They always feel compelled to conspire against me, and I have found over the years that it really

doesn't make any discernible difference if I attempt to thwart this conspiracy. I may enjoy the notion of pretending that this malignant ploay is somehow a trifling phantom of my imagination, but I am afraid the reality is far too sinister to abruptly conclude this. I may enjoy beguiling myself into a delusional fantasy of deception; however this is neither prudent nor appropriate. I do not believe I have any further capacity to believe their blatantly sadistic lies. They always tell me how "important" I supposedly am in their "world," and yet I find this means absolutely nothing to them. For some bizarre reason they seem intent on discrediting and invalidating the legitimacy of my world or my vision because it somehow amuses them. I fail to see why I should bother to care anymore about anything they try to fucking do to me. After a while it just gets so old and retarded. I find myself wondering why should I even care? No one does anything to psychologically bolster my perception of reality or of myself. All they do is reinforce their own illogically misguided "views" of whatever perception they find self-validating. They seem inherently obligated to automatically deduce that I am determined to assert myself selfishly and conceitedly. I do not quite understand why but the idea of belittingly and debasing me seems to be their utmost priority. Of course they cannot entirely suppress me without the superficial facade of appearing as if they "sympathize" with my endeavor. It would be too artificial to feign displeasure when this would only serve to reveal their vast treachery and subversion. I do believe they find my very existence to be threatening and unsettling. I suppose I can obliquely theorize as to why, if I were to momentarily entertain the subject. In most circumstances I do not find it particularly engaging to contemplate "why" it is others find themselves at such a remarkable disadvantage relative to myself. I am aware how they feel inadequate to whatever abilities they feel I possess whereas they do not. Personally I find no reason to care at all. It is not my problem if they are inept and deficient. They are confined to a monotonous and circular prison of slavery because they lack the intellectual and cognitive capacity for anything real or substantial. I do not believe I ever have had any genuine "sympathy" for their "cause" (if one could even argue that they had one). Why is it they feel that their "rules" can apply to me? They have always felt it necessary to play the reductionist argument against me in a malicious manner. Their warped "reasoning" roughly goes as follows: you are a human organism, we are human organisms; we are ordered to slave for our goods and services, so therefore you are ordered to slave for your goods and services. They seem strongly opposed to the principle that an individual should receive his or her goods and/or sevices through merit rather than compulsory servitude. It seems they have never heard or are unfamiliar with the term meritocracy. Instead it appears as though I live in a realm which favors a technocratic oligarchical dictatorship. I have nothing against technology per se. In fact I view technology as the only true liberating force of this planet. The problem has nothing to do with industrial mechanisms or computer processing systems. The problem has to do with people. Now that I think of this more clearly I sincerely believe I have never liked one person ever in my entire life.

I suppose one might refer to me as misanthropic and solipsistic. I am not entirely a solipsist, and with regard to misanthropism I should mention a few qualifications. That is, I do believe in the concrete reality of the external physical world. I am an empiricist after all. However I do believe there is such a thing as a "virtual reality" which the mind subjectively and subconsciously constructs for the purposes of interpretation and analysis of the largely "unknown" physical dimension. Secondly, I do not regard human beings as a wholely positive or unique species. In other words human beings have caused a significant amount of harm to both the outer environment and themselves in the name of "technical progress" over the centuries. Therefore it is improper for me to assume as if they have any redeeming virtues. Also, human beings may wish to reside in the delusion of considering themselves a "singular invention" but in truth they are nothing of the sort. The human species is nothing particularly non-trivial. It is not some miraculous invention of a divine order. It is nothing but another permutation of a rather predictable series of evolutionary stages.