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“Now therefore, ye children, hear me: Blessed are they that keep my ways. Hear instruction and
be wise, and refuse it not. Blessed is the man that heareth me, and that watcheth daily at my
gates, and waiteth at the posts of my doors. He that shall find me, shall find life, and shall have
salvation from the Lord: But he that shall sin against me, shall hurt his own soul. All that hate me
love death.” 2
1. Retreat Companion For Priests By: Fr. Francis P. Havey, S.S. Chap. III Two Types of Priests, Section II: The Priest
Who Lives to Christ
2. Proverbs 8:32-36
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My Conversion To Catholicism:
The Fruits of Mary, The Mother of God, Mistress and Queen of My Heart
Outside the One Holy Catholic and Apostolic Church headed by Pope Michael there is no
salvation!
"Men are like children born in slavery, who laugh, and play, and enjoy themselves, as if they were
free. It is only the saints, who know the emptiness of the joys of earth, who lament over the
misery of sin." - Self Abandonment To Divine Providence
“All these monsters only come into the world to exercise the courage of the children of God, and
when they have learned enough, God rewards them with the pleasure of killing the monster and
calls new athletes to the battlefield. And so this life is a continual spectacle which makes the joy
of heaven, and is the training of the saints on earth and the confusion of hell. Thus, all that is
opposed to God's Order does but result in making it more adorable. All who freely serve iniquity
become the slaves of justice, and the divine action builds the Heavenly Jerusalem with the ruins
of Babylon.” - Self Abandonment To Divine Providence
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I submit to the One Holy Catholic and Apostolic Church's teachings and doctrines. If I should stray
in this writing I pray that my error will be corrected. By the grace of God I hope that I did not stray
off the path. I submit myself to the current Bishop of Rome, Pope Michael.
“And as Canon 1827 states: He who has a presumption of law in his favor is freed from the
burden of proof, which is thus shifted to his opponent; if the latter cannot prove that the
presumption failed...the judge must render sentence in favor of the one on whose side the
presumption stands." 3
Table of Contents
Calmness And Peacefulness Date around 2005-2006
The Dream Of The Blessed Mother Fall 2006
Vocation To The Priesthood Fall 2006
The Love of the Holy Eucharist Spring of 2007
The Brown Scapular Spring of 2007
Our Lady Of Fatima Spring of 2007
Rain Spring of 2007
Tempted By The Devil And Evil Spirits Spring 2007
The Beginning Of A New Life Spring of 2007
The Transition After College Spring – Summer of 2007
What I Believe To Be A Battle With Devils 7 May 2007
Tears and Comfort 10 May 2007
Awakening and of Despair...Again Summer 2007
Finding Pope Michael Summer - Fall 2007
My Guardian Angel Fall 2007
Thy Will Be Done Fall 2007
Thy Will Be Done Second Time Fall 2007
A Dream Ave Maria Fall 2007
My Mother's Dream and Her Cell Phone December 2007
Being Sick 17 December 2007
Satan In Control Fall of 2007 - Spring of 2008
Testing of My Vocation 30 January 2008
Longing for the Holy Eucharist Summer of 2008
Fork in the Road May 2008
Agony 20 June 2008
Vision of Lucifer Night of 12 July – 13 July 2008
Take up the Standard of the Cross 14 July 2008
Dream of My Grandmother 2004-2005 Possibly
Conclusion Now
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Prologue:
This paper was written in parts. This had taken me over three years to write, and it still
continues. One has to realize that I have been raised in the Norvus Ordo sect (headed by Anti
Pope Benedict XVI) since birth. Which I now know to be heretical and a dangerous sect. As I look
back on my life I believe that am following the guidance of the Blessed Virgin Mary. I have been
wearing the Brown Scapular in her honor. I have faith that She is leading me to Her Son and to
the Holy Mother Church. I put quotes around “Catholic” because I am not a true practicing
Catholic yet and it quotations pertains to the heretical Norvus Ordo ideals, I put an emphasis on
“church” because it is there that they have Novus Ordo (New Order) masses (sacrifice to Satan),
and not the sacrifice of the Mass. I am trying to keep the highest level of accuracy and detail to
these stories so the reader can understand with a three dimensional comprehension of what I
have gone through, but I am liable to mistakes. But being human we are definitely not perfect,
that is why Our Lord and Our Blessed Mother are there for us, to assist us at our darkest hours. I
talk about things of the supernatural and for those whom have not experienced being around
such disturbances, from my opinion they do exist. Just because you cannot recognize with the
five senses that God has given you, does not mean that they are not there. Not being able to
explain it with our insignificant brains and sciences, still does not justify nor strengthen your
position. If one is this closed minded, please I beg you to open your mind. For there is so much
pure evil that God has not shown us because He is very merciful to us. God be praised in that
alone. These are a summation of the supernatural events that have happened in my life (not all
are included). Events that make words almost render to be useless. I will do my best to put a
break in the paper by putting connection points. It might show the reader that the events that are
happening to me are falling to place together. I also use the connection points to bring proof
from good Catholic sources that some events in my life are similar to other people in the past.
Lastly, my grammar skills are not the greatest, and may contain mistakes, despite the number of
times reviewing this paper.
Introduction:
Since senior year high school in 2005 is when I truly became more involved in the
“Catholic” religion. Well in the beginning, when I started to become devoted to the “Catholic”
faith is when both my uncle and grandmother died within about a year from one another. My
uncle died in my junior year of high school and my grandmother died the following year. And I
can recall one night specifically I began to think about the circle of life and knowing that my
parents are next and then I. I became utterly afraid knowing that my parents have been my
source of security blanket. Moreover, knowing in time that they will leave this world as well as I
will. And this unknowingness and being afraid overwhelmed me. I also was trying to discover/re-
light the flame to my “Catholic” faith. I never was this afraid or concerned before. I was raised
“Catholic,” but it was to an extent of mother saying it is time to go to “church” and my brother
and I were always stating, “do we have to?” I began wearing the brown scapular after my
grandmother gave it to me (a year or two before she died). It took me weeks before I actually put
it on. I don’t know why. This introduction is the actual content of what I was thinking about for my
next story.
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His way. I told Him that I am willing to put my life into His hands. (In other words, “be it done to
me according to thy word”4). And then while I was talking in my head about something, all of a
sudden, to explain what I felt is similar to Goosebumps except it wasn't spooky or weird, it was a
very intense feeling of calmness and peace. It was also similar to having your body completely
under water except your mouth, and your mouth was barely on the surface just gasping for air. It
was so great that I began to cry with tears constantly running down my face. And I just couldn't
believe what happened. After that day from then on I have had that same calmness and feelings,
but however in different intensities. But I had to say the following words in my head, God, Lord,
Heavenly Father, Jesus, Merciful Jesus, Heavenly Mother, and Blessed Mother, or any other
Honorary title. And as time grew on my faith did too. And now the sensation of peace and
calmness has come to a point now were I do not have to think any of the words God, Jesus, and
Blessed Mother (etc) in my head, I can simply close my eyes, and feel this calmness, again in
different intensities. It also happens randomly as well. I think there has only been two times were
it was so intense that I could almost not breathe. Words can never describe what I had and have
felt since that day.
Connection:
As I have tried to meditate about this dream it seemed also they, Blessed Virgin
Mary and the devil, were in a fight for my soul. My soul was up for grabs. Thinking
about it now, how helpless I felt during the dream. But it had seemed to me now
that the Blessed Virgin Mary won that battle for me.“I will put enmities between thee
and the woman, and thy seed and her seed: she shall crush thy head, and thou shalt
lie in wait for her heel.” 6
4. Luke 1:38
5. “And a great sign appeared in heaven: A woman clothed with the sun.” Apocalypse 12:1
6. Genesis Chapter 3:15
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Vocation To The Priesthood: Fall 2006 [Viewer Discretion]
The Three Ways of the Spiritual Life, Fr. Reginald Garrigou-Lagrange, Pages 82-83:
“The first conversion is the transition from the state of sin to the state of grace,
whether by baptism or, in the case of those who have lost their baptismal
innocence, by contrition and sacramental absolution. Theologians explain at length
in the treatise on grace what precisely justification is in an adult, and how and why it
requires, under the influence of grace, acts of faith, hope, charity and contrition, or
detestation of sin committed.7 This purgation by the infusion of habitual grace and
the remission of sins is in a sense the type or pattern of all the subsequent
purgations of the soul, all of which involve acts of faith, hope, charity and contrition.
Often this first conversion comes about after a more or less painful crisis in which
the soul progressively detaches itself from the spirit of the world, like the prodigal
son, to come back to God. It is God always who makes the first step towards us, as
the Church has taught against the Semi-pelagians; it is He who inspires the good
movement in us, that initial goodwill which is the beginning of salvation. For this
purpose, by His grace and by the trials to which He subjects the soul, He as it were
'tills' the ground of the soul before sowing the divine seed within it; He drives a first
furrow therein, a furrow upon which He will later return, to dig more deeply still and
eradicate the weeds which remain; much as the vine-tender does with the vine
when it has already grown, to free from all that may retard its development. After
this first conversion, if the soul does not fall again into mortal sin, or at all events if
it rises from sin without delay and seeks to make progress, it is then the purgative
way of beginners.”
I, Phil Friedl, almost lost my virginity. How horrible I feel in the eyes of my heavenly Father.
How worthless I feel for betraying Him. I through my own fault, had allowed a woman to seduce
me. I never had any alcoholic drink in my life, except two sips of champaign with orange juice.
That was after a new years eve party with family, when I was around tweleve years old. And they
did not inform me that it had champaign in it until after I had tasted it. And that is the only time
in my life. So to presume that I was a drunkard when this sinful and wicked act was performed is
false and erroneous. Despite the wickedness and sins that was created between the other
woman and I, by sticking to the truest form of the definition of sexual intercourse, I could have
never lost my virginity by what did happen. Did the actions between the woman and I degrade
our souls? Yes very much so, it stained my soul dearly. After that event I could not forgive myself.
When my mother first said to me, “never have sex before your married” that impressed upon my
soul so deeply, about the importance of virginity. So having offended God so dearly by this wicked
act, I offended my mother by not obeying her. I should have fled from that occasion. I believe I
will only be able to forgive myself is when I am forgiven by a priest (since the priest is the
mediator between man and God. The priest acts on behalf of Jesus Christ, but it is God who truly
forgives the sins of men, not men.) Or when I am able to make a perfect act of contrition, for that
is a great grace to obtain from God. My whole life I had cherished the value of my virginity. I put it
on a pedal stool for all to see. (All: God, the Blessed Virgin Mary, the Angels and Saints) My
happiness laid where my purity and virginity was. But I was a fool to almost had it thrown away. I
was reading about guardian angels in a book I had purchased. I had wept profusely after I had
read this quote. I will probably always will. “If God has called you to the religious life or to the holy
7. Cf. Council of Trent (Denzinger, 798) and St. Thomas, I-IIae, Qcxiii art. 1-8 inclusive
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priesthood, your Guardian Angel will protect you from the temptations of the world and help you
to preserve your virginal purity, to offer it to God at the altar by your holy vows or to offer the
sacred Body of Christ with unstained hands and holy lips as a priest of the Most High.” 8
Definition of Virginal:
1. of pertaining to, characteristic of, or befitting a virgin: virginal purity.
2. Continuing in a state of virginity 9
Connection:
“It is certain that a child preserved in its innocence by a good education is more
precious treasure in the eyes of God than all the kingdoms of the world.” 10
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d) By zeal for the glory of God and the salvation of souls;
e) By talent and linking for higher studies” 13
Connection:
“For if a man live chastely all his life, it is God who preserves him; if he be converted
from immorality to a pure life, it is God who reforms him; and if he continue in his
disorder till the end, it is also God who justly forsakes him.” 14 It is obvious proof,
from my perspective, that God had protected my virginity, not by my merits. Giving
myself with an examination of conscience, it only reaffirms with past memories that
it could have only been God who protected me, since I can recall much impureness
spewing forth from my head (eight years being a slave to lust from the age of twelve
to the age of twenty). Well why in the world would the Mother of God want to protect
the most worthless creature? My whole life life I longed for a girlfriend, and then get
married, as I will later get into more details. There is no woman like the Blessed
Virgin Mary. No woman could ever come near the standard of the Mother of God. So
thinking to myself, well if I am truly being called to the priesthood, I must live a
chaste life, and cannot be married. But however there have been priests and other
men who for the honor of the Blessed Virgin Mary, have given their chaste love to
her. “When Saint Thomas of Canterbury was a young man, he was once in company
with other youths, each of whom was perhaps boasting of some foolish love affair.
The holy young man declared that he also loved and was beloved by a great Lady,
meaning the most Blessed Virgin. He afterwards felt some remorse at having
boasted of this. Being anxious on the subject, behold Mary appeared to him, and
with gracious sweetness said, 'Thomas, why fearest thou? Thou hadst reason to say
that thou lovest me, and that thou wast loved by me. Assure thy companions of this;
and as a pledge of the love I bear thee show them this gift which I now bestow upon
thee.' The gift was a small box, containing a chasuble of a blood-red colour, as a
token that Mary, for the love she bore him, had obtained the grace for him from
God, that he should become a priest and a martyr. This was verified; for he became
a priest, then Archbishop of Canterbury in England, where he was first of all
persecuted by the King, and had to fly to the Cistercian monastery of Pontigny in
France. When there, he was one day mending the hair-shirt which he usually wore;
but not being able to do it well, his beloved Queen appeared to him, and with
extraordinary kindness took it from his hands and repaired it as it should be done.
After this he returned to Canterbury, and died a martyr, having been put to death on
account of the zeal he had sown for his Church.” 15 So if such a Saint such as
Thomas of Canterbury has done it, why cannot I? I thus have given my virginity and
chaste love to the Blessed Virgin Mary, to protect and behold for all of eternity.
So to sum this story up why I believe I am called by God to be a priest. My logic, reasoning,
and supportive facts are below. The numbers does not mean that number one is the highest
priority or most loved, or sought after. The numbering is simply just a list.
1. I was protected by my guardian angel from losing my virginity.
2. The conversion from a life of sin
3. Love of the Blessed Virgin Mary
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4. If the Lord wills it, martyrdom in defending the Catholic Faith.
5. I want release the poor souls in purgatory.
6. Spread devotion of the Holy Rosary and the Brown Scapular
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after I had prayed, but I had faith. So I went back to whatever I was doing and some time
elapsed. I do not remember how much time had passed, but I got ready to leave and without
even realizing the rain had stopped, I looked outside. I saw some light in the distance and the
clouds were moving away from where I was living. As if the Blessed Mother reminded me of what
I prayed for.
The Glories of Mary, St. Alphonsus Liguori, Page 47: “And this is precisely what the
Blessed Virgin herself Said to St. Bridget: However much a man sins, I am ready
immediately to receive him when he repents; nor do I pay attention to the number
of his sins, but only to the intention with which he comes; I do not disdain to anoint
and heal his wounds; for I am called, and truly am, the Mother of Mercy.”
The Autobiography of St. Anthony Mary Claret, Pages 24-26: “One day, as I was lying
in bed at about 10:30 in the morning, a terrible temptation assailed me. I turned to
the Holy Mother of God for help, invoked the aid of my holy guardian angel, and
prayed to the saints whose names I bore, as well as to those of my special devotion.
Moreover, I endeavored with all possible effort to distract myself by directing my
attention to indifferent things, for I thought that I would in this way get rid of the
17. Saint Matthew 18:10
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temptation and forget it. I made the Sign of the Cross on my forehead, asking Our
Lord to free me from these impure thoughts. But all was in vain. Finally, I changed
to the other side of the bed to see if by this means the temptation would disappear.
Behold, there appeared in all her beauty and sweetness, Mary, the Holy Mother of
God. Her dress was of bright red, her mantle blue, and in her arms I saw a garland
of exquisitely beauty roses. I had seen in Barcelona the most beautiful roses, both
natural and artificial, but they could not be compared to those held by our Blessed
Mother that morning. As I lay in bed, I saw myself as a beautiful child on bended
knees with hands joined in prayer. I never forgot for one moment the presence of
the Blessed Mother, upon whom my gaze was lovingly fixed. I remember distinctly
that I had this thought: 'It is a woman, and this does not cause evil thoughts; rather
they have all disappeared.' Then the Blessed Mother addressed me with these
words: 'Anthony, this crown is for you if you conquer.' There was, moreover, a group
of saints at my right side, all in an attitude of prayer. I did not recognize any of them
except one, who looked like St. Stephen. It was my opinion then, and indeed it still
is, that these were my patron saints praying and interceding for me, so that I might
not succumb to the temptation. To my left I saw a great multitude of demons drawn
up in order like soldiers who fall back to form lines after a battle has been fought.
Seeing them, I murmured, “What a multitude there is! And how strong they look!”
While all this was going on, I was as one taken by surprise, for I did not know what
was happening to me. As soon as it was all over, I found myself free from the
temptation and with a joy so deep that I scarcely knew whence it came. I am
positive that I was not sleeping, nor was I suffering from dizziness of the head, nor
from any other infirmity that could cause a similar illusion. What made me believe
that this was a reality and a special grace from the Blessed Virgin was that for many
years afterwards I was not assailed by any temptations against chastity. If later on
an impure temptation came to me, it was so insignificant that it did not even merit
the name of temptation. All praise to Mary! Another victory to Mary!”
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the will of my life, not God's. And it would have ended up with my eternal damnation indefinitely
if I had pursued it one hundred percent. And I will give some context on why this is not the will of
God, which is the most important will ever. So when I was still in college in my last semester
there, I liked this girl a lot. And I thought my friend and I were the only people who liked her.
When I got to know her more and more, there seemed to be more and more people admitting to
her that they liked her more then in just in a friendship way. That seemed to me a subtle note
from God to walk away from her. He was putting resistance between her and myself. (But I was
head of heels for this girl, and was completely ignorant of my salvation sadly). After I had dinner
with her and about 12 other people, I had felt that she might like me (from my perspective)
[Later confirmed it by a conversation with her after I moved back home and she moved to New
York]. But with about six other people telling her that they like her she was not ready for a
relationship, I could only assume, but I did not want to think that. There was one night in
particular that I will not forget, unless God wills me to forget it. She was really upset one night
and she called me and eventually I ended up being with her in a computer lab talking to her. It
calmed her down. And after I had left there, it felt as if something was different in the air.18 I
knew something was not right. As I got back to my room, I sat next to the computer and by the
grace of God that this was not what God has willed for me to do. (As in keep chasing after this
woman. Since it is not the will of God and will not lead me my eternal home, heaven). I wept
about losing her. She had many of the ideal features, personality etc. I had always looked for in a
woman. I eventually said, “God if you want me to walk away from her, let thy will be done.” So I
was indeed searching for the will of God for me, but first I had to find the One Holy Catholic and
Apostolic Church. While I was still in college I had been searching for the Catholic Church, due to
the lack of sleep and the depression that I believe God had justly gave to me, I thought the One
Holy Catholic and Apostolic Church was in Australia, and I believed then that Antipopes John Paul
II & Benedict XVI were true popes. And it is obvious now that a heretic cannot be a pope, but due
to my own ignorance I did not know. I actually convinced myself that I would go to Australia for
this heretical sect thinking it was the Catholic Church. But it indeed was the devil deceiving me.
(As I look back at it now all my confusion was a result in a lack of a Catholic Education because I
did not know the dogmas of the faith.) But during this time I got in an argument with my father.
That I did not want to do engineering anymore thinking that the priesthood is my vocation. He
due to his anger, threw a fit. (The reasons why he got upset, I do not recall). And I walked away
from the restaurant. I knew that I could not contribute anything positive to that conversation. My
father in his anger said awful things as he drove by in the car, because I did not want to talk. He
did that a couple times. As I walked back to my room where I had been living in DeKalb, I was
passing a Catholic cemetery. I saw a statue of the Blessed Virgin Mary. I took out my rosary, knelt
down, and wept to her while trying to say the rosary, because I did not know what to do. I felt so
terribly lost. I prayed that She would lead me to Her Son, that I might be saved as well as others
(family, friends, and enemies). This is the first time I had thought for myself. Because for the last
18. As time grew on it seemed that she did not like me, why I thought that specifically I do not know, but as I found
out later I was terribly wrong. Instead of asking her, if she had liked me, I asked one of her friends. Her friend said
that she was not looking for anyone. Guys around the place where this particular lady and I were hanging out, were
admitting they had feelings for her. So I despaired thinking she did not like me because it seemed as if there was a
never ending gauntlet and obstacles. I thought to myself there is no way that this beautiful lady whom I had fallen
madly in love with could ever like me. Which later on that night made me say: “God if you want me to walk away
from her, let thy will be done.” I stumbled across this note the other day it made me almost wept: “You should never
frown, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.” There are many times in our life we think
about the what ifs. But that is all but self love brewing up the past. That is vanity and worldliness sticking a sword of
sorrow into the heart. “If the Word is to be defended, we are ready. This is the whole spirit of chivalry.” Chivalry,
Chapter I: The Origin of Chivalry, Leon Gautier.
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twenty years, I had been obedient as best as I could, in honor of my father and mother, I went to
college to do mechanical engineering for them. Ever since I was a child I just did what my father
and mother expected me to do, engineering, as long as it was engineering. (One has to realize is
that I was obedient because I love them. As any child should do. For what a loving parent goes
through for their child. Should not a child do the same? The only exception if one should be
obedient to a parent is if they ask you that would make you sin, contrary to God's
commandments, and God's will for your vocation.) After that weekend, my father wept about
what he had done. And cried to my mother. And due to what he had done, he is now going to a
family counselor, us included. I pray that my father will get rid of his anger. (Please keep my
father in your prayers.) It was also during this time I would have to say that God had scared the
heck out of me, by showing me the pains of hell and the reasons why people go there. I was on
the verge of despairing or I was in despair for months now. Because the good Lord has shown to
me all my wrongdoings by an examination of conscience. It was indeed such a tribulation the
good Lord had put me through. At the times of my tribulation, I, just like Saint Paul,had asked
God to take away the pain.
“And lest the greatness of the revelations should exalt me, there was given me a sting of
my flesh, an angel of Satan, to buffet me. For which thing thrice I besought the Lord, that it might
depart from me. And he said to me: My grace is sufficient for thee; for power is made perfect in
infirmity. Gladly therefore will I glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may dwell in me.”
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However, I was unable to profit from Holy Scriptures because I had not read the Holy Bible
during that time of temptation. As I slowly began to read such wisdom now, I can understand
how God helps a poor sinner to prevent from coming to a point of despair. And through such
tribulation that I personally had, it is very refreshing to hear such things.
I wanted to keep the reader aware of this horrible persecution that I had on my soul. And
that this had lasted for over months. The only hope I had was through the Blessed Virgin Mary,
and by the means of the Holy Rosary, will I ever be forgiven for the wickedness that I have done
so far with my life. I was in such a sorrowful time that I had wept for every poor soul that did not
know God, and whom did not hold the Christian Faith, 20 including myself. I am still very sadden
by the fact that the world has virtually came back to its pagan roots. What grief fills my soul. I am
still very concerned with not only my salvation but every single person who is still alive. There was
a quote from a book, that gave me great hope. Well actually a couple, and I am going to reprint
them here.
“If you say the Rosary faithfully until death, I do assure you that, in spite of the
gravity of your sins 'you shall receive a never fading crown of glory.”' (1 Peter 5:4)
Even if you are on the brink of damnation, even if you have one foot in hell, even if
you have sold your soul to the devil as sorcerers do who practice black magic, and
even if you are a heretic as obstinate as a devil, sooner or later you will be converted
and will amend your life and save your soul, if-and mark well what I say-if you say
the Holy Rosary devoutly everyday until death for the purpose of knowing the truth
and obtaining contrition and pardon for you sins.” 21
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“No one can live continually in sin and continue to say the Rosary-either he will give
up sin or he will give up the Rosary.”- Bishop Hugh Boyle 22
I recited the first quote night after night, “If you say the Rosary faithfully until death...”.
Before I said the rosary. And never gave up hope. For hope keeps you striving toward your
salvation. Even if it was the tiniest shred of hope. I held on to it as if a 200 mph Tornado of
despair was about to suck me up. My only hope was in the Blessed Virgin Mary. “Amen, amen I
say to you, that you shall lament and weep, but the world shall rejoice; and you shall be made
sorrowful, but your sorrow shall be turned into joy.” 23 And gradually after that by the end of that
semester I had completely stopped talking to any of my friends from college, because God in His
infinite wisdom knew that they were endangering my eternal salvation. The Lord had provided for
me time to think and breathe. With all this commotion going on, I had barely had the time to
breathe. The worse part about this whole situation is that my friends do not seek for the truth,
well not many people do for that matter. They are similar to people whom are bed ridden from a
sickness. They concern themselves about things of worldliness. This hurts me more than
anything. It is like seeing a bunch of people torturing a person you love dearly, and you are
staring into their eyes seeing their pain, a nightmare unfold before your very eyes, and all you can
do is weep. Just like the Mother of Sorrows witnessing the crucifixion of Her Son. My heart is torn
for all my friends who are very lost inside and do not simply wish to look outside at the beautiful
dew of God's goodness. I understand a very small portion of how the Mother of Sorrows feels. To
me this is more agonizing then being burnt to a stake, because of the love for them. For love has
no true measurement. God's will is for me to be a priest (to the best of my knowledge, I will
explain further). And I wanted to chase after a woman I had really liked. As I look at the will of
God now, it is indeed a cross for me to carry, especially after what happened at the heretical
“Vatican II”, but did Jesus Christ half way up to Calvary threw the cross down and said He had
enough? My pain is my comfort, my pain is the love I receive from my Lord, “For whom the Lord
loveth, he chastiseth.” 24 Boy it is truly the beautiful dew fallen from the clouds of Heaven. There
is nothing this irresistible in this world that could ever separate my love for my Savior and the
Blessed Virgin anymore. So from then I, I have given up my will for the Will of God. What joys that
fills my heart to finally to have found the One Holy Catholic and Apostolic Church. My search has
finally ended. I cannot explain the relief I have felt from that alone. “...Thy will be done on earth
as it is in heaven...Amen.” 25
Jesus Christ did not do His will, but the Will of His Father. “And going a little further, he fell
upon his face, praying, and saying: My Father, if it be possible, let this chalice pass from me.
Nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.” 26
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recognize. I originally thought nothing of it, but it would come back over and over again in about
the same time interval. As I keeping stating that this sound was so petrifying that words cannot
began to paint a picture in the reader's mind. Every time I had heard this sound chills went down
my spine and it was hard for me to breath. Just by the sound of this thing my muscles began to
stiffen. I am going to attempt though through my ignorance to categorize the sound. It sounded
like somebody was choking. But it was not any normal choking noise that would come from a
human being. So for about five to ten minutes I tried to ignore it and tried wishing it away, but it
would not stop. So I thought that it was my turn to fight back and terrify this thing back into the
depths of Hell from once it came. I always have my weapon on me whether wrapped around my
hand, my arm, or in my pocket. So I took it out made the sign of the cross and began praying the
rosary. I got about half way into the first decade and the noise stopped. I think I might have
finished off that decade. I am not quite sure. But in any case the noise had gone away and had
not come back. So I have to give another thanks to my ever loving Blessed Mother who is
watching over me.
Begone Satan, Fr. Carl Vogl, Page 36: “During the process of exorcism, the evil
spirits repeatedly made statements to the effect that they would tire and exhaust
the pastor. One time in the middle of the night he was suddenly awakened by a
disturbance in the room. Were rats gnawing somewhere? It seemed to between the
walls near his bed. Was there so much room there that the rats could run about so
freely? During his fourteen years in this same house he had never experienced
anything of the kind. Was he to be bothered with such miserable pests at last? He
pounded the wall with his fist to scare away the rodents. But to no avail He first used
his cane, then his shoe, to pound on the wall. Instead of letting up, the noise
became worse. Perhaps the night prowlers would disappear of their own accord. He
waited and would disappear of their accord. He waited and waited. They continued
up and down between the walls, and even threatened to ruin them. Father Steiger
was in need of a good night's rest after all the disturbances during the day. An idea
came that seemed altogether to foolish. Could there be some relation between
these night prowlers and the evil spirits of the exorcism? Had not the devils
threatened to tire him out? Perhaps this is what they meant after all. If so, then
there is only one thing to do, and that is to use spiritual weapons against these
intruders. Fortifying himself with his stole, the pastor again tried to sleep. At last the
noise let up, but not altogether. “Wait, you cursed hellrats, I'll get rid of you yet!”
Getting up again, he lit two candles before a crucifix and recited the small formula
of exorcism against evils spirits. Aha! That was the language these hellrats
understand. They took to flight and all as quiet. They seemed to have spirited, blown
off now, although all previous thumping and pounding on the walls had brought no
results.”
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down for the truth. Very few people know the benefits of the rosary and use it for that purpose.
Many people give the rosary lip service and no love. A wretch like me continues to do it, may God
help me pray better. To begin this beautiful story, I was weeping for about six decades in a row
starting with the Joyful mysteries. I continued on weeping at the mystery of the agony at the
garden. I began to have an infinitesimal idea of what our Lord suffered through at the garden of
Gethsemane. Since I have not done a true confession in twenty years, one has to realize the
horror of how many sins that I have racked up. What sorrow and tears alone that fills up my eyes.
I have wept about that too time and time again just because of the evil that I have done to our
Lord. How unworthy I am to the eyes of our Lord and our Savior. From my perspective since that I
am not in a state of grace God has turned his eye away from me. When I was praying the holy
rosary I never felt that alone in my life. I then said, “I do not even have my Blessed Mother to
comfort me just like Jesus. How much sorrow and discomfort I feel. What sadness comes to my
soul. I do not know how Jesus our Savior did it. God be praised that He did the will of His Father.”
But in any case around the fourth decade in the sorrowful mysteries I stopped crying. Let me
explain to you how it came about. The suddenness was amazing in itself. Lets say that a burning
candle was representing my sorrowfulness and my tears. It was as if our Blessed Mother took a
breathe and blew out the light, the light of my tears and my sorrowfulness. It was as if the
Blessed Mother had wiped away my tears with Her own hand. I then began to cry in tears, but of
Joy. And this is all while praying the Holy Rosary. I kept continued on praying while I was crying,
this time not from sorrowfulness, but from joyfulness. I continued on through the glorious
mysteries. When I got to the Assumption of the Blessed Virgin Mary into Heaven and the
Coronation of Our Lady as Queen of Heaven and Earth. I began to laugh...I started praying the
rosary crying and I ended up praying the rosary laughing.
The Secret Of The Rosary, St. Louis De Montfort, Page 86: I am reading a wonderful
book by St. Louis De Montfort about the Holy Rosary. I wanted to give a little excerpt
from it. “One day Our Lady said to Blessed Alan: I want people who have a devotion
to my rosary to have my Son's grace and blessed during their lifetime and at their
death, and after their death I want them to be freed from all slavery so that they will
be like kings wearing crowns and with scepters in their hands and enjoying eternal
glory.” God be praised on those blessings alone! Continuation of the excerpt... Be
that as it may I shall say no more than to assure you, in the words of Blessed Alan
de la Roche, that the Holy Rosary is the root and the storehouse of countless
blessings. For through the Holy Rosary:
Sinners are forgiven
Souls that thirst are refreshed
Those who are fettered have their bonds broken
Those who weep find happiness
Those who are tempted find peacefulness
The poor find help
Religious are reformed
Those who are ignorant are instructed
Living learn to overcome pride
The dead (the Holy Souls) have their pains eased by suffrages.”
I started the Holy Rosary weeping and by the grace of God I was given happiness and
comfort. God be praised for all of His mercifulness. Do not doubt for one second that the Blessed
Virgin Mary does not keep Her promises. Thank you Jesus and Mary!
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Awakening and of Despair...Again: Summer 2007
As I have been learning more and more of my faith I have began to realize how God can
begin to open a soul's mind to reality and that is a grace of fear of the Lord. God scared the heck
out of me. And I still fear my Lord. His divine Justice is very infinite and very painful. That is what
Hell is. For all the unrepentant sinners or the ungrateful ones at the time of their deaths reap
what they sow. “For what things a man shall sow, those also shall he reap. For he that soweth in
his flesh, of the flesh also shall reap corruption. But he that soweth in the spirit, of the spirit shall
reap life everlasting.” 27 And by the mercy and grace of God. I have been thankful for Him for
awakening me up and sent me a chilling message. If I do not live for God and do not glorify God
in what I do every day I deserve the fires of Hell. Simply because people whom are ungrateful to
God deserve the fires of Hell including myself. I was in my own ignorance and horrible sins for
twenty years. By the grace of God, He has awoke me up to reality that every breathe I take may
be my last and that is how one should live. For the glory of God and nothing else. If you cannot
glorify God in the act you would be doing then there is not point in doing it. So for whatever time I
have on this earth I am striving to be perfect in what I do for the glory of God. “Be you therefore
perfect, as also your heavenly Father is perfect.” 28 “The fear of the Lord is a crown of wisdom,
filling up peace and the fruit of salvation:” 29 God Almighty decided in His infinite wisdom to let
the devil tempt me to despair. And during this horrendous time, I relied on the Blessed Virgin
Mary. She was my closest and best intercessor, that I will ever have with God. But in any case, I
had sunk so deeply because this time I had murmured against God's divine and holy providence.
For which I truly regret and am sorrowful for. And I had continually been through this despair until
I had found Pope Michael the 1st. But for those months that I was in despair or on the verge of
despairing, I had held firm to the holy rosary. I, a wretched sinner, could not see the mercy of our
Lord when I was in that horrible time of temptation of despair.
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God that I found Pope Michael 1st. There has been a significant problem for me personally that I
was having, every time I found a traditionalist monastery or a traditionalist priesthood, I found
something better, or the will of God lead me somewhere else, in a completely different direction.
As if the devil deceived me, and God knew how ignorant I am, lead me to a safer pasture. For
example, I was going to go to Australia for a monastery, but looking back on it now it is a
heretical cult, and I would have been in big trouble for my salvation. My next one was between a
heretical traditionalist monastery and a traditionalist priesthood. I am indeed more stubborn
than a mule, because when I was interested in the monastery, I was thinking well I can just do
reparation for the rest of my life. And I felt a strong gravitation toward the priesthood despite it
was a traditionalist one. It cost money that I do not have. So I thought to myself well, “I do not
want to be a priest.” So I wanted to recall to our readers, Jesus Christ did the will of His Father.
Jesus Christ did not do his will. Moreover, after I found the Pope Michael’s website, I saw that was
traditionalism was indeed a heretical error, condemned as Gallicanism most notably at 1870's
Vatican Council and only Vatican Council. I was too ignorant to know that until I saw the pope’s
website. I was happy that God show my ignorant self to my salvation. And the apostasy was so
great that it dwindled down to about six laity (not including Russia and China). The Church went
from hundreds of millions in 1958 to just a handful, as of 1990, six elected Pope Michael. “And
they that remain of the trees of his forest shall be so few, that they shall easily be numbered, and
a child shall write them down.” 32
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impossible to you.” 34
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serious vomiting, a migraine headache, and a 102 degree fever within about two hours. The
whole sickness lasted from 0300 to 1630, as time went on the pain began to dwindled. I was
crowned a King, but alas my foolishness threw it away, I departed my heart plus my thoughts
from God which made my crown crumble away to mere dust.
The Way of Divine Love, Sister Josefa Menédez, Pages 539-541: “Josefa would say
later that during this night the devil was given so absolute a power of mastering her
free will that she felt as though she were possessed by a strange and irresistible
force which made her think, will and even experience physically what she would
never wish to think, or will, or experience. A realization whose origin was not from
within herself, suddenly and abruptly imposed itself upon her mind so clearly, that
she could not reject it: ...At other times, she quite unlike herself, and those who
approached her were keenly aware that “another” had possession of her. The joy of
believing herself cured, of being free from the path so long dreaded, free to live her
own life, to enjoy life...all this was expressed in the very tone of her voice, which an
assertiveness, irony, and an expression of face so unlike herself that it made one
shudder...For the time being she was completely transformed into another
person...for never had her mortified soul felt such impressions or spoken in that
way. One could feel the interior struggle that must be going on, and that made her
silence more painful still. What prayers and supplications arose to heaven for her
enlightenment and deliverance! Nothing counted in that terrible trial, but suffering.”
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Testing of My Vocation: 30 January 2008
The place were I am working there is a certain lady. This woman caught a glance of me
and ever since, I nicked named her “Star Gazer.” Defining that to be, one constantly watching me.
As one would gaze at stars thus the name Star Gazer. The first three days of work were wicked,
being thus. My will was revolting against God's will. The feelings of wanting a vocation in
marriage were sprouting again. But reason and grace rose to my aide in this perpetual battle.
After the third day as I was coming home, could not handle it emotionally, not knowing whether
my vocation was in the priesthood or that of marriage. I went to the Catholic cemetery to offer up
my prayers to the faithful souls that are suffering. I said three Hail Marys in honor of them, that
they might be released or at least relieved. And asked on whether my vocation was that of
marriage, or the priesthood. The next day, the first time I woke up I was half asleep, and fell
immediately back to sleep. The second time, when I fully woke up, I zealously wanted to preach
the Roman Catechism, published by St. Pope Pius V. The whole day that was all I could think
about was preaching. Stargazer has many meanings. Sailors looked to the stars for guidance
when they are lost. The stars are themselves almost like a map. If a experienced sailor looks at
the stars he can bring the ship home. But an inexperience sailor does not understand how to use
the stars. So does Stargazer. She does not know that her home is Heaven because living a life as
a pagan. She is blinded by the vanity and the puff of smoke it gives off. Will she be lost at sea?
Only God knows.
The Story of a Soul, Saint Therese of Lisieux, Page 188: “When the Mother Prioress
asked her if his were the first rapture she had experienced, she answered quite
simply; I have had several transports of love, and the one in particular during my
novitiate, when I remained for a whole week far removed from the world. It is
impossible for me to explain it, but it seemed as though I went about my work with
a body other than my own, and that a veil had been cast over all earthly things. But I
was not then consumed by a real flame; I was able to bear it all, without hope of
seeing the ties that bound me to life give way under the weight of joy; whilst on the
occasion of which I speak, one minute – one second – more and and my soul must
have left the body...Alas! I found myself again on earth and spiritual dryness once
more took possession of my heart.”
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Fork in the Road: May 2008
The Three Ways of the Spiritual Life, Fr. Reginald Garrigou-Lagrange, Page 85-86:
“But what happens, usually, at this stage? Practically all beginners, when they
receive these sensible consolations, take too much complacency in them; they
regard them as though they were an end in themselves, and not merely a means to
higher things. They then become an obstacle to their progress; they are a occasion
of spiritual greed, of curiosity in the things of God, of an unconscious pride which
leads the recipient to talk about his favours and under a pretext of doing good to
others, to pose as a master in the spiritual life. Then as St. John of the Cross says,
“the seven capital sins make their appearance, no longer in the gross form, but in
order of spiritual things, as so many obstacles to a true and solid piety. Accordingly,
by a logical and vital transition, a second conversion becomes necessary, described
by St. John of the Cross under the name of the passive purgation of the senses. Of
this he says that it is ' common and comes to many; these are beginners,' and that
its purpose is to lead them into 'the road and way of the spirit, which is that of
progressives and proficients...they way of infused contemplation wherewith God
Himself feeds and refreshes the soul.' This purgation is characterized by a prolonged
aridity of the senses, in which the beginner is deprived of all those sensible
consolations in which he had taken too great complacency. If in the midst of this
aridity there is an intense desire for God, a desire that He should reign in us,
together with a fear of offending Him, then this is a second sign that it is a divine
purgation. Still more so, if to this intense desire for God there is added a difficultly in
praying according to the discursive method, and an inclination towards the prayer of
simple regard, with love. This is the third sign that the second conversion is in
progress, and that the soul is being raised up to a higher form of life, that of the
illuminative way. If the soul endures this purgation satisfactorily its sensibility
becomes more and more subject to the spirit; the soul is cured of its spiritual greed
and the pride that had led it to pose as a master; it learns better to recognize its
own neediness. Not infrequently there arise other difficulties pertaining to the
process of purgation, for example, in study, in our relations with persons to whom
we are too greatly attached, and from whom God now swiftly and painfully detaches
our affections. At this time, too, there arise often enough grave temptation against
chastity and patience, temptations which God allows so that by reaction against
them these virtues, which reside in the sensible part of our nature, may become
more firmly and truly rooted in us. Illness, too, may be sent to try us during this
period. In this crisis God again tills the ground of the soul, digging deeper in the
furrow which He has already driven at the moment of our first conversion: He is
uprooting the evil weeds, or the relics of sin, 'reliquias peccati.'”
Throughout the history of men, there have been at times when they had a fork in the road.
All men have this decision to be Just or Wicked. So it has come down to my turn to live a just life
or a wicked one. Which one will I choose? I pray that I will live a just life. There are two women
that my heart loves. Thus grief and anxiety is filled to the brim. My conscience rebukes me that I
must only choose one. This is a story that shows the joy of serving the Blessed Virgin Mary. The
other lady that my heart was torn over is Stargazer. The weeds in my soul have grown farther
down so it is a tougher root to pull out. My conscience again is scolding me for being an
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adulterer. 35 I did give my chaste love to the Blessed Virgin Mary, but somehow I had fallen deeply
for Stargazer. After battling for quite some weeks my heart could not handle it. Looking at both
hands while sitting on a chair, I said, “On the one hand I have Heaven, and on the other I have
Hell. Heaven consists of the Blessed Virgin Mary. Hell consists of my lustful desires which might
be fulfilled in Stargazer.” I turned to the hand that represented Heaven, and with my eyes full of
tears, “Why are you so hard to pick? This should be such an easy choice!” Then I went to bed in
tears. When I woke up, words cannot describe what happened, but I will try through my abundant
ignorance.
Art of Prayer, Martial Lekeux O.F.M., Page 263-264: "That is all well and good," you
say, "but how do you put sentiments in the heart when they are not there: Love—
affective love— cannot be requisitioned. It depends on a thousand imponderable
factors independent of the will." Are you so sure that love is not requisitioned? Not
directly, to be sure, but we can to a certain extent incite it, open the way for it, and
help to awaken it. See how matters come to pass in certain "arranged marriages." A
meeting is arranged in which the parties concerned get acquainted. They have never
seen other, and at the outset they are perfectly indifferent toward each other. But
notice the exchange of looks. Despite their concern to conceal their pleasant
surprise, the exchange of glances is very enlightening and we easily surmise the
following reflections. "What pretty eyes she has," he notices. And she is thinking:
"He is good looking." Then, he says: "I like her serious and modest manner." Then,
after he has retorted with a happy repartee, she says: "How intelligent and witty he
is." And so on. They find out more about each other; they study each other; they
discover one another. They accumulate the wherewith for the work of idealization
which will be in the making during the hours to follow. Since everything seems to
point to their eventual marriage, the parents will arrange for later meetings which in
turn will lead to new discoveries. So much so that at the end of six months both
partners are convinced that they have found the pearl of great price and that God
created them especially for each other. The announcement of the engagement has
all but to be made. The curious thing about it all is that the same thing would have
happened had a different candidate been involved. We might note this also:
sometimes it suffices that this evolution of love takes place on the part of one only.
The other becomes aware of how much he is loved, and is touched by it. This
prepares the way for the rest, and soon love is returned. Love attracts love.”
We all know the spark of pure love. There is a difference between a love of another
because of lust and the love another because of chastity. This spark of love (that of chastity),
which only lasted for no longer than 2 minutes was indescribable. During this transport of love I
said two Hail Mary's in thanksgiving of the charity shown by the Blessed Virgin Mary. (It roughly
takes me about a minute to say a Hail Mary). If you were to combine all the sinful wicked
pleasures I had for over the past eight years, it is like a drop of water in comparison to the
ocean. The ocean represents the intensity of this holy chaste love that lasted for only about two
minutes. The love was so intense I could not lay still on my back my body was tossing and
turning. What did this event do? The night before I was fettered, but after that event I had that
bond broken. I suspect in these upcoming days there will be many more battles to come!
“Be that as it may I shall say no more than to assure you, in the words of Blessed Alan de
35. I am an adulterer in the sense that I love chastely another woman besides the Blessed Virgin Mary.
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la Roche, that the Holy Rosary is the root and the storehouse of countless blessings. For
through the Holy Rosary:
Sinners are forgiven
Souls that thirst are refreshed
Those who are fettered have their bonds broken
Those who weep find happiness
Those who are tempted find peacefulness
The poor find help
Religious are reformed
Those who are ignorant are instructed
Living learn to overcome pride
The dead (the Holy Souls) have their pains eased by suffrages.” 36
The Story of a Soul, Saint Therese of Lisieux, Page 188: “On another occasion she
related the following incident: A few days after the oblation of myself to God's
Merciful Love I was in the choir, beginning the Way of the Cross, when suddenly I felt
myself wounded by a dart of fire so ardent that I thought I should die. I cannot
describe the transport, and no comparison would convey an idea of the intensity of
the flame. It seemed as though an invisible force plunged me wholly into fire... But
what fire! What sweetness! Footnote: The great St. Teresa of Avila (Spain), reformer
of the Carmelites, who completed her autobiography in 1562 at the command of
her confessor, gives there an account of the following vision, I saw – she says – an
angel very near me in bodily form, an unusual thing, for though angels are often
represented to me it is only by intellectual vision. He was rather small and very
beautiful, and his face shone so brilliantly that he appeared to be one of the
seraphim who look all on fire with divine love. He had in his hand a long golden dart
tipped, I thought, with fire- which he seemed to me to thrust several times though
my heart, leaving me wholly inflamed with a great love of God. The Saint died in
1582, and while her body lies incorrupt at Alba de Tormes, her heart, bearing
distinctly the mark of the fiery dart, is preserved at Avila.”
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vapour which appeareth for a little while, and afterwards shall vanish away.” 38
“Sometimes, indeed, it happens that what we ask of God we do not obtain. But it is then
especially that God looks to our welfare, either because He bestows on us other gifts of higher
value and in greater abundance, or because what we ask, far from being necessary or useful,
would prove superfluous and injurious. God, says St. Augustine, denies some things in His mercy,
which He grants in His wrath.” 39 So as of right now I am terrified, because my prayer was heard. I
obtained an intense chaste love for Stargazer, although it was not close as the one I had received
for Mary. I do not know if God granted this prayer as a punishment for my foolishness or for truly
trying to convert Stargazer. “With fear and trembling work out your salvation.” 40
“The brother of a king of Hungary used daily to recite the office of Mary. He once fell
dangerously ill, and then made a vow of chastity to the Blessed Virgin if she would restore him to
health, and he immediately recovered. His brother, however, afterwards died, and he was going
to be married; but just before the celebration of the nuptials he retired to his room to say his
accustomed office. When he came to these words in it, 'How beautiful art thou, and how comely!'
he saw Mary, who said, 'If I am beautiful as thou sayest, why dost thou now leave me for another
spouse? Know if thou leavest her, thou shalt have me for a spouse, and the kingdom of heaven
instead of that of Hungary.' The prince then fled to a desert near Aquileia, where he lived a holy
life.” 41
The Four Last Things: Death, Judgment, Hell, Heaven, Father Martin Von Cochem:
“Besides what has been already mentioned, the terrible appearance of the evil
spirits makes death yet more alarming to us. It is the opinion of many of the
Fathers, that every one, when expiring, sees the evil enemy, at any rate at the
moment of drawing his last breath, if not before. How appalling this sight is, and
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with what terror it must inspire the dying, exceeds the power of words to declare. It
is related of Brother Giles that one day, when he was praying in his cell, the devil
appeared to him in so frightful a shape, that the Brother lost the power of speech,
and thought his last hour had come. As his lips could not utter a sound, he raised
his heart in humble supplication to God, and the apparition vanished. Afterwards,
when relating what had befallen him to his brother-monks, he trembled from head
to foot as he described the hideous aspect of -the adversary of mankind.
“Then going to St. Francis, he asked him this question: Father, have you ever
seen anything in this world the sight of which was so horrible that it was enough to
kill one to behold it ?
“And the Saint replied: I have indeed seen such a thing; it is none other than
the devil, whose aspect is so loathsome that no one could gaze upon it even for a
short time and live, unless God specially enabled him to do so.
“St. Cyril also, writing to St. Augustine, says that one of the three men who
were raised from the dead told him: As the hour of my departure drew nigh, a
multitude of devils, countless in number, came and stood about me. Their forms
were more horrible than anything imagination can conceive. One would rather be
burnt in the fire than be compelled to look upon them. These demons ranged
themselves around me, and reproached me with all the misdeeds I had ever done,
thinking to drive me to despair. And in fact I should have given way before them,
had not God in His mercy come to my succour. Here we have the testimony of one
who actually had learnt by his own experience how frightful the appearance of the
evil enemy is, and who declares that nothing can be more horrible than the form the
devil assumes.”
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“Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return thither: the Lord gave,
and the Lord hath taken away: as it hath pleased the Lord so is it done: blessed be the name of
the Lord.” 44 So now I carry my cross with sorrow and joy. I am happy God has protected my
virginity once again. I am in sorrow for all the souls who know not God and the Catholic Faith.
Conclusion:
I, Phil Friedl, have done my utmost to give you the most exact details in regards to the
spiritual and supernatural part of my life. The blessings I have received by God I pray will open
your heart to the true holy Catholic faith, and the road to salvation. I pray that the Lord will
preserve me from moral, theological, and fallible error in this autobiography. I hope that this
paper will bring glory to God and His Majesty. Outside the One Holy Catholic and Apostolic Church
headed by Pope Michael the first, no one can be saved. “And if he will not hear them: tell the
church. And if he will not hear the church, let him be to thee as the heathen and publican.” 46
"The Catholic Faith alone produces miracles, which are never seen among heretics. Plants of this
sort cannot grow in a soil cursed by God; they can take root only in that Church where the True
Faith is professed . . . God cannot sanction the performance of a miracle except in favor of the
true religion; were He to permit it in support of error, He would deceive us." 47
I sent my paper to the Holy Office on 4 December 2007 1801 and I had received corrections for
it on 6 December 2007 0728. It did not however have many stories after that time. But the
important correction is the following...
Error: “What grief fills my soul. I am still very concerned with not only my salvation but every
single person on this planet who is still alive.”
“We do not live on a planet! The word planet means wanderer and was given to the planets
because they wander throughout the sky. I know the word has been applied to the earth, because
many accept the heliocentric hypothesis as factual. However, this position was condemned by
the Church, when proposed by Copernicus and Galileo, because they had no proof and it
contradicts the traditional interpretation of Sacred Scripture.” - His Holiness Pope Michael 1st
On February 24, 1616, the Holy Office declared that the proposition That the sun is in the center
of the world and altogether immovable by local movement, was foolish, philosophically absurd,
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and formally heretical, inasmuch as it expressly contradicts the declarations of Holy Scripture in
many passages, according to the proper meaning of the language used, and understood by the
holy Fathers and theologians. They also declared that the proposition That the earth is not the
center of the world, and moves as a whole and also with a diurnal movement, was to deserve the
same censure philosophically, and theologically considered, to be at least erroneous to faith.
Analog (Science Fiction/ Science Fact) In an article entitled Science and Creation, Poul Anderson
puts forward the argument: such principles (as evolution and heliocentricity) have become so
fundamental that the complete overthrow of any of them would be a complete overthrow of the
sciences with which they are concerned. We would be practically back to Square One. I submit
that evolution is no longer a mere theory. It has become just such a basic principle.
“With this declaration he ends his arguments. I have done a great deal of research and to this
day there is no proof of heliocentricity presented by the scientific community. They merely take
this proposition as true on faith. And they complain when we have faith in God, and they have
faith in the teachings of several men, which have not bee proven or even subjected to the normal
scientific method.” - His Holiness Pope Michael 1st
(To Be Noted)
Defined by Google search, “heliocentric”
theory that the sun is in the center of the solar system.
-school.discovery.com/curriculumcenter/solarsystem/glossary.html
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Woman Cursed by Her Own Father, Possessed from 16th Year till 40th Year
By: Fr. Carl Vogl
Translated by: Rev. Celestine Kapsner, O.S.B.
NIHIL OBSTAT: Rev. Alexius Hoffman, O.S.B.
IMPRIMATUR: Joseph F. Busch Bishop of St. Cloud, Minnesota July 23, 1935
Tan Books and Publishers, Inc. P.O. Box 424 Rockford, Illinois 61105 1973
Catholic Apologetics
(God, Christianity and the Church)
A Course In Religion For Catholic High Schools and Academics
By: Fr. John Laux, M.A.
NIHIL OBSTAT: Arthur J. Scanlan, S.T.D. Censor Librorum
IMPRIMATUR: +Patrick Cardinal Hayes Archbishop of New York August 27, 1928
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Vidimus et Approbabimus:
F. C. H. Mc. Kenna, O.P.
Fr. J. L. O'Neil, O.P. Revisores Deputati New York November 15, 1883
IMPRIMI POTEST: Fr. M. D. Lilly, O.P. Prior Provincial Province of St. Joseph November 15, 1883
IMPRIMATUR:
John J. Williams, D. D. Archbishop of Boston By his Vicar General November 22, 1883
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