Words From A Teenage Mind

ESJAE

ESJAE

Words From A Teenage Mind

First published independently in 2011 by Esjae Copyright Stacey Hubbard 2011 All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in or introduced into a retrieval system, or transmitted, in any form, or by any means (electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording or otherwise) without prior written permission of the publisher. Any person who does any unauthorized act in relation to this publication may be liable to criminal prosecution and civil claims for damages This book is sold subject to the condition that it shall not, by way of trade or otherwise, lent, re-sold, hired out, or otherwise circulated without the publishers prior consent in any form of binding or cover other than that in which it is published and without a similar condition including this condition being imposed on the subsequent purchaser. This book was downloaded free from: http://www.esjaeofficial.blogspot.com/

About The Author

Hi, you're reading this section because you want to know a little bit more about me. Well the first place to start is my name, Esjae isn't my real name, quite obviously, it's actually Stacey Hubbard. The shortened version is the extended version of my initials 'SJ' My passion for poetry comes from one very memorable English Lesson in year 9, we were meant to be watching a modern film version of Romeo and Juliet. But I just couldn't get into it (Ms Bailey would kill me), so I ended up writing - 'Hood Up, Head Down' my first ever poem! Ever since then my passion for writing and poetry has just grown and I write whenever I get the chance.

Contact Me
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This book is dedicated to... All my family and friends that have supported me and helped me become the person that I am today. Especially, my old (not old as in age - but in time) English teacher Ms Bailey as without her I wouldn't be writing poetry today.

A Dream Love
Your breath on my neck Our lips pressed together A feeling I cant describe Every time your eyes meet mine I fall deeper in love, With your smile, with the blue in your eyes I dont need to search anymore Because standing in front of my door Is my knight, my Mr. Right With so many fish in the sea, I didnt realise how easy it would be, To find someone perfect for me On my mind twenty four seven My new found heaven A future life I long to be called your wife

A Feeling No One Can Miss

Walking hand in hand Strolling side by side I stare into your eyes Met by your longing gaze Its a feeling that you cant miss Greeted by your kiss Just to be with you Is all Id ever want to do

A Girls Love Isnt a Toy

If I dont come first and you think of me last Then you should know for sure that Im becoming your past Think of it this way, Buying diamonds and pearls isnt the key to my heart Saying tender words is the way to make me stay Pushing me from left to right is only going to make me want to part I should be your all and everything Not one in a string of meaningless flings Words arent always enough You should remain by my side even when things start to get tough Think of this as real love Someone youre proud of An angel sent to you from above Love never fades You shouldnt feel the need to upgrade Everything you ever want should be in front of you Or you shouldnt say those three words, 'I love you' I want you too People say were just like two love birds But I need to be your only girl The only one youre thinking of at night The only one you want to be holding tight A girls love isnt a toy Its something you should enjoy Shes someone you should cherish If you don't you love will only perish

A Grain Of Rice
Dying in Africa We say were starving The lost their life, just fighting for a grain of rice Supermarkets scatter the streets Imagine days on your feet All for a grain of rice Doctors on our doorstep Think of dragging a loved one for miles around In the hope that help will be found Live a day in their life And itll be easy Im not starving are you?

A Life Lost
The bullet from the gun Lays still in your chest Your face cold and alone This war isnt something that we can condone Promises that it will be all right Tell me when there wont be a need to fight So many lives are lost Bodies lying alone and forgotten This war has such a big cost Please enlighten me To why these lives have the key Isnt there another way for us to plea? For you to lie so still And for me to watch your blood spill All for them to rewrite history The reasons will always remain a mystery Although youll be remembered as a hero Your story written in The Metro Your Name unknown Your life lost in a war zone

Addict
Shivering Scratching at your skin As if trying to let it in Mind buzzing Unable to focus Eyes darting Living like a dog And then it comes Sharp and powerful A jolt of life into your body How long will it last Your heroin fix

Aint Life a Bitch?

Friends come and go Just like the waves of the sea Creating a web of lies Is that the way life is meant to be? Your muffled cries Ignored by those who are meant to care Laying motionless in a ditch And all they are able to say is, Aint life a bitch?

Aint No Other Way

Lets sit down Talk it out Work it out Theres a future in me and you Can you see it too? Aint no other way Than to say I love you They dont understand what we go through We got to have this heart to heart So that we wont part We fight We break up But still its alright We get back together Maybe this time it will be forever

All I Want
All I want to do is see you smile For you to see that Im different Not one of the crowd All I want you to do is for you to let me be The person I know I am Not who you think I should be All I want you to do Say that you understand Because youll always be proud Of who ever I am Of whatever I want to be I need to know that youll always love me

All The Good Things...

Good things start small Good people walk tall Good things come to those who wait Good people dont take the bait What goes around comes around Dont let it knock you to the ground Words sting Just remember your dreaming Got your future planned Not making decisions off hand Remember Start small Walk tall Sit tight and wait And good things will come to you

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All Youre Worth

Ill give you all youre worth From the moon and the stars right down to the earth Lets stay together for the rest of time Just promise that youll be mine And that youll never let me go Say that our love will grow, is that even possible This love is already magical Never thought I would have something so special Never thought that one person could take over my mind I think that this could be a sign That you are meant to be mine And that were meant to be together For now and forever Together we can take on the world I want to be your only girl The one to know your deepest secrets And to never become one of your greatest regrets

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Alone Again
Walking alone Disappearing into the shadows Hidden from view All you can see is the broken smile Crystal tears Broken smile Is this how anyone should live?

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Already Broken Promise

I was supposed to be your girl The one you grace with diamonds and pearls I swore to never hurt you But look at what you can do Is this you at your best? With each lie that comes Im waiting for the rest If this is what love is supposed to be Then this isnt what I want, not you and me Let's go back to the days when we first met The days I really want to forget People say things they dont mean But I know what Ive seen We can make up after a fight But not this time, were not going to be alright Lets be honest Oh wait, lets go back a minute youve already broken that promise Im fed up of trying to put my life back together Especially when you said wed last forever

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Always Yours
Im stuck on you Im falling in love With everything you do I want it to be you and me Forever and always Its the way it should be Were together forever I never want to let you go This I want you to know Dont walk in front of me, I may not follow Dont walk behind me, I may not lead Just walk beside me, and be all that I need Without you my heart was left without a beat With you in my arms my life is complete I want to be the smile you but on you face The girl you hold in your embrace Just dont ever leave or walk away This may sound clich But I love you forever and always

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As Good As Ours
Everybody is looking for love Their guardian angel sent from above Someone to whisper their name in the dark Longing to feel that spark Heart skipping a beat Every time their eyes meet Laying under the stars One thing we know, Their love will never be as good as ours

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At Least You Say You Do

You say you want me At least you say you do You say you love me At least you say you do You say youll never leave me At least you do You say youll never leave me At least you say you do

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Because Of You
Youve been there since I was small And every day since Ive grown tall When I think of the days we shared The memories you have given me, nothing couldve compared Our bond so strong Making everyone belong If it wasnt for you Then none of this I would have been able to do

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Behind The Photograph

The photograph shows a scene But you can remember the memory behind it All the people united To share the special feeling And to make another memory To last forever Captured by a camera Kept in your heart

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Blind Love
I cant live without you I wish you felt it too Apart but together so strong Its with you that I belong Cant you see that youre always on my mind? I guess I was blind To how you really felt Even though everyday you made my heart melt

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Carve My Name
Ill carve my name in your heart That way Ill be sure well never part After our first date I know meeting you was fate Look what youve done to me If only you could see Ive fallen for you And all the little things that you do No need for the big gestures Or past confessions Our future is where well be Just you and me

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Changing Times
Chocolate, sweets and treats Falling from the sky The sound of childrens laughter Right into the distance This is how it used to be Guns, knives and violence From the hands of teenagers The sound of victims screams Right into the distance This is what its turning to be The time is changing The sound is changing The lives are ending

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Crying For Help

The streets are littered with so many teenage pregnancies Along with many other dangers and obscenities Knives and guns carried for pride Cars not owned, just used while on a joyride Lives filled with drama Police head to foot in armour The people you hang with is a statement Flowers and crying eyes a constant reminder of the bereavement Pouring into the street day after day A society crying for help Instead sent into a shock everyday As another town is on its own

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Directed By Our Dreams

Theres you and me We all strive to be the best that we can be Different but so similar We all want to be loved We all need to be needed Full of ambition Directed by our dreams You cant change who you are Its time to raise the bar Its time to succeed And exceed all expectation Without confrontation an contemplation Fulfil your dreams To every possible extreme

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Dont Forgive And Forget Anymore

I wish you could see That what is happening to you isnt right Each time you forgive and forget I live with regret You are worth so much more One day you will open your closed eyes And the haze will rise You will see what we know Then you will realize You are worth so much more

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Each And Everyday

Each day I see the rain And Im reminded of your pain Every day you told me you couldnt cope And I told you we would work it out Every day you said of all youre hurt And I said one day it would end Each day I visit you And tell you about my day Each day I think of what you never had And I wish you were able to cope Every day I visit your graveside And I say the words only I know how to say Every day I say this for you And I know one day well be together Every day I ask you to wait And I think about your fate

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Every Piece Of My Heart

Stars are falling Everyday my heart is calling, I know I acted dumb And now my heart is numb Im trying to figure out a way To make you understand that, I dont want you to go astray I cant take another day Without you knowing Every piece of my heart is on the ground Waiting for them to be found

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Find You Again

We were on a stairway to heaven Met you at eleven Just like Cinderella Had to leave at twelve My prince charming When will you come back Its been a year or so And in that time my thoughts of you continue to grow I see you ahead of me in the street It must be fate that theres a second time for us to meet All I want to do Is say I love you When I do I hope you dont forget it Because its taken just over a year or so To find you again

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Footprints On Your Heart

Making footprints on your heart Is just like walking on untouched snow Taking baby steps, until we can watch our love grow Youll always be more than and nothing less Than I could have asked for The blue sky surrounds me Since the day that you found me Look into your heart And thats where Ill always be Just let your love reach me

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Friends Forever
Hanging out together Known forever Our problems shared I know youve cared Life can be tough But together we see it through No words exchanged Events arranged I know that you and I Will be friends forever Never will I forget The time that we met The notes passed Here in class Make the danger seem just like glass I think our friendship will be treasured forever Especially as well be friends forever

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Friendship Versus Relationship

Sometimes its just easier Being friends But wanting more Maybe even lovers We say, I love you I know you aint trippin Coz loving you is all I could ever want to do But I dont want to lose the, Long talks and late night walks If we make the commitment Will it be one with regret? Hoping that its one well be able to forget Friendship versus relationship When do you draw the line? And take the time to say What I have is enough

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From His Eyes

Didnt you see his glance? Holding his masculine stance Staring across at you Wanting to know you little more A few words And you become lovebirds Spending time together A love built to last forever

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Give You My Love

When you heart is filled with sorrow and despair Ill show you my love and make you aware Because nothing can compare I long to see your smile It makes my life seem so worthwhile The feeling I have when Im with you feels so right I hope that youll always be my knight Keeping me safe in your arms Away from all harm With you is where I belong Its a feeling I want to have life long

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Go On
Go on and leave I dont need you anymore Go on baby Slam the door on me, once more Go on and shout It was never me you wanted Go on baby It was always her for you Go on and Turn the lights out on our love

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Going Alone
I crushed your heart Its time for us to part I didnt want to hurt you But its all I could do I once longed for your touch But now its all got too much Weve got to let go What we had isnt going to grow I cant hurt you again Let me go and please stop begging I cant stay Its not fair on you to have to pay And now your heart has taken the assault Lets just go this alone Because our love has become outgrown

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Guiding Me
Take me in your arms Away from all harm Pull me into your chest This is my only request When Im down You always find a way to be around You whisper words of reassurance Its becoming a common occurrence Your words pull me through All the time so true I long for the day Im there for you And all you go through

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Helping You
When things happen to you Theres so much more I wish I could do You and me will battle through Especially now, so much has been taken from you The support we get Ill never forget Especially all of the upset But theres still time yet For us to forget All of this pain and upset The things that happen to you I know well muddle through Together well change this trouble To something so much more cheerful

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Hidden Words
Hidden inside of you Are the things you cant say The true feelings you hide Some of your biggest dreams Your deepest fears Open up, and let it all out Someone will understand But being you, the words get stuck You say the words you think we want to hear One day everyone will know what you have to say And they will understand your mistakes

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Homeless
Cold and lonely I know for sure he wont be the only No bed or food Is it a wonder hes in such a bad mood Passersby narrowing their eyes No words pass their lips, not a hello or goodbye Rejected by society Not trusted with any responsibility Neglected and alone Without a shelter to call home Roaming the street Trying to survive in the extreme heat With one companion, mans best friend Just to live, every law he has to bend

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Hood Up, Head Down

Hood up, head down Plodding across the ground Face mysterious The public become curious Hood up, head down The misunderstood frown Walking around The soul never found Hood up, head down Strolling through the town Ahead another rowdy crowd All with heads bowed Hood up, head down Plodding across the ground Heading home again Tonight I have found enemy and friend Hood up, head down Once again...

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I Can Always Live With The Memories

We are done But lets not be forgetting All the memories And the making of the melodies Weve had our fair share of Arguments, fighting and fussing You take a step forward But Im quite happy staying back here in the past I might be blind But baby understand Im willing to let you go If you let me stay here With all of our memories I might sit up all night But its not the daily fights that stay on my mind Remember how we used to be But I guess the world just got in the way Every day you had to work really late Each night I was willing to wait Dont tell me you were just chillin with your mates See where we end Its just like where we began Remember the days when I made your world go round Its hard to watch you go But I can always live with the memories

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I Guess Its Too Bad

I gave you my heart You said we would never part I gave you my soul You said it was a feeling beyond all control It wasnt in our power That our love turned sour Your love turned to her Remember what we had Ill wish it lasted forever But I guess thats just too bad

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I Hope
The things we do together Will stay in my mind forever The trust we share No one can compare Ill stick by you In whatever you do I know life can be tough But I hope I can be there for you enough

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I Know
I know that you dont I know that you wont But I still want to know How to make you love me How to make you care I know things went wrong I know that we belong Cant you see, Your love in me?

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I Pray
I see where you last lay And then I pray If I knew what brought them to do this But that wouldnt change what I miss What if I was there? Would you still be here? Why have you been taken from us like this? Is it like some cruel test? Everything passes in a haze Im living in a daze All I can see is where you last lay And then I wish I was with you on your last day Youve gone and wont be coming back All I ask for, Is one more day. God, please reunite is someway

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Ill Never Be Alone

I could look into your eyes all night You captured my heart at the first sight Your lips so soft In you Im lost S love that could last forever, I dont know Hes a gentleman who insists on walking me home Exchanging numbers he cant believe Im alone Five years later, I have a ring on my finger Our babys laugh as my ringer We have a house to call our own And a promise from him that Ill never be alone Because we have a love to last forever As we are a couple meant to be together

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Im Glad Were Through

Your love is like a fire Once it was burning and strong, built to last Now its dying, dwindling in its ashes All I want is for a way to blow the smoke away A brand new start Is that too much to ask for? You send crazy thoughts through my mind Someone I once needed so much Turned into someone I cant even trust As the words tumble from your mouth Ive leant to let them just slip passed I deserve more Youve left my heart shattered on the floor I believed in you But there wasnt anything you could do One thought in your mind, It wasnt love Now all is said and done, Its just the memories left behind Im not tied to you Youre a closed door Ive found someone who gives me more And now Im happy to say Im glad were through

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Im Not Afraid
Dont stereotype me Please dont tell me who I should be In my head I know And thats how my personality is going to grow I see all the problems you see Dont try and blame them on me The streets have a voice Every person has a choice Decide what path their going to take What laws their going to break Nobody will force the weapon in their hand Buts lets join together and make a stand Guide them to the right way Its your turn to be a role model today Take some responsibilities Dont be blaming us for all the controversies We drive you to the brink Day after day you see another turn to the drink Ill stand up for those without a voice Ill stand up for those without a choice Im proud to be different Not like all the others up the duff you know, pregnant Im at college everyday Are you getting what Im trying to say? Im not like them Most of their choices I dont condemn Not smoking, not ever Have I taken drugs? No never Dont judge what you dont understand Thats why Im making a stand and raising my stand Ive got a voice And Im making my choice

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Inspiration
A hero comes along Without a fear knowing where they belong With every step they take Another heart may break But they search inside themselves To follow the dreams the desire Each a hero becoming an inspiration To the whole population

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Is It Out Of Place?
Cant you see the tears running down my face? Dont they look out of place? Cant you see the bruises on my skin? Your only sin Cant you see the pain in my eyes? It shouldnt be a surprise Raise your hand Turn it into a fist Strike me hard Day and night Do it at your will I cant change it One day youll see the pain in my eyes One day youll see the tracks on my cheeks One day I wont be blue anymore

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Its A Lie That I Fear

Ill always be beside you In whatever you go through Our love will last Forget the past Ill give my hope to you And long for the day you do to Say youll be there Say that you care I need to know As you never let your feelings show Is it me that you need? Is it me that you long for? Is it me that makes your heart soar? Just tell me the truth Even if its not the words I want to hear Its a lie that I fear

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Its Time
Watch the rainbow paint the sky Dont let time pass you by Memories are created by families and friends Forget all the arguments its time to make amends Try and find a way back Its time to get on the right track Never let your dreams slip away Because tomorrow is a new day The future is in your hands Turn the page; its time to make some new plans

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Its You
They say those words Just staring at the guy wearing the converse For me, its you that I need Taking it slow Letting our love grow Spend your love on me Thats the way it should be No other guy, Will catch my eye Cause its you that makes my heart fly

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Jailbird Love
I can listen to you lie But every time another part of me will die And another tear I will cry Just like a gunshot to my heart A bullet to my brain But by your side I still remain Im told I deserve better More than a jailbird and his monthly letter Locked away for his violence Without him around the house is filled with a deathly silence No crashing plates No drug taking mates Just me and my bruises I know people think youre abusive I know people think Im stupid Maybe even deluded How can you help who you fall for? But I cant withstand this love anymore I am stronger than this Not taken in by your kiss Ill tell it to you straight But Ive left it too late Now I am the reason youre in your cell Accompanied to my farewell Maybe it was just a possessive love Now I can only be represented by a white dove

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Just Be Content
Keep knocking at the door You never know it may just need one more There will always be opportunities Being embraced with controversies Look into the future Its your dreams you need to nurture Live the moment Theres no problem with just being content

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Just For You

So many faces Create a million places Connected together A community that lasts forever Creating a special place Illustrated with many familiar faces Somewhere filled with support To make everything easier for you When you feel like theres nothing you can do Just look around you And youll see all thats there for you

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Just Makes Us Stronger

Close in my heart But in reality far apart Together were meant to be I know you agree With you by my side A feeling I never want to hide Together is how were meant to be Nothing can be left unsaid Well be fine Just make sure that you stay mine Lets do this together At least then we know well be forever

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Just Me And You

Ive never stopped believing in us Forget everyone else Just know that I believe in you And all that you do Apart but together I know this will last forever Ill be with you Wherever you go Whatever you do Just know that Ill be there And be aware My heart is with you So whatever you do Know that its us against the world Even if Im not there Just you and I Forget the tears Forget the pain Together well see it through Just me and you

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Knowing You
We havent known each other long Although that doesnt mean We wouldnt know Each other through and through Take my hand And show me your love firsthand Kiss my lips No need to follow a script Your touch so gentle Everything so sentimental

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Lady So Fine
You follow that girl across the room Saying to your fellas, damn shes fine Trying not to be cocky or arrogant Its you can do to stop your heart from jumping out of your chest Working your way towards an opportunity to wine and dine This lady so fine No worries if shes got a man Cause youve thought of plenty of ways to make them part No second thoughts of what youll have to do All you know is youve got to make her your girl

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Leave Me
I was small You held my hand Saw my first smile Guided my first few steps Then its blank You left leaving no memories No regrets Youd rather be placing bets I want to leave you a message I hope Ive done you proud But youve left me with a love unfound

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Let Me Walk Away

You see me sitting there all alone Crying down the phone Youll never know How I felt about you What I would have done for you You were my dream And I was your queen But then you changed Every date rearranged Putting your guys first Our love was always cursed Just let me walk away Stop trying to get me to stay This isnt what I planned Im not yours on demand

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Look Into My Eyes

When you look in my eyes Do you see the problems Im trying to solve? Are you able to tell me that theres some hope? Will you tell me how long Ill have to wait? Until everythings right again When you look in my eyes Do you understand why Im unable to hold my head high? Will you be able to tell me everythings alright Are you able to help me in anyway? Deep inside we both know I have to do this alone To know you are there is enough And it has given me strength To go alone on this journey

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Love Is Overrated
Love is overrated In the end its only your feelings that will be obliterated My feelings are left stranded at the door Yet Im still left wanting more I cant get it into my head That what we had began and ended in your bed Youre turning me into a whore Because our love is becoming a chore I might well be poor It was your love that I needed to make me rich Go ahead, keep cursing my name We both know that wont make me your bitch Sleeping around is how you got your fame But somehow I got it into my head that your soul I would be able to tame Im working day and night To reach a new height Each day the bar is raised All Im asking for is some praise I need a wish, Im on my knees ready to prey Hoping that tomorrow will be my day

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Meaningless
It never crossed my mind That I could be unwanted by so many That what I feel could be so meaningless If I said what was in my head Then you would care even less I didnt realize this was such a big mess Now I dont feel afraid of any of this I know Im different and you dont like it But if you want to know me, youll have to understand me Im never going to change And because of that no words will be exchanged Everything will stay the same Except I now know who I am inside Whether thats who I am, or the one I show Im just trying to let you know

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Meant To Be
Every time I hear you voice I know I made the right choice Writing my fist name with your last making me youre Mrs Every day I cant wait for one of your kisses You light up my life when things get dark Our fingers intertwined strolling around the park If the day turns to night, Ill love you by candlelight When our eyes met I knew my heart was sold Together were going to make a teen love story with a happy ending Because when Im with you my heart doesnt need mending Whoever said dreams dont come true Hasnt seen me when Im with you

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My Baby
Please dont go away I cant let our love go astray I dont want to watch you walk away Every time I look at you I know that youll always be mine I need you more each day And for this Ill pray For you to stay How can I show you that you live inside my mind? Our hearts remain intertwined Walking together hand in hand No need for anyone to misunderstand This is our love for each other Every time you glance at me you make my heart soar A feeling like never before I want you to be with me forever Going on a journey to wherever Doing whatsoever I just want you to be next to me Side by side forever is where we should be

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My Best Friend and Love, My Angel From Above

From the moment I looked into your eyes I was greeted by loves surprise Never thought I would be here in your arms Guarded from all harm Please dont push me away Because with you my heart will always stay I believe in you Have faith in all you do No doubt that to me youll be true I dont want to spent a minute apart Because our love is like a work of art My best friend and love My angel from above

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My Heart Instantly Knew

To have you is a blessing And now to the feelings in my heart you have me confessing Never thought I would find someone like you But once I did my heart instantly knew Youre the one to be by my side for life I dream to be made your wife With you I have a bond so strong Everyone can see were meant to belong When were apart I cant help but miss you And all the little things you do Your hugs, your kiss Theyre impossible not to miss

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My Hero
Shes the one who created me today The one who has influenced me in everyway Offering me so much in so many ways Without expecting anything in return The one I look up to each and everyday The one I see shinning back at me My star in the night sky My hero by my side Each day we understand each other even more Learning something new each day Our bond so strong Nothing will break the love we share No one can compare For what you have done for me is indescribable Youll always be my hero No matter what you do

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My Life Is My Book
Thank you for the broken heart Youve left scars in my memories Never knew that we would ever be apart Too many other girls have written about you in their diaries But Ill never forget about you and me And what we have been Its time to move on Im going to turn off our song Stop looking at the pictures we took My life is my book Ill turn the page And Ill grace my stage, With a smile It may have taken me a while But Im getting over you And what you used to make me heart do

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My Rose
Unfolding like the petals of a rose Your smile spreads across your face Everyday Im greeted by your grace And it sends me to a brand new place Never thought that this would be me Safe within your arms Taken by your charm Delicate is your love And its laid out in front of me

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My Shadows
Hidden from view Dismissed from your thoughts Capable of living on my own Fought through most of it The rest I will go alone Living in the shadows Maybe I dont belong anywhere Ill take another lie But all I can see is what is beneath the words Unable to be the one you trust I thought everything was fine But now I see I was just taking another lie Every word loses the true meaning Just disappear into the shadows Away from this cloud of confusion

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My Star In The Sky

The night sky is so bright Alive with the dancing stars that give us light Each a loved one gone Making sure we stay strong Each day goes by And not another tear will cry As each person has a star in the sky

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My World In You
Youve knocked me off of my feet Youve turned my world upside down You drive me crazy all the time But to me youll always be perfect Never thought that this would happen Saying you are the one Falling in love Hoping you are there through it all Because now you are my world Laying beneath the stars Listening to your heart beating Not saying a word The silence says it all There is something about the way you smile That lights up the whole world There is nothing that I could do without you There is something about your eyes, That makes me fall every time

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Never But Forever Always

Our love has always been like The final call in the terminal The end has always been there But weve been too scared to leave Our love means we will always be Best friends but never anything more We have history, But well never have a future We are never going to change Never but forever always

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Never Going To Change

Im sorry Ive got to let you know I guess I still need you Long for your arms around me in the dark But its time to let you go I long for all the things you used to do Like watching the sunset in the park Baby I want you to know that its you I love And you the only one I think of Late at night If only those times we didnt fight Then we would still be together Lasting forever My feelings never changed Ever since that first look we exchanged We may have gone our separate ways But its in your heart my love will all ways stay

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New Directions
I know things wont change So I guess for now it's good bye One day well meet again Please dont blame yourself Especially as this is something I have to do For some this may seem an easy option But for me I cant believe that its come to this Ill say good bye for now As I dont want to walk away forever One day youll understand Our love isnt ending Its just taking a new direction Now well be strong, moving on Lets just go on in our different directions

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No Doubt
Every time I hear your voice My heart stops without a choice The butterflies in my stomach are set free All the happens just by you speaking to me When youre near I know there is no need to fear Youre by my side day and night In you I can confide, we have no need to fight Because you are my guiding light My partner in life No doubt one day well become husband and wife

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No Trust No Love No Angel From Above

Your side of the bed is empty And so is the part of my heart that you once lived in My eyes are so dry There are no more tears left to cry Memories of you everywhere I turn The pictures of you I just want to burn Your love I would once yearn But not after I found out about you and her No trust, no love No angel from above

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Not An Imitation
How do you tell the one you love Youre in love with another Who promises the world Not just material things like diamonds and pearls A man who treats me like a princess He doesnt listen to my past as if its something I should confess Promising to help me succeed my dreams And test life to its extremes A complete gentleman One who will pay for meals and hold open doors Who will carry you shopping from the store The only person you want to catch you when you fall The first to be in your missed calls A real man Not an imitation of one

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Not Ready To Leave

Staring at my beating heart Im not ready to leave Not yet Sharp and so powerful Plunging deep Im not ready to leave Not yet You were just a stranger Eyes filled with danger So forceful, youll never be remorseful Im not ready to leave Not yet Maybe this is my end A kitchen utensil Taken all chance For a happy ending I wasnt ready to leave But I guess Ill have to be

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Not Ready Yet

Walking around Staring at the ground People passing by Not ready for another good bye Stay a while longer Maybe we will become stronger Just like Romeo and Juliet We have a love no one will forget Lets make this last We cant let another moment pass

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Not Where I Want To Be

The days come and go Its time to get away Im out of time Its never going to be my day Stuck in the traffic jam of life Standing still not making it to where I want to be Someones standing on the brakes Its time to move Dont want my life to be put in reverse I cant come back stronger Because Im not where I want to be

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Nothing But Perfection

Lets make a decision A fatal incision Love or hate, Whatever it must be fate Come in closer Im not a poser I want the best, Wont settle for anything less Love me or hate me Im all that you can see, And everything I want to be Nothing but perfection, Gods own selection You might be standing tall But whos going to be there when you fall?

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One Thing I Would Do

Theres a light above me Guiding me back home Back to those I can turn to Especially as I cant last a day without you With my last breath there is only one thing I would do Say I love you Please be there waiting And never be contemplating Im coming home now I hope Im doing you proud

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One Way Friendship

Together we said we would be friends forever Stick by each other everyday Every private joke Ill remember forever One argument things change But I remain by your side I know what you mean when you say Things will be awkward Slowly things go back to the old ways Another day, another joke So much trust between you and I Another argument things are different I thought Id find you by my side And help me solve this riddle of problems Lost without my friend forever Everything we said, lost in our friendship untold One lost joke, though it doesnt seem as funny without you Maybe one day we will be friends forever again But for now...

Your secrets safe with me

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Only Ready
Your voice runs through my head Your touch lingers on my skin Youre standing in front of me, Eyes locked, body frozen The sound of our hearts beating, Echoing from the walls Im only ready to fall If youre going to be there through it all

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Our Heroes
Fighting for you and me So we can be what we want to be Giving their lives Spend a minute thinking about those who didnt survive The wives left behind See them come home Give them some respect What more could we expect They give everything for us Not doing it for some kind of buzz Lives are lost For such a big cost You shouldnt have anything to hide They are our pride Give a thought to all the families Forget all the controversies Theyre our heroes Lets support them in what they need to do Remember its for me and you

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Our Illustration
A camera can only ever Illustrate the memories that you hold in your head But together we can relive Every little illustration that you hold in your hands We can dance, under the stars We can eat, together a picnic We can watch that same film in each others eyes We can talk, about everything under the sun A person can only ever, make a memory But together we can make that memory last forever

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Plain for Anyone to See

Were meant to be together So give me the chance Ill be by your side forever Be one hundred percent faithful Give you gifts and buy you things Ill treat you right Be by your side, no reason for us to fight Never do you wrong Because in my heart you belong Ill never leave you for anyone else Wont let anyone come in between You and me Because were meant to be Its plain for anyone to see Call me when you get lonely Because I want to be your one and only

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Precious
You body so precious Your mind so priceless Your soul floating lifeless The result of so many harmful words Making your soul float away like a flock of flying birds I wish you could see That what is happening to you just isnt the way it should be Each time you forgive and forget Theyll never live with regret You are worth so much more The pain worse than before One day youll open your eyes And the haze will rise Let the truth be told About the life that used to be controlled Your feelings no longer need to be hidden The pain you once felt will never be forgiven

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Promises Mean Nothing Anymore

Do you know the feeling I have inside when you say my name? Yet you still play with my heart like its a piece in your game Love can nearly always turn into hate Passion that dies, I guess thats just fate You might not be by my side But I cant hide the feelings in my heart You can walk away But these feelings will stay I know youve played around Yes you let me down But no I cant let you go I still love you and that youve got to know Im sure we can work this out All we got to do is talk this out Just between us two I know you want her, just remember all that weve been through Will she stand by your side like I have? Will she play around like you have? Remember I said Id stay Even after the first time Gave you the benefit of the doubt Believed every word Forgot everything that Id heard So much for love Being your princess and your angel from above Didnt you say that to her And on my life you swore That the first time would be the last time I know youve taken me for a mug But Im hooked on you like some kind of drug Every time I decide to walk away I turn right around and agree to stay Promises mean nothing Its time to prove to me something If this is love or hate I need to know our fate

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Separate Ways
I know Ive got to do this But boy your love Im going to miss We cant work it out anymore Because my heart is shattered in pieces on the floor We agreed to take it slow That way our love would be guaranteed to grow We couldnt be more wrong Proved in your heart wasnt where I belong You couldnt even remember the name of our song Dont tell me to calm down Im not even asking you to stick around Didnt think in our home it would rain Filled with screaming, heartache and pain While I let my heart and brain make a mends We cant even stay friends Its time to go our separate ways

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Setting The Scene

Laying on the round Looking so peaceful The scene around you devastating Flashing lights, sirens, blood Everything is done for a reason What reason is good enough for this? Would you want to live again? If there was an end like this Would you be the victim? Living in a new space Id be happy to take your place Will you be happy now you lay so still?

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She Says She Loves Him

She says she loves him But everyone can see its just a whim She thinks it comes from her heart But in reality they should be apart He cant see through the lies in her eyes And comforts every tear she cries Their hearts are like an out of time collaboration Its only going to end in devastation A love without any sign of hope I wonder if his heart will cope...

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Sleep Tight
Each number has a name And each name has a number Imagine being lost in a crowd Never to be found Just a number with a name A name lost in this world Fighting for you and I For us to have a piece of mind I hope you sleep well tonight Knowing a number with a name Died for you tonight

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Small Steps
Music plays in my head like a movie Youre the soundtrack to my life Its never going to be easy But youve always been around to save me Now youve caught me just before I fall You hand grips mine Taking small steps Dont know who Id be without you Your face decorates my dreams Your hand guides me down the street My heart wont beat without you I cant take a breath without you Take a step back, See who youve made me Take a step beside me, See now your guiding me Take a step in front, See your going now

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Someday Soon
Today maybe a new day But there will always be The problems on the outside The people who cant see who you really are The ones who want you to be different You always say, make the best of what you have But how can you when, You know someone will die You know someone will be unhappy You know everything is out of your hands I know tomorrow is coming And theres nothing you can do No one will start a new For some it will end But for someone somewhere it will be a good day For you it could be today, tomorrow or someday soon

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Something To Remember
Some people call you crazy, I call you mine Together well last till the end of time Written like a fairytale, our love is meant to last Forget about the past, look into the future Together well make it something to remember A moment together will last forever Saying those three words to each other And knowing well never part Always treasured in my heart Written in the stars Is our future in each other Guiding us down our path together Finger interlocked Hearts intertwined Just like those two star crossed lovers

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Sorry For Breaking It To You This Way

I never asked to fall in love Id already given up Dont need an angel from above Im all out of luck Im not willing to try It will only be a waste of time Sorry if its not what you what you want to hear But I just dont want you near Im sorry for breaking it to you in this way But there wasnt anything else for me to say Theres not much either of us could do I just dont love you

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Spiralling Love
Love, hate, passion and fate One minute youre walking tall The next youre falling beyond all control If it wasnt for the glint in your eyes That shot me to the skies My heart wouldnt be breaking And this smile I wouldnt be faking I just wish I was the one on your mind at night And during the day we didnt fight Saying things we didnt mean Believing what everyone else has seen I know Ive had my chance But really you shouldnt have shot me that glance Do you know the feelings I have inside when you say my name? How can you play with my heart like its a game? Boy do you have no shame Following my every step With love you dont have time to prep

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Stay By My Side
Youve opened my mind To what the future could hold Fingers intertwined Hearts beat in time Youre like the puzzle piece Ive been trying to find Your love feels electric Pulsing through my veins Im ready to fly With you by my side Gliding through everything Happy or sad Good or bad Together is how were meant to be I like the way you say my name, The way you never want to bring me pain And those days we kiss in the rain The small things like the smile you try to hide And all the secrets you confide Ill wish tonight That youll stay by my side

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Take Every Chance

No second chances Refuse to give you any second glances You walked out on us And left me behind Another door has closed in my face But I just stand up once again And face the world with a smile Because I know I can do better Than what you gave me Find another who loves me for who I am Every day is a fight But for once Ive seen the light And I know that this life is my fight To prove myself To me and no one else Push my mind, body and soul to its limits So that I know Ive done all I can Dont want to blink In case I miss anything Only got one chance at this life No need to keep believing the lies Just got to realise the love is in my eyes For this world Take every chance Dont let it slip passed

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The Best Is Yet To Come

A part of you is a part of me And will always be But now were through Well walk our separate ways It may take days But in time youll see The best is yet to come I hope you understand All is said and done Walk with your held high Because both of us know How hard it is to say goodbye With all the memories And special places In one of those new faces You will find love Another heart to treasure

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The Feeling Inside

Your hand in mine For all of time Please guide me through As I never want to be without you Youre the breath in my body Youre the beat in my heart Ive been waiting for this feeling That Im slowly revealing I need to hold you A need thats become overdue Youve opened my eyes To the feelings I have inside

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The Lasting Memory

Things will change People will move on Memories forgotten The only thing that will stick in my mind Is the way you stick by my side True friends forever The one memory treasured in my head Kept safe forever

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The Minority
People stop and stare Theyre the ones who need a sign saying beware When they know your name Theyll start following your game Your names in lights Soon people are in your face This is when you need some headspace Theyll start stabbing you in the back Their words on the attack All Im trying to say is Keep your head Watch your back Focus on the track, Laid out in front of you Forget about the small few They are the minority

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The Performance
Speakers make the sound loud Performer onstage proud Doing their thing To hear the crowd sing So many lights make the temperature sore Now the audience wants more Whats this you hear? Could this be an encore?

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The Silent Suffering

A tear running down your face You explain your pain Day after day youve suffered Every hour youve never said a word Your voice unheard Now you have the confidence That you once lost Separated from the world you once belonged to All you need is a sense of security

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The Step I Have To Take

How many chances before you call it a day? How many lies have I got to hear before I get my say? Im hearing so much nonsense Boy dont you have a conscience Cant you see what youre doing to me? A romantic gesture, on bended knee That isnt going to help you now I cant even scream about that other cow Youve reduced me to petty name calling I wish Id known when you had me falling That I wouldnt be your only The last to call when you got lonely I wont be running back I refuse to let the tears leave tracks Im turning my back on you And everything you say you will do Your words mean nothing Im just going to concentrate on living This is the step I have to take Even if it means my heart will break

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The Truth
You want things to be right We talk all night But deep inside I know we cant hide The truth that we want to deny Like two pieces of a puzzle that just wont fit No matter how hard we try We just cant lie It always ends the same way What we think is right They know is wrong We cant hide the fact we want to deny

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Them And Me
Tell me what you think of me I know the truth must be bad Especially now, after all that was said You say to me that youll never forget But when youre with them its already forgotten You tell me, honestly But you tell them truthfully It could have stayed like this But I broke the pattern I knew I couldnt compete With these, Ill remember our honest memory You remember your truthful memory At least with us it wasnt just one way

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This Is You
You want to be that person The leader of the group The one everyone looks up to Somehow it doesnt feel right Being someone else Not being yourself You become the one you trust The one you know best The one you know inside out Today it feels right Being yourself The one you look up to Suddenly you find out Who your friends are The people you can trust The ones you can rely on Somehow you know... It was always meant to be

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This Should Be The End

Save me from falling I dont want my heart to be calling, After you Remember the times you cried Accusing me of things, saying I had lied But it wasnt me, was it This should be the end of us shouldnt it? Cursing my name But its you with the unfaithful fame Dont be throwing accusations Especially when weve had too many confrontations Im ready to leave Because I just cant believe That you have strayed While my heart has stayed Dont take me for a mug As on our love I have pulled the plug

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Time To Come Clean

The situations getting old People are talking, things are being told I know I should have walked away But it was my heart that strayed Played games with my mind It was only his love that I could find Youd decided to head on home But it was to another Id decided to roam One more dance Captivated by his glance I know Ive got to come clean Especially as so many have seen Him and me This situation isnt right I cant take it, I dont want to fight But I guess then thats just fate When love turns to hate

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Too Good To Be True

When everything goes wrong Youre always the outsider The one no one believes Maybe I should have realized The friendship we had was, Too good to be true When they all come running Ill always remember When I became the outsider The time I should have realized The friendship we had was, Too good to be true. Now I know Never forgotten The outsider I will always be I have realized The friendship we had was Too good to be true

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Unfaithful Lies And Crazy Accusations

Well be sat at the dinner table Trying to hold a conversation But the foundations of this love are unstable Unfaithful lies and crazy accusations are the foundations Wont be long until the first plate smashes to the floor And Im heading to the door The tears on your face cant bring me back Cant change it, no thats a fact So many times weve tried to have this talk But Ive had enough and Im going to walk

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Until You Make It

I might not be who you want me to be But Im telling you now Ill be making it back somehow Ive been making the headlines But only because life has no streets signs To point me in the right direction I have no angel to offer me protection So I have to carve my own pathway Ready for when its my day Dont be forgetting it Or youll be regretting it The day you make your name Is the day when your life wont be the same So take your time And treasure every dime Dont use it Or youll abuse it The faith that you have will never fade Until the day that your made

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Were Becoming To Be
I know Im not perfect But I do my best to get as close as I can You say I dont need to change I see the doubt of you own words in your eyes Our relationship used to be fine I knew one hundred percent you were mine But lately people made me question how we feel And if our love is real To them we cant be Anything more than average But I thought we were perfect And nothing less It was only you I wanted to impress People started talking Then my mind started walking Going round and round Thinking about All the little things you said The looks you give the other girls The distance youre putting between you and me Maybe its just me Or what theyre saying were becoming to be Tell me theyre wrong And its in my heart you belong Say things will always be perfect Between you and me Say theres no need to question it Because our hearts are a perfect fit It all I want to hear from your lips A comfortable silence A little reassurance from you Once in a while

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What I Need
So many things that I want Top of the list is a knight and his steed Second is true love Followed by an angel sent from above True love and protection What I need is your affection But there are some things that Im dreaming about, if only You were the one to hold me when Im lonely Then I wouldnt have to be dreaming anymore

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What We Are
Teenagers, prejudice Louts and layabouts Hoodys, scum Times have changed Communities rearranged Knives carried for pride Cars taken for a joy ride You only see the bad All the things that make us mad You want us to change But we cant Its how you make us today We need opportunities Some sense of responsibilities We are the youth of today But we cant repay to the communities Youve taken everything away Then leave us with the blame Give us a break, You get me?

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When Love is Hard

Love is hard And sometimes you wish you were dealt another card At one time so strong Never did you think this could be a place you would never belong A future being built together A love at one time you thought would last forever Other times you think you couldnt be luckier But when I see you I wish I was a little pluckier You never let my dreams fade A life that everyone else would think is made But yet Im still filled with doubt With my unclear expression you wonder what this is about If only I could explain But this lie Im living isnt simple and plain

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When The Stars Fall From The Sky

We promised to be together Until the stars fall from the sky By my side forever Till the day you die The promise you broke when you strayed Never would have I experienced such pain To god I have prayed That in my heart it wont ever rain Night after night I lay awake and cry On the phone I hear you apologise Theres not a way for you to make it right I just want to walk away into the night

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When You Left

One day you was here Sharing your stories I can remember every word so clear You had so much still to give I wish you was still here One day you was gone Unable to return Where ever you are I know you will belong I wish it wasnt your turn Now I will have to be strong When you left us We had to learn to cope But we will never forget the braveness you showed When this happened we lost all hope After all you went through you glowed Now I look up and realize That you are looking down on me And on everyone that you reached Your time here was special To everyone in so many different ways

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When You See A Star

When a star shines bright You know thats your guiding light To fill you with hope and happiness And days when your dreams are ready to progress When you see a shooting star Dont wish for material things like a super car Just wish to live everyday as if its your last That way you know your life will be a blast

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Whos love?
I thought our love was strong I thought your arms was where I belong Until you spoke those words to her I thought it was my love youd prefer I guess know its time for you to choose Whose love it is youd prefer to lose

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Why
The hardest words to hear Unable to take them in Wishing there was something you could do Trying to hide all emotion Pushing away those who really care Trying to understand why Why does this have to happen now? Why is it you that has to be the one Everything was going so right The world is turned upside down Nothing seems to have a bright light All I want is for the world to stop Just for a day So we can find a reason A reason why.

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Wishing On A Star
If I could have just one wish I wouldnt ask for money I wouldnt ask for the latest label I wouldnt ask for a fast car I wouldnt ask for an exotic holiday If I could have just one wish I would ask for one day with you I would ask for your love I would ask to know how you really feel I would ask to not have to let you go

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Without The Knife

You want to own me But I just want to be All that I can be A friend that you can rely on The star that you can wish upon Ill never doubt it Just live the life Dont carry a knife Dont use it Or youll abuse it The trust thats been handed to you Time to start a new Follow the road a head Look into the future instead Of living with regret Its time to forget all of the upset Just live the life Without the knife

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Without You I Have No Wings

Well learn to fly Im an eagle But without you I have no wings As time passes us by We start to soar A love filling the two of us Going on a journey Seeing so much Blessed to be able to feel your touch

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Wont Bring You Back

Falling so hard to the ground Its a wonder your soul can still be found Gliding to the sky Your angel wings take you so high I have a wish, only one request Its probably not for the best But its my only request, my only hope The only way for me to be able to cope All I need is to be able to see your face again Your whole life has disappeared down the drain All because of someones terrible crime They might be behind bars doing time But that wont bring you back

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Words For A Mother

Everything that I am Everything that I will be Everything that I have been I because of a mothers love deep within Teaching me everything Telling me to make the most of what I have A mother, daughter bond, So strong An unbreakable love A guiding angel sent from the skies above If ever Im down You always find a way to make me smile Never have you let me down So many memories to make me smile every once in a while Never would there be a way To thank you for what you have done for me So these few words are a way to soy, A thank you for the love you have given me, The things you have taught me, And the mother you are to me

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Words For You

You are the one I run to Even after all weve been through So this is for you I know its only a few words But if you could see That everything you have done for me Has helped me become who I am today Then maybe one day Ill be able to repay All the strength you have given me

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Words On The Paper

Staring into space Thoughts clicking into place Words falling onto the paper Just like painting a picture Another worded mixture Creating a master piece The page is quite full The story quite full But still quite meaningful

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Worry
The tear running down your face Followed by another and another Lost without a trace Could there still be a chance of return? Your silence is like a cruel beating The worry I feel is indescribable One day I hope you will realize And that you will understand the pain I feel The blood running down your hand Drip after drip This isnt the escape you wanted But somehow it is making things clearer Hiding your fear A new person standing before me Why cant it be simple? Why is it this way? Why cant I help?

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You Can Hate Me Now

Maybe you dont miss me But do you miss our friendship Would you miss me if I wasnt around for you to hate Maybe that will be easier on both of us At least then we wouldnt have to fake what we dont have And the feeling that used to be there But seems to have disappeared along the way But this feeling isnt right Thats why for now I wont be around for you to hate

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Youll Never Be Alone

I want to let you in There are so many stories to share Although I dont know where to begin To our love, no one can compare Your smile lights up the darkest of my days And for this Ill repay All the care and love you have shown me Is more than I can be To have you by my side Between us theres nothing you can hide To know its in you I can confide Youve got to understand That its this I need you to know Youve got my promise That youll never be alone

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Your Reflection
Take a bow and look around See whats staring back at you A haze of lies and dishonesty Turn around and look in the mirror See the reflection This isnt who you see Look me in the eyes and say why I thought you could tell me everything Why lie to me like this Maybe you saw the bliss And knew what you would miss Is everything really worth all of this?

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Your Rosette
I wish everyone could see What you have done for me You pick me up when Im down I know when your around Ill never frown The problems we share Just because you care No one could believe If you ever leave Theres something I know you should get A special gold rosette For everything that youve done Has made me what I have become I know Ill never forget Everything that you have been I wish everyone had seen

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Youre My Night
As day turns to night The stars hold the promise youll hold me tight Your breath on my neck gentle as the breeze of the night Never could our love result in a full blown fight The night is calm Thats how I know in your arms Im safe from all harm As I close my eyes to dream Im reminded of your love for me The night is turning to day Yet I still wish it would stay Your lips greet my neck without regret If I was glad of anything its that we met

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