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Ava Kuhlman
Ms. McDermott
2 April 2018
My Greatest Obstacle
I’ve practiced all my songs countless times now, but this is the very first time I will play in
front of my family. I want it to be good. No. That’s not it. I want it to be amazing. Which is why
time) to practice these six songs I chose to play. They need to be ready for
but I’m still unsure that it will be enough. To improve, I record my playing
and listen to the replay, this way I can notice mistakes and (hopefully) fix them. In the last
recording, I sound choppy and flat. Fixing this seems impossible, and I have absolutely no ideas as
to how it can be settled. But I’ll keep trying until it is excellent. My performance had better be
I’m getting more and more nervous for the big day. March 26, March 26, March 26. It’s
all I can think about! I’ve practiced my heart, hands, and mind out but I just cannot seem to
get the song right. The ukulele is making my fingers and my brain hurt. Six is seeming like
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a dangerous number of songs to play and my task seems to be getting harder and harder the
closer I get to March 26. While the tune of my songs is fixed so they no longer
sound flat, it still feels as though they are super rough and choppy. It seems like I
haven’t practiced at all. But I have. And I know all the songs by heart now, I can
play them without the music! They still don’t sound quite right though. I’ll keep you posted.
ARGHHHH! My performance for my family is only a mere 3 days away, and despite my
continuing attempts to make all six songs flawless, they have flaws. Lots and lots and
lots of flaws. Ok, maybe I’m exaggerating. They ARE sounding loads better than the
beginning, and since my last diary entry, but I’m still freaking out! My nerves haven’t calmed down
one bit. Time is running out and at this point, I’m just hoping for a miracle. Maybe some drastic
event, such as a car crash, fire, possibly a massive explosion of the earth, will take over
March 26 so I won’t have to play. Or a phenomenon where I instantly become the most
talented ukulele player the world has ever seen. I can picture it now…
When I first had to play for Mia, I was just as nervous as I am now, but looking back it
was no big deal. I’ll try to keep the “no big deal” mindset when I perform in front of my
family. I’m trying to stay calm, but I’m on the verge of flipping out. This is bad. This is
very very very bad. Oh no. I have to go soon they are all getting ready to hear me play.
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Whatever. Come on Ava, it’s no big deal. No big deal. Don’t psyche yourself out! AAAAA I have to
go now! Ok Ok Ok, I got this. I’ll let you know how it goes!
. . .
WOOHOOOO! It went pretty good! I messed up on some parts due to my nervousness, but
my performance wasn’t terrible! At the beginning of my show, I was super anxious and messed
up a lot, I just wanted to run under my bed and hide. But I stayed. And by the end of the first
song, I started getting the hang of it. Playing in front of others, I mean. I persevered
through the rest of my songs and I couldn’t be happier. Slowly, as I went through my
song lineup, little by little, my nerves disappeared. Now I feel as though I could
conquer anything, everything! I guess I’ll be back when my next adventure starts...
I found my next adventure. For my final MGE presentation, I have to play videos
that I overcame my fear of playing in front of others, I’m sure it will all turn out
alright. Now it’s more fun and exciting than scary. I’m glad I finally defeated my abyss
and can now truly enjoy playing the ukulele. Until next time!
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