Maaari bang bumalik muli tayo sa simula?

Oo, 'yung mula sa simula.

'Yung hindi pa tayo magkakilala.
'Yung hindi pa natin nakikita ang isa't-isa.
'Yung...wala pang bahid ang ating pagsasama.
'Yung wala pa tayong ideya sa isa't-isa.
Maaari bang bumalik muli tayo sa simula?
'Yung mga panahong kahit walang 'ikaw at ako' masaya naman tayo.
'Yung mga panahong wala pang nabubuong salitang 'tayo' pero kuntento naman
tayo.
Pero mali.
Hindi.
Maaari bang bumalik muli tayo sa simula?
Nang sa ganon ay maitama ang lahat ng pagkakamaling nag-iwan ng marka.
Baka sakaling...
Baka.
Maisalba pa natin ang isa't-isa.
Maaari bang bumalik muli tayo sa simula?
'Yung hindi pa nagkakatagpo ang ating mga kamay.
Mga 'kamusta' at 'paalam' pa lang ang dahilan ng pagwagayway.
'Yung simula.
Oo, 'yung simulang...
Wala pang sakitan ang lumalaganap.
Maaari bang bumalik muli tayo sa simula?
Baka sakaling mapigilan natin ang pagkalunod.
At matulungan natin ang isa't-isang makaahon.
Hindi lilingunin ang kahapon,
At sabay haharapin ang bawat pagkakataon.
Maaari bang bumalik muli tayo sa simula?
Hindi maaari.
Dahil tayo ay nasa dulo na.
Sensyales na tama na.
'Wag nang pilitin pa ang pagmamahalang 'di naman kayang isalba.
Tama na.
Nagwakas na tayong dalawa.
Masaya ka na sa piling ng iba.
Habang ito ako - nagdurusa.
Maaari bang bumalik muli tayo sa simula?
Hindi maaari.
Dahil kapag nagkataon ay mauulit lamang ang lahat ng nangyari.
Maaari bang bumalik muli tayo sa simula?
Kalimutan ang lahat at gumalaw na parang wala lang.
Wala lang.
Oo, wala lang.
'Yung simulang wala lang.
Hindi pa nagkakasalubong ang ating mga landas.
Hindi pa nagkakabuhol ang mga sintas.
Wala pang luha ang patuloy na umaagas.
Walang kamustahan.
Walang pansinan.
Walang kulitan.
Walang harutan.
Lahat. Wala.
Wala...
'Yung simulang...wala tayong ideya na nage-exist pala ang bawat isa...

RISK OF LOVING Anywhere you go,

Every time we make the decision to I have already been.
love someone, we open ourselves to And when you put your body
great suffering, next to his,
because those we most love cause us you'll find the places
not only great joy but also great pain. I mapped out long before
The greatest pain comes from he knew you.
leaving. And when he calls your name,
When the child leaves home, when the know I was the one
husband or wife leaves for a long who put up those walls.
period of time or for good, when the You should know by now
beloved friend departs to another that you cannot build
country or dies cities on cities.
the pain of the leaving can tear us Kiss him if you want;
apart. but keep this in mind
Still, if we want to avoid the suffering you are a tourist here.
of leaving, we will never experience I was his first love,
the joy of loving. and I'll be his last.
And love is stronger than fear,
life stronger than death,
hope stronger than despair.
NEW BEGINNINGS
We have to trust that the risk of loving
is always worth taking. If I have learned anything this year,
it is that I won't ever be ready for what
life throws at me.
BORROWED LOVE I won't have the right words when it
counts;
Kiss him if you want to; I won't know what to choose when fate
you are treading on itself is staring me down.
sacred ground.
But now I know I don't always need to
have the right answer.
I've learned I can go on waiting for
something, sustained by hope and
nothing more - or I can put it aside and
shrug my shoulders.
Bravely accept the fact that I can't
keep my heart safe any more than I
can stop love from taking everything
from me.
I have learned to stop saying yes
when I don't mean it to live as
authentically as I know how.
To allow the tips of my fingers to skirt
the darkness, as long as I remember
to keep my eyes fixed on the light.
And as one door opens, another
closes,
I will move forward with the knowledge
that unlike so many others,
I have another year ahead of me
another shot at making it all the way
around the sun,
a chance to get it right this time
around.
JUST GO
It's okay.
Don't feel bad.
Stop beating yourself up.
Nothing lasts forever.
People come and people go.
We cross paths, sometimes even
travel together for a bit- to learn from
each other.
Stop trying to hold onto what is no
longer meant to be.
Yes, sometimes we need to stay even
when it doesn't feel good because we
still have something to learn,
something to do there.
But our souls will die if they stay in
places they don't belong.
You know the difference.
Listen to your heart.
If you stay when you've been told to
go, you'll stop growing!
Go!
Give yourself permission to outgrow
people and places.
It's okay.
It will be okay.
"I think it's time I let you go.
And that's so hard to do because a
part of me
will be in love with you for the rest of
my life.
But the day dreaming, the running in
place, it's not healthy.
I can't do that anymore."
Whatever happens in your life,
no matter how troubling things might
seem,
do not enter the neighborhood of
despair.
Even when all doors remain closed,
God will open up a new path only for
you.
Be thankful!!
"You'll save yourself a lot of heartache
by understanding that falling in love
without love reciprocated is just
falling."
If He Truly Loves You
If he truly loves you,
he will love you
when you are an ocean breeze,
but also
when you are a summer storm.
You were not made
to be loved in parts,
you were meant
to be loved as a whole.
Leave and they'll search for you
in everyone else and fail
this is when they'll understand
what they lost.
"Someday, all the love you've
given away,
will find its way back to you,
and it will finally stay."
REMEMBERING WHAT MY HEART
WAS
Yesterday, I looked at a picture of us,
and missed the way your arms felt
around me.
the way your breath tickled my neck
when you hugged me from behind,
secrets kissed against
the curve of my shoulder
Today, I realized that I don't miss you.
I miss being happy, and you are
simple a face
in all my good memories.
You have left a hole where my heart
was,
though it is not you I miss, but my
heart.
Tomorrow, I will rise from bed
and my hands will not shake when
I realize you are not here.
There is scar tissue on my chest,
but I will not pick at it.
Instead it will heal, and some days
it may still bleed, but at least I will
know
that I have reclaimed the hollow in
my chest where my heart once was.
BITAWAN MO NA ANG DAPAT HINDI
MO HINAWAKAN
Alam mo bang halos hindi na siya
natutulog dahil hinihintay ang text mo
Alam mo bang pag gising niya
hinahanap nya ang prisensya mo
Alam mo bang sa maghapon ikaw lang
tumatakbo sa isip nito
Alam mo bang sa bawat sandali ikaw
lang ang dahilan ng pagtibok ng
kanyang puso
Hinihintay niya ang text mo, ang mga
salitang nagpapadaloy ng kanyang
mga dugo
Hinihintay niya ang tawag mo, ang
boses mong bumubuhay sa natutulog
nyang puso
Hinahanap nya ang prisensya mo, ang
pagkukunwari mong ikaw din ay
matututo
Hinahanap niya ang pagmamahal mo,
ang pagmamahal na hindi mo kayang
ibigay ng buo
Naisip mo bang ginagamit mo na lang
siya?
Sinasamantala mo ang pagmamahal
nya dahil alam mong kahit ano
gagawin nya
Hindi mo siya tinatapon, itinatabi mo
lang ang kanyang puso at babalik
balikan mo pag wala kang magawa
Paglalaruan ng walang sawa na para
bang wala kang awa.
Bitawan mo siya dahil alam mong
kahit kailan hindi mo sya kayang
alagaan
Hindi mo maipaparanas ang wagas na
pagmamahalan
Pakawalan mo siya hindi mo siya
kailangan
Hayaan mo syang masaktan sa
katotohanan kesa paasahin sa pag
ibig na walang hangganan
Kailangan siya ng taong nagmamahal
ng tapat sakanya
Kailangan siya ng taong handang
ipaglaban siya
Kailangan siya ng taong aalagaan siya
Hindi mo sya kailangan, kailangan siya
ng taong karapat dapat para sakanya.
Tama na, ang pagbitaw sa mga
salitang bumubuo sa araw niya
Tama na, ang mga kilos na nagbibigay
pag asa sakanya
Tama na, ang pagpaparamdam na
balangg araw mamahalin mo din siya
Tama na, takot ka lang mawala ang
tulad niya;
Itigil mo na, ang pagkukunwaring may
patutunguhan pa
Ibigay mo sya, sa taong matagal ng
naghihintay sakanya
Magpaubaya ka, may taong para
sakanya
Maawa ka, may karapatan ding siyang
sumaya sa piling ng iba.
YOU ARE VALID
Breaking off pieces of yourself to fit
into places will not help you belong, it
will only make you bleed. Tearing
yourself into half to fit in will not help
you belong, it will only take your soul.
The only way you will ever belong is
when you feel complete without
anyone reassuring you that you are.
You are valid. Alone, or with
company.
Do not let anything convince you
otherwise.
First best is falling in love.
Second best is being in love.
Least best is falling out of love.
But any of it is better than never
having been in love.
Sometimes God calms the storm.
Sometimes He lets the storm rage
and He calms His child.
Have faith in Him, always.
"Above all else, guard your heart for it
affects
everything else you do."
A star falls from the sky and into your
hands.
Then it seeps through your veins and
swims inside your blood and becomes
every part of you.
And then you have to put it back into
the sky.
And it's the most painful thing you'll
ever have to do and that you've ever
done. But what's yours is yours.
Whether its up in the sky or here in
your hands.
And one day, it'll fall from the sky and
hit you in the head real hard and that
time, you won't have to put it back in
the sky again.
"I won't glorify or romanticise
heartbreak, for me it was a kind of
death and I was forced to keep living."
Im Not Losing You
Maybe thats just that,
Im not capable of accepting defeat
I could never stand the thought of you
loving her the way you did to me
Probably more than you ever did to me
I cant imagine
passionately looking at your eyes
While yours intimately look at hers
I could never withstand
the idea of you kissing her
When I only dreamt of kissing you
Im not capable of declaring defeat
Not when its you wholl I lose
Not when its her wholl win
Because I am so sure
that if love isnt a competition
I wouldnt have felt like I lost
I wouldnt have lost you to her.
So Id just look at you
With her
Even from afar
Bearing all the things
I never thought I could
Than to accept that I lost you.
Wala ng Tayo
Nakikita nalang kita sa malayo
Na kung saan wala ng tayo
Kasabay ng ihip ng hangin
Tangay ang mga nabuong alaala natin
Alaalang hatid ay puro pasakit
Na dapat ng ibaon sa limot
Alaalang wala ng pag-asa
At mananatili nalang isang alaala
Mananatili sa kung saan ang dapat
Kasabay ng paglubog ng araw sa
dagat
Ang mga pangakong nakalimutan
Sabay sa paglimot ng kahapong
naiwan
Kahapong kailangan ng bitawan
Sa Kung paano mo ako iniwan
Sabay sa pagbitaw mo ng aking
kamay
Pag-agos ng mga luhang walang
humpay
Walang humpay na umaasa
Na sana tayo'y magiging maayos pa
Kasabay ng pagsikat ng araw sa
umaga
Ang bilis ng pagbitaw mo sa apat na
salita
Oo, apat na salitang nagpayanig
Na kailan man hindi ko inaasahan
Na bibigkasin mo mula mismo sa
iyong bibig
Ang mga salitang wawasak sa lahat
ng pinagsamahan
Nawasak na
Nawala na
Wala ng ikaw at ako
dahil wala ng tayo
There is constant rain inside you and It wasnt your best day today, but it is
you drown every day, but youre trying on its way, because we all get lucky in
so hard to disguise it with sunshine in turn.
your smile.
You are brave, even when no one
notices it. I feel like now, I should come with a
You are brave, because you are trying. warning label:
"If you can't stick around in my life then
don't even bother introducing yourself.
I can't get hurt anymore.
KTHANKSBYE."
Lessons I Have Learned From My
Damage
When youre damaged, you learn to
take whats given to you and be
grateful for it.
UNFAMILIAR FRIENDS
You learn that love is not a game, and
cherish it. There are going to be some people
You learn how to appreciate the who at some point of your life will
smallest things people do for you. become your friends.
Because when people have gone And some friends, who at some point,
through wars that have left them will become just people.
broken, they understand how fragile
life is.
They understand how they must make
the most of it.
And most of all, they understand how To love everyone unconditionally does
important it is to always be kind. not mean to give everyone your
unconditional time.
Sometimes, to love completely, we
God wouldn't have allowed it must never see someone again.
unless He had a purpose. This, too, is love.
Don't just go through it This is giving someone the freedom to
Grow through it. exist
and be happy, even if it must be
without you.
Seven billion people, and some of us
have just had the best day of their
lives. Today may have been the very
worst day of yours. But take solace
and celebrate this simple fact.
DO NOT BE SCARED TO MOVE ON
Too many times we get stuck on
wondering why things never worked
out with someone we may have
thought we would spend the rest of our
life with.
It is hard to not wonder about how
things might have been if things had
arisen differently.
When you do start to think this way,
remind yourself that your past is your
past for a reason, and that even
though it may be hard for you to just
cut your losses,
it is best for you to do so and to leave
them there.
Because
Sometimes doors close for us,
so that we may be able to find the right
door for us to open.
Sometimes these newly opened doors
will lead us to success, or even greater
relationships than we could possibly
imagine.
Do not be scared to move on in life,
because when you dont,
you prevent yourself from seeing open
doors and opportunities that are far
greater than those of your past.
still after months, or maybe even
years, you find yourself giving that
person thought. Know that this is a
natural part of coping with our past
that many other people are going
through as well.
Sometimes beautiful things come into
our lives out of nowhere.
We can't always understand them, but
we have to trust in them.
I know you want to question
everything, but sometimes it pays to
just have a little faith.
RIGHT TIMING
The most inefficient and self-harming
thing a person can do is go out looking
for love.
Let it find you when the time is right
and you're out doing what you love to
do.
Only then will you find it in its truest
form.

Theres that one person youll never

get over no matter how long its been...
For some of us we know that person
that we will never get all the way over
all too well.
Whenever we experience a bad break
up, or break up with someone we
thought might have been forever, it
seems as though this person will
always be at least a stain on our
hearts.
You may have tried everything
possible to get over this person, but
THE RIGHT WRONG PERSON
Were all seeking that special person
who is right for us.
But if youve been through enough
relationships, you begin to suspect
theres no right person, just different
flavors of wrong.
Why is this?
Because you yourself are wrong in
some way, and you seek out partners
who are wrong in some
complementary way.
But it takes a lot of living to grow fully
into your own wrongness.
And it isnt until you finally run up
against your deepest demons, your
unsolvable problems
the ones that make you truly who you
are
that were ready to find a lifelong
mate.
Only then do you finally know what
youre looking for.
Youre looking for the wrong person.
But not just any wrong person: it's got
to be the right wrong person
someone you lovingly gaze upon and
think,
This is the problem I want to have.
I will find that special person who is
wrong for me in just the right way.
UNCERTAINTY OF LETTING GO
The hardest part of letting go is the
"uncertainty"
when you are afraid that the moment
you let go of someone you will hate
yourself when you find out how close
you were to winning their affection.
Every time you give yourself hope you
steal away a part of your time,
happiness and future.
However, once in a while you wake up
to this realization and you have to hold
on tightly to this truth because your
heart will tear away the foundation of
your logic, by making excuses for why
this person doesn't try as much as
you.
The truth is this: Real love is simple.
We are the ones that make it
complicated.
A part of disconnecting is recognizing
the difference between being desired
and being valued.
When someone loves you they will
never keep you waiting, give their
attention and affection away to others,
allow you to continue hurting, or ignore
what you have gone through for them.
On the other hand, a person that
desires you can't see your pain, only
what they can get from you with
minimal effort in return.
They let you risk everything, while they
guard their heart and reap the benefits
of your feelings.
We make so many excuses for the
people we fall in love with and they
make up even more to remain one foot
in the door.
However, the truth is God didn't create
you to be treated as an option or to be
disrespected repeatedly.
He wants you to close the door.
If someone loves you and wants to be
in your life, no obstacle will keep them
from you.
Remember
You are royalty, not a beggar.
BROKENNESS
There it goes again.
That heavy feeling in your chest when
you dont feel any desire to speak or
move.
All you want to do is close your eyes
and sleep, because the process of
being broken is incredibly exhausting.
You attempt your best to make your
days fulfilling, but no matter how hard
you try, you cant seem to connect to
anyone or anything.
ACCEPTANCE
Acceptance is when you can look back
and say:
Hey, I may not be okay with the fact
that that happened, and I may not ever
be, but there are new things in my
mind and heart.
New things to take my energy and
attention. Things that actually deserve
it.
Things that dont force me into having
to accept anything I dont want to or
move on.
Acceptance is tomorrow.
Even if the pain is still there, you
realize it may always be,
and somehow
thats okay.
SEE YOU AGAIN AT THE RIGHT
TIME
Someday, well run into each other
again, I know it.
Maybe Ill be older and smarter and
just plain better.
If that happens, thats when Ill
deserve you.
But now,
at this moment,
you cant hook your boat to mine,
because Im liable to sink us both.
LONGING
If only you would realize some day,
how much have you hurt me,
If only your heart ever, craves for me
or my presence
If only you feel that love again
someday for me,
If only you are affected someday by
my absence
Only you can end all my suffering and
this unbearable pain,
If only you would know what you could
never procure
If only you go through the memories of
past once again,
Since the day you left my heart has
bled, no one has its cure
If only you would bring that love, those
showers and that rain
If only you would come back and see
what damage you create,
Ive been waiting for your return since
forever more
If only you would see the woman that
you have made,
You said we cannot sail through, how
were you so sure?
If only you can feel the old things that
can never fade,
You may have moved on, but a piece
of my heart is still with you
I know how Ive come so far alone; I
know how Im able to wade,
People say that Im insane and you
wont ever come back again
Maybe you would have never made
your separate way,
Maybe you would have stayed with me
and proved everyone wrong
If only you would know the pain of
dying every day,
If only you would feel the burden of
smiling and being strong