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I search for it among the gray shadows, as far as my gaze can pierce
the thickening blanket of darkness. I search, behind the bushes; amid
tall trees; underneath the moss. (Is it perhaps a tiny cricket or locust,
ticking its incessant clock?)
……………
But … why then did I not hear it before? Why was it coming from a
distance? The new questions dampen the joy of my discovery. The
sense of euphoria of discovering the undiscovered ebbs away. For a
moment, I remain silent, contemplating. The sound is audible again.
With a gentle beat, it draws my attention. I listen to it intently. Yes,
indeed, it is coming from within me. Yet, it is all around me. Behind
the bushes, amid the grasses, underneath the mosses, among the tall
trees, far away in the darkness. It is the throbbing of my heart, and
yet it is everywhere, around me, above and below, within and…. It
thumps in my head, in my heart, in my arms and legs, deep in the
guts….
… … … … ...
She comes with her imposing eyes fixed on me. A deep yet vague
smile plays on her face—like mist over a lake. Coming near she holds
my hands in hers. On her thin wrist, beneath the soft skin, I see that
twitching; quickly disappearing, to reappear again, in a uniform pace,
unchaotic, unhurried. The quiet quickness, like the flow of Eternity.
Then I hear the sound too. It has the same mystical allure.
Toward the morning sun I walk. A beggar stands still like a statue in
the rising heat, his palm extended, the only suggestion of his
occupation. I pause and turn to face him. The two dead eyes gaze the
sky, over my shoulder, straight at the sun. In the corners of his
temples, I see the same twitching. The waves of the same throbs that
echo in and around me. Face to face we stand. A sound identifies a
sound. A gaze is returned by a dead gaze, seeing-unseeing, yet
recognizing. The two pairs of eyes searching for something?... Seeking
what? Alms? Money? Affection? Love? Salvation? Solidarity?
Solitude? ...
The white, fierce sun glares over my head as I trek across the fields
stretched out along the foothills of barren ridges. The brown earth
looks tired. And thirsty. Its thirst conveyed by the smell of baked mud
on the hot breeze. Thirsty for the first showers. A farmer and his ox
drag a plough through the dry lumps. The farmer is engrossed in his
work. His hands, his breath, his legs, his voice as he commands the
ox, all working in a harmony. On his throat, under the suntanned skin
covered with sweat and dust, I see the flow; wave chasing wave. The
same incessant flow of life, the same tune, the same sound.…
……………
… I wake up, as if from a deep slumber. The sound is nowhere to be heard. Only a
deep, unfathomable tranquility exists in such a way that nothing else existed ever
before. There is no past, no future, and no present. For every present has its future
and every future evolves from a past. Here there is only this deep tranquility. Time is
frozen in this serene darkness. Is this the heart of the universe?. Is this Truth? ...
I have lost myself in this silence. I have filled every part of this
tranquil infinity, yet I am nowhere. I live, without existing.
… … … … ...