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Agony Churns
My Heart
- HARIHAR JHA
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INDEX
TITLES
PAGEFore
Foreword
Preface
My Death
13
15
A Prank
16
A Half Poet
17
An Exam
18
Silently Expressive!
19
20
Make a Move
21
22
23
The Cave
24
I am Silent
25
In the Rain
26
PLEASURE OR PAIN?
27
28
29
30
31
The Horse
32
Moment
33
34
Crake of dawn
35
Valentine's day
36
37
A Gulmohr Tree
38
The Heartache
39
40
My mother
41
My Paper-Made Boat
42
Be it Kargil or Gallipoli
43
44
My Ego
45
Desert Me Not
46
47
The boredom
48
Paradox
49
Poor Me
50
Promise
51
52
Autumn
53
54
In love
55
It is dawn
56
Lisa!
57
My Father
58
59
60
61
The weather
62
63
A Spiritual Feel!
64
A Fall in Love
65
Cheers Or Jeers
66
67
Hobbits disappeared
68
Hunger - 3 Faces
69
70
Love is an illusion
71
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73
Your look
74
Why Torture?
75
Birds
76
77
78
Mask
79
Who Is Wrong?
80
81
The Camera
82
Stunning Melbourne
83
Foreword
Harihar Rai Jha known widely as Harihar Jha is by birth at
thinker, devotee from the devout class, the Jhas. He took to poesy as
a duck takes to water for it has been his fond passion to think,
imagine and give expression to his fancy and feelings.
PREFACE
What is a poem? The question is as much hardas to
define life of oneself. Any definition is a constraint on
either. I have passed through some definitions of poetry
but intuitively I love the concept of "Satyam, Shivam,
Sundaram". Every poem touches some part of it.
Satyam : The concept of truth doesn't care about bitterness
or even ugliness in it which is often seen in modern
poetry. Thanks to Freud, he unearthed the animal hidden in
man. The psychoanalytical research has influenced every
field in the art including poetry :
Flame of burning fire trying to embrace
When out of control, it blackens your face
In humans, instinct of love is supreme
Dance, art and literature have the same theme
Suppressed love is anger poised to slaughter
like a thirsty man fighting for water
Shivam :Taking responsibility for one's own thought and optimism in
poetry is often reflected in life that leads to Shivam
The shooting star disappeared
Wrote on the sky with precision
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ACKNOWLEDGEMENT
I acknowledge the contribution of my mother and father for
their blessings and my careful nurture and of my brothers
for their intellectual companionship.
I also acknowledge
13
My Death
The Death has drawn a line on me
Mind in blunder, my heart in wonder
I see the death coming near me
Spreading black veil, making me blind
Shaking my bones, and veins are blown
A wave in melody piercing my mind
Song from the birds rolling on a death cup
What clouds reveal, wet fragrance I feel
From earth to cosmos, umbrella opens up
With love I am ready to be breakfast next
Death licking me while I taste my death
My soul is fulfilled but ego perplexed
The world is dissolved, Im going to die
Nothingness looming and silence blooming
Peace everywhere Im flying in the sky.
Order from heavens passing my ears
Take me my dear with joy and cheers
People around me why shedding tears?
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15
A Prank
A blind girl asks me, "is it day or night?"
my old classmate she is, not blind by birth
I get hurt when she asks in broad day light
to answer is futile, what is its worth?
Her bad luck it was, a prank turned tragic
accident happened in a chemistry lab
perceived as no one's fault what a magic!
a few people thought it was hide and stab.
At her silly question my head explodes
pain in my blood infiltrates into bones
how to help her, sympathy makes inroads
Why do I melt when my heart is like a stone?
Anguish in me tries to escape in vain
A guilt-ridden man cries in throbbing pain
16
A Half Poet
Am I really a poet or a joker
You said I amuse you and make you laugh
with all futile attempts to win your heart
I am half poet and a joker half
Poem is more than a flowing river
it should be composed cleaner and neater
so I'm attentive of rhyme and rhythm
precisely I measure foot and meter
I have nice collection of poetry
but publisher saw me with empty purse
somehow he wanted to escape from me
cunningly asked me to change in free verse
I inflicted wounds on all my poems
They were sobbing in tears, What a disgrace!
with clothes on their body I hide my sin!
no one can notice cuts on their faces
Such poems are all just pornographic jokes,
you appreciate fantastically
but my heart knows the praise showered on me
should be told very sarcastically
17
An Exam
An exam knocking at the door
how to avoid, I desperately try
my body trembles in helplessness
like an orphan, I feel like crying
I try to read, the books are flying
frightened I attempt to scream
what a nasty and strange the moment
looks like Im in a dream...
my note-book shaping like blue sky
my mind in puzzle unable to guide
shaking my hand turns into a pen
but the ink of my charity is dried
breathing my last reciting in vain
I hold my heart in awe
a brief homage being paid in tears
for me or for my grandma!
I am dragged to an examination hall
I find it hard to breathe
an angle of death as examiner
just dreaming? or is it my death?
18
Silently Expressive
Silently expressive!
How to quench the heart strongly flaming in
Fire-balls in ashes burning me within
Heart speaks and body blazes
Doh Re Me... from the limbs
Breathing is mute, the soul is frightened.
Silently expressive!
Silent stars in cosmos rebirth
Who listens to the tiny earth?
Poor man is shedding tears
Silently expressive!
Emotional poem composed in rhyme
Walked through the ladder, dancing in rhythm
melted in a divine meditation
Silently expressive!
Roads from life lead to death
Shrill voice of consciousness, hard to breathe
Silently expressive!
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Make a Move
Make a move from this hypocritical world
away from the mechanical life
for a picnic with friends and wife
Throw your formal dresses
and laugh in a jolly mood
Nicely arrange our lunch and diner
but a gimmick in search for food.
Lets go shouting songs
rhythm from collective consciousness
like nomads going global,
Pretending to lose our ways on a bush-walk
then jump to contact on mobile
Lets go and appreciate
trees, forest and stars
Boast of creating peace in mind
the magic of healing scars
Then how come we start fights
angered over trivial matters
Hot discussion, war of words
tranquility to shatter...
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23
The Cave
I am sitting in a cave
feel innocent and younger
tree branches like artery
just to satisfy hunger
Someone is breathing for me
here all leisure and no fight
lovely music like heartbeat
I listen whole day and night
No effort, no work for me
all comfort comes by snuggle
what a wonder cave it is
preparing for a struggle
Will drive me out of the cave
through a very narrow route
I cant stay inside for long
still very tough to come out
Lazy bone no work for me
my mother is the rover
I will be pushed out soon
when just nine months are over
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I am Silent
Since my birth when I cried heartily
Tried so hard again but still I am silent
Great style my sweetheart! Who killed your soul?
You dared to ask me and I am silent
Me hungry of love, you asked me to be far away
Not to show wounds in my heart I am silent
Tears of sorrow to sip with smile on face
Ocean of sorrow in line and I am silent
River of love flowing in my heart
You ask me to shed tears, I am silent
You rubbed salt on injury instead of ointment
Isnt that too much that I am silent ?
Love is sin - I went for crime after crime
Trapped in the mud of guilt I am silent
On death-bed, God asking the truth behind my guilt
The truth and the only truth is : I am silent.
25
IN THE RAIN
In the rain with you,
my heart is a garden
a dancing peacock appears
Stupid the rain!
when you are away
It brings a flood of tears...
Wet is romantic air in your love
and wet is all our bodies
How to open our tender hearts
when we both are quite and shy
Your anklet sounds to express passion
and ringing bangles conveying...
Lips unable to speak emotion
Then blowing wind comes helping
In the pouring rain when you are missing
Tough to pass the lonely night
the long garland with all its fragrance
jumps as a cobra ready to bite.
Why the garden so green yet blowing
Storm of fire to slaughter
passion in air, flame in the heart
fire blazing in the water...
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PLEASURE OR PAIN
Your dead silence is very frightening
so much mysterious is your laughter
no escape! you are thunder and lightening !
to merge in you I come tumbling after
You annihilate my sturdy feeling
and blast the cobweb of my complex thoughts
with love you flood my heart's core and ceiling
what a real volcano your touch has brought
Magic in you has a spiritual credo
fountain of cheers emerging from your eyes
craving desire with cheering libido
in pain suffers silently, my heart cries
In you I have jumped , be it loss or gain
God knows this passion is pleasure or pain?
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MY FRIEND
My friend! we came here
away from that mechanical life
happy on the bike with speed double
now look at the thorns in tube and tyre
how to cope with this trouble?
My friend! on the way we had put
lust of inner life in musical dress
shouting third rate songs, beat and rhythm in mess
now if we sing or cry on the bank of lonely river
our own shadow will tease and laugh at us
now enough of the tune of the singing birds
enough of the praise for the open sky
enough hypocrisy of the mental peace
Claim to be one with the nature so lie
with dust flying around our mouth and nose
Push thorny bicycle, on the filthy narrow track
with fit of anger, enraged in our heart
Oh my friend! let us speedily return back
31
THE HORSES
Horses
of ambition and greed
are running
Not only on plain ground
they climb over the ladder
surely legs are blood-bathed
but carrying the burden
of the worldly cart
flying in the high sky
insulting the birds of tender-feeling.
These horses have given me
infinite strength
envy of friends,
abuse of foes
sarcastic smile of strangers.
I have got everything
on my own using these horses
by sacrificing myself
to make the horses
winning victorious, conquering.
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MOMENT
A moment flowing like a drop in a river
Try hold in a box golden or silver
I exhausted my life thinking and thinking
Each time I got losing or wining!
Wasted my life converting into money
Like a busy bee creating honey
"Tick Tick" said moment in a mechanical scheme
Lost my life through a cobweb of dreams!
The moment stopes flowing when you are alone
Flies like a bird when a party is thrown
Moments of sorrow can cry loudly
Clapping moments of joy proudly
World is a drama with emotions all
Who knows when will curtain fall
The lamp of life gets all dissolved
Still the mystery is not resolved.
Layer by layer, like an onion
Moment itself opens up
Strangely combines a pungent dish
Flavoured with a sweet cup.
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CRAKE OF DAWN
A lonesome branch embraced
And squeezed the chest of a tree
Smiled the breeze in her heart
and passed by the sea
Crake of dawn is fine! and so is lukewarm unshine
Merging in sweat of burning noon
Sky to the depth in light
Ah! Dream Melody emerged from
A cave of frightening night
Crake of dawn is fine! and so is lukewarm sunshine
Naughty someone during night
Blackened the face of Miss earth!
No one to care for her dews like tears
Then what is all its worth?
Came sweet Morning with garden wind
What a flowery and fruity!
Tears of happiness that was dew
and got again her beauty
Crake of dawn is fine! and so is lukewarm sunshine
35
VALENTINE'S DAY
My heart is throbbing and my mind gets crazy
When I hear your song of love
You shine as fibres of moonlight
dressed in a dazzling glove
Sweet sound from earth to heaven
Craving overflow by tide
In a playful eyes of passion
The soul of love on ride
Came the spring, couples got crazy
Urge to love gets shine
Came the spring, couples dancing
Shaking like a glass of wine
The rhythm buzzing and wonderful beats
Vibrating body chirps like a bird
My heart throbbing and mind got crazy
When hear your song of love
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A GULMOHR TREE
Pouring compassion of heaven on this earth
God decides a small lovely village to bless
with gift of nature in a wonderful form
a Gulmohr tree in an aesthetic dress
The singing air with so much pleasing fragrance
air of love is blowing from the tree so nice
people breathing fire in the fits of anger
how come they are drunk-dead in cool breeze of peace
sitting, enjoying in the lap of Nature
travelers planning further journey to start
agony transformed into sensitivity
filling happiness and pleasure in the heart
on forehead of the old people so relaxed
disappeared the flowing sweat-drops of heat
their both hands come forward to give the blessings
when all children with due respect touch their feet.
teen-agers chat in dense shadow of the tree
to solve problems and remove the thorns of strife
feeling very enthusiastic and fresh
they proceed on their future vision of life
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THE HEARTACHE
A point behind the intricacy
the heartache is beyond cure
thunderous big bang from your anklet
universe emerging in flashes
The star, planet and satellite
are shining dots from your eyelashes
The clouds just like black-holes
are lamp black for your eyes
billion years have passed
in search of love, the heart cries
since then tears of separation
formed huge ocean for sure
the heartache is beyond cure
You, dancing in fish, flying in birds
In monkeys, humans you are on play
Your craving for love sneaking in reptiles
Darwin lost the way
life with a heart and source of heartache
the heartache is beyond cure
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MY MOTHER
The tasty food, you cook is unbeatable my mother!
The stuff in even five-star-hotels is all bloody junk
The silly waiter ready here to obey my order
salutes me and bends, just for no tips who fiercely taunts!
then very amazed I remember love in your anger
I miss you in lavish hotels, confused on what I want
you scold me in your love that always purifies my soul
The tasty food, you cook is unbeatable my mother!
I grew in your kind shadow to see many lovely dreams
I passed thru each and every pain to attain the great height
I built in the air, the castles to get prosperity
My mental peace lost forever I keep crying whole night
I get peace of mind when recall one of your cradle songs
The tasty food, you cook is unbeatable my mother!
In my whole life I mastered the maths of loss and profit
In competition and jealousy living in suspense
on dazzling path but you are away, What a hollow life!
money is God, money is love, I fell prey to nonsense
I get relief in your smile on all my silly blunders
The tasty food, you cook is unbeatable my mother!
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MY PAPER-MADE BOAT
Flood in the river, dead bodies to float
Wonderful, I drive my paper-made boat!
World is bitter over quarrel and feud
Happy my daughter with succour of food
Dazzle in city, my village remote
Wonderful, I drive my paper-made boat!
Bomb on the masses from killer so sly
smoke from the clouds are spreading in the sky
Yet innocent swans are ready to float
Wonderful, I drive my paper-made boat!
Fighting for greed and lust to wine and dine
hungry gets nothing yet gluttons take nine
Crowing on rewards from almighty God
Wonderful, I drive my paper-made boat!
Earth being cheated by aliens cut-throat
stars and meteors are colliding a lot
A hot ball going in my old torn coat
Wonderful, I drive my paper-made boat!
42
BE IT KARGIL OR GALLIPOLI
Hide and seek with the death
Be it Cargill or Gallipoli
The truth in the chess of war
No one is king or pawn
when hit by a bullet in the chest
Be it Cargill or Gallipoli
One who is martyr in the war
hailed as a champion in the history
after dying in the bloodbath
Be it Cargill or Gallipoli
everyone respects the martyr
man in the street and the noble
sacrifice, the paradigm of society
Be it Cargill or Gallipoli
Deceit with their own life
sympathy with the crying wife
the little girl still very innocent
Be it Cargill or Gallipoli
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MY EGO
How to grab arteries of mankind
No mind should be free
name to occupy everywhere
me... and only me...
seers tell us of dissolving ego
merge in the cosmic jar
how funny have bankruptcy in business
claim owning bazaar
forget all, Look how pretty lovely!
my ego, my name!
the question keeps troubling me again
the truth in seers' claim
why seeker in a wild forest gets
Divine Buddha fame!
But king Shuddhodhan is recognised
By only son's name.
Kings and thorns have aggressive ego
Rose bud always knows.
The man as always appreciates
Fragrance of the rose.
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DESERT ME NOT
Desert me not then how can even death touch me
When you are with me, death always shy to clutch me
Tied by fibres of love in sweet relation's thread
heart throbbing with your magic touch, my pleasure gleams
your presence glowing my life, I get mesmerised
my directions gobble up, I get lost in dreams
Hypnotising your look, your magic so pleasing
When you are with me, death always shy to clutch me
your delicate limbs, how can you hurt anyone!
But your looks make one wounded, even devils flee
Like Angel's brush, you have very sharp eyelashes
Demons for me go away without taking me
Legend-lovers' story is again repeated!
When you are with me, death always shy to clutch me
Crooked Death, the dirty-face can't look in mirror
your glitter, your stunning beauty, how can he brave!
facing you, in blunder he surely will be slipped
Bound to say O delicate! catch my hand and save
Your intoxicating look! Death himself will die
When you are with me, death always shy to clutch me
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THE BOREDOM
Getting worst of nausea
on slow road of the time and beyond
just like playful water
turning muddy with mosquitos around
No tree has dried
standing in lonely containment
birds, animals, stars and planets
no one is hungry of entertainment
but me, an intellectual
a provider of nice edge
for my flowing instinct so blind
why do I listen in this dead moment
the noise from the ghost of my mind?
an obstacle in meditation
a barrier in running is my hovering brood
full of wounds from animal instincts
harassing and turning me into a thief, so crude
caught red handed in the thread of perversion,
in the garb of daydreaming
yet nude, simply nude
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Paradox
Hungry dogs keep barking
Hungry dogs keep barking
Moon sneaking away behind the horizon
In this city
A few corpses bury human beings alive
A few chairs catch the neck of people
Sit over them haughtily
Why budding flowers are being crushed
My soul is furious, enraged
And cries my fuming speech
In response
Angered by not able to crush me
the hungry dogs
catch me with their big forceps
push me in a dog-vehicle
and leave me in a dreaded forest.
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Poor Me
Lured me to make like you
You snatched away my self
On excuse to lighten me
on my body you added shackles
Engrossed with relation in family
full of leaves and flowers
rootless as I was
You chose to give me power
To give me my own personality
Me nude tree at your request
With the lotion of Beauty-saloon
glued dummy flower on my breast
Veils after veils I was covered
by my Lord, the stone-age guy
You turned me into a bar-girl
For liberation, I couldnt cry
You removed my clothes, layer after layer
For freedom I was keen
What a shame on tragic joy
You peeled off even my skin.
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Promise
A crooked minister instead of hell
went to heaven he was desirous
Mistake in account of Karma
May be computer had a virus.
His hypocrisy got hidden
Charity visible as paint
The account gobbled in a way
The Minister looked like a saint
But what sort of heaven it is
teasing luxury so well
Burning fire around
Just like in the hell
Fraud, corruption as Minister
were all under his direction
He, innumerable promises
had broken after election
Bribery charges eleven
and broken promises million
virgins image moving around
Just to promise heaven.
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AUTUMN
Soaked in tears my piano
How can I create a melody?
My childhood a dry autumn
no place for any greenery.
I have sold my playful life
for a few coins, what a deal!
After my sweat and blood
hard to get a squire meal
My childhood put on a mortgage
I joined the labour force
how could I go to the school
With no money, no source
I never complain with my master
for I am bruised and battered
puzzle of love and abuse
Alas! my life is shattered
I deserve smile or chuckle
Why rebuke passing my ears
Scared as always be beaten
who will wipe my tears?
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IN LOVE
YOU OPEN YOUR BEAUTIFUL LIPS TO SAY,
BUT FIND NO WORD TO IMPART
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IT IS DAWN
It is dawn, the Sun feeling shy to meet the world
Yesterday the moon was boasting
how gorgeous am I
Me, metaphor for the beauty
no poet would deny
but helpless before my black spot
disgusting, makes me cry
Filled with humility, and ashamed in the heart
hiding its face under the cloud, moon feeling shy
cupid with its bow and arrow
boasting on youthful run
with splash soaked vigour in body
makes helpless everyone
at anytime with garland wrapped
enjoying squeeze in love
still when faced with the rules in human society
hiding face in his curly hair feeling so shy
It is dawn, the Sun feeling shy to meet the world!
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LISA
Lisa! You are beautiful but be away
vulgar when so much near on my way
Your slim body with a thin waist
fish like eyes on the cunning face
your walk is like a poisonous cobra
why do you wander at ugly places?
Your heart is guilty, you don't talk
but move anywhere to dwell
Like a movie scene why do you dance
on the wall and roof as well?
Your petty beloved get merged in you
hell with love when you enjoy food yummy
your sweetheart are just tiny insects
Live in your heart or slipping in your tummy?
for amazement, I want to touch you
with my hands but you are quite wizard!
Why do you scare me and trick me around
Lisa ! tell me, are you a lizard?
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MY FATHER
He used to go in the dark early morning
towards well on down slope of the hill
to view depth of the well in detail
and learn how could it uplift
height of the hill to this scale?
that is why, touch of his fingers
like depth of the well
had a great thrill
when he sent me to school
his blessings were as high as a hill.
all his smile and happiness
surrounded my shallow existence
I was frightened by depth in his grace.
To make me laugh
he used to perform child-like faces
he sow seeds of maturity in me
by such pretence
now I can see the childhood
of maturity of that innocence
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THE WEATHER
Winter season of fear is shrinking our life
wave of anxiety it is going to bring
gone the era when flowers used to blossom
many lovely innocent birds used to sing
very tough to solve the mystery of weather
snowfall disappeared now fire blowing at whim
all beautiful clothes soaked in perspiration
flowing dirty hot syrup from all our limbs
A marble statue with delicate veins here
always boasting of tolerance with a plaque
leisurely sitting in air-condition room
in public service and for the fear of cracks
Buds in the park, silently tolerating
heat wave in stoical and detached manner
get burned in fire to have rebirth with a smile
they believe in God as their divine planner
Enough, they revolted like a thorn to pinch
foul smell they emitted was a real bummer
they take mutual revenge against each other
with fear and hate as winter and summer
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A SPIRITUAL FEEL
In the shadow of a Banyan tree
Garlands and tender branches dangled
sound of footsteps on the door of heart
With divine call I am entangled
Lovely cushion bed with the green grass
The tickling drops of dews so small
entering in pores of my body
melodious sound of waterfall
Smiling flowers in blowing cool wind
What an atmosphere with magic!
How come lovely mysterious sound
kills my ego with speech so tragic
Gentle wind murmuring in the ears
Some revealed Mantra from a master
Then explosion in my shaking mind
like invitation to disaster
Bells from the dome of a holy temple
Growing love and peace in heart to heel
A silence pervading everywhere
It is a great spiritual feel!
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A FALL IN LOVE
Me getting infatuated
Your invincible smile to blind
and in the flood of existence
A jingle chorus in my mind
You are trampling on my ego
your strange look is waiting to prey
your eyes are peeping in my heart
can't stop them in a sober way
I am forced to tolerate myself
a cyclone emerging around
The lovely nursery has shrunk
it's vibrating with a light sound
heavy moment on my conscience
a scorpion stings my inner bird
how expressive body and mind
why my toung doesn't utter a word
unexpressed feelings like time-bomb
exploding in thundering rage
a helpless look at the horizon
by fluttering bird in a cage
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CHEERS OR JEERS
Reflection of moon in water
made sleeping lazy-bone stars blind
pleased Ms. Night fell in love with moon
singing in chorus with the wind
The fly was shivering with fear
scared and very afraid to fly
Look, the birds flying in high air
laughed and went to the depth of sky
rising water in lust to live
swallowing all the soil to climb
bubbles happy with single breath
with joy melting in rays of time
The shooting star disappeared
wrote on the sky with precision
cheers or jeers whatever you want
you will get in you own vision
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HOBBITS DISAPPEARED
God made some pairs like sparrow and pigeon
He made monkey and gorilla, then feared
Can hobbits and men have the same religion?
He tried hard but the hobbits disappeared
It was scary for God, the man without wits
thinks of black and white as species, What a weird!
how will He stop massacre of the hobbits
men will drink blood with red stain on their beard
"we love our brother hobbits" men's slogan
former learnt cooking for the men much revered
in whose heart lies the dictator Shogun
will arrange the others being bashed and smeared
tiny little heart of silly man linked
with the fact that little hobbits are extinct
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HUNGER - 3 FACES
Lo! Fire in man creates all troubles and yearning
How can ocean quench thirst when the earth is burning
Birds are love-hungry, They kiss each other with beak
Repressed Stupid man, hides feelings in his pink cheek.
Bluffs and Diverts mind, Thru wild imagination
No peace of mind on a road with twist and turning
How can ocean quench thirst when the earth is burning
Hunger makes a man, Rebel without any shame
Politicians exploit it, Power is their aim
It is the same struggle, Between haves and have-nots
Drink made of poor's blood is wealthy person's earning
How can ocean quench thirst when the earth is burning
Whole world shakes, before my money, power and fame
Shock waves return from moon, That makes my aura flame
I am intelligent, And indispensable
I am God and world is mine, everyone is learning
How can ocean quench thirst when the earth is burning
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LOVE IS AN ILLUSION
Me thirsty of your love, now in great confusion
Love is an illusion
Almighty's grace was raining down when I was born
A cyclone passed by my chest when the heart was torn
Your little self haunting me what a delusion!
Love is an illusion
When we were moving away both were in distress
Salty tears in eyes and the moment was tasteless
Pain in life and life in pain both are in fusion
Love is an illusion
My heart was crying when heard your sob in bereft
Your sweet memory in disarray since you left
Deep oceans have dried, swelling junk on intrusion
Love is an illusion
My flesh so cold and the lightning in my blood
Lips are thirsty, my lonely heart sinking in flood
Looking for God when my savior on allusion
Love is an illusion
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YOUR LOOK
When you see at the waterfall with amazement
your look goes beyond to a wonderful extent
floating black clouds merging in your hair to rain
microscopic water drops playing with your cheeks
humming sound from bumble bees surrounds your beauty
you mystify the air, surrounding branches speak
you see the laughing flowers and smile with a style
flowers drop down as they see beauty in your smile
fire erupted in rain when your eyes were angry
and when you calm down, birds fly over the ocean
cruel your eyelashes when something you dont like
lovely face when you bite your lips in emotion
very innocent your eyes hide a bush of thorns.
hurt when you pierce in my heart more than wild horn
I glue to your eyes when you see actors on stage
your thrilled expression match the overflowing strife
you murmur against the villain to embarrass
acting is mechanical, you give it a life
as you see the drama with sorrow and happiness
I see a play on your face of relax and stress
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WHY TORTURE
Listen the tragic story and tears may start
I cried and cried, my heart falling apart
to get the secret they give pain and stress
hammer nails in the body makes it a mess
they tease and torment with a nasty wire
pocking in the flesh pains like electric fire
force of compassion I wish to impart
I cried and cried, my heart falling apart
the war and terror of worms near the wound
they shout and laugh loudly, moving around
tears and blood boiling but there is no sound
pain miserable, pain ho pause! no bound
still no secret from your tongue shall depart
I cried and cried, my heart falling apart
melting burn reaching bones, what a scorcher !
oh God ! why do you allow this torture
wind from Satan is a sadistic breath
Take away your gift of life, worse than death
tough to drag sympathy out of cold heart
I cried and cried, my heart falling apart
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Birds
They never complain against thunderstorm
birds tolerate sun stroke and take hot baths
crash and burn wings and hunger they transform
they keep instinct orderly in their path
even in dreams, never as bad as man
go outside in daylight and sleep in dark
like humans, they don't aggressively plan
just sew their agony and never bark
they don't budge to human instinct of war
or use religion and make suicide bombs
spread both their wings in the clouds to explore
in trouble without blame game, they keep calm
birds never feel sorry, they never cry
but ride on the air and kiss the azure sky
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MASK
naive children wear mask to frighten their friends
How silly they are! not sober like me!
aren't they proudy and stupid in the end
I'm ideal inside out, you must agree
I am a great thinker and free from bias
but chase any target at your command
Get crooked work done if you are my boss
I twist my scruples , ethics on demand
with no morals or shame, I do shuttle
be any situation, I must win
pain in my heart so severe and subtle
I hide to transplant mask beneath my skin
children use mask just to play and enjoy
to hide my fear and greed masks I deploy
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WHO IS WRONG?
On clothes of mother nature dirt gathers
silly men torment her with a great pride
time gone when nice gardens used to lather
with lovely fragrance like newly wed bride
grape farms are supervised by greedy dogs
who spoil everything above and beneath
spreading pollution, acid rain and fog
nicely play by squeezing flesh in their teeth
some creatures live near dustbin like pigs
carry blame for spreading foul smell so strong
facts are clouded by arguments very big
no one knows who is right and who is wrong?
on silver scale dead words lie on one side
quite heavier than living kids worldwide
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The Camera
My fingers slipping from the glass of beer
drunk and happy, overflowing so soon
she had filled up my heart with joy and love
how cheerful! I was on top of the moon
to now beat the silence of loneliness
I do good as I believe in Karma
I am a writer and film-director
work on dazzling light with camera
my heart full of hurt, the camera knows
her lustful eyes on body of my soul
exploits painful memory of my past
gathers images with awful control
prostitution or creativity?
being naked is shameful activity
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Stunning Melbourne
In God's eternal planning of purists
our stunning Melbourne is everyone's pride
Look! Nature dances here to please the tourists
has lovely fragrance like newly wed bride
With glass of beer we enjoy happy hours
crazy couples dance like a glass of wine
feel on the top of Rialto Tower
that view at night when the city gets shine
Crown Casino and Federation Squire
throbbing culture is part of city life
with spirit of mateship a dream we share
enjoy happily and resolve our strife
Joy of the city I want to impart
its beauty creates passion in my heart