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Player, by Angela Khristin Brown
I thought I had a man. A BMW. Ooops;. but he fooled me into believing he was a
good man. You see, I was not good to myself. I was not true to myself when I
trusted my body to be used for free, for good conversation, for lust. I had been
living a lie. I dreamt of the fairy tale wedding, having kids, a house, a good car and
good job if I met the perfect mate. I thought worldly on him but you see he played
me with his mind control act, that I was believing it. I was his slut. You see, the
player was a class act. He had it going on. He was all that. When I thought I had him
wrapped around me pinky, I turned out to be a freak under neath the sheets.
Brother had it going on. He was fine to me. He had a bank roll that he loved to
spend on me. He personality was smooth. His conversation was intellectual. He had
class. If he asked me to jump, I would say how high. For this man I was willing to go
the distance. Sex was so good, I aint lying, I thought he was the one. You see, each
moment of ecstasy was a lie. I was fooled into believing sex would make him
special. Sex would make him all mine. Sex was the foundation of our relationship.
Sex would keep him coming back to me. I had to have it. It did not matter where I
did it. We could have sex in the jeep, sex at the crib, sex on the counter, sex at
work, sex at school. I had an addiction to giving this man what he wanted, wherever
he wanted whenever he wanted it. He wanted it so much, sex was the mind game
we played. He tricked me into believing he needed me. He needed my loving as a
token of chastity. With that said, I found the truth about sex after each child. He
left me bare foot and pregnant year after year. That all those years of commitment,
I was played. That I was a warm hole to pee in. that I was the kick on the side with a
concubine to raise alone, no but by his cousin or maybe he said to give our child to
his girlfriend or wife to raise. He said I was about nothing. I felt like nothing. There
are 3 sorts of women to a man, his loyal wife, his loyal friend and his loyal freak. I
was the freak he came too when his wife was not there to submit to him. Men are
control freaks and if you are foolish enough to believe it, you have been played. I
thought I was good enough for him to come back to me. I was a bag of tricks. Now
all I speak of are commitments and having just one true love. All the men I knew
were like this. I did not ask to be a hoochie mamma playing tricks by a bunch of
high rollers. I wanted to be the innocent virgin who was respected and treated like
an African queen. All I am saying is do not make the same mistake sleeping from
man to man, when you deserve better.
The Gheto Queen, By Angela K Brown
Once upon a time a long, long time, before you were born, there lived a poor black
girl, named Mayia. She lived where there was drugs and prostitution. In the projects
where there was grafiti that paved the walls, garbage trashed the empty lots of
barren vegitation and gun shots alluded death’s calling. Mayia lived in the home of
her grandparent because her dad was in jail for robbing a conveinent store and her
mom abandoned her for a cocain habbit and refused treatment and now lives in a
half way house. Her grandma promised to keep her from living house to house
under adoption that may result to her being homeless once she turned 18. Mayia
was a good kid. She would keep the house cleaned, cooked dinner and read many
books. Reading led to Mayia’s way of escaping the proverty and abandoment. Mayia
could read the powerful words in a book that led her imagination to escape reality.
Mayia knew her grandma loved her very much and would not let anyone hurt her,
not gangs, not violence, not drugs and certainly never result to prostitution. Mayia
had no friends; but had a lot of book smart and it was with God’s gift of reasoning
would lead Mayia to the promise her grandma intended for her to have. Hope and
prayer. Mayia was raised in the church. Mayia did well on school subjects – creative
writing being her best. Mayia ma mia encourged her to write; because, it was her
best subject. One day the teacher called on her in class to read a poem she had
written about her family. She was embarased. When she wrote this poem, she
merely wanted to get done with her assignment. Ms. Scott, third grade teacher,
She stood up in class and began to read her poem, “I can do Bad all by Myself.”
Bless us merciful Lord through this journey where we are carried and our faith is
restored. It is said that Jesus fasted before being tested. When by it was the devil’s
that asked him to feed his people if he were the Lord not to leave them bitter. Jesus
testimony was that people should live by God’s word alone. Question yourselves.
Are you willing to lose your life for God by defending the church belief to be
accepted into heaven. The word of God is this strong. Man shall accept God
righteously to practice his faith. A man went to jail for his beliefs. Jesus wanted him
to repent for the kingdom of heaven is at hand. Jesus made a promise to man to use
faith as a guide and to save lost souls from sin. One must repent his sin to ask for
forgiveness and to ask God the strength for man to forgive other’s sins so his soul
to be redeemed. Jesus chose fishermen to become his decuples. The call to God is
blind. God was willing to accept all sinners into heaven if they believed. “Come after
men, and I will make you fishermen of men.” Fish is good for nourishment. The
fishermen were chosen for the purpose as journeymen. They become followers of
God without knowing what it involved. God asks of you to become practitioners of
faith. God ask you to follow him and use his words wisely to administer faith. God
calls you to listen wisely. He has created the Beatitudes to share. His words is a
revolution of power. It is by example words to live by;. It will be blessed by God for
those who follow. In order to proclaim your faith you have to believe in it. One can
not trust without reasoning. To be a follower in Christ one must practice his faith.
Light is a resource where there is light we can see. When afraid we rely on light for
safety. This is the same way with the church. We need religion as a resource to
guide us to safety. The commandments are God’s law. One must practice law to be
accepted into heaven. We need rules to live by to know right from wrong. It is with
these laws as Christians we have a contract with God. When broken we must ask for
forgiveness and promise to not do this sin anymore. We must change by praying
and admitting our sins to answer his calling. It is good thing to not hold anger. After
time the anger will build up and destroy you inside. No sacrifice is greater than to
give alms to the Lord. One must submit his burdens before God to recompense from
sin. If anger builds up, it will explode. Ask God how to make commends to the
church. Pray for change, through the will of God, ask for God’s guidance to help you
to making the right decision. Ask for forgiveness. Ask for greater faith. Do not hold
in anger. Lust is sinful. It is better to turn from lust than to face its consequences.
company. A man who lust is just as guilty to sin as the women who is lustful. It is
sinful to look lustful intentions through the media or through action. One should
only be committed their spouse by not cheating through the divinity of the church.
One must not swear in God’s name. It is called blasmophy to profess false witness
on behalf of the church. Be careful who you call a devil worshiper. Those who judge
allows you to be judged. Do not cast the first stone. One can not impose one faith
on others. He can only justify reasons for his faith. If you are disturbed by
infrastructures, God is only testing your faith. If you follow God’s word you will be
saved. God leads you on a journey. You will go to heaven if you live by God’s word.
God will decide at the end of your journey when it is time to die. Then will your soul
go to heaven. Practice what you preach. Ask of others no more than what you want
for yourself. Do not want more than what you can give. A good Samaritan gives all
the time. God is good all the time. It is easier to lead a life through kind acts. Trust
in God to live by his words. Following God is easy. No man is born without sin. The
Lord knows we are sinners. God will test our faith until we die. It is a God’s calling.
Life is a journey where we must chose righteously and learn form our mistakes and
become true followers of God. The devil has many disguises. You will be confronted
with others testimony of faith. You will be tested on how strongly your faith is. The
devil thrust can come upon you like a ghost where you become humbled in God’s
mercy. Proclaim your faith. The house of God is a rock. A rock is composed on a
scholarly wisdom. It can only be broken when the covenant is portrayed, then it is
crushed and must be rebuilt. The divinity of faith is determined by your connection
with God and your fellowship of mercy. Through what you are willing to sacrifice can
The teacher saw Mayia had rare talent and entered her poem in a writing compition.
With enough said, this gave Mayia the confidence to write more poems. She kept
her first poem in the Bible. It meant a lot to have a gift God gave her and this was
her calling. Mayia would read her poems to everyone. It was now junior in high
school she was in the Miss America pageant. Mayia was chosen by her peers to be
there. Mayia thought the pageant would be a disaster where eveyone would laugh
at her and make fun of her because she was from the ghetto. Mayia decided to read
her poem she wrote in the third grade for the pageant for talent. There was
complete silence and after the poem there was aplause. Mayia won the pageant
with the support of everyone. Mayia began to use her spare time writing poems
and sharing them with the church. Mayia vocation was to write if it meant she
would touch the life of a child and maybe create the promise that they too would
use poetry to create insight and to make an favorable impression on the life of a
child. It takes a villiage to raise a child. It takes love and support to make dreams
possible. Note that dispite all obsticles, of proverty, drugs, violence, hate crimes if
you set your mind to it and you believe in your dream it can become a reality.
Gestures
It was imaginable. It was that thing. The notion of remarkable imagery. It was a
mark like no other mark that has an imprint on my mind. It is a mark that has
describes a movement. It was no ordinary mark. No. It was a mark that was passed
of hatred. People have been spit on, cursed at and beaten and that mark
on trial for neglecting social standards. The mark stood obsolete from the pen
marks. A spider’s web draped from the wall. A cob web dangled from the wall
unnoticed. But this mark; represented all the pain my ancestors faced throughout
history to be recognized through this mark. The mark was someone disturbing
because I could not figure it out. It was different. A wall did not disserve to be so
distinguished. It was different than anything I had ever come across. It bothered me
It described the evolution of man slowly making its mark in history. How a mark
could alluded me so much pleasure. I was pleased to see something different that
reminded me of my past that I could not quite understand the truth behind it. The
imagery alluded my imagination. I stared at the mark on the wall and it had moved
me. It made me feel welcome. No other wall in the house had been so privileged to
having this mark. The mark had a favorable impression to me. I saw my personality
and years of undulation that made me cry, made me angry which resulted in
laughter. The mark on the wall represented the conflict between race and gender. I
actually made me fearful. I was scared to reveal this mark to the world. It would
have to be kept a secret. If anyone knew this secret, man would destroy the
purpose behind it. I decided to cover the mark with year of frustration. I would
imagine it never existed. The more and more I wanted to hide it, the power behind
the mark was noticeable. I could not hide it. No. It was to relevant to hide. Other
people have seen the mark. It was prevalent it existed. No one figured it out like I
did. It is amazing how so many people passed this wall and never noticed how
beautiful a mark in history had changed man. No one could relate to it. It never
crossed their minds that such a mark reflected their fate. The mark on the wall will
leave its mark in history and historians will make gestures without psychiatrist
Journal
It was a hazy day. It was no ordinary day. A fog overcast down on a small town in
mistaken mood of discovery. She was hot. She was together and had it made. Her
hair was always right. Her dress was well cultured. Her attitude was preppie. Iycia
was no ordinary girl. She indeed was special. Today would make a difference in her
life.
It had been mid-noon and a heavy overcast of dark sky set the mood. Iycia greeted
competition of who could out speak who, only Iycia could bark the loudest and
Diane could had small talk with a little bite. Each of Iycia’s friends had much play.
They had many boyfriends and believed in playing the field. Iycia never believed in
playing games. Iycia had the same boyfriend since college. “What’s up, chicks?”
exclaimed Iycia. They all replied, “Me!” and they laughed. Kim kept quiet. Iycia
wondered, “What is wrong with you, girl? Why so quiet?” Kim proclaimed with a
long face that she lost her best friend. Iycia knew she acted differently lately and
had to go deeper to find out what was going on. Doris padded Kim’s back, “It’ll be
Late that evening, rainfall trickled from the sky. Doris found something in Kim’s
journal giving secret information about a bad relationship with Kim’s XO. Doris
found she wrote letters in her journal as if she was talking to (him)? The journal
talked about how Diane crept with Iycia man of 5 years and how she hoped it would
work out and that she did not want to hurt Iycia. She took the pregnancy stick and
was pregnant. Doris called up one of her friends dreaming up a scheme to set the
record straight of events to happen. Her best friend David was gay and acted as if
he knew had to dream of vengeful devious schemes. Everyone knew this about him.
Thunder escaped passes a dust of wind as if rain met its mate. Doris and David
planned to reveal the secret to Iycia that her best friends, Chris, went on the down
low with Kim and were expecting a child. They planned for confessions to be made
at the house party on Iycia anniversary. Dian felt if she had to find out the juice had
to explode at the right time. They planned to show diary and all that happened that
led up to breaking them up hoping she would leave this cheater and ending her
friendship.
Iycia was so in love she said she had planned to marry Chris. Kim was always
jealous of Iycia. Iycia had everything she wanted including a good man. Kim would
embellish attitude at times. Iycia would give Kim the clothes off her back to help her
cousin out. Kim knew this. Kim always felt pretentious. She wanted more. She
wanted what Iycia had and so she stole her man with a baby. How naïve a scam to
get ahead.
Iycia’s friends planned the works, as usual, for Iycia anniversary party. Everyone
would be her guest. It had been cold and snow fell from the heavens above. It was
winter and the day planed had as much doubt and confusion. Champaign was
poured by the host to give a toast to the glorious occasion. To their surprise; Chris
got on one knee when Doris came up with the diary questions to propose the toast.
David exploded with the truth before any more details were let out. Doris got her
face slapped by Kim as she ran outside. Iycia started to cry and told everyone to
leave. “It is not the time for this,” thought Doris. “Well, well,” thought Iycia. “How
could you, of all people do this to me?” Iycia asked Chris, “When I expected more
out of you. I thought you were special?” “And now leave me destitute with an
incubine by your cousin?” By the look of Chris stoic face expression, it looked like he
had some explaining to do. Doris and David scheme was a cold game to play on
family. They knew this now. It was not the right time; but something had to be said.
A cry of silence dispersed energy of the moment to gesture innocence had broken
ties to bitterness. Iycia just did not get it. She knew how much she loved Chris and
had to let him make a decision or the right choice and until he had made a decision
Chris told Iycia that he was sorry. While Iycia was keeping busy, she lacked keeping
company in her man. Chris needed someone there for him and only Kim could keep
Amber planned a baby shower for Kim. Iycia picked up pink and blue clothes she
thought would look right on her great grand niece or nephew. The dark past of
deception left the aria with hope and faith. It was important that joy would
overcome hate in spite what happened. Chris and Kim were making the relationship
Many tearful years had passed sine Iysha could be herself again. She kept a keenful
eye on her friends for now on. She had to watch her back from devious friends. It
became hard to trust. Iycia knew she was different and because of that she made
enemies fast. It was this that Iycia found why her friends played the field. They were
waiting to chose from the first real thing to come and then they would have found
true happiness.
Confessions
They say, millions have had some type of abuse in their life time. For me, i have a
dark past. I too was abused in my life time. I vision the abuse. Sometimes the voices
are louder than other times. Flash back. I could have been yet one year old placed
in bed with my neighbor. The abuse can happen with anyone. This time, i was too
young to know how my body was made. I had to have been shown by someone i
barely knew. Doctors say my body had been made that way since child birth. I
never heard of having a body like a whore and being born into it. I had not been five
years old in the hood when some stupid boy wanted to play house. I did not know
how to play house. It seemed to be a fun game, at first. I was misleading into being
the mom and he dad in bed. By the time i was nine years old, my parents were
being sued because i was immature. To prove their law suit wrong i had been
mislead by my brother. It was a critical mistake that would burn my life away. The
neighbors asked to rape me. I did not know how lass Vegas were. I thought all girls
were whores in this city. When i found out none of them wanted to be a whore, i
found my place in the church. Funny, how my mother thought i brought it upon
myself to be treated that way. I was eve that gave Adam the apple, mom always
thought. I asked boys to rape me. I asked girls to call me a slut. It could have been
provoked. I needed more time to reclaim my childhood. I did not ask to be picked
out. It was a curse that stool with me. It is a mistake that could have been adverted,
so critical in my life. A difficult decision that cursed me with the scarlet letter. What
had been done was neglect. People want to now know if i am gay. Why I am not
married and have kids. I never knew a boy who did not want a serious relationship. I
had been afraid of boys. I had been ten years old when the boy wanted to play
doctor. Like house; there is no difference. It was a matter of time before he seduced
me and was caught at it. I was in junior high, when the boys started asking me out.
The boys in the hood only wanted sex. Boys only were about one thing and that was
sex. It was a conversion. He forced open the door and backed me on the couch,
kissing me all over. I thought at first it felt good under stress, only to ask him to
back off. It was not right. My first kiss was my darkest. He spit down my back. It was
infatuation. Mom would tell me that i was about nothing and unless i led on to those
boys i would never amount to anything. The church supports marriage and having a
family. I was always afraid of boys and relationships. My family encouraged me,
only with me, i felt insecure to their threats. I would avoid briefings with boys
behind closed doors with no solutions. It was beyond what appeared to lead on
wanted a relationship with a man, where we would talk and be friends. I needed to
trust him before i gave it to him. I wanted to know i was loved intentionally. That
the relationship was not controlling. I felt mom never taught me how to love. All the
abuse, led to my insecurity. It was something i never knew how to act because mom
never taught me to love. I thought he was after the money. He only wanted to use
me. I felt all he was about was neglect and abuse. I needed him to make me secure.
I needed to grow up and fit this profile of maturation and stability that it was going
to be alright. I was always afraid of being alone. I never was able to move on from
my family on my own. I do not know what it feels like to take care of myself without
my mom telling me how to live. She never taught me the basis of surviving on my
own. That i need to be reminded by god and his religion practices to learn how to
separate our difference and forgive that that concedes my past to assume the
danger and challenges and encounter opposition. And until i learn to do this, i will
be a liberal single. Is there anyone out there for me? I wonder...it is a metaphorical
dispute
Peer Pressure
Diary Journal
I have an anxiety problem. It started at a young age. My teacher will call on me and
my heart beat would pound in fear of answering wrong. I was always afraid of
Elementary, I spent most my time against the building wall. No one was willing to be
my friend. It is crazy how children can abuse other children. I wanted to play with
them, only, they ignored me and so I sat alone. When they did pay attention to me,
it was to copy my papers. This was by junior high. They would get good grades if I
let them copy mine. This is how I made friends with them, by sharing my work. I
would often cheat for them. I would change their answers so I made friends. By high
school, it got rough. The students made fun of the poor clothes I wore. I was
humiliated so I stole my mom clothes to wear to school. I was admired for it. I was
from the ghetto and my teachers thought my grades should be like my neighbors.
My grades dropped. I had low self esteem for being poor and stupid. It is hard when
my councilors suggested I made friends and everyone ignored me. I sat in the
library before school, lunch, after school and school assemblies to do work. Dad told
me I did not have to study for poor grades. I realized he was right. Students poured
water in my chair. One student pulled my desk to the front of class. Students would
my assignments to the teacher. They were planning on me failing school with low
grades like that. The most a drop out girl could be is a stripper or with children on
welfare. I was determined to graduate out of the ghetto. College was different.
Delusional that I was honors in high school, I worked harder for my grades and it
improved. The voices were still there calling me a loser and questioning whether I
deserved to be a college student. They made comments about my poor dress. I paid
for college with my disability check. I was told I was a loser and I made it that far
because of my parents. I always felt I made those grades because I worked hard for
them. I was not someone they just passed up from special Ed each year. I was the
person who went the extra mile that made the difference. I read the book and did
the homework on my own. I did not want to become an individual; homeless and a
loser. I wanted to make a difference in my life and with the lives of others. I wanted
to become a teacher. I have been harassed. I had food thrown at me. I have gotten
Street Sconce
Diary Journal
Growing up in the ghetto street of Vegas can be rough. A friend told me to watch
my back. I was walking to a friend’s house when gangs pulled up beside me and
wanted to take me for a ride. I told them I had a jealous boyfriend. I was too young
to have a boy friend at the time. Girls stared with having boy friends at the early
age of three. I could not walk the street were not safe, a boy threw his toy train at
me and scabbed my head. I ignored it. It was just a boy. My brother and I had been
learning to shoot a bee gun, when the neighbors from the back started throwing
rocks at me teasing sounds. My mom sent him back outside until he won the fight.
With those neighbors, you never know. One day a kid went to retrieve her ball from
the same neighbor’s back yard and I heard gun shots with the women screaming
that anyone dare come to her back yard. She was known as the crazy lady. A friend
warned me of the boys that just want you for that thing. She said that the boys will
ask you for a cup or sugar or water while mowing your lawn or washing your car just
to get inside your house to get next with you. Boys were ringing my door bell like
crazy by the time of puberty. I wanted it to all stop. Boys would buy my friends and
me ice cream for favors. My friend always warned me of strange men wanting give
me rides that are my daddy’s friends. She said they can not be trusted either. Good
thing she told me this. There were grown married men that are my friends that
wanted give old pappy daddy some. The streets are worse feared of prostitution
and gang violence. Just last week people were shot by a drive by at the school. The
boys would practice basketball at the school during the summer. Today, it seems no
one meets there. The streets are not safe. The other day I witnessed a couple of
friend’s die of gang violence in their front yard. Drugs are bad habit in the ghetto.
Family’s are generation welfare or drug addict. Friends told me when you grow up
you have a choice to either be a hair dresser, a stepper, on welfare with kids, a
made, or a cashier. A garage dump and engineering building was built providing
hope to some of the boys who were in prison to get a job. It is hard to survive out
fourth generation poverty. We are decedents of slaves. Many of us attend church to
pray and ask for forgiveness of our sins. Prayer is a light at the end of the tunnel to
Journal
I have never been in love with Chris. Chris was a memory from my past that I
were friends. I made a pact with my brother that I would never date his friends, my
I am not in love with Chris. I have mistaken him form a memory of someone from
I had been delusion about my past. I am confused. I remember playing with him and
I feel I have no one in my life. I have my family. At times, my niece is more grown
than I am.
I like to listen to hip hop videos. I like their words and musical back ground.
Listening to hip hop music reminds me of having friends I grew up with. My friends
and I would always dance to music while we were together. I miss all my old friends.
I like to listen to music. I write music and paint oils. Through my poems I reach out
to others. When I listen to slow music, I have fantasy relationships spending time
I blame Chris for destroying my life. Chris did not do anything to hurt me. I need to
stop blaming others for my own mistakes. I am the blame my life is like this. If only
we never met.
I dream of the noble peace prize in writing or getting a Grammy some day. This too
is a fantasy of mine.
more criticism from people against me helping others like Jesus. I hear a lot of
It would be nice If Chris did not jack his pennies off every morning. I feel said when
I used to masturbate myself until I realized how sick this was. I have changed to a
child of God.
I admit people are right. I used to shop lift. I would steal clothes by changing the
price tag to pay a lower price. I never got caught doing this. This too stopped. I am
a child of God.
I woke up once with Chris lying in my bed. It scares me. The thought of someone
kissing my cheek while I sleep and running away. I imagine a prostitution ring in my
sleep people kissing me and running away and Chris my pomp getting paid for it.
I thought I got pregnant. I do not know who my baby’s daddy is. Maybe its father
came from my sleep. I never visibly saw anyone having sex while I lie awake.
life. It was not. Chris told them I would be a good hooker selling my body. The
church saved me from behaving this way. My friends would ask If they could be my
pomp and for me to stand on the corner while they get paid. I just cried and went
home. I would only want to surround me around positive people. I see them no
more.
street. I chose to live with family. It can be harder living on the streets alone.
I would like to be active in school, only, I get nervous around people. I begin to hear
voices in my head. I am not mentally aright to hear the voices. I rather stay at home
At one point in my life I thought I wanted to commit suicide. I could never do this
though. I could never overdose on pills. I like living too much. I get sad at times
living my life this way. I like being around people I can change lives.
Chris had a way on turning the heat on my feat in the car that would make me
excited. He could unzip his pants while eating dinner or spiting in my drink that
Sometime I would go to the store and look down and my zipper was undone. Men
Chris wanted to raise my child as a step child into prostitution. I could not let this
happen. He wanted to raise his children on my Inheritance and not do anything for
my child. Chris gave all my children an abortion. He did not want me to have
children of my own. I would be a base case raising his brother’s kids In and out of
prison getting raped and beat up by his kids and him not care. I could not let this
Mom was crazy about Chris. She would beat me with a belt until my skin had red
web marks all over. She always said it was for my own good and she was doing this
because she loved me. She would slap me in the face and beat me if I did not clean
right. I was beaten for bringing home low grades. I was beaten for not seeing Chris.
The doctor found a lymph node in my chest. It does not have cancer In It now. It has
to be monitored.
I could not hate Chris for his Intentions. I could only pray for him…
Tears Came
Scene One
I am one of you
A mistaken identity
There are various cliques one must achieve to be accepted in college… and when
there is a class of ambivalent scholars, the life they lead is a relic of success.
American life can be judged instead of a shoulder to cry on. It is of scholarship and
rebirth. People yearn to assimilate gift and talent. Making a world of competition a
measure to succeed. What fails to mediate understanding groups tend to find their
own way.
I am one of you
A mistaken identity
The drifters…
There are the drifters who wear black all the time. The drifters are known to be
wired. Drifters love to smoke and eat healthy. The drifters will pierce every part of
their body. They are known to wear tattoos. The world is consumed with wealth in
that sometimes it nurtures its own ability to reason. We are often tied down to
I am one of you
A mistaken identity
The jocks…
There are the jocks and dancers who are in the in crowd…The jocks are the ones
who always have the most fun. Last week they trashed a freshman in the locker for
walking down senior hall. Everyone knows them. Everyone admires them. Some say
they are dumb. Some say they are the most popular. It is the same with the dance
teams on campus. The girls have a reputation for being loose. The girls rule the
campus. A rose is but a rose when embodied by envy and pride. Sometimes it
humiliates the specter from what is desired in life. The security blanket become
On my junket
A mistaken identity
Groupies…
There are the bands that are the class groupies…The groupies are the kind that like
to have fun. Music is what they speak. Music surrounds them. Music is their passion
and different ways the meaning of unity is engrained amongst activity. What is
A shopping spree
A scared dollar
Life goes on
I am one of you
A mistaken identity
Preppies…
There are the honor students that are the preppies…The preppies wear their clothes
differently. Preppies dress is oxford collar shirts with plaid pants and doll shoes. The
storm, there is a spirit of youthfulness and hope. The spirit only asks to listen to its
My back ache
My hips shake
To the left
To the right
I am one of you
A mistaken identity
Pride, trivia or true
Class Clowns…
There are the misfits that are the class clowns…questions the uncertainty of human
spirit. They lack affection in the need of attention. To be mistaken for ignorance,
they anticipate progress. They thrive for salvation a quota of humility and
happiness.
Don’t let it go
I am one of you
A mistaken identity
There are the drop outs that are the losers…The drop outs are the ones who are
smart in school but with no interest for learning. The drop outs are there to party.
They are the ones noted for disrupting class activity with intellectual remarks.
Taken by honesty
To recognize my reflection
I am one of you
A mistaken identity
Valley Girls…
There are the wealthy that are the valley girls…The valley girls talk a certain way.
The valley girls are known to set dress trends and the direct the dichotomy of the
school. The valley girls plead for mercy and demand justice. Their perspective
designates truth.
I am one of you
A mistaken identity
The presence of depending on one another for help, one must learn how to ask for
help and know how to use others for positive gain. Life is measured by convocation
Rock 4 times
Snake 3 times
Rock 2 times
Now 2 step
Rock 5 times
And spin
Worm 4 times
Pause
Loli pop
Everybody freeze
Scene Three
Our Love
Consumed in lust
In unity of a companion
Mourning over a loss of a love one is a traumatic experience and yet it can pull a
I understand my parents love and care for one another a whole lot. Faith is what
brings a family closer. However; I can recall my youth. I remember the troubled
times like when my parents always argued over money expenses. Mom always
She always said it did not make since to live in poverty. Dad only wanted to move in
led to harmony and forgiveness. My mother talked with friends about finding notes
in my father's pockets from other women. She thought he was cheating on her.
Commitment was important for their marriage. It turned out my parents loved each
other a whole lot and they stayed married for 43 years. Marriage was also important
My parents held down two jobs in my youth to take care of the family. They were
always busy with work. We only spent time on weekends. Throughout the week I
recall my Dad coming home drunk and my mom was at work until 2 am in the
morning. My brother stayed at home to take care of me. Through this ordeal; I feel
they did what was right to live comfortably. It was all about making ends meet.
My family spent Sundays at church. Church was our foundation in spiritual relief. I
would pray for health and happiness. God granted condolence throughout the years
As I grew older, My family began to become more distant. Our values began to
change. My mom let a male friend come between family. I always resented her for
this.
After my brother died I realized that family mattered the most. My mom is my
fathers neck in the family. She convinced us that family is important no matter what
Today; I find my family sharing more and more time together. Dad talks to his
mother 4 times a week. Mom calls her only sister 5 times a week. Weekends remain
family oriented. Family meals are important. It is a time to consolidate and council
one another.
I would never think I would marry. I want to marry and have kids now more than
ever, because, with family I will find spirituality in life through God.
Confusion
Doubt
Emotionaly stressed
Vounerable inherit
Painfuly assist
Damper horizon
Moderatly senced
Mordified solution
Dangeraously admissed
Tranquil upset
Ferverently blessed
Inhale jeapardy
Externally confessed
An imagery, a concept
Figuratively obessed
A silent memorium
A gesture remissed
A time remissed
A time remissed
A time remissed
A time remissed
I’m out
Infatuation is where one person out of spite does not have the same feelings of the
other person. It is where it appears to be true love to some; but to others it is a fatal
attraction.
I met someone in junior high school who was infatuated over me. Every since
meeting him, my life has been a disaster. I could not breath without his permission.
Since high school, I lost all friendships with everyone I knew. I was sent to a
therapist to talk about my feelings. Family thought I had a difficult time expressing
It is psychotic to not have relationships with anyone. My parents insist that I have
one friend who is his sister and I not date or even conceive thought about marriage
fatal attraction. I can not allow his family to control me and yet they control me and
him.
Everywhere I go I am called immature because I am not in love with this man and I
My real wish is for him to leave me alone. I am not able to enjoy my life because of
the paranoia surrounds me. I escape into a world where I am isolated, so isolated
I wonder, is he stocking me? Can I call the police on him and order a restraining
If you ever loved someone and they do not feel the same, please let it go.
There is nothing like having a baby with someone you love. I can only imagine
having a baby. What would natural child bearing be like? It would be special feeling
in that you know you care for what is inside you. There is a special attachment to
having a baby form inside of you, grow inside of you, touch you deeply. Every time
you eat the baby is tugging on your cord, kicking inside of you.
You can not say anything bad about the baby's father. If you do you will begin to
imbalance your walk as your foot skips across the floor. If you think bad things
about the baby's father, you will begin to drop things out of your hands, breaking
glasses, throwing papers. An instant reflex. Every morning you will awake to
morning sickness, gagging your throat like you want to throw up and nausea will
come too. Every time you think of the baby's father you will begin to smile as the
baby smiles too inside. Your every action is affecting the baby inside of you. The
baby will miss his siblings, to a prior abortion and you will feel sad, to start to cry, as
the baby cries inside of you. When you are ready for an ultra sound, you can not
hold water. You can not hold water through the entire pregnancy. Often you go to
the bathroom. Let us time your reaction to going to the bathroom to every 30
minutes. A sign of labor pains apart timed to every 30 minutes. You look on the
ultra sound screen and you smile when you see their is a human on the ex-rays. You
begin to contemplate do I want my baby. Shall I start a family. Your life is on hold. I
lost one baby through abortion. Abortion kills. It is unethical to kill human life. The
baby will transform my life from a child to become a women. You begin to shop at
the mall looking a baby clothes. You start to cry. You want children. You begin to
walk at the park where there are children. You start to cry. You want children. Your
niece comes by every weekend and you set up projects like the baby you want to
have. No one realizes what is going on. You wanted a child of your own. You can not
take the thought of your baby through e suction sucked out of you like a vacuum
cleaner to kill your child. God anticipates your next move. You decide, papa don't
My biggest struggle
I lie in death
Longing for your return
Meant something
To both of us
My biggest struggle
Was letting go
I wanted to believe
You needed me
In your life
Like a prostitute
My biggest struggle
Is to carry on
Missing you
My biggest struggle
Was replacing you
La, la, la
The most enjoyable part of life is your youth. No one shall take away fund memories
I recall memories of playing in the street kick ball and stick ball. The fun of the
games were to see how fast you can run and how hard you can make a home run.
I recall memories of the pap cycle man or rushing down the street to stop the truck
And I remit the candy lady. Every hood had a candy lady who sold your choice of
anything imaginable.
I recall memories of the curfew allowed you to stay out side until 1 a.m. Where
there would be block parties held late at night on the street or at the park blasting
music and everyone you knew and did not know was there.
I recall memories of playing doctor because everyone knew they wanted to be
I recall learning the newest dance moves and then making new ones that steps
I recall memories of having slam books to share dreams with your friends. You
would have to know everything about your friends in the slam book to include who
you were going to marry, how many kids you will have, what car you will drive,
I recall memories about the cube that had many combinations with your desire to
solve the cube. And playing table tennis and pac man on the television. Also playing
football on a miniature score board. And also ping pong was a sport and a
challenge.
I recall memories like swimming in the park with church groups and friends while
I recall memories of watching sports like boxing when Mahamad Ali was the champ
and the movie Rocky, Sharks, Star Wars and Saturday Night live was the in thing to
see.
I recall memories like wearing knickerbockers, halter tops and died designer jeans
was fashionable.
I recall memories in school where type writers were obsolete and the computer was
viably new where we used floppy disk and computer paper with holes on its side
were popular. Every thing was hand written in so you may rewrite your paper
music
the year. No meal is prepared with hope like the one celebrated Christmas and
Easter. This is a time to invite friends and family for this joyous occasion.
The table is prepared with the fine china and napkin holders in brilliant colors of red,
gold and green. Before dinner a special prayer is dedicated in honor of the occasion
thanking God for his many blessings and gifts of having family and friends and food.
Dinner is served in a buffet style. People begin to engage on stuffed turkey roast,
corn pudding, candied yams with marshmallows, turnip greens with turnips, home
made rolls and your choice of ice cream and homemade lemon cake or apple pie
made from scratch. It is a pleasure to see everyone indulge in good company and
good conversation with enough food to last the next few days.
Even new year is celebrated with good intentions. Everyone has to have a new year
revelation. For new years, a special dish is made of black eyed peas for good luck,
greens for money and cabbage for good spirits. It is a African American tradition
which is all in good spirits wishing well for the upcoming new year.
Fading fast
True love is not something you can come across easily. True love is reserved for
someone who stands out and is special. I fell in love with my old classmate when I
was 15. We were said to be a match made in heaven. We had so many qualities in
common. He swept me off my feet. I did not know love hit me until many years
later. He was a good man. He spent time walking me home after school. We spent
endless hours on the phone courting. Even if we had nothing to say to each other
we enjoyed one another's company. We studied together and went places together.
He always supported me even if I was too busy studying and could not find the time
for him, he swore I got his heart. Through good times and bad, he remained in my
memory. I still think of him sometimes about what we had together. He is now
married with kids and will never know I still have feeling for him.
Scene Four
American youth are engaging in sex acts as teenagers. This is dangerous to think
about. Over the years Americans were addressed with Aids, while primary decease
of having herpes, scabs or virginal itching were more aware than Aids.
Confusion
Doubt
Emotionaly stressed
Vounerable inherit
Painfuly assist
Damper horizon
Moderatly senced
Mordified solution
Dangeraously admissed
Tranquil upset
Ferverently blessed
Inhale jeapardy
Externally confessed
An imagery, a concept
Figuratively obessed
A silent memorium
A gesture remissed
A time remissed
A time remissed
A time remissed
A time remissed
Aids was started in Africa where the virus was wide spread and troubling from
exposed monkeys. Aids existed prior to when it was first known. The health care
crisis made aware that Americans had Aids, only, it was not as detrimental as it is
known now.
The epidemic created a natural prevention measures to disturb the spread of Aids.
a lustful inquiry.
of a red old
withered
jacket
beaten
and
denied.
It is known that Aids kills. Celebrities like Johnson, made it aware that anyone can
fall a victim from the disease . Aids is active participants with gay men and lesbian
women who do not practice safe sex. It spreads with having multiple sex partners
and unsafe sex. It can be a result from using bad needles intervening in drug
addicts.
Consumed in lust
In unity of a companion
It is important that people practice safe sex. It was noted in high school students
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The storm
Like Africa, I feel that the Caribbean should protect themselves from a decease that
where vaccines sent out. In the Caribbeans, medical precautions to test for Aids
Of a silent verse;
To my soul.
To consume valor;
To alter loss;
Is an angels affirmation
A prayer inhibits
He wanted sex. One night after a date, the young boy offered to kiss the young girl.
She thought she show him how much she cared for him. They engaged in a kiss that
led to him having a discussion with her to his next move to take her virginity.
Enthusiastically; he told her he whispered in her ear that loved her. He told her he
was on medication. He told her he had a disease that he may have given her from
swallowing his spit from kissing him. He admitted that now he had trapped her in
being with him because she now shared the disease. She will now be medicated
from this predatory effecting her for the rest of her life. A desease that may take
her life.
Precautions are not enough. It is everyone who suffers of victums of Aids. Kids are
born of aids. Aids is a battle ground. Aids causes hostility and addictions. It is clear
this is an argument that raises questions of how to be a good resource to handle the
pressure of safe sex practices. Is awareness consistent with the spread of the
position? Is it because you never got to know me and do not care? Can
appearance, you base judgment that I fit those stereo types? Can you
tell by looking at me, what you do not like about me? Is it my outward
someone said about me that has got you all fired up? Did I not follow
right to judge, because of how I acted out that you must try to change
It is said that the AIDS disease began as an epidemic after a virus from a monkeys
from Africa. In fact; AIDS may have began before then. It was led by people who had
gay/lesbian sex partners or multiple sex partners. It once was common with the
stars and athletes to do so. It spread out world wide. Many Africans Americans have
spread and been effected by this virus for having unsafe sex practices, multiple sex
partners and gay/lesbian sex. It is also known to spread from drug abuse. In fact the
virus can occur from intramural usage from the same needle. It can easily be
practice that if a doctor does not wash his hands and the dentist who does not keep
a sterile environment for his patients. The Aids virus can spread easily by coughing
heal but help the spread of Aids. Medicine can sustain healthy living and make one
live longer. In the nineties, Aids became well known, because, so many reported
deaths. There was no known cure for Aids at the time. It would be encouraged to
have Aids education. It would be advised to use condoms while engaging with any
sex partner. Some churches recommend not having sex until after marriage and
being loyal with your one sex partner, your spouse. Commercial ads request that
people having open sex to wrap it up. There are male and female condoms to help
practice safe sex. Some politicians recommend masturbation or using sex tool safe
practices on oneself. There are other alternative than practicing safe sex without
having intercourse to meet sexual arousal. If you had respect for yourself and
others, you would get tested for the Aids virus. If you had respect for yourself and
others, you would inquire about finding out if your significant other has the Aids
Of the community
Of the church
God is my temperament
My story is that I kissed a boy for the first time I hardly knew. After the kiss he tells
me he has a virus and has now given it to me. He wants to be with me now that we
die of the same virus thinking I am more committed once he gave it to me. Some
gay people have same sex because of their culture, they have had same sex in
prison or they had bad relationship with the opposite sex. Some people are gay
because of contacting HIV and does not want to pass it on or is willing to marry
outside their race and has rectal sex with their mate. Some gay people after
encountering same sex can not go back to heterosexual sex because they can not
feel it. Some gay people find that after engaging in same sex they want children
and can only have children with a gay person the opposite sex. Aids can be given
easily if a person is not sanitary. The virus then can spread with multiple partners
unprotected. HIV can spread from a cough, a hand shake or even from a bathroom
exposure. It is important that you ask as much about things you are not sure about
Aids.
the emotion to love oneself; because one must love oneself in order to
allow others to love you. Love is feeling of greatness that you place
God above oneself; because God it the gatekeeper of your soul. Are you
feeling me? Loving oneself means you are blessed that you feel good
about yourself and you are doing right by God. Loving oneself means
revelation that you have reached redemption of the mind, body and
soul. The way you carry yourself is how others will judge you. Love God,