The Comprehensive Steel Star Experiment Lyric Compendium

2005 – 2010

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Contents:

A – Insignificant Youth (2004)

1 – Innocence
2 – The Game
3 – In My Place
4 – Deserted
5 – Acquiescence
6 – The Truth
7 – Rise Above
8 – A Free Car Wash from the Grey Skies Above
9 – Abandoned
10 – Insignificant Youth
11- Rush Jam f/ Pete Avink and Scotty B

B – Chupacabra EP (2005)
1 – Chupacabra
2 – Forbidden Flames

C – Travelogue (2007)
1 – Demons of the Past
2 – Strength
3 – Pride
4 – The Soothsayer / Harbinger
5 – Waste of Time
6 – Betrayal
7 – Stone's Throw from Paradise
8 – Overly Dramatic Pragmatist
9 – The Fall of Mighty Vercingetorix
10 – Defeat (Unrequited and Left Behind)

D – Permanent Vacation (2009)

1 – Drive
2 – Hand Rolled Cigarettes
3 – Hey There Dreamer
4 – Waste 09
5 – Threading the Needle
6 – Prodigal Son
7 – Twenty One Summers

E – Unreleased
1 – Vagrant Transmission
Innocence
A lifetime wasted, or so it seems
Full of hatred an unfounded dreams.
When will agony come to an end?
When will torment cease to exist?
When will I be spared of pretense?
When will I come to know the truth?
These inadvertent wallowings in self-pity construct my life.
Will my soul ever know satisfaction?
Will my dreams become reality?
Will my captors release my soul?
Will my mind ever rest?
Will I achieve perfection?
Will I succeed?
Only time will tell, but waiting for time, it seems,
has always been a shortcoming of mine.

Where did innocence go? Did we leave it all behind?

Where did my friends go? Did I leave 'em hanging dry?

First snow, once again alone

I give so much, just to watch it go
I'm lost in sorrow, alone I clench my fist
I know it's hard to stop and coexist

I'll find myself somehow; journeys unforseen

This is the story of how abandonment recedes
The Game
(Chorus)
Every time I play the game, it seems nothing changes
Every time I play the game, it always stays the same.
But I know I'll change, if I play just one more time
But I know I'll change, in the end I'll be just fine.
Cuz the game is always changing, in the end I'm just too late
See, the game is always changing – learn to accept your fate.

Every time I look inside me, I find something that I've lost.
Re-hash the past to spite me, self destruction bears no cost
I live inside a bubble, if it's popped I just might fade.
I live every day just looking; gotta find a better way.
Every time I look in the mirror, I see something that I'm not
I am just a mold-cast animal, but I rise to take my lot
Every day I wake up frightened. It seems they drop like flies
But that's just life, they tell me. I can't believe those lies.
A hateful world before me, so cruel it blows my mind.
But I know someone will love me, I'll sit and bide my time
I sit here, patience waning, I simply can't sit still
I'll reach for pride inside me, this time I will not fail!

(Repeat Chorus)
In My Place (f/ ARAB2ROK)
2ROK –
They put me in my place, a deadly race that was never found. Someone you would love to see falling
down and hit the ground. Should have never picked it up when it rang, a call from hell when it came, a
bell that chimed for the youth, a youth that killed itself for you but you don't even have a clue what it's
like to be attacked or smacked in the face with those lies. A people I despise and the cries came up
from children. The things that I'm willing to say or put on tape. The raping, disgracing, of my body
and my soul- and the whole world as a whole is waiting for a mistake. Well, you want me to change?
Well, I guess you'll have to wait.

Z-
You put me in my place
You told me what to do.
You were never there for me
Why should I listen to you?

You didn't hear my cries,

Even though I screamed out loud
I still see through your lies
You never cared so fuck you.

Cuz of people like you, I hated high school, only cared about yourselves.
I'd be glad to watch you go down in flames and search long to find the truth
It's locked inside every person I meet, every soul that I greet.
And the children at my feet. I see them laughing, smiling
Unable and incapable of understanding the grief that is
to be eighteen with no mission in life than to alleviate all the strife
of being this age at a time when the government supports
a war that has nothing to do with the peace that it proclaims
or the people that it blames for all of the hate that exists in the states
they need to find a scapegoat for all of their hate,
they blame peace loving people for the lies that they create
we need to change the world, just to get it to stop
because there's only one life, one world, and one bomb.
Deserted
I'm sick and tired of always feeling lonely
I feel depressed, someone come and take me away.
I'm so sick and tired of everything you say
Violent thoughts of killing you run rampant in my head.
I suppose I'd better learn to cope before I end up shot
but I still need to deal with all the anger that I've got
I hate you more and more each day, the anger ceases not
I could just learn to bite the bit, but that's something I'm not
I'll never learn to settle for something less than what I want
bottom line always the same, I'll fight for what I've got
So here I am deserted just like I always am
I'll still stand up and fight for who ever's got the plan
We'll save the world for nothing more than destroy the promised land
but in the end I'll be alone, this is the master plan.

Seems that every time I'm asked it's always the same:
“How do you plan to get ahead in the game?”
Some say I'm a fake and they call me a liar
You can't beat the system when you're working for hire.
They make bad assumptions, and they look like fools
When I show them up 'cuz I know the rules
But that's not the way it's intended to be
they go on the defensive and they laugh at me.
I'll never be right, I'm just not up to snuff
I could try my hardest, but it isn't enough
I'll keep on trying just to prove them wrong
I could stop, but it's too much fun

I'm sick and tired of always feeling lonely

I feel depressed, someone come and take me away
Acquiescence
I wake up in the morning, and I ask myself-
why do good things never happen in my life?
It seems that all I ever get is really bad news.
It seems, sometimes, that the good doesn't get through.
It seems that people never give me a shot
It seems that I quit before I've given all I've got
Why does it always seem that no one really cares?
Why does it seem that I'm going up the down stairs.
It's not that I'm unhappy with my lot in life.
It's not that I'm always in pursuit of a wife.
It's not that I understand the way that I feel
It's not that I'm always hunting for a deal
It seems that I'll always be a step behind
but happiness is waiting on the other side

Even after all of this is said and done

Even after all of you have gone and had your fun
When will I be left to live my life?
When will I be free from the pain and strife?
When will I be left to understand?
When will I be left to begin again?
The Truth
I live every day like I'm gonna get shot.
When I wake up, that's all that I've got.
I don't blame god when something happens to me
Cuz I am the master of my destiny

First thing, nobody likes you

Second thing, no one ever really did
Third thing, you're good for nothing
Fourth thing, we're better than you
Fifth thing, you'll amount to nothing
Sixth thing, what I say goes
Seventh thing, follow all these rules
Eighth thing, we own all of you
Ninth thing, no thoughts of your own
Tenth thing, we own those, too

I don't know how to get myself through

What can I do to resolve these issues?
They've got me held tight by my future
Such a strong hold, how can I break free?
Searched inside me for the answer
Break these chains that hold me prisoner
They say they own me, but what can I do?
They all control me, I don't know what to do
I know one thing now, no one can stop me
I'm insignificant, they'll burn in effigy
Symbols of power look extinct now
Their world comes crashing down and I'm finally free.
Rise Above
Extreme jealousy to legitimize my needs.
I don't have a silver spoon, but I still have all the greed.
I can't respect myself until I learn to bleed
With the drive I have my ends
I just don't have the means.
I know all I have to do to get where I want
Without opportunity, I must rise above
Woeful beings stand in my way
caught beneath the clouds of rain
True happiness doesn't exist.
I must rise above to get my fix.
I must rise above petty desire
I must accept goals that are higher
unconscious needs bring swift demise
save your lectures for later times
For success, life is my prize
If I were to lose I would die
It's hard to deal with pressure's grip
so many crowd me awaiting the slip
false judgment clouds my eyes
one more step and you'll be terrified
I hate everyone, I hate everything
I hate all of this- society brought it all on me.
A Free Car Wash from the Grey Skies Above
I put my trust in you, I put my faith in you
I put my hope in you, that you would see me through

Open up your ears, your mind, and your souls

Open up your heart as we assess our goals
As we look up to the sky we can see our lives
falling like the droplets of rain

No one understands the pain that you feel

sometimes you have to prove that it is real
A look in retrospect to save your life
pain is evident with a look into your eyes

so save your mind, your soul, your tears, and your eyes
be cleansed, be saved, be healed, be sacrificed
step soundly unto the black-topped street
feel the rain wash from your head to your feet
if you're ready, don't be afraid that you'll die
be washed away by the water from the sky
Abandoned
Abandoned by my friends, I stand to fight alone
It's alone I've always been to face the unknown
Solidarity cries my name, representing all my faults
I'll always be weary of those that betray me,
I'll never fall back down.

Hey oh, hey oh, hey oh

I'll always be
Hey oh, hey oh, hey oh
I'll always be alone

I clench my fists and scream in an attempt to dull the pain

my words profess my faith of avoiding all disdain
triumphant is what I am in becoming what I want
I'll never fall down to face the crowd
I'll always rise above

(Repeat Chorus)
Insignificant Youth
Won't play your games no more

I'm sitting her and trying to write

I can't stand up to face the fight
I'm sick and tired of trying to find
everything that you left behind

I can't stop thinking about how

you managed to put me in denial
of all those things I tried to hide
away from everyone so long

Won't play your games no more

I'm fed up insignificant

I'm picking up what's left of me
I can't find the time to find myself
so then I'll just find someone else
to bear the burden on my back
think long and then restart the track
I'm getting mad it took so long
but now I can finally get some sleep

And I guess when it's all said and done,

we really are insignificant youths in our minds
No one ever really does find themselves
until it's too late to do something about it
Rush Jam (Seven Days) f/ Pete Avink and Scotty B
We're all creations of society
We feed on influence and tragedy
We're all creations of society
I in you, and you in me

Seven days after she left me

Seven days after she said goodbye
Seven days I don't know to laugh or cry
Seven days I wish that I would die.
Chupacabra
He seems homicidal, better run for your lives
He seems contradictory, listen for his lies
He seems anger driven, sow the seeds of hate
He seems to roam the night, so keep off the streets
He seeks the taste of blood, he's a fucking leech
He's a chupacabra; you'd better run

Waaah!

I will rape and pillage you, I'll show you what I mean
I will drag your bleeding carcass right into the street
I will take you right into my dark and twisted world
I will suck out all your blood and you'll feel everything
If you can't take what is yours by birth, you'll settle for what's mine
I will breathe into you life like a star receiving shine

Welcome to the afterlife, it's sure to dissapoint

What I provide is more than death, it's a struggle to survive
See him coming in the night, but you just can't run away
you do your best to hide your face but your scent just won't escape
He seeks the taste of blood, and he thinks you'll do just fine
He'll run you around the field for sport and fucking snap your spine

He's a chupacabra, he'll suck your fucking blood

Forbidden Flames
I fight so long and hard to always be the last
I cry these frightful tears and walls come tumbling down
I think these empty thoughts they all just disappear
I feel the forbidden flames like lust and life and power

Well you can see that it's just a waste of time

You fight a solemn fight to barely tow the line
You live an empty life, you think you're doing fine
We all shall perish for a new paradigm
Demons of the Past
Itching to pull the trigger of a loaded gun
wishing I was the bigger man
those days are gone
Wishing I was the winner of this sad and lonely game
Wish in one hand, shit in the other- not in control of my fate
All the wishing I did brought me nowhere
but back to where I began
All the trials I passed were a burden
It was a load that no one could bear
Demons of the past keep me yearning
for a past so far away
Haunting me and asking forgiveness
I just don't know if I can

I'm trying to move on

There's no place for me here
I'm not trying to play along
Cuz that's more than I can take

And I don't want to play hero

I think I'm just trying to live
And I don't want to be near here
I just want to go away
I really don't know about anything
but something is making me stay
Strength
Fall in love once in your life, it's up to you to make it right
you can fail and blame it on fate, but it takes more to see the light

Just say his name, just speak his words

but in the end, one thought will haunt you
what have you done in this man's name?

Separated myself for all these bitter years

fishing through memories and falsified tears
Where did you go, and where have you been?
With all that I have done, I've lost my innocence

So where were you on that dark, cold, winter night?

And where were you when my little brother died?
So here we are, now, standing in the light.
We have no fun down here, all we do is fight

You were never there for me like I was there for you
but still I stand here, sick of loving you
you fucked me up so bad, living your little lie
I'm not sentimental, now all I do is cry

Thinking of you like I never had before

A decision to be made for here and ever more
You drove me to the edge, I'm never coming back
without you around, my life is back on track

Separated myself for all these bitter years

fishing through memories and falsified tears
Where did you go, and where have you been?
With all that I have done, I've lost my innocence

Cant take it, Can't take this.

Pride
In a silent, permanent sleep my fallen hero lies
surrounded by earthen debris exists his eternal life

Twisted lies and fairy tales

a fortune made on broken lives
putting faith in humanity
to step aside and watch it die
a gentle heart betrayed tonight
a fortnight bound by fear
rejection lies in the heart of man
between solitude and pain

A frailty lies in hiding

Our gentle hear beats on
Marching pride and confidence
hidden beyond these eyes
a tear that's shed in private
the soft warm touch of your skin
hides the scales of longing
for the scourge within me
Candlelight and expensive wine
calms the urge to find
what you can never see
when shadows bend to your light

A hidden thought lost within me

you sense it, but just ignore
the price of life flies through your door
swiftly fleeing into the night
a haunting ghost lies within me
ghost so frail and white
a precious calm that was shattered
with the edge of a knife

The smell of the autumn air

affects their disposition
as the leaves turn to dust
I remember the face of regret
the cold, backward stare
unrequited and left behind

I didn't ask for creation

and I didn't ask for pain
I didn't work so hard
just to go back again
The Soothsayer / Harbinger
It hangs around me like a rain cloud
Imagine it pouring down on me
something inside that makes me break down
every time I think I've got it right
These things will never go away
We're all doomed to fail
no way to escape the light of day
I will live and die in this town

There is no escape, subscribe to fate

There's no sense in pursuing your dreams

You think you're getting further

but you're going in reverse
You'll never have the cash to roam the Earth
Time made you unhappy, and luck made you so helpless
Always reaching higher for something that you want
Give up your dreams and take a bite out of reality
Waste of time
One day, he woke up, found his life was a lie
One day he spoke up, found his chance to be right
One day his time was up, and he paid the price.

Debased, defiant of the way that he lived

He never learned just what a conscience did
Too little prophet, but too much of a man
He didn't know he had the world in his hand.

You never tried to understand

You never learned your lessons
In time we learned your actions,
but you never paid the price
God made you a waste, baby
it's time to take out the trash

You'll never know

It's just a waste of time
Don't ever try
Don't try stepping out of line

Don't you?
Don't you think it's true?
The world does not revolve around you.
I don't wanna tear your walls down,
but just what kind of world have you found?

Confront, conform, content? Defy.

Was it all a waste?

Is this what it feels like?
Have I been put in my place?
I don't know.
What is forgiveness?

I don't know what I've found

buried six feet underground
I don't know.

This vicious road was frightening

but your curves were so inviting
Had to take my chance at leaving
I'm not asking for forgiveness
I'm just trying to say I'm breaking up with you
God, what a waste of time
Betrayal
I know you're watching me in hope I'm breaking apart
I know you're wishing me, this you knew from the start
I think you're losing me, I just don't think you know it yet
I hope you'll cry for me; it fits your style that you'd beg
You said you'd die for me, I think we'll put it to the test
Take a walk with me, chose the path that you like best.

I have some things to say

I know these words are too much
I've struggled long to know
Two separate lives torn apart
sometimes I think I try to hard
to make my problems go away
I guess I tried in vain
these issues just won't lay to rest
You said you'd marry me
children to raise at half ourselves
I held the scourge at bay
You failed to rise up to the test

You wished your life away

I know you cannot comprehend
Just what you've done to me
with your fake reality
well now our friend is dead
just what do you think you can do?
You said you had the answer,
well, my friend what can it be?

You deny the onslaught,

refuse to retract alibies
you've run out of endings
you've come to one last chance to be
what can your heart decide?
When can you call this lie complete?
You thought to be forsaken
what lies can hold the truth to hide?
You've had your chance to retort
in your silence you confide
I've had my time to reply
with your silence you deny

Stone's Throw from Paradise (Instrumental)

Overly Dramatic Pragmatist
I've always had the worst luck
seems like I'm stuck in a rut
Society tells me to want love
I'm not living in a storybook

the world has taken it's toll on me

I've nothing left but my memories
I guess I'm fine with my outlook grim
I've never been good with what's within

I took my time to write this down

a few thoughts I've been tossing around
when nothing's right, and nothing's wrong
I find it's best to write a song
so if you find this helpful at all
I think you're well on your way
well, I guess, here it goes
I think I might have something to say

Cover it up with a well groomed lie

They will believe what you want them to believe
weaving the truth into shifting alibis
and hanging on your every word
And now you're mixing with the people you despise
you brought it all on yourself

Fighting wars I can't possibly win

candle lit at both ends, my friend
I never really thought that this would end
the time it took to learn was worth it in the end
You can't live life as an effigy
a specter haunting the truth, you see
forsake your friends and your family
that doesn't sound like a prize to me
you finally got what you wanted, mom
I finally turned into your psychopath son
Destroying all in my path that I see
The future looks pretty grim to me

I'm trying
I'm finding my way
I'm laughing
I'm pushing to stay.

The Fall of Mighty Vercingetorix

In a heap lay screaming soldiers 'midst sword and shield they die
the great horse of the general in one last circle rides
Raise the gallic standards high unite the tribes and we'll defy
and from our captors shall we flee when they hear our name cried from the free

Vercingetorix! He stands noble and wills the wicked dead.

Legions, hold the eagle high knowing that our men must die
and on this hallowed winter's day mars has known the men that lay
such noble sacrifice to see barbarians all dead will be
for free men fight so gallantly when they have everything to lose

Vercingetorix! Now in chains he has been bound

Vercingetorix! No glory has he found
Vercingetorix! Drive the rebels underground

To the worthy foes of Caesar, a message has been sent

Kneel to me, barbarian tribes your insurrection is at an end
if you would only genuflect I'd name you as a friend
you have to chose, or death to you do not dare to make a stand.

Vercingetorix!

See the form of Vercingetorix perched on his warhorse high

cast away the infidels, for the glory of Rome we die
see the face of might Caesar see the sweat upon his brow
call out to his opponents: “Fear me, I bring you death!”
See the dead that lay here fallen stiffened and cool to the touch
the icy stings of Caesar, no more glory shall he bring

Vercingetorix!

I call out to Vercingetorix and the Gauls he did ally

if you challenge mighty caesar, all your men will die
I submit to roman conquest, I promise to pay the tithes
I fear the Roman power, I admit that I will die.

Defeat (Unrequited and Left Behind)

This is one of those “feel good” stories
It's been a long, cold, and lonely night – you've got no aliby
But I still know where you've been – Don't question trust.
The morning sky looks so different, don't close your eyes
The sky is turning grey now, am I colorblind?
You won't find color in the sky- let's die together!

I can feel a new man being born everytime I stare into your eyes
New personalities materialize
I can't think clearly anymore, your gentle touch won't work again
your time is limited, my friend
There's only so much a man can take before it's time to think again

Stuck on an antiseptic death bed, serpents shrieking from my arms

provide a chance for thought, alone inside my head

Alone inside my head, drugged up on dopamine

Suffering in silence to meet the bitter end
Some say that you can find a new lease on life
it's buried in here supple breast at the edge of space and time
insanity's a crazy thing; only so much can you take
before you lack the balance to keep your walking straight
the paths we take are camouflaged by the choices we regret
time isn't cyclical so at least we all have that

How can you say you love me only to crawl to my best friend's bed
what kind of person does this, what kind of person are you?
Your role is fresh, but endangered, you try to make things right
You'll wish you never came here, just give it a bit more time

Well, that's over now and I'm glad to see it go

we weren't to be together, that's the way it goes
But now I'm stronger and the less I have, the more
I don't need anyone to tell me what I'm worth
I'll put my faith in something I can get to work

How can you say you know me only to spread more lies?
What kind of people do this? How do you see the truth?
I thought my life was over, but now I'm doing fine
You both just up and left me, and I can't sympathize

Drive (Instrumental)
Hand Rolled Cigarettes
Smell the smell of burnt cigarettes
It's astonishing how much we forget
Then you wake up and the time is gone
you find yourself singing really sad songs
roll out of bed and flip on the tube
just to remember everything you can lose
procrastinate washing last night's filth
smoke one more cigarette and bury the guilt

What do we do when we get out of bed?

Try to avoid, not putting guns to our heads.
Wait for the media to tell you the truth
and get real bummed to find they're selling it to you.

Try and avoid people walking down the street

thumbing cell phones and stumbling their feet
we're all enslaved by the things we create
just smoke your cigarette and shoulder the weight

The nicotine burns my eyes as I question why

I always try so hard just to fail at life
Questions run through my skull
the paths we take through life
I'm always a fading star as the moon recedes from the sky
I'll always wonder how I can be without
a path to follow and a map to show me the way

Life's too short to make amends

no need to apologize to friends
You're gonna die at the end
Life's too short to make amends.

Hey There, Dreamer

Hey there, dreamer in a world full of dreams
Won't you throw a dream my way, oh just for one day
Hey there, madness, well the world's a little mad.
Won't you curse the day I came (curse the day I came)
Hey there lady, hey pretty lady
won't you take me where I lay? Oh, won't you take me?

Hey there, sorrow, well the sky's a little grey

Won't you come another day (better yet, don't come at all)
Hey there, action, you speak louder than words
Won't you bring me there to stay (or don't bring me at all)
Hey there, morning (oh, just about dawn)
Won't you wipe the tears away? (Tears rolling down your cheeks)
Hey there, longing, won't you take my pain away?

I tried to pay attention, I tried to hear your words

but all those broken promises seemed to make things worse
I tried to read your actions, I tried to make things right.
I can't live the lie anymore, I tried.

So the fact that I'm alone again means nothing to you now
and will you be my only friend, I could get used to it somehow

Do you know what it's like to be lonely?

Do you know what it's like to be alone?

I tried, I can't, surprise- she's taken!

You will suffer.

Waste
One day, he woke up, found his life was a lie
One day he spoke up, found his chance to be right
One day his time was up, and he paid the price.

Debased, defiant of the way that he lived

He never learned just what a conscience did
Too little prophet, but too much of a man
He didn't know he had the world in his hand.

You never tried to understand

You never learned your lessons
In time we learned your actions,
but you never paid the price
God made you a waste, baby
it's time to take out the trash

You'll never know

It's just a waste of time
Don't ever try
Don't try stepping out of line

Don't you?
Don't you think it's true?
The world does not revolve around you.
I don't wanna tear your walls down,
but just what kind of world have you found?

Confront, conform, content? Defy.

Was it all a waste?

Is this what it feels like?
Have I been put in my place?
I don't know.
What is forgiveness?

I don't know what I've found

buried six feet underground
I don't know.

This vicious road was frightening

but your curves were so inviting
Had to take my chance at leaving
I'm not asking for forgiveness
I'm just trying to say I'm breaking up with you
God, what a waste of time
Threading the Needle
Everything is temporary
Seasons pass and things get scary
We all think we know, but maybe
Nothing is as it appears
Most things in life seem illusionary
The burdens get too heavy to carry.

Give it up while you still can

Plenty of time to become a man
Keep running from your problems
Kill tomorrow for yesterday again

You can never be too sure.

Prodigal Son
If you'd follow your own advice, you could avoid all of this
Make a triumph out of it.
Stitch a story from this.

Alone (have to react)

I'd never (walk alone)
Alone.

Make a triumph out of it, stitch a story from this.

Learn a lesson from this.
You'd be alone through all of it.

I never lied when I said I'd try to make peace with the fact that you're not a live
But every second I sit and think of things that I should have said, and never did.
I try to swallow second thoughts of time well spent and broken trust.
But I never thought the end would come as quick as it did- does anyone?
It's a sad eulogy for a half lived life, and as much as I fight it, I think I might
take just a second out of every day to think about the things that I wanted to say
because as long as you're gone, I'll never get a chance to be your prodigal son.

I'd like to take a moment to reflect on death

take a look at your life and realize there's not much
time to take a look at yourself, look forward and see what's next.
Re-arrange your lifestyle and live like this day is your last.
I'll never walk alone with memories.

Huh, I never thought it'd actually be this hard to weave some sort of fairy tale about all the things we
went through back when you were still around. Every once in a while, I look to my right and try to
pass a bowl of chronic to the man in the yellow coat, but you're not there- no matter when, no matter
why, no matter how. I know it's kind of been a long time since you offed yourself and all, but I'm really
curious to know how the afterlife's been treating you. We spent so much time talking about
metaphysical existence after death, you know. But I guess that's the really sad thing about self-imposed
mortality. You never get to have another chance. But I know I'll never walk alone, because the legacy
of everyone I know I keep to myself. But some day, all of these stories will be told- I promise. And I
don't back down on my word- you know that. I learned a lesson or two from every face I've seen in
reality- or in a dream. But there's one lesson I know I learned for sure.

I'll never be the prodigal son.

Twenty One Summers
What once was lost can now be found among the ashes and destruction that I see along the ground. I
found a place to keep my stance, and all I see is stupid faces and I know I'll just get lost out in the
crowd. I hide my face among the chosen ones that see beyond choices we all make from day to day.
But the Earth is cluttered with the corpses of my battle and as hard as I try, I can't look away.

Twenty one summers gone, plenty more yet to come.

But I might be alone for this one.
Where did everyone go tonight, must be I missed the rapture.
Or maybe just the invite. I don't know, it'll be alright.

Now I found a place in my mind, where I don't have to hide.

I won't have to be afraid any more
Now, I don't have to dwell inside this living hell
That other people live inside, it's out of mind I'd say.

Picked up the pieces of the puzzle, now I'm glad to say I put those pieces right back in their place. I'm
so surprise to see I'm standing tall on solid ground to conquer and to shove it in their face. I was a
broken man, but now my wings are mended and I think I can remember how to fly. I'll build a castle on
these broken pieces, I'll build it so tall I'll make the towers touch the sky. It's been so long since I could
the faith inside myself to find the truth in all the lies. And now there's no pretending that the forces
holding me down just up and took a shit and died. And there just has to be a reason I'm still here to
look out at all the stupid faces, smile, and know that I'm alive.
Vagrant Transmission
I've got some things on my head that I've been meaning to say
You don't care, but you're listening anyway
All my life I've been dealing with fucked up shit
I don't think that I understand any of this.
Could run away, but that won't solve anything.
Better off to suck it up and be a machine.

All I can see is rules for me to break,

but the pressure might be more than I can take
Through the years I've been wasting all my time
only come to find out that I can't rewind.
I've had enough of philosophical issues
I really won't, but I'll say that I'll miss you

Too many problems facing the world today

I'd like to fix them but I guess I have nothing to say
Trying too hard to keep up with the times
I wanna make it, so I stay in line
So many idiots are running the race
Sometimes I wonder how they even keep pace
All these things I just keep pent up inside
I guess I'm really only looking for a way to get by
sit and wait for the drugs to take affect
as you squander away all your self respect
Lack of sleep means tomorrow is today
another few years of this and I'm insane
please stop, please put bullet in brain
once you think it you can't make it go away

I can't take this fucked up shit.

Vagrant Transmission!