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Contents
SIDE Q
Nicole McFeely
Untitled 8
Kirk Read
Raccoons 12
Mac McClelland
from For Us Surrender Is Out of the Question 18
Cassandra Gorgeous
from Chapter 2: Becoming A Writer 22
Genine Lentine
Pubic Bone 26
Poem for Uncle Johnny (1929-1986) 27
Double Agent 28
Molt
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30
Samsara Is Nirvana
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32
My Fathers Comb
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34
Americas Most Wanted 36
Adam, Are You Ready? 38
K.M. Soehnlein
Everybody, Everybody from Tomkins Square 40
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Froth front cover
Broken Window 46, 47
Forms of Cells 48
Magnitude 49
The original texts for the series of poems On Growth and Form come from
the book by the same name by DArcy Wentworth Thompson. (New York:
Dover, 1992. Originally published by Cambridge University Press, 1942)
SIDE L
Jack Foley
Chorus Son(g) 50
Adelle Foley
Sixty Years Later // After the Camps 58
Chicken John
Ulisse from The Book of the Is 60
Mira Martin-Parker
Newsreel IV 66
Newsreel VIII 68
Newsreaal IX 70
Andrew Sean Greer
from an unpublished novel, Many Worlds 72
Siamak Vossoughi
Too Much Genius 78
info + guide to other readings 84
* from
Mr. Worthingtons Beautiful Experiments on Splashes
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As he did every Thursday at exactly 4 o'clock for
the past 7 years, 6 months, and 3 weeks,
Anchester Mottle sat down at his laptop and
typed:
I am an imaginary person.
Just like that, emboldened and all.
As he had with each time before this, he stared
at the phrase until his contacts got too dry to
see and the words no longer said anything.
Then, he closed his eyes hard, breathed in
deeply, and held the breath as he counted
silently in sync with the steady tap of index
finger against delete key 25 times, which was
both the number of letters in the phrase and his
current age (though the latter fact had no weight
in the situation save for mere coincidence). As
soon as this was done, Anchester could open his
eyes again and exhale. It was very important, the
order of these events. If he exhaled before he
opened his eyes, the ritual was moot, and he
assumed he'd have to start all over again. He
didn't know for sure, however, and had no
reason to believe he would ever do so before
opening them.
"24, 25" he thought as the world reappeared
and he began to breathe out.
I am an imaginary person.
leapt from the screen and into his throat,
stopping his breath somewhere between lungs
and larynx, causing him to spit out a muffled
noise similar to that of a brake pedal thudding
against the floorboard of a car when the lines
have been cut. For a moment, Anchester could
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not understand what was wrong with the picture
in front of him, though he knew something was
very, terribly wrong. He blinked his eyes
vigorously, but each time they opened, it was
there, screaming at him in all its outrageous,
bold glory.
I am an imaginary person.
He sat quite still, in the throws of an almost
expected shock. Somehow, he felt he had always
known this would happen. Each time he opened
his eyes and exhaled, he snubbed out a subtle
moment of fear no less heart stopping than the
feeling some incur upon thinking of death. This
moment was the only time Anchester could
honestly admit to feeling afraid. The thought of
dying did nothing for him, as it hadn't for as
long as he could remember living. However,
because of this fear, he had never stopped to
think of what he might do if the moment
actually came and now found himself at
something of a loss.
I am an imaginary person.
continued to stare at him unapologetically and,
he thought, somewhat expectantlya very real
sentence on a brightly lit screen.
He stared back without moving until suddenly,
almost as if he were attempting to surprise even
himself, he lifted a hand that had been hanging
limply at his side, and struck the delete once,
very hard, dropping it back down almost
immediately. For some reason, he noticed he
held his breath during the moment.
Nothing happened.
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The period seemed to expand and contract as he
stared at it, still occupying space on a mostly
pure page, breathing in, out, in, 18, 17, 16
"Stop it," he said firmly, startled back to reality
by the sound of his own voice. He glanced
sheepishly around the apartment relieved to find
that, as usual, he was alone save for his three
houseplants. Craig, his roommate who he had
met through craigslist, was out, as he always
seemed to be, probably at the gym or with one of
his ever-rotating girlfriends.
Placing both hands on his knees and leaning
forward, Anchester breathed in deeply and
sighed, his pupils shrinking to the size of
pinheads as he inched his face closer and closer
to the screen. By the time his nose was touching
it, they had almost disappeared entirely into his
charcoal irises. He continued to sit that way
until it crossed his mind that something might
be wrong with some of the other keys too. He
leaned back and began to try each one, calmly,
pressing their plastic forms gingerly onto the
pad beneath, sending signals through the
circuits to produce the expected and desired
results. He started at the top:
`1234567890-= qwertyuiop[]\asdfghjkl;'
zxcvbnm,./
Just to be sure, he had skipped caps lock the
first time around, and repeated the whole
process with it engaged:
`1234567890-=
QWERTYUIOP[]\ASDFGHJKL;'
ZXCVBNM,./
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and checked the shift key:
!@#$%^&*()_+{}|:"<>?
Though he knew it was fruitless, he tried to
delete once more. There was nothing to be done.
The phrase was there, and, now, so was the
evidence of his attempt to understand and fix
the malfunction. Defeated, Anchester did
something he had not done in 7 years, 6
months, and 3 weeks. He saved a document:
"Untitled." After carefully quitting each open
application and shutting down his computer, he
wiped down the screen and keyboard
thoroughly, and packed it away.
"Untitled, huh? he thought. Oh well, what's in
a name anyway?" he said and began to laugh for
he thought the reference to be equally
uninspired. Then, Anchester did something he
did not do except through sheer necessity. He
gathered his computer and the rest of his
belongings and stepped towards the front door,
stopping before he grabbed the handle to check
for his wallet and keys. No one heard him
singing "a rose is a rose is a rose..." as he
stepped into the waning sunshine of a San
Francisco summer; he had grown silent as soon
as he heard the heavy iron gate slam shut
behind him.
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Raccoons
I always wanted to be the kind of man who could
do things. Like my father tilling his garden. Like
my neighbor growing up who could fix his car,
and if there were missing parts, he could
fabricate bypass solutions out of scraps of metal,
loose wires, duct tape and blocks of wood. Of all
the men in my life who could do things, the
strongest influence was undoubtedly my mother.
At 73, she mows an acre of grass with a push
mower. She weeds 19 flowerbeds, dutifully
plants bulbs, rakes hundreds of black walnuts,
composts a hundred pounds of leaves each fall.
She rises early for all of this. 5:30. Ill call her at
noon her time and say Hey Mom, what are you
doing? And she will say I cleaned all the
gutters, then remortared the brick wall because
the garbage truck backed into it, then my lawn
mower broke and I took it out to Turpins to get
it fixed and they wanted to charge me $35 to
change out the spark plugs. And Im not paying
that. So what did you do? I changed the
spark plug myself. I want to be the kind of man
who can do things.
Right after the renovation started I met a
man named Bubba. An Alabama charmer. He
was drunk when I met him, crying about his
mother. All southern men will cry about their
mother in any given evening. Before leaving the
house at midnight, I had completely destroyed
the kitchen. Carefully at first, then with a
hammer, then a crowbar. There were parts of
the floor I could put my fist through. Thats how
much the wood beetles had gotten in there.
Bubba came home with me and walked through
that kitchen. He said I ought to bring my
carpentry tools over here. Which is like telling a
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diabetic person that you have a roll of
Starbursts when you dont. Over time I realized
he was not a man who could do things. I guess
there were things he could do. Carpentry was
not one of them.
A week ago I trapped a raccoon, drove it ten
miles away across the river and released it. This
raccoon and a number of its friends and family
had taken up residence in the crawlspace under
the house. I would wait for them to leave, then
board it up with two by fours so they couldnt
get back in. On the deck, they would walk
toward me, growling. Raccoons are amazing that
way. This raccoon got in one night when I left
the door to the laundry room open. When I put
the floor in, I did a shitty job patching the holes
in the corner that go into the crawl space. I just
put boards down and stuffed wire screen into
the corner. It was at the end of a day where Id
emptied a room, cleaned the cement, installed
the washer and dryer, cut the flooring and then
put everything back. I shouldve paid more mind
to the crawl space access but I didnt. And she
zipped right down to the place where she was
born.
Raccoons are like salmon, biologically
programmed to return to their birthplace in
order to have children. The mother would go out
at night to forage for food and I would wait her
out, then board the house up tighter. She was
chewing through panels, ripping plywood out in
places where it had been drilled into soft posts.
Stuff that would be challenging for most
humans without the benefit of tools. I borrowed
a trap from my friends Keith and Jim. They are
always trapping raccoons and feral cats. Taking
the cats to the humane society to get fixed or
driving the raccoons out into the county. They
live on a steep hillside that gives me vertigo just
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to think about. They taught me how to use dry
cat food as bait leading up to the inside of the
trap, where there is an open can of wet cat food.
People swear by different strategies. There are
dry dog food people, there are dry cat food
people, there are people who insist on
unconventional bait like grapes. Jim and Keith
are dry cat food people. They are men who know
how to do things.
I carried the trap all over the yard, trying to
figure out if it should go near the place where
she poops, which happens to be in the upper
channel of the water feature that the gay couple
built shortly before they lost the house. They
paid a speculative price for it during the era
when everyone believed that California real
estate had nowhere to go but up. Property
values were doubling and tripling and people felt
entitled to that happening again and again. The
water feature is made of round river rocks in
cement. There was once an electric pump that
turned it into a waterfall but at some point
during the renovation, when I was getting rid of
dysfunctional hillside lighting and drip irrigation
lines that crisscrossed the property, the line to
the waterfall got cut. I did not make this cut. I
believe it was Eds sister. However, and I will
quote the House Republicans, we dont need to
play the blame game. The top two areas of the
water feature are full of raccoon shit. They scoop
out mosquito fish in the little pond, as if it were
a sushi bar. Then they ascend for their dump. I
feel like they might as well smoke a Winston
Light while theyre at it.
I didnt set the trap there. I set the trap
near the place where she enters the house. Its
also a spot where I can shine a flashlight and
see if anythings in the trap. That night I
inadvertently caught a neighborhood kitty. One
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of the siblings of a big litter of kittens who lived
on the deck last summer. Right before the rainy
season started, we gathered them all up and
took them to the SPCA. They were beautiful. I
would spend the day demolishing a floor with a
sledgehammer and then go out on the deck and
sit in the light of the full moon. Mama kitty
would crawl in my lap and her three kittens
would follow, nursing in my lap. And I would sit
there and cry.
I bring this up because after I trapped the
mother and relocated her, it dawned on me (a
little late) that those babies werent going to
make it. They were too young to make it in the
wild. Male raccoons would kill them, not
wanting competition. There is no Big Brothers
Big Sisters program in the world of raccoons.
Just Darwin.
After Ed and I released the mother in a
redwood forest with a creek, she climbed a tree,
then looked back at us. We didnt know what we
were doing. Not really. We wanted to be men
who knew how to do things and we were slowly
gathering the information. From friends, from
books, from strangers in hardware stores, from
Wikipedia. Ed and I went to Pats, a downtown
Guerneville divey diner. I ate biscuits and gravy
and Ed had an omelet. I am against omelets. I
dont like eggs to taste like Im chewing through
pig skin. Eggs should be in small pieces and
someone else should chop them up. We sat with
different sections of the Santa Rosa newspaper,
shitty except that there are eyepopping short
articles about life in the country someone
arrested for taking a 2am joyride on a three
wheeler through the grape lanes of a vineyard.
The discovery of a meth lab less than a mile
from an elementary school.
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It has been two weeks since I stole the
mother from the four baby raccoons living under
the house. I know there are four because I heard
them screeching. I opened up the crawl space
doors to coax them out. I didnt know they still
had their eyes closed. I should have just grabbed
each one of them and put them in a box and
taken them to Wildlife Rescue, where they would
be rehabilitated and sent back into the wild. But
I choked. They are wild animals. I was too
nervous to do what I should have done.
I want to be a man who knows how to save
baby raccoons and I wasnt yet. The next day I
spent an hour listening to them chirp and
shinny and whee. They make about five distinct
sounds. I set the trap under the house where
they had been. I put a bowl of water inside it
and closed the door. I sat outside and made
noises similar to the ones Id heard them
making. I heard one coming. I made my sounds
louder, then slowly opened the door.
It was in the trap. Its eyes were crusted
over because its mother hadnt been there to
help open them. The baby was about 8 inches
long, the side of a kitten. It was sitting near the
middle of the trap, but was too small to trigger
it. I pulled the lever and trapped it, then filled
the bottom of a plastic tub with mulch. I set the
baby into it with water and some dry food. It
didnt eat any of the food but did splash around
some in the water.
I drove the baby to Petaluma, to Wildlife
Rescue. On the phone, the woman scolded me
for relocating the mother. She told me this
practice was illegal in California, that I should
have waited for her to raise the pups so they
were old enough to make it on the outside. I told
her I had thousands of dollars of newly installed
furnace ductwork and that raccoons were known
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to rip through these ducts and crawl into them,
seeking heat. She scolded me more and I said
Im doing my best.
Over the next few days, I tried to find the
others. I called to them and listened for them in
many parts of the crawl space. I know I should
crawl on my stomach through the darkness of
the crawl space and gather the bodies before
they decompose and draw maggots. I want to be
the kind of man who does that. I want no fear at
all. Instead I opened the doors to the underside
of the house. I lit a tealight candle and burned
peppermint oil in a copper burner. In part to
ritualize the deaths, in part to cover the coming
stench of death.
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from For Us Surrender Is Out of the Question
OUTSIDE, a breeze was trying to slog through
the humidity. Htan Dah and I started back
across the suburbs of Mae Sot, late, my having
promised to protect him from feral dogs. All was
silent but for the occasional barking we stirred
up as we passed in the dark.
I think Wah Doh was asking me for
money, I said.
Really? Htan Dahs face was pained. He
hated his peers asking me for money like he
hated taking it, even when it had been for his
personal safety, or food. What did he say?
He was talking about how he needed to get
more education, but didnt want to resettle. I
think he wanted me to tell him I could somehow
get the UN to accept him for resettlement and
then pay for him to go to America and then pay
for him to go to school and live in America and
then pay for him to come back to Thailand.
These requests were motivated as much by a
gross overestimation of my personal wealth as
by desperation. Two days prior Eh Na had asked
me for money, too, however much I thought
would be necessary to bring a load of Karen
children out of the jungle, build them a shelter
in a refugee camp, and indefinitely keep them in
school supplies and supplemental rations once
they were installed in it. It was hard to explain
to him that I couldnt afford it, because hed
asked me just a day before how much money I
made, and Id said eighty thousand baht, or
some two grand, a month, to which hed replied,
after letting that sink in for a minute, I dont
think in my life I will have that much. Hed
shown me all the money he had in his life
currently, the only kind of money a lot of Karen
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had in their lives, passed down from
grandmothers, from times that were more
prosperous, from when Burma was still part of
British India: two ancient rupees folded in a
cloth.
Id told Htan Dah how bad Id felt about
turning Eh Na down. Id also told him, several
times, laughing, about how anytime my
roommate Eh Soe saw me pull out my wallet, he
said, Can I have some money? Now, Htan Dah
was frowning.
Im sorry, he said.
Dont be sorry. I mean, I get it. If I had no
options, Id ask anyone I met for money.
What did you tell him?
I didnt tell him anything. He didnt really
ask. Just kept talking, hoping I would offer, I
think. Wed turned out of the subdivision and
onto the highway toward downtown, back
toward the office where we lived. He was doing
this totally weird thing to my hand while we
were talking, though. He kept putting it on his
mouth. But he didnt like, do anything with his
lips, just touched us together. Like this. I took
Htan Dahs hand and connected the back of it
with the lower half of my face. Yes, he
laughed. I think he was very drunk. He was
kissing you.
He was kissing me? What do you mean?
Why was he doing it like that?
Because! That ishow we do it!
Do what? Kiss? What do you mean, thats
how you do it?
I clucked my tongue. Thats how we do it,
he says. But then when we were inside, at the
party, and theyd asked me to show them how
people in Ohio kiss each other to say hello, Id
spent 20 minutes trying to show them just how
to pucker their lips, and no matter how long we
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worked on it, they somehow just kept failing to
replicate the gesture I was making.
Hold on! I stopped Htan Dah and put my
hands up, like wait a minute, and raised my
voice. Thats how you guys kiss, with your faces
totally straight and relaxed like that?
Yes!
Reeealllly?
Htan Dah stood on the side of the road, on
the other side of my exclamation, speechless,
tense. I was, suddenly, screeching at him.
You really dont pucker your lips like
this!?
No! he said. Didnt you notice that we
didnt know what we were doing?
Yes! I said. But it never occurred to me
that that was why!
Why not?
Because I just couldnt have imagined that.
Because for all the distance between our worlds,
with the land-mine dodging and child soldiering
and starving on rice soup and midnight burning
refugee camps and murdered fathersthis, this
was crazy. I just cant believe that! Do you ever
open your mouths?
No.
Ever? REALLY?
No!
You dont use your tongues!?
I have seen, Htan Dah offered, in
movies.
In movies! I exploded. Are you seriously
telling me that you guys dont kiss with your
mouths open or use your tongues!?
Clearly, he was seriously telling me that,
but I couldnt help the screaming.
He laughed self-consciously, and at me.
No! We dont do it! he shouted back. I didnt
knowthat people really do that.
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When we got home, I tore into the house
yelling for my roommate, Eh Soe. I found him in
bed. When I flipped on the lights, he looked out
at me from behind his mosquito net, groggily
alarmed in his underwear.
When you kiss your girlfriend, do you ever
open your mouth?
Eh Soe relaxed his head back down and
tsked. Thats just Hollywood, he said.
Thats not just Hollywood! I shrieked.
People really do that! All the time!
For the record, when Yale researchers
released a sexual-behavior study of 190 societies
in 1951, it reported that 4 percent didnt kiss.
The Balinese, for example, instead brought their
faces close enough to breathe in each others
warmth and smell. Some South African
Thongans who caught sight of Europeans
kissing a few decades earlier had exclaimed,
Look at these people! They eat each others
saliva and dirt! So though tonguing is older
than the Kama Sutra, its not universal, and my
acting like everybody had always been doing it
all the time wasnt exactly justified. Even Kinsey,
in his 1953 Sexual Behavior in the Human
Female, found that as few as 80 percent of
American women whod had premarital sex had
Frenchedwhich is to say that as many as 20
percent of them had had premarital sex without
Frenching. But I digress. I had just been
screaming at a groggy refugee:
Thats not just Hollywood! People really do
that! All the time!
My roommate made a face of mild interest.
Really? he asked. And then he rolled over, and
went back to sleep.
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from Chapter 2: Becoming a Writer
I kept turning him down but, in the end, his
emails wore me out.
I finally said yes to becoming a rapist.
But not before I made him beg for it. I didnt say
yes until his third email. I can be such a tease.
Later on, as my fame rose (I was like the San
Francisco version of Jack the Ripper), I would
get more and more rape requests. I became a
serial rapist. But that first rape I committed took
a lot of convincing. I told him No its not part of
my brand. Pretty girls like me dont go around
trying to tie up and rape middle-aged business
men.
But in the end, I broke down and gave in. We
both said yes to rape.
Everyone has a price. And mine, to commit this
heinous act, was $350.
Rapistry was not my first vocational choice when
I was young. Back then, I wanted to become a
princess when I grew up. In fact, when I look at
myself in the mirror when putting on makeup, I
can still see remnants of the pretty little girl I
once was. It makes you ponder over the
curveballs life throws you. One moment youre
dreaming about happily ever after, and the next
moment youre listed on sex-offenders-
registry.com.
I know, I know: you would have never guessed
from the lovely girl on the book cover, but it is
true. And like any serial rapist, I am here to tell
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you that rape is a lot of work. I mean, a LOT of
work. People have no idea how much actual
physical labor goes into tying someone up. Not
to mention the difficulty of staying focused and
keeping my candy hard while trying to penetrate
my squirming and struggling victims. To them, I
owe a debt of gratitude. If they werent so
cooperative, and so patient, I dont think I could
have succeeded. Too much multi tasking is
involved.
Rape is a team effort.
But, alas, my first rape was not successful. It
was an *attempted* rape. I believe the critical
distinction is that there was no penetration. I
just couldnt: I was too damn tired after tying
him up. I remember sitting on my bed, the sweat
pouring down my face, with not an ounce of
energy left in me. I couldnt even muster up the
strength to untie him.
Tie-Me-Up was his name. He was my first, and
most prolific, rape victim. Being raped, in one
form or another, in varying degrees of
complicity, is the number one requested sexual
fantasy I get. By far. If you ask me, this is the
problem with America today: no one wants to
take responsibility for their actions any more.
Its always, Can you tie me up? Can you force me
to suck your candy? Can you make me feel
helpless? Can you take control of me?
Sometimes I just want to say, Man up! You like
being fucked up the ass. Now quit being so
tortured.
The truth is, many straight guys have secretly
fantasized about being tied up and used as a sex
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toy. Preferably by a hot vixen like Angelina Jolie.
But if she is away on a movie set, then, for
some, a tall Asian drag queen will do.
Tie-Me-Up was a meticulous guy. He brought
over all the props. They were grouped separately,
in large manila envelopes, before being tossed
into one big Ross department store shopping
bag. Tie-Me-Up brought out
ropes,
pantyhose,
blindfolds,
duct tape,
bandages,
tube socks,
and more rope
and more rope
Until I finally thought to myself, holy fuck!
Are we going to go rob a bank?
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PUBIC BONE
Its true, my synapses
fired, my spine
lengthened, my
pelvic floor tilted the moment
my yoga teacher fanned
her hand across my sacrum
and said now lift your pubic bone
a little more, but she said it
so matter-of-factly
without qualification
it startled me:
as if I had a pubic bone,
as if I had a body.
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POEM FOR UNCLE JOHNNY
(1929-1968)
Hadnt anyone told you
that inside the green
pupa the monarch
caterpillar returns
to liquid before re-
assembling its code
into wings? It must be
that you never saw
the thin gold line
crowning the brow
of the pupa. Could you
have held out
if youd discovered,
as I did this morning,
that just before
the drenched wings
shake loose, the gold line
has disappeared back
into the same,
the changed
body?
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DOUBLE AGENT
First, acted upon,
then (a quick study)
acting along with,
finally acting alone:
the hands at my throat, the hands
masking my eyes: my hands.
The arms binding my ribs,
palm cupping my mouth,
skin I suck in when I inhale,
skin on the hand that warms
as I exhale: my own.
Long fingers throttling
my windpipe: now always mine.
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MOLT
There was one moment
I was certain he loved me
by loved I mean could see
:
my pants
on the bathroom floor
in a heap, legs up
socks still holding
the form of my feet
waistband open against the tile
slipped off in one piece
and he came in to pee
as I stood under the shower
and then he stood over my pants
and asked me
pulling back the curtain
How did you do that?
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from Mr. Worthingtons Beautiful
Experiments on Splashes
New Michigan Press, 2010
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SAMSARA IS NIRVANA
he then
sto od
be fore
my arm
ch air
& de-
mons
tra ted
h is
do uble
zip per
in both
dire ctions
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from Mr. Worthingtons Beautiful
Experiments on Splashes
New Michigan Press, 2010
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MY FATHERS COMB
Black plastic
raised letters
proclaimed it
unbreakable
and so I began
to bend the un-
relenting spine.
First nothing,
then a little give,
heat at the seam,
blanching
at the faultline.
Half an hour
at his mirror, I
worked at it.
I worked it away
from me and
back. I worked
at the word
until the word,
until the atom
of its lie split,
until the word
broke in my hands.
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from Mr. Worthingtons Beautiful
Experiments on Splashes
New Michigan Press, 2010
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AMERICAS MOST WANTED
On the 6 Parnassus down Market
he gets on at Sixth;
the duct tape on his hooked arm
keeps it together so he can brace
the plastic bottle of vodka against
what is now his wrist to open it.
He takes a swig of the vodka
and I think, Vodka should be housed
only in glass. He takes another
mouthful, chases it with pink Squirt
from a 64 oz. bottle, its sides collapsing
within the force of his hand.
Im Americas Most Wanted, he announces,
tries it out a few times, shifting
the stress. Americas Most wanted.
Most wanted, beloved, you are,
for now, beloved of the form
world, the sphincter of your iris
narrowing in a sudden glare,
opening at dusk, your ear
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so finely tuned, it knows
cold water from hot coffee
just by hearing it poured.
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Adam, Are you Ready?
beginning
hisfirstconsciousness/wasanimmensenostalgiaan
awareness/ofpassage
theuniverseisrunningdownalwaysinthedirectionof
increasingentropy
thebrutalityofthewordtu-meurbecarefulhereis
intelligenceatwork
self-hatredmasochismhespokeofthedogas
dominant
itwouldbenecessarytogiveafullaccountofthepresent
stateofthepublictasteinthiscountry,andtodetermine
howfarthistasteishealthyordepraved;which,again,could
notbedeterminedwithoutpointingoutinwhatmanner
languageandthehumanmindactandre-actoneachother,
andwithoutretracingtherevolutions,notofliteraturealone,
butlikeofsocietyitself.Whatofallthese
voices?
Thelanguagepoetorderstongue
howcanwelook
towords?howcanwelook?thetwo
ofus
stranded,touching,telling
ImjustbeginningtoreachthepointwhereI
whatyoureobjectingtoinmypoemisnotits
stylebutthoughtitself,itsshifts,itsevasions,its
magicalabilitytofunctioninmanycontextsat
once
itwastherockstarnervesjanglingveinsopenwho
couldtellhimanything?
thenews/
paper
whichhadbeenfoldedoverflatontheground
yes/
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terdayisnow
wideopen
thewindreadsit
Tosaythatapoemisaboutself-consciousnessisnottosay
thatitisonlyabout
self-consciousness.Theremaybepoemswhichareonly
aboutpoetryandmaybe________
wrotesomeofthem,butifsothatisanextremelylimited
conception
ofpoetry
Self-consciousness
isbyitsverynatureexpansive,passionate,interested,
anxioustodiscover
resonances
ofitself
atlargeintheworld
thisdesperateobsessiveneedtotalk
IwalkthroughthehousealonethismorningSong
Dryisland.Embattledsky.Voicesofthesea.
Strangeflowering.
TotellyouthetruthIenjoyedchasingafteryou.Perhapswe
coulddoitacoupleoftimesamonth.
passingbyherhandsinherpockets
whatareyourhands
doing?
tobeone,tobeonly,tobelone
TherewasanelectronictuningtestattheBellSystemexhibit
inDisneyland.Bypressingbuttonsyoucouldheareitheratone
offixedfrequencyoratonewhosefrequencyyoucouldadjust,
butnotbothatthesametime.Afteryouhadmatchedthe
frequenciesascloselyaspossible,themachinescoredyour
performance.Mywife,
whoisamusician,didmuchbetterthanI.
Isitinthecarintheexactmiddleofthefrontseat.Ihearthe
announcersvoiceasacompactsoundsourcedeadahead,
midwaybetweenthetwospeakers.AsImovetotheright
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thesoundsourceatfirstbecomesdiffuse.AsImovefurther
right,allthesoundclearlycomesfromtheright-hand
speaker
Ihavesaidthat,ifasoundreachesuswithequalintensities
fromtwosources,wehearallofitascomingfromthenearer
sourceifthedifferenceindistanceis
aboutafoot
orgreater.todabbleheretowander
ibeforeeexceptafterctestedbythewordatheist
likecuttingapaththroughthejungle
withabureaucrat
Temptedansunbnitier Tempestinaholy-waterbasin
LeSouverainPontifeavecque ThePopewith
Lesvques,lesarchevques Hisbishopsandhisarchbishops
Nousfontunsatanchantier. Makesadevilishmessforus.
Ilsnesaventpascequilsperdent Theydontknowwhattheyre
losing
Touscesfichuscalotins Allthesewretchedpriests
Sanslelatinsanslelatin WithoutLatinwithoutLatin
Lamessenousemmerde TheMassisshitty
jndsoffrequencyorintensity
sechangeeneaudeboudinchangesintoblackpuddingwater
Theprecedenceeffect,thefactthatasoundseemstocome
fromthedirectionfromwhichitreachesusfirst,isbadfor
stereo,buthighlydesirableineverydaylife.Whensomeone
speakstoyouinahard-walledroom,youhearallthesound
ascomingfromhisorher
mouth
[speaker indicates mouth]
eventhoughmuchofthesoundthatreachesyouhasbeen
reflected
fromthewalls
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herpowerovermeis(whatistheword?)silence
whistlesarrowfromwhirlwindrainthroughhisheart
saywhatImcalled
andwhorouses&calmsmy
power!
Itischaracteristicofthemassmediathatthefiguresinthem
areallabsent,notthere,cantbetouched.Thisisalsotrueof
books,whichwereinasensethefirstofthemassmedia.
SpeakingtoG.P.Skratz,IextendedthisideatotheCatholic
Massaswell.TheMassisstillanothermassmedium,an
attempttoreachasmanypeopleaspossible.Atthe
beginningoftheMass,Christis(andremains)profoundly
absent,hasnotreturnedandtheMassis,precisely,a
fictionalassertionthatthisisnotthecase,thatChristisin
factpresent.(Faith=theevidenceofthingsnotseen,the
substanceofthingshopedfor.Fiction!)
thepossibilitythatherdisasterousrelationshipswithmen
ariseoutofthedesiretoprovehermotherright.Menare
suchbeasts
Toobadyoudidntcomewithustotherestaurant.Wefound
it(withalittletrouble)&hadjustbeenseatedwhen
suddenlyinpopsIshmael&Callahan&Alta&everybodyso
weallsatdowntogether&atetoomuchItalianfood&hada
verynicetime
Whatcrazybirds
thesecrowswhosawcutslice
thesound&goodoldbranch
ofthecrosswheretheyhaveperched
ThenameCohanstillhasmagic.Themerementionofitwas
enoughtounleashastreamoftalkfromthetwoofthem.
alliedw/leavessoft-spokenBendallyourbows,saidRobinHood
thisdayatthekirkofGamry
asuddenspasmmonstrouswings
cantwalkcanttalkfuriosospasm
EVILISEVERYWHERETOBE
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SEENTHEREISNO
RESTFROMIT
THEPOWEROFDEATH
MULTIPLIES
THEREISNO
LIFE
AndjustwhenImighthavereproachedmyselfItwas
Luciennesthoughts,her
mentalattitudes,theplenitudeofherbeingwhichI
encountered.Notoneofmy
kisseswentastray.
estrangedfromthatmuchcanbesaiddifferently
Allthesearepromisesmadeatacertaintime(yetbroken)to
Love,which
stands,waveringinadoorway,speakingwordswhichI
canneitherhearnor
love,
youareendless,sorrowful
everything
innaturebecamefragmentedbeforehim
Gaehame,gaehame,goodbrotherJohn,Antellyoursister
Sarah
shefoundhimdrownedInYarrow
fuckyou,manTothinkofthisagain:think:fortyyearsago
there:myfaceinthemirror
thehermeneuticalsituation
fortheletterkillethbutthespiritthebreath
asthewindturnsthem(leaves)
theyseemtosay
good-bye
soil
bridge
stone
AuldIrelandiscalling
ThousandsofMadridresidentsprotestedPresidentReagans
visittoSpainlastnightbybangingonpotsandpansand
turningofftheirhouselights
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Itiedmydrumtothetopofmylance
farewell
farewellmysweetmy
gbye,love,
darkone,daughterendlessly
blonddarkfairsweetbittermildsoftharshfiery
Itmighthavebeendocks,itmighthavebeenblocks
Itmighthavebeensurelytheschoolofhardknocks
Shemighthavedetestedallgrandfatherclocks
Ordeclaredthatshenevercouldbeartowearfrocks
Butcrossingherleotards(shedidntwearsocks)
Andsquintinghereyestillshelookedlikeafox
(Ignoringmycommentonbagelsandlox)
Shewhisperedobliquely,Thesubjectisrocks.
Wesatinthecoffeehousebreathingtheair
Tothecasualobserverwehadntacare
(ItwasCambridgeinSpringifyouveeverbeenthere)
Whenfixinguponmehervacuousstare
Andassuminganattitudebornofdespair
Sheratherungracefullyfellfromherchair
(Theclamortheytellmeresoundedforblocks!)
Andwhisperedobliquely,Thesubjectisrocks.
AndnowthatImolderandverywellread
ItoftenoccurswhenImgoingtobed
ThatIwonderwhatcouldshehavemeantwhenshesaid
Inavoicethatmighteasilywakenthedead
Inatonethatwashollowandheavyaslead
WithatremorthatfilledmewithInfiniteDread
(Thereweresomanythingsshemightspeakofinstead!)
Butshegraspedatabundleoffreshlypickedphlox
Andwhisperedobliquely,Thesubjectisrocks.
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EastOaklandsEastmontMall.Elevenp.m.,papersstrewn
everywhere.AsIdrivebytheliquorstoreinmycarInotice
twomenwhoseemtobeconfrontingeachother.Oneof
themstandsinfrontoftheopenliquorstore.Inhishandshe
holdsanenormousrifle.Theotherisseatedonamotorcycle.
Heisdrivingthemotorcycle(asviolentlyashecan)insmall
circlesbeforethemanwiththerifle.Everythingseems
violent,open,uncertain.Ipassby
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[The two voices end at exactly the same time.
There is a moment of silence before the
concluding lines are spoken.]
articulationofsound
memoryinthe
ear
asubstitution
ofthe
audible
for
the
visible
towritethisday
toinsist
uponit
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60 Years Later / After the Camps
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NEWSREEL IX