Daughter of the Lantern 167 Epilogue DAUGHTER OF THE LANTERN Surrender. I stand. or lay, or but exist in the presence of something of inordinate magnitude, and wonder, and awesome, thund rows peace which Thave hitherto held back but now admit, rimorously. tenderly feeling my child-caution expectant and happy and thrilled. Trust it, and seek to hold it and be made secure, or else, 10 be miraculously touched bevond my preconceptions. n There stands a Daughter of the Lantern, silent, wise, biding her tongue and time. vet ever going before me. the love of her eves aflame & luminous with starlight = waiting until] wake and take her hand. She is guide and mistress. inspiration of famasy and certainty of reality She is as much myself as am. vet somehow separate, unknowable while totally Known, as the flame that fills me wholly168 EPILOGUE mL The flame burns & sings & dances within my soul. That which was water and mystery, now, within the sacred sanctuary. is light and wonder and amazement, a purifving fire, alove unquenchable & ineutinguishable, passionate & chaste. self-subsuming & all-consuming, patient & impatient, purging me of dross, cleansing, transforming, freeing. One flame. One dance. One miracle. Certainty, Peace. Passion. Life. Goddess, central flame. illuminator. teacher, healer. song of beauty & fire of knowing = Hove vou! Vv A breath caresses my cheek and startles me awake, awake as I have rarely been, 10 stare, mind stopped, senses staggered. into the wondrous and splendid majesty of the star of her being How shall it be that of ail the multitude of the unceasing heavens, this one star should so fill and fulfill what my hungering soul desires, requires, devours, embraces, and loves? ‘AL but the thought of Her. across these miles, the delicate breeze or breath dances on all my skin, through walls. through clothes, through excuses. through increduliny and plays its birthing reveille ‘pon each of my inner senses. Her charade, her persona, are all gone. and I see but Her siar, Her inner fires, Her beauty And it is before this Beauty that all my speech fails What I want to say! What ! hunger to reflect. 10 utter. to declare, 50 that she may know | KNOW & love & honor, bevond my frail and inadequate powers of expression.Daughter of the Lantern 169 v Diaphanous veils descend & cloak that argent & ardent splendor. They weave & shift & pass. each imaging another face, another view Where but an hour ago, oraday 10h so clearly saw Her = now I see only the intervening warp & woof of our dance. the veils that seductively cloak her reality and chastely conceal its naked miracle vi Each movement of mine and hers is balanced, anticipated, reciprocated by the other. Does she move in foresighted anticipation 10 make space, 10 receive my next thrust of being. as Yin moves on to make war for Yang's new wave of penetration? Or Ther? Or is the dance so wrought, the dancers so matched, that the yielding or vacuity of either is at once filled precisely by the other. each providing in unconscious rhythmic flow, the context for the other's Wav? Two jig-saw realities interlocked in some far vaster puccle. Satisfaction Dynamic complementation. Mystery Unpardonable love.170 EPILOGUE vil And then these veils lif, or part, like delicate tumescent folds of flesh ‘opening inward to admit the whole of me. Bright star disclosed anew. One star in sight. Bevond death, bevond space, bevond reason, Tam lost & found at once & forever & never. Two, one, naught. Naughty play as we/l/she ‘meet in the center of ecstasy & pain, bevond light into starlit night, and spill, win fountains of silver & gold pulsing, pulsars, quasars, eruptive & unceasing streams of liquid starlight screaming lost in Silence, into the greater creative pulse of the boundless, soundless BEAUTY of Thee.210 APPENDICES In the tabulations following, each document is specially marked (in square brackets) if it is included in any number of The Equinox [Eqx], in the anthology Gems from the Equinox [Gems], in Magick in Theory & Practice |MT&P}, in In the Continuum [ITC], in Black Pearl [BP], or in The Mystical & Magical System of the Av.A.. M&MAA]. Other summaries, at the end of this Appendix, should prove helpful in locating individual documents.Cuass. Cuass B: Svllabi of the Grades 211 STUDENT SYLLABUS The Equinox. from No. 110 the current number Raja Yoga, by Swami Vivekananda The Shiva Sanhita, ot The Hathavoga Pradipika Konx Om Pax The Spiritual Guide, by Miguel de Molinos Dogme et Rituel de la Haute Mogie, by Eliphas Levi, or its translation by A. E. Waite The Goetia or The Lemegeton of Solomon the King Tannhéuser;The Sword of Song: Time: Eleusis. by A. Crowley The Book of the Sacred Magic of Abra-melin the Mage The Tao Teh Ching The Writings of Kwang Tze PROBATIONER (0°=0°) SYLLABUS, 5 Liber Porta Lucis (Eqx 1:6. 11:9, Gems, M& MAA xc Liber Tzaddi |E.qx 1:6, 111:9, Gems} LXV Liber Cordis Cincti Serpente |Eqx 11:1, 9. 1V: 1] CCXX Liber 9 vel Legis, The Book of the Law |Eqx 1:10. 11:9, 10, Gems} CCCLXX Liber A’ash vel Capricorni Pneumarici |Eqx 1:6, 111:9, Gems, MT&P] vl Liber O vel Manus et Sogitie |Eqx 1:2, Gems. MT&P. M&MAA] IX Liber E vel Exercitiorum |Eqx 1:1, Gems, MT&P, M&MAA| XX Khing Kang King WTC V:6} XXX Liber Librae |Eqx 1:1, 111:10, Gems, M&MAA, ITC 1V:4, BP 1:1] LVI Gemairia (from “The Temple of Solomon the King") |Eqx 1:5] LxIV Liber Israfel |Eqx 1:7. Gems. BP 1:2] LXXI The Voice of the Silence (with commentary by Fra. OM.) [Eqx 1:1, 1V:1, Gems} LXXVII]_——4 Description of the Cards of the Tarot |Eqx 1:8] LXXXIV Liber Chanokh |Eqx 1:7-8. Gems} XxCcVI Liber Gaias, A Handbook of Geomancy |Eqx 1:2] cx Liber Aleph. The Book of Wisdom & Folly \Eqx 11:6 cLvn Tao Teh Ching |Eqx 11:8] LXV A Master of the Temple [Eqx 1:1, Gems] ceva A Syllabus of the Official Instructions of 4.4. & Curricula of the Grades’ The Book of Changes |Eqx I An Evocation of Bartzabal. the Spirit of Mars: CDLXXIV Liber Os Abysmi vel Da ‘ath [Eqx 1:7, Gems} CDLXXXIX One Star in Sight |MT&P. Gems, M&MAA, Eqx IV:1] D Sepher Sephiroth \Eqx 1:8) DXXXVI Liber Batpaxoopevohooxoopouoxta [Eqx 1:10, Gems} Class B designation. and the present form of Liber CCV, are distinctive to the Soror Estai lineage Originally, neither catalogue number nor Document Class was assigned to An Evocation of Bartzabal. These have ‘been assigned internally within the Soror Esta lineage. Originally. neither catalogue number nor Document Class was assigned to One Siar in Sight These have been assigned internally within the Soror Estai lineage.212 APPENDICES Crass A-B: Crass Cz Crass Di Crass Et Unctassirir CLASS A: CLASS B: CLASS C: CLass D: DCLXVI DCCLXXVII DCCCLXVIII CMXIN MCCLXIV {no number] {no number] {no number] CDXV cCDxvitl CMLXIIL XXXII m Xu XXV LXI CLXXV cc cv cpxi I cL ccc DCCCXXXVI The Law of Liberty [Eqx W Ww {no number} NEOPHYTE (1°= vu CCXX vi Ix LXXVII XCVI CDLXXIV DCCCXI XII XXVIIL CLXXXV CCCXLI cpxi DCLXXI DCLXXI UNCLASSIFIED: [no number] Liber Artemis lota vel De Coitu Scholia Trivia a Liber Viarum Vie {Eqx 1:7, Gems} Liber Thisharb, Viee Memorie {Eqx 1:7. Gems, MT&P| The Greek Qabalah The Book of Thoth The Heart of the Master Liitle Essays Towards Truth Opus Luterianum, The Paris Working {Eqx WV':2) Liber AXN Erum vel Saeculi, The Vision & the Voice \Equ 1:5. 1N Gems|* Occavpou Eibwhov [Eqx 1:3] An Account of the A.A. (Eqx V1.0 Liber Jugorum |Eqx 1:4, Gems} Gradinum Montis Abiegni [Eqx 1:3.1V: The Star Ruby |Gems. MT&P, ITC Liber Cause [Eqx 11:3. 9. Gems] Liber Astarte vel Beryili [Eqx 1:7. Gems, MT&P] Liber Resh vel Helios |Eqx 1:6, Gems, MT&P. ITC 1:8. M&MAA] Liber 77 vel Spiritus (Eqx 1:7, Gems, MT&P] Liber 4 vel Armorum [Eqx 1:4, Gems, MT&P] The Message of the Master Therion |Eqx 11:1. 10) De Lege Libellum |Eqx MM:1, 10. Gems. ITC 1:2] Khabs am Pekht |Eqx 111:1. 10. Gems} |. 10. Gems. ITC V:9] Liber 4BA. Book Four (Parts 1-IV) Postcards 10 Probarioners |Eqx 1:2. Gems, M&MAAI 1, Gems, M& MAA] Gems, M&MAA] 1:3} 0°) SYLLABUS Liber Liberi vel Lapidis Lacult, Adumbratio Kabbalae |Eqx 11:9] Liber DX vel Legis. The Book of the Law |Eqx 1:10, 11:9, 10. Gems} Liber O vel Manus et Sagitta \Eqx 1:2. Gems, MT&P. M& MAA Liber E vel Exercitiorum |Eqx 1:1. Gems. MT&P, M&MAA] 4 Description of the Cards of the Tarot |Eqx 1:8] Liber Gatas, 4 Handbook of Geomancy |Eqx 1:2] Liber Os Abvsmi vel 7377 |Eqx 1:7. Gems} Energized Enthusiasm [Eqx 1:9, Gems] Gradium Montis Abiegni \Eqx 1:3. 1V:1. Gems, M&MAA| Liber Septem Regum Sanctorum (unpublished) Liber Collegii Sancti |Gems, M& MAA. Eqy 1V:1] Liber H.H.H. VEqx 1:5. Gems. MT&P, M& MAA] Liber A vel Armorum |Eqx 1:4, Gems. MT&P] Liber 87H (unpublished): includes DCLXXI through DCLXXVI Liber Pvramidos \Eqx WW:1]° The Equinox Ritual (unpublished) + Also, serialized. with astrological and Qabalistic commentary. in BLACK PEARL. Vol. I. Nos. 1-10. iso published. as an Appendix. in the College of Thelema’s edition of John St. John,