme5 to ha,e 5rie5 up. 2 as
feeling ,ery happy hoe,er7 an5 no longer at all lonely. Jo an5 2 socialise5 ith my
ol5 frien5s Cin5y an5 3oya7 an5 also my ne frien5 Eose.
But then7 out of the blue7 the physical me5ium for our ol5 Tesla circle got in touch
ith me again. She as&e5 if 2 oul5 li&e to sit ith her in a physical circle7 at my
house.
2 thought this as meant to be7 an5 coul5 not turn it 5on7 although 2 &ne ho tiring
an5 e!pensi,e the 1%0 mile roun5 trip as. 2t as agree5 that me7 Eose7 an5 the
me5ium oul5 sit7 to begin ith. 6e ere hoping to 5e,elop the me5ium7 for 5irect
,oice.
The first sitting as 4
th
No,ember7 1999.
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Chapter 141 3y on physical circle
"s a physical circle is normally hel5 in the 5ar&7 an5 ob4ecti,e phenomena is the aim7
there are opportunities for frau5 to ta&e place. This has happene5 in the past. " sceptic
can ne,er be sure that the seance con5itions are not rigge57 an5 that the people
running it are honest.
Here as an une!pecte5 opportunity 7 as circle lea5er an5 oner of the circle7 to set
the con5itions myself7 an5 ma&e sure that e,erything as totally honest.
2t seeme5 strange to me that e ere all 5oubters about the e!istence of a Spirit
6orl57 5espite all that the me5ium ha5 5one in the Tesla circle7 an5 Eose bringing
through communicators hile in 9trance.: Both of them 5oubte5 it as real Spirits
after the e,ent7 they coul5 not remember hat they*5 sai57 an5 5i5 not ish to rea5
my sOance notes. "s for me7 2 ha5 recei,e5 many e,i5ential messages7 an5 ha5
obser,e5 many une!plaine5 e,ents7 but still ha5 many unansere5 <uestions.
Setting up a physical circle room is not easy. Not a chin& of light is alloe5 in7 so
curtains7 blin5s etc ha,e to be ma5e to co,er 5oors an5 in5os completely.
" cassette player 7 ith appropriate music tapes7 is recommen5e57 to help 9raise the
,ibrations:. " recor5ing 5e,ice is necessary7 in this case a Sony recor5er7 ith a flat
microphone attache57 to recor5 the sOance soun5s. " lamp to pro5uce 5im re5 light.
Tables an5 chairs. Someone to stay 9aa&e: an5 operate the e<uipment7 hich as
me.
"nyone can begin a physical circle7 but it is best to inclu5e someone ith &non
abilities for physical me5iumship. $,en then7 phenomena may not occur for months
or years7 an5 sitters may ha,e to ait in patience. #e5ication is paramount7 toar5s
the ob4ecti,es7 through the 5e,elopment of hate,er me5ium or energy is present.
/ur sOance room upstairs as about 9 feet s<uare7 ith one in5o an5 a 5oor7
hich ere curtaine57 an5 tape5 on the e5ges. 2 sat in a corner7 ith a table on my
right ith the lamp an5 Sony recor5er. /n my left as the cassette player ith the
'0
music tape. The me5ium sat on my right in front of a chest of 5raers7 an5 Eose sat
facing me in front of a ra5iator.
6e ere hoping to achie,e 5irect ,oice7 but e e!pecte5 communicators to gui5e us7
an5 e oul5 see hat happene57 an5 analyse the recor5e5 tapes carefully.
2 opene5 the first circle in prayer7 an5 e sat <uietly listening to the tape7 ith the re5
lamp on. Eose as breathing hea,ily an5 her right han5 as clenche5. She ha5
someone ith her7 ho e elcome57 an5 ho sai5 her name as $liHabeth. She as
here to help us. The re5 light an5 music as alright7 an5 e coul5 ha,e a table in the
mi55le. " re<uest came for Eose to change places ith the me5ium7 so that she oul5
sit in front of the lamp. 2 felt ,ery arm7 an5 tic&ly tingles ere on my face.
There as nothing 9e!tra: on the recor5e5 tape.
The circle continue5 until /ctober %000. Iarious communicators came through both
the me5ium an5 Eose7 an5 they seeme5 to or& together as a pair. Iarious soun5s an5
or5s that coul5 not be accounte5 for ere hear5 on the recor5e5 tape at times.
"5,ice an5 instructions ere gi,en7 an5 the circle increase5 in siHe.
The con,ersations ith communicators7 an5 other interesting occurrences7 oul5 fill
another boo&7 but there ere some ,ery special occasions.
/n %0
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July %0007 Eosemary suggeste5 that e ha,e a table tilt ith the re5 light on. 2
as 5elighte5 by this7 as 2 ha5 hope5 it oul5 happen here one 5ay.
" roun5 oo5en table as cleare5 an5 place5 in the mi55le. Present ere the
me5ium7 Eose7 Pam7 an5 myself. 6e all place5 fingers on the table7 an5 singing
began. Su55enly7 the table roc&e5 toar5s the me5ium7 an5 it as not us 5oing it.
Eosemary then as&e57 % @o !o+ ha(e a #essa'e for so#eone5 &f so" tilt one"
please-$
2t tilte5 once.
3e5ium1 %&s it for ?or#an5- No tilt7 but raps are on the recor5e5 tape.
Norman1 % &t is one ro) for !es" isn2t it5- Tilt7 an5 a rap on tape.
Eose1 %1e o+ld 'o thro+'h the alphabet$ 6a(e !o+ a #essa'e for .a#" if so"
ro) one$ No tilt. % &s it for the #edi+#5- No tilt. %&s it for Aose5- No tilt.
3e5ium1 %@o !o+ ha(e a #essa'e for the ,hole irle5- /ne tilt toar5s her.
Eose1 % Shall ,e 'o thro+'h the alphabet5- /ne tilt.
The me5ium starte5 to call out letters7 an5 it tilte5 once at S. She continue5 this7 an5
an 2 an5 a ? ere gi,en one tilt. 6e chec&e5 it as S2? so far7 an5 got one tilt. Ne!t
letters gi,en ere $ an5 S7 so e as&e5 confirmation if it as Si&es. /ne tilt tol5 us
yes.
3e5ium1 % &s that !o+r na#e5- Tilt.
Eose1 % &s that 8ister5- /ne tilt.
3e5ium1 %&t2s not ;ri S!)es is it5- No tilt.
She then calle5 out letters for his Christian name7 an5 it tilte5 at N.
3e5ium1 9&s it ?or#an Si)es5- Tilt. %Are !o+ ,ell5- Tilt. 9 &2# (er! 'lad !o+
a#e toni'ht$ &s the irle pro'ressin' 0B 5- Tilt. 9&s it 0B if ,e as) 7+estions5-
Tilt.
Eose1 % 6a(e !o+ o#e alone" 8r Si)es5 Table roc&e5 <uic&ly an5 repeate5ly. %So
!o+ bro+'ht friends ,ith !o+5- Tilt.
3e5iumi1 %>o+2re all (er! ,elo#e" are !o+ ,or)in' ,ith the irle5- Tilt. % Are
!o+ in har'e of the ph!sial pheno#ena5- Tilt. 9&s #! @ad here" 8r Si)es5-
Tilt. %That2s nie$ &s #! Ca) here5- No tilt.
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Pam1%&s #! @ad there5- Tilt. %6o, abo+t #! 8+#" is she here too5- Tilt.
3e5ium1 % &s ?or#an2s 8+# here5- Tilt.
Eose1 9&s #! brother here5- No tilt.
3e5ium1 % &s Deor'e Chap#an here5- No tilt.
Pam1 % 6ello @ad" if !o+2re there & #iss !o+-$ Tilt.
The table then repeate5ly tilte5 an5 roc&e5 toar5s Norman7 mo,e5 toar5s him7 an5
hit against his stomach. "ll han5s ere either right off the table7 or only lightly
touching. Norman than&e5 hoe,er as roc&ing the table against him. The table then
ent on one leg7 an5 mo,e5 along the floor7 roc&e5 ,iolently as though 5ancing7 an5
got stuc& on Norman*s chair. 2t as place5 bac& in the mi55le7 but then it roc&e5
<uic&ly in to the me5ium*s lap.
Norman1 % @o !o+ ha(e a #essa'e for the irle5- Tilt.
Eose1 % Shall ,e 'o thro+'h the alphabet5- No tilt.
Norman1 %&s the #essa'e" that !o+ are sho,in' +s !o+2re here" b! this #ethod of
o##+niation5- Tilt. 91as Aose#ar! inspired fro# !o+r side to s+''est doin'
this5- Tilt. % Sho+ld ,e do this e(er! ,ee)5- No tilt.
Eose1 %1as & inspired bea+se ,e ,anted e(idene of !o+r presene5- Tilt.
Norman1 %@id !o+ p+t the na#e" Tina" on to the tape last ,ee)5- No tilt.
3e5ium1 %@id Spirit p+t the na#e on the tape5- Tilt. %1e send !o+ o+r lo(e 8r
Si)es" do !o+ send +s !o+rs5- Tilt. %>o+2re (er! ,elo#e" as !o+ o#e in lo(e$
Are the! happ! ,ith the ,a! the irle is 'oin'5- Tilt. %@o !o+ ,ant +s to ha(e
the red li'ht on5- No tilt. %@o !o+ ha(e so#eone ,ith !o+5- Tilt. 9Shall ,e
ontin+e as ,e ha(e been doin'5- No tilt.
3ore <uestions ere as&e5 about con5itions7 but there ere no tilts.
Norman1 %Are !o+ ,aitin' to 'et an ans,er fro# !o+r friends5- Tilt. %The! #a!
be debatin' it no,-$ No tilt7 but a clic& is on tape.
Eose1 %Can !o+ see so#ebod! on #! ri'ht" @i5- ;es. %The!2re ta)in' #e o(er
at+all!$
3e5ium1 %The #essa'e ,ill o#e thro+'h !o+" then$-
#uring the hymn 9Be thou my ,ision:7 e elcome5 a frien5 spea&ing through Eose.
They ere orrie5 that e ere beginning to a,er in our beliefs7 especially
Norman.
3e5ium sai57 92s that hy you &ept hitting him in the stomach-:
% & a# part of the ener'ies ,hih !o+ all E& a#2$ 8! friend here has been 'i(en
an insi'ht in to E& a#2$ ;xplanations an be #ade later$ >o+ ,ill see +pon the
person of #! instr+#ent E& a#2$- " clic& follos on the tape.
2 coul5 see Eose*s face changing7 an5 sai5 so7 Pam also sa change. The
communicator sai5 that it as ma5e up of ectoplasm an5 other energies.
6e than&e5 L2 am*7 ho sai5 that this instrument as particularly goo5 to or& ith.
The me5ium sai5 that*s goo57 an5 e ere tol5 that as another reason for the re5
light.
3usic as resume57 the me5ium began to 9go off:7 an5 sai5 someone as sitting on
her &nee. " 5ouble clic& is hear5 on the tape7 an5 the table starte5 roc&ing ,iolently
again. 6e as&e5 if it as Norman Si&es again7 an5 got one tilt.
Eose1 % 1hen ,e had Tina last ,ee) on tape" ,as that the Tina & )no," in
Spirit5- Tilt. 9 1as that ,h! & tho+'ht abo+t =rian the next da!5- Tilt. %Than)
!o+ Tina" that2s brilliant-$
'%
Pam as&e5 if Eose &ne Tina ,ery ell7 an5 as tol5 that she as a client ho 5ie5
,ery young.
Eose1 %Are !o+ here toni'ht Tina5- No tilt.
Norman1 %1ill !o+ tilt one for !es" or t,ie for no5- To tilts.
Eosemary1 %1ill !o+ 'i(e #! lo(e to Tina please5- Tilt.
The table starte5 roc&ing again. 6e as&e5 if anyone ante5 to spea& through the
me5ium. " tilt ansere5 us. 3usic as turne5 off7 an5 9#orothy: spo&e through the
me5ium. Norman as tol5 that he shoul5 start belie,ing more7 an5 that a la5y oul5
not lea,e her alone7 she 4ust &eeps on about chips7 chips7 chipsB This ma5e perfect
sense to me7 to 5o ith my mother. 2nstructions ere gi,en about the room setup for
ne!t ee&7 an5 that en5e5 a most remar&able sOance as far as 2 as concerne5.
2 ha5 been in total control of the physical con5itions7 so &ne there as no frau5. 2
on5ere5 hat the arch8sceptics oul5 ha,e ma5e of the session. 2 oul5 ha,e lo,e5
James Ean5i7 Eichar5 #a&ins7 an5 a fe others to ha,e itnesse5 it.
Tonight as a triumph of the highest or5er.
2 loo&e5 bac& at the pre,ious ee&*s account7 an5 listene5 to the tape again. The same
sitters ha5 been present. $arly on in the seance7 the me5ium an5 Eose seeme5 to be
going off7 an5 Pam sai5 she as going 5eep herself. Then there as a 5ouble clic&
noise7 recor5e5 on the tape. Pam sai5 hat*s that- Then 2 sai5 hat*s that- Then7
clearly on the tape can be hear5 7 92t as Tina:.
Pam sai5 that she coul5 hear hispering ,ery clearly from near Eose7 an5 later Eose
sai5 she coul5 hear someone hispering . 2 hear5 a clear hisper as ell7 an5 on tape
there are some soun5s li&e hispering or breathing softly. 2 ha5 tol5 Eose about the
or5s hen 2 ha5 transcribe5 the tape7 an5 she sai5 she &ne a Tina in Spirit.
The me5ium une!pecte5ly 5eci5e5 to lea,e us7 after about ten months. She ha5 her
on reasons for 5oing so7 an5 2 &ne ho e!pensi,e it as for petrol7 ha,ing
tra,elle5 to her house for si! months. 2t is also ,ery tiring after a 5ay*s or&.
2 as so 5isappointe5 that 2 ma5e a hasty 5ecision to close the circle 5on. 6e ha5 no
physical me5ium7 Eose as a trance me5ium an5 one8time message8gi,er7 Pam ha5
as yet un&non gifts7 an5 Cli,e ha5 4ust 4oine5 an5 as clair,oyant.
2t seeme5 li&ely that a reforme5 circle oul5 be of a mental nature7 an5 2 felt unable
to host this ithout a suitable me5ium present. They ere 5isappointe57 but nobo5y
offere5 to host it instea57 or suggest a me5ium to help us.
2n %0047 2 as in,ite5 to 4oin a ne group of intereste5 people7 mainly healers7 to
help them try table tilting. 2t as a complete failure7 although e trie5 tice un5er
similar con5itions. So8 it*s not that easyB 2 on5ere5 hether the physical me5ium
ha5 been responsible for the table tilt7 or hether Eose coul5 5o the same. 2t seeme5
that 2 5i5 not ha,e the gift. But 2 ha5 pro,e5 the paranormal7 an5 oul5 ne,er 5oubt it
again.
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Chapter 1.1 3ore than messages
"fter my physical circle en5e5 in /ctober %0007 2 ha5 resigne5 from Church healing.
2 ha5 passe5 the C1+ theory course7 an5 traine5 for to years7 but to become
registere5 2 ha5 to be assesse5 an5 teste5 by SND officials7 ho oul5 5eci5e
hether 2 coul5 heal or not. This re5uce5 my enthusiasm at the time.
3y spiritual search as then limite5 to occasional atten5ances at Church ser,ices7
atching a fe TI psychic programmes7 an5 rea5ing many more boo&s about the
paranormal7 an5 Spiritualism an5 it*s people an5 history.
/,er the ne!t nine years7 se,eral messages ere offere5 to me through a ,ariety of
me5iums7 confirming Spirit*s ongoing relationship ith our orl57 an5 their interest
in our 5aily affairs. 2 mainly ent to Church to en4oy the peace ith li&e8min5e5
people7 although really 2 felt 2 ha5 no nee5 of any more messages. The intereste5
rea5er can e!amine them for himself or herself7 in "ppen5i!1. These folloe5 the
messages inclu5e5 in my first boo&7 9Spirit 3essages:.
.
3y physical life as ,ery busy ith my ne family7 an5 the change of arrangements
for our chil5ren resulte5 in a certain amount of friction in the home. "t the same time7
Jo as stri,ing to a5,ance in her nursing position7 an5 e ere impro,ing the house
to suit us both.
2 foun5 that 2 ha5 change57 in such a ay that 2 as much better able to 5eal ith the
problems. 2 coul5 see here the philosophy of the Spiritualist 3o,ement ha5 affecte5
me for the better.
Dne!pecte5ly7 2 happene5 to meet Eose again in the Church7 in %00'. 6e ha5 lost
touch7 e!cept for Christmas car5 e!change. 2 in,ite5 her roun57 an5 e caught up on
our spiritual nes.
2 tol5 Eose that 2 ha5 type5 up all my spiritual search acti,ities up to no7 as
consi5ering getting some of it publishe57 an5 no longer heale5 in the Church. Eose
sai5 that she no longer heale5 in her home.
'4
6e began to meet nearly e,ery ee& as spiritual frien5s7 hich as supporte5 by Jo7
to allo me to pursue my interest in the spiritual.
/ne 5ay7 Eose rang me an5 encourage5 me to rite a boo& about the messages from
Spirit 2 ha5 recei,e57 ta&en from the total recor5. 6e coul5 not thin& of a selling point
for the boo&. 2 5i5 not ant to ma&e money from it7 but e<ually coul5 not affor5 to
lose a lot either. " specialist Spiritualist publisher as approache57 an5 it coul5 be
5one for R1.00 up front from me7 an5 they oul5 help me to sell it.
2 felt a great urge to gi,e bac& hat 2 ha5 recei,e57 to as many as possible. 2t oul5 be
uni<ue7 in that it oul5 5escribe accurately messages to me from me5iums7 an5 my
personal connections an5 reactions to the information7 positi,e or negati,e. Eose
thought ho luc&y 2 ha5 been ith the amount of messages7 an5 the <uality in many
cases. 2 ha5 no confi5ence that it oul5 be interesting enough for people to ant to
rea57 as 2 felt 2 as or5inary an5 ha5 no folloing. 2 complete5 the boo&7 an5
e,entually publishe5 it in %00+ on the internet7 for anyone to rea5 for free. 2 calle5 it
Spirit 3essages7 on the site scrib5.com.
2 felt that Eose an5 2 ere meant to or& together in the future7 in a 5ifferent ay.
6ithout her support an5 encouragement 2 oul5 not ha,e publishe5 the Spirit
3essages boo&. 6e ill carry on searching7 here,er it lea5s. 6e shoul5 ne,er stop
learning7 about both the physical an5 spiritual orl5s.
There as alays a thought that the remain5er of my recor5e5 e!periences might be
the sub4ect of a follo8up boo&7 hich as inten5e5 to ha,e a i5er appeal for a
curious7 intereste5 searcher. 3uch more than 94ust messages: ha5 happene5. "s a
result of fee5bac& an5 interest resulting from the Spirit 3essages boo&7 this se<uel
as gra5ually compile5 to complete the story.
>oo&ing bac&7 2 belie,e that the best e!planation of all the e!periences 2 ha5 5uring
the search is that the Spirit 6orl5 an5 it*s people ere intelligently behin5 it all. 2f
not Spirit7 hat else coul5 it ha,e been- There are many theories about ho it all
or&s7 but my i5e rea5ing 5i5 not supply a plausible alternati,e. The most common
theory 2 ha,e rea5 is that the me5iums an5 sitters pro5uce all the phenomena
themsel,es in some ay7 ith scientifically un&non energies. 2n my ,ie7 this 4ust
creates another mystery hich is har5er to un5erstan57 an5 ma&es it har5er to fit the
facts together. 3uch more a5,ance5 an5 spectacular physical phenomena than
outline5 in my e!periences ha,e been 5escribe5 in many boo&s. See the "ppen5i! %
boo&list7 for some of the many boo&s hich impresse5 me.
2 felt that my personal contact ith 9them: as limite5 to ha,ing ,ery strong urges to
carry out this or& of searching an5 recor5ing7 feeling tingles an5 itches at
significant times7 seeing facial changes on certain people7 an5 as probably
connecte5 ith the sensations hen 2 as 5oing healing. 2 5on*t &no if 2 e,er ga,e a
true message hen 2 as trying out me5iumship7 but it is possible.
3ost of my e!periences ere supplie5 by me5iums7 seemingly in contact ith Spirit.
2 gra5ually became more an5 more con,ince5 that Spirit might be or&ing ith me.
The eight of e,i5ence7 an5 my rea5ing about paranormal in,estigations7 force5 me
'.
to accept that the Spirit hypothesis is the most consistent an5 acceptable e!planation
of hat happene5 5uring my search .
/n the ay7 there ere highs an5 los7 an5 spells hen nothing seeme5 to be
happening7 but great interest an5 e!citement at times. 2 met many li&e8min5e5 people
to enrich my life7 an5 there ere many connections hich helpe5 me forar5 an5
may ha,e been inspire5 from the Spirit 6orl5.
2 feel that the search has been the main cause of me being e!tremely fortunate in my
personal life an5 5e,elopment. 2 ha,e a lot to than& it for. "n5Mor Spirit perhaps. 2
hope so.
;ou7 the rea5er7 can search as 2 5i57 if you choose to. 2t is all a,ailable to you7 e,en
more so ith all the on8line information a,ailable. 2f you 5on*t see&7 you on*t fin5.
There is a certain amount of faith in me no7 hich as not there before. 6e ill not
&no all the truth until e pass7 but e can al& nearer to it hile on $arth.
"n5 so en5e5 the first chapter of in,estigation7. 3y scepticism ha5 been much
re5uce5. The searching continue5.
3y ne ife tol5 me that she ha5 been gi,en the spiritual name of ("2TH in a
Spiritualist Church7 hen she as a baby. " nice coinci5ence. The motto of the
C(PSS7 hich ha5 feature5 in my early searching7 as 9 To (aith a55 ?nole5ge:.

The $n5
@ /f the beginningA
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"ppen5i! 11 3essages from spiritual me5iums
"t Church in No,ember %0007 my face itche5 an5 tingle57 hich ha5 not happene5 to
me lately7 before a me5ium7 Joyce 6ithall7 came to me ith a message.
% >o+ are bi'/hearted" and a sense of h+#o+r has 'ot !o+ thro+'h" it is 'entle
after a brea)+p" !o+ ha(e started a ne, path$ >o+r father is sa!in' E.a) +p
!o+r tro+bles in an old )it ba'2$ >o+r int+ition is orret no,$-
4y father usually comes through as a military man, and the song mentioned was
popular in World War 5 . +oincidentally, father stored soot in kitbags when he swept
chimneys in later life. I had started a new path, having married again, and it felt
gentle and good. I was pleased to hear my intuition was working.
6en5y Palmer as the ne!t to gi,e me a message7 on %=
th
"pril %001.
% & ha(e ,ith #e a #an" ,ell/b+ilt" ,or)in' in a fator!" he had a bad aident$ A
!o+n'er fa#il! #e#ber is an'r! abo+t so#ethin'" a resent#ent a'ainst !o+" he
is #ale$ Are !o+ +ns+re ,hat to do ,ith !o+rself" for !o+r ,or)5 @o !o+r e!es
ith" ha(e !o+ had the# he)ed latel!5 @o !o+ dri(e a ar5 6a(e !o+ he)ed
the t!res latel!" serio+sl! the! are sa!in' !o+ need to he)" !o+2re ha(in' a soft
b+#p! ride$-
)he man described fitted my brother, who lost some fingers in a cutter in a factory
which led to amputation of his hand . 2e had come through several times before. 4y
son was resentful against me and my new wife, as he did not get on with her. I had
taken early retirement, but this could have referred to my spiritual searching perhaps.
4y eyes do itch sometimes, and a tyre was a bit soft when I checked.
There as then a long gap before my ne!t message7 on %
n5
(ebruary7 %00%7 as 2 as
atten5ing Church less often. The me5ium as 3arilyn 6ebb.
% There has been a partin' of the ,a!s$ There is the letter 8 in the fa#il!$
So#eone is sad aro+nd !o+" b+t ,ill i#pro(e$ >o+ are healin' F+st b! bein'
'+
there$ A #an ,ith #e" !o+ helped hi# before his death$ A stron' tall #an is
helpin' !o+" lots of po,er$ An Arth+r on other side" .eter on this side$-
4y divorce, and marrying a 4 for 4c1onald, could account for part of this. 4y son
is named 4atthew. 4y stepdaughter was having serious problems, and I was trying to
support her. )he name Arthur had been given before but not recognised, but 6eter
could have been my cousin again. I helped my father(in(law *ust before his death.
#iane /rchar5 as the ne!t me5ium to gi,e me a message7 on =
th
3arch %00%.
% @o !o+ ha(e a rin'5 The! sa!" ta)e it off$ @o !o+ 'et tin'les on !o+r fae and
ears5 & ha(e a #an ,ith #e" ,ith bad sto#ah pain" died fro# it$-
4y divorce could explain the ring reference. )ingles on the face often happens to me
when in +hurch, and elsewhere, as said before. 4y brother died from colon cancer,
which is very painful.
/n '
th
September7 Syl,ia Thorne ga,e me the ne!t message. 2 ha5 e!perience5 facial
tingles earlier.
% >o+r father has passed$ Are !o+ still ,ritin'5 6e2s sa!in'" F+st ,rite it do,n"
do !o+ feel inspired5 @o !o+ )no, !o+r '+ides and helpers5 6e2s sa!in' !o+ are
too anal!tial $ 6e ,as not in to this" did not belie(e$ 6e2s lose to !o+" fro# the
other side$-
>in5a "bbott as the me5ium on %
n5
No,ember %00%7 an5 ga,e me this message.
% & ha(e a brother ,ith #e" not li)e !o+" hal) and heeseG >o+ are an old so+l"
learned all !o+r lessons" !o+ listen ,ell" ha(e 'ood healin' po,ers" !o+ are #+h
#ore patient no," and it2s ti#e to help others" it is not ti#e to 'o o(er !et$ There
,ill be a elebration in one or t,o ,ee)s ti#e$-
4y brother, as described earlier, was totally different to me and I did not get on with
him. I attended my son's degree presentation ceremony ten days later.
3y ne!t Church message as by Chris Pugh on )
r5
January %00). 3y hea5 as
itching an5 tingling before the ser,ice7 so 2 thought once again that 2 ha5 a goo5
chance of a message. He selecte5 me.
% >o+r father is standin' behind !o+$ 6e ,as a stron' harater" b+t did not
express his e#otions to !o+$ A =ill or 1illia#" a st+bborn stron' #an" is ,ith
hi#$ @o !o+ ha(e lin)s ,ith Sotland5 There are hospital lin)s aro+nd !o+$
There is a proble# aro+nd !o+" !o+ an deal ,ith it in t,o ,a!s$ >o+ ,ill #a)e
the ri'ht deision" don2t ,orr! " it ,ill ,or) itself o+t$ A 8ar!" on this side5 A
.eter" abo+t 43" ,ho ,ill help !o+ finaniall!$ A lad!" sto+t in the #iddle" apron
folded o(er$ The na#e of Deor'e is 'i(en #e$- 963:
Father and his name was given again. 7ncle !ill again. 6robably a reference to my
stepdaughter's problems . 4y wife was working as a nurse in a hospital. 4ary I did
not understand. )he stout lady I could place, but there was no other evidence with it.
6eter I could not place with that description. 4y wife's ancestry is probably #cottish,
by her surname of 4c1onald.
/n %1
st
June %00)7 #a,i5 "ppleton7 ho as local an5 &non to me 7 selecte5 me for
a message. He &ne nothing about my relati,es.
% & ha(e a #an ,ith #e" ,as in en'ineerin'$ 6e ,as not F+st shop floor" b+t
hi'her" ,here the! ,ere #a)in' thin's$ The!2re tellin' #e !o+ ha(e had
toothahe" &2(e 'ot it" it ahes$ There2s a lad!" 52/4-" hair do,n lo," (er! sli#" in
'=
the 'arden$ 6a(e !o+ been +ttin' a hed'e or branhes5 6e2s been ,ith !o+"
helpin' and ,athin'$ &2# 'ettin' hest pains" li)e a heart atta)" fro# hi#$ =+t
he sa!s he fo+nd it hard to breathe before that" his bod! ,as losin' do,n$ >o+
,ere 7+ite lose to hi#$ 6e2s tal)in' abo+t a son'" E.+t another ni)el in" in the
ni)leodeon2 does this #ean an!thin' to !o+5
4y father(in(law was an engineer who became a planner in the management of a
factory. I had been suffering from toothache, and it had been extracted the previous
day. 4y father(in(law did have breathing problems before his death, could not whistle
as he liked to, and an autopsy found that he had motor neurone disease. )he song
meant nothing to me, except that he knew I played a keyboard a lot, and there is a line
in the song with 8music,music, music' in it.
3arilyn 6ebb ga,e me a message at SSC on 1'
th
"ugust %00). The left si5e of my
face itche5 an5 tingle57 as 2 thought of 3um an5 #a57 an5 my father8in8la an5 his
ife7 hoping they might come through the me5ium.
% & ha(e a 7+iet #an ,ith #e" ,or)ed all his life" not re,arded " b+t #ore so o(er
there$ 6e2s sa!in' a !o+n' bo! a#e in to !o+r life" he had a hard +pbrin'in'"
!o+2(e #ade a differene and s+pported hi#$ >o+ are !nial" b+t lots of lo(e is
aro+nd !o+" and !o+ need to open +p #ore$ ?a#es of 8ar! and Aobert 'i(en$ A
#an is also here" a bro)en ar# in plaster" 'i(in' na#e of 8ihael$ & don2t li)e
'i(in' '+ides" b+t a (er! stron' Chinese #an is ,ith !o+$ >o+ ha(e been in a
irle$ >o+2(e a lot #ore to do !et$ @o !o+ e(er ,onder ,h! !o+2re here5 >o+
don2t ,ant to o#e ba) here a'ain do !o+5
It could have been my father(in(law again, especially as the young boy he mentioned
could have been his grandson , my stepson. 4ary I did not place, but 9obert was the
name of my wife's ex(husband's.
/n '
th
September7 my ife Joanna came to Church ith me7 an5 Geoff Hayar5 as
the me5ium. He came to Joanna near the en5 of the ser,ice.
% & ha(e a lad! ,ith #e" is !o+r #other in Spirit5 She is li(el!" a 'ood
o##+niator" and too) a lot of responsibilit! at ho#e$ She is 'i(in' the na#e of
Hohn$ >o+r 8+# is ,orried abo+t Hohn" !o+ are the apable one" to )eep an e!e
on hi#$ >o+ ha(e i#pro(ed !o+r finanial sit+ation to ens+re the f+t+re$ @o !o+
ha(e an! Sottish onnetions5 & ha(e a lad! ,ith a broad Sottish aent$ @id
!o+r #other ha(e an! interest in the Sottish onnetion5 >o+ don2t ha(e a
Sottish aent$ Can & ta)e it !o+r Sottish onnetions ,ere f+rther ba)" on
!o+r father2s side5 Also a 8rs Sha, !o+ ,ill find on !o+r father2s side$ & a#
bein' 'i(en a Sottish na#e" 8@onald$- 9
:oanna has a brother named :ohn. 2er maiden name was 4c1onald.
/n 14
th
(ebruary7 a me5ium hose name 2 faile5 to recor5 sai5 to me1
%>o+r father and #other are ,ith #e$ @o !o+ do healin'5 >o+r @ad ,ants to
han'e" and be #ore li)e !o+$-
"t a ser,ice on 1
st
3ay %0047 the right si5e of my face itche5 an5 tingle5 all e,ening.
Shirley /li,e selecte5 me for a message.
% & ha(e Cissie 6o,den ,ith #e$ & ,ant to 'o to the 'entle#an ,ith the polished
head" that is ho, she ,o+ld spea)G 93a+'hter:$ A !o+n' 'irl" disabled" is ,ith
her$ She is helpin' to loo) after her$ >o+ ha(e a 1illia# in Spirit$ >o+r tele(ision
is pla!in' +p latel!$ The! )no, ,hat2s 'oin' on$-
'9
+issie was well known to me from the other local +hurch, and she had a good sense
of humour. )he medium served that +hurch and knew her, and might have
remembered seeing me there, in fact she gave me a message there in 5;;<. 4y friend
+indy had a deceased disabled daughter, who I believe was known to the medium
when she served the #windon +hurch. William could have been 7ncle !ill again. 4y
)= picture had been bad, due to a faulty #ky dish.
3er,yn Puinn selecte5 me for a message at SSC on %%
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3ay %004.
% & ha(e a #an ,ho passed ,ith a stro)e$ >o+ need so#e +pliftin'" !o+2re a bit
lo,$ 6a(e !o+ been deoratin'5 A lad! is ,ith #e" short" ,earin' 'lasses" ,ith
bad painf+l le's$ & feel it #!self" ta)e it a,a!G The! ha(e been la+'hin' at !o+r
efforts ,ith the ,allpaper$ &s there another roo# to do5 H+ne ,ill be better for
!o+" a depression ,ill be lifted$ At Christ#as" do !o+ ha(e a fa#il! 'et to'ether5
The! ,ill be there ,ith !o+$-
)he man with a stroke was not understood, or my feeling low. )he lady could have
been mother or mother(in(law. I had been stripping wallpaper with a steamer, ready
for wall plastering. )his was completed in :une. 4y brother and sisters and families
always meet up together at one pub, at +hristmas.
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"ugust %0047 3arilyn 6ebb at SSC selecte5 me for a message.
% >o+ ha(e a tribe of Aed &ndians ,ith !o+" in f+ll re'alia$ & don2t 'i(e '+ides as
a r+le$ >o+r father is ,ith #e" he is (er! pro+d of ,hat !o+2(e done in the last
!ear$ >o+2(e stopped ,ritin' tho+'h ha(en2t !o+5 .oetr! is it5 &t ,ill o#e ba)"
!o+ ha(e to deal ,ith !o+r ;arth life$ >o+ ha(e done healin'" that2s on hold also
isn2t it5 >o+r father has respet for !o+" b+t !o+ ,o+ldn2t ,ant to 'et on his
,ron' side$-
I had stopped writing poems for the local newspaper, and about spiritual activities.
2ealing had also stopped.
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"ugust %0047 >orna 6oo5s selecte5 me for a message.
% A #an is ,ith #e" bad breathin' in the hest area" (er! ati(e earlier in his life
and didn2t #ope aro+nd" sa!in' !o+ had a #eetin' of #inds ,ith hi#$ 6e 'a(e
!o+ a rin'$ 6e is sho,in' a box" a Fe,eller! box$ 6e is sa!in' there is another
rin' in it as ,ell$ There ,as loneliness$ >o+ li(ed in se(eral ho+ses$ 1as there a
lila tree ,here !o+ 're, +p5- 971:
4y father(in(law had suffered breathing problems before his death as said before,
and I got on well with him. I respected his ability to make anything with his hands,
and although he was an atheist we discussed survival. I have lived in several houses,
and a lilac tree grew in one of them. 2e gave me and his daughter two rings which
had belonged to his wife, and we had them altered for our wedding rings.
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3ay %00.7 Eichar5 Holmes came to me ith a message.
% @o !o+ +nderstand a #on) ,ith !o+5 There is so#eone here ,ith lots of letters
after his na#e" .6 @2s et$5 6e2s sa!in' !o+ need to expand !o+r )no,led'e$
>o+ need to see thin's #ore in bla) and ,hite" !o+ #a)e it too o#pliated$
>o+r 'randfather" #other2s side" ,as an ed+ated #an$-
.othing was understood in this message. 4y grandfather was a farm labourer's son
with little education.
#a,i5 "ppleton 5eli,ere5 the ne!t message on 10
th
#ecember %00..
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% A #an is ,ith !o+" in his 702s" !o+ had a friendship" to do ,ith en'ineerin' or
ph!sis$ 6e2s 'ettin' loser no," he had a little #o+stahe$ To sho, he2s here" he
sa!s !o+r left le' has a proble#" pain or stiffness5 >o+ are doin' a lot of
researh" not to #a)e #one!" and readin' boo)s$ 6e had breathin' proble#s"
and slo,l! e(er!thin' ,as losin' do,n" a bit at a ti#e$ >o+ 'et tin'les do,n
!o+r fae and on !o+r head$ >o+ )no," the! are o#in' lose to !o+" fro# Spirit$
There are #ore" !o+r #other$ She is sa!in' there ,ere fi(e sisters$ @oes A+'+st
9
th
#ean an!thin'5 And 8a! or 8a(e5-
4y father(in(law died in his >?'s, and he was an engineer which we had in common.
2e had a small moustache when I knew him. I did have a stiff left leg, as a result pf
too much *ogging. 9esearch and reading this sub*ect was still ongoing as for years.
)here were four sisters including my mother, as far as I knew. I had a neighbour once,
named 4ay.
The ne!t message as from Sharon Spence7 on %=
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January %00'.
% >o+2(e been doin' a lot of deoratin' latel!$ & ha(e a #an ,ith #e" 52/9 or 10"
baldin'" not #+h hair in sides" sho,in' #edals on his hest" #ore than one$
There is another #an" fatherl!" lo(ed his 'arden" had a diffi+lt! ,al)in'" and
,as (er! pratial$ There is so#eone else" older than !o+" is it an +nle" !o+ fell
o+t ,ith hi#$ >o+ don2t )no, ,here !o+ are at the #o#ent" !o+ are startin' to
loo) at a ne, proFet" this proFet ,ill ha(e t,o sides to it" ,ill 'o t,o ,a!s$ Also
a lad!" not tall" she +sed to feed !o+ +p ,ell and spoil !o+$ & a# sho,n a fire
b+)et ,ith sand in it$ >o+ li)e old fil#s$ & a# sho,n a#ps" li)e Ar#!" or
=+tlin2s$ >o+ need to see a dotor" b+t !o+ ,on2t$-
I had been renovating the house. )he man showing medals was father's usual way to
be recognised, and he was as described. )he other man could be my father(in(law as
described. 4y elder brother had fallen out with me in a big way. 4y mother suffered
a bad fire, which could explain the fire bucket. I should have seen a doctor about my
left knee, but hadn't bothered. I had been studying physical mediumship again, and
had *oined the @erdin Fellowship. I was also thinking of writing up properly all my
messages and their meaning, as they seemed to be coming to a natural end. )his
might involve writing two books.
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th
at Church7 Shirley /li,e ga,e me this message.
% & ha(e a #other fi'+re" helpin' !o+$ >o+ didn2t 'et on ,ith all in the fa#il!G
The! li)ed a drin) or t,o$ @ 3y brother 5isone5 me before he passe5 o,er7 an5
use5 to 5rin& hea,ily.A
% The!2re tal)in' abo+t a 8orris 8inor-$ @ 2 one5 a 3orris 3inor hen 2 li,e5
close to my brother7 an5 ha5 ta&en him out in it.A
% @oes =ea+lie+ #ean an!thin'5- @ /nly that 2 ha5 been there ith my first ifeA.
% & ha(e a spasti 'irl" handiapped" (er! affetionate-$ @ $,e as the 5aughter of
my frien5 Cin5y7 ho suffere5 from #on*s Syn5rome an5 5ie5 <uite youngA.
% A =rian" ,ho a#e to this Ch+rh5- @ 2 ha5 only &non one Brian at the Church7
an5 ha5 gi,en him a message 5uring the open circle e ent to.A.
% >o+r father is here" ,earin' a +nifor#-$ @ "gain his usual greetingA.
% >o+ ha(e a li'ht for healin' aro+nd !o+" do !o+ heal5 Are !o+ in a irle5 @ Not
noA.
2n June7 Jac&ie 3ec&e as the ne!t me5ium to gi,e me a message at the Church.
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% >o+r #other is behind !o+" and another lad! ,ho passed ,ith aner$ She2s
helpin' !o+ find !o+r path,a!$ >o+2re a !ni" and ha(e had depression$ The
hardest thin' !o+2(e had to do is to #o(e a,a! fro# so#eone$ & a# bein' told
@oroth! and the red shoes$ 1h!5 >o+r brother is here" he did not li)e to tal)
abo+t his feelin's$ >o+r father is here also" he ,as the sa#e" b+t he ,ished he
had" he lo(ed !o+$ 6e had a hard life" and #other$-
4other's favourite sister passed with cancer. 1ivorcing was very difficult and scary,
and 1orothy was my wife's name. #he had owned some red shoes. 4y brother keeps
coming through to me, why I thought, he hated me at the end of his life. Father and
mother did have very hard lives, and had big families.
2n %0097 Jac&ie 3ec&e ga,e me another message in Church.
% A lad!" !o+r #other" is onerned !o+ are ,orr!in' abo+t so#ethin'$
6ospitals5 @ ;esA.
% >o+r father is pro+d of !o+" helpin'$ >o+ ha(e a son" a bit apart" )eep )no)in'
on his doorG T,o hildren ,ith !o+$ >o+2(e t+rned !o+r life aro+nd" !o+r ,ife
#a)es !o+ la+'h and 'ets !o+ 'oin'$ >o+2re reser(ed b+t she 'ets !o+ o+t of
!o+rself$ >o+r father li)es !o+r ,ife" tho+'h he ne(er #et her on this side of
life-$
I thought this was very good evidence. 4y wife was very stressed working as a nurse
in a hospital, and it was worrying me, the effect in her health. 4y son had gone to
live on his own and did not like my wife, therefore I had to %knock on his door& if I
wanted to see him. :o's two children had left home, but we still helped them more than
my son 4y new wife had drawn me out of myself to socialise more with our families
and our friends. I was very pleased that my father liked my wife, and they had never
met on this side of life.
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"ppen5i! %1 Some influential boo&s about me5iumship
9 2s there an "fterlife:. #a,i5 (ontana.
9 /n the e5ge of the etheric:. "rthur (in5lay.
93aterialisations:. Harry Bo55ington.
9 >ife after 5eath8 li,ing proof:. Tom Harrison.
9 They al&e5 among us:. >ouie Harris.
9 The story of Helen #uncan:. "lan Crossley.
9 Ioices in the 5ar&:. >eslie (lint.
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