Stuggles of The Storm

Struggles Of The Storm
STRUGGLES
OF THE STORM
2004-2008
My Inspirational Journal
By : John Tatlow
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Preface
Hello !!! I am John Tatlow. I would just like

to thank you for taking time to read my book.
Bless you and I hope my book might help
inspire you …
I started to write, because of my

experiences. I had a vision of my deceased
mother and me in heaven that changed the
way I perceive life. I feel it is my duty and
responsibility as a Christian to share with
others…
Most people live their life not realizing what

really is around them. There eyes so focused
on this earthly world they don’t see the
spiritual side…
If I can inspire one person , to help come

closer to the Lord … That’s my main goal…
Even though I been disabled with

Huntington’s Disease and Epilepsy ( seizures )
It hasn’t stopped me from accomplishing my
goals and dreams… It takes God, support,
love, inspiration and persistence…
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Mathew 5:16
“…Let your light shine before men,

that they may see your good deeds and
praise your Father in heaven…”
Psalm 46:1
“…God is our refuge and strength, an

ever present help in trouble…”
Philippians 4:13
“…I can do everything through Him

who gives me strength…”
1 John 4:12
“…But if we love each other, God lives

in us and His love is made complete in
us…”
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Psalm 37:4
“…Delight yourself in the Lord and He

will give you the desires of your
heart…”
Mark 9:23
“…Everything is possible for him who

believes…”
Isaiah 40:31
“…But those who hope in the Lord will

renew their strength. They will soar on
wings like eagles…”
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Prelude Of Poetry
(---A Collection Of Testimonies---)
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Poet’s Testimony
Hello! My name is John

Born on the 24th of March, 1980
To my dear mother Shawne
Who was such a kind lady
I was very close to her

Unclaimed by my father
No sister nor brother
Just me and my mother
An unknown disease she had

Huntington’s is now the name
It made the family so very sad
Decreasing mentally she was never the same
I was eight when she passed away

Faithfulness in such a difficult path
Such an example, each and every day
Even through such an aftermath
Passed few a difficult day

When I was in bed
I lay and I pray
Asking why she was dead
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A Poet’s Testimony
Then my mother came to me

In the brightest beam
Beautiful was she
Shining in a dream
Seeming like a telepath mime

I asked if I could stay
Shook her head, no not your time
Then wiped my tears away
I woke up soaked in tears

I then knew
That in a few years
I would be with her too
I had the clearest vision

Where the brightest beams glows
In a place called heaven
Where the love of God flows
Where I went and saw floating far above

God is perfect that much is true
If I tried to describe his ominous love
I wouldn’t know where to start, no not a clue
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So by fact I know there is a gracious God

And by fact I know there is a unity so nice
So by fact I know there is both soul n bod
And by fact I know there is a heavenly paradise
I lived with my Grandmother Marion

Who spoiled me with many a thing
I lived my proud Grandfather Dean
Tries his best at everything
Twelve I was
I went and moved
To Uncle Doug and Aunt Nelda’s
I was very confused
They brought me to church

Introduced me to Jesus Christ
Awakening my spiritual search
Realizing the all the time I waste
Again I moved not very fun

Back to my grandparents
I fell into depression
A road of sin I choose to taste
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My separation from God affected me

My separation from many a friend
Holed in my room full of worry
Lost in the woods a prayer I send
Spiritually frozen for many a year

I knew He was giving
I knew He was there
Like a fool, I wasn’t willing
I fell in the valley deep

Called manically depressed
Thoughts of suicide making me weep
That much I confess
I thought I was a weight

An extra mouth to feed
Others my age, full of anger and hate
I felt like an unwanted weed
A little voice inside

There’s more to be done
Don’t continue to hide
You are here for a reason
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When I turned nineteen
I started going to youth
My faith in God was redeemed
I saw again the truth
I accepted me for me
Look deep inside my soul
To let others see
My awesome wonderful whole
A visit on last November’s eve

To my Uncle Doug and the rest of them
They were certain, yes they believe
He could help release my tension
So I moved to the Fort’

Regularly to church I went
To youth and things of that sort
More and more people I met
I wish I could say all of this in normal testimony

But I am privileged, happy and very blessed
That I have a life of abnormally
For not all people tasted Heaven like I did
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My Mothers Cry
I found out
What pregnancies about
At twenty-one
I prayed for a son
The little dear

Was born the next year
The blessing came
John is his name
A year passed
Cruel and fast
Husband started to hit
Then we went and split
Homeward bound
Comfort I found
Here with mom and dad
Terribly was so sad
Next year crawled by

Memories make me cry
Slowly I started changing
It was terribly confusing
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My Mothers Cry
Worried about results
And painful effects
Needing sleep and rest
I took a medical test
I had an unknown disease

Silence I did freeze
I could not talk
Barely could walk
Disease is unidentified
There is no guide
Either it is unknown
Or the doctors haven’t shown
It deteriates you mentally

As well as physically
Till your body is weak
And you can no longer speak
Becoming a risk to yourself

Endangering your health
A deadly disorder
Far slower then cancer
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My Mothers Cry
Because of their fear
They lock me here
All on my own
At an old folks home
Place to place
Quickly I race
Moving I roam
From home to home
Filled with fear

I look in the mirror
No one realizes
The pain in my eyes
With my guitar
Playing a bar
I try to string a song
Wondering where it went wrong
No one hears
My crying tears
Treated so cold
At the home of the old
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My Mothers Cry
A crooked confinement
An impractical imprisonment
Hopeless without a cure
Cruel tiring torture
Savagely I am treat
Drugged and beat
No one knows
Believes or shows
Dazed and confused

Embarrassed and scared
I hide in corners
Away from the nurses
Let me be
Why punish me
Quit using force
You just make me worse
They don’t realize

They don’t sympathize
They don’t see
What has been happening to me
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My Mothers Cry
I want out
To move about
To see my John
Lord, it’s been so long
I only have a picture

To help me remember
My little boy
And his favorite toy
Why am I bind
Why am I confined
I committed no crime
This place is a waste of time
Prison without chains

Instead cripples and canes
Almost dead and depressed
Dying and disillusioned
I hear is crying
As people are dying
I eagerly await
My turn at fate
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My Mothers Cry
Left here to die
I wonder why
And how all this death
Will improve my health
Why won’t you let me be

And see John my baby
I miss him dearly
Only visits me rarely
I am losing hope
As I try to cope
To live one more day
The ordinary way
How is this home

This deathbed tome
Supposed to be
Helping me
I am a hostage
Trapped in a cage
Watered and fed
Clothed and bed
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My Mothers Cry
Held against my will
Overdosed by pill
One night passed on
Heartbeat was gone
Now I lay
Night and day
Dead I am doomed
In a tomb
Body to earth
My souls birth
To the heavenly skies
Eagerly it flies
I ask the Lord

For a final word
With my one
And only son
I appeared one night

In a beautiful light
In a deepest dream
With many blinding beam
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My Angel
My angel came to me
In the brightest beam
Beautiful was she
Shining in a dream
Seeming like a telepath mime

Shook her head, no not your time
Then wiped my teardrops away
I woke up . . . soaked in tears

I then knew
That in a few years
I’d be with her too
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My Heart Is Free
About ten years ago
She ascended to the sky
A lot of people felt sorrow
For my mother did die
A day after, feeling low

Asked the Lord why
I surely didn’t know
Wish I got to say goodbye
That eve when I fell asleep

Everything went all white
And I sleeping deep
Then I saw this great light
I saw her there

And then we spoke
Floating on air
Later I awoke
Maybe it was just a dream

At least now I never cry
When I saw her in that bright beam
I finally got to say good-bye
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One Dream
I had a little taste of heaven
The holy, bright shining city
In a wonderful dream
With peace and tranquility
One day after my mother’s death

At the age of eight
Some ancient soul came to me
In my depression and worried state
I could see with my soul

I could see many of a blinding beam
I could see many bright whites
In my beautiful dream
Coming from everywhere

Standing in the heavenly light
Felt warmth, love for from all
Could hardly believe such a glorious sight
Talking with a translucent spirit

Telepathically we shared with one another
I read all its answers so quickly
I had many questions about mother
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One Dream
It informed me not to worry
I’d be with my mom someday
She’s with the Lord now
And through Him is the only way
After our discussion

No . . . it’s not your time
I felt I was home and didn’t want to go away
As we were floating
In the bright radiant sky
She asked me to go on a walk
I agreed, boy did we fly
I felt I was moving

Faster then the speed of light
Standing being transported so fast
What a rush and so bright
Then we stopped
And it showed me a book
Opened it up
Had a look
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One Dream
After I returned
And I awoke tears in my eyes
Thank you to my friend
Thank you God, you are so wise
I know I belong there

I know I will return
It’s a matter of time
Till then, from each experience I’m going to learn
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A Call To Heaven
Wishing I could
Just pick up the phone
And talk to you
Back home
On my knees
Tell her I care
Long distance call
Heaven sent prayer
Give her my thanks

And my love
Give her a hug
Up there above
In the heavens
You are watching over me
And I’m missing you
So unbelievably
I don’t know
What I would do
If I wasn’t
Blessed with you
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A Call To Heaven
Your spirit
Was like the sun
Spreading its beams
To everyone
When I
Meet my fate
Look for me
At the pearly gates
If you
Hear my shout
I will there
Calling out
Wishing I could
Just pick up the phone
And talk to you
Back home
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2005 -2008
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Shadow Of My Spirit
I was living
Days of darkness
Shadow of my spirit
A sinful mess
Everything was
Getting dim
Rarely I would pray
To Him
Walking down
The wrong path
Dealing with
Such an aftermath
Five long years

Away from the Lord
My soul feels empty
Once it soared
I feel guilty
I can’t face
This disaster
And disgrace
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Shadow Of My Spirit
There was a storm
In my soul
And it kept me
From being whole
I realized what
My emptiness
It was Jesus
Who I missed
Now the light in me

Is ever blinding
With Christ’s love
I am shining
I feel a high
As I mature
Reuniting with my
True father
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Family Reunion
Talk about the good times
When they were young
It was so different
Way back when
Different generations
Of family
Sharing together their
Favorite memory
Telling their
Accomplishments
Listening to their
Experiences
One of a kind
Get together
Truly unlike
No other
It was really
A true blessing
When everybody
Was reuniting
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Mothers Day Prayer

Heavenly Lord . . . merciful Christ
I can only pray
That my dear mother
Will have a happy Mothers day
Please send her

My dearest love
In the heavens
Up above
When God
Calls for me
I will get to
Really meet you finally
I pray that You sent

This to my mother
Who was an angel
Unlike no other
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Mothers Day Prayer

Lord of Lords
King of Kings
Award her faithfulness
With countless blessings
Thank you my mother

Heavenly godsend
In Jesus name
Amen…
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Transformation
Self destruction
Living lies
Just didn’t
Want to realize
It never stopped storming

This constant rain
I got used to it
Addicted to the pain
Ready to give in
I was so weak
Fed up with it all
Death I did seek
Inside out
I was transformed
Inside out
I was transformed
Inside out
I was changed
Inside out
I was awakened
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Transformation
You will
Never part
You are living
In my heart
You are my wings

And make me fly
You are my every breath
My true high
You keep
My soul aglow
Your love in me
Just overflows
Inside out
I was transformed
Inside out
I was transformed
Inside out
I was changed
Inside out
I was awakened
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Everyman’s Cure
Test after test
All my doctors say
My fatal disease
Worsening every single day
People look at me
With sincere sorrow
But I am truly blessed
And they just don’t know
No doubt
I agree
My illness
Is a real tragedy
It’s a new disease

With no cure
So Jesus
Is my doctor
God always
Has a plan
Created Christ
The miracle man
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Everyman’s Cure
The undescribable gift
He gave to me
Was a promised life
Of a heavenly eternity
For all who

Didn’t accept Christ
In their hearts
And the ultimate sacrifice
Each is eternally diseased

Looking for a cure
Lonely, depressed and empty
Souls that need a Savior
People hear
And feel so sad
Irony is
That I am glad
I achieved all my
Dreams and goals
Now I try
To save lost souls
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Everyman’s Cure
I have the Lord
Causes my happiness
Gives me hope
In a river of bliss
Praying my friends and family

Find their Savior
And realize
He is everyman’s cure
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On My Last Day
At the end
Of my last day
When I
Pass away
I will be
Forever thankful
Each friend and family
Eternally grateful
Learning from
Everyone I met
Along the way
I am truly in debt
For Lord Jesus

Who turned me
Into the example
I wanted to be
And my soul
Will rise above
Into the heavens
With the purest love
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Disguise
I’m addicted
To the rain
And inside
The growing pain
I gave my best
Now I’m drained
Day by day
Going more insane
Hidden away
I never cry
Search my spirit
My true feelings lie
I crashed down
From the sky
Slammed straight
Into pure misery
No one cares
Constantly I hide
That I have been
Bleeding inside
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Disguise
I gave my all
To hard I tried
My heart has already
Died on the inside
Everyday
Is another disguise
Sad thing is
Fool my friends with lies
Deep inside
Where my soul cries
But I mask it all
With a face full of smiles
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No One
No one
Wants to see
That I
Am so empty
No one
Wants to see
That I
Am so cloudy
No one
Wants to see
That I
Am so lonely
No one
Wants to see
That I
Am so unhappy
No one
Wants to see
The tragedy
I see in me
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The Dark Pit
Down here
Where I can’t see
Is the place
You’ll find me
I am blinded
I lost my sight
Now everyday
Is constant night
Hope for me
Is getting dim
No one wants
To sit and listen
I hermit here
In agony
Trusting no one
Night and day
I am losing
My mind
Scars and bruises
I am broken
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The Dark Pit

Everyday
Same old thing
I am tired
Of always giving
No one understands
How I am so alone
But my soul is fading
And soon it will be gone
Yeah I am way down here

Where I can’t see
Is the only place
You’ll find me
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Falling
I am falling
More and more
Deeper and deeper
Then ever before
My faith and hope

Has all been drained
No one knows
My real pain
Empty and hollow

Ripped inside out
Beat up and broken
Torn all apart
I have nothing left

I gave everything away
Even if it cost
My sanity
Yes I am falling
More and more
Deeper and deeper
Then ever before
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Tragic Disgrace
My road
Was so clear
Now I’m
Living my fear
Spiritually
Tragic disgrace
I do no not
Deserve Your grace
A pile of dirt
Nothing but clay
I’m sinking further
By the day
Enveloped
In shame
From the Lord
And His holy name
I’m sick and dying

Of jealousy
Living life a lie
Hiding deep my envy
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Tragic Disgrace
I keep it all in
Building inside
Now my soul
Is commiting suicide
I was
Soaring high away
Crashed to the ground
From the souls high
Oh Lord
Please forgive
I am starting to slide
This sinful place I live
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My Personality
Its one word
Personality
Never-ending search
My journey
I am shouting
Out to my soul
Screaming to reunite
With my whole
Accomplishing so much
Along the road
I should be
Very proud
This solace place

I have found
Got me spinning
Round and round
Always wanting
Something more
Will I find
Something to settle for
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My Personality
All my achievements
Keep me enlightened
All my mistakes
Keep me haunted
I use to
Live in lies
Hidden deep
In disguise
My personal therapy
I write it all away
Dealing daily
With my reality
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A Servants Prayer
Hello precious Father
Full of ominous love
Shining up
In the heavens above
I pray
For my grandparents
To accept you Jesus
In their hearts
I pray
For my grandmothers psysts
Please give her strength
They may be serious
I pray
You will mold me
Into you
Nothing I’d rather be
I thank Thee
Lord Jesus
Father and
Spirit of holiness
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Forever Thankful
Each my friends
This poem is to
Without them
Wouldn’t know what to do
High – spirited
Like the sun
Shining bright
Full of inspiration
Along the way

Caring constantly
Aiding me
On my journey
Yes I dedicate this

Eternally grateful
And I am
Forever thankful
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Good Friends
They are
Always there
To show
Their care
My dearest friends
In every way
Never stop
Making my day
To my face
They bring a grin
As we share
A similar sin
I thank you
For making me see
The light in the dark
And inspiring me
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Sanity (Huntington’s Disease)

To my sanity
I say good-bye
All that’s sane
Is about to die
Growing crazier
By the day
And slowly losing
My way
Dead inside
Of loneliness
My life
A tragic mess
Constant confusion
Brain overload
Never quits
Blocking my road
Is it just
The constant pain
Or am I really
Going insane
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Jen
Couple days ago
I met her
Have much in common
Incredibly similar
Our friendship
Has just begun
She came like an angel
Spreading inspiration
She is
Definitely a treat
A great person
I look forward to meet
Like a bomb
She blew me away
With her sincere
Personality
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Jen
Intriguing and
Amazing soul
Humorous and
Awesome whole
I’m so thankful
For this great friend
A real blessing
To encounter such a God-send
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Lost Or Found
Constantly
She’s been searching
Constantly
She’s been seeking
For a God
Who she can believe
For a Jesus
Who she can receive
For something
To awaken in her soul
And finally
Make her feel whole
For something
From heavens above
To show her
The truest love
For something
Deep within her heart
Come and tear her
Emotionally apart
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Lost Or Found
Constantly
She’s been searching
Constantly
She’s been seeking
Lord I pray
For you Kellie
That you will
Find your way
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Hopeless Romantic (Jen)

There’s this girl
Who won’t leave my mind
There’s this girl
Shimmering soul leaves my blind
There’s this girl

Incredabally fine
There’s this girl
Just totally divine
About to give up
On this thing called love
A dream came true
Angel from above
Lit this spark

Inside of me
Make me feel
So heavenly
Came from nowhere

Swept off my feet
Inside out
So sincerely sweet
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Hopeless Romantic (Jen)

When I’m without
Clocks slowly tick
When I’m with you
Time doesn’t exist
Brightly shining
My blinding ray
Always seems
To make my day
There’s this girl

Who won’t leave my mind
There’s this girl
Shimmering soul leaves my blind
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Kellie’s Letter
Praying for things
To get better
As I read
The rest of her letter
Deep inside her spirit

Is a hurricane
Tearing her apart
I feel her pain
Teenage years
Hard to resist sin
Feeling so dirty
Slowly she’s dying
For her soul

Worries me daily
That she may
Harm herself seriously
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My Recipe(Jen)
I savor
Her personality
And everlasting
She does to me
Just a taste
Of her soul
Makes me
Feel more then whole
Lots of love
And devotion
Filled with
Every emotion
Honey cause
She sticks to you
A feel like a kid
And my dreams came true
Everything
And anything sweet
That makes her, her
And me complete
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My Recipe(Jen)
To fill my heart
There’s been none
Now our two loves
And mixed into one
Everything I love
All put together
To my dearest
Still doesn’t compare
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(---Forever Angels---)
By: John Tatlow & Jennifer M Oliver
When I met you…
It was like fate…
There was so much…
We could relate…
I’ve never…
Felt this way…
Not sure…
What to do or say…
I got lost…
In your eyes…
You really are…
My paradise...
I feel…
I’m in heaven…
Whenever…
You are around…
My dreams…
Came true…
When I…
Met you…
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Forever…
Dear angel…
Soul-mate…
My eternal…
So long on broken wings…

I tried so hard to fly…
Exhausted, disheartened…
So hard to keep on trying sometimes…
Heart shattered, wings battered…

And torn, scars showing, never fading…
Wandering lost, alone…
Ina fog so thick and deep…
Never knowing, always praying…

Till one day at last…
Fate finally…
Allowed…
Found the better part of me…

Found the love so true and deep…
Saving me with…
Your love, unconditional…
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My soul-mate…
My best friend…
My true love…
To never end…
Hearts and souls eternally…

Bound together forever…
Our love will grow…
Knowing no bounds…
Wounds now cleaned and healed…

Hands clasped together…
Leaping with one heart…
One mind, one spirit…
We are now flying…

So far above…
With our damaged wings…
All healed from our love…
We feel so much…
For each other…
Angels…
Forever and ever…
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Happy Thoughts(Jen)
In everything you do
I’m thinking happy thoughts
Whenever I think of you
I’m thinking happy thoughts
Whenever I laugh
You are my reason
You are my constant smile
Underneath my grin
Brighter then
The suns ray
You warm me
Each and every day
Your loving
Cheerful soul
Always making
Me so whole
There is
No doubt
Our loves burning
From the inside out
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Confession Of A Lonely Heart(Jen)

I miss you
With a thousand lonely hearts
Every day passes
Tearing me more apart
My heart
Been aching
Emotionally hit
Again and again
Draining me
Slowly away
More and more
Everyday
My emotions
Deep inside
Jealous thoughts
I try to hide
Scared our love

Has slowly drowned
Swallowed by the deep sea
Without a sound
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The Fallen Angel(Jen)

I am a fallen angel
Falling more and more
Deeper and darker
Then ever before
I am a broken angel
Broken more and more
Deeper and darker
Then ever before
Into the depth

Of my sinful heart
And my strong soul
Torn all apart
My sincere spirit
In need of repair
Choking to breath
Drowned from despair
They all came true

My worst fears
And I am sinking
In my pool of tears
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The Fallen Angel(Jen)

I am a fallen angel
Falling more and more
Deeper and darker
Then ever before
I am a broken angel
Broken more and more
Deeper and darker
Then ever before
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Split In Two(Jen)
Our treasured love
Was split in two
How I wish there was
Something more I could do
Our sparkle
Day by day
Was slowly
Dying away
The special warmth

Ray of the sun
Disappeared
Leaving me a stun
But I didn’t
Have the heart
We already
Fell apart
Our treasured love

Was split in two
Oh how I wish there was
Something I could do
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Illusions
Everything’s
An illusion
Feelings overload
Constant confusion
Under my smile
Deep within my soul
Lies my true self
My real whole
Must be
Losing my mind
Seeking answers
But blind
I don’t realize
I can’t see
That my sanity
Fading away
Everything’s
An illusion
Feelings overload
Constant confusion
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Good-Bye My Friends
I thank you so
For being such a friend
I thank you so
For being such a god-send
You mean
So much to me
Very close
Like a second family
Wishing
I could stay
Instead moving
So far away
I will
Miss you so
More then
You’ll ever know
May your life

Be filled with love
And a 1000 blessings
From God above
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Good-Bye My Friends
I miss you so
Your love and passion
I miss you so
Your shining inspiration
And I thank you so

For being such a friend
And I thank you so
For being such a godsend
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Mother So Grand
Thank you
My mother so grand
For raising me
Into this man
I was just
A tiny baby
Ever since
You raised me
Way before
I can remember
You been there
I dearest grandmother
More of a mother
You been always
Through it all
Each of my days
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Mother So Grand
And I am
Ever so grateful
I’ll be
Forever thankful
I thank you again

My mother so grand
For raising me
Into a man !!
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Renew My Whole
Attacking at
My heart and soul
Help me Lord
Renew my whole
I bow my head
In prayer tonight
With addictions
I must fight
Asking for
Your assistance
Personal demons
I must face
Lord
I am weak
Your strength
I do seek
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Renew My Whole
Haunting me
Day by day
My daily sins
Help me I pray
Father
My sanctuary
I ask forgiveness
Master of mercy
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Rich
Nothing
On this Earth
Can ever compare
To what Jesus is worth
A poor, tragic man

Leading a life
Of struggle
And strife
He has the Lord

In his heart
Who will never stray
Nor ever part
He is rich
In his soul
Everyday God’s love
Makes him whole
76
I Am So Alive
You came in my heart

I am alive
Never will we part
And I am so alive
Praise and exaltation

I am in awe
Each and every creation
And I am so in awe
Heavens King
I am speechless
A love that’s everlasting
And I am so speechless
Your in my heart true

I am in wonder
Inspiring me to live like you
And I am so in wonder
Our father and teacher

I am overwhelmed
Shows us to love one another
And I am so overwhelmed
77
I Am So Alive
Lights me like a star
I am astonished
Knowing he’s never far
And I am so astonished
Jesus shines in my soul

I am amazed
Makes me feel whole
And I am so amazed

I am alive
Never will part
And I am so alive
Yes, you came in my heart

Forever I’m alive
Never will part
And I feel so alive
I am so grateful Lord
In everything you do
Father day by day
Inspiring me to be like you
78
Daily Prayers
I surrender myself
Down on my knees
Hear my prayers
Tonight, Lord please
Every poor
Lost soul
A chance to be
Spiritually whole
Before I sleep
Every night I pray
For my soul
From leading astray
Please forgive me
For me countless sin
And the daily troubles
I seem to get in
I surrender myself
Down on my knees
Hear my prayers
Tonight, Lord please
79
I Thank You
I thank you Jesus

For finally making me see
That you will
Always be a part of me
I thank you Jesus

You are my destination
To live like you
The shining Son
I thank you Jesus

Lows and highs
Lessons in life
A plan in disguise
I thank you Jesus

Shining so bright
I am illuminated
With your radiant light
80
Without A Doubt
Yes I am John
A child
Born again
Through spiritual birth
Everyday
I feel so heavenly
Following my Father
In my own way
Over and over

I try and I try
Nothing can compare
To this permanent high
A servant who was shown

What life’s really about
And who believes
Without a doubt
81
Siezures
My circuits
Are fried
As I feel
Electrified
My body starts
To jolt
Like a massive
Lightning bolt
My body jerks
Against my will
As I try to
Hold it still
Sometimes
I collapse
To the ground
Far below
I awake
In pain
All my energy
Been drain
82
My Hero
You are
A pure perfection
You created us
With divine imagination
You loved and knew me

Before I was born
And now I
Can’t stop soaring
Lord of Lord’s
Jesus the Son
Who rose again
For everyone
King of King’s
You are my hero
You constantly making
My shining spirit glow
83
No Words
There are no words

For God’s undying love
There are no words
For the golden above
There are no words

For Lord Jesus
There are no words
His great sacrifice
There are no words

For when someone has risen
There are no words
When they fly to heaven
There are no words

No longer is a tomb just a tomb
There are no words
Reaching the creators womb
There are no words

Lord I thank thee
There are no words
Changed my soul true
84
Vernon
In a place called
Okanagan Valley
Where God
Defines beauty
Vernon’s such a blessing

Lakes are so lovely
Endless fruit orchirds
A true sight to see
I moved to
A place of bliss
Retiring in
Overwhelming happiness
I used to
Love visiting
My favorite spot
Vacationing
Day by day
It’s already
Grown
On me
85
Vernon
Everyday there’s
Something new
To experience
And to do
A real place
In my heart
Wishing I can stay
And never part
I hope
I reside permanently
Cause everyday
Is a holiday
Beautiful weather
People are so friendly
Loving the close
Small town warmth of the city
It brings out
The best in me
Then I share it
With everybody
86
Hero Of Heroes
You are a
Pure perfection
You created us
With divine imagination
You loved and knew me

Before I was born
And now I
Can’t stop soaring
Lord of Lord’s
Jesus the Son
Who rose again
Miracles for everyone
You died
For our sin
Your blood
Forgiving everyone
87
Ressurect My Soul
My soul
Weakening from sins
My burdens too heavy
From daily addictions
When I thought
I lost my way
You came Lord
To save the day
With God’s love

Let’s me truly see
His forgiveness
Changed my personality
Now I am
Really spiritual
Growing daily
United with my soul
Forever father
Shining bright
Inspiring me
My luminous light
88
A Little Piece Of Heaven
There’s this boy

With a story
About how he found
God’s glory
An amazing
Vision
A little piece
Of heaven
No one
Believes
Or possibly
Percieves
Overfilled with love

His heart and soul
Each and everyday
Inside growing whole
Yea, there’s this boy

With an amazing story
About how he found
God’s glory
89
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Various Poetry
2002-2005
91
Thankfulness
I live in complete joy
This is the situation
So I light some candles
In a prayer dedication
Thanks to the angels

Thanks to the Lord
Thanks to the family
Thanks to the entire world
For molding me
Like clay
To the person
I am today
Strengthening
Spiritually
I am blissful
And am free
Accepted Jesus
The Son of God
Rid myself
My worldly bod’
92
Thankfulness
I am blessed
With a monk’s purity
And a vision
So heavenly
I wouldn’t
Change a thing
Cause inside
I keep awakening
I like to
Express my poetry
Envisioning others
In my own way
Unaware of
The big picture
We live life
Being so sure
But I know
What’s out there
And that what
I want to share
93
Thankfulness
Worldly temptation
Every day
Resisting it
Comes easily
I sort of envy
People who die
I want to return
To that heavenly sky
Be thankful
Live for the moment
Take everything
As a present
I live in complete joy

This is the situation
So I light some candles
In a prayer dedication
Thanks to the angels

Thanks to the Lord
Thanks to my family
Thanks to entire world
94
Thankfulness
Thanks to my friends
Thanks to Jesus the Son
Thanks to my mother
Thanks to everyone
Thank you so
From the heart
For my life
Each and every part
95
I Strayed
Forgive me, oh Lord
Day by day
Further and further
I strayed away
I lost myself
In lies and sin
Unhappy in the situation
I was living in
I lost myself
In lust and temptations
Puny possessions
And selfish intentions
I lost myself
In image and idols
When I should
Be accomplishing your goals
Forgive me, oh Lord

Day by day
Further and further
I strayed away
96
I Strayed
I lost myself
In spirit and soul
Feeling everything
But whole
I lost myself
In desire and world
Got led around
By the crowd
I lost myself
In gambling and drinking
Tore me apart
They are so addicting
Forgive me
Day by day
Further and further
I strayed away
I live for you

Day by day
Closer and closer
I live your way
97
I Strayed
Forgive me my dearest
Day by day
Further and further
I strayed away
Now I live for you

Day by day
Closer and closer
I learn your way
98
Bless My Friends
This prayer is to
My friends old and new
That their dreams
Will come true
May God take these special people

And bless them in unlimited ways
Who’s been close to my heart
For the rest of their days
Keep their soul aglow

Their fire alive
Let them grow
And let them thrive
Aid them all

Far and near
As they start
This New Year
Bless them with faith

Bless them with love
Bless them with hope
From the Lord above
99
Test Of Spirit
Test of spirit
This marvelous delight
Living life
In God’s light
Each day
Is unknown
But I thank God
I’m not alone
Each day
Is a struggle
Knowing He’s here
Is a marvel
Each day
Is a fantasy
A dream come true
Knowing He’s with me
Each day
Is low or high
His love fills me
And I want to fly
100
Test Of Spirit
Each day
Is a blessing
Living up life
His wonderful creation
Each day
Finding out your soul
More and more
Till you are whole
Test of spirit
This marvelous delight
Living life
In God’s light
Each day
Is unknown
But I thank you God
I’m not alone
101
Alive In You
Praise and exaltation
I am in awe
Each and every creation
And I am so in awe
Heavens King
I am speechless
A love that’s everlasting
And I am so speechless
You are in my heart true

I am in wonder
Inspiring me to live like you
And I am so in wonder
Our Father and Teacher

I am overwhelmed
Shows us to love one another
And I am so overwhelmed
Lights me like a star

I am astonished
Knowing He’s never far
And I am so astonished
102
Alive In You
Jesus shines in my soul
I am amazed
Makes me feel whole
And I am so amazed
He’s so marvelous
I am bewildered
A grace that’s so gracious
And I am so bewildered
Eternal friendship and love

I am fascinated
The sacred Creator above
And I am so fascinated
We are so blessed
I am astounded
To drink His wine and bread
And I am so astounded
Definition of pure
I am dazed
Every sin He will cure
And I am so dazed
103
Alive In You
I am alive
Never will I part
And I am so alive

I am alive
Never will I part
And I am so alive
104
I Thank You Jesus

I thank you Jesus
For finally making me see
That you will
Always be a part of me
I thank you Jesus

You are my destination
To live like you
The shining Son
I thank you Jesus

Lows and highs
Lessons in life
A plan in disguise
I thank you Jesus

Shining so bright
I am illuminated
With your radiant light
105
High
Over and over
I try and I try
Nothing can compare
To this permanent high
Everyday
I feel so heavenly
Following the Father
On the path to destiny
A servant who was shown

What life is about
Who believes
Without a doubt
Yes I am John
I child of earth
Born again
Through spiritual birth
106
(--- God Bless ---)

(---John Tatlow---)
(--- Angel Poet ---)
tatlowjohn@hotmail.com
(---I sign my name like this cause it

represents wings of angels---)
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Struggles Of The Storm

Hello !!! I am John Tatlow. I would just like

I started to write, because of my

Most people live their life not realizing what

If I can inspire one person , to help come

Even though I been disabled with

“…Let your light shine before men,

“…God is our refuge and strength, an

“…I can do everything through Him

“…But if we love each other, God lives

“…Delight yourself in the Lord and He

“…Everything is possible for him who

“…But those who hope in the Lord will

(---A Collection Of Testimonies---)

Hello! My name is John

I was very close to her

An unknown disease she had

I was eight when she passed away

Passed few a difficult day

Then my mother came to me

Seeming like a telepath mime

I woke up soaked in tears

I had the clearest vision

Where I went and saw floating far above

So by fact I know there is a gracious God

I lived with my Grandmother Marion

They brought me to church

Again I moved not very fun

My separation from God affected me

Spiritually frozen for many a year

I fell in the valley deep

I thought I was a weight

A little voice inside

A visit on last November’s eve

So I moved to the Fort’

I wish I could say all of this in normal testimony

The little dear

Next year crawled by

I had an unknown disease

It deteriates you mentally

Becoming a risk to yourself

Filled with fear

Dazed and confused

They don’t realize

I only have a picture

Prison without chains

Why won’t you let me be

How is this home

I ask the Lord

I appeared one night

Seeming like a telepath mime

I woke up . . . soaked in tears

A day after, feeling low

That eve when I fell asleep

I saw her there

Maybe it was just a dream

One day after my mother’s death

I could see with my soul

Coming from everywhere

Talking with a translucent spirit

After our discussion

I felt I was moving

I know I belong there