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DAUGHTER
Pradeep Maheshwari
s164gk1@yahoo.com
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As I compile this collection of pictures and
essays, I think of my “DIDI” in the Ashram,
Pondicherry, who took me under her wing some 55
years ago; who gave me the cuddles my own
parents had no time for, who was there for me
whenever I needed her, who helped me fight and
get rid of fears that my negative upbringing had
instilled in me. She passed away last April. (2009)
This has come too soon just after my brother
left us last year, again in April. He stood by me
non-judgmentally and with him around I never
feared the vagaries of this world.
My father incidentally left in April too. I am
beginning to learn to dread this month.
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Introduction.
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I maintain that people should not be allowed to
have children if
1) They have NOT done at least a course in
child psychology or/and Aptitude test.
2) NOT Financially comfortably endowed.
And also 3) Divorces not allowed when children
exist.
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My focus here is on the girl child. She has always
received a raw deal. Things have really come to a
point where I feel voices need to be raised.
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can I scold her when she has done no real wrong
and surely no deliberate mischief? And why, even if
I have something to say, why should I scold her? It
will only kill her curiosity and stunt her persona
Centre of Attention.
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Don’t bring up the child on "don’t do this and don’t
do that" Help him explore himself and the world
and be there for him when he needs an elder
friend. Teach him the pros and cons of each
situation and let him decide for better or worse.
We need to teach them to think for themselves and
NOT tell them what to think.
And for heaven’s sake, don’t be there for him so
much that he never has to make an effort on his
own.
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we all need a friend who would accept us as we are
without judging us and I was being that to my
child. To the child the parents should be the
friends/mentors/guides in front of who he can be
himself/herself. If I want to stop her from doing
something, I do so by diverting her attention.
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head. I must say that she is beginning to recognize
and respect this.
It has to be made as a request or tears will flow,
backed highly dramatized acting- and make me feel
like a jerk. I know I am being manipulated but then
my mother, wife, colleagues and everyone I know is
doing it so what is new? I just wait for my
opportunity to have my own tantrums one of these
days.
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Some months ago I met her again working as a
sweeper in the temple I sometimes visit and
enquired about her family. The sons it seems were
not doing anything. Their wives were working and
keeping the home fires burning. Her husband was
now too old and sick and although she did not say
it, it could be seen that it was all a great burden.
She had perpetuated her own miserable life on to
the next generation. The loan had become a weight
around the neck. What bothers me is this – when
we assist these short-sighted people are we helping
them or hurting them? Can we really ever help
them?
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In a general way, on the spiritual level, one can say
that the worst that can happen to the child are the
parents.
The parents, 99% of them, do not bring up their
children consciously. They are following a natural
trend by habit and instinct. They are simply being
themselves. It is not only how we behave with the
child but the galling fact is that the child picks up
the same behavior patterns and repeats them and
this can go on into many generations.
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much, the child has to bear the brunt of our ire
which can often be horrendous in the extreme.
It is so saddening.
Our self-centeredness
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mentally and emotionally. So the end result is
children rearing up more children and passing on all
their fears and insecurities and making colossal
blunders in the actual act of feeding, clothing and
educating. Generation after generation this is being
repeated and we can safely say that we are
perpetuating our miseries on to the next generation
who in turn will most probably do the same. Of
course with every generation, with more education
there is an improvement but it is unfortunately not
the norm yet in terms of percentage of the world’s
population. Even in so-called educated societies,
only few ever try to improve themselves and put
the interest of the child before their own.
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My Story
Bringing up Aruna
The first three months were ok. She was just lying
there and all I needed was to cuddle her to
reassure her that she is in good & hopefully capable
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hands. I was feeding her every 3 to four hours and
changing her nappy every now and then. Making
sure that she was covered well and when she was in
a bad mood which she indicated by crying I would
carry her around snugly ensconced in my arms and
sing to her. She loved that.
Nutrition.
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I was often advised to stick to a regimen of time
etc. This I found difficult to agree with. The body is
not a clockwork machine. It is not in the same
“mood” all the time. So we gave this advice on
fixing times and quantities a miss. We catered to
the child when she demanded it and let her direct
her own life. No stress and no pressures was our
motto. Later on when she was ready to taste solid
food we let her taste everything she wanted to.
Restrictive upbringing is in my opinion is stifling the
child before it has a chance to find anything about
the world. Today we are rewarded by the fact she
is not fussy at all. She eats everything we do and
she does it with relish and abandon.
Aruna at play
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It was the same story with all of them. They would
take so much care of them and protect them so
much that they would keep the child in their arms
and refuse to let it get into any activity lest it get
hurt or dirty the clothes. I asked one of them why
they were denying the child the freedom to play
and explore and they said quite logically that they
would be blamed if anything happened to the child.
They could not risk their own job as no one is going
to listen to their side of the story in case of a
mishap so they had no choice but to be careful and
play safe.
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When I see her romping all around us, supremely
happy with her condition and smiles at me, tears of
contentment well-up in my eyes.
Commitment.
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to do to a child. His faith is shattered and he will
never take commitment seriously.
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high opinion of ourselves most of the time until
disaster strikes then for a while we see our
faults and reflect. But for the rest of our lives
we are quite certain about our wisdom and
abilities and we even prove it and justify
ourselves by quoting earlier “Greats & Gurus” as
if we were on par with them while we have nothing
to say from our own fount of experience and
learning, except perhaps a few biting words and
make the world aware of our own merits in
comparison to the demerits of the rest of the
world!
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Most parents use the “NO” rather too often. In the
Reader’s Digest I once read of a lady who managed
every situation with a YES. For instance on a
request for ice cream in winter she would say
“YES” but in the summer.
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Will our manliness be shadowed and emasculated
by letting our child stand tall along with us?
Remember, we made him into what he is today.
Can’t we derive pleasure from his persona and the
grand guy he has now become? Do we have to be
the guy in total control and know-all! It is funny
how we think of our progeny only as our possessions
and extension of our selves but never as friends and
shoulders to cry upon.
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Look around closely. How often do you see people
agreeing and accepting each other and in
comparison how often we are crossing each other
out?
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Does not the child have a right to be NOT born?
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The future of our children
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- Their lack of “savoir faire” means they have to
work for middlemen who are earning handsomely
even in this shrinking market. Had these artisans
spent some time planning their own education and
future, things would be quite different.
- Before you know what, the children are married
off and some more children, "Gift of God" appear to
feed and care for which the necessities are simply
non existent.
- The dreams sold by our celluloid world and now
by the TV, giving a totally wrong impression about
the realities of life. Instead of showing the way, it
is emotionalizing everything and leaving it there.
Most of the Indian population is learning from these
and patterning their lives wholly on the perverted
nonsense they see through the medium of films and
soaps on TV.
- There is nobody to guide them or show the way.
Especially the different norms and practices of
different social classes and so they remain
unaccepted by their peers and ignorant of business
practices.
- The art and artists merit all the help possible but
not as doles. Let’s record it all for posterity and let
Institutions like the Victoria Institute of Chennai
keep the art alive.
- The Government can only play a limited role. We
have to take responsibility for our own lives.
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What are we telling them?
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haunt them in their own lives. The circle is then
complete and pain is everywhere.
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Things aren't always perfect. I don't always have as
much time or money that I would like to provide
for my son because I sometimes struggle with doing
it all on my own. But he knows he is loved and I
thank God for him every day.”
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Live in peace and when the time comes, Leave
the world - in peace!
Say Yes.
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learnt how to do it, what could be stopping you
from creating the life you have imagined? If you
feel that life has not dealt you a good hand to
begin with and then ask for a reshuffle and start
again. Let me illustrate a story of a young man and
he how came tops.
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the teacher had now become quite a master of his
subject.
OFFENDED
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understand. Everything became clear in a flash.
Edward R Murrow says: Our self-importance
requires that we spend most of our lives
offended by someone.
DEBATABLE POINTS
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have one alive and in use when one goes to school
or college; isn’t it rather self defeating? I mean,
you are at school to study and learn new things.
How can you do that when you head is busy SMSing
or listening to music of today which is just
RAP anyway? DO You need to have a doctorate in
psychology to understand that if you your mind is
not focusing on the lectures or subjects being
taught you will retain nothing? Then why go to
school at all?
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In many cases the servants who all have mobile
phones are so busy on it that they have no idea
what mischief the child is up to. And they are
rather busy socializing anyway. Isn’t that inviting
trouble uselessly?
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Dirt from spitting, garbage and the attitude that
every corner is a dustbin if not a toilet forms part
of the larger picture.
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I have often wondered why as a people we are so
callous about the cleanliness of public spaces.
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they get even closer to each other in their love.
Deep love does not even need whispering.
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Compassion and benevolence as the foundation of
their persona.
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we are only carrying forward some patterns received
from the human chain.
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Some of you maybe interested in the
conversation below:
Dear PK,
Do you have a solution (to change in a systematic
manner) for tackling with and surviving husbands
who bully and shout at wives at the drop of a hat?
They just look for mistakes only all the time and
never miss an opportunity to shout and insult.
This way the dignity of the wife is not respected.
I know this man comes from a house where his
mother, even at the age of 70, gets shouted at all
the time by his father. He has been raised this
way. They think this is manly behavior. At time he
is raises his hand and causes physical hurt in
various ways. One is left with no choice than to
complain with police but most of the times I've
noticed in most cases even the police don't take
it seriously as these men are connected.
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actually looking for a good scrape. This is how
they revalidate themselves."
But I am talking about cases where even without
the fault of others they misuse their positions.
Looking for guidance.
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themselves and they will put all their effort in it
- never in change.
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options in life open to them to take any kind of
action; we have to understand their fear of losing
the roof over their heads and finding themselves
abandoned in the wild of the streets.
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Then please also see the other side of the
picture. Women are no angels. Relationships
normally begin on a rosy note. They deteriorate
later because women do not realize that the man
who is initially totally under her spell will one day
wake up. By then women tend to pick up habits or
patterns of behavior of their own within the
relationship. They start expecting too much.
Later when the attraction of their charms has
waned, their habits like sulking, pouting and not
paying attention to anything but their own wants
& wishes can be severe irritants.
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Silence is Golden.
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Yes this is the enigma. Speaking in silence is the
trick.
The flowers, the cloud formations, the flowing
water and the shimmering reflection of the lights
of the cities in water, the he waves crashing on the
beach and so many other activities that do their
thing, communicate but never say a thing. How
entrancing they are. There is something in these
forms of happenings that attract our attention and
gels with some part of our being. If it were not so,
why would we want to collect butterflies and put
the flowers in pots? This is speech of a kind. We
can speak with the eyes, eyebrows, actions and
movement can’t we? The same way Mother Nature
speaks to us in various hues and modes. If only we
would listen.
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communicating fully although without the medium
of speech.
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old lady picked it up and kept it in her lap. I was
watching her but did not say anything; later when
it was time to go home I went to her and asked for
the ball. She wasn’t very keen to return it thinking
of it as an abandoned ball. I had to explain to her
that I let other kids play but it was mine. She did
give it back but not happily. Then some days ago
when I was not looking, somebody took it away and
I have not seen it since.
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The dream is to find the magical fountain that will
give back those days without cutting out the adult
fun. The spoil sports are the other adults. Why does
it have to be that whenever people get together,
the social dynamics can get complicated?
And some do seem to find this fountain so it is
worthwhile looking for it.
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I would say that we take cognizance that we have
influence in a given small crowd; let us worry about
this crowd. Let us also not forget that The Universe
or The Lord if you refer to call HIM, put us here and
we are serving a purpose. The first rule we should
exercise in our life is to act without “calculation &
pre-meditation”. The second being: leave,
absolutely leave, the rest of the world alone.
Another rule that I have found by experience is to
be honest with yourself and your neighbor. Say your
piece whatever it is. If you can’t afford it say so. If
you want something ask it. No hypocrisy.
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Emulating them will give us the Key to the joy we
are looking for and the YES will get incorporated in
our lives without trying; but I warn you, the rest of
the world will think of you as immature and
unreliable and often “coarse”, especially when you
deny them something. But then you are here to say
YES to your life and not theirs! Have courage!! The
Universe is with you!!!
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Look at this guy hogging the road or even that
pedestrian walking merrily in the centre of the
road. Both have been taught and told, I am sure
often enough, to be a little more “giving” and
considerate; if not for others at least for their own
selves. From their behavior you would believe that
they both acquired white hairs by standing under
the sun. Then coming down to the immediate
present, no amount of honking seems to affect
them. Are they deaf? No sir, nothing of this. They
are tax payers so they have rights and the roads are
for public use; although I would keep my fingers
crossed when making this statement.
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may be hurt to the point of retaliation; quite a lot
of people do.
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I even go to the extent of breaking willfully certain
relationships that have been giving me a crick in
the neck. I have often exacerbated an issue that
effectively closed avenues for reconstructing the
relationship. Often even when the other party tries
hard to come over with a new gambit to start all
over again, I just play deaf and dumb. There is
enough precedence in life to support this attitude.
There has to be some reason behind the sayings –
Good fences make good neighbors - Treat every
man as a gentleman until he proves himself
otherwise. – Absence makes the heart grow fonder.
– A snake is better left in the bush etc etc.
Relationships kept for formality’s sake only give
irritating rashes.
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to forget, things will pass into the past and life will
go on.
Greeting My Child.
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You can see the excitement that was shining on the
face of the child disappear and concern wash over.
I am angry but say nothing. Will it serve any
purpose to teach the gentleman that this is not a
good way to greet the child by scaring him/her?
Where is the fun in this greeting?
A woman scorned.
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Jokes apart, there is a kernel of truth in the above
pleasantries. Women are designed to be
appreciated; she is to be appreciated and be seen
as the centre of your little universe and forget the
rest as crap. She is never wrong or at fault. Get
this in your puny head. Any time you fail to give
signs of unfailing praise, you have legally and
literally scorned her. And that brings down the axe
with all its dangerous aftermath. In a pique they
may really even leave you so beware. But normally
they are more pragmatic than that. They stay and
keep you groveling and making it clear what
position you enjoy in the equation. You can want to
run away but where will you go?
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Dear PK, I learnt a lot by your remark - "don't
try to teach the world".
My response:
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very difficult to let go. The misery that entails is
rarely understood by those perpetrating it. The
very psyche of the child is pummeled into a blob of
jelly. The indigestible truth is that the influences
of these parents goes on and on into many coming
generations as their children perpetuate the same
tendencies.
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Normally we are born with a lot of kindness but
the harsh condition the child meets later changes
the basic nature in many different ways. As the
child grows older it learns to protect itself and
then it absorbs behavior patterns from his
immediate surrounding and learns to do things the
way it sees others doing it. Until the child is also
shown and taught that kindness can bring in more
rewards than brute sadistic action, the child will
never know better. It is all a matter of exposure
and examples set by peers.
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First we do not permit the child to flower; clipping
his wings at every step. Then we weaken him
emotionally by acting as crutches and then we
complain that our children are no good,
irresponsible and spineless; we even wonder if ever
they will grow up. First we stunt their personalities
and then ask them to go and make a mark in the
world –and that too in our image. How myopic can
one get?
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What shall we call this? The human comedy or
human tragedy!
Dead or Alive
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in death as they had done in life? I would definitely
want it so.
Hidden Messages
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Engaged and Busy.
Picture two:
The other day one of my elder cousin sisters passed
by and she is a “somebody”. She has a Doctorate
and has been a lecturer etc. She really takes
herself rather seriously. We meet rarely. This time
we met after four years. The truth is she did not
come to see me; she thinks I am a wastrel. She had
come to see my mother. But I had to keep the
formalities alive so I came out for a moment from
my cubbyhole to say hullo. And this is how the
conversation unrolled:
Some comments
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Doing nothing requires to let the world run itself,
enjoy the moment, bask in aloneness and savor
silence. It is another matter that this repose is also
therapeutic both for the body and spirit.
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reason, experience and common sense. –
attributed to Buddha.
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