She eat alone....

Look at her aunt, she wondering is it a peek to the future? If it continue like this will this be her future?
Eat alone in a empty restaurant. No one to be with. No one to be long with. Just her.

She look out of the window, at the crowded street outside. Jealouse of them, their pace, their laugh.

They don't have to describe her with words cause their eyes already told her about it. Fat, Ugly, only
worth when they have no other choice. She lie with her smile, she hide behind her laugh. It's okay, she
wanted to believe that word. But no, its not okay because its hurt, a lot.

Words can hurt better than sword. When you can see the blood caused by the sword, you can't see the
blood caused by the words. When the pain caused by sword can heal by the medicine, the pain caused
by words don't have the medicine to heal it. Even time can't heal it. It just root on the soul, kill it slowly.
Leave her with rage and pain. Words and human is scary for her. Human is scary. Time and time she told
herself dn't let them get into you. Other than yourself, ICHA, others is STRANGER. Its better alone than
hurt. Her heart can't take it, she affraid of being hurt, she affraid to let peoplenear her heart. She want to
cry now, her heart hurt, but she can't let them see it. Can't let them see her pain. Keep calm, Cha. Keep
calm, Cha. You can do it. You can do it. You can do it. You can do it. You can do it. You can do it. You can
do it. You can do it. You can do it. You can do it. You can do it. You can do it. You can do it. Keep calm,
Keep calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm,
Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep
Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm,
Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep
Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm,
Keep Calm Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, Keep Calm, she keep told herself
that over and over again.

Silence...

She love it... Want it as the silence make her calm.

They said there is no voice, no sound in it but she heard different voice in it. The birds, the people, the
wind, the earth. She heard them loudly in the silence. Love how they calm her and lull her mind to the
land of fantasy. Where she create her hero and heroine and play with their faith. It didn't mean that she
want to be God, no thats not what she want. But its the pleasure that she can create their life to be the
one she only can have in her dream. For the heroine To meet some man like the hero and have their own
story. She love to imagine them and feel happy when they became real on everywords she write, happy
that they didn't exist only in her mind because others can meet them in every chapter she told them.

But there's a sad fact in her silence because the world she create in it can't be told to them, she affraid
they will laugh at it, riddicule it, Or worse take it away from her because its Unworthy....

So, she keep the sillence, stay in sillence and create her world.