Null and void

loveless
and blind
i am falling
down into the whole
of your absence
Alice in Hell
wandering
in this
surreal underworld
this landscape
of the left-behind
I see everyone
through the pane
of grief
The day you died
i crawled through
to the other side
now i’m watching
the whole world
through looking-glass TV
i cannot touch
i cannot feel
i cannot see
the world
through my old eyes
because my world
isn’t the same
it never will be
Unlike Alice
or Persephone
i can never go back
now i am in a half-life
an endless
surreal winter
snowflakes of hope
melting, unspoken
on my tongue
picking flowers of ice
from stems of bone
My soul thin as glass
and my heart
turned to stone