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AN END OF A SEARCH
This is my story. But it is not only my story. It is the
story of God’s goodness to me: how He loved me and
showed me His great salvation. Let me tell you the
story!

PREFACE

This book is written as a statement of testimony to the magnificent


love and grace of God, which He has so mercifully displayed in my life.
Let it never be interpreted as an affront to Islam. I love the Muslim
people (as my Lord loves them). My purpose is to exalt and glorify God,
the father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who opened my spiritual eye. I can
serve no other, for in Jesus, I have found the Truth. (As a matter of
fact, I am not supposed to be alive.)


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My childhood

On Friday, July 15th, 1951, 1 was born into the family of a Mullah (a Muslim religious
leader) in the small village of Cherukunnu, five miles from Malappuram, Kerala, and South India.
My family was respected by the whole community for its integrity of life, piety and strict observances
of religious rites and ceremonies. One of my father’s main tasks was to conduct Arabic Qur’an
readings and teachings in the homes of his parish. But he did not neglect teaching his own family.

I can still recall sitting on my father’s lap after evening prayer, hearing him recite the Qur’an
and learning from him. The daily routine of the family began with early Morning Prayer and
recitations from the Qur’an, and the duties of the day ended with further Qur’anic recitations and
prayer. The strict discipline of our parents in these matters also permeated the atmosphere of our
home.

When I was five years old, I was sent to the nearest Madrasa (Muslim religious school) to
learn Arabic and to study Islamic doctrine and the Qur’an, along with regular education. After five
years of this study I was sent to a regular school at Kottakal, two miles from home, where I studied
for a year and a half. However, I could not complete my education for reasons that will become clear.
An eventful day

One Saturday, the market day at Kottakal, when my friends and I were returning home from
school, we saw a large crowd gathered at the market gate. Christians who were preaching their faith
attracted the crowd. They were teaching episodes in the life of Jesus with the help of flannel-graph
and were distributing Christian literature. At first, we laughed at the Christians and mocked them.
But when they started selling their books, we also bought two booklets. I purchased a booklet called
The Heart of Pak, while my friend got one entitled The Way of Salvation. On the way home, while we
were talking about the booklets and about Christians, my friend tore his copy into pieces. Although I
held a bad attitude (from the Madrasa) about the Christians, whom we Muslims call ‘Nasrani’, I kept
my booklet.

When I reached home, an inner force made me to take the ‘Heart of Pak’ to a quiet place and
I started to read it. It had a good conversation between a Christian and a youth, and contained a nice
story. But, as I read, I wondered whether Yesus of this booklet was the same ‘Isa’ (Jesus) in whom
we Muslims believe as a prophet. To my mind Jesus of this booklet differed from Yesus of the Qur’an
and Islamic faith, for this booklet portrayed Jesus as able to forgive sins. Yet this very forgiveness of
Jesus, which made the boy a better boy, increased my love for Yesus.

When the conversation in the booklet focused upon the sad spiritual condition of the youth’s
heart, I felt as though the Christian was addressing me too. In fact, I considered that my heart was
in a worse condition than the heart of this youth, and I wondered how I could find freedom from this
spiritual disease and obtain peace and hope. Though the booklet offered the cure, I rejected it
because my Islamic faith allowed that Allah alone, and not Jesus the prophet, could forgive sins.

Nevertheless, I could not free myself from the strength of the booklet’s argument. It
awakened within me an uncomfortable reality of my sinful nature. What then would be my lot at the
time of death, punishment in the grave and on the Day of Judgment, from neither of which there is
an escape? I resolved to study more about Yesus with the help of a correspondence course advertised
in this booklet.
Correspondence course:

The correspondence course center (Voice of Prophecy) promptly sent the course materials.
But, unfortunately, the postman gave it to my uncle to give it to me. He opened it and discovered its

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Christian content. The next day he showed it to my father and other uncles. They decided to end this
study before it began!

That same evening when I came back from school, my father tied me to a pillar of our house
veranda and beat me with a stick until I became weak. The next morning, he called me and spoke
lovingly to me. He said: “We Muslims should not read such books. They are haram (forbidden),
especially the books of Christians. Because their books are so attractive, we too will become
Christians if we read them. What then will happen to our family? It will affect our whole life. Our
community will reject us and it will be a curse upon Islam.” I promised my father that I would never
again read these books.

I tore up the booklet and burnt it, cursing myself for failing to do what my friend had earlier
done with his book. From that time, I became very devoted to my religious duties. I can still
remember how I delighted in the regular daily prayers and even the optional prayers in addition.
Yet, as the days went by, I lacked peace of mind whenever I recalled the booklet and pondered the
condition of my heart.

How could I forget the name ‘Isa’ when I frequently confronted it during my recitation of the
Qur’an between the sunset and night prayer! This also encouraged me to make a study of Isa in the
Qur’an and in other Muslim books at hand, such as the Qisas ul- Ambiya. Despite my limited
knowledge of Arabic, I persevered in this task with the help of Yusuf Mawlawi, who teaches me in an
Arabic college near our house and a close family friend. I found that ‘Isa’ has a very important place
both in the Qur’an and in the Hadhith (Muslim tradition) it seemed to me, even more so than my
prophet Muhammad! Soon both the mawlawi and my family became, suspicious about my desire to
learn more about Yesus, they gently suggested that I concentrate more on Muhammad. Yet I
continued to wonder about those Qur’anic passages, which referred to Yesus, His unique birth and
His marvelous deeds.

“(And remember) when the angels said: O Mary! Lo! Allah gives thee glad tidings of a word
from Him, whose name is the Messiah, Yesus, son of Mary, illustrious in the world and the hereafter,
and one of those brought near (unto Allah). He will speak unto mankind in his cradle and in his
manhood, and he is of the righteous. She said: My Lord! How can I have a child when no mortal hath
touched me?

He said: so (it will be). Allah creates what He will. If He decrees a thing, He saith unto it
only: Be! And it is. And He will teach him the Scripture and wisdom, and the Torah and the Gospel.
And will make him a messenger unto the Children of Israel, (saying): Lo! I come unto you with a sign
from your Lord. Lo! I fashion for you out of clay the likeness of a bird, and I breathe into it and it is a
bird alive, by Allah’s leave. I heal him who was born blind, and the leper, and I raise the dead, by
Allah’s leave. And I announce unto you what ye eat and what ye store up in your houses. Lo! Herein
verily is an indication for you, if ye are to be believers. And (I come) confirming that which was
before me of the Torah, and to make lawful some of that which was forbidden unto you I come unto
you with a sign from your Lord, so keep your duty to Allah and obey me” (3:45-50; cf 5:110; 19:16-34;)

I noted also that the Qur’an refers especially to the Tawrat (Old Testament) and the Injil
(New Testament), exhorting men to believe in them because they are “guidance and a light” (5.46).
Another verse in particular came to my mind often:

“And if thou are in doubt (Muhammad) concerning that which we reveal unto thee, then
question those who read the Scripture before thee…” (10:95,cf 21:7, 16:43, 44;)

When I read this verse, I remembered the Christians and the booklet. According to Islam,
Christians is also ahl ul-kitab (the people of the Book). If the Qur’an encouraged Muhammad to
share his doubts with Christians, then why not me? Yet I felt the difficulty of approaching
Christians, with whom I had so little contact. My family would hardly approve!

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In Malappuram there is a Christian Mission Hospital (Christian welfare center). One day a
friend, Abdullah, and I determined to go there secretly. On our arrival, the hospital pharmacist, Mr.
KunjuKunju, directed us to the missionary, Roland E.Miller. We were young and nervous, and did
not know what to expect. But the missionary greeted us in a friendly way and made us feel at ease.

After some discussion, the missionary suggested that we attend Sunday school classes and
directed us to the Christian mission reading-room at Kottappady. There we met Mr. George, the
reading room in charge. Later he became my close friend, who helped me in various predicaments.
He enrolled me in a correspondence course based on the Gospel according to St. John (Light of Life).
Both Abdullah and I attended Sunday school for some weeks without the knowledge of our parents.
Sometimes George kindly gave us bus fare; sometimes we walked the five-mile distance. On one
occasion some of our neighbors caught us. When they questioned Abdullah and beat him, he finally
revealed our secret activity.

Next evening, when I returned from school, I saw my mother and younger sister crying, they
knew that my father had already prepared something for me. As I entered in to the house, my father
suddenly appeared shouting. He caught me, tied me, laid me near a wall, beat me and rubbed
grounded green chilly on my eyes and in my face, all the while asking why I approached Christians
and read Christian literature. My mother fainted seeing the scene, after some time with the help of a
neighbor old woman (T.P.Kunjipathuma) and my sister-in-law (Asiya), I was taken to a water pond
and washed.

The following morning my father called me and asked me to repeat the Muslim creed: “I
testify that there is no God but Allah and I testify Muhammad is the apostle of Allah”. He led me
through the recitation. Then he warned me about Christianity, its false teaching about Yesus
Christus, the corruption of the Holy Injil and the bad lives of Christians. He asked my sister-in-law
to burn all my Christian books, which she did. All this affected me greatly and I cried bitterly. I had
no peace of mind, for my opportunity to learn more about Jesus from the Injil and from Christian
friends had been frustrated.

When I went to the place where I burnt the ‘Heart of Pak’, I sorely regretted the destruction
of the booklet. As I recalled the conversation in the booklet, the same tension once more confronted
me: the youth’s joyful experience of forgiveness and the heavy burden of sin and fear of death, and so
the punishment in the grave, judgment and eternal punishment, which lay upon my heart. As a
Muslim, I had learned that we ourselves are responsible for our sins, that no burdened soul can bear
another’s burden (Qur’an 6:165). How then, could Jesus forgive anyone? Nevertheless, I prayed to
God for further guidance.

An awareness of my own sinfulness, fear of death and judgment, never left me. It gnawed at
my heart continually. After two weeks again I felt a strong desire to see my Christian friends, with
whom I could share my difficulties and doubts. The missionary encouraged me and answered my
questions about Christian beliefs and practices. Most of his answers satisfied me because he knew
the Qur’an and Muslim faith.

I returned home with a copy of the holy Injil (New testament), which my friend, Mr. George,
had presented me. Although I was very happy to receive it, I feared that somebody from my house
might see it. So I put the Injil in a plastic bag and hid it under a stone in a forest. I often went to the
forest to read it, especially the Gospel according to St. John. One verse, a quotation of Jesus, gave me
some consolation:

“Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in me!” (John 14:1).

The words, “Believe also in Me,” impressed themselves upon me at that time. In the midst of
my anxiety this verse comforted my troubled heart.

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The next Sunday, while on my way to the Sunday school, I noticed my uncle on the same bus.
I trembled at the thought of what my father would do to me after my uncle reported to him.
Nevertheless, I attended Sunday school and spent some time with the missionary.

Before I met my new Christian friends, I had been strongly prejudiced against Christians
because I had heard so much that was derogatory of them. Yet when I watched the missionary’s
character, his way of life and his attitude toward Muslims, I found that the accusations I had heard
against Christians certainly did not apply to him. But the Qur’anic statement saying, “And thou wilt
surely find the nearest of them in love to the believers are those who say, ‘We are Christians’; that,
because some of them are priests and monks, and they wax not proud!” This made me think! Was his
love greater than that of Muslims? Had the Messiah Yesus done more for him than my prophet had
done for us? I was confused, for I held the opinion that apart from Muslims anyone else, including
the Nazranes who believe that God is the Messiah, is a kafir (unbeliever) and is rejected by Allah, as
the Qur’an says:

“They surely disbelieve who say: Lo! Allah is the Messiah, son of Mary. Messiah (himself)
said: O Children of Israel, worship Allah, my Lord and your Lord. Lo! Whoso ascribes partners unto
Allah, for him Allah hath forbidden Paradise. His abode is the Fire. For evildoers there will be no
helpers.

They surely disbelieve who say: Lo! Allah is the third of three: when there is no God save the
One Allah. If they desist not from so saying a painful doom will fall on those of them who disbelieve”
(5:72-73).

*I remembered also, how I had thought that I, as a member of the Muslim community, who
had submitted myself to God was holier than Christians. But as the awareness of my own sinfulness
increased, I realized that the missionary was the one who submitted to God, for his character proved
it. I could tell that his love came from Yesus Christus, just as ‘The Heart of Pak’ described it. Like a
magnet, the love of Yesus attracted me. I thought that if Yesus were my master too, how I would love
him! Yet, when the idea of becoming a Christian crossed my mind, I rejected it as an evil thought of
Satan—for I am a Muslim.

I returned from Malappuram with great fear. I was ready to accept whatever my father did
to me, but for two days nothing happened. On the third day, after school, when I came home, my
father caught me and threw me into a bush. With the help of a stick, he subjected, yes, almost mortal
punishment, and subjected me to a severe. My mother was also beaten when she came to rescue me.
It was only by the grace of God that I recovered. Again, I confessed the Muslim creed and promised
my father that I would have no more contact with Christians. Was my confession only an escape
from further punishment!

Because my friend, Abdullah, had spread this news throughout the area, my life became very
distressed. People mocked me, called me names and even threw stones at me. On the way home from
school, they said. “There goes the cursed one!” and “Here comes Mathai, the Nasrani!” Even
relatives, friends and teachers treated me cruelly. I was perplexed and weary, lonely and troubled.
During this period, the Holy Injil was my constant companion. I used to go to the forest to read and
study it, whenever I found opportunity. “These things I have spoken to you, that in me you may have
peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world” (Jn.16:
33).

Again, the old tension arose in my heart as I read the Gospel in secret. As vital points its
contents simply differed from my Islamic beliefs. How perplexing for a Muslim and yet how
challenging for me the following words of Jesus!

“I am the Way, and the Truth, and the Life; no one comes to the Father but by me” (John
14:6).

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“And this is eternal life that they know Thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom Thou
hast sent” (John 17:3).

“If a man loves me, he will keep my words, and my Father will love him; and we will come to
him and make our home with him” (John 14:23).

“All that the Father gives me will come to me, and the one who comes to me I will by no
means cast out” (John 6:37).

I had access to no one who could explain these verses to me. Yet I continued to pray God for
guidance.

Chained by love
The pain and wounds of my body were healed, but the marks produced by the love of the
Christians and the effects of the booklet remained. I felt something forcing me to renew this
fellowship and decided to meet my friends again. As I set out, relatives and neighbors saw me, and I
feared the consequences. In fact, I decided to leave that place. When I reached the home of the
missionary, I shared my problems with him. Showing the scars of the wounds, I asked him to help
me to go to Mysore, where I had a married sister. My sister loved me, and she and her husband
would receive me kindly. The missionary, however, advised me to return home. He told me that after
I became older, I could leave and that until then I should live quietly at home and, growing in faith
and love, influence my family and friends. God, he said, would be my Savior, protector and Friend.
At that time, I was in the seventh grade (standard).

Since it was evening and because I had fear, I pleaded for permission to stay overnight in the
Christian reading room. I stayed there an extra day with my friend, Mr. George. Knowing I was
there, some people from my area came with police to get me. They asked George to give me up and
even accused him of kidnapping me. He replied: “Alavi is here, of his own accord. You can take him
but do not beat him anymore.” When some Muslims came to the support of their Christian friends in
the reading room, a quarrel started among the Muslims themselves. While the dispute was going on,
I ran away through the back door, escaped to a field and jumped into a water canal, pretending as if
I was taking a bath.

After a while some Muslims came and found me, and took me to a Muslim reading room
called ‘Mappila Nadu’ where they asked various questions, shouted at me, and treated me cruelly.
During this time, my mother had been searching for me at various places where my relatives lived.
Just at this moment my brother’s brother-in-law found me and rescued me from my captures and he
took me home. As soon as we reached home, my father sent my younger sister Kadeeja (kawja) to call
my uncles. By this time a crowd of people had gathered in front of my house.
When they (uncles) had all come together, my father asked each one: “what shall we do with
Alavi? We have tried our best to keep him away from Christian influence. What else can we do?” The
first uncle advised my father to kill me by cutting my throat, by reciting a Qur anic reference (5:33).
The second said the same, even more decisively. The third had a different idea. He suggested death
by starvation. If they would kill me as the first and second uncle had said, the whole family would go
to jail. Then my mother cried out: “kill me first and then my son!” this made me also cry bitterly. I
could not express the pain and fear that was in my heart while I wondered what they would do. The
group accepted the advice of the third uncle. One of my uncles then beat me cruelly until stopped by
my father. My father tied my hands behind my back and I remained that way for three weeks. He
ordered that I should be given food only once a day, but in his absence my mother gave me food at
other times.

One day my father and his younger brother came home along with a blacksmith. My uncle
asked me to confess the Muslim creed again before my father. The words would not come out of my
mouth. My mother, sisters and others shouted at me to recite it, but still I could not. I do not know

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what happened to me. I could not speak. Finally, as ordered, the blacksmith placed two iron shackles
and a chain on my legs, and locked it. I was chained in this manner for the next six weeks. My
former friend, Abdullah, who had torn his booklet, visited me and asked me what had made me to do
this. He knew that it was the booklet! I did not answer him. But as I lay chained, I remembered the
words of the Holy Injil:

“Let not your heart be troubled: you believe in God, believe also in me. And you shall know
the Truth, and the Truth shall make you free” ( Jn.14.1, 8.32).

While I looked at my chains, was I mocking myself in recalling these words of Jesus?
Perhaps under such pressure one best experiences the comfort of Jesus. They were and are words of
comfort and hope to all true disciples, He knew my heart, my sorrows, and He also knew my growing
faith in him, “Most assuredly, I say unto you, he who hears My words and believes in Him who sent
Me has everlasting life and shall not come in to judgment, but has passed from death in to life” He
was very near to me, even more so than when I secretly read these words from the Injil in the forest.
God delivers me

After six weeks, I escaped with the help of a cousin on my mother’s side. One day, when no
one else was at home, he broke open the chains. Thereafter I was allowed to be free, since no one
wanted to chain me again. In fact, my family and relatives treated me kindly. For two weeks, I
remained at home. Yet I wondered why I should live in a home and a community that created more
fear in my heart than peace. I resolved to leave.

One day, after my noon meal, I looked at my mother’s face and my eyes filled with tears-for
my mother did not know my plan. It was my farewell to my home. I told my mother that I was going
to take a bath in the pond and left the house. (May God forgive me for telling this and other lies I
never should have told!)? I walked nearly ten miles to a railway station (Tirur) and caught a train to
the city of Kozhikode (Calicut), 30 miles away. There I became a wanderer, seeking a job. Finally, I
found work in a teashop’s owner (Chelavoor 6/3 Makkoor Bavukka) to teach Qur’an to his children as
well as to help in his teashop. But my life continued to be very unsettled.

Later I learned that during my imprisonment, the Christians at Malappuram were sharing
my sufferings. They were praying for me and trying to find some way to help me, but could not. In
the meantime, voices over the loudspeaker were attacking my Christian friends by name. Muslim
religious leaders commanded the people to stay away from the Christian Mission Compound and to
withdraw their children from the nursery school. Guards were posted at the compound gates to
ensure obedience. Muslims were allowed to enter only to obtain treatment at the Christian
dispensary (CWC). However, the situation returned normal, through another loudspeaker someone
proclaimed: “Let us cease troubling the Christians and pay more attention to the words of Allah!”
After some weeks, the trouble ended.

Even though the teashop owner, a Muslim, did not like it, I enrolled in another Bible
correspondence course and continued to work in this teashop for five months. Then I left Calicut and
went to my sister’s home in Mysore. From there I wrote a letter to Mr. George, who informed my
other friends. This was the first news they have heard that God had delivered me from my chains. I
closed my letter with the words: “I am alright. I am always praying the Lord’s prayer.”

After working a year at Mysore with my brother-in-law and another 18 months on a


merchant ship out of Calicut, I returned to Malappuram. Again, I met George and enjoyed the
fellowship of Rev. and Mrs. Chellayyan, who were happy to see me. I could not meet the missionary
because he had gone to furlough. From there I returned to Mysore, where my brother-in-law again
engaged me to help in his hotel. Through his recommendation I obtained an apprentice post as a
lineman in the telegraph department. But then another misfortune struck. Hip trouble compelled me
to give up this job.

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I decided to return to Malabar for medical treatment. By this time Mr. George was working
in a mission hospital ‘Karunalaya’, Wandoor. He helped me to obtain a medical examination. The
missionary, who meanwhile had come back to India, was very happy to see me and asked about all
that happened to me while I was in chains and during my wanderings. He told me of the many
people who had been praying for me. He then gave me an introduction to another missionary the
Rev. and Mrs. Henry J. Otten who could help me with my physical problem. I was very happy to
meet these new friends. Later they became my spiritual parents. With the help of this missionary
and a Missionary doctor, Dr. Jhon Rittman, I was able to go to the C.M.C. Hospital in Vellore for
treatment.

After I returned from the CMC hospital, I joined the India Every Home Crusade ministry in
Mysore and other parts of Karnataka for three months. In this way, I could distribute tracts and
share the good news of Christ. When my sister and brother-in-law (who are in Mysore) came to know
about this, however, they were angry and prohibited me from coming to their house. The missionary
then helped me to stay with a Christian pastor, Rev. Parameswaran, and his family at Gundulupet.
It was a wonderful experience to be with them and to have the opportunity to study Christian
doctrine for four months. After this I joined a book mobile project of the India Evangelical Lutheran
Church, and for one year distributed Christian literature in various parts of South India. God was
leading me into His service.

As I was eager to study the Bible more intensively, I joined a one-year Bible course at
‘Concordia Seminary’ Nagercoil, in June 1970. I remember what a joy I experienced to have this
opportunity to study the Bible! In the Seminary library, I also found many good books on Islam, with
the help of which I was able to clear many of my doubts.
ADVANCED STUDIES:
Inherited sin:

Muslims generally have rejected the idea of inherited SIN and so they have rejected the need
for a savior, but the Qur’an and Tradition are not free from its consequences. According to Islam,
Adam is the first prophet, and so Qur’an says Adam was thrown out of paradise, because he sinned
“But Satan whispered evil to him, and they ate of the tree thus Adam disobeyed his Lord and went
astray” (20:120-121)

Usually Adam and Eve are used in the dual form of verb in the Qur’anic usage in Arabic. But
in (2:38, 36) ‘ihbitoo minha jamee an’ (instead of dual form) we see the plural-form “Go down from
hence all of you.” This passage clearly indicates that Adam’s descendents were also included in this
of his Sin and the punishment. Adam disobeyed his Lord and went astray. (20:121) This fact is
directly approved by the following Tradition (Thirmithi).
“Adam forgot and ate of the tree and his offspring forgot and Adam Sinned and so his
offspring Sinned.”

Another tradition says: “Anas reported that the Apostle of Allah said: Every son of Adam is a
sinner, and the best of sinners are those who repent constantly” (Tirmizi, Ibnumaja, Darimi)

“All mankind (and jinn) are born in darkness” (Q. 30:30) does not prove that man is innocent
from birth. Man is created in haste (21:37). Man was made anxious (70:19). Lo! Man is an ingrate
unto his Lord. And lo! He is a witness unto that” (100.6,7).

Bible says, (Rom. 5:12, 18) Adam was the head of the human race. By natural birth we all
are his descendants. When Adam the head of our race sinned, death passed upon all because all
sinned in Adam, sin entered the entire human race and all died in his loins, his sin corrupted his
seed, Adam’s sin brought death, so death spread to everyone, for everyone sinned.”

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I have been wondering why in every nation, every tribe, every family, the rich and the poor,
the white and the dark, the educated and uneducated, all participate in the ruin of man? I realized
that it must be because we all have a common origin in Adam. All share a common heritage—the
ruin of man. Since then, with one exception, every human being that has been or will be born of
woman is born in sin (Ps.51: 5;)

The one exception is Jesus Christ who was born of the Virgin Mary. Who remained a virgin
until after the birth of Jesus? (Lk1.26, 38).

This fact is supported by a Hadhith, which says:

“Each human baby is touched by Satan’s finger at birth, save Maryam and her Son”. Again,
Abu Huraira said: “I heard Allah’s Messenger saying, there is none born among the offspring of
Adam, but Satan touches it. A child therefore, cries loudly at the time of birth because of the touch of
Satan, except Mary and her child.”
Seeking Salvation in Islam: On how shall I get to heaven?
What can bring me to Paradise and keep me away from hell? (Escape from hell’s torment to
heaven’s delight?)

The Qur’an states: “O my people how is it that I bid you to salvation but that ye bid me to the
fire? (40:41). “Every soul will taste of death and ye will be paid on the day of resurrection only that
which ye have fairly earned. Whoso is removed from the Fire and is made to enter paradise, he
indeed is triumphant. The life of this world is but comfort of illusion” (3:185). Here salvation is
contrasted with hell and is primarily concerned with the escape from hell.

In Islam, it is difficult to frame any doctrine of salvation. Such matters as the forgiveness of
God, His grace and favor, His guidance and predestination, must all be taken into consideration
when we try to understand the Muslim position.

And the Qur’an suggests many assumptions of salvation in its own ways, like: salvation by
the will of Allah, by the mercy of Allah, by faith and work, martyrdom and intercession.

Faith is always prerequisite, but in Islam it does not give an assurance that man is saved by
faith alone? No Muslim can say for sure, “I am saved,” but he might say. “I am saved, if Allah wills.”
There is not an answer for this in Islam; belief is rather than trust, intellectual acceptance rather
than loving confidence.

Salvation in Islam is escape from hell and the entry into pleasure-laden paradise and that
does not begin now for the Muslim, but rather may only be attained at some future date when God’s
judgment is finally declared.
But the Christians teach that salvation means deliverance from sin and therefore from sin’s
curse, death and hell; this salvation begins now and continues eternally to the service and praise of
God.
Here is a very important fact that made me to comprehend that Muslims ought know that
while belief in God is possible to any man, faith becomes saving faith only when it lays hold of the
saving God. Trust in God is possible only to those who know that God is trustworthy. Faith looks up,
not simply to the God who is, but to the God who is reaching down to save. Who is the saving God
who inspires such trust? He is the God who sends a Savior.

In Jesus Christ, God has reached down to save. For he was in Christ, reconciling the world to
himself. In this saving God faith will become trust. And because the trust is in the saving God such
trust will save. The true point of comparison is that, for the Christian salvation by faith means
justification by faith, God justifying man in Christ, and man receiving that work of grace in humble
trust.

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Here the Christian message came to me is that, salvation must be by faith alone, and for it is
through faith alone that reality is served in the realm of salvation. Sinful man can really do nothing
towards his salvation. He is in the bondage of sin, and sin’s curse, blindness and death, is upon him.
Only God can really save. He only can justify. He only is the loving Creator who can re-create that
which we have lost. Faith is the link that connects our inability and rebelliousness with God’s ability
and mercy. For the Holy Bible says: by grace are ye saved, through faith, and that not of yourselves,
it is the gift of God.

The Christians will not say, as Muslims “We believe in God, if God wills.” In Jesus Christ we
know that God wills all men to be saved and to come to the knowledge of the truth. Faith trusts
firmly that to any man who grasps the hem of His garment power will go out from the Lord. Rather,
therefore, the Christian’s prayer is: “Lord, I believe, help thou mine unbelief.”
MARTYRDOM

And Muhammad declares: “O ye who believe, shall I lead you to a merchandise that shall
save you from grievous woe? – To believe in God and His messenger, and to fight hard in God’s cause
with your property and your persons” (61:10). Allah loves those who fight in His way in ranks as
though they were a building well compacted (61.4). So Let them fight in the way of Allah who sell the
present life for the world to come, and whosoever fights in the way of Allah and is slain or conquers,
we shall bring him a mighty wage. The slain on Allah’s path are living. Death in His path better
than wealth (3.151), rewarded by paradise (47.5); if you do so (jihad), he will forgive your sins and
will admit you in gardens of eternity, that is indeed the great success (61.12). Fight them until there
is no persecution and the religion is Allah’s entirely (2.193). It is not for any prophet to have
prisoners until he makes wide slaughter in the land (8.67). When you meet the non-Muslim, smite
their necks; then when you have made wide slaughter among them, make fast the bonds (47.4).

At this point it may be proper to notice that the only work that automatically qualifies a
Muslim for immediate entry into Paradise. That work is martyrdom, fighting and dying for Islam.
After urging on his followers to fight for God, Muhammad promised: “And repute not those slain on
God’s path to be dead. Nay, alive are they with their Lord richly sustained”. (Al-Thirmithi and Ibn
Maja report) that the martyr has six privileges with God: his sins are pardoned when the first drop
of blood falls; he is shown his seat in Paradise; he is safe from the punishment of grave and secure
from the great terror; a crown of dignity is placed on his head; he is married to seventy dark-eyed
virgins; and he makes intercession for seventy of his relatives. Mohammed said anyone whose feet
are covered with dust in Allah’s cause would be forbidden from the hell-fire. The souls of the martyrs
are in the bodies of green birds dwelling in paradise wherever they like. That all their sins and faults
are forgiven. That he will come secure on the day of resurrection from the great terror. That he will
not feel the agonies and distress of death. The great gathering will not horrify that he will not feel
the pain of the killing, except like that of a pinch. And whosoever act as an escort in Allah’s cause,
his eyes will never near the fire. And that a day spent while one is in jihad for Allah’s cause is better
than the world and what is in it (9.38-44 Kitab-I-qadar). As Holy war is an indispensable part of the
Sharia and will remain alive and active until the entire world submits to the kingdom of Allah. Islam
in essence means Holy war.

Intercession provides the last hope to uneasy minds. Intercession in Islamic sense it is like
advocacy in a court. But according to The Qur’an, no one can intercede-except with God’s permission,
only those acceptable to God can have intercession offered in his or her behalf. “The day when no
soul shall have power (to do) anything for command that day will be with God, (82:19) and he will
say what is right. Here Qur’an speaks truly when it says that intercession is wholly with God; His is
the kingdom of the heavens and the earth.”

“And those unto whom they cry instead of Him possess no power of intercession, saving him
who beareth witness unto the Truth knowingly” (Qur an 43.86). “They will have no power of the
intercession, save him who hath made a covenant with his Lord” (19.87).

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Christ died for us. God’s new covenant is the salvation covenant in Christ’s blood. This is the
unspeakable gift of God in Christ. Such teaching about a covenant of grace, whereby God seeks out
sinful men and redeems them by divine sacrifice, could find no place within the contest of Islam.

The person, who is to receive intercession [rescue], must be acceptable to God. “Intercession
only by who bear witness to the Truth” (20.109). Who is that person who bears witness to the Truth?
The Bible says: “For this cause I was born, and for this cause I have come to this world, that I should
bear witness to the Truth. Everyone who is of the Truth hears my voice” (John 18.37).

“Every soul earns only to its own account; no soul bears the load of another” No soul shall
labor [except] for itself, and no burdened one shall bear another’s burden (35:18,6.164; 17.15; 39.7;
53.38,). Then how can prophet even Mohammed or anyone of these prophets’ bear another’s burden?

Intercession must come from God, not from man. There is no man worthy to intercede with
God. Even Mohammed cannot intercede for his believing followers, who whole heartedly followed
him leaving everything behind. Instead the Qur’an says, “God and His angels pray for the Prophet,
(Mohammed) and you who believe, pray for him and ask for his salvation” (33.56).

God Himself must provide the intercessor, His word. Jesus Christ is not a pleader come from
man to God. He is God the Father’s own Advocate, sent from above to seek our release. By His
coming we see that God is a God at hand, and not a God afar off. We need seek no human mediators,
for there is no one closer to our needs and us than the God of Love.”* We need intercession with God
because we dare not appear before the judge in the garment of sin. Seeking for another’s help a rare
opportunity for the message that God in Christ has provided our intercessor? Our need is far-
reaching. We require the intercessor because we are completely under the wrath of the holy God.

The Muslim has no hope of an eternal life, which involves participation in the divine
nature. In Islam Conception of salvation does not include the element of regeneration, or
transformation.

The Qur-an declares: “And who so shall obey God and the apostle these shall be those to
whom God hath been blessed” (4:71), but His mercy is not for sinners, for “verily, He loves not the
misbelievers” (30:44). “God loves not deceitful sinners” (4:107), the arrogant (16.25) the unbelieving
traitor (22.39) those who exult (28.76) evildoers (28.77) the miserly (4.41) the corrupt (5.69)
transgressors (5.89) the extravagant (7.29) the treacherous (8.60) Allah loves not the wrong doers
(3.140)

Forgiveness and acceptance are determined purely by the prerogative of Allah. His mercy is
conditioned by his determination to fill Hell with men and jinn. And if We had so willed, we could
have given every soul its guidance, but the word from Me is in effect: “That I will fill hell with the
Jinn and mankind together”33.13) (cf 36:7,50:30; 11.119;) There are quite a few references, which
says, guidance of human wholly depends on the will of Allah and His choice. “Thy Lord creates
whatsoever He will and He chooses; ( for ye have no choice) they have not the choice (28.68,56,cp,
6.107; 89.28; 11.106,107). Do you wish to guide those who Allah hath lead astray? Whoso Allah hath
led astray ye shall not find for him a path. Glory be to God! High be He exalted that they associate!
And thy Lord knows what their, breast conceal and what they publish”.

There are numerous references with Allah as the subject. Man is the subject a few in all.
Allah’s misleading is worse than that of devil for who is misled by Satan may be rescued but there is
no guide for him whom Allah leads astray. (The vanity of human wishes, even for man’s good, when
the divine thwart) Allah does not desire to guide many human rights, and then inflicts eternal
painful punishment on those humans for not being guided aright Allah’s lack of desire for the
mankind in explicit affirmed! (8:55,76:30,81:29,10:99,100).

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O’ what a miserable I felt?

Threatening eternal painful punishments for those whom Allah chooses not guided. Allah
misleads then there is no guide (4:88,143,7:186); and such man’s resort is hell (17:97); Allah, like
Satan in the Qur’an (28.15), is given the title of ‘the Misleader’ (mudill). Allah is said to lead men
astray. Still worse, Allah is said to have created a multitude of spirits and of men expressly for
torture in such a hell as only the Qur’an and tradition can paint. Even for true believers there is no
sure hope. And all such misleading leads to man’s destruction. Every one of the believers must enter
hell too. “There is not one of you but shall enter in to it (Hell). That is a fixed ordinance of thy Lord”
(19:71). All good and all evil come directly from Allah. Before the awful power of Allah, man in no
more than the merest insect.

Everything therefore depends on the will of Allah; He does with him what he wills. To resist
God is impossible, to question him absurd. And love him is an idea that would never occur to the
Muslim’s concept of Allah. No one can refuse His command. And no one can delay His decree and the
creature has no refuge from his Sin except by Allah’s tawfeeq (assistance). Why should sin grieve
Allah, when it is all His creation?

Allah even sends devil against to the unbelievers in order to drive them into sin. “We shall
confuse their hearts and eyes” (19.83; 6:110). If the people practice unbelief and persistence in
polytheism had already been pre-ordained what purpose had been served by Allah’s appointment of
a man to preach to them and guide them aright? Can a useless action be attributed to God in the
same verse of (6:111,112)? The inescapable conclusion is that these people were not going to believe
because Allah did not wish them to believe. If Allah so willed they would not have been polytheist
(6.107). Surly Almighty Allah’s humble creation cannot change His will, not even Mohammed could
dissuade from polytheism. Why, then, were they threatened with punishment after death?

After reading all these verses from the Qur’an I felt that the Qur’an itself is Allah’s
deception. “If Allah will”—hearts thrill with fear at the recital of His signs. The speech of Allah in
the Qur’an is of his wile and is designed to lead men astray.

If Allah decrees all in the beginning then how does Allah enjoy afterwards a complete and
uncertain liberty in the exercise of his will? If Allah knew from the eternity the good and evil of all
things He then makes it a matter of foreknowledge and not a decree?

Amidst the many ways of salvation assumed In Islam, I could not see the way Mohammed
had promised to his followers: “Allah called to abode of peace” (10:25). But I have not found in the
possibilities offered a clear way to that abode and my inner unrest has not been stilled.
Even Mohammed cannot save?
It was difficult to avoid the contrast between Jesus’ sinlessness and the Qur’anic records of
the sins of the other prophets. Thus the Qur’an, addressing Muhammad in particular, says:

“That Allah may forgive thee of thy sin that which is past and that which is to come, and
may perfect His favor unto thee, and may guide thee on a right path” (48.1,2;cf 40:55; 47:19)
Accepting the truth of his sin he says in the tradition:

Abu Huraira reported that the Apostle of Allah said, “By Allah, I seek pardon of Allah and
return penitently to him every day more than 70 time”.

(Bukhari)

Even prophet Mohammed as a burdened, sinful person said to his people:

“O people of Quraish, be prepared for the hereafter I cannot save you from the punishment of
Allah, O banu Abdul manaf …I cannot protect you either, O Safia, aunt of the prophet, I cannot be
help to you, O Fathima, daughter of Mohammed even you I cannot save” (what can one say If

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Mohammed could not intercede for his only daughter, who is left) (Transmitted By: Bukhari and
Muslim)

Even Mohammed does not know what will happen to him or where he will spend his eternity.
“I am no new thing among the messengers, nor know I what will be done with me or with you. I do
but follow that which is inspired in me, and I am but a plain Warner”. (46:9)

Allah’s apostle said: “the deeds of anyone of you will not save you (from the hell fire)” They
said “Even you (will not be saved by your deeds) O Allah’s Apostle? He said, “No, even I will not be
saved unless and until Allah bestows His Mercy on me.” Therefore, do good deeds properly, sincerely
and moderately, and worship Allah in the forenoon and in the afternoon and during a part of the
night, and always adopt a middle, moderate regular course whereby you will reach your target.
(Bukhari 1.57 by Abdullah bin amr).

Muslims have understood that there is in Islam no satisfying way to God’s house and no
certainty that Muslims will ultimately be saved. Therefore a few peaceless hearts have been
compelled to regard this call to an “abode of peace” as a hollow mockery or an unattainable goal.
Anybody can see this despair in the funeral dirge of Islam, but also in the writings of tormented
Muslims. What can one say?

Mohammed the Prophet of Allah Prayed: “God! Wash me and cleanse me with snow.”

Aboo Backer is said to have cried in despair: “O God how shall I be saved for no good is in me,
and I am in full of iniquity; O would that I were like a bird and had not been created as a man”.

Omar as crying: “…I am not other than as a drowning man who sees a possibility of escape
with life, and hopes for it, but fears he may die and lose it, and so plunges about with hands and feet.
More desperate than the drowning man is he who at the sight of heaven and hell is buried in the
vision… Had I the whole East and West, gladly would I give up all to be delivered from this awful
terror that is hanging over me.” And finally touching his face in the ground he cried aloud: Alas for
Ummer, and alas for the mother of Ummer, if it should not please the lord to pardon me”.

Hassan of Basra said, “The man who reads the Qur’an and believes in it is generally filled
with trembling in this world, and much sorrow”

Abu Imran, a companion of Muhammad, said at the point of his death: “What peril can be
greater than mine? I must expect a messenger from my Lord, sent to announce to me either paradise
or hell. I declare solemnly, I would rather remain as I am now with my soul struggling in my throat
till the Day of Resurrection, than to undergo such a hazard.”

Am mar bin Abdullah, who spent days and nights in prayer, cried out in the stillness of the
night hours: “O my God the fire of hell robes me of sleep, O pardon my sins! The lot of man in this
world is care and sorrow, and in the next judgment and fire. O, where shall the soul find rest and
happiness? ).

Al-Hajjaj was one who therefore cried out: “Would that God… when he put us in this world
had made us in independent of the next and delivered us from anxiety about what will save us from
the punishment!”

An ascetic said: “The thought of death leaves the believer no joy, his knowledge of God’s laws
leaves him neither silver nor gold. His obedience to God’s commands leaves him no friend”. When
another lay dying and his friends visited him he said to them, “I have no hope though I have fasted
80 Ramadan”. * They have understood that there is in Islam no satisfying way to attain salvation
and no certainty that they will ultimately be saved.

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Where, indeed, but in him who says to tortured souls: “Come unto me, all ye that labor and
are heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. When He saw the crowds he had compassion for them,
because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd.

“For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? Or what
will a man give in exchange for his soul”?
Finding the Light

Islam will reduce all attributes of God to Will and Power, but God as revealed in Christ, is
defined in terms of Love and Holiness. Christianity says God is Love, and makes his will an
articulate expression of Love; and Power simply the handmaid of love. To the question, what is God
like, Christ taught us to say when we pray: Our Father who art in heaven…” He taught us that God
is like a shepherd who having a hundred sheep when he loses one, he leaves the ninety nine in the
wilderness and goes after that which is lost. He is like a father who when he sees his prodigal son
returning and while he is still far away off he has compassion on him, runs to welcome him home
and falling on his neck, kisses him. The search after God does not lead to a blank, a hopeless
negation, because the initiative in search after God is not from man, but from God. It is the shepherd
who goes after one lost sheep, and it is the father who runs to welcome his prodigal son. Such
experience in the life of every seeker after God is well expressed in a Christian hymn.

“I sought the lord, and afterward I knew


He moved my soul to seek Him, seeking me,

It was not I that found, O savior true,


No, I was found of thee”

I have not found a God like this in the lessons of the Qur’an or in the Hadhith—God Who is
Seeking after the sinners!

Here He is! The heavenly man! The elect one! Every requirement fulfills in Him!

A prophet without Sin, without burden bore witness to the Truth, who made covenant with
God, acceptable to God, statement of the Truth. All the requirements meet in Jesus only!.

Without a burden and who is holy, blameless and perfect? The one, who is not burdened with
the weight of His personal sin, has come to bear our burdens. He is the sinless Lamb of God who
bears the sins of many and made intercession for transgressors. He is an intercessor who not only
pleads, but He himself provides the adequate ground for His intercession. That ground is His Cross
whereby He has put away the sin and guilt of the world. Looking at our sin crucified in Christ. Thus
Jesus is the true Mediators between God and man, the mediator of a new and better covenant,
redemption through his blood and the forgiveness of our sins, according to the richness of His grace.
This is the God planned and God provided mediation that avails for sinful man now and in the Day
of Judgment. (Cf 6.164; 17.13-15; 39.7; 53.36-37;)

The Holy Bible says: “Behold! My servant whom I uphold, My Elect One in whom my soul
delights! I have put my Spirit upon Him; He will bring forth justice to the Gentiles, He will bring
forth justice for truth, He will not fail nor be discouraged. Till He has established justice in the
earth; And He bore the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors.” The Injil then
says: “Then a voice came from heaven, This is my beloved son in whom I am well pleased” (Matthew
3:17).

Only Jesus said: I am the Way, and the Truth, and the Life; and you shall know the Truth,
and the Truth shall make you free” (Jn.14.1, 8.32).

He is “the Lamp of God who takes away the sin of the world” Yes! He takes away our sins.
“He is the light of the world the true light that enlightens every man that comes to the world” (Jn.1:

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9). Jesus said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will
have the light of life” (Jn. 8:12). “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me, though he
may die, he shall live” (Jn.11: 25).

Further the Qur’an attributes qualities to Jesus, which it attributes to no other prophets or
apostles. He is described as God’s Word and a spirit of God:

Finally, seeking salvation in the Muslim doctrine reminded me and confirmed me, the
unique and compelling force of the Christian Gospel of salvation. In comparison with the various
theories I have examined, God’s grace in Christ shines like a beacon light, attracting me and
enlightening my heart. The Loving work of God in Christ on the Cross-is the all-sufficient work of
redemption. Jesus said, “Father, forgive them for they do not know what they do” (Luke 23:34). And
then He said: “It is completed” (Jn. 19:30).
Jesus from whence He comes?

I now gave myself to the concentrated study of the person and work of Yesus Christus. I did
this by reconsidering the passage of the Qur’an that spoke of Christ, in the light of my growing faith
in Jesus and increasing knowledge of the Bible: -

“And make mention of Mary in the Scripture, when she had withdrawn from her people to a
chamber looking east, and had chosen seclusion from them. Then we sent unto her Our Spirit and it
assumed for her the likeness of a perfect man. She said: Lo! I seek refuge in the Beneficent one from
thee, if thou art God fearing. (19:16-18) (Observe Lk.1: 35)

“And she who was chaste therefore We breathed into her of Our spirit and made her and her
son a token for people” (21:91); “And Mary, daughter of Imran whose body was chaste, therefore We
breathed there in something of Our Spirit. And she put faith in the words of her Lord and His
Scriptures, and was of the obedient” (66:12). This shows that the spirit was in active in the birth of
Jesus.

“He said: I am only a messenger of thy Lord that I may bestow on thee a faultless son (pure
and Holy). She said: How can I have a son when no mortal hath touched me, neither have I been
unchaste? He said: So (it will be) Thy Lord saith: It is easy for me. And it will be that we may make
of him a revelation for mankind and a mercy from us, and it is a thing ordained. And she conceived
him, and she withdrew with him to a far place. And the pangs of childbirth drove her unto the trunk
of the palm tree.

She said: Oh, would that I had died ere this and had become a thing of naught, forgotten!
Then (one) cried unto her from below her, saying: Grieve not! Thy Lord hath placed a rivulet beneath
thee, and shake the trunk of the palm tree toward thee; thou wilt cause ripe dates to fall upon thee.
So eat and drink and be consoled. And if thou meet any mortal, say: Lo! I have vowed a fast unto the
Beneficent, and may not speak this day to any mortal.

Then she brought him to her on folk carrying him. They said: Oh! Mary thou hast come with
an amazing thing. Oh! Sister of Aaron, thy father was not a wicked man nor was thy mother a
harlot.

Then she pointed to him. They said: How can we talk to one who is in the cradle, a young
boy? He spoke: Lo! I am the slave of Allah. He hath given me the Scripture and hath appointed me a
Prophet, and hath made me blessed wheresoever I may be, and hath enjoyed upon me prayer and
almsgiving so long as I remain alive, and dutiful toward her who bore me, and hath not made me
arrogant, unblest” (19:19-32)

“Peace is on me the day I was born, and the day I die, and the day I shall be raised alive”
(19:33, Christmas, Good Friday and Easter)

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And We made the son of Mary and his mother a portent, and We gave them refuge on a
height, a place of flocks and water-springs. (23:50 Cf: 5:110). We gave Jesus, son of Mary, the
evidences, and aided him by the Holy Spirit (2:87)

Jesus, son of Mary is … His word, which He cast upon Mary, (Tabari remarks ‘God calls this
son which is in thy womb his word’) and a Spirit from Him (4:171) Such was Jesus, son of Mary, a
statement of the truth concerning which they doubt. (19:34) We gave Isa pre-eminence over other
prophets (2:253)

The Qur’an gives two accounts of the annunciation and birth of Jesus, and refers to his
teaching and healings and his death and exaltation. Jesus is always spoken of in the Qur’an with
adoration; there is no breath of disparagement, for he is the Christ of God. Jesus is pre-eminently,
indeed uniquely, the Messiah.

Muslims admit the exalted position of Jesus Christ (word from God Himself and His Spirit)
who saw with the eyes of God, talked with tongue of God and was absorbed

I sought for further explanation about the sinlessness of Jesus and His authority to forgive
the sins of others, which was one of my doubts.

The Injil also clearly indicates the purity and sinlessness of Jesus (.Lk.1.35; Acts 3.14 (Holy
and righteous one) ‘the child born to you will be called holy’ yet the Injil further states that:

“Everyone who commits sin is guilty of lawlessness: sin is lawlessness. You know that he
(Jesus) appeared to take away our sins and in him there is no sin” (I John 3:4,5; cf Heb.4.15;
7.25,26). Jesus himself asking “Can any of you prove me guilty of sin?” It is Christ who died, and
furthermore is also raised, who is even at the right hand of God, who also makes intercession for us;
and he himself is the propitiation for our sins, and not for ours only but also for the whole world;

The Injil repeatedly says that he takes away our sins. “

Behold! The lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world!” Christians say that Jesus the
Messiah who came to intercede for all who accept him as Savior. The Christians declare that only
Jesus as the right to intercede because he is perfect and sinless. And so Christians say that Jesus
died for our Sins. For as in Adam all die, even so in Christ all shall be made alive.
ADAM and JESUS

Qur’an 3:59 state that: Lo! The likeness of Jesus with Allah is as the likeness of Adam. He
was created from the dust of the earth, and then he said unto him “Be and it is”. (Seems to be, then,
that he is a special creation in to which God’s spirit is breathed). For Adam was a direct creation of
God and did come to exist, and Allah said to the angels, “so when I have made him (Adam) and have
breathed unto him of my spirit, do ye fall down, prostrating yourselves unto him, so the angels fell
prostrate, all of them together.” (Q 15:29-30 cf 32.9,38.72,2.34;) This recalls Genesis 2.7: ‘The Lord
God breathed into his nostrils the breath of life’.

And the same ought to be held to true in Christ, must be worthy of worship, “Then We sent
unto her Our Spirit and it assumed for her the likeness of a perfect man. I am only a messenger of
thy Lord that I may bestow on thee a faultless son (pure and Holy)” For Jesus who was sinless and
presumably on that account raised by God unto himself, was also worthy of worship from the
moment that God breathed His spirit upon Mary (19.17) just as Adam was before Him.

But whereas Adam lost the divine spirit by sin, Jesus did not and was accordingly raised up
to God’s own presence where he must remain a legitimate object of worship for all time. Adam by his
sin brought Universal ruin on the human race, Christ by His righteous act brought Universal
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life-giving spirit.* In the first Adam all died, but in the last Adam (Christ) all believers are given
eternal life.

By his sin, when Adam stands for the condemnation of all people, Christ stands for the
Justification of all people by his sinless birth, life and death. Thus the one represented us unto
death, the other unto life eternal. The faultless son, Jesus is the life giver, as the father has life
giving power in him, so has the son (1 John 1.3;) or else why was it necessary for a new creation,
faultless, pure and holy one (second Adam)? Was it to redeem the mankind from sin, for first Adam
sinned? Yes! Christ’s one act of righteousness make all people right in God’s sight and gives them
life. God’s atonement related not only to the effects of inherited sin but actual sin also. Oh! God’s
grace is time without end greater for good than Adam’s sin for evil!
A unique person

Whatever else the Qur’an has stated about Jesus, it surely has established Him as a unique
person: the Qur’an recognize his birth of the virgin Mary through the Holy spirit, born and not made
so a holy son, designated as word of God (3:45), spirit of God (19:17) (For nowhere the Qur’an says
the spirit is created), he is a mercy from Allah, a sign, (bin Maryam, the Messiah, Kalimathullah,
Ruhun’minallah, Rasul’ullah, Nabi’yullah, Qaulul’haqq,) as a matter divinely decided eternally,
(19.21) speaks in cradle. The Gospel been given to him as a guidance, and light for mankind, creates
bird out of clay and gives life, heals the leper, heals the blind, raises the dead, (observing that the
attributes of creation and raising from the dead (yakhluq-yuhyi) 3:49.are not ascribed to any other
prophet and therefore place Christ above other messengers). He has authority over the nature, tells
the hidden secrets, brings down a furnished table from heaven, and has come to bring the one
religion 21.92,23.54. Will die to be raised again, caused him to die and takes him up to himself till
the day of resurrection, illustrious in this world and in the next world, come to clear up differences
(43.57-65) *He was taken up to Allah himself, (“He was received up into heaven, and sat down at the
right hand of God.” near seated to Allah, (God exalted Him to Himself). “No one has ascended to
heaven but he who came down from heaven, that is the son of man who is in heaven.”).

Adam the first man, was not born, he was made from the dust of the earth; Eve the first
woman was not born, she was taken from the man; All other human beings were born of human
parents, except the God man who had no earthly father; conceived apart from the seed of sinful man
he had a perfect sinless human nature (Jn.1: 14; 1Tim 3:16) his birth was announced by an angel.

This practically admits the divinity of Christ, which it anyhow attests in its description of
Him as the word of God; (the word of God is eternal even as God is eternal, as Allah could never have
been without spirit or word. His spirit and word must therefore eternal and because eternal,
therefore divine. The eternal pre-existing LOGOS-Word of God, who created all things, formed the
Christ out of the flesh of the pure Virgin Mary, to become a perfect man, a living and thinking man
who eat, drink, and slept, but the logos of God did not drink, eat, slept nor crucified. God’s thinking
produces thinking.) Is it not word of God everlasting and very God, (qa hir) whatever proceeds out of
God essentially is God. That which is begotten partakes of the nature of that which begat it. And in
this way God is the word of God*
I realized that it is possible for God to become incarnate, if He wills; Jesus lived in the
unique consciousness of his own son ship.

He is a witness (shahid 4.159,5159;) The witness ‘is one of the beautiful Names of God occurs
frequently in the Qur’an. He is a Mercy (rahma 19.21) He is the One brought near (min al-
muqarrabin or near stationed to Allah 3.45) He is the one Upright (mina-salihin 3.46 or righteous
shall he be). He is blessed (Mubarak 19.31, blessed wherever I am).

JESUS as the STATEMENT of TRUTH (Qawla’l-haqqi) stressing the importance to the last
day. He will be the witness as a right judge in the day of resurrection. He will be the right just judge
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regard Baidawi said that the eminence in this world was in prophetic office of Jesus and in the next
the right of intercession.

In the book of Saheeh’al’Bukhari it is written as the prophet Mohammed saying:

“In whose hands my soul is, surely (Jesus) the son of Mary will soon descend amongst you
and will judge mankind justly as a just ruler.” In the Qur’an it is stated “Thy Lord shall come with
angels, rank on rank” (89.22) Who is this Lord who comes? (cf. Mt: 24.30; Rev.1.7). Who will come in
the clouds and the angels with him, All men will appear before him, the books will be opened and
men will have to give answers to the questions put to them and account will be made up, and their
deeds will be weighed in the Balances. The sentence will then be pronounced and believers and
unbelievers alike all will have to pass through the hair –like bridge of Sirat across the gulf of hell.

This describes Jesus son of Mary as the magistrate who has the legal authority to pass
sentence of death or to exercise his own judgment, a law which is unalterable and unbreakable, a
legal decision that is valid and binding.

As Jesus, himself, said “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the father
except through me”. Jesus has the words of eternal life. “The Father loves the Son and has entrusted
him with all authority, He who puts his faith in the son has hold of eternal life; but he who disobeys
the Son shall not see that life”. The Father does not judge anyone but has given full jurisdiction to
the son (Jn.5.22 cfActs17.31)

“Rejoice in glorious hope;


Jesus, the judge, shall come,
And take his servants up
To their eternal home;
We soon shall hear the archangel’s voice;
The trump of God shall sound, Rejoice”.

Heaven is called God the father’s throne the lord Jesus Christ is there now, seated with the
father (Qur’anically, near stationed to Allah). The Injil also says, “Therefore God also has highly
exalted Him and given Him the name which is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every
knee should bow, of those in heaven and those on earth and of those under the earth” Everyone, from
Adam to the last man to be born on this earth, will stand before the Lord Jesus Christ to be judged.
We shall all stand before the judgment seat of Christ (Rom 14.10). “Every knee shall bow to me, and
every tongue shall confess to God, so then each of us shall give an account to him who is ready to
judge the living and the dead” “And that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord to the
glory of God”.

“Most assuredly, I say to you, the hour is coming, and now is when the dead will hear the
voice of the Son of God; and those who hear will live. For as the father has life in Himself, so He has
granted the son to have life in Himself, and has given Him authority to execute judgment also,
because He is the Son of God” (John 5.25-27). That is why Jesus is forever Savior and Judge.

Jesus was the only person in the history who was born without sin, who lived without Sin,
who died without sin. (Heb.26) Jesus is the only prophet who never had to ask any forgiveness,
(Heb.7: 27) Christ be the most holy and a man endowed with Virtue above all other men,
superhuman, is called, word of God, Spirit of God, in the Qur’an.

In Jesus, I could see the mind of God and that mind is Love. The one who healed the sick, fed
the hungry, comforted the sorrowing and was the friend of outcasts and sinners. He is beyond doubt
the incarnate love of the heart of God for men. In Yesus, God is speaking to men, as GOD NEVER
SPOKE BEFORE AND NEVER NEED TO SPEAK AGAIN. Here I could see a God who cares for
mankind and desires to redeem him and gave his only beloved Son*Man is made one with God
because humanity and divinity are made one in Christ.

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Through further study, I also began to understand how the Biblical significance of the term
“Son of God” differs from the Qur’anic understanding of “son of God.” The Qur’an denies that God
begets, or is begotten, in a physical sense (Lam yalid walam yoolad). According to the Holy Bible son
ship does not rest upon born of the Virgin Mary “Jesus does not become the Son of God but the Son of
God become Jesus. The same way Jesus is not the Son of God because of his miracle works and
wonderful words of authority, but He does it because He is the Son of God, that His birth and the
nature of His works lend evidence for his son ship. But neither alone nor together provides the origin
or basis for His son ship. And this is very important to know His virgin birth rests upon His son ship,
before Mary even was the Son of God is.

Eventually, however, I accepted that Jesus could be called “the Son of God” (as the Bible
explains this term) in a spiritual sense, in the same way that He is called God’s Word. Eternal truth
embodied in the word, Word of God is eternal as God is eternal. Here again I was grateful to the
Qur’an for serving as a bridge to a fuller comprehension of the Biblical significance of the term “Son
of God” when uniquely applied to Jesus.

Jesus does not become the Son of God because of Mary. On the contrary, it is through the
power of God most high that the Son of God, God’s word, God’s revelation of himself to men. It is as if
God had revealed His concealed heart through His enfleshed word, become flesh through Mary. That
God so willed is the testimony of the Injil, God’s eternal self-expression, His word, His Son has
entered human form, His name JESUS the son MAN, the heavenly Man. For does not Allah in
speaking His eternal word “give birth” to His Word among men for that reason cannot this eternal
word which proceeds from Him to men be called His Son? The son is the Father’s personal message,
the mind of God became a person, God expressing himself and His love in a way that can be seen and
heard and comprehended by humanity.

The Qur’an stated, “Had we appointed an angel (our messenger), We assuredly had made
him (as) a man (that he might speak to men); and (thus) obscured for them (the truth) they (now)
obscure” (6:9) this is what God did when He came in Christ, reconciling the world unto Him.

He came as a man that He might speak to men and open Paradise for all who will accept His
great salvation. Through His word, He creates and brings all things in to being, saying Kun and it is
fayakoon, is this not the word which was in the beginning, through whom, the universe was made,
all things were created? It is the word that the universe holds together, who became flesh and
dwelled among men as God’s eternal word as God’s revelation of God? It is the word, which is the
means of communication between God and Man. Even prophet Mohammed says, “If the most
gracious had a son, I would be the first to worship him” (43.81), and “I swear by the begetter and
that which he begat” (90:3). Who is this begetter and begotten?
In Jesus his eternal son, the revealer becomes also the revealed for us, Jesus as God
manifested in the flesh. The revealed Son becomes the revealer of the Father among mankind, he
said: “Trust in God trust also in me” What better way for the eternal revealer to be revealed to
mankind on earth than by clothing Himself in human flesh? God alone can reveal God! It takes God
to reveal himself to mankind under created circumstances congenial human understanding. As for
Christians, the Son of God is the genesis and ground of their faith that the One Living and Eternal
God have himself undertaken to tell men of himself. He who is God became man that we might
become God’s.

No doubt, on the basis of Surah’al-Nissa Muslims has rejected the Biblical account of Jesus’
death.

“And because of their saying: We slew the Messiah Jesus, son of Mary, Allah’s messenger-
They slew him not nor crucified, but it appeared so unto them; and lo! Those who disagree

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concerning it are in doubt thereof; they have no knowledge thereof save pursuit of a conjecture: they
slew him not for certain…” (4:157-159). This passage is wearing a veil in dimness.

Elsewhere, of course, the Qur’an refers to the death of Jesus. But Muslim expositors offer
conflicting opinions on some of these relevant verses. The following are significant passages, as
translated by Pickthall:

Infant Jesus is represented as saying:

“Peace on me the day I was born, and the day I die, and the day I shall be raised alive!”
(19:33).

“(And remember) when Allah said: O Jesus! Lo! I am gathering thee and causing thee to
ascend unto me, and am cleansing thee of those who disbelieve and am setting those who follow thee
above those who disbelieve until the Day of Resurrection. Then unto me ye will (all) return and I am
judge between you as to that wherein used to differ” (3:55).

“I spoke unto them only that which Thou commands me, (saying): Worship Allah, my Lord
and your Lord. I was a witness of them while I dwelt among them, and when Thou tookest me Thou
was the Watcher over them. Thou art Witness over all things” (5:117).

But is Pickthall’s interpretation of Mutawaffika (“I am gathering thee”: 3:55) and


thawaffaitani (“Thou tookest me”: 5:117) correct? Some respectable Muslim commentaries translate
this verb: “to cause to die,” indicating that the death of Jesus preceded His ascension into heaven?
This fact contradicts the view of direct ascension as related in the Qur’an. let me close here by giving
a citation from one of the sound tradition of the prophet Muhammad as recorded in the Bukhari and
Muslim:*

On the authority of Abdullah bin Masood…Who said: “(I remember) as if I am still looking at
the Apostle of Allah portraying about a prophet who was beaten by his own people until he was
bleeding plentifully, yet as he was wiping away the blood from his face he said, ‘O Allah, forgive my
people for they know not”. Who is this prophet?

In any event the Biblical accounts leave no room for various interpretations about the time,
place and circumstances of Jesus’ death. He was crucified, He died and He was buried and He has
risen from the dead. His crucifixion took place outside the walls of Jerusalem. It happened when
Pilate was governor of Judea. These are facts of history.

The Bible frequently refers to the birth, death, resurrection and ascension in an
unambiguous language. These great days to which the Qur’an calls attention in the life of Jesus
Christ are the 3 great public holidays in the calendar of the Christian Church Christmas, Good
Friday and Easter, by admitting the truth which Christians hold in common with Muslims by
bidding them look away from their broken lights and gleaming shadows to the true light which
enlighten every man. Just as clear in the Bible, is the connection of the birth and death of Jesus
Christ with His resurrection from the dead and His ascension, as well as the objective of these great
events in His life. The most authoritative and powerful reason for our belief in life after death is the
resurrection of Jesus Christ. The resurrection of Christ means the liberation of man from mortality
and finitude. The work Christ was to show the development of humanity in its completeness, God
brings all men together in Christ their head.

Thus, the above stated passages and other passages of the Qur’an became clear to me in the
light of my reflection on the New Testament portrayal of Christ. Despite the fact that the humanity
of the Incarnate Lord is perfect humanity immediate to divinity in an unbroken unity.

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Further Excavation

Not only did all these passages reveal the special relation, which Jesus had with God; surely
they indicated also God’s special purpose in sending Jesus, His Word and Servant, into this sinful
world. * Jesus came to a world in which Salvation was the universal and the deepest desire of the
hearts of men.

Once more I recalled the booklet, the ‘Heart of Pak’, I concluded that God has spoken His
word of forgiveness to all sinners through Jesus alone, through His death on the cross and His
resurrection from the dead. As I read the Bible more and more, it spoke to me and cleared my
doubts, one by one.

Yet this question perplexed my mind- what about Muhammad who’s coming according to the
Qur’an, Jesus had prophesied?

“And when Jesus son of Mary said: O Children of Israel! Lo! I am the messenger of Allah
unto you, confirming that which was (revealed) before me in the Torah, and bringing good tidings of
a messenger who cometh after me, whose name is the Praised One. Yet when he hath come unto
them with clear proofs, they say: this is mere magic” (61:6).

The Arabic word for “Praised One” is Ahmad, which has the same root meaning as
Muhammad. Does this passage not mean that Jesus prophesied the coming of Muhammad? That is
what I had been taught and believed.

I examined the Bible to see what it says about Muhammad, but I could find nothing. I asked
my professors the same question and they too said that there is nothing. But when I looked into a
Muslim commentary on the Qur’an, it quoted several Bible passages in support of this
understanding of Surah 61:6. The main passage quoted was:

“And I will pray the Father, and He will give you another counselor, to be with you forever”
(John 14:16).

The Greek word for Counselor is Parakletos (). Greek is the original language of
the Gospel. The Islamic commentator said that the original Greek word was Periklutos, which means
“Praised One.” Christians, he said, substituted Parakletos for Periklutos to expunge the reference to
the prophet Muhammad.

Since I lacked knowledge about the word and since it was unspeakably hard for me to
forsake faith in Muhammad as a prophet, I was in great difficulty. Muhammad still held a great
place in my heart, and I felt I would have been more willing to forsake anything itself than that
faith. I asked the Greek professor Rev. Dr. H. M. Zorn about these words. He replied that there never
was any word such as Periklutos in the Greek text of St. John or in the New Testament. “Thus there
is neither textual nor linguistic support for Periclutos.” He then clearly explained the original
Biblical word, Parakletos (), and how the promise of Jesus (John 14:16) was fulfilled by
the coming of the Holy Spirit (Acts 2:1-11), who abides forever with God’s people as their Comforter
and Guide.

I placed the problem before God and asked Him to give me clear understanding. One night,
after I had prayed and gone to bed, I could not sleep. I heard a voice calling me, and I looked all
around but could see no one or felt as though I had. It said: “Get up and read!” I thought that it was
only my assumption. But I heard it again and again. I got up and opened my Bible. Several times I
read the following passage:

“If you love me, you will keep my commandments. And I will pray the Father, and He will
give you another Counselor, to be with you forever, even the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot
receive, because it neither sees him nor knows him; you know him, for he dwells with you, and will
be in you; I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.” (John 14:15-17)

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As I read the passage, many questions came to my mind. Did you read in the Qur’an or
Hadhith, I asked myself, that Muhammad is the Spirit of truth who abides with you forever, a
Counselor whom the world cannot see nor knows, one who dwells in you? Then I realized that these
words contain no prophecy of any coming prophet and cannot possibly be applied to any human
being, but can only apply a spiritual being. Moreover, I remembered the fulfillment of that prophecy
(Acts2: 1-11;)during the life of the first believers in Christ. My mind was overwhelmed by this great
truth. The Counselor, whom Yesus promised, is the Holy Spirit (the eternal Spirit of the living God,
not the angel Jibra’il).

Later I experienced the power of the Holy Spirit in my own life. Through him I came to
Christ my Lord. Glory be to God! Amen.
The HOLY BIBLE

I continued to read the Holy Bible diligently. In it I found a wealth of blessings such as I had
never dreamed of. It has the power to speak to those who are really seeking God’s revelation and
guidance. It showed me my real self, my sinful and guilty heart, my spiritual blindness. It asked me
to bring all my sins and burdens to God in the name of Jesus the Messiah. I became convinced that
the Holy Bible is the Word of God; it provided the solutions to the problems, which perplexed my
heart. Its Living Water was able to satisfy my thirsty soul, which I never had found before in my
religious experience, I now discovered. That the Holy Bible faithfully and correctly recorded the
works and teachings of the Messiah Yesus. It contains the message of God’s powerful and saving love
for me and for all men, and brings us peace.
Jesus The Messiah

Jesus Christ was born into this world, not from it. He did not evolve out of history; He came
in to history from the outside. Jesus Christ is a being who cannot be accounted for by the human
race at all .He is not man becoming God, but God incarnate, God coming in to human flesh, coming
into it from out side. His life is the highest and the Holiest entering in at the lowliest door. Our lord’s
birth was an advent. Christ the Word-God who appeared in the flesh for the salvation of the world of
whom the whole human race partakes, His birth in me. Of whom I travail in birth again until Christ
be formed in me. Gal 4.19;

“Death is the wages of sin, But the gift of God eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord” Who is
God’s remedy for man’s ruin. He it is who came to this world searching for me, who died for my sins
and rose again, who ascended into heaven and will come again, and take me home. Jesus said “In my
father’s house are many mansions; if it were not so I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for
you. And if I go and prepare a place for you I will come again and receive you to myself that where I
am, there you may be also”(Jn: 14:1-4). After His resurrection, the disciples saw Him ascend back
into heaven whence he came. Because of the Cross-and the resurrection of Christ, we can look
forward with confidence to an eternal home in heaven. I look forward to that take place.

Jesus is the nature of God, and mystery of God’s eternal Word coming into our world as man,
His death, resurrection, ascension, second coming and other doctrines which previously I could not
understand and some of which I even hated. The nature of Yesus the Messiah is not only seen in His
birth but in His life, not only His words but in the compassion and grace of His living which revealed
the nature of God as love, for God is Love.

This love of God focuses sharply on Yesus, His death and resurrection for sinners-as Paul,
echoing Yesus and His other apostles, says in the Holy Injil: “For I delivered to you as of first
importance what I also received, that Christ died for our sins in accordance with the Scriptures, that
he was raised on the third day in accordance with the Scriptures…”(I cori. 15:3-5). He appeared more
than 500 different people over a period of 40 days (Acts.1.3;)

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No doubt, many Muslim friends will continue to think that the Holy Bible is corrupted and
abrogated. Yet let him-especially him whose soul is awed by God’s holiness and whose heart is
burdened by sin seriously study and ponder its message. He whom God guides to the truth will hear
and believe likewise. Then let him, as I have done, draw his own.

Yes! Just as our Lord Jesus Christ came into human history from outside so He must come
into me, from outside. Have I allowed my personal human life to become a ‘Beth Lehm’ for the Son of
God to be born in me? I realized that I couldn’t enter in to the realm of the kingdom of God unless I
am born from above by a birth totally unlike natural birth. I must be born again. I understood that
this is not a command only but it is the very foundational fact .The characteristic of the new birth is
that I yield myself, so completely to God that Christ is formed in me.
A great decision

It was on July 19,1970 that I surrendered to Yesus the Messiah. I confessed all my sins and
all my doubts before God.O, God! Come into my heart. Forgive me and cleanse me from all my sin, I
accept Jesus as my personal Savior and my Lord. I commit myself to you In Jesus name, I pray,
Amen! And by holy baptism I was joined to Him and His forgiving love. My whole body trembled. I
could feel divine power entering into me; I raised from my knees, as a changed man, with peace in
my soul, joy in my heart and assurance in my mind. (Even today I testify to the same peace, joy, hope
and assurance). Though I could not explain it, in my heart I believed that all my sins were washed
away through the precious blood of Yesus Christus, that I had received power for a new life of love,
and that the Lord Yesus Himself was reigning in my heart. When I have accepted Yesus as my
personal Savior, immediately Christ is formed in me. His nature begins to work through me.

Consequently, I have become a fellow inheritor of the same body, and partaker of promise in
Christ through the Gospel. I have the assurance of eternal life today and I am on my way to heaven
to spend eternity with Him.

“O Jesus, I would praise thee, so lightening every step along the road, and when I fall, Thy
loving hand will raise me and take me home to Thee, lord my God”.

In His service
Soon I had the opportunity to join with a group called Operation Mobilization. This gave me
a chance to go to various parts of India to proclaim the Good News. I continued this work for about
two years. While I was engaged in this, I learnt more about what it means to be a disciple of Jesus. I
am very grateful to the Lord and to the people of Operation Mobilization who gave me the blessed
opportunity to work with them and who helped me during times of trial. Later I returned to the
Concordia Seminary where I completed theological studies in 1976.
My present burden is to present the Good News of Jesus Christ to my own people wherever
they are, especially in my native place, in Malabar region, may they listen to the invitation of Jesus
Christ, which He extends to all to know God’s great Salvation: Jesus stood and cried out, saying “If
anyone thirsts, let him come to me and drink. He who believes in me, as the scripture has said out of
his heart will flow rivers of living water.”

“And this is life, eternal, that they might know thee, the only true God and Jesus Christ
whom thou hast sent” (John 17:3). Christian life is an eternal life (Rom 6; 23) for it is a very life of
God’s Son, made to live every believer.

“I am the light of the world; he who follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the
light of life” (John 8:12) Jesus said: “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me,
though he may die, he shall live, I am the way, the Truth and the life; no one comes to the father, but
by me” (Jon 14:6).

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Conclusion

I have accepted Jesus Christ as my personal Savior, because He has been able to change my
life to a real life of happiness, peace and hope. He has been able to give me strength in my weakness.
As the living Lord He gives grace to live victoriously in this world and grants everlasting citizenship
in heaven. Although I have lost my worldly family and possessions, I have the assurance that I am a
member of God’s heavenly family. I believe what David, the great prophet and king, has said:

“When my father and my mother for-sake me, then the Lord will take me up” (Psalm 27:10
“The Lord is my Sheppard I shall not want”

The Lord says: “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life I will advise you and
watch over you”

“The Lord himself will go before you He will be with you he will not leave you nor forget you
don’t be afraid and don’t worry”. This is a God’s saying and if this promise does not give me security,
nothing will. “The everlasting God is your place of safety and His arms will hold you up forever”
Knowing we were secure can also solve the problem of discontent by freeing us to choose to be
content. God who knows the very number of the hair on our head? Would neglect us or leave us in
our hours of peril?

In all my troubles, perplexities, affliction, poverty, losses, persecutions and temptations it is


enough to look into His face. In hours of loneliness, weariness and disappointment I have praised
Him for His grace.

Jesus said: “You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and
bears fruits and that your fruits should abide;” Yes! I did not Chose him, but He chose me.

Through Him the story of Pak has become the story of K.K. Alavi. And to Him be the glory
now and forever. Amen.

“My courage is Christ, My Hope is Christ and the door to heaven He flung open by His own
death for my sins, my hope is in his resurrection.

Heaven will be my eternal home with Christ I will just move in to that part of His Father’s
house he prepared for me. No fixing up that home, no parts unfinished, no disappointments on
moving day. No, He has prepared it, he has made it completely ready, completely perfect, completely
mine”.

We can look forward with all God’s Children to the joy of our Father’s house.

May He who is the only perfect, sinless prophet of the Qur’an and the right judge of the
Hadhith. The only savior of sinful men and the true light which enlightens every man that comes in
to the world ‘Yesus Christus’ in whom dwells all the fullness of the God head bodily, show His bright
beams in the hearts of those in whose entrust this series is attempted. If I can be of service to you,
please write to me at the following address:
Bisharah Manzil
P.O.Box # 18
Manjeri, P.O
Manjeri.676121
Kerala, South India

E-mail: shaliachk@yahoo.com

Truth is competent of anxiety by heart and mind, but it is not promised that either will be
without great effort.

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