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Vincent Shumaker
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5 February 2017
My Spiritual Literacy
uncommon for someone to directly ask Do you believe in God? What they meant by this was
Are you a Christian? I was always caught off guard by the question even though it had such a
common occurrence. I had the same response as everyone did, Yes, of course I do. Although, I
had no idea if I did or not. I have always been agnostic. I am content with not knowing if God
exists, because it is an impossible thing to prove or disprove. Yet spirituality is not believing in
God, but is connecting to your own soul. So, I sought after the truth of a divine existence while
My mother was Catholic while I was growing up. I have some vague memories of going
to church. Im not sure exactly when we stopped going, but I do remember the liberation of the
obligation that church brings. I was a child and just wanted to play on Sundays. You could say
that I had no upbringing around religion. I am glad that I was not pressured into being a Christian
by my family, but that does not mean I was not pressured by peers and absolute strangers. Seeing
the way that religion is pressed onto people was my first real impression of it, and this caused me
to dislike it. A sad first step down the road of spiritual awakening.
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As a teenager, I had many questions about life, science, and spirituality. My curiosity was
baffling to the adults I would interrogate. Most of my questions were unanswered, until I met a
man named Leo Gunter. Mr. Gunter was the first of many to engage in my conversations without
hesitation. He was a computer teacher at my high school who was adamant about his teaching
and welcome to all types of questions- related or unrelated to computers. I came to him for a
multitude of things, one being the discussion of religion. He claimed to be a Christian and said
that if he were to follow any other religion it would be Buddhism. He took what he liked about
religious teachings and left what he didnt like. I remember a segment of our conversation:
But what is the consequence of looking for the color red over looking for God?
I had no response to his question. I did not like his point and it only raised more questions
for me. Do people believe in God out of fear? Can someone truly believe in God if their
motivation is fear? I eventually came to see that a lot of people claim a religion almost strictly
based on their fear of the afterlife. This drove me further from Christianity and sparked a hate for
it.
During this time, I met another who would share his experience with me. His name was
Shaun and he was the cousin to my second family- my mothers friends family. He was an older
gentleman and even though he was a terrible role model, I looked up to him in some ways. Shaun
was an atheist, and the first to be open with me about his disbelief. I had friends that considered
themselves atheists, but their descriptions of their beliefs were simplistic, while Shaun could
articulate his thoughts in an understandable way. He hated religion and we would bond over this.
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He said that spirituality was a waste of time, and that people could dedicate themselves to more
productive things. I never asked him why he believes what he does, I felt it too personal.
Later, while I was participating in a field training exercise in the US Army, I had my first
very profound experience with what I believe to be the spirit realm. I was in my position laying
behind my machine gun, when a hummingbird hovered in front of my barrel. It was uninterested
in the gun and was staring me directly in the eyes. It was strange because it seemed much too
cold to see a hummingbird flying around. I had a strong familiar feeling from this bird that I
could not trace. It was there for a minute and then left. When I returned to society and cell phone
reception, I received a call from my mothers friend. She was calm and asked me how things
were. She then burst into tears and told me Shaun had died the day before. I didnt handle that
very well. I later came to find that he died shortly before my experience with the hummingbird,
and that another person who was close to him had a similar experience with a hummingbird that
During my time in service of America I met a lot of great people. One that was key to my
spiritual development was Kevin Keatts. We were- and still are- very close, so much so that I
was his best man at his wedding. Kevin was a Wiccan. He was a wonderful story teller in my
opinion and loved to share his experience with others. Some of what he said was too farfetched
for me, but that did not stop me from listening. He spoke of communicating with the spirit realm
and interrogating its inhabitance. This brought an entirely new concept to the table. It made
spirituality seem tangible by giving it a realm of existence. Unlike the Christian view of the
afterlife, this place was granted to all and had no good nor evil. That concept was much more
agreeable to me. He told me that reincarnation was real, but it was a choice. A soul that had
transitioned into the spirit realm could choose to return to our reality as a new person. Another
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much more agreeable concept, but against the Buddhist view. Kevins teachings ultimately
After my exodus from the Army I became a much happier human. I started practicing
meditation regularly. I really started to understand who I was. I found myself, and in turn, found
true spirituality. I met a like-minded individual along the way, Mason. I met Mason while
working in the cannabis industry. He had a strong presence and an open mind. He had a great
depth of knowledge of other religions. I never read into many religions, but I had a small
understanding of each. Mason looked into many religions on his path to understanding and was
enthused to share his knowledge, yet he had no claim to any of them. He believed that religion
I currently have no claim to any religion, but I do consider myself a spiritual person. I
was only able to find what the meaning of true spirituality is by the influence and guidance of
others, along with my own experience. If I had met other people, or made different choices, then
my idea of spirituality would also change. Although my initial exposure to religion was fairly
negative, I developed my spiritual understanding into a positive aspect of my life. I would say
the beginning of my journey was the most important part, as it forced me to veer away from a
how I carry myself through life. I am thankful for everyone who has given me guidance through
the years.